Author's Note

Scootaloo finds the letter she wrote in September 2019..as it gets closer to Nightmare Night, she decides to read it for fun. Her reaction to the letter was the same as mine when I re-read my early 2019 Halloween fic depicting what she wrote.

Now we have a sequel with a pretty straight forward message. And perhaps foreshadowing for the future?

Who knows. Happy Halloween folks, stay safe!

..or should you? (Lighthearted Sequel)

It’s been 2 years since I really gave thought to my fear of the dark. I wrote a weird..poem-like letter to myself with a really dumb cliffhanger, like I was telling a story or something. I found it earlier today and re-read it. I kinda cringed in some places, and shivered in other places because I kinda re-opened some old wounds. I figured I’d write another one now that I’m older...well. Older-ish. It’s only been 2 years, but whatever.

To tell the truth, nothing’s really changed. Like..yeah, I’ve grown a tiny bit and I’ve learned to think a little more positively but at the end of the day, a phobia is still a phobia.

My..mentally made up monsters are still horrifying to think about but that’s what the mind does when you’re scared. We fear the unknown, I realize that now.

I’m not afraid of the dark, I never was, I’m afraid of what might be in the dark. When you’re laying in bed with nothing to do, restless, your mind wanders, it’s really a “use it or lose it” situation. I’m not really using it, soooo..I lose it. I conjure up horrifyingly scary images in my head, and I have borderline anxiety attacks.

But..like I said. I’ve grown a tiny bit and I’ve learned to think a little more positively. I’m not gonna lie, telling others about my fear of the dark was pretty embarrassing but..some helped me put my thoughts into words better. Sweetie Belle was the biggest help, and Apple Bloom said she’d ask Applejack if she could get a fan so she could close her windows at night for our sleepovers. Who knew Mr Breezy would be more than willing to give her a fan for free in exchange for an apple cake? I’ve never had one, never thought they’d be good, but like..they definitely LOOK good..

..I’m getting off track. Anyway, like I said. Sweetie Belle was the biggest help, I wasn’t too keen on the idea at first but like..to help my nerves..y’know..to just..calm down when really anxious..cuddling kinda helps.

Yeah..it’s from her, but like, it’s also from Rainbow Dash and we’re basically sisters so it’s not..like..a “crush” thing-Look, it’s just nice to feel secure when I’m feeling really vulnerable and unsafe.

My whole point about this is that if you just tell someone you trust that you need help..they’ll help you. I know not everypony has someone who they trust to tell their problems to, but my advice to somepony who does is just that. Ask for help, it might be the hardest thing a pony has to do, but the realization that the ponies you hold closest to your hearts have your back is one of the best feelings you’ll ever feel, and it makes asking for help more than worth it.

Maybe I’ll write another response in another 2 years..I guess we’ll have to see if anything changes again.

Peace out,
Sincerely,
Scoots