Derpy's Dive

by Flutterspy911

Rating: teen
Tags: Derpy Hooves, Pinkie Pie, Sex, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Sad, Romance
Length: 10092

Derpy decides she can no longer bare this world and attempts to take her life

Derpy attempts suicide, and she is found by Pinkie Pie, who secretly loves her.

Published 2011-12-14 21:55:51 UTC
Last updated 2012-01-28 09:12:25 UTC

The Dive

Derpy hooves sat on a cloud, tears in her eyes, thinking about everything that had gotten her here. She didn't quite know how she felt about all of this. It was a relief, no, it was upsetting, no she didn't want to do it, NO, she has to do it. All this time, everypony had thought she was perfectly happy, perfectly content with her life, enjoying the small things, like breaking twigs and her job, delivering mail. She knew all of this, how great everything seemed, but that one stallion, earlier today, had sent her over the edge.

Derpy walked up to his house to deliver a package, she remembered how heavy it was and that her boss said she didn't have to deliver it. She decided to take it on anyway, because it was a good day in Ponyville and worth the mild inconvenience (also because she is genuinely a good pony). What she heard when she walked up to the door was not what she was expecting.

“I am NOT the father!” Shouted the mystery pony, apparently not caring who heard. “I can't possibly be, and you know that! I can believe this is even happening right now! I hate you” Derpy's ears dropped, evading the scream, and she just started to set down the package when the door suddenly swung open. “What the hell do you want?” shouted the stallion, poking his nostrils right into her face. “Get the hell out of here, nopony wants to see you. You are a worthless piece of crap and nopony cares about you! Get the hell out of here, don't ever come back, retard!”

Derpy's tears started flowing even more when she thought about that moment, trickling over her in shame. She knows she’s not a retard. She knows what she is, and why she behaves the way she does. Still, here she was, in the middle of the night, on the highest cloud she could possibly find, with her wings tied down with a rope that had been wrapped around her several times. You could tell it was something she had done herself, with it so awkwardly positioned around her midsection. She had picked a cloud that wasn't near anyone or anything; she didn't want anyone to know what happened. They wouldn’t notice if she were gone, that’s for sure. If anything, they’d be happier with out her. All her life she had been ridiculed, from the bullies in school when she was just a filly, to that stallion from earlier today, which she had seen around before and found to be quite attractive. The fact that he of all stallions, disapproved of her made the pain sting even more.
It was time.
She wasn't going to stall anymore, she closed her eyes, one last tear rolled down her cheek, and she slowly fell over the edge of the cloud.

Over the next couple days, the ponies of Ponyville were beginning to get worried. It started with Twilight Sparkle's simple question:

“Has anyone been getting the mail lately? We're expecting a new book for the library,” her inquisitive mouth asked, wondering to her self if she could ever remember a day when Derpy had been absent from her job. She greeted her every day with a “Hi, Derpy,” and a sweet smile. She had never thought of her as different from any of the other ponies, save for her admirable punctuality.

“No, oddly enough,” said Rarity, looking off into the sky in thought.

“Us neither,” replied applejack.

“How strange,” said Twilight, looking around as if she were expecting Derpy to appear out of a corner somewhere, package in hoof. “I don't think she has ever missed a day of delivering mail. What if something happened to her?” Twilight added, with a bit of fear in her voice.

“Maybe she's watching my animals,” suggested Fluttershy, knowing how much Derpy enjoyed watching the squirrels run into the chicken coop and try to take some of their grains.

“Maybe we should go look,” Twilight Sparkle decided, starting to walk towards the direction Fluttershy comes from every day when she trots into town.

They arrived at Fluttershy's house, and they didn't see a sign of Derpy. They had all figured, somewhere in their minds, that they were wrong about the animals. After all, Derpy doesn't typically mess around when she needs to be delivering mail, but it never hurts to check. Suddenly, a thought ran through all their heads, almost as if they were all linked telepathically.

“Dash, Fluttershy, you guys fly around Ponyville and see if you can find her,” Twilight commanded, with a larger amount of fear in her voice then before. “Pinkie, you go search the shrubs and trees. Rarity and I will go look through town some more.” A slight tear tried to push it's way out of Twilight's eye, just the thought of a friend being hurt made her deeply upset. They all scattered and Twilight’s voice shook as she added, “I just hope she’s all right.”

Several frantic hours later, they met up again.

“Did anyone find her?” asked Twilight Sparkle as if she were the leader of a military search team. All six of them stood silently with their heads hung low and their ears folded down. The air filled with tension. “Well, it's getting late, and none of us know where she lives. I think we need to get some rest and pick up where we left off tomorrow.” The tension resumed after Twilight spoke and they parted ways.

Pinkie Pie lay awake in her bed that night. She couldn't sleep knowing that Derpy was out there somewhere, and she knew that something bad had happened. Pinkie got out of her bed and grabbed a blanket, not exactly to keep her warm, but because she had a weird feeling, something whispering directly into her mind, that she would need it.

Pinkie stood tall with the blanket balanced on her back, right on the edge of the Everfree Forest. She didn't know what it was, but something kept pulling her attention to it. She knew it was dangerous to go inside, let alone by herself, and in the dark, but something kept forcing her to turn her head in its direction, and she finally decided to act upon the calls that she would swear she physically heard. She entered and walked slowly and carefully. Things were squawking and snorting, and it was scaring Pinkie deeply. She remembered what had gotten them through the Everfree Forest when they were searching for the elements of harmony, she just had to laugh it all off, and it would seem less scary. It didn't. She fought the urge to turn around and run with tears streaming down her face, she had to be a strong pony. As that thought crossed her mind she reached a four way intersection in the path of the forest.

“Now what?” She silently asked her self.

Pinkie had been sitting there for a good 45 minutes when she finally decided on a path, for no particular reason. It wasn't even the one she landed on while playing “Eenie-Meenie-Miny-Moe”. Nonetheless, she continued down the path. She wasn't hopping as usual, mostly because she was terrified, and hoped that she would find Derpy soon so she would be able to take her back to Ponyville.

After walking for several hours, she had still seen no sign of the pony she had been searching for. She was starting to lose hope. Her trembling body wanted so badly to get out of the forest; she had made sure she remembered every step she took so she could get out. She didn't want to be lost looking for a lost pony. She walked down another small path and starting moving slower. There was a strange feeling in her head, and it made her feel like something was watching her every move.

As she stepped on a twig and heard a very loud crack, she turned around, horrified she would be attacked, but instead, she heard a small giggle.

Derpy sat there in the bushes.
She didn't know what it was, but something was breaking twigs. She adored the sound so much she couldn't resist letting out a slight giggle when she heard it. At the time of the fall, she hadn't realized the cloud had moved from the open spread of land she was over the Everfree forest. Half way through her fall, she had realized her mistake and tried to untangle the rope so expertly tied around her, but she couldn't do it. She knew what was coming and turned away so she wouldn't see the ground getting closer, even though it was already hard enough to see because it was so dark. Suddenly she heard a loud crashing noise and felt a huge symphony of pain take over her whole body. She had hit the tree tops and she fell through them to the bushes below, where she had been alone for almost 24 hours. Silently.

“Derpy… is that you?” She heard a quivering yet familiar voice yell out.

Muffin? Derpy thought to herself. She couldn't muster up enough energy to say anything. She was afraid this was her only chance to signal whomever it was walking by. Not knowing where she was, or why there was another there, left her with only the comfort of somepony being near to her.

The voice sounded again. “Derpy, if that's you, you need to tell me some how.”

She hadn't even thought about the fact that whoever it was had been there specifically to look for her. She couldn't believe it! Somepony really did care about her well being. This made her sore eyes start to cry. She couldn't believe she attempted to take her life, now, knowing that somepony out there did care for her.

Pinkie heard the sniffling. She followed it. “I'm coming, Derpy!” she spread two bushes and found Derpy lying there with nasty cuts and rope burn all over her body. A tear came to her eye. “Derpy, you didn't” Pinkie's heavy heart sank; she couldn't believe that the happiest pony she had ever seen had even considered, let alone attempted, suicide. Pinkie Pie's eyes started to swell and she didn't hold back anymore. She was full on crying, staring into the eyes of her friend, who was crying just as much. “Derpy, I can't believe you would do this. We love you, we all love you.”
Derpy winced at that last statement. She couldn't, no, she wouldn't believe that the word “love” could be affiliated with her. Pinkie stood there silent, then gently moved towards her. She untied the ropes and threw them aside, despising their very existence. Lying down, she whispered in Derpy's ear: “It's going to be okay.” She snuggled up to the pony heard the slight wince of pain. Pinkie began licking her coat, grooming her, doing her best to clean her wounds and move all the twigs off of her. Pinkie wouldn't admit it out loud, but she genuine enjoyed the flavor of the tree sap Derpy had been covered in. She began to tear up again. “Sorry,” Pinkie mumbled, “I'm just thinking about what I would have done without you…” Derpy’s heart sank, begging to apologize with not strength to do so. “I wouldn't have ever lived a happy day in my life again.” That was it, Derpy began bawling.
Pinkie laid the blanket down over Derpy, crawled under, and cuddled up to her. She was gently rubbing her back, and they slipped into a surprisingly pleasant sleep.

Day came, and Derpy woke up. Pinkie was still sleeping against her back. Derpy turned and just stared at her lying there. The dark hadn't given the chance to get a good look at her last night, especially through tears. She recognized her clearly now as the pony that always gave her a Muffin when she went in at sugarcube corner and “asked” for a muffin. Of course, she knew all she really did was walk in and say “muffin?” Pinkie Pie had said she, no, “they” loved her. Who were they? She decided it didn't matter right now. All that mattered was this particular pony cared about her, and was lying down on the ground with her, making sure she was as comfortable as she could possibly be. Surprisingly, the ground seemed a lot softer, the air a lot warmer, her life, a lot better, when the beautiful pink pony rested her body against hers and held her through the night. She couldn't move, but wouldn't if she could, wanting to stay here with Pinkie for as long as possible. The fact that she could possibly be somehow or another paralyzed didn't even concern her when she felt Pinkie’s warmth. She leaned over and kissed Pinkie on the forehead, which in turn, woke her up. Derpy blushed. Pinkie knew what just happened, she looked at Derpy and smiled.

“Hey there, Derpy!” She said, with an over-excited tone, as if she had forgotten the night before, but she hadn't. “While we were sleeping I had a dream that I found you dead! It was terrible. You woke me up and it all went away! Thanks!” She giggled. Suddenly her tone got straight serious, and there was not a smile to be seen on her face but only the deepening of her brow. “Derpy, I don't know what I would have done if you were gone. I love seeing you every day, and I always make sure there is a hot, fresh muffin ready for you. It sent shivers down my spine when you didn't show up yesterday.”

Derpy's eyes went straight, and Pinkies jaw dropped.

“I'm sorry Pinkie Pie” She mumbled slightly, but sincerely, with a tear glistening in her eye.

Pinkie had a wide-eyed, surprised look on her face.

“Y-y-your eyes...y- you talk?!?” Pinkie said, with an almost horrified tone

“Yeah, I do.”

“B-but, why…?”

“I like to make ponies happy, I always thought, that, even if everypony was laughing at me, it was still making them happy in some sense, and that made me feel good about the pony I am”

“So why did you…?”

Derpy cut her off: “Yesterday, a stallion yelled in my face, and told me that nopony wanted me around, and he called me a retard. It brought up some memories...the fillies in my class used to mock me, I didn't get good grades, didn't have friends, I wasn't pretty, I'm still not… Everyone hated me. I decided he was right, and acted upon it. When I was falling, tried to untangle myself, I decided there was no reason to let ponies get to me, but it was too late”

“Do you think you can wait here for a while?”

Derpy looked scared, “You're going to leave me?” she asked with a worried look on her face, fearing that Pinkie had lied about caring about her, and was going to abandon her.

“Trust me, Derpy, I'll be back soon”

“Just, d-don't tell the others” she said with a bit of a whimper

Derpy waited there in silence.

Pinkie returned with a cart she had borrowed from AppleJack, knowing that Derpy couldn't walk. Derpy knew what she was thinking and tried to climb up and she almost fell over. Pinkie caught her and pushed her up into the cart, covering her with blanket.

“Just enjoy the ride,” Pinkie said, with a cutsie grin on her face. She trotted off through the forest and made her way into Ponyville. She managed to get home with no questions as to what was in the cart. She slipped into the house.

Derpy stretched out as far as she could without causing herself any pain. Pinkie was very generous and had given up her own bed for Derpy to be comfortable. It was day time and she had to work the bakery, but Derpy hoped she would cuddle up to her when it was time for bed. Pinkie popped through the door pushing a cart.

“Hey pretty pony!” She said as she walked towards the bed.

“Hi Pinkie,” Derpy now had an embarrassed grin on her face and blushed at the site of Pinkie. Admiring Pinkie from afar had turned into an intimate fondness.

“Are you hungry?” Pinkie asked motioning towards the cart. Derpy seized the moment.

“Muffin?” she said, in a sweet, almost ashamed voice, very different from the one Pinkie had grown used to.

“Of course,” Said Pinkie, “I've also got hot chocolate and cookies, if you'd like”

“That'd be great,” Derpy smiled. Pinkie pushed the cart closer. She took the muffin, already on a plate, as she had planned on Derpy not being able to resist the urge to have one. She also set a mug down on a tray next to the muffin, placed two giant chocolate chip cookies on the plate, and put the breakfast-in-bed style tray down over Derpy, who sat up and reached for the muffin. She was interrupted, however, as Pinkie climbed on the other side of the bed and snuggled up to her, resting a soft head on Derpy's shoulder. There was a quiet sigh, as Pinkie tried to resist crying once again..

“May I snuggle?” said Pinkie, in her usual exited voice.

“Of course, I'm comfortable with anything,” said Derpy, thinking she had played it cool. She knew her heart wanted Pinkie, but her head had to keep things straight, and try to resist being too forward.

“Good,” Said Pinkie, giving her a light peck on the cheek. Derpy swore she melted, and she turned bright red. She hoped, as Pinkie settled back into the shoulder, that the blush went unnoticed.

Derpy finished her meal and rested her head against Pinkie's with a full belly. She was at ease, but it didn't last nearly as long as she wanted. As Pinkie got up to take the dishes to the kitchen and wash them, Derpy thought about asking her to stay and cuddle, but feared that was pushing it too far and thought Pinkie might find her odd. Pinkie left, and Derpy rolled over in the bed with a sigh and laid there, silently.

Derpy felt she had been laying there for days, even though it had only been a few hours. Pinkie Pie came in through the door. Her mane was straight and her tail hung heavily so Derpy thought something was wrong.

“You awake, Derpy?” Pinkie said, doing her best to be quiet.

“Mmhmm” Derpy replied, not wanting to sound too eager

“I just got out of the shower, and my mane is wet… so I'll go sleep on the couch, I don't want to get you wet. I ma-”

“NO!” Derpy yelled “Err, um, no, it's fine, I don't mind getting a little damp, it'll probably feel cool, and I'm a little too warm right now anyway”

“okie dokie lokie then!” she chirped, almost questioning the reasoning. “I made you some fudge.” Pinkie gave it to Derpy and she gobbled it up

“It's amazing!” Derpy almost yelled, “And so are you,” She whispered. She had hoped suddenly letting her feelings out would help calm her down a little, but it didn't.

“You are too,” said Pinkie with a smile. Derpy turned bright red; she hadn't said it as quiet as she initially thought. Pinkie once again climbed under the covers and pulled herself close to Derpy, wrapped her arms around her and fell asleep.

Derpy, again, was the first to wake up. She lay there facing Pinkie once again, and told herself to be braver this time. Wake her up again, but this time with a real kiss, she told herself, over and over. She finally decided to go for it, when Pinkie suddenly woke up on her own. Derpy's heart sank, “way too go, you blew it” she thought to herself. Pinkie smiled and pulled herself in even closer for a long hug.

“Good morning!” she shouted, in the way on Pinkie could.

“Morning,” said Derpy with an ashamed grin. She had missed her shot.

“I guess it's time for me to get back to work” She said, gently starting to crawl out of the bed so she wouldn't hurt Derpy any more than she already was. “Love ya!”
Derpy sank even further. “Love ya”, that's what friends say, and while she valued Pinkie's friendship, her heart longed for more.

“Any chance you can stay a little longer?” Derpy asked, and was proud of herself for being a bit more brave.

“Sure, just let me go tell Mrs. Cake,” Said Pinkie walking out of the room. Derpy pumped her hoof in victory. As she waited for Pinkie Pie to return, she thought about what she wanted to do. Did she want to just enjoy the extended cuddle time, or did she want to seize the moment, and make this day the day she tells Pinkie her true feelings about her? She felt brave, and wanted to continue.

“Sorry Derpy, Mrs. Cake really needs me in there, she's got a lot of orders to fill” Pinkie regretfully said to her, opening the door. Derpy got even sadder, and didn't hide that fact. She sank further in to the bed. “Sorry,” said Pinkie in a very sincere voice as she exited the room. Derpy was left alone again with her thoughts, and decided to go back to sleep.

She awoke to the gentle nudge of a pink hoof on her shoulder.

“Wake up sleepy head,” said Pinkie. “I brought you some lunch.” Derpy was 80% asleep and began to sleep-ish talk.

“Come lay down Pinkie Pie, I want to kiss you”

“Heh?” Pinkie was surprised at this slur. Derpy rolled over and was now awake.

“Oh, Hi Pinkie” Said Derpy, not realizing what she had just admitted in her sleep

“Hey Derpy, Muffin?” she said with a giggle. She decided to play it off as if nothing happened.

“Yes, please!” Derpy said excitedly. She wasn't very hungry, but she now did anything she could to get attention from Pinkie. Pinkie gave her the muffin with a strange look. “Something wrong?” asked Derpy, with a bit of worry in her voice”

“No, nothing, what could possibly be wrong? Nothing that's what...heh.”

“Um, okay. Well, thanks for the muffin,” Derpy replied with a sweet smile. She was then surprised with a sudden poof on the other side of the bed. Pinkie had decided to do exactly what Derpy requested in her sleep to see what would happen. She had wanted to make a move on Derpy before, but wasn't sure about the reaction. Pinkie wasn't sure if she was into mares, but she crossed her heart and hoped to fly that she was, and if she didn't… well, you might as well just stick a cupcake in her eye. She scooted ever so close to Derpy just to test the water. Derpy decided it was time to quit being afraid and planted the most passionate kiss she had ever delivered on Pinkie's soft lips. Pinkie was overtaken first by surprise, then by total warmth. Pinkie pulled away and acted surprised.

“What was that for?” she questioned “That was completely unexpected,” she said with a guilty grin.

Derpy began speaking really fast

“Pinkie, you're just...you're so amazing, you’re sweet, and you came looking for me and cook me food, and cuddle, and keep me warm, and cared for me, groomed me, cleaned me up, cuddled me, made sure I was happy, kept me entertained and cuddled me, and shared your feelings and cuddled me, and carted me here and cuddled me and I'm just so grateful, and I developed these feelings for you, and I didn't know if I should do anything about them, but they became too hard to resist, and I'm so sorry I tried to kill myself, I should have been more sensitive to you and I didn't know I'm just sorry, I'm so sorry...I l-” She was interrupted by another passionate kiss from Pinkie, this time it went on and on as they both were completely overcome with warmth, ecstasy, and pure joy.

Pinkie pulled away and said “I love you, Derpy.”

“I love you too, Muffin.”

fine wine

Once again, Derpy awoke to find herself in bed, cuddled tightly against the pony who she had openly admitted she loved, but only after hearing that said pony loved her too. She never would have thought suicide would have been something that she would ever have to face. She couldn't help but let a half smile come across her face, the irony of the situation was something that would definitely never have crossed her mind. In her attempted suicide, something that was about as horrible as anything could possibly be, brought out the love between herself and pinkie pie, which has solely been the happiest thing she has ever experienced in her life. She laid back and enjoyed the situation she was in. Sure she was a little uncomfortable, her cuts still stung, her bruises still stung, and the arm she had under Pinkie was no asleep from being left idle with weight on it for however many hours they had been asleep, but none of this mattered to her, what mattered was that she was as happy as she could be, and nothing could possibly turn it around.

Derpy had almost fallen back to sleep just thinking the warm happy thoughts, when suddenly she felt a warm hoof run across her cheek.

“Are you awake cutie?” Pinkie gently whispered. When there was no reply pinkie rolled on to her back with a somewhat disappointed look on her face.

“mhmmm” Derpy quietly replied.

“Good morning.” Pinkie scootched as close to the tan pony as she possibly could. Her warmth tingled throughout her body and she let out a soft sigh. “How are you feeling today?”

“I'm on cloud 9” She said with a sweet grin.

“Well come back down because I can't walk on those things without Twilights help” Pinkie replied with her usual big toothed grin. Then a thought slipped into her head “Derpy! Nopony else knows you're alive! We have to tell them so they don't worry!” Pinkie began to jump out of bed when suddenly Derpy grabbed her by the hoof.

“Wait, Pinkie. I don't think they should know that I'm...normal”

“What do you mean normal? Everypony loves you for your personality, and that is your normal”

“That's just what I mean, Pinkie. They might hate me for being something I'm really not”

“Derpy, that would never happen, they will all understand”

“You promise?”

“Of course I do, you're talking to your muffin, remember?” Derpy blushed and Pinkie kissed her forehead. “Do you think you can walk around?”

Derpy hadn't even thought about it until now, this was the third day in a row she hadn't left Pinkie's bed. She pulled off the covers and stepped down off the bed, she awkwardly limped around in the cast that Pinkie had put on her. Pinkie was no nurse, but plaster was almost like cupcake batter, so she managed to make it work.

“I think I can manage for a while, it still hurts pretty bad” Derpy dipped her head in shame, once again thinking about what she had done.

“Great! Let's go!” Pinkie led her out the door, walking on the side of her injured, possibly broken leg just in case she needed to rest on her for a while.

Twilight Sparkle saw Pinkie walking alongside the limping pony, and started a dead sprint towards them, she had intended to give them both a big hug, but about half way through the brisk run she realized something was wrong, she spotted the home made cast on Derpy's leg, but mainly noticed that her eyes were straight.

“Ditzy, are you okay?” She asked worriedly.

Pinkie looked surprised. “Ditzy?” she questioned with one eyebrow raised

“Yeah, that's your name isn't it? Ditzy Doo?”

“No, I think you have me confused with another pegasus. She's the one that went North for the southern birds” she said quietly, with a bit of a grin.

Twilight's jaw nearly hit the ground. “You talk? I-i mean, you can say complete sentan-er, you are-” spike covered her mouth with an angry look, preventing her from doing any more damage.

“yes, I can, I just don't very often...”

“Well, where were you?”

Derpy's eyes started to tear up and she turned towards Pinkie and whispered something into her ear.

“She wants me to tell the story” Pinkie said while she gently rubbed Derpy's back with her hoof. Derpy was feeling unwanted, and thought that nopony cared for her at all, and she, well, she tied her wings down and jumped off a cloud”

Twilight couldn't quite grasp what she was being told, she had never heard of Derpy being a sad pony, let alone a suicidal one. “Derpy, you tried to com-”

“yes.” Derpy said with slight assertion so she would have to hear the “s word” again. She leaned her head into Pinkie and started to cry.

“Oh...”Twilight's eyes began to water up and she wanted to join the tight hug, but she sensed that there was something stronger going on between Derpy and Pinkie, so she resisted the urge to show her compassion. She shot a questioning look to Pinkie, as if asking for an explanation.

“I brought her home and let her stay in my bed until she felt better. She still doesn't, but she is better in comparison to when-

“...you found her after her suicide attempt” Twilight just had to say it, even though after doing so she felt horrible, as Derpy let out a small squeal and began to cry harder into Pinkie's mane. “I'm sorry, I just, can't picture you as the pony to do such a thing”

“Neither could I” Derpy uttered as she tried to fight through the tears. “But one stallion, he made me feel so, worthless, so unneeded, so...stupid that I-I-”

“shhhh” Pinkie pulled her in for a closer hug and leaned her head into Derpy's. “I brought her food and kept her warm.” Pinkie said trying to change the subject. “I had always admired her from far away, but never had the guts to say anything about it. Imagine that, me not being able to say something” She started to sniffle a bit, but not because she was sad. How could she be? She was with the one that she loved, and she felt incredible inside.”They say actions speak louder than words, and yesterday, she, she kissed me, and I have never felt more alive, or more loved in my whole life.”

“So you two are a couple?” Twilight asked with the slightest amount of shock in her tone of voice. Derpy nodded and pulled Pinkie in for a quick peck on the lips. Twilight looked even more surprised, but couldn't help feel relieved to see Derpy with a silly grin on her face. “That's great you two, I am really glad it worked out for you. Perhaps we should let the others know you're okay?” She said looking at Derpy

“can you tell them please? I don't want them to see me as I am now, I don't want to change my whole image” She said, sounding slightly ashamed. Pinkie gave her a sharp look.

“Derpy, just be who you are. Do what you feel is right, and act how you would like to act. Nopony is going to judge you, and if they do, it's just an opinion. Don't let words hurt you, they almost took you away from me before, and I don't know what I would have done, if I never got to let you know how I felt about you. Having you here now makes me feel dumb for not engaging you before, and I won't let anyone or anything take you away from me, I love you”

“I love you too, Muffin”

“D'awwwwwww” Twilight couldn't hold it in, the pure cuteness of this scene blew her away, and made her feel tingly all over.

“Come on sweetheart, let's go find the others and let them know you're okay” Pinkie buried her face in Derpy's mane and indulged in these amazing feelings for just a few seconds.

Twilight Sparkle had decided to head back to the library. Derpy and Pinkie pressed on. Derpy leaned up against Pinkie as they walk along the ponyville streets. Nopony seems to notice the two.

“Nopony even noticed I was gone” Derpy whispers into Pinkie's mane, “I told you”

“Derpy, we are going to nip this in the bud, right now.” Pinkie said with a stern, almost angry tone in her voice. “I didn't want to agree with you, but yes, it appears nopony noticed you were gone. It doesn't matter Derpy. Dash, Rarity, Fluttershy, Twilight and Apple Jack really care for you”

Derpy felt a little sore, Pinkie failed to mention her own name.”uhm...” she begins.

“...and me. Derpy, I can't explain how I feel about you. There are no words to describe the shear amazingness I feel around you. It makes me want to run a mile and bounce around all the time. Even more than I usually do. I could never, EVER, feel sad around you. I'm not making this up Derpy, I can not think of a phrase or word do describe how I feel for you, so, for now this will have to do.” Pinkie pulls Derpy close and gives her a kiss like she has never delivered before. Derpy feels a warmth rush over her body instantly, and she is floating. Higher than her wings could possibly take her. She can't breathe, but she doesn't need to, this kiss is keeping her alive. Suddenly Pinkie starts to pull away, Derpy goes with her for a quarter of a second, then slowly pulls away before the cliché “get a room” gets uttered by some passerby. “I love you, Derpy”

“I love you too, but-”

“ but nothing. All you need is love Derpy, it's power will never disappoint.”

“okay” She smiles shoots a silly little grin at the pink pony. They hadn't realized it before, but they were standing right outside the carousel boutique. Standing in the window was a bewildered Rarity with her jaw nearly touching the floor

“I guess she saw us” Pinkie starts laughing hysterically. When she finally stops they walk in side. Rarity greets them but can't meet there eyes.

“Hello Derpy, glad to see you're okay” Rarity says with her head hung down poking at the ground with her hoof. “ I see you, uh...are..um-”

“With me?” Pinkie says with a big smile

“uh, yes” Rarity continues...”Derpy, I didn't know you were a, uh, l-”

“I like mares...” Derpy said, with an irritated look.

“quite...” Rarity replies.

“AWKWARD!” Pinkie bounces up and down and runs towards Rarity. “so what? Is there something wrong with liking mares?”

“No, er, it's just not my cup of tea, darling”

“It doesn't have to be” Pinkie replies, still obviously hyped up

“P-Pinkie..you too?” Pinkie stops jittering and looks at Rarity with an irritated look.

“ I like mares, Derpy likes mares, we're together, you're straight. Move along”

“Uh, Yes...Derpy, where ever were you?” Rarity suddenly remembers the previous days of searching. Derpy turns towards her

“nowhere, i'm okay” She doesn't want to give Rarity another reason to look down on her, she knows she dissaproves of her being with Pinkie in the first place.

“Well, you gave us quite a scare, couldn't you have at least told us where you were going?”

“Nopony seemed to mind me being gone” Derpy walks towards Pinkie, her eyes beginning to swell.

“Mind? We searched hours for you darling, I got all sorts of dirty, and had to soak my hooves because they were sore”

“Sorry for the inconvenience, I know you probably didn't want to go out looking for anypony”

“What ever do you mean? We were worried about you!” Rarity can't believe what
Derpy is saying

“Sorry, Rarity, I'm just...venting. If you want the truth I'll tell you” Derpy starts to lean into Pinkie. Pinkie starts to snuggle up to her. Holding back her tears she continues. “Rarity, I got yelled at by a stallion, who was mad at his marefriend, and he called me names and yelled in my face for no reason. I know he was taking out his anger, but at the time, I felt his opinions were everyone's.” Derpy's eyes began to turn red. Pinkie leans her head towards her and kisses her cheek in an effort to keep Derpy calm. “I flew to the highest cloud I could find, and tied my wings to my side, and jumped” Derpy couldn't fight it and her cheeks were now soaked with tears.”Pinkie found me, and brought me back and took care of me, and I have always liked her. I never worked up the strength to tell her about my feelings, but now I have, and I love her, and she's my muffin.” Rarity starts giggling. Derpy gives her a questioning look

“I'm very sorry you felt that way, but I trust you see now that we all care for you?”

“Yes” Derpy bites her lip “ I didn't realize that I would be hurting anypony, except maybe the post office, because they'd need to find a replacement” Pinkie bites her hard enough to cause a bit of pain, trying to remind her of what they had just talked about. “All I know is, a few ponies did care about me, and one really cute one happened to love me, and I can say, for the first time in a very long time, that I am glad to be alive”

“I see. I am very glad for you and Pinkie, and I sincerley apologize for my actions beforehand, we simply must celebrate, Darling. How about some Chardonneigh? It's absolutely smashing”

“Thanks, but we-”

“YES!” Pinkies almost yells right next to Derpy's ear. “celebrate means party!” Derpy gives her a questioning look.

“You obviously haven't been around Pinkie too much yet.” Rarity starts to giggle “She will never turn down a chance to party”

“Okay” Derpy says with a equally silly grin.”Just don't get me too wasted”

“Don't be silly, Cookie. Nopony is getting wasted, just a couple drinks to brighten our day” Derpy takes in that last statement. Cookie, she called me cookie.

“nonsense, Pinkie, I've got plenty” Rarity says with an evil smile. The idea of seeing Pinkie drunk gets more and more intriguing to Derpy.

“alright, then” Derpy walks forward with a big smile. “Let's get this party started”

Several hours later the door of the carousel boutique swings open and Derpy and Pinkie Pie walk outside in to the crisp night.

“Rarity, you know how to throw the best fancy shmancy parties!” Pinkie says, almost too loud.

“well thank you darling, I do hope you'll be okay to walk home” Rarity says with a bit of worry. “I thought you would have handled your alcohol much better than you do.”

“It's fine, I'm fine.” Pinkie says as she stumbles into the street, motioning for Derpy to follow her.

“Thanks *hick* for everything Rarity” Derpy says. “We really apprecerate, apreeseeate...appreciate it” Derpy says sternly, as if she's mad at herself for not pronouncing things correctly.

“Don't mention it darling” Rarity waves and closes the door. Derpy starts to follow Pinkie down the street, and finds it hard to walk, due partially to the alcohol, and partially because of her still sore limbs from her fall. As they walk Pinkie takes the time to look around at everything. She notices an ant walking along the ground and folds her forelegs under her stomach to get a closer look. With her rump in the air, Derpy can't help but take a quick peak.

“Look Derpy, and ant-” Pinkie turns around just in time to see Derpy taking a peak at her rear end.

“I..uh, was just-”

Pinkie looks back at Derpy with a big smile on her face. “Looks like somepony see's something she likes”

“heh, I was just-”

“shhhh, I know what you were doing. You know what I'm going to do about it?” Pinkie stands up and walks towards Derpy slowly swaying back and forth

“uhhhh”

“I'm gonna...Muah” Pinkie plants a kiss on Derpy's nose, interupting herself. “I'm gonna take you home you silly little filly”

“Isn't that where we were going anyway?” Derpy replies with a stupid grin on her face. She couldn't believe they were actually having this conversation. Drunk Pinkie Pie, is definitely okay with her!

“Now we're backtalkin' huh? Now you're gonna get a spanking” Pinkie says, loud enough for anypony still awake to hear.

“heh, how about we just wait until we get back to your place for this” Derpy says watching pinkie start to motion towards her backside. As fun as this whole spanking thing sounded, she didn't exactly want to do it in plain view.

“Oh, now I see what you're trying to do! You just wanna get to my place, huh?” Pinkie was taking things a little to far, grabbing Derpy's tail with her teeth.

Getting a little awkward here

Derpy is lost in thought. What can she do?

“Uh, Pinkie?” Derpy says with a bit of a shutter “Wanna go make some cupcakes?”

“HELL YEAH” Pinkie turns and starts running, then stops remembering Derpy can't keep up with her injuries. “Let's go pretty pony.” With that, Derpy blushes and begins to follow Pinkie down the street.

“Okay” Derpy starts thinking about what she had just stopped. Was it something she wanted to happen? Certainly not in public...or maybe she did want to? She loves Pinkie and doesn't care who knows it. Still, things were going a little too far for the time and place.

The next morning, Derpy awoke snuggled up to Pinkie Pie once again, but this time not in bed. As her sleepy vision subsides she realizes they're laying on the kitchen floor. Both ponies' fur is matted and sticky. What is all over them? Derpy take a whiff of the air.

“yep, that's frosting” Derpy thinks to herself. She was trying to remember what happened, and she looked around the room confused.

“Good Morning Derpy” Pinkie says with just as much excitement as usual. “I guess I've got a mess to clean up, and you need to go get in bed, missy!” Pinkie said, doing her best to sound bossy.

“ I made this mess too...I think. I'm a little upset I don't remember what went on here.” Derpy said with a grin.

“Well, we were making cupcakes, and I spilled the batter on the ground...then you rolled in it, and I'm still trying to figure that one out.” She giggles, and continues. “Then I dumped all the frosting on the ground and we rolled around like professional pony mixers!” Pinkie starts cracking up.

“uhhhh” Derpy's face was red, she couldn't believe she did something like that. “I guess we were just destined to take a tumble together” Derpy said with a silly grin and a wink. “Let me help you clean this up, then I'll go lay down...or, maybe take a bath first”

“Don't worry about the mess Derpy, I've got it under control”

“Are you sure?”

“Derpy, have you seen how fast I can move? This will take no time at all. I'm the fastest cleaning pink pony in all of Equestria!”

“If you say so” Derpy said

“I just did, Silly! Now go get in the bath. Be careful though, my shoulder's achey! You know what that means!”

“Uhhhhh, I don't think I do” Derpy looked confused

“There's an alligator in the tub” Pinkie said with a big grin.

“Oh, gummy. Gotcha” Derpy gave Pinkie a kiss and walked to the bathroom.

The end?

Diving Again

Pinkie stood in the kitchen of Sugar Cube Corner whipping up a fresh batch of cupcakes. She had Pinkie Promised to make some today. Herself and Derpy planned to spend the whole day with eachother, starting by pigging out on some delicious treats. They hadn't really planned anything specific. Pinkie thought about the things they could do. Maybe they could go to the park, or walk through the streets of Ponyville. Maybe they could even go to the moon! It seemed the possibilities were endless, they were running on the power of love, with an endless supply, they could go anywhere. Whilst lost in thought, she heard the ringing of the bell at the top of the door that alerts when a customer has arrived. Rainbow Dash appeared in front of the counter and pulled Pinkie out of her day dream.

“Hey Pinkie, what's up?” She said as she approached Pinkie. She had a look in her eyes that Pinkie had seen before several times. She tried to push the thoughts out of her head.

“The Ceiling!” Pinkie had a stupid grin on her face. Dash didn't seem very amused.

“I'm baking cupcakes! Strawberry!” She replied as she mixed the batter in a bowl. Dash stared at her for a few seconds.

“I was thinking we could go to your room, and, you know. Have a little fun.”

“uhhh” Pinkie didn't quite know how to tell Dash about the situation. Sure they had done a lot of stuff together, but it's not like they were a couple. She decided Dash will understand and to just be up front about it.

“Well Dashie, I went into the Everfree Forrest and I found Derpy”

“Oh, I know, Twilight told me. Is she okay? Is she at home? I haven't seen her out and about since Twi told me.”

“No, she's staying with me right now”

“Oh, was she really hurt that bad?”

“No, she's much, much better. See, we're just...together” Pinkie had a slight grin on her face to hide the fear she was feeling inside.

“You mean like, you're a couple?” Dash had no hint of any feelings on her face. Asking like it was just a regular old question.

“yes, silly.” Pinkie shoved at her shoulder.

“Oh, I see.” Dash's ears folded back, and she looked heart broken for half a second. Suddenly the sadness turned to anger.

“You'd rather have her, than me?”

“Dashie, you tell me “You can't tie this Pegasus down” all the time. We weren't a couple”

“ I know, but really? Derpy?”

“What's wrong with that Dash?” Pinkie was starting to get angry.

“She's...” Dash started to say something and noticed a greyish ear in the doorway. Derpy was listening, she must have come down to see what was taking so long.

“Nothing...I just, I'm gonna miss our fun times” Dash faked a sad expression.

“Don't be sad, Dashie. There's other Mares all around! And stallions too!”

“bleh...stallions” Dash looked slightly disgusted. Pinkie giggled. She found it interesting that Dash acted like she didn't like stallions, but can't seem to control herself around Big Mac.

“Can I at least have one for the road?” Dash said, making sure Derpy was still listening.

“Dashie, I can't. It won't feel right” Pinkie got a sorrowful expression on her face. Suddenly Dash was moving closer. She wasn't about to let this fail.

“Dashie, please don't...”

“Don't what? I'm just gonna hug you” Dash pushed her muzzle up close to Pinkie's and got exactly what she was hoping for. Pinkie gave in to her urges and kissed Dash with as much passion as she ever had. Dash opened her eyes just in time to see Derpy peaking around the corner with tears welling up in her eyes.

“Pinkie, why would you do that?” Derpy was holding herself back from letting all her tears flow freely. “I thought you loved me”. Pinkie winced with those words coming from Derpy's mouth. She loved Derpy more than anyone else in the entire world, and she had just screwed up, and she knew it. She ran towards Derpy and tried to hold her.

“I do love you Derpy. I just couldn't-”

“She couldn't resist me” Dash said with her usual cocky attitude “You really can't blame her Derpy, how could anyone resist me?”

“She's my muffin...She was my muffin. She isn't my muffin anymore” With each word Derpy's ears fell further and more tears started to blur her vision. She pushed past Pinkie and Dash, and ran out the front doors of Sugar Cube Corner. As soon as she was out the front door, she spread her wings and took off. Pinkie ran outside to try to watch where she went but it was too late. She was gone. Dash came outside laughing.

“What a little baby! It was just a kiss”

“go away” Pinkie said as calmly as she could.

“Come on Pinks, don't be like that.” Dash moved close to Pinkie to try to kiss her again. Pinkie pushed her hoof up and shoved dash away. A small stream of blood ran out of Rainbow Dash's nose.

“Get out of my sight, and don't ever come back” Pinkie wasn't messing around. Dash had seen Pinkie sad, and had seen her go crazy, but she had never, ever seen Pinkie get truly enraged. That is, until now, and it was her doing. Now Dash felt tears pushing to come out of her eyes, she took off so Pinkie would see her cry.

“I love you, Derpy” Pinkie sat down in front of Sugar Cube Corner and cried her eyes out. She had made a big mistake, and didn't know how she was going to fix it.

Pinkie lay in her bed crying, just as she had been for the past several hours.

“Why did I have to be so stupid? Why did I kiss that big meanie Rainbow Dash? Why did I ruin the best thing I ever had?” She couldn't stand herself.

“Pinkie, are you okay?” Twilight Sparkle walked into her bed room.

“Is Derpy here?” Pinkie asked, already knowing the answer.

“No...but-”

“Well, there's your answer” Pinkie rolled over into her pillow and started crying even harder. “I'm such a screw up I can' handle it anymore. Derpy was the best thing that ever happened to me and I ruined it. I love her Twilight...I really do, but now she doesn't love me and she never will again.”

“Pinkie, why did you kiss Rainbow Dash?”

“How'd you know about that?”

“The cakes told me...they watched the whole thing”

“oh...” Pinkie wiped away her tears, as her sadness was replaced with anger. Just thinking of that rainbow maned pony made her steam.

“I don't know Twilight. She's just so....kissable. We'd done it so many times she knew exactly what to do to get me to kiss her”

“Pinkie, You. Kissed. Her.” Twilight made sure to emphasis the phrase. “I read a psychology book, and it said that you can not make quick decisions that are connected to your mood sub-consciously. You made the decision to kiss her. She definitely increased your urge, but you kissed her because you wanted to, now tell me why.” Pinkie was almost offended, but then realized that Twilight was absolutely right.

“I think my brain might have been telling me I like her. I can't like two ponies at once, can I twilight?”

“Well, yes you can. However, your feelings for Derpy obviously overpower your feelings for Dash. I think we can chalk this up to you doing what your brain told you, instead of what your heart really wanted you to do”

“I guess that makes sense.” Pinkie started to cry once again. “Twilight?”

“Yes Pinkie?”

“Will you find out where she went for me? Please? I have to make this right”

“well, that's kind of the other reason I'm here.”

“What's that?”

“Do make sure you don't harm her...”

“who?” Pinkie knew exactly who it was. Rainbow Dash stepped through the doorway into her room, with her ears folded down, and her eyes puffy from crying.

“Pinkie, I'm really, really sorry I made you kiss me”

“Dash, you didn't make me kiss you. I made the decision to do it”

“I..I know, but you wouldn't have had to decide if I wasn't pushing you. The truth is, I knew Derpy was behind you, I saw her ear in the doorway. I wanted to hurt her. I felt like she was taking something from me. Pinkie, I think I love you”

“Dash. I accept your apology. I was thinking about getting up and hurting you just now, but I thought of another way to do it. I don't love you, I never will, and I don't want to be your friend anymore.”

Dash felt that one sting all the way to her heart.

“Pinkie, don't say that” Twilight sounded like she had just heard the worst thing on the planet.

“I mean it. I want absolutely nothing to do with her”

“Pinkie, you need to forg-”

“I understand...”

“what?” Twilight looked utterly confused

“I understand...She doesn't want to be my friend anymore. I understand. Let me just tell you what I know, and then I'll get out of your mane.” Pinkie turned towards Dash, now feeling bad for what she had said. “I followed Derpy, and she went to Cheerilee's house. I peaked in the window, and Cheerilee was just hugging her. They were talking after that, but I couldn't tell what they were saying” Dash turned around and started to walk out of Pinkie's room. Pinkie stood up, and ran straight at Rainbow Dash, She couldn't see her coming, and Twilight didn't have time to react, she just winced and watched to see what would happen. Pinkie wrapped her arms around Dash and gave her a hug.

“Thank you Dashie. I'm sorry about what I said. I don't want to not be your friend. I was just being a meanie” Dash pulled her in and hugged her. She whispered into her ear.

“Go get your girl.” That was all the motivation she needed. She sped out the front door with her course set to Cheerilee's house.

Pinkie had been practicing what she wanted to say. It was already bad, and she couldn't make it any worse than it already was. She raised her hoof to knock on the door and it suddenly swung open. Standing right in the doorway, getting ready to leave, was Derpy. Cheerilee was standing at her side. Derpy's eyes met Pinkie's and she ran behind Cheerilee. She didn't want to see Pinkie at all. Cheerilee gave Pinkie a Dirt look and slammed the door in Pinkie's face. Pinkie immediately knocked, and the door swung open again, this time Derpy was gone, and Cheerilee was standing there with the same facial expression from before.

“You've got three seconds to give me a good reason not to slam this door in your face again”

“I just-”

“two”

“I wanted to talk to-”

“one-”

“ I'm in love with Derpy!” Pinkie yelled as loud as she could, making sure anyone within earshot could hear. Cheerilee continued to glare at her.

“I'll be with you in a second” She said. She closed the door, and after about a minute the door swung open again.

“For some Psychotic reason, she wants me to let you in.” Pinkie let a small grin spread across her face. Cheerilee didn't look amused “Won't you come in?” She said with a sarcastic tone. Pinkie looked all over for Derpy but couldn't see her anywhere.

“Where's-”

“She's hiding....She doesn't want to see you yet, she wants me to talk to you” Cheerilee spoke like it should have been obvious.

“Okay, that's fine with me. I am just here to apologize.”

“No way? I didn't see that coming.” Cheerilee didn't seem to be enjoying Pinkie's company. “Sit. You listen to me first.” Pinkie didn't hesitate to do as she was instructed.

“I have been Derpy's confidant since she was a little Filly. She always came to me when she was bullied. She trusts me, that's why she told me everything. The suicide attempt, your cute little rescue, taking care of her, the party with Rarity. Everything. You don't need to explain anything to me, it's already been done. You're here for Derpy. She's listening right now. You aren't going to talk to her yet, However. See, I've become pretty fond of Derpy over the years. I don't like ponies who make her sad. In fact, there have been times where I had to resist the overwhelming urge to beat those who made her upset to a pulp when I saw them walking down the street. Now, the dilemma here, is, you made her sad. You know why this is bad news for you? We aren't in public. There is nopony around.” Pinkie gulped at the thought. Cheerilee, the sweet, cute teacher had a dark side. It seemed to be an extremely dark side as well.

“Lucky for you. Derpy likes you. She said you're her muffin”

Pinkie felt a small shred of hope “she sai-”

“My mistake...she said you WERE her muffin. Now she's not so sure. Now, are you going to treat her right?”

“Of course Ms. Cheerilee”

“and who's fault is all of this?”

“Mine, Ms. Cheerilee” Cheerilee got a look of satisfaction on her face. Now that that's out of the way. I have something I'd like to say to you.

“What's that?” Pinkie was a bit frightened by the sudden mood change/

“Thank you.”

“What?” Pinkie was completely confused about what was happening. Cheerilee pulled Pinkie in for a tight hug and whispered in her ear.

“You saved her life, I don't know what I would have done without her.” Cheerilee pulled away, and gave Pinkie a kiss on the cheek. She brought her hoof to her eye and wiped away a tear. “Come on out, sweetheart.” Derpy came out of hiding and presented herself in front of Pinkie Pie.

“Derpy. I'm so so so so so so so so sorry” Pinkie saw a disapproving look on Cheerilee's face.

“I'm...I'm sorry I kissed Rainbow Dash. You see, we used to have this thing where we'd get together and...fool around. I told her we couldn't do it anymore and then sh-”

“Pinkie, I was listening to the whole conversation. Get to the point.” Derpy sounded almost snappy. She had every reason to be, Pinkie thought. Cheerilee started rubbing Derpy's back, as if she was trying to keep her calm.

“The point is, I'm sorry. My brain wanted rainbow dash, and my heart wanted you. I did what my brain wanted, instead of what my heart wanted. Now all that's on my brain is you Derpy. I just can't stop thinking about you. I can't believe I hurt you. I never thought I would, and I truly hate myself for doing it. If you are willing to forgive me, I would love for you to give me another shot.”

“Don't say you hate yourself, Pinkie.” Derpy seemed disappointed in her.

“Derpy, I didn't see you for hours, and it felt like days. I was in my bed, and it felt way too big by myself. Everything just wasn't right, your place was there, but you weren't. The biggest case of that is my heart. I feel like a huge part of me is missing. I need to have you in my life Derpy, you are a part of me. You are the pony that makes me feel happier than I ever have. You make me feel feelings, I didn't even know I could feel. I...I just-” Pinkie was interrupted by Derpy suddenly thrusting forward and pressing her lips against hers. Pinkie felt that same magical tingle she felt every time she kissed Derpy, and instantaneously all her sorrows and empty feelings were gone. Derpy broke the kiss and put her hoof on Pinkie's Cheek.

“I forgive you. Truth be told, I felt the same way the whole time I wasn't with you” Derpy pressed her lips back together with Pinkie's.

“Now I see what you like about her.” Cheerilee said, wiping more and more tears from her eyes.

“Come on over Cheerie” Derpy said. Cheerilee came closer and was pulled in by Pinkie and Derpy for a group hug. Pinkie let out a huge sigh of relief.

“I love you Derpy.”

“I love you too, Muffin.”