I Will Be Her Guard

by ThatWritingDragon

Rating: teen
Tags: Adventure, Violence, Princess Celestia, Sex, Sunset Shimmer, Twilight Sparkle, Main 6, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Alternate Universe, Romance, Princess Luna
Length: 8812

Instead of being Princess Celestia's Student, Twilight Sparkle strives to be The Personal Guard of Princess Celestia's Student. Featuring: Royal Romance, drama! And it all centers around poor Guard! Twilight.

Due to a Magical Accident growing up, Twilight was separated with her love. With an idea of being able to finally reunite, Twilight jumps to the chance of being the Personal Guard of Princess Celestia's Student

But first, she has to get deal with this Trial round and why does it involve some Banished diety!?

Current Rating: Teen (because I realized that the road I was taking this, might be dark)

Sex tag is there just for implication, no explicit

(1-3 is introduction)

Published 2020-01-28 02:50:01 UTC
Last updated 2020-04-19 07:38:27 UTC

1- She Left

"Gah!"

kaboom!

FwOOM-

THUD!

A small lithe purple coated unicorn hit the floor, her normally clean dark blue mane with pink and violet streaks messy and charred. Rolling to her side, pinkish iris' hazily stared up at the much taller Unicorn with such beautiful flame coloured hair. Even if moving hurts, The purple-coated filly just smiled as the sun-themed Unicorn trotted close with closed-off concern for the downed Unicorn.

"Twi- Twilight- TWILIGHT!"

Said Twilight couldn't help but what she would call a 'dreamy sigh' at hearing her name being called from Sunset but in reality, it looked like she was letting out her last breath causing the ponyta wannabe to panic even more as Twilight fainted from overusing her magic to teleport in front of Sunset to protect her from Sunset's own misfire.

To say the panic doubled was an understatement.

Especially when Sunset noticed the fire beginning to engulf the room.

When Twilight woke up from her 'nap' she was confused about why she was in some random hospital room instead of her own. She was even more confuzzled when Sunset wasn't the first thing she saw, it wasn't unusual for Twilight to get slightly injured due to a spell gone wrong and when that happened Sunset would always watch over her to make sure she was okay.

What Twilight actually saw first was her parents, while slightly disappointed that it wasn't Sunset. Twilight just looked around for said Unicorn, Maybe she was just in the bathroom? or maybe getting her food! Despite being a grumpy pants Sunset did care for Twilight and she will stand by that statement no matter what anypony says!

Since Twilight was so busy looking for her Unicorn, she didn't notice the slightly saddened glance that her Parents, Twilight Velvet and Night Light shot at each other. With a sigh, Twilight Sr. spoke to Twilight Jr.

"Twilight, sweetie. You know that we love you right?" The question caused Twilight Jr. to stop her search and think on why her Mom would ask such an unusual question.

"Of course Mum! i love you too!" so with her Reply done and thinking that the conversation was over, Twiggle Wiggle continued her Search for her Pheonix. Now, If she were Sunset where would she go? Are they gonna play Hide and Seek again? Twilight pouted at that thought, Didn't Sunset hate Hide and Seek? Sunset was always annoyed because Twilight always found her when Twilight was the seeker and whenever she hid Twilight would always let Sunset catch her causing Sunset to stop playing the game and instead focus on books.

Books are nice, Its even nicer when Sunset is with her.

What she didn't notice (again-) was the even more concerned looks her parents shot at each other. Since they are nice parents, they would rather not drop the big announcement they had for their daughter when she was so preoccupied. So once again they sighed and the Dad, Night Light, stepped forward and spoke.

"Twily, we have News! Do you want to hear it?" Night Light couldn't help but wince when all the reaction he got from his daughter was the swivel of her ear towards his direction, clearly, his Daughter was busy looking for her Best friend and he was sure that his news would devastate Twilight, So gathering all his courage. Night Light decided to just be forward and get this over with.

"Twilight, Sunset will not be able to spend time with you anymore" and they waited, Night Light and his Wife held their breath and waited for the oncoming tantrum.

Time stilled from Twilight, her ears flicked upright trying to understand if what she heard was correct.

"Twilight, Sunset will not be able to spend time with you anymore"

She blinked as her brain tried to rationalize on why her parents would say something so unusual. Twilight faced her parents, a look of confusion clearly seen on her face. Twilight couldn't help but feel sceptical, is Sunset pranking her? Sunset knew that most of the time she doesn't get it, so why now? and dragging her parents onto it, Twilight couldn't help but feel slightly disappointed on how far Sunset would go just for a silly prank.

So Twilight waited...

waited...

And waited...

Sunset wanted to see her reaction to them not being able to hang out anymore, right? so where is the laughter? the abrupt flash of the camera? even the quick jumpscare hug Sunset gives when she notices that she had gone too far with her pranks. Twilight couldn't help the feeling of dread trailing up her spinal cord.

"Wh- What do you mean i cannot meet with Sunset?" Twilight waited once more for them to answer, the sadness in her parents' eyes solidifying her theory on what might have happened. "It wasn't Sunset's fault! That- That weird Boom- probably- probably spooked her or something- ohmygosh- issheokaY!? didinotpushherawayhardenough??- butitriedsohardtodoitandisawthemagiccomingforherand- and- wewerejustplayingaroundwithsomenormallightspells, thentheboomhappenedand- IS SUNSET OKAY!?"

As Twilight continue to ramble on about how it wasn't Sunset's fault and that Twilight should've made the room spell safe or something along the lines, so Twilight Sr. just gently bopped her Daughter on the nose causing Twilight Jr. to let out a cute soft sneeze completely ruining Twilight's rambling.

"Twilight, Sweetie. Sunset will not be able to hang around much is because...-" The Hopeful look of Twilight Jr's face nearly caused her to squee in adorbs but she had to be serious "-Because Princess Celestia will be training her as her Only Personal Student and because of that, Sunset will not be able to hang around more" and once again the parents braced themselves for their daughter's reaction.

Twilight's Mind crashed down as she attempted to process what is going on.

Princess Celestia will be training her as her Personal Student

Well, that doesn't sound so bad. Twilight will just have to study so hard that Princess Celestia will make Twilight a student as well, then they can hang out again.

Wait, something seems off to that statement. Brain! rewind, please!

Princess Celestia will be training her as her Only Personal Student

Only? that means one right?

but... they were supposed to go to Princess Celestia's School for Gifted Unicorns, together. They couldn't be together if she was Princess Celestia's Only Student. Twilight scrunched her muzzle, deep in thought on how they can work this relationship out.

Twilight's eyes got caught on the group of Guards on patrol out the window, a grin appeared on Twilight's muzzle as a bunch of ideas popped up on her head.

If Twilight remembered correctly, Princess Celestia always had guards to protect her. So if being the Princess Celestia's Only Personal Student means that they should also have guards, So Twilight can just be a Guard of Sunset's! It'll be easy especially since her B.B.B.F.F is part of the Guard. With that thought in mind, Twilight snuggled up in her blankets and decided to rest so she can heal faster because if she heals faster, she can sign up to the guard earlier thus letting Twilight and Sunset meet again!

With a smile on her face Twilight drifted off to dreamland, not noticing her new Cutie Mark as she focused on the Dreams filled with Knight Twilight and Princess Sunset as they lived happily ever after.

...
...
...

If only it was that easy.

Author's Note

As you can clearly see, this is my first time posting and writing. So im sorry if there is any obvious plotholes or OOC, i'll try to fix that as i go on with the story.

Thank you for reading!

2- Intermission

It has been three months since Twilight saw Sunset and she realized that she may be going through withdrawal.

Withdrawal of what exactly?

Well, Sunset of course!

Being at the peak age of Puberty, it was expected for fillies to have crushes but to this extent? to where the amount of longing and restlessness was beginning to rise which also begins to ruin her routine! Twilight grumbled her way to school and as a harsh wind smacked against her face. Twilight can't help but notice that some of her old classmates were trotting their way to school as well.

And by classmates, Twilight meant by old bullies who keeps on messing with her and Sunset.

A glare came over Twilights face as she was stuck in memories of Sunset always coming to her rescue because Puberty sucks 'cause it doesn't know when to use the nutrients that she was been supplementing it and make her grow so she can fight back! The glare went away when Twilight realized that this time, Twilight will protect Sunset. Just one more year than Twilight can apply for Princess Celestia's School for Gifted Unicorns and she will not ruin her chances by fighting back and getting a mark in her record.

A faint glow came from Twilight's Cutiemark, Not noticed by anyone but the sun.

With the Social Awareness of a brick, Twilight smacked face-first onto a white canvas filled with fur. The confusion was plastered all over Twilight's face but when the smell of Caramel and light ash hit Twilight's nose, she backpedalled and looked around for the smell. A flash of a Fire themed Mane was all Twilight needed before she galloped towards where her senses last located her Sunset.

Not noticing the shocked look of a certain goddess of the Sun as she watched a literal flashback of her childhood. A smile appeared on Celestia's face as she remembered her Fillyhood with her sister and how it mirrored what happened right now, and with that thought, in mind, Celestia simply trotted after them.

Twilight Sparkle... i wonder who you will take after, me or my sister?

"Sunset!" Twilight's voice was filled with happiness and that shook Sunset herself, the pure unadulterated happiness just for seeing her was chilling and Sunset didn't know if she should be happy or scared. Sunset may love Twilight like that akin to a little sister but she's pretty sure that Twilight feels much more than simple platonic love.

Sunset slowed down, exhaustion slamming onto her as she slowed onto a simple trot and her fear came when Twilight galloped near her, childish stamina simply letting her catch up to the tired solar unicorn. Letting out a strained smile, Sunset turned to the filly three years her junior.

"Hey- Hey Twilight. How are ya?" Sunset hoped that the smile wasn't obviously forced but after realizing that this wasn't some old stalker, it was Twilight. Twilight who wouldn't hurt a soul and is just a bit clingy because she hasn't seen her very first friend in a while.

Sunset let out a small sigh in relief, she was just being paranoid. After all, what is the worst a 12-Year-old Filly can do?

Twilight was having a wonderful year, she was able to meet up with Sunset and is now about to finally apply for Princess Celestia's School for Gifted Unicorns but Twilight was feeling a bit down after all Sunset and her haven't been able to hang out because of their own conflicting schedules.

Twilight doesn't mind though, as long as Sunset wasn't doing it deliberately then it isn't a problem besides, the moment Twilight is a guard they can hang out more. Twilight is sure that she would be having even better years ahead of her, as long as Sunset is with her then everything would be fine.

Scratch that last paragraph Twilight is not going to have a good year, sure she may have passed and is now enrolled in Princess Celestia's School for Gifted Unicorns but she didn't keep in mind that since she passed, her old classmates could have too and if they decided to bother Sunset again... a dark glare came over her features as her thoughts trailed out of their path and into the Unknown

Sunset trotted next to Twilight, a smile on her face as she noticed that the small purple unicorn was focused on something. Twilight just seemed so cute and adorable when she's thinking because she tries to look so serious when she's deep in thought.

If only Twilight was as deep in her aswell...

Sunset's face burned red as she tried to know why such a thought began to turn up,

Sure, Twilight has been gaining a small amount of muscle since her accident but what does that have to do with that- Stop! we are not sexualizing a Twelve-year-old! Especially Twilight! She doesn't even have the tool for that!

'she turned 13 a few months ago' her mind stated

'Don't even start! We're turning 16 and she's just a filly!' Sunset countered, an annoyed frown on her muzzle.

'Twilight doesn't act like one, she's rather mature besides the age difference isn't even that big' The mind argued back, just as stubborn as the original.

'Besides, magic can let you do anything and you know how far Twilight would go for you' Sunset could just feel her subconscious smirking at her as the fact began to sink in.

Shut- Shut up! i would never use Twilight like that! Sunset shouted as she tried to ignore the thoughts invading her mind, she silently cursed her own dirty brain as she caught up to Twilight who was silently watching her, the feeling of those calculating, cold eyes as they assessed her. Seeing how useful or her worth and- Sunset slammed a hoof onto her face, wishing that the heat she felt wasn't hers and that it was just Princess Celestia being extra again.

CR-ACk!

"Sun- Sunset!" Twilight's voice was the last thing Sunset heard as she realized that she may have hit herself a bit too hard.

At least the Voice stopped talking.

Author's Note

So uh... Im sorry?

3- Assignment

Royal Guard Twilight Sparkle, you are assigned to Ponyville for your trial round. If you were to succeed in this assignment your reassignment will be accepted and you will now be known as my Student, Sunset Shimmer's Guard

You must keep a low profile and...

Twilight couldn't help but scrunch up her muzzle in confusion, it was such a simple assignment. Stay in Ponyville for a month before the Summer Sun Celebration, watch over the town and be on guard (hah! she's hilarious) until Princess Celestia relieves Twilight of her station and Twilight will finally have her dream.

but why did it feel so empty? Twilight would finally live her dream, Protecting her Sunset and they could finally be together again. While Twilight knew that Sunset would never reciprocate her feelings, just being able to protect her like Sunset did when they were younger was alright with her.

Twilight when arriving at her barracks, removed her helmet and tapped the star in her armour, she let out a sigh of relief as the appearance spell disappeared. Twilight Sparkle stood at the height taller and much bulkier than the Average unicorn, Twilight couldn't help but thank Faust once again for letting her Recessive Shire trait appear on her just like it did for her B.B.B.F.F

Being at the age ripe age of Twenty Two and spending Seven years in the Guard did wonders to her Physique and Twilight couldn't help but think on what Sunset would've thought on her looks when Twilight finally gets the station of being her guard.

Did Sunset even want a guard? Twilight knew that Sunset had pride for being powerful and she is more than capable to take care of herself, what if Sunset thinks Twilight is looking down on her or maybe she would detest her and think Twilight is trying to get her station or-

And there she goes, Twilight is still the same no matter which universe you're at.

Thock- Thock

The sound of somepony knocking knocked Twilight out of her rambling, quickly donning her helmet and activating the enchantment once more Twilight opened the door to an Older White coated Unicorn stallion with A blue mane with light blue streaks.

"Lieutenant Armor, What can I do for you?" Twilight asked with a straight face, being familiar when in duty is a minor offence and despite being related to a ranking officer, it will still be on record for not keeping up appearances.

"Royal Guard Sparkle, I am here for my little sister who I would love to accompany me to the Guard's Dining room" Lieutenant Armor answered back, with the same tone. Both siblings stared at each other unblinking before Lieutenant Armor snorted.

"Still professional even around family Twilight?" He asked as he motioned for Twilight to walk with him as he slowly trotted to the Dining Room

Twilight nodded and fell right into formation beside him but as Twilight slinked into place she felt something was off, quickly blocking a hoof to the face. Twilight grabbed him by the muzzle and slammed her armoured head against his.

Smack!

CRUnch-

Lieutenant Armor couldn't help but laugh through the pain, even with the magic shield around him, Twilight managed to dislocate his muzzle. Armor couldn't help but feel pride for Twilight managing to keep up with him, such a contrast to the lithe, little filly that Shining Armor knew as a colt but behind that pride Armor knew that he was just trying to cover the truth with something else.

A quick healing spell later, the two siblings trotted their way to the dining room.

Twilight let out a boisterous laugh, a cup filled with the Second best Alchohol Equestria could offer on her hoof as she explained her story. Her helmet and the appearance enchantment off just like the rest of the guards in the room, she was on her hind legs as she slammed her cup onto the table.

"And that! Is why I'm going to marry Sunset Shimmer!" Laughter and jeers came from around her, as they teased the Purple unicorn of her feelings. Statements like 'GOOD LUCK SPARKLE' or 'LAY WITH HER FOR US' was tossed around the room as they gave their reactions to an inebriated Twilight Sparkle.

Shining Armor chuckled, proudly watching as Twilight vaguely yet specifically gave her plans to marry a certain Student with words and connotations that would even confuse the smartest of scholars.

Shining knew that even if they were to get Twilight drunk enough that she couldn't walk properly, Twilight would never spill anything of importance and Shining couldn't be any prouder seeing his little sister being the Model Royal Guard even when she was incacipated. It made him feel a bit jealous but he tried to be like any good big brother and be proud. He failed at it before and he won't fail at it now.

The big question is why Twilight would even have a failsafe for this kind off thing. Whenever Twilight was asked this, she would simply give some kind of vague yet dangerous sounding situation. Shining Armor knew it was because she was simply paranoid and not at any hidden enemy or something along those lines.

No, it was because Twilight was paranoid that if Sunset and he would go out drinking, (however unlikely that may be, because while Sunset would look like she could handle her liquor, she is secretly such a lightweight that a single shot would've inebriated her) Twilight knew she would spill everything, including her feelings, so Twilight trained herself to not spill anything of importance.

However what Twilight forgot is that, While she can stop herself from spilling her feelings to Sunset herself, doesn't mean it'll stop her from spilling it to the whole Royal Guard branch on a drunken Night.

All a slightly buzzed Shining Armor could do is give a simple smile at his little sister's stupidity and join in on said stupidity.

You know what they say, 'You can't beat them? Join 'em!'

Twilight stumbled her way to her bed, her other roommates already in their beds snoozing away. As Twilight removed her armor, a pair of turquoise slitted eyes appeared and as a second passed, it was gone. Blinking her eyes in confusion, Twilight looked around trying to see if what she saw was an actually thing or was the alcohol messing with her mind again. With a grumble of 'im going Crazy' Twilight dropped her armor in her small pocket dimension before slipping into her bed, a few seconds later the purple unicorn was fast asleep.

Not noticing the dark shadow looming over her, watching, plotting and waiting.

We will finally be together, after all this time. Just wait my Spark

Author's Note

Here ya go!

4- Station

Twilight looked around and she realized, Ponyville is...

Calm. Very... Calm

She smiled, maybe being stationed here is not such a bad thing in the first place. After all, what's the worst thing that could happen in a town like Ponyville? with that thought in mind, Twilight grabbed her bag and trotted towards the large tree visible even in the outskirts, hoping that it was the Golden Oaks Library and not some random house she just walked up too.

Twilight in the cliche 'introduction of another character way' crashed into somepony, most people think it would be pink but nope! it was a white-coated unicorn with purple curls for a mane and the most...

Twilight couldn't help but gape, looking onto those gorgeous sky eyes, like it was teaching her to fly. What was she doing? Twilight snapped out of it, No! Twilight couldn't just betray Sunset like this, she wouldn't waste years of devotion for some mare that she bumped into. Twilight didn't notice her forelegs wrapping around hers, protectively cradling the mare as years of Guard training kicked in, didn't notice the blood rushing to her face as their muzzles were mere centimetres away but noticing those eyes, glittering like diamonds recently found.

Twilight backed off, helping the mare to her hooves. blush still on as she tried to realize what she just did and panicked because this sure was a great first impression, so with a laugh Twilight tried to salvage the situation and maybe get to know somepony in town and try to explain herself. Twilight saw the sun behind the unicorn and realized she was late for her report, with a panicked 'Goodbye and im sorry for the inconvenience!' she dashed away her cutie mark glowing a light purple, hoping Princess Celestia won't revoke her submission of her trial round due to a simple delay.

Leaving behind a blushing fashionista realizing that her heart needed to be kept on a leash because it seemed to want to beat out of her chest and towards the mysterious pony after that encounter.

Shaking her head, the lone unicorn trotted on her way. a giddy smile on her face as her thoughts began to centre around the mysterious pony, a muscular one at that if what her hooves felt was true. She wondered if they would meet again and with the saddlebags around the purple unicorn, she already knew her answer.

'I wonder if they would look good with a bowtie?' she thought to herself, her mind filled with inspiration.

Twilight let out a sigh of relief when she saw her report disappear in wisps of smoke as it weaved its way to Canterlot. Checking the time once more, she knew that it was time for an early dinner and maybe clean up the old and slightly rickety library, Twilight brought out another piece of parchment, trying to see if she should send a letter to Sunset but thoughts of another unicorn appeared on his mind.

Right... the Sky blue-eyed Unicorn, Twilight's lips curled slightly in distaste. The way she dealt with the situation was unfit for a guard of her station and way out of protocol, perhaps they can meet again and she could apologize for such disrespectful behaviour? That is if the unicorn wanted to be near her in the first place.

Great thinking, Twilight Sparkle! you gave a bad first impression to one of the Locals and word will go out on how your such a disrespectful pony who assault ponies and it'll get back to Sunset; who will stop being your friend because you're a bully and Princess Celestia will kick her out of the Royal Guard and she would disgrace her family, Shining would not be able to get the Captain position he always wanted and everypony would-

("Twilight! relax, come on follow me")

("Breath... In and out")

In and out.

("In and out")

In and out.

("In and out")

In and out.

("That's great Twilight! see just think of the pros!")

Okay- Okay! think of the pros Twilight! If you meet the Unicorn again... you can apologize! get on her good side and in turn have a friend! A friend. Twilight frowned at the thought of a friend, her mind then drifted back to Sunset. Sunset wouldn't mind if she had another friend right?

Yeah... Twilight's sure Sunset would like it if she were to hang out with somepony else other than her.

Right?

Twilight finally finished fixing the library. Dust, Mold and others were carefully disposed and with some repairing magic, made the library in working condition once again. She looked at herself and realized that she was covered with some ink stains due to her having to rewrite some faded texts, time to take a shower she guessed to herself.

Just as she was about to go and take said shower, a scroll bursted in front of her. Twilight flinched in shock but stopped when she realized it was just a simple scroll, she grabbed it with her magic and briefly read it and she couldn't stop the smile growing on her face when she saw Cadence's familiar writing.

My Dearest, Twilight

The lips of Twilight tugged higher in amusement, Cadence always liked to write as if she was in an old era love story. Twilight rose a brow at the way she wrote the opening. She noticed the comma in the middle of the phrase, it changed the meaning. Did she intend this? one stroke and Twilight is now going to contemplate about this for a while. For a moment, her mind strayed into the forbidden corner, the one line she wouldn't dare cross.

She snorted after a moment, like that would work. Last she heard was that Cadence already had a consort in the making, the happiness she felt quickly soured at that information. Twilight furrowed her brow at what she was feeling, she should be happy! So why does she feel... something, Twilight gritted her teeth in annoyance at what she was feeling.

Today has been a mess of emotions and she hated it, to be a guard you must control your feelings! even romantic ones.

Twilight looked out the window and onto the setting sun, her eyes turned back to the floor when it reminded her of Sunset and somepony else. The letter in her magic crumpled with her conflicted emotions and she sighed, she dropped the letter onto the table and made her way to the bathroom. A stray thought still lingering in her conflicted and enraged mind as her emotions clashed.

It was something you could've got, this is your choice.

Stay by it.

Do not be unloyal.

But who am i loyal to?

Author's Note

Can you find the reference!?

5- Leading Mare.

When Twilight came back from her shower, she was rather surprised at the extra scroll appearing on her bed. As Twilight looked closer, she saw the rather intricate seal on it and couldn't stop the uplifting of her mood, the scroll was from Sunset! Twilight wondered why she sent a letter, maybe asking for her progress? or maybe Sunset noticed that she wasn't around?

Her smile turned into a frown, like that was true. Sunset always went the other way when she noticed Twilight during and after her rounds, even in uniform Sunset seemed to always know where she was and exit.

Twilight's ears folded to the back of her head, what did she do wrong? she just wanted to reconcile with Sunset and maybe a bit... more?

Twilight snorted in amusement like that would ever happen, can't stop her from dreaming though. Twilight gave a rueful grin at that thought, truly she is hopeless maybe that was why Princess Celestia sent her Ponyville? to get her away from her precious student Sunset Shimmer?

"Heh," Twilight shook her head, just focus on your job Twilight. Just as Twilight was going to put on her armour she stopped when she remembered her assignment, time to bring out her civilian persona.

"You must keep a low profile..." She remembered Princess Celestia telling her.

Twilight brought her saddlebags closer to her, she sifted through it for a bit and found her glasses and bow tie. After quickly putting them on, she smiled. She looked just like what she wished to be when she was younger, a librarian. She chuckled maybe this was her chance to put a little dream to rest, even if it was for a month.

If only she was able to do it to others.

Just as she opened the door, she rose a brow at the rather excited looking earthpony.

"Hello?" she greeted, a polite smile on her face as her persona took control. Twilight Sparkle the Librarian, is a polite gentlemare from Canterlot. She is designed to be a flatterer in any situation. She is the kind of mare who does not kiss and tell and she always controls the situation. She must always put the target first, she would never mess up the mascara of her mare, just her lipstick.

Twilight Sparkle the Librarian does not love Sunset Shimmer, she does not like the way her hair shimmers in the sun nor does she like the adorable concentration she has when she focuses on an assignment. Twilight Sparkle the Librarian must never showcase her true feelings for everything Twilight Sparkle the Librarian does, is fake.

Twilight Sparkle the Librarian gave the earthpony an apologetic smile when she realized that she may have zoned out and left the pony to stand there confused, Twilight Sparkle the Librarian opened the door a bit wider and stepped to the side.

"Coffee?" she offered, this may be a customer and Twilight Sparkle the Librarian must always keep up appearances.

"Yes please!" the pink pony exclaimed as she bounced inside, Twilight Sparkle the Librarian watched as the pony looked around in amazement. "Wooah~ you did a great job here! what's your name?" Twilight made her way to the kitchen, her magic efficiently making the beverage for her first customer.

"Twilight Sparkle of Canterlot, do you want your coffee to be just as sweet as you?" Twilight grinned at the flash of surprise appearing in the earth pony's blue eyes. She continued smiling when the pony nodded quickly, the red blush seen on pink fur.

"I'm Pinkie Pie... of Ponyville! it's nice to meet you" Pinkie spoke a bit of a pause in her introduction, perhaps she is still flustered from her past comment?

Pinkie didn't know what to feel, she just wanted to introduce herself maybe scout out the place so she can quickly do her adjustments for the surprise party. She didn't expect this!

Pinkie snuggled closer to her hooves, a massive blush on her face as her mind kept on rewinding the number of compliments she received from the new librarian of Ponyville.

"I hope you enjoy your coffee as much as i enjoy your company" grinned the Librarian named Twilight Sparkle. Just the off hoof way Twilight said his compliments always seem to fluster her. Like a fact and Pinkie didn't know how to deal with it! Twilight doesn't seem to be the playcolt kind, so why!? maybe she was just overthinking it?

Besides Twilight isn't that kind of colt, he always seemed polite no matter what she did! Pinkie's mind flashed to Twilight's body, the thick muscle beneath thin purple fur to the nice smile but Pinkie knew better.

The sharp canines in those jaws were obvious, the dangerous gleam behind those glasses scaroused her and she didn't know what to do! the way he moved was practised and obviously planned but Pinkie knew there was somepony real behind that polite facade, somepony sad and hurt

Pinkie didn't like it when ponies are sad, she'll have to keep a closer eye.

Maybe a cupcake would cheer him up.

Twilight Sparkle the Librarian gave her last smile and a "Thank you for coming! comeback if you need anything" to her last customer. The moment the door closed leaving the purple unicorn to sigh, it seems ponies recognize her as an acquaintance now. A good thing since she didn't need to introduce herself all the time, she checked the time and sighed once more. It seems it is time for her late-night patrol.

Another thing she heard was that ponies seem to think that she was a colt, Twilight knew she was built like a stallion but to actually be considered as a stallion?

A rather amusing, misunderstanding.

Twilight made her way upstairs and onto her room and she stared at the letters on her desk, she felt bad for not answering them for the past four weeks but she has been busy. The animals of Everfree seems to get more aggressive as the deadline of her mission came closer, she'll just have to give her apologies when she comes to Canterlot after her trial round.

As Twilight strapped her chest plate, she winced when she accidentally pressed a bit too hard on the newly healed wound that she got after fighting a huge pack of timberwolves.

Thank you past Twilight! for learning so many healing and offence spells. You are a true lifesaver.

Twilight then slinkered off to the night shrugging off just how sore she was from the previous patrol, she has a job and she is going to finish it! just a few more days then she can take a few days to recover then continue her job.

The moon gleamed bright the moment Twilight stepped out of the library, her body moved swift and silent as she patrolled. This is Twilight Sparkle the Guard.

Twilight Sparkle the Guard, is efficient. She must always finish the job with a rational mind and do the job just as ordered no matter the cost. Twilight Sparkle the Guard is loyal to her mission, an order is an order and Twilight Sparkle the Guard must follow it. Twilight Sparkle the Guard must choose the Mission over anything else, even loved ones.

Twilight Sparkle the Guard, must not feel. Must prioritize the mission over everything and keep her priorities in order. Twilight Sparkle the Guard must do anything her Princess orders her to. To Twilight Sparkle the Guard, there is no such thing as right or wrong in a mission, only the mission and the collateral damage. Twilight Sparkle the Guard must not and she repeats not feel emotions during the mission.

Feelings... always complicate everything and complications are not allowed whenever one is in a mission.

6- Elements

Twilight Sparkle the Guard stumbled into the library, her armour dented in some places and others digging sharp in her skin. She hissed and quickly removed it with her mouth, the sharp ends of her armour dragging across her body lengthening the numerous wounds she already had.

Twilight Sparkle the Guard bled as she tripped into her room, everything hurt from her joints to the muscle but she must not show it. Twilight Sparkle the Guard must not show weakness, no matter where she was.

Twilight Sparkle let out a haggard breath, the timberwolves definitely are out to get her. Blood coated her fur and dripped to the floor, Twilight didn't know how she hasn't passed out yet with the amount of blood pouring out of her. Twilight reached beneath her bed and brought out a medkit, she opened it and brought out the things she needed for an impromptu surgery.

She could feel the deep wound in the side of her barrel and she needed to seal it quickly, Twilight shakily bit into the needle and began to stitch, she winced with every pierce and she knew that it was going to scar. It was just a temporary thing, she just needed to get some rest so her magic can recharge so she can do this efficiently. After a while of stitching most of the deep wounds, Twilight staggered to the bathroom. She needed to clean the wounds so she can bandage it and get some rest.

Twilight landed onto her bed and immediately passed out. She needed enough energy to do her early morning rounds, just a few hours of sleep then back to work.

Twilight Sparkle realized just how crappy she looked when she came back from her early patrol, at least she finally cleaned up her wounds and cast a -Notice-Me-Not- spell on her bandages so her patrons wouldn't get worried.

She clasped the bowtie/collar, she quickly put on her glasses and the moment her first customer arrived. Twilight Sparkle the Librarian smiled, gave her usual greeting and made her way to the kitchen with the order. Twilight Sparkle revamped the place a bit and made it a small cafe with a library inside, a place for research or a place to sit down read a book and relax.

"Incoming!" The moment Twilight Sparkle the Librarian heard that, with her magic, she readied a pillow and opened a window. On the dot, a flash of rainbow was seen crash landing straight on the pillow, revealing a blue female pegasus with a rainbow coloured mane.

"Hello Rainbow Dash, did it hurt when you fell from heaven?" started Twilight Sparkle, he was that new librarian and the owner of this place. He still had his easy-going smile as he came back from the kitchen, Rainbow Dash can see those muscles just rippling under those fur with every movement he made.

"Pshh! I'm from Tartarus!" shot back Rainbow Dash as she settled in the pillow, her forehooves crossed together as she glared up at the large pony standing over her.

"It's no wonder you're hot" replied Twilight, he placed the order on another customer's table and brought out a notepad and pencil. "Now what are you going to order?"

"You on sale?"

"Sorry Rainbow but that book was already borrowed" Twilight Sparkle the Librarian smiled apologetically but Rainbow Dash knew that he was secretly amused behind those nerd goggles of his!

"That's not what i-" Rainbow Dash groaned in frustration, this was a game they played and she kept on losing! "-just give me my regular" she whispered, she didn't feel like arguing with the rather stubborn stallion because despite his rather blunt statements he's really oblivious when it comes to the obvious.

"Right, the-" Rainbow Dash shoved her hoof at his muzzle, a big blush on her face. After a glare off -which is just her glaring with a warm feeling and this flankhole and his stupid nice smile- Twilight just laughed and nodded. "Yes, yes. I'll get right to it, I'll even finish it in ten seconds flat"

Rainbow Dash was sure she discovered a whole other shade of red when she heard that statement, she glared at the pure smugness radiating of this flankhole.

"Shut up and just get my order ya' dummy"

All Rainbow Dash got was an amused chuckle from the stallion as he made his way back to the kitchen with her order. Twilight was lucky he was cute.

Every move made Twilight want to sit down and rest because last night patrol nearly costed but she needed to keep up appearances, Twilight convinced herself that she only had a few more days and that she can deal with a little pain even if that little pain felt like she got tossed through a raging waterfall. Luckily she was a unicorn, magic is hax and Twilight is going to use it to her fullest. She quickly casted a -Low to Mid-Pain-Numbing- spell, this would allow her to continue her job until the late rounds of the night.

Twilight closed her eyes and let out a breath, just three more days then you can go back to Canterlot. Twilight didn't know what to feel, she should be happy and excited but what about the others? despite the pain she was going through with the patrols, Twilight knew for a fact that she enjoyed the atmosphere of working in Ponyville and if she leaves...

She would be leaving behind so many things, who would give a safe landing for Rainbow Dash and banter with her when Twilight is gone?

Who would help Rarity whenever she made a clothesline for stallions and she needed a model or be there for her when another pony played with her heart?

Who would play with the animals whenever Fluttershy needed to go and do some errands? and enjoy small talk with?

How about Applejack? her farm has been getting a lot of money because Twilight kept on ordering apples to make the small food in the cafe and it really helped her.

And Pinkie? she didn't want her to be sad when she leaves.

"Heya! Twi' did'ya hear' about the inspector coming here from Canterlot? really glad that the family was gonna' help with the food for the celebration" Applejack asked, a really nice smile placed on her muzzle. Her stetson laid on her blond mane, which was tied with a red band. Twilight couldn't help but feel even worse when she saw just how happy she looked

"Well, I've heard that they are going to oversee the progress of the Summer Sun Celebration" stated Rarity as she flipped her mane. "I am so happy that Mayor Mare appointed me as the head of decorations" she had a pleasing smile and Twilight liked to think that it really suited her.

"Hah? that's awesome! I was chosen for the weather! which is understandable because I'm the weather manager, so it's expected" grinned Rainbow Dash "How about you Fluttershy? i heard that you were chosen as well" urged Rainbow.

"Oh um... i was chosen for the music, Mr Blue and the others are really honoured to perform for Princess Celestia" stated Fluttershy, she always felt like a mythical druid who came from the forest to take care of the animals. Even her cutie mark and nurturing nature reinforced that idea.

"Well~ i was chosen to plan this whole thing! it's really cool and its gonna be the best celebration ever!" cheered Pinkie, her hoof up in happiness. "It's great that most of us got a role!" Pinkie turned to Twilight, her enthusiastic smile turned much more bashful(?) "How about you Twilight? what are you going to do in the celebration?" Twilight felt terrible after that, she didn't know what to do.

The others gave their own statements about that and smiled at Twilight, said unicorn couldn't help but give a small apologetic grin. Twilight didn't know what to say, that she was leaving soon after? because despite the persona's belief, she really enjoyed their company.

"Well..." if Twilight knew how she looked in her friend's mind -yes Friends, because when you hang out daily, enjoy each other's company for a month you become friends- she would have all her blood rushing to her head in embarrassment. Twilight gave a true, honest smile. She only had a few days, the foundations of the friendship may be fake but Twilight wanted it to be real even if it's only for a short period of time.

She wanted to keep something, just this once.

"You girls fine with me tagging along?" Twilight knew that she was acting out of character, especially since her face felt really warm at the thought of hanging out with the girls for real and she looked away, pushing up her glasses as a way to keep herself busy. Twilight never expected the hoof to circle around her neck and drag her to sit in the table as the girls gave their excited responses.

"Did ya' really need to ask?" "Of course darling!" "If it's alright with you..." "Hope you can keep up Egghead!" "We're gonna have so much fun Twi!"

Twilight couldn't help but laugh, her hoof scratching the back of her short mane as she smiled at the girls. The girls stopped immediately, a blush quickly forming in their faces. This was the first time they heard Twilight laugh, chuckle and snort, yes but truly laughing? it was beautiful.

"Thank you girls, all of you truly are the best"

7- Who am i?

(Did they really think you are that stupid?)

Twilight stood there, in the depths of her mindscape as she meditated. Trying to ignore the conflicted emotions bursting through her every corner of her mind, she gritted her teeth when her attempts to keep calm failed.

(They lied, they all were simply treading you along for their twisted plans)

(Your sun? you're precious Sunset? it was already claimed, claimed by that...)

Don't! don't you dare say his name!

(Love is truly blind, even with all that conditioning. You still cling to that notion of a romantic relationship with her student, why?)

Silence, Twilight didn't answer because she didn't have the answer. It was such a simple feeling, a feeling that drove her through everything. Through the pain, the sadness, the training and everything else. Twilight didn't know why Sunset did this to her, she tried everything. She tried so hard to be whatever Sunset wanted but it's like nothing seem to be enough.

Were these feelings of hers truly love? or obsession?

Twilight didn't know, she didn't know the moment the truth was revealed and she still didn't know whenever she stared them in the eye the next day or the day after that or even the night before or even a decade later to even today.

Why him? why was it always him?

Twilight gritted her teeth, she was going too into depth with this. She needed it to stop. She needed to stop. She needed to stop feeling whatever she is feeling for Sunset because she didn't know what that feeling even is and it's hindering her progress.

Everypony always loved him... Always saw him. Where was hers? her love? her affection?

She never had anything, it was always his first.

The toys were hoof-me-downs, her books were the same, her friends. Everything was the same. She was always second, second to use, second to be known.

They were never hers.

All. Were. His.

(You never had something or even someone that was simply yours, alone. You live a sad existence Twilight Sparkle)

(Everything and everyone you had, were already used by him. I pity you, Twilight Sparkle)

Twilight gritted her teeth and she knew that if this were in real life her teeth would've shattered with the amount of pressure she placed on it. It was true, everything she heard from the voice was and is still true.

(You didn't just join the Royal Guard to just be with your precious Sunset, i know you joined because you didn't want to be left behind. Your best friend was taken in by Celestia, your brother already situated in the Castle. You knew that something could go on and you didn't want that)

Twilight closed her eyes as memories flashed behind closed lids, of secretive glances, pleased smiles, ruffled uniforms, disgusting scents and marks in mysterious places.

(And yet you still failed, your attempts were pathetic but with every failure, you made a success. Success through them.)

Twilight saw her persona's, the masks she would place for any occasion. Lined before her, different personalities but with the same scheme, they are all Twilight Sparkle but not. She watched as a spotlight shined on her most used persona, a polite smiling Twilight Sparkle with glasses and on her bowtie was a simple yellow dafoddil.

(I remember this, your first success and one of my favourites. Such a simple pony yet so complex at the same time. You made this because you wanted to be somepony that everypony would enjoy the company of, somepony to lend an ear, a hoof and to be friends and have companies with everypony and everycreature.)

(But in reality, you made this because you wanted to escape, escape from your troubled feelings, escape from your responsibilities)

Twilight didn't answer.

(How about this one?)

The spotlight moved to a much serious pony, their posture straight and clearly ready to fight. Armour was seen hiding and concealing all weak spots but on the chestplate, above where the heart laid was a small bouquet of yellow and white carnations.

(This was a complete opposite of the last one. A no-nonsense pony, somepony to defy expectations and more, somepony who wouldn't be hindered by a finicky thing that everycreature call emotions. Somepony that any and everycreature should rely on, the pony that they would call when in need. The pony who would do everything efficiently and in the best way possible.)

(But you just made this because you wanted to be more than your brother)

Twilight flinched at that statement but she still didn't talk, she just watched and listened as the spotlight moved and weaved through every persona. Explaining what it did and the reason it was made, like a machine and its reason of existence and in a sense, the voice was correct.

Twilight didn't even know if she was herself or simply wearing a fractured mask made from multiple failed ones.

(Ooo~ what is this?)

Twilight blinked and watched as the spotlight laid on a filly? The filly looked... odd, she looked like she wasn't meant to be there. Twilight tried to remember where she last used this filly but came up blank, just who was this? The filly looked wrong, so wrong. Something was left out and Twilight didn't know what.

(I see... interesting)

Twilight flinched when the filly appeared a few feet away of her and she stilled, the filly's eyes.

Empty... And oh, so familiar.

(You seem to not remember this one, a pity)

The filly grinned, the teeth stained with eyes filled with nothing and Twilight knew the truth.

(My first... and my very favourite. I miss this one, i would've loved to see her in action once more)

Twilight stared as memories she locked away came barreling straight at her, she could feel something that was once missing now filled. Filled with what? Twilight didn't know. Twilight shivered as her fur stood straight, a prickling sensation felt all over as instincts of something locked away was slowly opened.

The filly had this certain look in her eyes, empty but something slowly came forth. The filly opened her mouth and spoke, her voice distorted and lost as Twilight closed her eyes.

"Did we ever find warmth?"

Twilight stood there, silent as ever as she continued to observe the filly.

"Did we ever have the power to find her?" The filly walked and Twilight noticed that there was something on her hooves. "We need power, did you forget that?"

Twilight's eyes widened as she watched the image of the filly distort and turn, growing and turning into something... No, someone. The next thing she knew was that she was staring at herself, a clear identical copy of how she looked now.

"Power is strength, did you forget that?" The steel in the copy's voice was heard "With strength, we can have anything and everything because no one else can take it from us"

"We were always cold but we finally found warmth, warmth in Sunset Shimmer. Why would you let it get away?" disappointment was evident and Twilight continued to stare, to listen. Twilight closed her eyes, trying to hide away from the fact that even to herself, she was and still is a disappointment.

"Look at me"

"Look at me"

"Look. At. Me"

Twilight finally looked at those eyes. What was once empty now filled with strength and Twilight finally found out what was missing from the copy, there above where the heart was usually laid was a hole. A gaping hole, empty and longing.

"Be strong, the strongest of them all. So no one will take what is ours. Ours and ours alone, no one else will take it from us because you won't let it"

Twilight nodded, her mind a whirl and her devotion -something that was slowly dwindling burned bright- restarted.

"I will"

And Twilight meant it, she truly did.