Why you should never trust anyone who should know everything about your future

Day 0
I think I have hit another low point.

The events of Leason Zero had taken place today. I honestly don't know what to say about it. I mean again I knew that was going to happen. But still it hurt to see Twilight like that.

I wrote the letter to Princess Celestia today with Spike that something was wrong with Twilight. I think my wording of the situation is better than that of Spike. But I was never the best writer in anything. Despite everything, everyone seems to have noticed my accounting talent.

Which is why I got the nickname Stallarsch. What ever. I actually wanted to talk about talking to Twilight tonight:

As usual, I was with her until late in the evening. It started by asking me a simple question. To which I personally had no answer.

"Redhron do I sometimes worry about everything?" Twilight said to me.

"Twilight there are never things you don't have to worry about," I said calmly to her. If I noticed one thing in the past few months, it was the fact that I valued me as a conversation partner. She liked to talk to me at night about things that she would otherwise not share with anyone.

"Then why do all the things I worry about always end in disaster?" Asked Twilight.

"Twilight not everything ends in disaster. I am the best example of this. I'm still very grateful that you made me your student. You were also worried when you started teaching me dark magic. Now it all works without problems. “I told her in a friendly tone.

"It is very interesting how quickly you learn who you consider that you are still a foal," said Twilight.

"Was it different with you?" I asked.

" No not at all. It is nice to find someone after all this time who is like me and who probably has a better time here in Ponyville than I did in my foal time in Canterlot, ”said Twilight.

"Anything else you want to talk about?" I asked

"Yes, I want to say thank you for your behavior today.
It feels good to have a friend who doesn't ignore all my problems and makes fun of them, ”said Twilight.

"What about Spike? He took care of you, ”I said. Although I immediately noticed the stupidity of this statement.

“But Spike is a family member. It is clear that he is worried. According to official documents, he is only my brother. But I think he looks at me much more like a mother. After all, I'm the pony that hatched and raised him. At that moment, just notice he gives it back to me, ”said Twilight.

"I understand Twilight," I said.

"Still, I want to tell you that you have something good with me for the whole thing today. Everything I told you remains between us? ”Asked Twilight.

"Yes it will always be," I said.

Day 390

Now I will write normally again with the days. If nothing special is happening.

Recently this whole Mare Do Welle was a thing. No I didn't take part because I thought it was treason. Rainbow Dash also has its reasons to be as it is. Nobody can force them to change.

They also never wrote a letter about it, by the way. But well I followed her afterwards when the whole thing came out to her home. After all, I've been able to do the magic of walking on clouds for a long time.

So I wanted to talk to Rainbow Dash about this whole incident. Not to show her that I judge her no, but to show that I am loyal to her as a friend.

So it was early evening when she got to her house. I won't use any floating magic so quickly. That was almost too much for my foal horn.

When I was there I knocked on her door and waited.
She actually opened it. When she saw who was at the door, she just said:

"It's you little one then come in quietly."

I ran in and closed the door behind me.
"Hello Rainbow Dash. I just wanted to ask you one thing. How does it come to be betrayed? "

"To be honest I hate this feeling that I am a foal. This is probably due to my element but also to things that I saw as a foal, ”said Rainbow Dash.

"Which things exactly? I'm just interested. ”I said.

"So you really want to know? Well I didn't have the best time as a foal. Clearly my parents support me in many things. But that doesn't change the fact that I was born in cloudsdale. I was born in the area where the simple workers lived. I can only remember the dilapidated buildings with 6 to 10 courtyards.
Before you ask Fluttershy was born in another part of Clouddale and then lived there. She doesn't know everything from back then and how bad it was for me. “Said Rainbow Dash and took a short breath.

“From the day I was born I had to struggle with need like so many others in cloudsdale and so many went on today. In the end my father got a promotion and we ran away from there. I may have only lived there for 5 years but I saw everything. Cloudsdale has always had a problem with differently thinking ponies, little people and political refugees are fleeing from there en masse. I do not belong to either of the two groups but I still cut off your life there if you are a simple weather pony controlled from morning to evening. That's why I ran away from there. Not because of Fluttershy who it is at least my second main reason. “Said Rainbow Dash before she came to the last part of her story.

"If you are just a normal weather pony without transportation then you will be treated like a piece of garbage. That is why I have set myself the goal of becoming a wonderbolt. Therefore I am like I am so that I can show the government from there that every pony can do something. That's why this whole Mare Do Welle thing hurt me so much, ”said Rainbow Dash

In the end, the whole conversation left quite an impression on me. I will report every 50 days from now on.