The Door was #$%&ing Closed (and a collection of other shorts)

Missing you

A Derpy Hooves Story

A Modest sequel to Calendar Girls

Standing there the words didn’t make sense. She looked at Honored Glory as he stood there. His face looked sad, but this had to be a dream. It couldn’t be real. She felt Bumble in her arms, his tiny form gently wiggling against her. She shushed him as she looked at Honored Glory. He stood dressed in the same uniform that Silent had worn a hundred times. Her eyes watered as she looked at him.

“I...I’m dreaming right?” she asked.

She’d heard once that if you were dreaming and you asked if you were then you would let yourself know that you were dreaming. She saw him look away from her, his eyes refusing to look at her, and she began to fear that this wasn’t a dream. She sniffed.

“Really, this is a dream, right?” she asked again.

“I’m sorry ma’am. I’m afraid it’s not a dream,” he looked at the ground, “But it’s not. Silent was killed in action. I… I asked if I could come and inform you myself instead of having them send you a letter or just give you the call. That wasn’t right, and I couldn’t let them do that to you,” he looked at the ground before finally looking up at her, his eyes filled with shame, “I felt that it was only right for someone that was close to Silent to let you know.”

She sniffed before the tears began to well up in her eyes. Silent had just barely been home long enough to learn that he was going to be a father. He had to go back over once more, and then he was going to be switching to a recruiter position. It would let him be able to be home every night, and she knew that he would love that.

Instead he was gone, and Bumble was never going to know his father. She couldn’t help herself as she began to cry, and she felt Honored Glory wrap her into a hug. She stood there, letting the emotions hit her, letting it destroy that small piece of herself, and she let it out through the rivers of tears that was flowing down her face. She wept for the love that was gone, for the father her children would never have again, and finally for the future that was now going to be buried.

She felt Honored gently rub her back, “I’m sorry, I really am, know that if there’s ever anything I’ll do what I can to help.”

She sniffed, “Make this a dream… Please?”

He choked back a sob, “I wish I could,” he said, “But I promise that I’ll be around for you and your children. I know that Silent would do the same for my family.”

After he left she slowly walked toward the living room. Bumble was awake, and he was crying as she carried him. She gently rocked him, knowing that things were going to be changing. She didn’t really want to think about it. She just wanted to crawl inside of her bed, cry, and let the world slip away, but she couldn’t. She had her little muffins now, and she needed to take care of them. Without Silent there she would have to pick up the slack. That meant trying to get more hours at the post office.

She felt Bumble squirming, his little golden eyes looking at her, and she gently opened her shirt. Letting her son suckle while she felt her world fall down around her. Luckily enough Amethyst was old enough to watch her brother and sister while she was at work. That would be good since she wasn’t going to get any more weekends off if she wanted to give them a good life. She shivered as she considered it. Things were going to be tight, and part of her just didn’t care.

Part of her was angry at the world that it took her Silent away from her. Part of her wanted to scream at the universe for it being so unfair, but she stopped that part of her. That part was selfish, and right now she needed to be strong. She needed to provide for her three little muffins. She needed to give them a good life, and she hoped that when the day came that she finally got to see Silent again he could be proud at what she had done.

She heard her daughter come downstairs, and she saw her stop and study her for a moment.

“Mom?”

She sobbed as Amethyst came near her, “Mom, are you okay?”

She cried as her daughter hugged her, “Mom? What’s wrong?”

She held Bumble, trying not to hold him too tight, “You daddy…”

Amethyst looked shocked, and then she shook her head, “No… Dad’s… No he’s okay right?”

Amethyst saw her mother erupt into tears and it hit her. She shivered all over, her entire body felt numb. Her daddy was gone. That couldn’t be right. He was so excited to be able to see Bumble, and he was going to help her with her science projects… he couldn’t be gone!

“He’s not really gone, right? I mean, maybe it was a mistake, right?”

Her mom just cried as she sat there, and she realized that it wasn’t wrong, it wasn’t a dream, and that it was true. She hugged her mom, feeling the world fall away, and she just held onto the parent that was there with her. She held onto her mom who had done a photo shoot in order to get Dinky braces, and she held onto the only part of her parents that was left.

As Amethyst held onto her Derpy felt the world trying to fall away. It wasn’t right. It wasn’t the future she wanted, it wasn’t the future they had planned for, but she knew that it was the one she had to deal with. She held two of her children, and she silently prayed that the hurt would go away.