Leaving out a sigh, he blinked a few times. Just like any other day, he thought, looking at the wall of his bathroom. Work, work and more work, nothing else. Is there nothing else in my life?
Just as he said that phrase, he remembered somepony, that special somepony that gave him the strength to go on, even if they didn't know eachother. Here we go again...
Her name was Raindrops; she worked as a package mailmare and she was beautiful. Her cyan mane made a breathtakingly gorgeous contrast with her yellow coat. Her perfectly shaped body drove him crazy. There wasn't a single day he didn't think about her. He had nopony to love, and it showed. His hooves were sliding down his body, as images of her appeared on his mind.
She was practically married to her job, and didn't actually have the time to find a lover.
His hooves reached down his semi-erect cock. He figured out that this was the problem: he wasn't as well-endowed as the other stallions. He was... rather humbly-sized on that aspect.
The images on his head kept on going. He saw her get close to him and whisper in his ear:
"Take me."
He stroked himself a few times, until his dick became hard. She positioned herself on the bed, her wings scattering a few feathers about, and spread her legs, a few drops of her wet slit staining the bed under her.
"Come on and make me scream..." she said, one hoof on her mouth and the other on her slit.
Whichever doubt he ever had vanished, as he jumped on her, plunging his rod deep inside her. She left out a long 'ah' from the pleasure.
"It's big... it's bigger than it seems..." She was right. He wasn't actually very slim, so his body would make an optical illusion and make him appear less well-endowed. He pulled it out. It was already coated. His own juices, he thought.
"Split me again..." she said, her eyes filled with lust.
He had the love of his life underneath him, begging him to drill her until they messily came. He was happy-- no, ecstatic to oblige. His hard shaft was pushed in again, her inner walls caressing it. And then she realized it: there was a notoriously heavy weight on her ass.
"By the Princesses, are those--?" she said, only to be cut mid-sentence when her voice was lost in a moan of pure bliss. He had started pounding her for all he was worth, their crotches slapping together, making wet splashy sounds.
All could be heard: their moans, panting, grunts, their pleasured exclamations, the bed creaking under their weight, and other sounds.
He was lost in a maze of pleasure, a maze where he didn't mind being lost in. Their minds were in a haze, only processing the immeasurably gigantic bliss.
Accompanied of a delirious scream, Raindrops came. She clenched down his member, and punched her hooves on the bed. Her marecum was squirted, coating his penis. A few drops spilled down her labia, onto her ass, and others were shot off, onto his balls.
A few strokes later, he came as well, pushing his member as far as it would go. She expected his load to be large, but it was certainly a misused word. His cock shot a huge load inside her, his seed running down her legs. The pulsation from their orgasms produced an indescriptible sensation of pleasure. She was filled entirely, but the flow did not stop. She could feel herself melting.
Moments later, his orgasm died down. His agitated breath was all that could be heard. He was alone again. There was a little pool of semen in front of him, and a few strings that went further still. He would probably never get a mare.
He had never really wanted a mare to be in a relationship with, anyway. Maybe it was because he thought that it would end up on failure. To be fair, he didn't actually know how to treat a mare. His job wasn't built around that, and his life was built around his job. Well, not anymore.
Silently, he did his best to clean up the mess he had made, as well as trying to clean up his thoughts.
There was something, or rather, a lack of a certain something, in his life that rendered him unable to enjoy it.
In-between his painfully plain attempts at amusing himself with the water while cleaning, he heard a knock on the door.
He trotted over to the door and opened it.
"Yes?" he said, trying to sound as welcoming as possible.
"Oh, hello, Mr. Compound..." answered a purple unicorn filly. "I came for the... thing my mother requested you to make..."
"Ah, Dinky Hooves!" he said with genuine joy. "Your mother must be... the mailmare, right?"
She nodded in agreement.
He wasn't expecting something like this. He had no time and no space for errors.
"Come in, I'll just go to get it." he said, opening the door a bit. Abruptly, he added: "You can have some cookies while you wait!" The consciousness-loss method was desperate, but it was quick enough to work.
"Okay, if you say so!" she happily answered. She trotted over to a little couch and sat on it.
The cookies were already done. They were the same cookies he would have silently eaten while contemplating his loneliness. They had just found a new purpose. A way better purpose, even if a little sudden and strange. All he would need was Dinky eating said cookies, and then, to wait. And both of them were possible steps in this moment.
Incidentally, the thing that Derpy had asked him to make was a little bottle of sleep medicine. She didn't really say what she needed it for, but it probably was something he didn't need to know. Everypony has secrets, and they're secrets for a reason.
The sleep medicine wouldn't work as fine as other things would, but it would make her feel drowsy enough to do whatever he wanted with her. That moment was so close! He better got started with his little plan.
How much would he need to use? If he used too much, it could turn out pretty badly. He had to be careful.
Once he had already added the medicine to the cookies, he left them in front of Dinky.
"There you go. Now I'll go find that bottle and that'll be it." he said, almost chuckling. I can't believe I just said that. It must be the worst lie ever, he thought.
She happily started eating. He was so nice to her, as always.
He went inside again. He hadn't still cleaned everything up, and since he was expecting many other things to happen, he had almost no time. Maybe if he hadn't let his mind take over him he would have had more time. But it was already too late.
"Uh, Mr. Compound..." said Dinky, suddenly. She was right behind him, as he cleaned a semen stain on his floor. He jumped, startled, but calmed down immediately. She just laughed.
"Y-Yes, Dinky?" he responded. Last thing he wanted to hear was a 'what's that?', so he hoped not to hear it.
"Why the cookies taste so strange? They have a bit of a liquid over them... is it the same liquid as the one you're cleaning?" she asked innocently.
Oh, that's kinky. I wonder what would have happened if I had added semen on the cookies... he thought, but stopped suddenly. Several minutes had passed since she started eating the cookies, and there was no visible effect. The drugs he gave her weren't going to act so fast. He had to wait at least another 20 minutes. There was no possible way she could stay on his house for so long; as much, he would be able to retain her for another 5 minutes. Plus, what about if she went home and then the drugs took effect? He shouldn't have done that. Instead of that, he just had to take the violent road. And now she was right behind him, anyway, in the perfect position for a kick. But... he wasn't a strong pony. He didn't buck trees on a daily basis. He just made medicine for those who needed it.
But this was his chance. There was no better time.
Let's hope her eyes aren't injured after this... he thought, right after doing what started the chain of decadent events.
All that she could see was his tail moving as if he was annoyed, and suddenly, there were two hooves hitting her head at full force. One of them gave her in the forehead, and the other almost missed her jaw.
All that could be heard was a sickening crash. The sound of hooves hitting something, hitting it as hard as it was possible.
She left out a little scream that could not have been heard very far, before falling down to the floor. She could still see and hear, but moving was out of the picture for her. She couldn't move her legs, let alone run away.
There was a really long silence after that. He spun to see how Dinky was, and all that he saw in her body was a little stream of blood coming out from her mouth. It was less than he expected. Maybe he didn't hit her so hard after all.
"Don't worry, you'll be fine..." he said, not actually sure of what to do. Maybe if he passed over the 'I can't do it' zone, it would get better.
Dinky saw everything that happened after that without being able to move. He saw him tie her down to a bed, not too tight, just to hold her in place. She was in a room without any windows.
A basement, probably. Why does he have a bed in the basement? she thought. He had locked her inside, and there was no way out. He had run off to do other things, probably secure every single door and window. He was kind of a strange guy, and always did that. She had never asked him why.
Some minutes passed and she regained the ability to move her eyes and ears. He examined the room again, only to see lots of bottles and tubes with transparent liquids. He probably just stored his things in his basement. It was normal. She couldn't hear anything. His basement wasn't a scary place, it was just too dark.
She didn't understand any of this. Apparently, Compound, who had been so nice to her since she knew him, now was angry with her. He hit her, knocking her out, and tied her down a bed in his basement. There was no logic behind that.
The darkness of the basement made her feel even more alone than she really was. There was no sound and there was probably nopony around except for Mr. Compound, who now hated her, she thought. A tear rolled down her face, as she wondered for how long this would last.
And then, the sounds of hoofsteps coming closer could be heard. They, then, stopped when they were very close, and then the door opened. Compound entered the room and flicked a lightswitch on before walking over to Dinky. It wasn't a very powerful light, but it was more than enough to make her eyes hurt a little.
"Are you... okay, Dinky?" he asked, not sure of what he was saying.
"What is happening, Mr. Compound? Why did you hit me so hard?" she asked, almost crying. She didn't understand anything and all she wanted was to go home.
He looked at her. Why am I doing this? he thought. He didn't want to see her cry.
"Do you remember Hearts and Hooves day, Dinky?" he asked, sounding like he was about to break down.
She just nodded.
"Well, that day has been celebrated since many, many years and... I have never got even a look from a filly or mare. I have been lonely my entire life, and some of us can't just take that," he explained. Maybe all he needed was venting his problems with this filly. But what about the hit? That would need some serious explanation.
"I can give you one if you want to, Mr. Compound..." she said, believing that this was the cause of all the unexplainable events. Huh, it was all so simple for her.
"Of course you can give me one, Dinky... and you will give me one, maybe not just one..." he said grinning. He got closer to her, and touched her face.
"I'm sorry about that one hit. I just needed you to fall unconscious for a little while, and the drugs I used weren't fast nor powerful enough..." he said smiling.
"What?" she shouted in surprise. It wasn't an accident after all. "What do you mean!?"
"It's just that all my pent-up frustration needs to go, and you're the first girl I've come across today... and I've waited long enough..." he said, trying to sound reassuring. "Tell me, Dinky, what do you know about sex?" he said, while moving his hoof down to her belly.
She didn't answer. That meant that she knew what was about to happen to her. All that she did was gulp, and look all around the room.
"That's good. Where should I start?" he said, starting to think this was a good idea. He was right. He had already passed the 'I can't do it' stage. It only got better from here.
She sobbed, trying not to. Maybe Compound wasn't so nice after all? She couldn't think of anything right now. All that she could see were his eyes, looking at her. It made her sick.
He jumped over to the bed, shuffling a little about, to position his back legs at the sides of her body.
"All I can tell you is that you better open your mouth," he said, sounding nothing like he normally did. He normally sounded like a nice guy, but now his voice had a little bit of evil inside itself. He sat down, their haunches touching.
"You know, Dinky." he said, looking at her body. "You are quite the looker. You must not know this but, I have been thinking about doing this for a long while. You know, bringing you down here, tying you up and raping you. Sometimes, I think about that way too much and I get hard... like now."
He was right. His member had come out of its sheath, extending over her purple coat. She looked at it in fear. She would probably not be able to take it.
"Why are you doing this, Mr. Compound?" she said, sounding really frightened. "I thought you were nice..."
"Oh, but I am nice. So nice, in fact, that now you have to pay the favor back. It's not like I don't like you. I do like you, love you, even, and wouldn't like to see you get hurt," he said, standing up again. "Now, please don't make this harder that it has to be..."
He pushed his raging boner in front of her lips, at which she closed them as much as she could. She wasn't going to let this happen to her, even if he was a grown-up stallion and she was just a filly.
"Look, Dinky, I'm not very patient. Let me do this and it'll be over before you think," he said, frustrated. He waited some seconds but nothing happened. "I'll tie your legs down. I didn't really wanted to do this, but there's no choice."
He tied her legs with a quite short rope, just so she couldn't close her legs again. She didn't really put up a fight when he was doing it. Maybe she just did surrender, he thought.
Once her two legs were separated and secured to not being able to close again, he jumped on the bed again.
She was just crying and sobbing. She was clearly scared and wanted it to end as soon as possible. So did him, because seeing her cry was something he didn't want.
"Now, now, Dinky..." he said. "Try not to cry too much..."
He positioned his large penis in front of her pussy, ready to push. Her entrance was very tight. It'll be a pleasure, he thought.
"No, Mr. Compound...!" she said suddenly. Her tears had already soaked her entire face, and some drops were falling onto the bed. "Don't do it... I'll let you put in my mouth, and, and..." she said, breaking down again. It was hopeless. Anything that could happen was bad. She might as well roll with it and then just try to forget it.
"That's a good filly," he said, smiling at her. He put his cock over her lips again, but this time she looked completely destroyed inside. She didn't even try to fight it.
She opened her mouth as wide as she could, and then he pushed in. His cock slid in, separating her mandibles even more. It brought a completely new sensation. Her lips were rounded around his immense girth, and her cries were muffled. He pushed it in and out at a fast pace, not believing how good it felt.
An incommensurable pain racked through her face. His shaft was spreading her mandibles too much and it was making her coat cut up on her mouth. His hip was hitting her face again and again.
Suddenly, he stopped. "But this isn't as pleasuring as it should be. I can't hear your screams and panting this way."
He pulled his penis out, and aligned it with her slit.
"Scream all you want. It'll help," he said. His lust had taken him over completely. He didn't mind if she was suffering now, all that was important was his own pleasure.
He pushed his cock against her lips softly at first, but it wouldn't enter her. He thought 'buck it' and pushed with force. His cock slid in, penetrating her at full force. She left a loud yelp, her throat dry from her crying. His shaft was splitting her way too much, causing the coat of her pussy to rip open a bit and was making a trickle of blood come out of it.
The sensation, her screams, it all added up to something like a drug for him. He needed more of it: he needed to hear her suffer and feel her tight hole squeeze around his dick.
Part of his mind wondered how, exactly, all of this had happened. He had never been bothered with the fact that nopony had ever loved him. It was something he felt proud of, even. He used to tell his friends that all they did was waste time with their lovers and that they would never find work like that. Not much time later he had decided to never come out of his house again. Was it the isolation that had led him until this point? It was impossible: he had never been alone for too long. He saw ponies every couple of days. It wasn't that.
"I used... to say that loving somepony was a waste of time..." he whispered to her. "And they used to answer that I would end up like this... they even joked about me raping fillies..." he put his front hooves at sides of her face. "Who would have even known it would really happen? Just wait until they hear about this. I just want to know how they're going to react. Oh, and I also want to hear your reaction..." he said, a little louder, before breaking into a laugh. It was a normal laugh, like the one after a joke. But there wasn't any hope. It would end up ugly any way.
He started his thrusting, not too fast at first. He would take his time to escalate and reach his orgasm. He would enjoy every single second of it. She was breathing loudly and rapidly, her eyes forcefully closed in pain. The feeling of her cunt being ripped open and the blood flowing out of it was a sickening thought to her.
He was speeding up the pace more than he'd like to. The feeling was making him move faster inside of her. Her blood was sticking to his penis, making harder to push it inside her. It also made it more painful. He could tell by the look on her face. And he wasn't even entirely inside her: there were still some inches out of her pussy.
He kept on thrusting in and out of her, grunting a bit. The dry blood was making it a bit difficult to get his cock inside of her without pain. He wanted to go all out. He pushed his entire member inside her, inciting a gasp from her mouth.
He gave a long breath and kept on going. He was doing his best now, as he felt he would come soon. His entire length was being slammed inside her, their bodies slapping together. She had been crying, gasping and letting out small exclamations the entire time. He was getting tired of it. He punched her with one of his front hooves. She answered by pushing his only balance: his other leg. He fell down over her, her horn puncturing through his chest.
A low growl emanated from his mouth, in a mixture of both pain and ire. In-between the abrupt silence, Compound got up, the newly-opened wound staining the sheets with the sanguineous rhythm of the blood drops.
"Piece of garbage..." he roared beneath his breath. "Worthless trash..."
His eyes directed towards hers, immediately recognizing the expression of inner terror in her face.
His gaze went down Dinky's body until it reached her nether regions. They seemed entirely different that a while ago: being forcedly dilated, part of the flesh itself had tore, multiple cuts and wounds being visible. A trickle of blood emerged from between her labia, forming a tiny pool of the crimson fluid over the bed sheets.
"Even at your last and only purpose, you're nothing but a failure..." he spat over her, a demented grin starting to form over his otherwise comprehensive face.
He jumped off the bed, his eyes fixed over a corner of the room that seemed to be engulfed in shadows.
"You'd be much better off dead..." he said between his teeth as he appeared once again, emerging from darkness.
Dinky was submerged in confusion and sharp pain, and felt that she couldn't even make a sound. Between agitated pants, she saw as this character, that now seemed disgusting and grotesque to her, approached her with a chainsaw.
"You'd be surprised at how useful these things are. Making this whole bed would have taken me a lot of time, but thanks to this bad boy, it was easier than anything,” he said, looking at her despectively, as if she was an object that had the sole purpose of bringing him pleasure.
Choking in a silent panic, the filly's gaze passed over and over again by the saw's teeth. She desperately asked herself if there was any way to escape, her eyes flying all across the room. The tenuous lighting was more than enough to reveal everything but a corner that seemed to store shadows; there were no windows to speak of, and the only door was the one from which he had entered.
Screaming will only make it worse, she thought as she began to struggle with her mind. The imminent suffering seemed to approach her too fast for her to think and was swiftly leaving her with no chance for fleeing.
"Now, let's put an end to this."
The filly closed her eyes shut, terrified, asking herself if she would be able to take all the pain. An avalanche of dread took place in her mind when she heard the roar of the chainsaw's motor nearing her. Taken by surprise, she opened up her eyes again, finding Compound right before her, leaning against the bed with an expression of total pleasure.
"I'm glad I've got the chance to use you..."
The cold tone of his voice pierced her heart, a dark confusion engulfing her rationality.
Then, he started to lower the chainsaw slowly, as if to accentuate the fact that there was nothing that she could do to stop him. Almost at the same time, though, he noticed a light glow before his eyes, together with a crescent resistance against the descending movement of the machine.
Dinky's survival desires had kicked in, in midst of her horror and her rushed mission of avoiding any kind of suffering.
Both of their forces fought over the control of the object but, after some seconds, Dinky's adrenaline started to weigh in, slowly winning the battle; Compound, at that, accidentally let go of the chainsaw, the aura around it rising it almost all the way up to the ceiling.
"Damn kid..." he growled beneath his breath, before stopping. "What's that noise...?"
A sound similar to the whistling of the wind was approaching rapidly, becoming louder with every passing second.
Maybe not even an instant later, the sound of the glass shattering broke into the tense ambient. In response to that, the filly's concentration was completely broken, letting the chainsaw fall down.
Who was that?, both of them asked silently.
Inside of the only place that had appeared invisible, it was crystal clear right now: a gray pegasus mare with a yellow mane and shards of broken glass scattered about over the floor next to her. The sunlight passed through the recently-opened, or rather, recently-broken window, revealing several beakers that had broken, forming a pool of strange fluids around the mare's face, who was planted against the floor.
The sound of the chainsaw came again into Dinky's ears, who had her eyes glued to the just arriving mare: her mother.
Before she could even think about it, she felt the metal teeth of the chainsaw hitting her square in the horn.
A snap was heard, the horn chipping in root of the hit's force, breaking into two pieces. The saw itself fell at a side of her face, leaning against and slashing part of her left forehoof.
Two different shouts of pain emanated from different spots in the room, but with the same cause: horrible pain.
Feeling both surprised and lucky, he just took the chainsaw in his teeth, the fresh blood plastered over the bedsheets stirring up his bloodlust, leaving him ready to strike the still howling chainsaw, once again, against the filly.
Engaged with the rapidly realizing possibility of his long-awaited, and now imminent, release against the filly, he was becoming oblivious towards any other sounds, only fixing his eyes over hers, with the chainsaw between his teeth.
Derpy, by her own, had started to stand up, immerged in a disorientating pain: the liquid, whatever it was, seemed to be tearing away the coat that it had touched; the horrible sensation of her corneas being dissolved leaving any reasoning behind her. When at last she managed to do it, she fixed her decaying eyes over the slowly warping figure at around three meters away from her: her daughter; she could still recognize her. Over her was somepony she knew she knew but couldn't recall who it was, both of them splattered with blood.
She might have been a little slow, but her mind would never stay static to those details: as soon as she felt that she could do so, she threw herself over Compound, howling something about how much he would regret not letting her daughter go.
With his attention put over other thing, there was nothing he could do against the pegasus' tackle: he was thrown off the bed together with her. The chainsaw flew out of the grip of his teeth, falling, luckily, over two of the four ropes that tied Dinky, cutting them, leaving her able to move her right legs.
The pegasus mare didn't waste a second and, in the moment they hit the floor, kicked her hooves down on Compound's chest, one of them hitting over the wound caused by Dinky's horn, leaving him with no breath for some valuable seconds.
Immediately after that, she took the saw as steadily as she could and decided to slash the rest of the ropes, the horrible pain spread all over her face making it a tortuous job, but a required one.
After some failed tries, Dinky was entirely free once again and, apparently, only half-conscious in root of the sudden escalating shock.
Two things happened at the same time: Compound managed to stand up once again and Derpy took her daughter and flew as fast as she could towards the broken window.
Her already malfunctioning eyes tricked her by making her miss the estimation of the room's size: before she could change her trajectory, she smashed against the wall with astonishing force, missing the window for just centimeters.
Compound, submerged in an euphoria of bloodlust, took the chainsaw once again, before running towards the same window, maliciously chuckling to himself.
Derpy, giving her everything, managed to take off again and, in a frenzy, did anything that she could to at least save her daughter's life.
Maybe not even a second later, Dinky felt her body being softly left over the patch of grass past the window, together with the deep growl of the chainsaw’s motor getting uncomfortably close. In-between the disorienting noise, a pain-filled gasp could be felt before what had to be the most horrible shriek to ever reach the filly’s ears. She knew exactly what had just happened, and the mind-crushing shock rendered her unable to even muster enough courage to run away. Frozen in her spot, she listened to the dissonant symphony of insanity and suffering happening right behind her in utter horror and silence.
In a lucky despair-fueled upward slash, the tooth struck the mare’s ribcage, partially gnawing through her bones for just an instant. The unexpected hit, when summed up to the searing pain emanating from her swiftly-rotting eyes and her sight loss, left her with no hope for another coincidence. It had been enough of a coincidence that she had arrived in the first place, and now her so-called luck was playing against her for what surely would be the last time. Lost between her thoughts and her involuntary pained howls, she could see nothing but a better future for her little girl.
Ah, how different it felt, how surreal! How disjointed from her current situation, just as disjointed as the wing a second chainsaw hit managed to snap off. With only one wing, she dropped to the ground, completely hopeless. But it all didn’t matter; pain was overflowing over her and it seemed to be fading away as memories began to flood inside of her mind.
Outside, it didn’t matter how much of her body was being mutilated if, in the inside, she could re-live those moments. A third, or maybe a fourth, strike came, and with it the sickening feeling of being ripped open. Her sight was almost completely gone but, in her mind, she could see just what she had been wishing to see; her pretty little filly would be just okay, ready to become just like her mother in the world of tomorrow.
She was fading away from existence. She could barely feel her body anymore, but she was sure of the fact that her hip had been separated from the rest of her body, and that there was something in her neck. It was rather warm, and it felt like it was smeared with some sort of substance.
It will be all over, she thought, hearing a chuckle an instant before the dreaded chainsaw motor started up once again. The last thing she felt was her head being separated from her body, her throat snapping in half as it was ripped off.
Laughter erupted from the inside of the room: a dissonant sound layered over the roar of the motor.
"That's what you get, you whore!" he exclaimed, his voice filled with pride. "I bet you were too intoxicated to even bother with flying right! Were they too rough with ya back in that hole you call home, you slut!?"
The sickening sound of her internal organs being ripped off their places was discernible on the background, together with his frenzied rambling as he started to get more and more aroused.
"You're still warm... in heat even after death, huh? Didn't expect less from you..." he whispered, a cruel grin plastered on his face. "When I heard you were going to Canterlot to work on a brothel, I knew it wasn't a lie! And I'll be your first client...!"
Dinky heard those words drift through her ears, but couldn't understand them: to her, it was nothing but the nonsensical delusions of a crazy colt, but even then, she couldn't help but to try, without realizing it, to find a meaning to his speech.
"Ah! Ah, your sphincter just... mmm, tight..." he moaned in a quivering voice, as he thrust himself in and out her motionless body. "You would have made a perfect slut... oh wait, you were the perfect slut..."
His tone of voice continued to rise from a low-volume snarl to a shout, the sound of their bodies slapping together joined the ambient, layered over the sound of the blood flowing out Derpy's body, mixing with all the other fluids.
"Mmm, if only your daughter were here... I bet she's a screamer... I can't wait to get that Raindrops, though, I've heard she's-- ah, great! Your dirty whore, you like that, don't you!?"
Over the course of long minutes, Dinky endured the increasingly louder and crazier screams of Compound, the sickening sound of her mother's body being both filled and emptied always on the background, always on her mind, impossible to ignore.
A scream like nothing she had heard emanated from the room: it sounded like both an agonizing and a pleasured shout.
"Ahhh...! Nothing too bad for you..."
His agitated breath was the only sound audible sound for a long while, before the dreaded sound of the chainsaw roared up once again.
"I'll leave you in pieces, just like your life was... and then, we'll meet again..."
The fading sound of the chainsaw assaulted her ears, repeating itself over and over again as she refused to believe in what she had just witnessed, layered below a disembodied weep of pain over the sound of flesh and muscle tearing apart.
Broken in both the inside and the outside, she jumped inside the house once again, a piece of broken glass scraping against her right hind-leg.
She landed over a pool of blood, her mother's right wing smeared and partially covered in the crimson fluid.
Without saying a word, she looked around in hopes of finding the rest of her mother. The very thought of having to seek for pieces of her mother made her feel sick and lightheaded, like she was about to pass out.
Only a few seconds passed before noticing a gray figure lying on floor, just some steps away. Behind the capacity of rational thought, Dinky just walked towards it, her mind still reminding her of the horrified screams that had filled the place just some minutes ago.
When she finally reached her destination, she looked down at it: she could make out the scapula at one end, a hole where one the wings should have been in the center and the sacral vertebrae ending suddenly at the other side, together with the recently torn off tail just inches away. This was her mother's torso; it expelled a sickening, noxious stench.
She jumped over it, apparently not noticing that it had been opened, and slipped over the guts, crashing face-first into the ground. Her already severed horn snapped over once again, tiny fragments of bone detaching themselves off the chipped horn. The sticky sensation of her mother's internal organs pressing against her body made bile trickle out from the corners of her mouth. Submerged in nausea and pain, she tightly grasped whatever it was that was around her, ripping the guts out of their place and making them land over her like a demented bed-sheet.
Something inside of her had gone and would never come back. Her mother was dead, and together with her, a large part of her daughter had passed away as well.
She coughed, regurgitating the cookies that Compound had given to her. Effortlessly, the half-digested mass slid out of her muzzle, falling onto the floor before her, its stench mixing with the already nauseating scent of blood and bodily waste, flaring up in her nostrils as she began to lose her perception of time. She turned back, wrapping her fore-legs around her mother's body in a hugging motion.
She lay in the blood-soaked floor for who knows how long before hearing a voice in the distance. Her ears perked up as she turned around, the intestines still over her. It was the voice of a mare, and sounded rather familiar to Dinky.
"I think she landed here... eh, what's up with the windo--" the voice rambled on, before stopping suddenly.
"Heavens have mercy! What... what happened here?" it asked nopony in particular, looking through the broken glass. "Is that a...?"
Dinky shook the chopped up guts out of over her, as her eyes recognized the mare as soon as she saw her.
"Raindrops!" she called out in a surprisingly normal tone.
"GAH! Who's there!?" the mare responded frantically, trying to take off; her wings clipped at her sides, unable to unfold. "S-s-show yourself!" she shouted in a quivering voice. The surprise of seeing that yes, indeed, there was not only one but two corpses in front of you was trumped by the shock of noticing that there's a third being that is alive between the scattered remains of what used to be ponies, which of itself was nothing compared to your name being uttered by said being.
"Raindrops, it's me, Dinky Hooves!"
The phrase hit the aforementioned mare hard as hail.
"What!? Then who--"
A silence took over the ambient. Dinky and Raindrops shared a look of incredulity, before Raindrops continued.
"D-Derpy...?" she asked, her normally joyful tone of voice being replaced by the sound of pure agony. "W-why..." she trailed off, almost inaudible, as the cold stab of reality pierced through her heart.
The door opened slowly, as the filly inside absent-mindedly rambled in a seemingly nonsensical topic. Some days had passed since her mother had been murdered. The mare that had just entered managed to make out an entire phrase of her rant before they noticed eachother.
"She is the beginning of my suffering, and I will be the one to take matters into my own hooves and take care of putting a stop to her life, and together with that, a halt to my own pain."
A nervous laugh emanated from her lips as she tried to repress those memories, the reminiscences of the fatidic moments that tormented her in her scarce moments of tranquility after the awful event. Her eyes moved all across the room, never being able to find a comfortable position; Raindrops was still in front of her with and expression of intrigue and bafflement. She had just arrived from the post office, as every day since the tragic accident, missing her lunch break for the fourth day.
"...What do you say that for...?" asked the pegasus, lost inside her own memories. The shock of receiving the news that a pony she knew had not only murdered her best friend, but had also quartered her and had had his own way with her remains had struck her with enough force, but the fact of being able to see the great amount of collateral damage caused by such a despicable act crushed her soul into microscopic pieces.
Dinky couldn't answer. A smile that only denoted a complete inner devastation was the only distinguishable feature in her immobile, emotionless body.
Between the two of them, a long silence was had; a silence that, when inside the cold walls of a room of the psychiatric hospital, only seemed to break their hearts more every time the clock hands snapped. That sound, so distant to their conversation, was the only indicator they had of the fact that the time they had spent together was nothing but part of the past. Strangely enough, none of them had shed a single tear; the sheer mind-crushing sadness of the situation had deprived them of emotions, leaving them with nothing but superficial smiles that would never express their true thoughts and feelings.
"I can only hear his voice when I think," said Dinky, suddenly. Her voice proved to be the last straw to the yellow mare: a monotonous voice, lacking any trace of empathy or life, not even close to her typical energetic voice, filled with dreams and hopes. The pegasus burst into tears, throwing her hooves around the filly.
"What happened to you!?" she shouted in desperation. "Where is that bright-eyed filly I knew!?"
"She's gone." The indifference present in Dinky's cold words broke her heart. "She has gone and she will never be able to come back."
The silence came back, a sole question plaguing Raindrops's mind: Is it possible to maker her go back?
"Dinky, listen to yourself! Is there a reason behind all of this!? What happened that day, exactly? I can... I might not be your mother, but I will be whatever and everything you may need! I can be your mother if you wish for me to do so. I want to be like her, I want to feel your love, and how does it feel like when others deposit all of their hopes over me!" she sobbed openly, looking at her receiver directly and steadily in the eyes.
"It's always about yourself, isn't it...?" responded Dinky in a low volume, her voice sounding more like a cruel sneer.
"Selfishness has led us up until this very instant, Dinky. You see, my own egoism has propelled me towards doing all of this, just like my mediocrity didn't impulse me to find that damned Raindrops and tell her what I feel. Your selfishness consists on putting your life's prize too high, just like my egoism of wanting you all just for me. You're not important to me, but you're the only way I have to reach my main objective; when I finished with you, I'll go for your mother and then I'll reach that Raindrops. Bah, what an idiotic name. Raindrops, just like the droplets of suffering that will inevitably rain over her."
The filly's voice, even when soft, exhibited a deep hatred towards everypony. The pegasus could only look in astonishment at the unicorn in front of her. Had those been Compound's words? Was that it? It was all her fault?
"I'm... I'm so sorry," she mumbled, her words bordering in incomprehensible, unable to look at Dinky directly. "All of this has been my fault."
"It's everyone's fault. It’s both nopony's and everypony's fault."
"How can you be so indifferent?" asked Raindrops, engulfed by indignation.
"After suffering with this intensity for a long time, you start to forget how happiness feels like. At least I'll be able to get those memories back when I find that pegasus and ra--" Dinky kept on talking, her eyes focusing in a far away spot in one of the walls, before being hushed by one of the hooves of the turquoise-maned pegasus.
"Say no more, dear. I'll be back from work later and I'll take you home. We'll live... a life together. I've made my decision," said Raindrops, in-between sighs. The tears that rolled down her face didn't even matter in that moment. "I can only ask you... for you to forget about pain. He's not with us anymore and he won't be able to hurt us for any longer."
"...He said that you wouldn't hurt anypony after he finished with you."
A long while passed after before a word was uttered once again.
"I love just as much as your mother did, Dinky, and I'll never leave something bad happen to you. Not... like it happened to me. Rest as much as you can and never forget who you are. See you... later."
Having said this, the pegasus mare bowed before the filly before leaving the hospital, her still present sobs hiding a determination-filled grin.
Dinky looked at the sky once again, just like every single day since the horrible incident. A letter fell from the skies, hitting the window of her room before continuing its fall.
"You will always live... in our hearts..."
"Where are you taking me to...? I thought we were going... h-home..."
"There's something I need you to see," replied, almost immediately, the pegasus.
They walked down the road from the hospital, in direction to the town hall. The color of the sunset plagued everything in sight, filling it with a nostalgic value as the both of them remember the recently demised pony.
Raindrops stopped in her tracks suddenly with her eyes lost in the wide skies.
"Are you alright?" asked the filly after a while. Raindrops herself seemed to be out of her self, completely stationary.
"Dinky..." she said slowly.
"Y-yes?"
"Do you fit... in this bag...?"
The unicorn filly lowered her gaze towards the aforementioned object: a bag that was usually filled with letters, but now was completely empty. Had she planned this?
"Ah... I think... w-why...?"
The yellow-coated mare left out a sigh, closing her eyes for a moment.
"I need you to... enter it."
Before Dinky could answer, she continued talking:
"I've heard your mother say that she had always wanted to take you and fly with you some day and... I really feel like that it's my duty to make that a reality. Maybe... maybe I'm not her, but, just like she would, I swear I'll give my everything for you. She... she knew that her condition was troubling for a pegasus, let alone a mailmare, but everyday she said that, even when the job seemed daunting and nigh impossible for her, she'd do it all because of you. Many, many times I heard her talk to herself, saying that she would never give up when it was about her daughter..."
When she finished, both of them shared a sorrowful look.
"I'd love to go... with you..." said the filly in a low voice, tears slowly running down her face. "I love... you..."
Raindrops just looked at her, but with a little smile on her face this time. Derpy was right, she thought: Her daughter really is worth all the trouble she was going through.
"And I love you too, sweetie. Now come on, there are many things I want to show you."
And after some shuffling about, Dinky popped her head out of the leather bag as Raindrops extended her wings.
"You'll see such pretty things..."
"A-anything wrong, Miss Raindrops...?"
"Ah, no, nothing... nothing..."
The still fresh air of Cloudsdale flowed through their manes as they flew through it. Raindrops had started with naming the landmarks of the city and explaining what their purpose was, but after some of them, she just stopped.
"I'll just... take you to one more place and then... then we'll go..." said the pegasus, approaching the place that had changed completely since her friend's demise.
After some minutes where the only sound was the flapping of wings, the mare slowed down to a halt in mid-air in front of a building.
"The- the post office?" asked Dinky, feeling a knot in her throat. She remembered her mother saying that she would show her daughter her workplace someday.
Raindrops didn't answer and only left out an almost mute sigh before dropping to the cloud floor with a thud, before walking into the edification.
The doors opened, the building itself unnervingly quiet.
"Your mother gave me a letter a week ago... she said that I had to give it to you when she was gone..."
Dinky stuttered something, puzzled:
"Did mommy know that she would...?"
"No... not at all. She was... going to Canterlot for quite a long time, and she told me to take care of you..."
Jumping outside the leather bag and landing on the ceramic floor, Dinky looked around the place: walls filled with papers going on about the mailing process, together with drawings that ponies had sent. She could recognize some of them, even. Before she could ask Raindrops anything, she directed towards a seemingly random door and just slid inside in silence.
And then she saw it.
There it was, on the wall: her drawing, a drawing of her mother working, a determined grin on her face. It was laying over a desk filled with other papers.
"This is the place where the letters that have been sent to the post office itself end up."
"...Why is my drawing--?"
"She used to look at it everyday. She always said that she... was so proud of you..."
A silence took over the room as Dinky approached the desk in a mute intrigue.
"This letter has my name on it," she announced in a whisper that barely reached Raindrops' ears.
"That's... the one..."
"Can I read it?"
"I'm not forcing you... But if you want, you can take it with you... I'm a little bit tired since I cleared the mailbag all by my own..."
"...I want to read it here."
"Okay, Dinky... I know, I'm struck by all this as well, but I really need you to listen what I'm about to say now."
"My mother wasn't going to leave me, was she!?" asked the filly, desperately. After reading her mother's last letter, she had understood the fact that she was forced to move towards the capital city, to find a better job as a mailmare, and had understood her worries about her daughter back in Ponyville; but when she passed her eyes over the phrases that went on about how long she would be away, there was something in Dinky's head that triggered a reaction of incredulity.
"S-she was just leaving for some months, it isn't that much..." replied the mare after some seconds. All that she wanted was to get Dinky to understand the situation. "Now, please, listen to me..." she continued; only to stop to leave the words sink in. What she was about to say would be difficult.
"The... the..." she muttered, failing to put together the phrase. "The funeral is tomorrow," she bolted out, then, after taking a deep breath.
Silence was the only answer.
"I don't want to hurt you, sweetie, but this is necessary. After that, we'll be a family, together..." she said, her voice quivering. "I'll--"
"Don't worry... we'll... be fine..." mumbled the filly, as she reached the end of the letter. "That's what it says," she finished the phrase, showing the letter to Raindrops.
"But don't worry, we'll be fine, I know it," said the pegasus as she read, leaving out a shy smile.
"...Your mother will never forget you... neither will I..."
"Ah, poor Dinky... how difficult it must be to live through this... a funeral, at her age...? And it's her mother's funeral!? Talk about brutal..." mumbled Raindrops as the filly fell asleep. It seemed like she would adjust pretty fast. "What might have Derpy wanted to say to her daughter...?"
The letter was laying over the desk, opened, the crude and shaky writing inside being literally a trademark of her mother.
"Dear Dinky, my daughter...
I know you don't know this, but I felt it was completely unfair that you wouldn't be able to know, so... I'll tell you anyway.
We, as a family, have been struck with very hard times, and I don't think that working in Ponyville can maintain us anymore. That is the sole reason of why I'm going to Canterlot to seek a new place to work as a mailmare. I would never change my job, since I love it.
...But I don't love it as much as I love you.
Daughter, you're the sunshine of my life. Dawn would mean nothing if it weren't for you. I wouldn't even bother with getting out of bed if you weren't there: because I love you, and I will always do so. I know that I can get mean with you sometimes, but everything I do, I do it for you, and then for me. I don't want for you to grow up like me; I want for you to be the mare that you've always dreamed.
No matter what they tell you, I'll always be there for you, and you know that very well.
You're the willpower for me to keep on going, even when the job is hard for me.
Every morning when I wake up, I ask myself what am I going to do to make your life better. My life isn't that important when compared to yours, after all...
Most of my workmates ask me how does it feel like, to have a daughter that is my reason to keep on doing what I love.
I will always answer the same:
"It's the best feeling I've ever felt."
No amount of words, no amount of actions would even begin to explain how much I care about you. Whenever I'm in doubt, you're there. And I hope that, someday, you'll be able to say the same about your own daughter.
But enough of that, because the tears are staining the paper and the shivers are making it a tad too hard for me to write.
When I part towards Canterlot, which will be in a week or two, I'll leave you with Raindrops. She's my best friend and a great worker, so don't you fret. I think you know her and both of you have a great relationship.
But don't be sad, darling. I don't know very well when will I return, but I promise you it won't be too long. We'll be together again before you even notice, of that I'm sure.
This is actually one of many letters I've written to you, but this is the most important one and the only one I've truly put my heart into. If you ever feel like reading them, ask Raindrops about them. She'll know what you're talking about immediately.
Oh, they're calling us. I think there's a package we need to deliver. My wing is stiff and it hurts a bit... but thinking of you will make me forget any kind of pain.
I love you, Dinky, and that will never change. I know that being away from you will be very difficult, and that's something I'd like to never happen, but don't worry, we'll be fine, I know it.
~D. Hooves."
