To Find A Place

Chapters

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
chapter 3

Chapter 1

I guess I should start with introductions, my name is Kai and I’m what you would call a brony. My parents don’t approve of me liking MLP:FiM but really, who doesn’t like the ponies? My favourite one is Rainbowdash, I know most people either like Pinkiepie or Fluttershy but I love Rainbowdash. She’s strong, stronger than I’ll ever be… My life is average, wake up, eat, school, get home, ponies, eat, and then sleep again. Sleep is where I escape my life, the life where I’m bullied at school, the life where my parents don’t give a shit about me, and the life where everything is controlled by my heath. Didn’t I mention? I have a serious heart disease, I should have died 3 years ago but somehow I made it to age 15. At school I’m treated differently because of my disease, I’m not aloud to play sports with the other kids, I’m not aloud to eat the same cafeteria food as the other kids, I’m not even aloud to learn the same curriculum as them. Most kids would love to not have to participate in gym, have easier classes and eat healthier and tastier food but all I want is to be like them…

I woke up and stated my routine to get ready for school.

“Medication? Check. Homework? Check. Books? Check. Rainbowdash plushie? Check!” I said to myself, I do that a lot, talk to myself. After I had taken my medication I left and waited for the limo to come pick me up. My parents are bloody fucking rich and used to just hire tutors for me, and then I insisted on going to public school last year… worst mistake of my life. When the limo arrived I jumped in quickly and told the chauffeur to drive, I wanted to get to school before the buses came. When the buses came that meant Nick would be there, everyone knew his family had some money problems and he likes to take out his anger on the rich kids, a.k.a me. The limo pulled into the parking lot and before it was even fully stopped I jumped out and started a slow jog to the building, with my condition going any faster than a jog could result in me having a seizure, which would mean the end of my life. I was just sitting down at my desk when the buses pulled in.

“Early as usual Kai.” Ms. Looby walked into the room, my homeroom teacher.

“I’m just an early riser.” I answered shyly, I’m not very good at talking to people.

The day moved sluggishly, as it always did and eventually it was over, though I always dreaded the end of the day, that was the worst time to be anywhere near Nick.

“Hey dickhead, where’s this weeks allowance?” nicks voice came from right by my ear.

“I-I d-don’t have it.” I lied between my teeth; I wasn’t a very good liar.

“I-I d-don’t have it!” Nick mocked him in a high pitched voice “Of course you have it dickface.” Nick shoved me onto the ground and stuffed his hands in my pockets, pulling out my allowance for this week, $25.

“Thanks see you tomorrow loser.”

I could feel the tears start behind his eyes and just let them flow down his face. Why does he have to pick on me? What did I do wrong? But this was no time for tears; his limo should be here to pick him up so he dried his tears and walked to the parking lot. On the drive home he held his Rainbowdash plushie close and thought of a new plan.

[SORRY FOR SHORTNESS! WILL MAKE FUTURE CHAPTERS LONGER!]

Chapter 2

I closed my eyes, a glass of water in one hand, a handful of pills in the other.

“I can do this, I can do this,” I repeated over and over again. My note lay on the bathroom counter and my RD plushie was right next to me. I opened his mouth and popped in 5 pills then swallowed, I kept doing that until I felt myself feeling weak. I felt blackness over come my mind and passed out, hoping to never wake up.

Beep…beep…beep…beep…beep…

I opened my eyes to see a scene I was used to, a hospital room. Wait, I’m awake? Fuck. It didn’t work. I thought as the memories of before flooded my mind.

“He’s awake!” I heard my old nurse call out; she always was the one to take care of me at the hospital.

“Why should we care?” The snooty voice of my mother wafted from the hallway.

“We can’t have a suicidal son, we put up with that stupid little kid show but I won’t put up with this, he isn’t our son.” My dads comments left me feeling empty inside, I guess I’m not their son anymore… I thought sadly. My nurse walked back in and turned to me

“Your parents are very happy that you’re awake, and now that you’re awake we can move you to floor 6.” My nurse said happily, she’s a much better liar than I am.

“wait…. Floor 6?! That’s where all the mental patients stay!” I protested. My nurse put her arm around my shoulder,

“Kai… you nearly died, it’s the law we must keep an eye on you, for your own safety. Please cooperate?” she looked at me with such huge pleading eyes that I couldn’t help but nod. The next thing I knew I was on an elevator heading to the crazy ward. Whoopee.

“Hi! I’m Ella!” a super cheery girl with bright pink hair leaned towards me and stuck her hand out. “But you can call me pink, y’know, cause of the hair?” I nervously shook her hand.

“I’m Kai, nice to meet you.” I ducked my head so she wouldn’t see how nervous I was. But she was gone the second I finished my sentence. She’s a bit like pinkiepie… I commented in my thoughts. I walked into my “room” and sat on my bed, it wasn’t much of a room. There was a cot, a powder room with no lock, and a desk and chair that were bolted to the ground.

“Kai, right?” a plump but friendly looking lady stood in the doorway.

“Yeah, that’s me.” I replied

“It’s group time, so come on out and I’ll show you to the lounge.” The lady smiled at him, “I’m Brenda by the way.”

Brenda led the way to the lounge which consisted of a few sofas, a whiteboard, and old TV and a table with art supplies. I saw pink sitting with a few other girls, a redhead, a brunette, a girl with blue hair, and a black haired girl. On the other couch was a guy with a hoodie on so you couldn’t see his face, a guy with black hair who was wearing a black shirt and looked very emo, a blond guy playing pacman on the xbox, and a freckly redhead who looked like the kinds of people Kai himself would hang out with, nerds. I went over and sat down next to the emo.

“Now that everyone’s here we can start with group!” Brenda cheered. “Why don’t we start with some introductions, considering we have a new kid today; Kai, why don’t you start?” I ducked my head.

“Uhmmm, I’m Kai, I’m new here.”

“Why are you here?” Pink asked.

“I’m uhmm here because I swallowed a bottle of pills.” I replied. There were nods and sympathy looks on the other kids. The next person around piped up.

“I’m Lindsay!” The girl with blue hair said. “Blue is what most people call me though.”

“I’m Abby…” the brunette said shyly, she sounded a lot like Fluttershy.

“M'name's Kim, but y'ahl can call me chuck.” The redhead smiled, pulling off Applejacks accent perfectly. “Don’t ask why they call me chuck.”

“My name’s Jessika, with a k. don’t forget it.” The black haired girl glared at me then looked back at the corner she was staring at before.

“Yo, I’m Josh.” The guy playing pacman smiled.

“…brendan…” the guy with the hoodie muttered.

“Kevin.” The freckly redhead gave a nervous smile.

“And I’m Taylor.” Taylor swept his bangs aside and for some reason I found it quite attractive…

Well, there are many things I learned today.

Group is where you all sit in a circle and talk about problems together.
I’m really bad at talking in front of a group.
This place sucks, I asked them what I had to do to get out and they just laughed.
I swear these people got jail and preschool mixed up.
they won't give me my Rainbowdash plushie.

my life. is ruined.

chapter 3

So it’s my second day here, I think. I don’t know if it’s past midnight or not, I don’t have a clock. I couldn’t sleep at all last night (or is it still night?) because I can never sleep without my RD plushie. The “staff” –that’s what we call them- were up talking all night, so it’s not like I could get much sleep anyways… I heard a few people talking about the staff putting us with roommates, I don’t know why but I kind of want Taylor to be my roommate…

“Kai, you’re awake! Good. I want you to meet your new roommate.” A staff member I had never met stood at the door. “I’m Sasha; I’ll be your staff for today. And this is your roommate.” She stepped away to reveal the boy behind her, the guy with the hoodie.

“Oh, hey. Uhmmmm, you’re Brendan right?” I looked down, disappointed it wasn’t Taylor.

“…that’s me…” Brendan replied. “Were you expecting someone else? I’m always put with the new kids.”

“Wait, how long have you been here?” I replied, imagining all the people he had roomed with.

“…about a year and a half, I think… My sister’s been here longer though….”

“Whoa! Holy shit dude! How messed up are you?” I calculated in my head about how many new things he had missed. And who’s his sister? I added in my head.

Brendan chose not to answer just looked away and waited for the staff to wheel another cot in for him. When they did he lay down on it and pretended to sleep, at least I think he was pretending. Before I could even lay back down Sasha came back in saying it was time for breakfast. Breakfast consisted of scrambled eggs, sausage, a hash brown, and OJ. This ain’t half bad… I thought as I hungrily stuffed the food down my throat. When I looked up almost everyone was eating, Pink was nearly done, she ate fast. Blue, Abby, and Kim were slowly picking at their plates, as were Josh and Kevin. Brendan, Jessika and Taylor hadn’t even touched their food yet.

“Yo, are you gonna eat that?” Pink looked at Jessika’s plate eagerly.

“Back off freak.” Jessika shot cold eyes in Pink’s direction. As Pink lowered her head, looking sad.

“Have mine.” Brendan passed his food to Pink. “I’m not hungry.” Pink happily took the food and ate it; it was amazing how skinny she is considering how much food she eats. Taylor watched the whole thing like it was amusing, I couldn’t take my eyes off him, his eyes were captivating. Kai! What are you thinking? You’re straight! I argued in my head. I ducked my head so no one could see me blushing then got up and left, going to the lounge. I got there and lay down on the couch. Little did I know Taylor and Jessika had followed me.

“Hey, new kid, what are you doing? Checking out my best friend?” Jessika leaned in, scowling in my face. I blushed; I had thought no one had noticed.

“Oh, leave him alone, it’s not his fault I’m gorgeous.” Taylor flipped her bangs away from her face again. Uhmmmm, is he gay? I wondered, thinking maybe I had a chance at dating him. I just had to ask!

“Are you gay?” I asked, instantly regretting it from the look I got from Jessika.

“No, I’m perfectly straight, sorry if that disappoints you. “ Taylor gave me a little wink and I swear my heart started beating faster. I got up and left before my face could turn completely red. I got to my room to discover Brendan already there.

“..your face, it’s red…” Brendan commented when I came in.

“I, uhmmmm….” I stuttered, trying to find an explanation.

“…I see, my sister has that effect on guys…” Brendan rolled over and ended the conversation. So, if his sister was in that room with me, then she must be Jessika… But Jessika wasn’t the one who had that effect on me… I thought before taking some paper and a pencil and started sketching a picture of Rainbowdash humanized version. I do that a lot, humanized versions of the ponys. But with clothes on, I’m not a clopper. For some reason though I started drawing Jessika, she just seemed a bit like Rainbowdash does when she was pissed off today…