Chapter Two
Self Discovery

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There were options, of course. Standard all-purpose disenchantment spells that might solve Twilight’s problem. And, of course, none of them worked. They’d gone through the list of everything they could think of, but this permanent body alteration seemed, well, permanent.

Hours of researching options proved to get her nowhere. She was in the basement turning pages in a book while Starlight was upstairs scouring the library for more sources. It wouldn’t matter. Twilight knew that, and so did Starlight. There was no counterspell, so they’d have to make one, and if they were making a spell anyway, it might as well be one that would get them both vaginas.

Twilight sighed and leaned back in her chair. Not for the first time, she looked down at her skirt. She pulled it aside and looked at the dick that now grew out of her. She frowned at it, wishing she could just rip it off.

Ever since she realized she was a lesbian, she thought she was done with dicks. Not that she had too much experience with them. She’d slept with Flash Sentry, the only stallion she’d ever dated, which was what really solidified it in her mind that stallions just weren’t something she was interested in.

She pushed the dick aside, sliding her hand past the balls as well, and she ran her finger along the skin behind them. Her vulva should be there, and past that, her vagina. Instead, it was just sensitive skin. In a way, that was weirder than suddenly having a penis; it’d be one thing if her vagina was still there, but it was gone. She hadn’t just gained a weird new body part, she’d lost part of herself.

“What am I doing?” she asked herself and let her skirt fall back into place.

She hadn’t expected an answer, but she got one anyway. “Uhm… Twilight?”

Twilight’s mouth dropped open and she sat straight up in her chair as every muscle on her body tensed at once. That wasn’t Starlight’s voice…

Although it was the last thing she wanted to do at that moment, Twilight turned to see Fluttershy standing at the bottom of the stairs. “H-Hi, Fluttershy…”

“I’m sorry I let myself in, no one answered the door, and, uhm…” Fluttershy turned away. She was blushing, but why? Had she seen something, or did she just feel awkward for walking in unannounced? “Well, we were going to have lunch today…”

Twilight facepalmed. “Right, lunch. I’m sorry, I got caught up in, er, work.”

“Oh, don’t worry about it.” Fluttershy smiled. “Maybe we could go out now?”

Twilight couldn’t go out, not until she figured this out. She could see the bulge through her skirt, how could she –

Oh shit, she could see the bulge through her skirt! Thankfully, she was wearing her lab coat, which she pulled closed to cover herself a little better. “I’m sorry, but I…”

I have a dick now, trying to get rid of that. Please come back when I’ve got a snatch again. Yeah, that wasn’t something she could say to Fluttershy of all ponies.

Fluttershy took a step closer. “Are you not feeling well?”

Twilight glanced aside. “Well, you see…” Her eyes fell on her panties, which were still sitting on the floor. She went wide-eyed at the sight, hoping Fluttershy wouldn’t notice.

“Hmm?” Naturally, Fluttershy followed Twilight’s eyes and hers landed on Twilight’s underwear.

Twilight swallowed and hesitated a moment, then quickly got up to grab them. “I’m… so sorry. I, er, I just…”

“Oh, uhm, it’s okay.” Fluttershy looked pointedly away as Twilight picked up her panties and held them behind her back. “You weren’t expecting company, and uhm…”

“This is going to sound stupid, but I couldn’t wear underwear for the spell me and Starlight were doing.”

“Oh. Was it, uhm.” Fluttershy pressed her pointer fingers together and blushed. “Was it… that kind of spell?”

“No! Of course not!” Twilight wanted to disappear. This was the worst thing that could happen, with the worst mare for it to happen with. If there was anyone Twilight didn’t want to think those kinds of things about her, it was Fluttershy. And now she was standing with her underwear behind her back right in front of Fluttershy which meant…

Which meant she wasn’t wearing any underwear with Fluttershy right in front of her. Her own blush grew as she had thoughts of Fluttershy noticing and taking an interest and…

‘No, shut up, you stupid fucking whore! Fluttershy is your friend, you can’t have thoughts like that about her! No matter how much I want it…’

Something was happening. Something was moving between her legs. Somewhere Twilight knew exactly what was happening, but she couldn’t quite manage to piece it together at that moment.

She looked down and, sure enough, she saw her lab coat was moving ever so slightly as her dick started to get erect.

She had to get out of there. “I, uh, I need to go. I’m… sick. Very sick, and if you stay here, you’ll get sick too, so you should go! Now!”

“Oh, but I could stay and help you –”

Twilight cut her off by putting her hands on her friend’s shoulders and pushing her towards the stairs. At least with her back turned, Fluttershy couldn’t see Twilight’s thing growing.

“I’ll be fine! I just need… rest, yeah.” It sounded like a horrible excuse, but she couldn’t be around Fluttershy right now. Not when she didn’t know how to control this thing.

“Are you sure?” Fluttershy started walking up the steps, but she turned her head back. “Can I at least get a hug goodbye?”

“No!” Twilight answered quickly, afraid Fluttershy might feel it against her body and oh sweet Celestia Twilight couldn’t stop imagining Fluttershy feeling her body against hers now. “I’m… really contagious. You should go and… and make sure you wash your hands!”

“Oh. Okay. Well, I’ll come back tomorrow to make sure you’re okay.”

“Sounds good. Sorry, I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Fluttershy climbed the stairs and turned around in time to see Twilight using her hand to push her dick back in place. “I’ll see you tomorrow then. Bye.”

“Bye. And sorry again!”

Fluttershy went through the door, and Twilight sighed in relief. Then she realized she was still holding her panties, which meant she had used them to push Fluttershy towards the stairs.

Great. Just fucking great. Twilight had screwed up big this time, this was even worse than having a dick now.

“Yeah, this is all your fault…” Twilight grumbled at her new member. It seemed to have settled on a half erect state and was dead set on staying there.

With a sigh, Twilight started climbing the steps herself. Fluttershy should be gone by now, and Spike was off in Canterlot for a month to visit their parents, so it was just Twilight and Starlight in the castle. At least she could explain things to Starlight if she saw Twilight like this.

But as she walked out of the basement, Starlight was nowhere to be seen. Twilight decided she needed a shower. A cold one, to chase these thoughts from her head.

She walked to the nearest bathroom, one of several in the castle, and closed the door behind her. She sighed as she pulled off the lab coat, noticing that even with it, being half erect made her stand out. Without it, well, it couldn’t be more obvious that she had something up her skirt.

She pulled that off too, as well as her blouse and bra, then examined her naked body in front of the mirror. The spell had only been for genital augmentation. There was a separate spell that could get rid of boobs, but thank Celestia they didn’t have any reason to mess with that; Starlight had grown small boobs from her hormone replacement spell, and she was quite happy with them.

So Twilight looked exactly as she always had, female in every way except for one. She had boobs, and decently sized ones at that. She had some curves courtesy of a few extra pounds from a life as a bookworm magician. She had a soft face, and a long and full mane and tail. She wasn’t super feminine like Rarity and Fluttershy, but she was in every way female.

Except for one. Where her vagina had been, she now had a dick, which was currently slightly engorged. She prodded it and frowned. The soreness had worn off, but she was always aware of its presence.

Well, she hadn’t come here to look at herself naked. She walked over to the shower and turned it on, then folded her arms and waited for it to warm up. Meanwhile, she chided herself. She knew better than to think genitals defined anything about gender – she was best friends with Starlight, roommates even. Any preconceived ideas of what it meant to be a mare should have been shattered long ago.

She stepped into the shower, remembering that she had intended it to be a cold shower and deciding she didn’t care enough to change it now. The warm water felt nice, and she could use the stress relief.

‘Not like I’m getting any other stress relief with this thing,’ she thought. Twilight was not fond of masturbating at the best of times, but without her clit? No, there was no way she was touching that thing for anything sexual.

Even if it had other ideas. Even if she couldn’t help but think about Fluttershy touching it.

“I saw everything, Twilight,” Fluttershy would say with a sly smile. “You poor thing, let me make it up to you…”

Twilight winced, and she realized she was growing a little bigger. Gingerly she reached down and stroked a finger along the length of herself, noting how sensitive it was. Twilight knew enough about anatomy to know that it was basically a really big clit with some extra plumbing, which meant…

No. No, Twilight was not doing this. Especially not after that interaction with Fluttershy.

‘Yeah, that interaction that I liked enough to get erect over… Admit it, you loved being around Fluttershy without your underwear on. You wanted her to notice…’

Twilight stroked herself gently, although she knew that wasn’t really how things worked with this body part. By now she was fully hard, and she wrapped her fingers around her cock. It was warm and hard, and she kind of liked how it felt.

What would Fluttershy say if she saw Twilight right now? “Oh you poor thing, let’s see if we can take care of that for you…”

Twilight pulled up gently, feeling the way the skin slid along her cock. She felt dirty as she even thought the word ‘cock’, which only excited her more.

“Oh, Twilight, let’s find out what your cock can really do.”

Twilight’s mouth twitched as she started going a little faster, focusing on the new sensation. It was similar to what she was used to masturbating before when she had a clit, but also so different and unique. She liked it.

A smile worked her way to her face as she imagined Fluttershy taking Twilight to the couch and hiking up her skirt, letting Twilight explore her body. Giving everything to Twilight, becoming one with her.

Twilight started moving her hand even faster, and she used her free hand to grab her breast, pinching her nipple as she stroked her cock. She could connect with Fluttershy in a whole new way with this, she could feel her from the inside.

As she picked up speed, her hand started sliding loosely more along the length of her cock rather than grasping it firmly, using the water as lubricant. She wanted to use this thing in other ways, she wanted Fluttershy to get to know this new side of her, she wanted… she wanted…

Her mind went blank as she felt the pleasure welling up, then it shot out of her. It was an immensely satisfying feeling, just as pleasurable as orgasming with her clit had been but with a stronger sensation of release.

Then she opened her eyes and saw semen washing down the drain, and she felt awful. What the fuck was she doing? Fluttershy was her friend, she shouldn’t think of her like that. She shouldn’t even do things like that, especially not with that… thing.

It seemed to finally be content with her, however, as it was slowly going back down to its usual flaccid state. At least there was that, though it was little comfort. She sat on the floor and leaned her head back against the wall, letting the water fall on her as she questioned just what the hell she thought she was doing.

She always did this. She always told herself she wasn’t going to masturbate anymore, that it only left her feeling miserable afterwards, that she was supposed to be better than giving in to such carnal pleasures. And yet, she always came back to it. Almost every single day, at some point, Twilight would cave in and touch herself.

And it seemed that losing her pussy did nothing to change that. She looked down at her dick and glared at it. Now she had to deal with making a mess whenever she couldn’t help herself too.

At least the shower helped with that. A little got on her fur, which proved to be a pain to wash out but at least most of it went down the drain.

Twilight picked herself up and washed properly, realizing she wasn’t exactly sure how much washing her new body parts needed. She was thorough, just in case – better safe than sorry, since she wasn’t in the mood to ask Starlight for lessons.

Once she was done, she turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. Drying off was another new experience, then she put on a bathrobe and tried to not think about it. She left the bathroom and made for her bedroom so she could get changed.

Maybe there was some spell that could ease these impulses. She’d tried taking an herbal supplement that was supposed to curb desires, but it didn’t help any. She wanted to at least keep her hands off herself as long as she had this thing attached to her – she felt even dirtier for masturbating with that.

“Oh hey, Twilight,” Starlight said as they passed each other in the hall.

“Hi, Starlight. Any luck?”

“No, afraid not. But we’ll find something.”

Twilight nodded. She had known that answer was coming. “Did you run into Fluttershy, by any chance?”

“Fluttershy? No, was she here?”

“Yeah, I was supposed to meet with her for lunch.” Twilight shifted uncomfortably. “I’m a little worried she might have noticed my… situation.”

Starlight frowned. “It’s not like she’d have a reason to care, right?”

“Yeah, it’s just… a little embarrassing to be seen.”

“Well, what were you doing?” Starlight grinned and nudged Twilight. “Something you had to finish up with in the shower?”

Twilight blushed. “Nothing like that! I was just… looking at it.”

Starlight laughed. “Right.”

“Oh, be quiet.” Twilight walked into her room with Starlight following behind.

She lingered in the doorway while Twilight pulled off her robe, keeping turned away to give Twilight some privacy. “Seriously though, I’m sure if Fluttershy did see something, she wouldn’t care. You weren’t embarrassed about showing yourself off to me.”

“I’m still not,” Twilight said, noting how Starlight was turned away while she talked to her. Since her boobs were the only things she was at least a little unsure about letting Starlight see, Twilight put on a shirt first, not bothering with a bra since it was getting late anyway.

Starlight took the cue and walked in to sit on the bed while Twilight pulled out a pair of underwear and frowned at it. There was no way it would be very comfortable, but it might at least hold things in place better, so she pulled the panties on. As expected, her new bulge didn’t exactly fit well in her underwear, but she’d make do.

“And you know,” Starlight said, “while you’ve got that thing, you might as well use it.”

“Ha ha,” Twilight said flatly as she pulled on a pair of pajama pants. They were a pretty loose fit, but it was still obvious that there was a bulge there. She ignored it as she flopped onto the bed.

“I’m serious,” Starlight said. “Look, first thing I do when I get my vagina is finding out what it feels like to shove some toys in there.”

“Starlight!” Twilight facepalmed, but she was grinning.

“What? Nothing to be embarrassed about!”

“I wish I felt like that…”

Starlight lay down on her stomach beside Twilight and looked at her. “So then did you play with it in that shower?”

“Shut up!” Twilight turned her back to her friend.

In turn, Starlight scooted closer to Twilight, placing a hand on her shoulder. “I’ll stop if it’s really bothering you.”

Twilight sighed. “What’s it… like for you? When you, you know, do stuff like that.”

Starlight snickered. “You finally have the chance to find out yourself, and now you ask me about that?”

“I don’t mean physically. I mean… what do you feel like afterwards?”

Starlight was quiet for a moment, then she pulled back. “Well… I don’t know. It’s complicated, and not always the same. I think this has more to do with how you feel than how I feel though.”

“I… I did, you know. In the shower.”

“Okay. Nothing wrong with that. But you feel bad about it?”

Twilight sighed. “Yes. I feel like… I don’t know.”

“Like it makes you think of it as a guy’s thing afterwards?”

“No, of course not!” Twilight answered quickly as she turned back to face Starlight. “I know penises aren’t exclusively a male thing!”

“I know you know,” Starlight said. “But you know, that’s how I feel sometimes. Like, beforehand I’ll be thinking, you know, girls can have dicks too. But then afterwards, I guess I feel bad, like I did something very male because of what kind of equipment I’ve got.”

“I guess…” Twilight shifted in place a little. “I did feel worse for, you know, with that.”

“It’s normal, I think. Or at least, it’s something I feel too. I guess you aren’t really used to feeling dysphoria though.”

“Yeah, that’s new. It’s awful, and I know it’s only temporary for me.” Twilight smiled at her friend. “It makes me worry about you, to be honest. I feel so bad that you’ve had to deal with this for so long.”

“Hey, but you’re helping me with that. Besides, you’re the one who just had this thrust on you for the first time. I’ve had years to get used to my gal pal down there.”

Twilight laughed a little, and she felt a little better. Although she wished Starlight didn’t have any reason to feel uncomfortable about her own body, it was nice in a way to know that they could relate to one another better now.

Which wasn’t to say Twilight didn’t want to get rid of that thing as quick as she could and never look back. Having something so… stallionish just felt wrong, no matter how often she reminded herself mares could have dicks too.

“So what do you say we make tomorrow the day we find a spell to help us out?” Twilight asked with a smile.

Starlight grinned. “Oh absolutely. I’m looking forward to it already.”

And Twilight was too. They both needed this solution now, and they were going to find it.

Author's Note

My first explicit sex scene, and it’s Twilight masturbating... Baphomet help me, what have I become