Inner Emptiness

He had awoken in a place he knew well. He had slept here all night. He cursed under his breath. "Damn her. Why did she have to be like that?!" He kicked the wall with a thud that reverberated through the halls of the library. He didn’t have the heart to go home anymore. Too many things to remind him of Her. Of what she had done. This betrayal will fade with time. He thought. After everything he had done to make their relationship a reality, he could not face what she had done. Everything had been a lie. Every word from her silver tongue. Every one of her lies he tried so desperately to believe. All he needed was something to hold onto. Anything to hold onto. But there was nothing left. The truth always finds a way out. Every lie will crumble eventually.

He was unsure what to trust anymore. Everything he had built his life around, the fortress with high walls of steel around his mind and heart had been built atop quicksand that had appeared as concrete. She was the firm foundation that he built his happiness around. Pleasing her was all he had ever wanted to do. Why had things gone so wrong?

It’s not that he didn't try to get out more and try again. It was more that he realized the futility in such actions because they have always ended the same way and gave him more PTSD than anything else.

He had been walking in thought, he bumped into something… more specifically someone. He recognized her: Sunset Shimmer. He felt something invade his mind and watched her expressions change from shock to confusion to fear. It did not take a genius to know that it was probably here presence he was feeling. Though he was not totally sure how this was possible. All he knew was he had to get out of here. This would get awkward if she were allowed to ask questions. No one needed to worry about him. He was nothing to anyone. Even those who promised to stay by his side were nowhere to be found. Anyone he ever talked to just told him what they thought he wanted to hear.

So, he ran off. Anywhere to put distance between him and the potentially unending barrage of questions from her and the others. No doubt, if he was caught by one of them, the rest would soon follow. He had had enough torment for one day.

He put the hood of his hoodie on and disappeared into the crowd of people. Hoping to make a clean getaway.

He knew that he was no longer safe around town. They would surely be looking for him. He knew they needed another body to parade around town like they had done with Sunset for oh so long after her supposed reformation after the Fall Formal. But, anyone could see, that at least back then, they were not really her friends. They just liked the confidence boost that their power over her provided. But lately, they had seemed to make their relationships more real. So, maybe he had been reading all of this wrong and should at least talk to Sunset. Surely she would be able to understand his predicament with friendship and whatever else he had been feeling recently. He had never been good with explaining his feelings, but he knew he needed help. The one thing that no one teaches you in school id how to seek help in non-academic subjects. Normally, you would ask your friends; and he would if he had any left. They had all abandoned him. No one else seemed to care. But maybe she would be worth giving a chance.

He decided to write a letter to Sunset and leave it in her locker. Just a short letter and leave it unsigned telling her to come alone to meet him after school. He just prayed she would actually be alone. He knew her friends would be curious though, so he expected them to come regardless.