Time is Required to Conquer the Past

by Anna_Dash

Rating: teen
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Rainbow Dash, Sad, Romance, Fluttershy, Violence, Wonderbolts, Twilight Sparkle, Main 6
Length: 2738

A traumatizing experience is often wholesomely hard to conquer and devour. How will Rainbow Dash feel when she realizes the trouble she got into, with a certain acquaintance of hers?

Convenience combined with vile cruelness are considered to be sins, yet, desire for some. Pleasure detected in pain for others, yet, simply committed. Not only physical, but attacking emotions, this thirsty and greedy desire.
Is this process caused by a true being's wish, or an unfortunate chemical accident?

Rainbow Dash has always been a lively mare, but she has made the biggest mistake of her life. How will she cope with her fairy tale life being snatched away by....... The stallion she has always loved her whole life?

(Partly inspired by Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde)

Published 2019-10-29 20:10:01 UTC
Last updated 2019-11-01 19:40:10 UTC

Prolouge

Complex, sensational, yet, deprived of all mannerisms and characteristics considered to be called a safe environment. Devouring a being’s soul of its qualities and emotions completely, traumatizing any normal mind, piercing through any useful features. Snatching away and kind of freedom, confidence, independence, or any contact with society. As simple as it seems, with a blink of an eye, separated from the world, and, as time passes by, easily being forgotten by family. Close friends. Love interests. Colleagues. Acquaintances. Designated to not fulfilling your dreams and desires. Your hope, fading away, like tiny black silhouettes, descending and blending in with the dreadful truth: nothingness. As if every little moment, every achievement, every ambition, every obligation was a mere illusion, coloring reality in what would seem like a fairy tale dream. Though, what tragedy would occur if you decided to delve deeper. To delve so deep, to discover the true form of reality: One which you soon must learn to accept, since it’s all you’ve ever looked for. The truth, and nothing more. Most say there is a lot to live for, a lot to look forward and lots of more chances to experience the full extent of life: joy and accomplishments. But, what exactly, was the true full extent of life? What was there to live for? Was it only enjoying peace and tranquility, gossiping away like a drama queen, appreciating a healthy and hard earned life style, spending time and taking care of those you care for, or rather, those who come to you for help, having to deal with balancing joy and happiness, or, rather, also being free and independent. Soaring through the skies, embellishing the clouds with graceful colors and maneuvers, adjusting friendship problems, and so much more. Who would expect such a flattering tale to twist entirely? Well, by consequences, of course. The occurring of such consequences based on such foolishness and false trust. Backstabbing. Hatred. Anger. Vile anger. Vile, furious rage, vicious and sadistic desire. Why would somebody close to you- an acquaintance, or rather a friend, a close friend, cause this pain…. Directly to you? Free of any care or emotion. Cruelty and egoism resting in such a being…. A hidden beast. A beast that you decide to trust entirely. Curiosity has fooled many. Curiosity directly appointed to viewing how a certain relationship would turn out has broken many hearts. A faint heart, filled with loyalty, bravery, intellect in some places, love scattering its entire surface. That’s what would appear on the outside. Delving deeper into its contents, it would reveal the dark truth:

Nothingness.

As I snapped back into reality, pushing away my thoughts into the back of my head, I suddenly pushed myself as high up into my bed as my feeble and dehydrated body could. I felt a slight sensation of pain in my right hoof, suddenly remembering what had happened. I took hold of my surrounding, noticing and realizing the familiar situation I was in. White, checkered floor. Draped walls. A small window on my right side, illuminating and piercing the center of the room with a white light: faint, yet visible. The moon had already unleashed its hold of energy, combining the effort of its 'cousins', the stars, giving out a pretty big hint that princess Luna was on duty already. I glanced at my teal sheets, the only source to heat that I could get in this blizzard of a climate. I smiled to myself, nobody around to see my pathetic state, huh? I was once again in the hospital, a place I used to call home, I was so used to visiting it. This time, however, the reason for my coordinates and ending up in this hospital were not because I performed an awesome stunt, or because I accomplished some serious achievement in strength or agility. The reason was...... That I was toyed with. I let another pony take advantage of me. H-harass me.... It was an unspeakable experience. I was a coward, and I just let go. And by whom was I toyed? By a stallion, by the name of..... Ah...... I don't quite remember....... I may have been diagnosed with a not very serious case of amnesia, this amnesia only affecting my most recent memories, or former details.
This was so pathetic, I swore to never tell anypony about this. Not even my friends. They weren't here to accompany me. At least I wouldn't stoop down to that level, depending on other ponies to help me deal with a mere experience, that would soon collapse. I'm not any ph- ph....? I'm not a ph person to determine whatever would happen to the brain during these somehow tough experiences and tragedies.... But I would get through, being the ambitious mare I am. Yeah, there we have it, one of the thoughts I love having. My hoof's severe wounds suddenly began drastically increasing in pain, making me almost scream in agony. Yes. I did scream, but with my other hoof covering my mouth. Muffling my screams was a fair method while dealing with injuries, I didn't want anypony to hear me instead of myself. I wanted everypony to view me as this awesome character I would always create for myself. She wasn't a coward. She didn't let anypony down. She wouldn't let anypony take advantage of her unwillingly. She was independent, strong, beautiful, athletic. The perfect personality..

As I slowly pushed away my sheets, they revealed a crimson wound.

Bloody crimson, trickling down the knife as the masked figure dashed head and forth.

The sound of glass breaking.

The scent of rose.

The aura of cologne.

The atmosphere slowly turning black.

A thump on the floor.

Tears dropping on the floor.

Police sirens.

.................................

Gone.

The process replayed in my head, as I acknowledged my sudden speed in improvement of remembering flashbacks. But, it was not enough. I was eager to delve deeper, and find out more. It wasn't enough. More. More. More. More was required to figure out the truth. I-
My heart began thumping louder and louder, as I failed to gain consciousness. I slowly descended in my bed, resting in for a long night's sleep, the wind helping me in the process, as it tucked in the sheets nearer towards my vulnerable wound, hiding it from any sources of infection.

No matter what, I was going to prove that I was capable of solving this case on my own. No matter what.....

Author's Note

Oh god...... Oh my god........
The first time I ever decided to make this type of fic..... I've never seriously attempted in making a dark/violent fic so I'll see how this turns out in the future.....

I'm pretty open to some tips and advice on how I could proceed with the story, also I know it seems a bit too rushed for the first chapter, but........ Ah..... I have no excuse for my laziness this time.

Overwhelming Pain

The clock irritatingly ticked every second, robbing me of my recent, rare delight when resting in a hospital.

Tick.

Tock.

Tick.

Tock.

It felt like minutes. Maybe even days. Might as well be months. Then evolving into years. I sat there motionless on my bed, an arrogant, cacophonous buzzing sound growing larger in my ears. Agh- my head began aching even more than it usually would, as if a spider was constantly tickling my brain, developing silver webs inside. I stuck my tongue out at that exchange of circumstances, my condition worsening as I proceeded intentionally thinking those thoughts. A way to pass time, huh? I stared up at the ceiling, noticing the cerulean, puffy clouds. Such...... Etiquette and seldom met material. Unsuitable for a....... Grotesque and obtuse environment for pegasi, -Ponyville.
Puffy clouds.
Contumaciously, I zealously wanted to.... Disrupt the awkward tranquility surrounding me. The mellifluous, sweet, peaceful quiet. Many would consider such thoughts rather rancid, but.......... Something in my head was ushering me to do just that.... Something I couldn't explain. Nonplussed, I turned stridently towards the other side of my bed, shaking my head, and eagerly expecting to fall asleep and calm myself. A redolent smell caught my attention soon enough, making me the slightest bit dizzy.
I managed to comprehend a serious expression on my face upon realizing I wouldn't get any rest any time soon. A water drop fell down on my already dampened and straight hair, trickling down to my delicate, soft skin. Cold, my body began shivering, something that often wouldn't approach me whenever I experience anything of the sort. l As an immediate reaction my face lit up with concern, and my heartbeat's major speed increased.

He was wearing a tall, black, comely top hat. A black coat, his eyes glistening in the darkness as he swiveled around my motionless body. I still had that sharp, bloody knife tight in my grasp, despite the constant pain, as a way to defend myself as much as I could. A tear trickled down my face, dropping to my delicate, soft, crimson skin as he insanely, yet, with such rhapsody proceeded to laugh, as if he were on the verge of tears himself.

Hopeless. Admirable and successful confrontation consisted of the polar opposite. Hope.
A smirk managed to cross my face, compatible to the one of the vile murderer's.
He was pathetic. Not me.
My wings agitated as I realized they were still attached to my back, that stallion threatening and, surprisingly and fortunately perjuring they were going to be no more.
My passion. Flying.
My thoughts transformed into a haphazard of wilderness. I ceased smirking. He was going to take away my purpose. My feathered wings. He was going to take away my life. And I wouldn't be able to reclaim it ever again. Him. It was him.

Tick

Tock

Tick

Tock

What was this hospital anyways? There wasn't any nurse or doctor to check up on me? Well, then again, I wanted to be alone, and that wouldn't be a problem, but still. I wanted to go back to my cloud mansion or whatever. I glanced over at my severely injured hoof, preventing my self from screaming in agony again. My tears welled up with searing pain. It was day already, and the sun had risen up, illuminating the room with scorching yellow beams, piercing my eyes with light and pain even more. I wanted to get up and pull down the darn curtains, but I couldn't get up. My physical strength was wasted. I accidentally put my wounded hoof over my eye, and I let out a high-pitched scream as a few blood drops trickled down from my hoof into my eyes. I ceased my shriek afterwards to put my healthy hoof over my mouth, as I realized the commotion I had made. It was too late already.

"Great.... Just great......"- I soliloquized, sighing forcefully, and letting out a small chuckle.

I could hear a few mumbled voices from the outside corridor, causing me to shrink into my sheets. Somepony had heard me, after all. I cursed under my breath, inhaling and exhaling heavily.
The mumbled voices grew larger and larger, along with the diabolical heavy hoof stomping. Now they, whoever or whatever they were, were making even more commotion than I had done previously. As I quoted something from some famous pony into the back of my head, I decided to look on the bright side. Maybe they were going to finally announce that I could go back home and out of this hell.

The door creaked open, ajar, revealing a tall pegasus stallion with a yellow coat and an indigo cross as a cutie mark. An almost equally tall mare accompanied him, with a blue coat, a shade lighter than the cyan coat of my own. Complimenting her facial features, she had a long, flourishing white mane that swayed back and forth.
My vision was blurred as I glared arrogantly towards the supposed doctor and nurse. I blinked my magenta eyes several times, attempting to try to recognize the couple.
My eyes focused clearly upon the pair, now noticing that their mouths were open wide, as they stared into each other.

"What-"- I could make out a hoarse whisper, opposing of my usual ebullient, effervescent voice. At least it hadn't lost its rasp.
They repulsively glared at me, returning the favor. I grunted at their rude reaction, as the mare shook her head, staring at her colleague with a look of sympathy in her eyes, then towards me with a look of a serpentine's glare. I sighed, and mumbled some berserk thing under my breath, returning the 'favor'.

The superior doctor cleared his throat, progressing and staring at me strictly, as if he were having a staring contest with me.

"Miss Dash."- he conceitedly said, and I took note that I appealed to him as a mental patient.

"Yes?"- I suppressed my thoughts and succeeded to speak in a clearer and higher-pitched tone - a voice rivaling that of a gleeful child's excitement when receiving a super new advanced toy. The doctor sighed, and took out his clipboard and pen, preparing to declare his demands for answers.

"Now, tell me Miss Dash, what was that shriek all about?"- he inquired relevantly.

"Ah- I......"- I began sweating profusely, glancing towards the window for a quick second.
The doctor put his clipboard back into his leather bag.

"Ah, you know, it doesn't matter. I guess you can just sign these papers, - the doctor pulled out a few sheets,- So you can finally obtain your health requirements and prepare for your department."- he said, lending me the sheets of paper and pen.

A forced and irritating, painful beam managed to cross my face. I smiled at the doctor and the nurse, as I went over to a desk to sign the papers, ignoring my crimson, painful wounds.

"Miss Dash?"- the stallion called my name, and I turned to face him.

"Since you are an official, successful identity for our country, it's necessary that we know where you will be going next so we deport you."

"Oh, I'm just returning to my hometown, Ponyville. And wow, I guess I'm glad somepony finally knows about the Elements of Harmony.. Heh."- I said with an unfortunate and failed attempt at a smirk, my head throbbing in piercing pain, while wondering what he meant. We-we were in Ponyville already.

He unleashed his sharp blade, slashing it into the crimson chair, splinters flying in opposite directions.

The medical professionals exchanged intense looks of concern.

"Miss Dash............ Ponyville doesn't exist. Neither do the........ Ah, 'Elements of Harmony'."- the doctor stated calmly, dumping a large pile of information on top of my already unstable mind, as I dropped my pen in disbelief. I began sweating again, putting my hoof to my hot forehead. My heartbeat increased drastically and I was about to faint.

"Miss Dash. I see the coma has taken a big effect on your mental aspects."

My head hit the floor, and everything..... Blacked out.

"You are currently, still, a very important identity to our society, but most have forgotten you even existed. It's been a fairly long time, and your colleagues and friends still worry about you to this day."

"I promise I'll return, guys."- I turned to a group of ponies, as I entered the cloudy form of transport with my companion, about to begin my tour. Their faces were blurred, but I could notice they were all pegasi.

"I suggest we deport you to Cloudsdale ourselves, Miss Dash."

I stared at the blank walls of the hospital. They were all clouds.
' Las Pegasus Medical Institute'
No. This wasn't real. My friends were real. They weren't pigments of my mind. This was just a dream. Just pinch yourself. You'll see. This wasn't real. This wasn't real. This wasn't real.

"Like the outfits I made you, darlings?

No.

"Oh-umm... Sorry if I upset you.

No.

"Hello, I see you're new to Ponyville! Yay! I can be your first friend!"

Impossible.

"Diddly darn! Y'all alright, sugar cube? You're sweating as heavily as a worm during apple bucking season."

.......................................
I was.

"The spark...... The last element..... It all connects! The Elements of Harmony must consist of six elements! The one uniting all- Magic!"

The Magic of Friendship.
It wasn't real.
All of this wasn't real.

"Miss Dash.................?"