A Simple, yet Powerful Spell.
Author's Note
I was feeling a little down today. I just wanted to shake these feelings. I know it not much but, it made me feel better to write it. I hope it does the same for some of you.
A Simple, yet Powerful Spell.
You couldn't stop the tears. They just kept flowing down your cheeks. You sobbed into your arms hoping that something would finally end all of this for you. Everything was hollow. Every attempt at making yourself feel better always ended the same. You weren't good at talking to others, and you didn't have many friends, to begin with.
Some person or pony to be with. Sharing your life with them or maybe a group of friends that was always there. You never felt the deep connections others seem to form easily. It wasn’t that you didn’t try. You really did but, it never felt the same. You always just numb only ever feeling small jolts of joy. You tried to cling to those jolts but, they always seemed to fade quickly. You felt like your heart was breaking every time those jolts faded into the void. You wanted this to end but, you were coward. Maybe that was good thing.
Through the haze of your tears the purple mare walked up to you. You barely peek out from cover of your arms. The expression on face held worry. You tried to wipe the tears away, trying to suck it up because that what men do. You just ended up letting more out. Everything hurt…you wanted it to end. You didn’t want her seeing you like this.
Through the haze of your tears, the purple mare walked up to you. You barely peek out from the cover of your arms. The expression on her face held worry. You tried to wipe the tears away, trying to suck it up because that's what men did. You always just ended up letting more out. Everything hurt…you wanted it to end. You didn't want her seeing you like this.
“Hey…are you ok?” She asked softly, her hoof reaching up stroking your arm. You look down towards the ground just holding onto your knees. You didn’t know what to say to her. You were lonely, you were always like this. You just put on a brave face for everyone. It always ended up crumbling away. You just ended up putting a new one on.
Talking to others meant understanding the problem. You didn't know what was truly wrong with you. You just wanted your spark back. The spark that let you smile with your friends. The spark that made some kind of warmth in your life. You were trying to love yourself. Trying to fix the wounds in your heart but, you kept bleeding through the bandages.
She walked up beside, taking her seat next to you. “You don’t have to talk about it. Just know I am here.” She said leaning her head against your shoulder. You sat there for a moment looking over at her. Your form crumbled letting your legs stretch out as you stared up at the ceiling. The tears staining your cheeks.
She looked over at you, she then realized what you needed. She climbs into your lap sitting on it. You looked down at her with another whimper coming forth as you stared at this tiny pastel pony in your lap. She just leans against your chest pushing her cheek against it. A soft nuzzle against your body. The warmth of her body soaked through your cloth soon filling your body. You broke down wrapping your arms around her instantly letting out a weak sobbing noise. She nuzzled into the crook of your neck.
You felt the soft fur touch your skin. You could feel the warmth soaking deep now. You looked down at her. She pulled back looking up at you. She offered no other questions only a soft nuzzle of her nose against yours. You didn't want to cry at that moment but, you did. She leans back against your chest as you kept this position for a well.
You didn't know how much time had passed but, you didn't want to give up the warmth. The scent of her mane calmed you down. The tears had finally stopped. She was content with laying against you. You finally worked up the courage to speak.
“I…I am…sor-.” You were cut off by hoof pushed against your lips.
“Ssh. Everyone has these days. Even if you many days like this. I am here for you. It doesn’t matter how long it takes. Just keep trying for me. That all I ask. Even if you don’t make much progress. Even if you feel like everything is still crashing down around you. I will be here. I love you.” She said nuzzling her nose against your again.
"But, you have so much to do and this isn't your problem." You uttered out looking to the side.
She softly touches your chin pushing your head back. Another warm smile hits against you. "You're my friend. I want to help how I can. If this is what you need. This I can do for you." She said happily.
Her horn began to glow faintly with magical aura as she floated over a soft blanket. She coiled it around both of you. She then floated over a small book and held it the air. She turned back you. "Do you want to read it with me?" She asked softly.
You nodded your head yes, nuzzling into her tiny body putting your head against her shoulder as you simply listen to her read aloud. You drifted in and out maybe it was the emotions or just finally feeling that warmth. You start to think to yourself.
"Maybe this is all I need. Maybe this…isn't so bad."
I just wanted to post this even if it didn't make sense or it was just me posting my feelings. I was feeling really down today. I was talking to internet friends and trying to make myself feel better. So I just started to write. I just thought of what would make me feel better. I guess I wanted to say this never underestimate the power of simply gesture. A hug or cuddle can make some whole world flip right side up. Sorry for the feels everyone.
