Veil of Shadows

So, I guess this is where I’m suppose to keep my thoughts? It's odd, but I guess it's kind of nice having something to ~~talk to~~ write to. At least better than some other creature I mean. You don't talk back, and can store my ideas. So definitely better than the alternative. But I think you need a name if I'm going to write to you. But what does one name a book: vex? no ~~thats dumb~~. Okay It took a while, but I think I have one now, "J". Anyway I thought I'd hate it here, but so far it's at least not as terrible as I thought. Aside from the making friends part, but don't get me wrong J, I’m still not thrilled by any stretch of the imagination. Most creatures thankfully just kinda of ignore me though, so its not as stressful as I thought. so score one for me?

Anyway, when mom told me I “have to go to The School of Friendship” I lost it, and regrettably said some things I shouldn't have. Make a note for me J to send Mom an apology letter. She seemed heartbroken when I left, more so than usual, and I can't stand the thought of her sad old face anymore. ~~I mean at first I could because of my spite for sending me here, but~~ now I feel like I'm drowning in my own guilt. It wasn't her fault and she doesn't deserve that kinda guilt.

Sorry, I needed time to gather my thoughts there J, I promise I'll stop with my breaks. But I'm off topic so back to the topic at hoof. She insisted that I needed “to socialize”, because “I was scaring off our neighbors foals.” But the demons had it coming! I was minding my own business, studying a group of birds to see if shifts in magical fields caused them to migrate differently. But mid study they threw a frisbee at my head; asking “you wanna play cranky?” Of course I yelled them off, that bucking hurt! I don't care if it was plastic or not, that thing had a wallop to it. Left a bruise too. Okay maybe threatening to banish them to the moon was a bit much, but it's not like I could have. So their fear was 100% on them for not realizing that!

So when mom brought up that my outburst was the final straw and said I “needed to learn how to deal with ponies at least.” Which thankfully means I don't have to make friends but it doesn't mean I'll have to ideal with their ~~dumb annoying~~ "unique" personalities. For instance The first pony I met on arrival was the head mare, Sunlight Glamer who while being nice enough still made me look like an idiot. Because she was too absent minded to mention the school's mail system. She gave me a mountain of dumb books on friendship; shipped me off to my room, not explaining I could simply use the schools’ mail system to do so. So when I make my way to the stairs a sweet, but bit pushy, mare named: ~~Autumn Summer~~ Winter ~~snow~~ Frost, watched me and starts losing it. Because I was about to crawl up that incline like a fool. It wasn't normally laughter, either. This was like a full on classical play, villain about to win kind of laughter at my stupidity for not knowing.

Thinking back on it, this was probably only made worse by the fact I didn't just teleport my things to my room especially having a “cutie mark in magic” and all. Ughh why'd I tell her, I must look like the most incompetent stallion in Equestria. (To be fair J I have to be familiar with the location I'm teleporting to, to do so. speaking of which make another note for me J: memorize room, so I don't have to use the schools mail system ~~so i can redeem myself somewhat in front of her~~ scratch that last part, that would probably make things worse J, so just keep the first part) On top of that, I kinda blew her off by accident for an arranged meeting at the assembly. I overslept like an idiot, so far I think that's a solid 0 in the ~~good pony~~ (friend?) column. On the bright side I managed to find her afterwards and apologize. She forgave me and agreed to give me another chance. So all in all, socialization is going great, I write that with sarcasm J.

Other possible candidates for friends are my roommates, only two of which I've met, two changelings. But the third has been missing, so don't know what their problem is. The orange changeling informed me they were at the school today, so I don't know what happened to them.

None of this is even discussing the train wreck of an assembly. No ~~pony~~ creature really seemed to pay attention, myself included admittedly. All of them were too busy trying to see how uncomfortably close they could get to another creature. Have none of them heard about personal space? I don't know maybe personal space is a pony thing. But I swear they were close enough to the point I could feel their breath down my back. It was the most uncomfortable I think I've ever been, and I’ve had to do public speeches. Which let me tell you J is not an easy feat. All those eyes staring up at you, silently judging every little thing you do. Anyway, those creatures were way to close. One even stepped on my tail half way through, causing me to hold back a pained yelp. ~~Bucker~~ didn’t even say sorry! Wish I saw his face. I'd show him what for.

Oh I got to go J, looks like it's waking up my roommates. I'll get back to you when I can, promise.