Twilight laid on Sunset’s bed, phone held up above her face as she read through her texts with her boyfriend. She squinted, her eyes straining in the dark without her glasses.
“Twilight, you need to sleep,” Sunset mumbled beside her. The redhead rolled over and wrapped her arm around Twilight’s waist and burying her face into her shoulder.
Twilight sighed.
“He hasn’t texted me back. I’ve texted five times.” Twilight lowered her phone and rested it face down on her stomach, rendering the apartment pitch black save for the fairy lights wrapped around Sunset’s loft.
“Maybe he’s asleep, it’s almost one am.” Sunset closed her eyes, resting her face between the pillow and Twilight’s shoulder.
“I first texted him at five. Still no response.” Twilight picked her phone back up.
Sunset reached over, taking the phone from Twilight’s fingers and hitting the power button. She set it behind her on the bed. Twilight’s eyebrows furrowed.
“Does he not love me?” Twilight asked. Sunset mentally groaned.
“He’s at camp, he probably doesn’t have reception. He’ll get back to you in the morning,” Sunset reassured, taking Twilight’s hand with the one she had wrapped around her waist and stroking the thumb over her knuckles. Twilight appreciated the gesture, throwing her head back against the pillow and sighing again.
“Sunset?”
“Hmm?”
“I don’t know who I am.” Twilight stared up at the ceiling, unable to close her eyes with all the thoughts running through her head.
Sunset sighed. She wanted to just tell Twilight it was a topic best left for another day, but she could tell it was eating away at the purple-haired girl. She knew her best friend well, and she knew when she was freaking out over something. Sunset rolled over and flipped on the lamp.
“Wha- what?” Twilight shakily set up.
“We’re going to talk about it,” Sunset said plainly.
“Sunny, we don’t have to.” Twilight shook her head.
“No, you need to talk about it. I don’t care if it’s one in the morning.” Twilight was tearing up and Sunset sat up to hug her.
“What’s on your mind?” Sunset pulled away, taking Twilight’s hands into hers. Twilight bit her lip.
“I don’t know who I am. I think that I’m ace, but I still enjoy sex, so I don’t know.” A stray tear fell down Twilight’s face.
“I-I never feel sexually attracted to anyone, but I still like sex, I mean, it still feels good. I-I just don’t know anymore. I identify as pan, but I think I like girls over anyone else and that technically means I should be bisexual because pan is being gender blind but I think I have a preference and I have no idea anymore.” Twilight pulled her hands from Sunset to wipe away her tears.
“Okay, slow down. It’s okay. You don’t need to figure yourself out right now. We’re still in high school. It’s not a requirement to know everything about yourself by the time you graduate. They say you learn the most about yourself in college.” Sunset lifted a hand to rub Twilight’s shoulder as she silently cried.
“If you feel best identifying as panromantic and asexual, that’s okay. If you find out that you’re actually bisexual somewhere down the road? That’s okay too. You don’t have to figure it all out at once right now.”
Sunset brought Twilight back in for another hug.
“It’s okay if you never figure yourself out. You may not, not everyone does.” Sunset rubbed her back up and down.
“Tim-Timber said that I need to figure it out if we’re going to be together. He-he said that we can-can’t work if I-I don’t know who I am.” Twilight was fully bawling now. Sunset clenched her teeth together, now pissed at the boy.
“Do you want to know my honest opinion as your best friend?” Sunset gave Twilight one last tight hug before pulling away. Twilight bit her lip, nodding.
“If he says that, maybe you aren’t right for each other. You’re seventeen Twi, it’s stupid to think that you have everything figured out right now. You may be a genius, but that doesn’t mean you know everything about yourself just yet. It took me years to figure myself out! And I still haven’t been in a real relationship!” Sunset let out a watery laugh.
“The point is, he may not be right for you if he’s pressuring you to move too fast. What brought it up in conversation?” Twilight blushed, wiping at her tears.
“I told him that I thought I had a crush on a girl at school. He told me that was fine as long as I didn’t leave him. I said that I wouldn’t, but it still didn’t change my feelings. He got mad because I was more attracted to girls that I didn't know than him and we got into a fight. Since then he hasn’t answered my texts.” Twilight buried her face into her hands.
Sunset was seething, but she took a deep breath to calm down.
“Listen to me Twi.” Sunset took Twilight’s chin in her hand, lifting her face to meet her eyes.
“If he’s going to treat you that way, if he’s going to fight with you just because you have a crush on someone else, maybe he’s not the guy for you.”
Twilight let out a small sob.
“I’ve been thinking about that for a while. We never can find anything to talk about, everything’s just a repeat. I-I don’t think I’m as in love with him as I used to be anymore.” Twilight let her gaze drop to Sunset’s chest. She hated seeing Sunset angry, even if the redhead was doing her best to mask it.
“And that’s okay! Sometimes you fall out of love. Sometimes things don’t work out. What matters is that you’re happy. What matters is that you find someone who you have things in common with, someone who makes you smile, someone who will take care of you and protect you, and someone that loves you in return. It’s okay to not find that person on the first shot. It’s okay to not find them on the second. But what always matters is that you have friends by your side to help you through it all.” Sunset took a deep breath. Twilight’s eyes flittered from Sunset to her phone laying on the bed behind her and back to Sunset.
“Twilight, as your best friend, I love you. I don’t care what you identify as or who you date, all that matters to me is that you’re happy and safe. And I’m sorry if I’m the person who made you question it all in the first place, considering I was the first person you ever had sex with, and I’m assuming that’s what led you to question your asexuality in the first place. What matters to me is what you know that I love you, and I’m the person who’s going to be here through all the ups and downs of everything.” Sunset was blushing now and Twilight cracked a smile.
She thought back to the time she and Sunset had gotten totally drunk on Applejack’s ‘special cider’. They hadn’t known it was alcoholic at the time, but it led to them having sex in the Apple’s guest bedroom. It had been amazing, drunken yes, but amazing. Twilight hadn’t felt like that the one time she had sex with Timber. Twilight giggled a little.
Her face fell serious again. “Sunset, there’s something I need to know. I need you to tell me the truth, not just what you think I want to hear.” Twilight took Sunset's hands into hers again, squeezing tightly.
Sunset nodded. “Anything, Twi.”
Twilight took a deep breath, steadying herself. She slowly built up the courage to ask her question, Sunset remaining patient while she did so. “Do you have any romantic feelings for me?”
Sunset was surprised by the question, cracking a smile.
“If we’re being totally honest? Yes. Ever since Camp Everfree. I always wanted to tell you, but you were so happy with Timber that I didn’t want to rain on your parade.” Sunset’’s eyes filled with tears now too as she blushed, looking down at her lap.
Twilight smiled.
“I’ve been in love with you ever since the Friendship Games when you saved me.” she let out a breath she didn’t know she was holding, her eyes filling with fresh tears. The difference was that these ones were happy.
“I don’t know If I wanna start a relationship right now. I especially don’t want to tell our friends. I want to break up with Timber first. Maybe go on a date or two with you before we start telling people. Maybe even keep it to ourselves for a while? It’s just, I don’t know, it’s nothing against you, but you never know who’s not going to be accepting, or who’s going to do something! I mean, so many people have dirt on us that they could take to the police! They could take you away to test on you and do terrible things! They could go through the portal and hurt the ponies in Equestria! They could do so many terrible things!” Twilight was frantically wringing her hands together, trying to justify herself while at the same time freaking out over all the terrible things that could happen.
“Twilight.”
“Twilight,” Sunset was a little louder this time.
“Twilight!” Sunset firmly gripped Twilight’s shoulders and gave her a shake. Twilight looked up at her.
“It’s okay! We’ll start dating when we’re ready and we’ll tell people when we’re ready. There’s no need to freak out, it’s okay. None of that is going to happen.” Sunset pulled Twilight back in for another hug. Twilight rested her chin on Sunset’s shoulder, breathing slowly evening out.
“Thank you,” she whispered, hugging Sunset back.
“You’re welcome. I’m always here for you.” Sunset glanced at her alarm clock, the red numbers reading 1:48 am. She smiled.
“Let’s get some sleep, okay? I’ll make you breakfast in the morning and you can sleep in, how does that sound?”
Twilight nodded, giving a small noise of conformation. She was already starting to fall asleep on Sunset’s shoulder. With her magic, she turned off the lamp.
Sunset helped Twilight lay down, hugging her to her chest and letting her cuddle into her.
“Timber never let me cuddle him like this. In fact, I don’t remember if he’s ever actually hugged me,” Twilight mumbled, a hint of sadness in her voice.
“It’s okay, I’m here to give you all the hugs and cuddles you want.” A smile graced Sunset’s face as she hugged Twilight just a little bit tighter.
“You’re the best best friend a girl could ever ask for. And I’m sure you’ll be the best girlfriend ever too. I love you, Sunny.” Twilight looked up at Sunset, a cheesy smile on her face. Sunset smiled back.
“I love you too, Twily. Sweet dreams.” Sunset pressed a kiss to the top of her head, listening to her gentle breathing as it evened out as she dozed off, Sunset soon following suit.
Author's Note
Just a little thing that came to me while I was falling asleep. Yes, all of my Sciset stories end practically the same way, but it's cute so who really got hurt?
