I think, therefor, I am. It takes on new meanings every time i think about it.
I think. I am. I am not nothing if i think. But if i have to think about thinking, then is that truly thinking. I am swimming in the sea. The sea is in turmoil. I see things. What are they? What am I? Am I me or am I I? What are we? Am I a we? I see. What is this I see? Ponies? Assorted colors and shades and hues. I see. I am seeing. I am thinking. I am me. But why do I have to keep telling myself this if I truly am.
I forget. But to forget you have to have remembered something. Does this mean there is something I remember. Pony. I remember pony. Why is this a thought? Wait. A thought. I thought. I have thought, therefor I think and am. I am. But what thought. I thought a thought that I no longer think. Why can't I remember what I have forgotten? I am a pony. That is my thought. I will only think this thought.
I have forgotten my thought. What is wrong with me? Is this some sort of punishment? Am I no longer allowed to think? I am no longer swimming. I am resting. I am in a room. A room? Does this mean I wasn't swimming? But if I wasn't swimming then why was there flow? What is flow? Rhythm. A thought flows through the mind. It has a base and rhythm. The room is white. I see white. Is white something seen or unseen? I see white. I don't see that which I can't so White is seen. Does this mean I cant see black? Then what is this beside me? Is it nothing since white and black are seen and unseen?
Light. There is light. Above me is light. It casts black on the opposite of me. A shadow. The black is a shadow. It looks like a pony. No arms. No hooves. I have no arms or hooves. White. MY body is white. No. This is not my body. It is a coat. Coat. I wear a coat. No. Not a coat. A jacket. Straight lines on the jacket. A straight jacket? I am wearing a straight jacket? Why am I wearing a jacket? Am I insane? I have thoughts so how can I be insane? Isn't insanity the un-understanding of thoughts? I am not insane so I can think. I am sane.
Voices. They ring out. I hear voices. Or do I? Are they voices or merely thoughts I have? Ears. I have ears they move when I think of them. I hear thoughts through them. So they are not my thoughts. I hear my own thoughts in my mind so these are someone else's thoughts. They are voices. They say words. I hear them say words. What are these words they say?
"Can you hear us?" the voices say. No. One voice says one thought. They think if I can hear them. Rather they ask if I can hear them. What is a response? Do I hear them or understand them. I certainly hear them but what is the meaning behind what they say. They ask if I can hear them and I can. Do I answer? I shake my head. I can hear them but I don't understand them. What are they asking? No, I hear them and I-
"If you can not hear me then why did you respond?" it says again. It said that again. I missed it the first time. But then how did I know they said it before?
"I heard you but did not understand you." I hear myself say. My throat. It hurts. Speaking hurts. I don't want to speak if it hurts. But if I don't speak, then how can I answer?
"If you did not understand us then how did you know what I said?" It asks another question. Why did it say us? Why can't I see them? Where does the voice come from? I stand up. On two hooves. Why did I do this?
"Why am I here? Where is here? Who is this that speaks to me?" I ask questions aloud. Why am I asking questions of somepony I can't see? I fall down. It hurts. Pain. I feel pain. Pain is good. It means I am not dead. Not dead means alive. I am alive. I laugh. Why do I laugh? because I am alive. I tell the voice I laugh because I am alive. I can't stop laughing. Why can I not stop laughing?
The wall opens. Ponies file in. A unicorn. Lavender. A pegasus. Cyan. they come to me. A needle. It pricks me. I fall into the sea. Swimming. Swimming. Thoughts drift by. I can't grasp them. Sleep. I sleep. I do not dream. It is but the gift of silence I am given.
"Do we have any clue what happened?" asked Princess Celestia staring at the now slumbering body that was within the padded cell.
"I have no clue." Said Twilight Sparkle "He came to my house and asked if I could get him a personal audience with you. I asked him why and he said something about him seeing what was true in our world before he fell unconscious. When he woke up he was rambling about him being himself and I had to knock him out to prevent him from causing anypony harm." After that I teleported him and myself to the Canterlot Hospital and they put him here. That was when I called you and now here we are."
Celestia stood quiet fro a moment before she asked "Do you know who he is?"
Twilight's reply was short "No I don't know him. I assumed you did."
Celestia sighed before saying anything. "I actually do know of him. He is the leading researcher on other realities. I had initially made the organization to appease some of the fanatics of our kind but it appeared they took their jobs a little too seriously. They would spend inordinate amounts of time researching and seemed to actually calm down and become more rational than many other ponies. I never have given much thought beyond that since they never did seem to get anywhere. I now see that they may have actually found something. The room was silent for a short time, the only sound being a small clock that ticked away.
Suddenly a shadow descended on a small portion of the room and they all turned. There stood the patient, a serene look on his face that was only betrayed by his next words. "I see you all! I know of the World that none should know of. I see through all and into none! We shall all become one with it in due time!" then he fell to the ground and sunk through the floor.
I just want to see where this leads. I don't expect more than a few views on this story but let us just see.
The clouds. I am falling through the clouds. Why am I falling? I have wings! I try to flap my wings. There is no flapping. Why? I turn my head. My wings. They don't move. I am falling and my wings don't move. I need my wings to move. If I don't I'll die. Why won't my wings flap? I don't have long. The ground. It's coming closer. I am falling. I don't want to die.
My wings spring open. I can fly. I flap my wings. The ground is so close. So close. Close.
I level out. I fly. I feel the wind along my wings. Why didn't I notice it before? Oh right. I wax thinking about my fall. Heh. Why was I so scared. I can fly.
"Dash! Wake up!" a voice cries out. I jerk awake. I'm on a cloud. I was sleeping. I like sleeping. Oh wait. Somepony called me. I look down. There is Twilight. She called me.
I call down to her "Hey Twilight. What is it?" she sighs. She must not like me sleeping. What can I say. Sleep is good.
"Can you come down here?" she yells at me. I don't know why she's yelling. I can hear her just fine. I fly down to her. She smiles. It doesn't look right. She's worried. How do I know this? She tells me.
"Dash. I'm worried. "she says. See? I knew that she would tell me. I'm awesome like that. I tell her so. She stares at me and shakes her head. She must not be able to handle how cool I am. I know if I was her I wouldn't. Actually, if I was her I would because of how awesome I am.
"Dash! Would you snap out of your fantasizing and listen to me! " she sounds angry. And worried.
"Don't worry! If I'm here there's no need to worry!" I said. It's not like I was boasting. Boasting implies it isn't true.
Twilight shook her head again. "Listen to me!" she basically yelled into my face. "I was just with the princess and apparently-"
It was at that point that I tuned her out. What can I say; when she gets into her lecture mode she can just drone on and on and on and it all just melds into a blob of I don't care. She said something about an escape or something and to be careful but I didn't really care. I was only thinking about that I needed to keep training for the wonderbolts. It really is a wonder why they haven't bolted to have me join but they are probably busy being almost as awesome as me. Hmm I wonder when I should schedule my nap? Oh hey, she's wrapping herself up finally. Better start nodding.
"yeah, don't worry Twilight. If anything comes around, I'll get you. " I say shaking my head vigorously. Before she can respond, I dash off into the sky with the intent of practicing. Maybe a triple rainboom will be a good challenge today.
I soar upwards. The sky. It is actually quite amazing today. With its almost green glow. I bask in it. Hang on? The sky doesn't glow green.
"Right you are Rainbow Dash. The sky does not glow green." a voice calls out. I know it isn't mine because I hear it. I turn left and right searching for where it came from. Nowhere. There are no clouds for anypony to hide behind.
"Well, would you look at that. I forgot the clouds." the voice says again. "Let me get that for you."
My vision shimmers. My vision returns quickly I. A flash of light. All around me are clouds. All around me. There is barely an empty place for anything but clouds. Clouds as far as my eyes can see.
Why am I falling? I have wings! I try to flap my wings. There is no flapping. Why? I turn my head. My wings. They don't move. I am falling and my wings don't move. I need my wings to move. If I don't I'll die. Why won't my wings flap? I don't have long. The ground. It's coming closer. I am falling. I don't want to die.
The ground. It’s so very close. Is this what Twilight was talking about? Is this a ponies doing? Why would a pony do this? The ground is way too close. I wish my wings would work.
“Now really Rainbow, you should have tried harder.” A voice calls out. “Now you are going to die. And you never got to join the wonderbolts. Oh if they could see you now failing at flight like a foal. How pitiful.”
This pony is really annoying. Why haven’t I hit the ground? I open the eyes I never realized I closed. I’m soaring. I’m flying. How did I not realize?
“Really Dash. Why would I let you die? I need you to remain alive.” The voice calls out.
This time I hear it. It is close. I snap my head looking for its source. There. In the clouds. I see somepony. I can’t see them though. It is as if they are at the edge of my vision. I can’t see what they look like. It doesn't matter. I can catch them. I’m the fastest.
I charge after them. I’m nearing them. Their not even moving. Why aren't they moving? I crash into them. We tumble. We fall.
Are they trying to drag me down? They won’t let go.
“It is a pity Dash. All I tried to do was watch and study. Such a shame you did this. now we both fall.”
The pony is grinning. why is he grinning? Doesn't he fear death? Doesn't he-
Somepony screams. Then silence.
I wake up! Why was I asleep? There’s a voice. I can’t hear it. It is muffled. Why can’t I hear!?
A nurse trots in. She is next to me. she is saying something. She reaches to my ears. I feel a tugging. Now a ringing. I can hear. The nurse is saying something. I should probably listen.
“- you survived. Fortunately, you landed on your friend over there who broke you fall.” the nurse says.
I look over. It isn't Twilight I see. It is the pony. The one who caused this. I try to say something. No words. I can’t speak. Why can’t I speak? I notice the nurse is still talking. I should really pay attention more.
“-tive so you will not be able to talk for at least another few hours.” the nurse drones. It is quite disturbing how little she seems to care, “In the meantime, I am sure your friend can converse with you. I will check back in a half hour.” at this the nurse trots off.
“Do not worry Rainbow. I can’t go having one of my studies dropping that quickly. All your injuries were superficial. Or at least they will heal quickly given your metabolism. Tata for now. I will be back to check on you eventually. Tata for now!” The pony grins and seeps into the bed leaving me alone.
I think I prefer this to having him here.
And there is chapter two. This took an inordinately longer time than I hoped and I am not altogether thrilled with how this came out given the time I spent on it. While I still prefer this to my other option, this just doesn't give what I was hoping for. But I’d much rather give you a chapter this month then wait until next year. Especially if the chapter doesn't get any better with that time. Not that I can be blamed for computer malfunctions.
To the three people who read this, would you prefer if i had the next chapter cover AJ or Derpy/Ditzy. I’m leaning to AJ but I want opinions. Not that I expect to get them but I felt it was better to ask.
