Love, Sex, and Confusions

Me and Rarity had already left my apartment and went to the elevator to get down to the lobby. We went outside to the parking lot and got to my Lamborghini. As we got inside Rarity was already in the passenger seat and I started up the car. We both closed our doors and I started to drive us to the mall.

Canterlot Mall

We arrive at the Canterlot Mall where Rarity’s friends were supposed meet us. I try to find a spot in the parking lot before we went inside, as I was about to get a free space I took glimpse over to Rarity as she puts on a little bit of her lipstick. As soon as I looked over I instantly blushed and felt like I was sweating in a hot room, I just couldn’t help it if she looks hot as fuck. Great. It’s bad enough that I already want to have a more deep relationship with her, and now I have to avoid looking like a pervert. As I parked in the space, I shut off my car taking out my keys, but then we just sat there silent.

“So.” I said since I didn’t know what else to say that was on my mind.

“So...?” Rarity returns the question. It was just 2 minutes of silence the entire time neither of us knew what to do or what to say. “Look darling you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to,”

“I don’t want to... I feel like I need this, I feel like it helps me a little... not to mention that you’re trying to help me out too,” I blushed as I said that. It took only 2 seconds for me to notice that Rarity’s face was getting a bit red too. We were just hypnotized by each other’s gaze as it was just silent in the car for a good while and then we both had noticed that we were touching hands. “Sorry”.

“No... I’m actually quite comfortable with this,” she’s comfortable..... around me? I never expected this to happen. We both felt like tearing out each other’s heart strings just so we can make an impossible knot to untie. “Well..... I... supposed we should get going,”

“Yeah..... Wouldn’t wanna be late,” I got out of the car and close the door as I quickly get to the other side of the car and opened the door for Rarity.

“Why thank you darling, but you didn’t have to do that,” Rarity says.

“But just because I’m half a lady doesn’t mean I can’t be half the charms of a gentleman,” I tease as I bow down to the purple-haired fashionista.

“Oh hush dear,” Rarity jokingly says as we head inside the mall.

As we walked inside I was hit with some of its nice cool air. We kept walking until we arrive at the food court. I remember that me and my parents used to come here to eat on special occasions though we used to come to the mall all the time for new clothes, for a father and mother’s day gift, or to have fun at those arcades.

Rarity saw her 6 friends at their so called ‘usual’ spot as she told me. We made our way to the table to meet up with them. Rarity was greeting her friends and gave them hugs before introducing.

“I’ve met someone yesterday that all you would love to meet. Everyone meet Sam,” she introduces me to her friends and each one greeted me nicely.

“Howdy, name’s Applejack,” the cowgirl says as she tips her hat and I shook her hand.

“And I’m the one and only, Rainbow Dash,” she says as if she was bragging about herself and she decided to give me a fist bump.

“I’m fluttershy” she mumbles her name so that I couldn’t hear.

“Pardon?” I asked.

“It’s Fluttershy,“ she raises her voice by just a smidge but then she took a deep breath and tries again. “Fluttershy,”. I give her a handshake and she accepts it as she puts out her hand a little bit slowly like a turtle coming out of its shell.

“Hi I’m Pinkie Pie! your best friend, extraordinary baker, and your go to birthday party thrower Rarity told me all about you, I maybe a little extra sometimes but that’s just me 24/7 ya know, say I know you’re guy but why are dressed as a girl sillyunless you want to be a girl like us then okie dokie lokey,” Pinkie talks at a fast pace shaking my hand rapidly until she stopped and went back to her seat. That was... unexpectedly surprising.

“Hi there, my name is Twilight Sparkle,” the girl with her perfectly tied hair bun and glasses greets me while she gives a little wave.

“I’m Sunset Shimmer,” she also gives a little wave to me. It was getting off to a great start I’ve never really had any friends other than my therapist so for me it was only decent.

“So why are dressed in a chicks’ clothing?” Rainbow Dash asks as she cocks an eyebrow.

“Oh... well...” I blushed a little after she asked that. “Well that’s because... I’m Non-Binary,”

“So does that mean you don’t have any gender or something?”

“Don’t you think that’s a little personal Rainbow?” Rarity asks her trying to make sure she doesn’t offend me.

“What? I’m just trying to figure something out,” Rainbow Dash answers.

“Well basically I’m half and half... I’m considered as a guy... and a girl” I explained. “I’m... not really like other people,” I said nervously. “In fact the whole point of this was to see if you would accept me for who or what seem to be,” I felt like my heart was racing as I prepared for what’s to come.

“Look, we don’t care if you’re pretty much different than the rest of us. No matter how different all of us are we have always stood by each other’s side, we’ve always loved each other for who we are, so remember that we’ll always love you just for you, freaky flaws and all,” after Sunset said that I immediately felt as if I was brought out of a hole that I’ve been in for who knows how long.

“.....Thanks,” I say as they all came around the table to hug me. After that we just talked about our personal lives or some new trends we’ve heard about for about another 30 minutes or so. Then we head to an arcade just to have fun there. I have a pretty good feeling that my depressions from the past years could finally have some closure.

One Week Later

About a week has past since I’ve met the girls at the mall. Applejack invited me over to her home and I helped her out with work around the house. As for Rainbow Dash, she and I gone exploring to an abandoned gym center and spent overnight there. Sunset and Twilight has me over for a sleepover, which I actually enjoyed because of how funny Sunset raged over losing a video game. Fluttershy allowed me to adopt a pet so I wouldn’t feel lonely in my apartment all the time, I got dog. I helped Pinkie Pie make a cake for someone’s ‘get together’ party.

As for Rarity, we’ve been hanging out more often. But then I started to develop stronger feelings for her and to be honest... I think she might have feelings for me too. Every time we try to go further deep into an intimate moment, things just kept making the both nervous. I guess we’re not ready for that type of relationship yet..... But I just want her to be mine after trying to help me out.

I..... I love her