Dear Celestia.
Hello princess Celestia, it’s me again, your faithful student, twilight Sparkle. This is my fifth letter I wrote today, and I don’t know why I'm still writing to you, Spike isn't here to deliver it. He hasn't come back for hours and the banging is just getting louder by the second, I think they have broken down my door. I'm in my lab writing to you instead of looking for a way out. I know, I must be going insane, listening to the screams and cries and writing a letter to you that I can't send. Why are they crying? I got a good look at one of them, and I must say the very image scares me. I was looking through my window to see chaos, ponies running from other feral ponies. One came right up to me, it looked just like Octavia and smashed my window with her hoof, trying to reach for me. Ripped flesh, blood smothered and the dead eyes she wore is enough to keep me up. The banging won't stop, why? Why do they want to come in? This is a library, not a hospital. I don't know how to patch their wounds. I've told them multiple times but they just bang harder and scream and cry louder. Celestial, please come quickly, Ponyville needs you.
Yours faithfully, Twilight Sparkle.
Dear Celestia.
I haven't slept yet. I have tried but, the violent banging just continues. I've been thinking about my friends. Applejack, Rainbow Dash, Pinkie Pie, Rarity, Fluttershy. I hope they are safe and sound. I hope they are far away from Ponyville. Celestia l... I don't know what to say. I haven't learnt any lessons about friendship. I haven't seen the sunlight in... I actually don't know how long I've been down here. A day? A week? I don't know. I'm running out of food and water. Going up has been lingering in my head for a while now but, they just won't go away. What do they want with me? I've done nothing wrong, I've helped these ponies, why are they after me? I think if I get hungry enough. I'll build my courage to take a brief peek through the door. In fact, I think I'll look now. The noises have gone down slightly and I really need to know what I'm dealing with. This might be the biggest mistake I'll ever do but, this is a risk I need to take. I can do this, I and my friends have been through bigger things than this. This is nothing.
Yours faithfully, Twilight Sparkle.
Dear Celestia.
I killed a pony today, Bom Bom. It happened so suddenly. I unlocked the door and she just attacked me. She was caked in blood and as I look at her body now, I can see her ribs tore open and exposed. How she was still alive is beyond my knowledge, I'm no doctor but, she should have been dead days ago. In the fight, she had bit my neck, the wound isn't that deep, nothing a bandage from the first aid box couldn't fix. I hit her with a spell right through her head. I didn't mean to kill her, honestly but, she wouldn't stop coming towards me, assaulting me. She was ruthless, like a wild animal. I only meant to hurt her just to make her stop. I can't believe it... I killed her. I killed a pony. I didn't realize how much power I put into the strike. I'm a killer now. I'm going to go.
My neck is stinging, I hear the ponies, there whispering for me to open the door. They want me to join them. They are telling me to set myself free to the master. Their master? Are they being controlled? Manipulated? I talked back and they heard me loud and clear. I'm scared. Each time they reach out to me, the more they sound convincing. I almost opened the door, I nearly opened the door. I think I'm losing it. Being bored has made me wonder what it would feel like If I sliced my Hooves with a scalpel and feel my blood drip, feel highly hazardous acid melt my fur and tear into my flesh like lava, feel the pain that would lose sanity. I felt that pain today and I don't know what to think, I've gone blank. Yes, it's the most agonizing thing I've ever felt but, I would do it again. I must be going insane. The cries turn to laughter, the weird this is I starting laughing too. I didn't find anything funny but it felt so good to laugh. It gives me chills when I laugh. I couldn't stop laughing, my cheeks are aching and I'm starting to wheeze. I think I'm going to keep laughing. It's the only thing that's keeping me going through the pain and loneliness. It's amazing. I wonder if this is what Pinkie Pie feels like when she throughs a party or tells a funny joke. Pinkie has been a bit of a mystery with her cheerfulness. I wonder if Pinkie Pie is one of them ponies outside. I don't know but I think I'm going to keep laughing.
Dear Celestia.
This is going to be the last time in going to write to you. I've ran out if food and water and I Want to join them. I can't resist it anymore. I've been laughing, they've been laughing, it feels right. I've been alone for too long and I've had enough. I hope you come and join me. We'll be together again. Forever and ever. We can start over, we can look for our friends and they can join us too. That would be nice. This is goodbye, hopefully not forever. I want to see you again. I want to see my friends again. Mom, dad. I want to see you too. I will see you all very soon.
From yours truly, Twilight Sparkle.
