To be Someone

by ThatWritingDragon

Rating: teen
Tags: Dazzlings, Other, Romance, Equestria Girls, Sex, Sunset Shimmer, Main 7 (EqG), Violence, Twilight Sparkle (EqG), Slice of Life, Dark, Alternate Universe, Human
Length: 6129

Twilight Sparkle, that is who she is. And yet, people seems to think of someone else. Someone better but that's okay, she'll just have to change, to be someone else. Someone more.

Twilight likes to think that she wasn't the type to be envious and certainly not of her pony princess counterpart.

Sure she may hear some offhand comment about how she so "different" or how she's not "Princess Twilight, This is our Twilight" and frankly, she's sick and tired of being compared despite the assurances of her friends.

So what if other her is some Pretty Pony Princess, she'll just change and be someone better! But change is growth and growth is something that happens naturally. To force it onto yourself has... certain consequences.

How does a certain group of sirens have to do with anything? well you have to read and find out.

(Gonna redo everything, i realized that the pacing and everything sucked but i liked the idea.)

Published 2020-03-27 13:10:01 UTC
Last updated 2020-04-06 10:37:33 UTC

1- The failure

Hi, my name is Twilight Sparkle. I am currently sixteen years old, i am 162 cm tall. Despite me finishing Crystal Prep early, i have decided to continue my studies in Canterlot High where i, in this order. Found magic, got bullied, nearly broke down, blackmailed, got turned into a flying demon and finally got friends! it may sound bad but i wasn't complaining.

Right! i almost forgot about me meeting her, my otherworldly counterpart Princess Twilight Sparkle (i now understand why people kept on mistaking me for someone else during my time there). Wait! wait, i know it sounds bad but it really wasn't, there was no time rip on the universe simply because we met, nothing weird happened. like me feeling left out

Just me feeling bewildered that another me was a princess but other than that, i felt nothing. Well, other than simple curiosity, i mean who wouldn't be curious?

After that weird encounter, everything went back to normal. I transferred to Canterlot High to be with my friends and i started my journey to adjust to the atmosphere of Canterlot.

Now onto Camp Everfree! so many things happened and...

I feel like im forgetting something here... i tapped my pen on the table as i tried to see what i was wrong.

"Twilight~"

"Yes? im working right now" i answered, still busy trying to remember what was off, perhaps i didn't put much detail? but it seemed like a good opening, was i wrong?

"Twi~ light~" oh chocolate fudge, she's saying my name like that.

"Ye- yes?" i turned slowly, an awkward grin on my face hoping it would placate her but the unamused look i received. I couldn't help but shiver (No, not that way!) in fear, woman im sorry! i just wanted to finish this work.

"Twi," She cooed, wait- is she wearing my clothes? wait! no! priorities Twilight! "get out of that chair and get to bed" she stated firmly, a hand on her hip as she cocked her head to the extra bed.

I turned to the clock on my table and realized just how late it has gotten, it blinked 1:30 in its full red glory. I shifted my attention back to her, "i- im sorry for waking you up, do you and the girls need anything?" i winced, just how long did i ignore them? i was supposed to help them, just like how the others helped me...

They are your responsibility.

I should start being more direct, i know that they don't want to accept my help easily, so i have to be more assertive on their needs but... they won't listen to me. I know that they don't trust me fully but i really care for them, why won't they understand that? i turned to the bed and observed just how content, relaxed and happy they were. I realized they never looked like that around me.

Princess Twilight left them like this and you look just like her

"Hey..." i looked back at her, her annoyed look was gone and was replaced by... pity? why? was i really that pathetic? "We may not seem like it, but we really are grateful" she smiled, it was soft and it made me feel fuzzy inside. I couldn't help but wonder how a simple smile could leave me with so many endorphins while making it seem like i was on the moon with how light i feel.

(It was a nice kind of fuzzy, I'll have to make them smile like that often)

No, stop focusing on yourself Twilight, don't be narcissistic. Focus on them, get stronger to protect them, keep them safe. They need you and you will be there for them.

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(I will fail them)

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A chill washes down my spine as memories i knew i kept hidden in the depths of my mind came running to its forefront.

That's right. if i do not get stronger i will only be in the way.

("Twilight, leave!")

If i don't become stronger...

("No! I'll keep you safe! we're friends! i don't care what he says! come with me! ----------")

("GO! you weren't supposed to be here!")

If i fail...

("You... she just wanted to a friend! why can't you give her that!? you're her Dad! you're supposed to take care of her! if your not gonna care for her- then i will!")

("As if a scrawny child could stand up against an Adult. If you couldn't do anything before, then who is to say that you can do anything now? Oi brat, come here and convince your friend to leave permanently or else I'll double the beating")

("Twilight... please leave, just leave. Please")

("Oi, i said permanently, I rather not deal with pests who keep on coming back")

("Im sorry Twilight, please don't talk or go near me ever again")

("You hear that brat? now scram, you and you brother are so alike, Both of you are failures")

I gritted my teeth, im not a failure. I've succeeded in so many things now-

Compared to Princess Twilight?

You are nothing

Poke!

"Why are you afraid?" she whispered to me, her soft smile gone as i stared at her. Her eyes were clouded, so many things running in those gorgeous Raspberry eyes.

"Afraid?" i questioned, why would i be afraid? im not scared, i won't be scared. I had no time to be scared when i am with them.

"Why are you holding back when it comes to us? did those Raindorks really cloud your judgement on us?" her voice may sound judgemental and yet i could hear a glimmer of hurt in it.

"What? no!" i had to remove that misconception, "It- its just, i just don't want to inconvenient you girls!-" i ran a hand through my bangs, not realizing that she sat on the table next to me "- i know its really weird for you girls to be around someone that looks like the person that help break your amulets and i didn't want to make you girls uncomfortable-" i was interrupted by a finger, i trailed it with my eyes before it landed on her.

"You know Twilight, you truly care for us huh?" she asked, i simply nodded. Of course! why wouldn't i?

"Of course i care for you all!" i stated with a grin, conviction in my words. They're my responsibility, and i handle everything under my responsibility with care. "i mean with you three having such a 'Dazzling' personality, who wouldn't?" i grinned cheekily, i have been waiting to use that in a while. Great timing as always!

She smiled, it was better than the last one. It was soft and much happier(?) i decided that it looked definitely better than the last one, she looks much prettier when she smiles like that.

(Much fuzzier than before (experiment needed) i definitely need to know why i am feeling this)

"Your really pretty when you smile like that" i wanted her to know it, i was being truthful after all.

"Your a dork" she smirked when she saw the indignant look on my face before it faded once more to that soft, happy smile. "My Dorky Hero"

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Hero...

What makes a Hero? from what little that i know of the term Hero.

A Hero does not hesitate.

A Hero saves everyone.

A Hero is selfless.

I am not a Hero, i realized. I was a hero once but i failed. I couldn't help but wonder who has those kinds of characteristics before i realized that it embodies Princess Twilight, then who am i?

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(The Twilight Sparkle...)

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Right now, i am nothing more than the Twilight Sparkle...

That hesitates

That can't save everyone.

That is selfish.

(The Twilight Sparkle that i want to be...)

I stood up from the chair i was sitting on and grabbed her by the hand, i may not be able to save everyone but at least i saved someone.

"Let's get you to bed," i said as we walked, she silently followed. Her hands were small compared to mine, i can feel the light callouses on them and i couldn't help but grip it harder as i remember how we met in the first place. They will not go back to that kind of lifestyle, not with me around.

(The Twilight Sparkle that i want to be...)

2- A Promise

It has been two months since i took them in and I'd want to introduce them.

"Twilight?"

"Yes?" i turned to her, my hand busy with the dishes "do you need something?"

"What are we going to do when school starts?" She asked before a happy smile broke out "Ooh Ooh! can i make your lunch? like those girls from those Japanese cartoons?" she waved at me excitedly while hopping on place.

I chuckled lightly, such infectious enthusiasm. If the thought of her just making a simple lunch box would drive her to such joy. My eye traced something hidden on my table, i wonder?

"Sure Sonata, anything you want" i turned back to the dishes, my ears open as i carefully multitasked.

"Thank you~ Twi- light! do you want tacos with it?"

"Sure"

"Squuuuuueeeeeeeeee!!!!"

Sonata is bubbly and i really enjoy indulging her sometimes, she always had this cute widening on her eyes whenever i agree.

"Twilight"

"Yes?" i turned the page of my book, a smile on my face as she stomped her way to me.

"Why are you here thirty minutes early?" she angrily said as she poked my chest.

I just smiled as i placed my book down before staring down at her.

(Did she get shorter?)

"Why? Aria mad?" i laughed wildly and before i knew it, i got tackled. My glasses flying off my face as Aria pinned me onto the mat while she attempted to stop me from laughing by smothering my face with her hands.

"You!" a pinch "Are!" another pinch "So!" she leaned onto me, a glare on her face "Annoying..." she whispered, a blush began to form -was she really that heated?- i simply laughed before hugging her.

"And you are adorable!"

"Stupid!"

Aria is adorable whenever she acts 'tough' and i know that she's secretly really excited whenever i started to join her during her excersizes

PS: she thinks i don't know but i do, why else would i start working out? :)

"Twilight?"

"Yes?" i turned to her, my hand quickly buttoning my collar. I grabbed the pink tie on the table before wrapping it around my neck, after some time of me nearly making a noose. A light yellow hand took mine before guiding me on how to do it correctly, i chuckled sheepishly while pushing my glasses up.

(Tangerines? interesting smell)

"i didn't have the time to truly learn how to tie a... tie" I scratched my cheek as i tried not to fidget as she slowly tied my tie.

"And yet, you always have time for us" she stated as if she's trying to prove something.

"Of course!" i smiled, "i always have time for you girls"

"Why?"

I blinked at her question, i just simply smiled.

"Because i care for you three"

All she did was grip my hand for a moment before patting it, i blinked when i noticed that the tie was done.

"You're a good person Twilight" She reached towards me and rubbed my cheek, i couldn't help the heat filling my cheeks. I am not used to slow physical contact! "Never change okay?" i blinked, it was an odd clause but i nodded.

"Anything for you Adagio"

I know that Adagio is taking the fact that her amulet is gone the worst, i wonder if she would enjoy my gift?

It has been approximately five months since the girls have been living with me, i was allowed to move into the house next door during spring with the excuse of "needing more space for experiments and learning how to be independent". To which they agreed while adding some clauses which benefitted them with the words 'Come to Friday Dinner every week' along with 'Saturday visits from them.'

I have also informed them of my three tenants to which they told me to charge them some kind of rent, to which i agreed by not telling the girls about the rent. I simply got a job and paid their rent to myself, they are my responsibility so it was alright in my eyes. I already made them do chores around the house to which they -surprisingly- agreed too, although Sonata was banned from the kitchen after the first fire.

I frowned, then how would i pay for the rent during school? I'd rather not trouble the girls, perhaps part-time? i nodded, its good enough for now but i still needed time for my "project" perhaps the teachers would allow me to sleep during their classes? Hmm... troubles for another time Twilight lets just focus on the needs of the girls first.

Creak~

I looked up from my notebook and noticed Adagio was wearing one of my black oversized jackets, the name "Sparkle" stitched in purple alone in the back; my 'mark' was also stitched above in front where the heart was (very obviously, i say). I blinked in realization, i also need to get them some clothes. I tilted my head in thought, they have been wearing my clothes a lot lately. Mayhaps they would like some clothes for themself? As my thoughts continue to ramble, it was suddenly interrupted by the ringing of my phone.

I blinked once again, do i have work today? I believe boss gave me a week off, was i wrong?

SUNNY is calling you

A pic of a smiling Sunset Shimmer suddenly showed up on my phone, my confusion on why anyone would be calling me shifted to happiness to concern to shock then to mortification.

'Did something happen!? is it another two week Spring Break problem? but- what about the girls? i cant just leave them alone-'

"Twilight" her voice snapped me to attention, Adagio pointedly stared at the phone before staring back at me, a questioning look in her eyes. "You going to take that?" her voice was straight forward, blank and i couldn't help but feel slightly worried. Should i answer it? but i don't think Adagio would like it but this is Sunset!

(The Twilight Sparkle i want to be... never hesitates)

"Ye-" i coughed "- yeah I'll take it Adagio" as i reached for the phone, it suddenly blinked off. I opened it and realised that i had a message, i quickly unlocked my phone causing the text to appear.

Hi Twilight!

Sorry for the quick call

The girls were asking if you can join us for a sleepover at my place

You wanna join?

I blinked and stared at Adagio before looking back to my phone, i would love to join but the girls but... I bit the inside of my cheek, a contemplative look forming on my face. Should i? i flicked my eyes towards Adagio once again, people get sick of seeing or being around the same person over and over again right?

I mean sure, the Sirens have been my top priority for a while now and i don't want to make them feel caged. They would like some space right? i don't want to seem way too over the top.

Besides, i haven't spent time with the Rainbooms for a while now.

"Your leaving?"

Those two words from Sonata immediately snapped the other Dazzlings into attention form their dinner. Confusion on why such words were doing on the table because last they knew was that the three of them were going to stick together through everything before they realized where the words were directed too.

"What!?" was Aria's explosive reply, she stood up from her chair. Shock, confusion and a bunch of other feelings rushed through her. "Why!?" she strangled out through clenched teeth, looking like she wanted to strangle her host with her clenched fists.

"Woah- Wow Wait! what do you mean Sonata!" their host, Twilight Sparkle was panicking with the flailing hands and everything.

"I mean..." Sonata just looked so sad and it just clenched Twilight's heart and she just looked like she needed a hug. "i saw you pack your stuff when i was passing by your room." Sonata looked down, Twilight could even imagine a bunch sad dropping puppy ears. "Are you going to leave us?" she whispered.

Critical Hit!

Twilight couldn't help but choke on the water she was silently sipping, trying to understand how Sonata even got to that assumption in the first place before realizing that, yes; It actually looks like that at the first glance. Their reaction on her 'leaving' made her feel extra fuzzy in the inside but Twilight didn't like how she got it.

Socializing is hard

Twilight gulped, trying to see how she should explain this before nearly smacking herself at the obvious solution. Just explain! she groaned internally, truly you are a genius Twilight Sparkle. She tried to find a perfect statement on how to explain the situation without it sounding wrong in their minds.

Would a I'm just going to sleep at my friend's place to give you girls space be fine? or if the blunt I don't want you girls to keep on seeing me, so im going out or maybe the simple Im going to get milk and be back in two days would be okay?

But! the last time Twilight left them alone during the spring break without updates so suddenly caused them to worried them so much! She can't just put them through that again when something suddenly comes up.

(The Twilight Sparkle i want to be...)

"The... The Rainbooms invited me for a sleepover, is it alright if i left you, girls, alone for two days?" Twilight asked hesitantly.

Silence came for a few minutes but Twilight couldn't help but let out a relieved sigh when she saw the tense atmosphere slowly relax.

"Psh-" glared Aria "- why didn't you just say so! making us worry like that" Aria crossed her arms on the table while shooting daggers at Twilight. "I thought you were running away because the authorities found out about your 'research'" she quoted, still annoyed for the misunderstanding.

"Im really sorry for making you girls worry" waved Twilight, "And nope! no one else knows of my 'research' thank you very much!" she added. The joking look on Twilight's face faded before a small smile was left, the Sirens decided they enjoyed that smile. They watched as Twilight reached for Sonata before pulling her in a hug, to which the blue Siren eagerly accepted.

"You promise you won't leave?" Sonata asked, fragility in her voice.

"I would never leave you girls, I promise" Twilight answered, pure honesty in her voice.

In that small dining room, the Sirens felt something change. Something small and yet they knew it changed something, they didn't know if it was from that light behind Twilight or the pure heat filling their cheeks.

Author's Note

Do you know how much research i had to do to make my simple ass mind try to make the "age of the character to make sense. What School year they are in and the BULLSHIT TIMELINE, fuck sake there is no actual numbers.

Twilight is sixteen,(got it from the legend everfree movie where they said that timber is 17-18 and that he is older than Twilight by 1 and a half) the education of Canterlot high is K to 12. The grade 11- 12 is to help students get ready for college, its how it works in where i live and im sticking to it.

The Rainchicks are all grade 10, making their ages range from 14 (if their bday haven't come up yet) 15 to 16

The bullshit with bad sunset is Grade 3 till grade 7,(because if i remember correctly, from the yearbook the Rainbooms look like little shits and said that Bad Sunset has been an even little shit for three years so it's plausible and puberty just smacked them in the face making how they look right now) making them... mother fukin 13 when Equestria Girls first came out.

(No wide scale Anon-A Miss, because the timeline is convoluted enough. Imma just say that someone just started bitching/framing (Yes they explained it and everything but sunset still feels extra sensitive)) Sunset like a month before Rainbow Rocks which imma use to explain the higher hostility and shit like that, making them fuckin 14 when they faced a bunch of Sirens. they are Grade 8.

The friendship games are Grade 9, (this part is actually the least fuking hard to make sense, surprisingly) the friendship games started somewhere in Late December(?) and lasted for like a week. (like a week before christmas break) Twilight transferred to Canterlot High afterwards during early January. (when classes resumed)

(You know i spend so much time here compared to actual schooling, surprised me as well)

During Christmas break (lasts for 2 weeks) is where Twilight Sparkle met the Dazzlings, she has been hiding them in her lab house during those 2 and a half months before moving out to the house next door in the start of March.

The start of Spring break is when the Camp Everfree starts, which lasts for at least one week and was extended for two more days because of the incident, worrying the dazzlings.

Forgotten friendship happens in grade 10,

if i find out that there is an explained timeline, im gonna scream.

PS: i kinda need an editor for this book, how do you find one here?

3- Sleep

"Hiya Twilight! -Gasp!- its been so long since we've last seen you! where have ya been?"

I couldn't but smile at the rather cheerful greeting i received when i finally made my way to Sunset's two-story house but something seemed off from Pinkie and whenever something is off from Pinkie, I'd rather not be in the blast radius thank you very much.

"Hi Pinkie, was i late?" I asked while carefully deflecting the question, "Can i come inside?" i added as i pointedly looked at the door

"Yepporoni! cum inside~" Pinkie grinned, i blinked. Did i hear that right? i swallowed, was it getting hot in here or is it just me?

"Right...-" i coughed awkwardly "-Thank you, Pinkie" i smiled as i scooted my way inside, she still didn't answer my question.

"And nope! you came just on time" i shivered, way to be ominous Pinkie Pie. I gripped my dark purple duffle bag closer to my chest, was there going to be a 'Screamer' prank? I thought they knew how badly i react to 'Screamers.' I bit the inside of my cheek, my body stiff and tense as i made my way upstairs. I could feel Pinkie following behind me, i gulped. Something was wrong... i sniffed, were they doing drugs? that could explain the way Pinkie was acting but i thought they were much more responsible than that!

"Did you get taller Twi?" I nearly jumped out of my skin the moment i felt her breath in front of me, my mouth hanged agape as i stared down at the pink physic-breaking monstrosity. She was right behind me! i didn't even feel her moving! I shook my head as i remembered not to question it. I blinked when my brain finally recognized Pinkie's question, i tilted my head in confusion, did i get taller? I remember being just below eye to eye with Pinkie just a few months ago.

"Did i?" i questioned, not so sure. I didn't exactly have the time to document any physical changes about my physique since i was so busy with the girls.

The moment Pinkie stepped towards me, i had to stop myself from walking backwards. This is Pinkie! she's just way too curious for her own good, she's not like Adagio where every slow step makes me feel like she would pounce on me.

Pinkie stopped right in front of me and i realized that all she's wearing was a simple purple hoodie. I gulped as my mind was assaulted of the different instances of the girls just wearing my jackets, bad brain! focus on something else! not the curve of Adagio's soft and supple chest, nor Aria's toned and flexible legs not even Sonata's plump...

An audible gulp was heard.

Did i do that? i immediately made my eyes focus straight to Pinkie's face, i could feel my face burning up from embarrassment. I couldn't believe i just thought of that! what would the girls think?

("I realized that you've always been an outcast")

(The Twilight Sparkle that i want to be... would not be affected by what others think)

I could feel my cheeks cooling immediately.

"-ou changed a lot in just a few months didn't ya, Twily?"

I blinked at the question, a small "Wha?" escaping from me. Pinkie sounded off, a concerned look formed on my face, did something happen?

"Come on! let's get you upstairs, you might miss the main event cause of us just dilly dally-ing" before i knew it, i was being dragged to Sunset's room upstairs. "Oh yeah! Twilight! what happened to your usual clothes?" she asked as we stopped at the top of the stair cause and i couldn't help but tilt my head in confusion, this is my usual clothes. I think Pinkie caught on my confusion cause she elaborated. "Your usual blouse and skirt combo"

Oh those, i couldn't help but laugh lightly. The girls kept on stealing my clothes and it has been kind of a hassle to take them back and since i didn't want to inconvenient my parents, i just used the hand-me-downs that Cadence bought for Shiny during his teen years. While baggy at first, I realised that i have been filling them out. I blinked, i guess i have been growing.

"Your new style looks nice..." I couldn't help but blush lightly, it felt nice to be complimented.

"Thank you Pinkie, you look nice too!" from those books I've read on social interaction, if you were to be complimented then you have to compliment them back; It's called common courtesy. I couldn't help but push up my new glasses in achievement, i could just feel the girls praising me for being actually socially competent.

I tilted my head once more when Pinkie turned... pinker(?) is that even possible? she seemed to be acting demure now, did i say something wrong? from what i remember from the book, being demure/ shy after a compliment would mean that they didn't accept it and that they are just trying to comprehend it. That's... wrong, Pinkie is nice! and she should know this.

"Pinkie!" i turned to Pinkie, i realized just how close we are. Good, close proximity would let her see just how truthful i am. "You're really pretty! you're nice! Uhm... -" i need more good adjectives, i brought out my phone and searched through some vocabulary before giving up; not enough time. "See! even the internet couldn't fully help me describe you!" i grinned and nodded to myself, mentally patting myself in the back. Great job Twilight, you helped your friend. I patted Pinkie in the arm and made my way to Sunset's room.

Not noticing the rather controversial expression on Pinkie's face.

"Hello, am i late?" i asked as i peek through the door, Pinkie went forward and said something about a main event and I'd rather not ruin the mood. I tilted my head when all i saw was darkness, were they sleeping already? I flicked my eyes to my watch and learned it was just 6:30, was sleeping the main event? I could see the reason why that would be a main event, it was called a 'sleepover' after all. As i turned to close the door so the girls sleeping inside wouldn't be bothered, something shifted in my vision.

I narrowed my eyes, before relaxing. They were probably moving in their sleep, totally normal. Guess im going to sleep in the couch downstairs, I'd hate to disturb their sleep just for my sleeping arrangement. Besides, i needed to update the girls so they don't have to worry.

As i softly clicked the door closed and turned to the bathroom so i can change, i was grabbed by the shoulder. My eyes widened and i immediately twisted my body and slammed a fist at my attacker, i grabbed them by the arm and pulled them to the light.

The person i saw shocked me.

4- Weak

"Sunset!?"

I stared down at the red and gold haired teen as she rubbed her stomach, she weakly gave me a thumbs-up as she continued her ministration. "Sunset! im so sorry! let me check the injury" i grabbed Sunset's arm and leaned her up against the wall, i slowly removed her hand and pulled her purple jacket up. Okay, it doesn't look that bad but... i bit the inside of my cheek. This is why you should've checked who your fighting! Stupid!

I lightly pressed on her stomach, i could feel her abdominal muscles tense lightly before relaxing. "Does this hurt?" i questioned as i stared up at a red-faced Sunset, i furrowed my brow. Is Sunset alright? she stopped moving, does it hurt that much? I stood at my full height and realised that Sunset was shorter than usual. I leaned closer, trying to see if the difference was obvious and it was! Sunset reached up to my nose, did she get shorter?

"Hey!" i turned to the door, which was wide open showing the other five participants of the sleepover. "Oo~ are we interrupting something?" tittered Rarity, i cocked my head to the side in confusion. Aren't you supposed to be angered when your friend is injured? it seems they are trying to not embarrass Sunset by insinuating something else.

"No, i was just checking Sunset to see if she was alright" i stated, did it look like something else?

"I didn't know you got a rough side Twi!" cackled Rainbow Dash, i just stared confused. I do have callouses but the girls have been saying that it has been getting softer, i do not know if that is a good thing or not.

"Doesn't everyone?" i shot back, i turned my attention back to Sunset who seems to have cooled down slightly. I cupped her cheek and moved it to the side, i laid my hand on her neck and tried to see if she is indeed sick. I rose a brow, her temperature was alright the first time i touched her but it seemed to have risen significantly perhaps some traits from the ponyworld still lingered in Sunset? I frowned, i haven't taken up Hippology so i do not know much about their habits. If i remember correctly they had this thing called 'heat,' perhaps that would explain her rather odd thermal cycle.

"Sunset..." Sunset's eyes, they -I couldn't help but let out a breath in amazement- were they always this beautiful? "Are you perhaps in heat?" i questioned quietly, my hands moving from her shoulder to the wall behind her. Being tall is hard, i had to lean forward so i can actually look at Sunset; i don't want her to look way up just to look straight at my eyes.

Bop!

We both blinked and i smiled, my glasses seemed to have tipped out of my head and is now lying upside down on Sunset's face. I blinked when i saw Sunset turn even redder, perhaps she is in heat? You turn red like a thermometer right? i didn't exactly have the time to study biology, i mostly mayor in technology and science.

"N- no! what brought that idea!" sputtered Sunset, her face even redder than ever. Your face is contradicting your statement Sunset but I'll take you word for it. "Be- besides! humans don't have a heat cycle and that transferred to me!" As she hid behind her hands, i couldn't help but feel something stir inside of me. Sunset... you remind me of someone.

Someone long gone.

("Your gonna be ma'h rival Twilight! I'll beat you until your just a smear in the ground!")

("Okeh!")

("Idiot! you're not supposed to just accept it like that!")

I couldn't help but laugh.

I couldn't help but cry.

When they saw me lean onto Sunset and hug her tight, well no one said anything.

Everything was perfect.

I had the girls and the others with me, i was happy.

I had a stable job, i was enjoying my time with everyone i love, i even made progress with most of my projects.

I had everything i ever wanted and more.

Did you notice anything wrong with that statement?

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They were all in the past tense, something from the past.

Honestly, you'd think people would get the memo after the first time but it seems i was wrong, once again.

It seems a lot of people in this place want what is mine, that isn't good.

It was like an error in the code, an unknown variable that wasn't needed in the solution.

Do you know what we do with that... error?

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Come on you're pretty close.

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We take it out.

It happened slowly.

I didn't really notice it at first, who does really?

But that doesn't excuse the fact that i didn't notice until it was nearly too late.

It was the simple things, -a faraway look, a happy sigh, loss of time, sudden reddening whenever in proximity- things that not a lot of people will really notice.

Unless you pay extra attention, luckily i always do.

First, let me tell you a story.

A story about a girl, a weak one, a failure. That was all she was, honestly.

She had a single pillar, someone to ground her into reality.

You see, this girl... she loved her pillar. Maybe a little too much but that's what love does to you.

But, someone took her pillar away.

Let me ask you something, what happens when you take away the support system of a house?

It crashes down, and when it crashes down and you try to fix it back up with the same materials.

It's wouldn't be the same, because what was broken is still broken but! broken things can be fixed.

It could be good, it can be bad.

But the girl? she was weak and broken, that much is true but she didn't crash. A saving grace.

She was slowly repairing herself throughout the years, it was a good thing really.

A good thing for others but, herself? fixing yourself at such a young age? Alone?

That's not a good thing.

But it was alright! doing stuff yourself means you're strong, yes?

And so the girl, powered on. A crashing house with support is a failure, a house that doesn't crumple with no support? a miracle. Before she knew it, she had visitors!

The girl loved it, most visitors means potential new friends! new friends are good after all. That's what ($&%# told me.

She didn't expect to get three new family members, and while unexpected, the girl still loved them unconditionally. The last thing she knew was that they became her pillars and the house was secure and standing proud. So secure and safe that people began to forget the reason on why you shouldn't take what wasn't yours.

That isn't good.

If people keep on waltzing in, who would stop them wrong taking her pillars? The girl didn't want her pillars stolen once again, so she had to send a message especially since she had her recent pillar!

Recent pillars are really easy to take, and that's bad. All of her pillars are easy to take and that's bad too!

And so the once weak girl planned, she planned and planned and planned.

After all, she couldn't afford to be weak again.

Author's Note

You think the dark was there just for Twilight's unhealthy mentality?

Hah, you thought wrong.