Author's Note

I think it's important to warn that this chapter can be a little strong, I don't consider it very strong since, tag M + gore and death, but there may be people who consider it violent.
Maybe the next chapter will take some time, I don't guarantee it will come out tomorrow.

Memories of the past: ...Of how I went through hell...

Damn, shit, FUCK! What did I do! WHY! GOD WHY! I just wanted to go home! I feel tears spilling into my eyes, I look around, a simple cell, a bed attached to the wall, a toilet and a table with a book on top... It's the Bible! I grab her, tears already streaming down my eyes, "g-god... Please help me!" help... What I did... I press the book against my head "please hear me! Don't leave me here... Please..." * Clack * the doors are opening! I turned around... There was Celestia and a unicorn that had a brown fur and a blue mane, he had a white coat...

"Damian?"

I wipe my tears "C-Celestia, please excuse me, I really don't know what I did, please send me home... I beg you."
She... She shivered! It is! "Please! Feel sorry for me! You know I have a family! They... I... Please..." damn, I can already feel tears coming back.

She coughs sometimes "I... Damian Spencer, you were tried by the high judges of Equestria and found guilty of the crimes of: creating weapons or spells of mass destruction, genocide towards a people for ethnic or religious reasons, crimes hateful against existence, such as war crimes or ethnic extinction through rape, by blows from bloody states that have generated countless years of pain and fear for sentient beings like humans, for the acts of systematically raising animals with doubtful wisdom in captivity for food or sports, for crimes against knowledge such as burning large libraries or sacred temples, for Crusades, a war justified in religious differences that brought nothing but poverty and misery to countless people, for the extermination of native peoples who lived in peace with nature , these beings who only wanted to be happy, were killed or sold as slaves, slavery, there is also the crime of encourage slavery by buying slaves or even capturing them..."

What... What, I... I didn't understand... What...

"Your punishment was: from now on, the individual known as Damian Spencer, Human, twenty eight years old, is deprived of rights such as the right to be, the right to live, the right to die, the right to food, health and education, the right to call oneself equestrian or any other citizenship that exists or will exist. "

What... I... I really... "Princess? I... I don't understand..."

Her horn shines and I feel an extraordinary pain in my chest, I cry out in agony as I feel a scratch cutting through my chest, when the pains gone, I'm already on my knees, tears streaming down like rivers, while a five was written on my chest... God...

"From now on you will be known as individual five, name can still be changed if your jailer wish, your sentence was stipulated in 1342 years without parole, no time off or breaks except on weekends for religious reasons, you will start to pay for your crimes by helping the kingdom of Equestria to win the Equine-Griffin war through any means requested by the jailer, who will be the physician and surgeon Silk Touch. "

I... God what...

She says something to the doctor, I don't understand, god... Help... Please help me... This has... It has to be a dream... Yes... I'm delusional with anxiety...

"After this explanation, I withdraw me and leave you with your personal doctor who will be responsible for your wellbeing, he has high qualifications in several aspects and was a personal student trained by myself, he will ensure that you comply and do all the required functions. For me or for the kingdom of Equestria... That's it, Damian Spencer, that Faust, Markal, Reficul, Liria and Samol have pity on your soul today until the day your punishment ends. "

With a white sparkle she disappears... I... What? The unicorn, which until now was surrounded by a white aura, seems to perceive my presence while the aura fades. "Hi? Me... Aren't you Damian? The human?"

"Y-y-yes!"

"Strange, I should find test object number five... Man, shouldn't you have already gone to your world?"

"Y-yes! I have... My God I... This has to be a dream, where's Luna !?" he laughs a little while he levitates a clipboard and starts to read, "don't worry, I'll let the princesses know you're here and you can go home... Do you know where this is?" he stops reading.

"II don't know, it's... A dungeon..."

"These are the secret cell blocks! But specifically this one is 550!" he looked almost like a boy who got his first car! Then he notices my chest, a number five engraved on it, god how it hurt, it looked like someone was using a shard of glass to write. "I ahmm..." he turns the papers over, looking frantically.

"Will you help me? I have to get out of here! This must be a mistake I... Or a dream... Man I just want to go home!"

"I... I..." he coughs as he fixes his posture and voice "I am the physician and surgeon Silk Touch and from now on I will be your jailer, judge, jury and... Executioner? Yes, me... "He stares at me, what? Judge? "Pleasure, I hope that our tests and surveys are to your liking and that you say nothing but the truth."

"I-I'll help! If you help me, I'll help you! Just tell the princesses! I think... I think there was a mistake."

"Sorry, me, I'm just doing my job you know?"

"Y-Yes, I understand! Look, I worked in business, sometimes I had to be an asshole but it was just work! I was being a professional! Now please help me!" it looks like weights were lifted off his shoulders, a sigh of relief came out of his lips.

"T-Thank you, I'm glad you understand, it really helps." he turns and walks toward the exit, "please follow me."

You don't have to ask twice! My pockets? The wallet is here! I take the Bible and kiss it, Thanks god, thanks.

We walked a little, he looks nervous, Jesus he's sweating! "This is where we are going to... Work." it was a big room, easily ten meters by ten meters, it had several tables with bottles and... Syringes on top of them, it had some saws and knives on the wall too, and in the center there was a stretcher, what will happen...

"Please sit on the stretcher."

"I-I... I don't think so, look, I have to see the princesses."

He sighs, "you know I just work here right?"

"Y-yes! Look, I'll help you after I leave... Here, ok?"

"Sorry." his horn glows and I feel a huge pain in my chest "sorry, I just work here."

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I wake up... The ceiling is gray, I look to the side, a table with the Bible on top, I am in a very hard wooden bed, there is a toilet in the corner... I feel tears forming... That was real... No... It wasn't a dream... Jesus... That hurt... I look to my arms, they are... Well, it doesn't seem to have any scars... I... I never thought that I was going to see my bone that way...

I get up and pick up the Bible, come on... M-Maria says that in situations like this you have to lean on something... Please... God, I... Help, open the book and start reading some parts, please, let this be a dream, be a joke, be a big prank, a big one, DAMN! I'm already crying!

* Clack *

The door opened, there was that unicorn... "Damian, get up and follow me."

"What time is it?"

"I'm not allowed to say that, please, come don't make me force you."

Maybe I can get past him, he looks like an ordinary doctor, he doesn’t look like a soldier, I rise and walk towards him, when I’m almost there he turns around and starts playing with the papers "Damian, how was it? I need sincere answers to not disturb the data. "

I was almost there, I needed to catch him, but that phrase "YOU CUT MY ARM IN TWO! WHAT DO YOU THINK I FEEL? TICKLE ?!"

"Sorry, but please answer honestly, so you help us bot--"

I caught him! I hold him by the neck with one arm while with the other I hold his chest!

"Damian!"

I squeeze his neck as I look through the halls, what do I do now? * ZAP * that pain again! I release it immediately while the symbol on my chest glows "AAAARRRGGHHHHHHHHH!!!"

Stopped, I'm already on the ground... This one was much stronger than the last one... I think... I think I pissed myself... Jesus...

"D-Damian... Don't do this please, the symbol will hurt you unnecessarily... And" * laughs * "when attacking a unicorn, aim at the horn... He he... He."

Fuck, fuck this shit, I want to go home... I... I want to see my daughter... I... Please god get me out of here...

"Damian, get up, I don't want to have to force you again."

"FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!"

* ZAP * once again this hellish pain passes through my body, I feel... I feel my body moving... But I... Am not doing anything!

"Don't you remember? You lost your right to be... Sorry Damian, now follow me."

It is an indescribable sensation, MY body moves without I wanting to, I want to throw myself on the floor but he does not respond, he just keeps walking, it is almost like a reflex... But it is a horrible sensation! Not having control of my own body is... I don't want to cry again, damn it...

"Please don't take me there..."

He stops and turns to me, "look Damian, this is not cool for me too, I thought object five was... I don't know, a corpse? Maybe or magical plant or artifact, not... You! Look, for every contribution you make... Maybe I can reduce your sentence... Don't you remember? I'm your judge and jury. "

"Then let me go! I didn't do anything!"

"Unfortunately, I can only judge the future, the decision has been decided, so Damian, I will undo the spell... Follow me."

We are here... Again in this room... My god that stretcher! He trapped me in it... And... And... Jesus I have to get out of here!

"Lie down on the stretcher please."

He is stirring in an ordinary shiny liquid bottle, my god that seems so wrong.

"Damian, don't make me repeat myself, please sit on the stretcher now."

I can already feel tears forming, my eyes hurt... They hurt from crying so much, my God, he turns and stares at me for a few seconds, it was enough stimulus for me to sit on the stretcher... This... Jesus it's clean, white like Celestia... It's not red anymore... I don't want this to happen again...

"Damian lie down and don't move." he's coming with a fucking battery on his side being levitated, a fucking car battery! I rise immediately!

"W-what are you going to do?"

"Tests."

"I... What tests..."

"An invention has some problems; I was sent to test it with you since your body has unique characteristics like interfering with magic."

"Y-y-you're not going to turn on this thing in me?!"

"Damian, please lie down."

"N-no I--" * ZAP * again... This is getting stronger... Please stop...

"It will be quick Damian, today we only have this test and a standard test and you can go to the cell." he did it, I see two giant 'nails' connected to the battery, he will... My god... He will use...

"Calm down Damian... I..." he looks around before levitating a syringe with a blue liquid inside.

"No, please!"

I try to move but the straps on the stretcher are very tight, he punctures me with that and... And I feel calm... So calm... It is difficult to... Strange, it seems that something has passed me by, it looks like a wind breeze, what was that? I look at him and he's writing on his clipboard, so he takes it... I don't know, it looks like a knife... He starts rubbing it on my arm and... I don't feel anything, in fact it tickles, but... What scares me is that he is literally shaving my arm... Like a cheese... Why am I not screaming? My god it already arrived on the bone! Wh ----

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I wake up... Jesus... No... Again... The gray ceiling... I rise, the Bible is there, on the corner table... Jesus I...

* Clack *

"NO, PLEASE NO!" I... I never screamed like that... I... My god... I...

"Calm down, Damian, today is Saturday, it's your break, I just came to... Talk." he levitates a chair and places it in the middle of the cell, and of course closes the door.

"What-what do you want?" he throws some papers on my bed, I lie down on the bed and look at the papers... Individual Damian Spencer does not exist, invalid request... "What... Is that?"

"Your order, don't you remember?"

"I... Don't I exist?"

"No, you lost the fundamental rights to be... You in the roles... You are no different than a broom, sorry."

I won't cry... I can't... I... Jesus... "What did I do?"

"I don't know, I just... I just follow orders... But you should have heard your pity, didn't you? Celestia didn't tell you?"

"She told me..."

"Do you want me to get a copy of the reasons?"

"No... I want to get out of here." he smiles at me, that motherfucker smiles at me! I want... I want to end him!

"Look, if it is going to help you, you already removed one month from your sentence since you helped with the battery... Yay..."

He just... I... I want... I don't know what I want...

"Damian... Look, I can't give you that anesthetic, you know, he influences the tests, they already asked for another test with the battery, you'll have to do it without anesthesia and... I can't do anything about it... Sorry..."

No... That was... Now I won't be able... I'm crying... I'm crying like a child, I cry so much I can hardly breathe, I'm sobbing, god I want to get out of here.

I feel... I feel a hoof around me, he is hugging me... He... I have never hugged anyone so strong in my life, I... I want help, please don't let me... No... Don't leave me alone I...

"Let's go through this together Damian, ok? I can give you anesthesia once a week, two days off, but for four days... You will have to endure it..."

"Why... Why are you helping me? Wasn't it just work?"

"Why do I feel sorry for you Damian, for Faust, I grated your arm to the bone yesterday, how do you think I'm feeling about that?"

"T-that... Was that a standard test?"

He sighs "yes... Look Damian, I don't do the tests," he lets me go, no! Do not leave me! "I just apply them."

"W-what time is it?"

He laughs lightly before looking at the exit, after seeing what he wants he looks at me, "noon, when you wake up it will always be noon, this is how the spell works."

"I... I want to go home..."

"I'm sorry Damian... Maybe when your sentence is over--"

"Over? It's over a thousand years... I'll be dust before that... And taking a month every two days..."

"No, it is a month for each medium aid provided, mind you, the aid may be minimal and withdraw... One day... It depends."

It doesn't matter... In the end I die before I can go home... I...

"Can you give me that knife?" I saw it, was it on his side, maybe for defense? It was not well hidden to be that... Maybe for the tests.

"Damian, I can't, what do you want?"

"I... I want to mark the wall, three days have passed, so, you know, I think this... I don't know man; can you give me the knife?"

He rises and uses the knife to make three scratches on the wall, "ready, I'll do it for you, every day when you wake up there will be a risk there, ok?"

"OK..."

"Why? Why these risks?"

"For, I don't know, when I wake up to know that a day has passed... I think that's it."

He takes two books from his bag and levitates in front of me "the paths of the five Celestial beings, to give strength of spirit and a story to entertain the mind, I don't particularly like this chapter, but you have to see the first before the second right?"

A book to strengthen the spirit? I take it, it has five figures in it, all completely black, this is a Bible, their Bible, I throw it away, "I already have a book to strengthen the spirit." I say as I point to the book on my desk, now this one... Gary hoof and the philosopher's stone... I... Laugh... Jesus how can I laugh in a situation like this... Gary hoof... "Thanks, this... Will help."

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I wake up, get up and look at the wall, five risks, today the tests start again... I look at the door, nobody, I get up and walk towards the table, it's a very small table, my chair is basically the floor, I sit down and open the Bible, please God, feel sorry for your follower, keep my spirit strong, and don't leave me...

After reading some parts of the bible I close it and put it back on the table, look at the other book, I finished it last night, I think I will ask for the sequence.

I have been here for a few minutes, I am already standing, clean and looking at the cell door, there was my... Jailer, the doctor.

"Hi Damian... Today we... Start over, are you ready?"

"No."

"I know, nopony can be ready for this, I hope you used the extra minutes well."

"Yea."

He opens the door and I follow him, again this corridor, again that stretcher... I don't want to sit on it... Today... He said that the anesthesia will be on Wednesdays... I...

"Damian, lie down please."

"Doctor... Can't we skip today's tests? Please."

"I can't, Damian, I have to deliver results, and your willingness not to collaborate is not a valid reason for missing the results."

I lie down, my heart is already beating insanely, it almost hurts, "what will it be today?"

"Collecting skin and blood, how much can a human being lose blood?"

"Two liters already puts me in a critical frame, I think one and a half?" Why am I telling that?

"I understand." he takes it, my god looks like a syringe but it's giant, that is bigger than my arm... And there it was, that knife he used on me on Friday... He will grate my arm again...

"I know it won't help... But I'm just going to take the top part of the skin, I'm not going to the bone." it doesn't help.

"Please Damian, keep calm." his look, without emotions, he... It's just his job, he only works here, I think that's what he means.

The ties are attached to my arms and legs, a chain covers my chest... It's going to start... He puts the knife against my arm, "Damian... I'm going to go slow ok?" I wave frantically!

So I feel, god how it hurts, it’s similar to a cat’s lick, but much stronger, you can feel it scraping pieces of skin off, I scream, I scream in an extraordinary anguish and while I struggle in an attempt to break the strips, "STOP! PLEASE STOP!"

He... He really stops, he looks at the knife and levitates some pieces of skin into a glass, "I... I can do it fast too; it will be faster... But..."

"DO IT!"

"OK..."

"AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH !!!"

It's over... It's over... I look at the clock on the wall he has a black aura, I can't see the time "it was an hour and a half."

I wave, I look at my arms... My god they are raw, I can see the muscles and some veins... My god... I already feel tears forming.

"Now for blood collection..."

No...

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I wake up, I get up, I look at my leg, it... It is whole... My god... I... I hate magic... The wall, thirteen risks... One more day... I look at Gary's books... Seriously... Does it end the same? Laughed internally... How can I laugh in a situation like this? HOW!? MY LEG WAS CUT IN SEVERAL PART YESTERDAY! HOW!? I'm already crying... Why god... I look at the bible... God... I take a deep breath and kneel down, close my hands and close my eyes.

"Our Father in heaven,

Hallowed be Your name,

Your kingdom come,

Your will be done,

On earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread,

And forgive us our debts,

As we also have forgiven our ----

Our ---

Our debtors. "

"Damian, it's time, please."

I sigh, get up and leave the cell, but first I look at the Bible, "how much time is there, doctor?"

"You already took two months out... Damian... Today will be the battery test..."

"OK..."

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I wake up, the ceiling is not completely gray, at one time Silk Touch gave me some pens and I made a point of writing some things on the ceiling, personally that one is the one that most cheers me up: 'Papai! Você prometeu me levar na minha formatura! Não se atrase!' Mia... Dad is tired... I get up and look at the table, it contained several books, yes, Gary Hoof has the same ending, although he has one or two changes it is basically the same story... I look at the wall , if I'm not mistaken there are forty-nine risks, I start counting, yes, forty-nine, forty-nine risks, I sigh and walk towards the sink and wash my face, thanks Silk Touch, he helped me, he got me books, a sink, chair, a mattress, he is... He is a nice guy... After cleaning me I see the food, a fish and rice, it is good to eat something, before I was fed while unconscious... I-I have this habit... I think it's a blessing, the tests are getting more brutal and I tend to pass out from pain, it's good, it makes everything end in a second, the problem is the pain needed for... This, after eating I go to a bookshelf on the wall, there was one book, I take it and read the cover 'Holy Bible' I open it and start reading... Please... Help me god... Don't abandon me in this hell... But no matter how much I cry... How much I beg... Nothing happens... And things only get worse... With a sigh I keep the Bible in its place.

* Clack *

He is there, "hi Silk, what we have for today..."

"Damian, we have a problem, they sent me a... Student, we are not alone anymore."

"Alone? I thought the guards in the halls counted."

"They couldn't interfere with the tests, she can."

"She? Who is she?"

"It's me... Hello Damian..."

It's... It's Twilight! Thanks God! She is... MUST BE HER! I walk to her "T-Twilight! HOW MUCH TIME! YOU HAVE TO HELP ME! LOOK, YOU ARE A PRINCESS, RIGHT !? CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO HELP ME? PLEASE TWILIGHT! HELP ME!!!"

She... Looks uncomfortable, her ears go down, "Hi Damian, look... I can't do anything, your sentence has already been given, if Doctor Silk Touch can't do anything then I don't have any chance... "

What... No... This wasn't supposed to happen... She was supposed to get me out of here! She was supposed to get me out of this hell! She was supposed to send me home! She had to send me home... She... God... GOD!

I turn around and pick up the Bible, so many emotions... So many feelings... But one of them stood out... Anger... Anger stood out! I pick it up and scream with rage as I start to tear the pages, I scream all kinds of swearing that comes to my head, while I go crazy tearing up the book!

"D-Damian stop! This book has an invaluable cultural value!"

"FUCK YOU!" I split the book in two and throw a half on her, it would have been right if she hadn't used the only wing to protect her face.

I am still in this fury, destroying this pile of rubbish written on the paper, tearing and crumpling it, what matters is that it be destroyed, when I took the rest of it and I went to throw it in the toilet I feel... The seal activated, an extraordinary pain in the my chest, it was very strong... So strong that I... That I... * thump *

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I wake up, I stand up, and I look at the wall, ninety-nine risks, I turn around and there is the doctor and the princess, she had a clear face of discomfort and disapproval, he had a small smile, the door opens and he takes the knife and reaches me, "thank you" I asked to be able to mark the hundredth day... Twilight denied it, but he is my jailer, not her.

I approach the wall, so many days... So many tortures... They are getting more intense since Twilight is here, she was sent to get results... I don't talk to the doctor anymore... Our conversations can cause a bond between him and me, which can interfere in his judgment, I no longer have the Saturday to rest and the anesthesia was destroyed because it changed the test results... I take the knife... It is heavy... it is sharp... I start to scratch the wall, it seemed easier to see than to do... When I finish, I move away from the wall... A hundred days... A hundred days... I close my eyes and breathe heavily, thank you doctor... With a precise movement I cut my throat, I feel a hot liquid seeping down my body, I hear Twilight and the doctor screams something... But it doesn't matter... It's over... It's finally over...