I keep my feelings silent
and the dreams keep talking
(a story i made while i felt like crap), sp, i guess.
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✺The Shinny*Story of,....
A yellow pegasus with sunset hair and a pink paint brush cutie mark.
A blue unicorn with purple hair and a pixalated heart cutie mark.
A pink pegasus with yellow and purple hair and a planet that looked like a disco ball cutie mark.
a purple earth pony with a blooming flower cutie mark.
And me,a purple unicorn.
It was around 100 years after the final battle of the three villans, Cozy, Chrisalyis, and Tireke. I had heard of the rainbow magic lazers that told of the amazing feeling that is love and friendship.
Me and my friends had played in the near by feild. that was when we were in third grade. We are now around 13. We came back to play again. We were out for the summer, and we wanted to have fun.
That was the last time i saw most of them. The summer ended fast and on the last day, i texted Pixle Laugh, the blue unicorn, and Floral Swirl, the yellow pegasus, like i was so often. I was asking how exciting it was to go back to Rainbow Hills MIddle School.
They both texted me that they both were leaving the school. I asked them the polite questions 'like where are you going?' and that's cool.' but i did not care. I was really upset. Sure we can text, but that is not really the same as seeing them as often.
It now has been about three weeks scince school started up again. Wishing Star was in a different grade, so she was in a different class room. the rooms had three grades each room. Only Night Kiss is still here, and we are still friends, but our group is kind of incomplete now. I miss Wishing Star, the pink pegasus, when she always was so smart and loved space. She also liked old music like from the 1980s and 1990s. I miss Pixle Laugh and how he was so funny and how he was my crush. Sort of. And Floral Swirl was fun as we drew together and talked about trends and such. Everything just is not the same.
It was Friday. Each Friday we would do work such as building, farming and cleaning. I usually enjoyed it, but scince my friends were not here, I was not as sure if i would. Night Kiss was sent to replant the flowers at the front door. I was told to team up with Pine Cone, a green earth pony, to clean out the old tomato bed so we could replace it with beans. I had never really talked to Pine Cone before, so I hoped for a new friend.
He helped pick tomatoes, but after that we had to pull them out. He sort of helped. I would use my magic, but at school we are usually not supposed to only because most other students can not. So i can only levate. I mean, the pegasai can not fly too high unless we are outside. We aperently need to learn to live without using magic. After finally geting the roots out, it was time to pull out the tiny weeds.
"Oh I do not have the attention and skill necassarry to do such a tedious task." Pine Cone said. I picked some weeds, expecting him to help, but after five minuets, i stopped.
"Is it your plan to just watch me?"I asked.
"Actually, my plan was to let you do all the work while i just poke the plants predending to do it."He said calmly, as if there was no issue.
"You know what, if you want to go help some pony else, I am fine." I said, with fake happiness.
Then Pine Cone left and left me to do the rest. That was annoying. I felt sad.See, i was used to other ponies leaving me to do things alone, but my friends usually helped. Like when we all went to do dishes, and stuff like that.
I then recalled one time when all the other ponies threw the jump rope at me because the rule is that the last pony to touch it puts it away. I picked it up, but then i noticed that Pixle Laugh was still there. He then took the other end of the rope, and pulled me to the toy shed. I remeber how happy i felt about that.
As i picked up the loose tomatoes, i recalled all the times we went on walks. I sighed as i finally did it. I had asked my teacher what to do next, but she told me to take a break because she knew i did that alone. i was glad i got a break.
I came inside. i washed my hooves and drank some water. Night Kiss was in there two. We talked for a few minuets. After that i came outside,Night kiss went some where else. then i was told to weed the roses. lovely. That was hard as as of the thorns kept poking the heck out of me.
At least we had some grilled cheese with fruit salad for lunch. I did not have it with anyone, and i didnt know were Night Kiss and Wishing Star were. I did not feel like going to look. i just ate quietly.
after that i helped take stuff in, cleaned dishes with Mara Marachas, cleaned the doormat, brought in heavy plants and organized squash.As i entered the room, i accendtally dropped one of the eggs i had to get from our school chicken coop on the floor. I mean, i have hooves. They should have given me a basket or something.
Everyone walked past me as i cleaned up the eggs, hoping my dad would not be worried.
I just sighed as i got in the car. "I hope you did not have to wait for too long." i said.
"No problem. So how was your day?"My dad,Blue SKy asked,
"well, i mean,I dont think it was that good. ok, it was trash. I failed a test, fell off a swing, got stung by a bee and got pricked with roses. lovely. Then i snorted water and it hurt like heck. I had to do seversal things alone with out my best friends and I have no idea where the heck Night Kiss ran off to. I want to kick Pine Cone and i am upset my friends moved schools. Once again several ponies that are my friends leave, like Rose and Stone WIng did. I now do not have that many friends left and i feel like crap." is what i would say if i was open about these sorts of feelings. I of course only said," it was awesome. loved it." He then said he thought i was so mature for handeling this all so well. yeah. no.
I went to sleep, and i hated it. My biggest fear aside from lonliness is dreaming. For two reasons.
Dreaming is just so unatural and dangerous because my mind is in charge
No one knows what i hate or fear more than my own mind.
"Alright. here we go." i said, preparing to be chased by a monster or get assulted. The first thing i hear is gasping. I see a few colors and then suddenly my friends appear, floating in the near by air. "Oh wow! Hey guys, how are you?" I walked to them, but none of them spoke.
"Foral Swirl? "As i went to get her down, she suddenly disapeared in a small burst of orange flowers. I turned to see Wishing Star disapear in a similar manner. I ran to the only other person there. "Pixle Laugh please wait!" But he too was gone. I picked up the flowers, and began hitting the ground, screaming and yelling. as that happened, grass apeared under me. Suddenly, i heard Night Kiss's voice call for me. "Oh there you are! we were looking for you! Wishing star saved you a corn dog already."
"wait what?" I was supprised a bit.
" And Pixle Laugh and Floral Swirl are looking for seats." She laughed, as if i was supposed to know this.
"they are here?" i asked, thinking i was at a movie place.
"They go to school here silly!" That is when i noticed her mane and tail was the style she had last year. we where at some point in time last year, and everyone in our class was gathering for a movie and corndogs.
As i let Night Kiss lead me to the seats, I saw Cotton Candy playing with Pixle Laugh's mane. I reacalled Cotton candy told me that he was in love with Pixle Laugh. I smiled, seeing them play together again. He was so cold and distant now.
Then i heard Cotton Candy say "dude, do you brush this?"
I laughed, remebering Cotton candy's mom is a famous mane stylest. I thought about the time i taught Pixle to do a pony tail. They suddenly turned to me and said hi. This was back when Cotton Candy was friends with me i suppose. Before he became a sad and depressed dude who talked to me like I was 2. I sighed, remembering when we were besties.
I recalled that Pixle was sort of a flirt, usually with only me and Wishing Star. I know he is just messing with me, but i did have feelings for him for a time. Maybe i still do.
The movie started, and we had fun.
After the movie, we went inside and began doing art. Floral Swirl has the art cutie mark, but we enjoy it too. Except maybe Wishing star. Pixle was drawing some character from an anime. I was still thinking on what to do. Floral Swirl began making some layered flowers. They were layered with colors that were oppisites. Like pink and teal, orange and purple. Suddenly, Wishing groaned. "Those flowers are wrong."
"What?"Floral Swirl was confused.
"Well, they are anotomically incorrect." Wishing said blankly, as if it were obvious.
"What does that mean?"Asked Floral Swirl.
"WELL, a flower does not ever have six petals. That is not how the universe functions ."Wishing Star said, ever being the smart one.
"well, maybe these are magic flowers." suggested Swirl.
"Well then magic is defying the laws of geographic patterns and natural appendage growth!"Argued Wishing.
"I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT EVER THE HECK THAT IS!" cried Floral Swirl.
"You would know that if you studied more!"yelled Wishing
"I STUDY PLEANTY!"
"WITH MY HELP!"Yelled Wishing
"What is going on?"Pixle asked, putting down his drawing.
"Floral here has frankenstined some genetically mutated multicolor plants that do not belong in the natural biome!"Said Wishing.
"OH my god." He said, rolling his eyes.
"Well look at yours, Wishing. Those colors clash like crap!"yelled floral
"So? nature dose not need to fit your standards of your preferable yet over staturated color wheel. “Wishing shrugged
“That is not important." Pixle said.
"YES IT IS"Yelled Floral Swirl.
We all began laughing. I was glad they could let it go.
As i began laughing, the first genuine laugh scince a few days ago, everything turned green and began fading away.
"Where is everything going? wait no! no! Come back! ARE YOU LISTENING?! I SAID COME BACK!
i suddenly saw flashes of horrible moments from my life, and images of my friends leaving. When i say horrible, trust me. I HAVE SOME DARK CRAP.
I woke up suddenly, my alarm. I turned it off and tried to go back to sleep. I was supprised how perfect that dream was, even getting their persanalities right. I needed to keep seeing them. But i could not. My emotions were too strong. I began crying. It was too early for my mom or dad to be awake to hear, but i don't really care.
"I am so sorry. You all told me what I meant to you, but i did not! And i even wanted more friends because i was aware that all of us were considered weird!" i whispered. A memory of standing up for Floral Swirl popped in my mind.
"But i never told you you all were my only friends. And only you and Night Kiss because everyone else at school is either mean, or stupid or just a minor aquantences. " a memory of us hiding in the closet durring the thanksgiving party came to my mind. "In 30 years i will not even know who any of you are."
I really wanted them to be around.
"Change is good and brings a lot of growth", my mom said once, i feel like i have become an idot who is lost in the past, but guess what life? I DO NOT CARE!
well, if friendship is magic, then it sure is weak! It sure heck did not keep us together. Same with Twilight and her friends. They are long gone. if i had that sort of magic, i would make sure that my friends had stayed with me long enough for me to really love them, with all my heart. But that is not a good idea. Who knows more about the negative effects of lost friendship?
Hmm. How do i free cozy glow?
I mean, she’s got GOOD IDEAS!
And the ting about good ideas is that they kinda tend to stick around like slime, or a BIGG BADD fart! Ha ha!
Lol no
Like♡Sooo, yah, I learned that I write weirdness on bad days and that dreams are either awesome or suck.♡Y♡A♡Y♡for no one I guess.heh
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So✿yeah!
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☆THE☆END☆
OKfun,but,
OKZat*vwas
lu⚝di⚝crousu!♬
*so foolish♢unreasonable, or outta✿place as to be amusing♢ridiculous♡
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*Bye♡Bye-Fooowaha!*
Author's Note
you know soome times ya just feel like crap. this is based of feelings i had in middle school. Now i am less upset about that,but it is still in the back of my mind. I do not plan to explain what happens with cozy glow. This is just to get my feelings out so I can go back and write more happy stories, though i will keep the OCs based off my friends still in my mind.
