Their faces are priceless, I told this story to just another pony, it was for Bloody Novel, I was a little drunk, she was always serious, hardly laughed or expressed herself, but she cried a lot, I still don't understand why, but these ponies are repeating her feat, Fluttershy is crying wildly while trying to hide her face with her hooves and apologizes for some reason, Shining Sparkle is with tears coming out of her eyes, a stare at me, I think she went into shock, Luna almost cried in the middle of the story, now she has a look of... Anger? I think someone got a problem, and... And Miranda... I never saw her like that, she always has a cute smile or a sulky look... Maybe... Maybe the day her mother died... She is crying, "look Miranda I ---"

If I hadn't lifted my arms, she would have squeezed me alive, god how strong she is, "EXCUSE DAD! I DIDN'T KNOW, I --"

"It's alright daughter," I start running my fingers through her head, "it's... It's past."

"I-I don't... My master... By Faust Damian."

Miranda, Miranda was going to do something that was not going to end well, I know that look, the look she uses when going to kill someone, and the look she was giving Shining Sparkle was that look. "It's not her fault Miranda, remember? It wasn't her; it wasn't their fault."

"HOW NOT?! THEY TORTURED YOU!"

Yes... I believed it too, it took me a long time to realize the truth, it was only after Miranda's mother died that I realized.

"Miranda... Look, I know you're angry, that you think it's their fault, but it's not, I like to lie to myself too, but I know it's not."

"BUT THEY-"

"Only some of them, the culprits died, remember when you were a child and ask why they called me a monster? That is true."

"BUT-"

"You said it yourself, on the day that I gave the newborns a date to be safe, the Crystal Empire, I blew it up... Do you think it was their fault? Ponyville, they did nothing... All cities of Equestria? They didn't even know I existed, all the foals I set on fire... All... Miranda, I'm a monster, and that's not a matter of perspective, it's a fact. " I smiled as I wiped away her tears, "Are you happy now princess? Now you know my story."

"D-Damian, I had no idea."

"Nobody ever has."

"I'm sorry, Damian! I didn't mean to, I'm just, I'm sorry!"

Fluttershy... She was one of the ones that made me realize that, what I was doing was wrong, but when I realized, it was too late

"It's okay Fluttershy, you just asked a question."

"No! What they did was wrong! They had no right!"

"Damian... Guards! Take them to their room and heed their request."

"Princess?"

"And call my sister, Damian, did you say you were named five correct?"

"Do you want to see the scar?"

"No, thanks for the collaboration... And that Faust, Markal, Reficul, Liria and Samol have pity on your soul."

I laughed, "sorry princess, I'm an atheist."

She waves as she leaves the room, I think it's time to leave, Miranda doesn't let go of me for a second, it's hard to walk with her holding me, but what can I do? I will not spoil her moment.

"D-Damian! I-I will do my best to help you! I have..."

"Don't judge yourself by your master's mistakes, you have the opportunity to be better than her," I look at Miranda and kiss her head "you have this opportunity..."

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By Celestia how I could do that! I am a horrible pony! I thought he... I want to hide with shame! How could I be so blind! Obviously there was something behind it... But what he went through was so...

"Are you okay Fluttershy?"

"No..."

"Me too, I mean, did I do all that? It was all so... Wrong."

I'm already crying again, how can I be crying? He was the one who went through all that... I'm so... Pathetic.

"Hey girls, what happened? Flutter, why are you crying? Was that monkey? I will got him!"

"No Rainbow, it's just... It's complicated."

"Come on girls, are the others in the waiting room?

"Yes, but Pinkie is gone, I think it was attacking the royal kitchen again."

"It's good that she doesn't disappear much, she owes me a few bit's, he he, right, Fluttershy?"

"Yea..."

How should I proceed in our next meeting? He is scared, he doesn't like the situation, he was hurt to the limit, if his species lives in couples, and he already has a special pony, this can be stress for being away from her for so long and... How am I going to help with that? Think Fluttershy think.

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Nothing is better than enjoying the view of Canterlot while drinking a cup of tea, it is perfect, but even so, something seemed wrong, something was in the air, something is about to happen... Something big, I turn around, there is one of them.

"SISTER! WHY DID YOU NOT ANSWER MY CALL!"

"Look the tone Luna, sorry, I was too busy... Enjoying this view, why don't you come see this with me?"

"Spare me sister, I called you for a serious reason."

This... This is strange, Luna never gets so, agitated, what happened at that interrogation?

"Say what ails your heart, * laughs * did not get the rematch?"

She blushes slightly "for your information, yes I did, but it doesn't matter, Damian told me something, something I had forgotten to ask since I came back from the moon."

"And what would that be? Your real bank account?" I laughed as I take a sip of tea.

"How many have suffered the mark of the five beings since I was banned?"

Many things are considered inappropriate for a princess, spitting tea is one of them, but I couldn't help myself, what she said?

"Sorry Luna, I don't understand what you mean? The mark of the five beings, that forbidden spell?"

"That's right, I want to know how many times it has been used since I left the post of co-governor of Equestria, and don't lie to me."

Damn it, I knew this human was a problem, sigh, I was never able to lie to Luna, she always finds out sometime.

"Luna... This is not the best time to talk about it."

"There is no good time to talk about this subject, now answer."

"three times..."

"Three? It took us almost five hundred years to find such a vile being to apply this spell, and in a thousand years you find three!"

"It was dark years after your banishment Luna, I was alone, I... I'm not proud of those days, but what happened? What made you ask that?"

"Damian, he, he was marked by the spell."

"What ?! What number?"

"Five."

"This... This is problematic, Luna, are you feeling? The days are darker, the nights are colder, Discord doesn't even come to bother us anymore, he just stays on that damn continent."

"Yes, I already called him, dark days are coming Celestia, and we have to choose our movements wisely."

"And what do you think would be a good move?"

"Help Damian, and pray that he helps us."

"You... He has nightmares, I think it would be a good start."

"I understand."

Depending on him, a killer of gods, he... It just has everything necessary to go wrong, I sigh as I drink my tea again, Grandma, give me strength during these days.

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Miranda is sleeping in bed, the clothes are a little big, something tells me they are for minotaur's, but it is better than sleeping with wet clothes, I walk to the window and sit on it, it is a beautiful moon, smiled as I lifted the hand, I feel the necklace glowing, it's true, I still have it, "Speeencer!" and she is still here, I look down, near the garden there is a purple silhouette, my heart is racing, she cannot touch me! She can't touch me anymore! She... She "SPEEEECER!" she disappeared, she is no longer there... why I feel a hot breath on my neck? god I will not turn around, "Spenceeeer..." calm down she is not behind me... She cannot be! "Let's play a game Mr. Spencer, it's called, suicide, you are very experienced in this game, you tried more than four times and failed, I think if you throw yourself from the tower now, you can win!" I turn around, there she is, that monster, a malnourished alicorn, the ribs already visible, lifeless eyes, just two purple dots... And the smile.

"Hello Spencer," she puts one of her hooves on my left shoulder, why can't I move! "Spencer, that hurt, but if you do me a favor, maybe we'll leave you alone."

"What?" Why I'm talking to a hallucination? Jesus She looks so real!

"Throw yourself from the tower, Damian, you have to die Damian, because if you don't die, this world dies, just like mine," her smile grows "and you know why? Do you want to know why? "

"W-why?"

"Throw yourself, and I'll tell you."

I look down, it is a long fall, easily bigger than the tower of the sister's castle... I look at she, she is almost real, her breath, reach out my hand and... And I touch it! She is real! I feel my balance wobbling, there is only one place to go, out of this tower! I feel my body jumping out of the tower, she starts laughing in a maniacal tone, stop! STOP! Put my arms around my ears, STOP!

* thump *

What? I rise, I... Am I in the tower?

"Damian? What are you doing? It's already night, go to sleep..."

Miranda! I know she has a problem with personal space, but fuck it, when I find myself, I'm already hugging her, tears are already forming in my eyes, "what happened? She... Did she appear?" I nod, Jesus how humiliating this is, she starts running her fingers through my head.

"Thank you."

"I'm always here, dad."

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I am on a plain, I look around, nothing, just a green field, a green field that extends as far as the eye can see.

I start walking, I know what will happen, this nightmare...

* BOOM *

The ground is shaking! It's started! I start to run, I can feel the ground under my feet shaking, don't look back, don't look back, don't look back, "DAMIAAAAAAAAAAN!"

Jesus, I looked! There, coming out of a crack in the plain is a gigantic being, a... Another monster, a being composed of bodies, bodies of ponies, griffins, dragons, everything I have already killed is there!

"YOU HAVE TO DIE DAMIAAAAAAAN !!!" I put my arms around my ears and start running faster.

"STOP!"

The ground is falling apart, every second the distance between us decreases, it is coming! I start to touch my coat, nothing, no horn, damn it, "DAMIAAAAAAAN" is getting louder, I can already see the shadow of this thing covering me! He will catch me! He goes!

"DAMIAN! DO NOT FEAR! IT IS JUST A DREAM!"

That was... Luna! Impossible! I killed her! She cannot come to haunt me anymore! Look up, there she is! she is, different, she... She is not attacking me, she is attacking the creature!

"LUNA RUN IS IMPOSSIBLE TO KILL THIS CREATURE!"

"I AM THE PRINCESS OF DREAMS, IF I CANNOT HANDLE A NIGHTMARE, I THINK I SHOULD RETIRE THE CROWN!"

She will die! We're going to die! You can't kill this thing, Miranda and I tried, but it always wins, always.

The monster stopped following me, he is focused on Luna, trying to catch the alicorn with his colossal hands, my god he will catch her! What do I do! I don't want this thing to catch me!

"DAMIAN! YOU HAVE TO FIGHT, YOU CONTROL THE NIGHTMARE, YOU ARE STRONGER THAN IT!"

I... I will die if I face this thing, but, perhaps, this is my dream, I look to the side, the sword of Celestia is hovering a few centimeters from me and in my coat is the horn of Luna and Celestia , come on... Let's try it again, again, I take the two horns, with Luna's I levitate Celestia's sword and start running towards the creature, what the fuck am I doing? This is useless!

I'm just a few inches from the monster, he's colossal, maybe as big as Canterlot Mountain, I take a deep breath and I point the sword at the monster, I take Celestia's horn and point it at him too... Burn.

A flare of gigantic flames come out of the sword and the horn, incinerating the entire lower part of the creature, "THAT'S IT DAMIAN! FIGHT, LET'S END THIS NIGHTMARE!"

For some reason, I let myself believe, my heart starts to beat faster! I hold Celestia's sword and use the Luna horn to levitate, I know where this thing's weak point is, Miranda and I almost won a few times, the head.

He tries to catch me a few times, but he's more focused on Luna and her magic missiles, the head, formed by my main targets, Celestia, Luna, are all here, and there, in the center of the head is the creature's weakness, taking advantage that the monster was looking up in search of Luna I start to walk in his face, there... There is the weakness of this thing!

I arrived, there it is... Fluttershy... Serene, calm, a small smile on her face, and underneath it... Underneath it is what keeps this thing alive, I know it, I can feel it, I take the sword and I lift her up, there is little to go, so little "DAMIAN !!! WHY DAMIAN! I WANTED TO HELP YOU DAMIAN !!!"

NO! I can't kill her, even with a blindfold on, I know she's looking at me, I can't attack her... I... The sword falls from my hands, "sorry Fluttershy," she smiles.

"DAMIAN BE CAREFUL!"

The creature’s face is falling apart, the bodies are making way as I start to sink, it’s eating me, again.

Hooves, claws and hands are holding me, they are doing everything to sink me, Fluttershy rises and starts looking at me, sorry, "DAMIAN!" I look up, Luna was caught by one of my hands, I feel sorry for her, the hands of this monster are basically hungry mouths.

They’re hitting me, I feel claws scratching me, I feel hooves kicking me, I don’t see anything, nothing but bodies, so I fell.

Hollow? Is the creature hollow? "Damian..." that voice... I trembled all over, it can't be! I stand up and look at the figure in front of me.

It cannot be, I approach, and I place my hands on the figure's shoulders, it cannot be.

It's her... Miranda, black and lifeless eyes, with a black liquid making her mouth and eyes, blood covering her whole body, my god, my princess...

"You killed me Damian."

"No, I nev---"

"YOU KILLED ME DAMIAN!"

"Dear, it's me! I n---"

"IT IS YOUR BLAME THAT I AM DEAD!"

I look up, a gigantic blue-colored dragon looks at me, a four written on her chest, it's her... Miranda's mother... The dragon takes a deep breath and unleashes a blast of flame at me.

"MIRANDA!"

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"MIRANDA!"

"Hmm? What was father?"

She was here! Alive! My girl, I hug her, "I won't let anyone touch you ok? I'll protect you."

"O-ok, me, thanks."

She's here, safe, she's safe...

"Dad, who's gone now?"

"The giant."

"I know, you tried to face him again, didn't you?"

"Yea..."

She sighs, "you know you can't win, none of them," she looks at the window, I follow her gaze and see the moon, "tell me, tell me a story, tell that time when you and Uncle Rafael fought. "

I laugh a little, she, she knows me well, I wipe the tears from my eyes and sigh, "well, it all started when he touched my wife's butt-"

Author's Note

next memory of the past:
Rarity
Fluttershy
Discord
Applejack and Rainbow
choose.