Striving To Belong

by Bruhdude

Prologue

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Beep! ... Beep! ... Beep!

My eyes groggily open slightly as I'm rudely awaken by my digital clock, that somehow still works after the many times the I've tried to smash it.

Beep! ... Beep! ... Beep!

A low groan emanates from somewhere inside my chest as I shut my eyes again. My right hand slowly drifts above me up onto my headboard, sleepily trying to find my alarm clock.

Beep! ... Beep! ... Beep!

"Ugh, c'mon..." I'd breathe out, sounding more like a croak than actual words. My hand would gain more energy, and I'd quicken my search for the annoying machine that was beeping ruthlessly.

Beep! ... Beep! ... Be ...

I grasped the digital clock and, with all of the strength I have in this weakened state, yanked on it as hard as I can, ripping the cord out of the wall in the process. I held it up for a few seconds before dropping it, letting it hit the floor. As it struck the wooden surface, I heard a nasty smashing noise. I winced as I heard it, knowing that the clock had finally met it's doom.

"Should've just shut up..." I said flatly to myself. Rolling over onto my right side and half-heatedly pushing myself up with my right forearm, I shot glance off the side of my bed. My ears were had been correct, the clock had shattered into the small bits all over the floor. It was hard to see how badly it was messed up in the dark, but it didn't really matter.

Now I gotta buy a new one, a thought rattled in brain for second, before being dismissed. It wasn't THAT expensive of a clock, but I'm not in a place to be throwing money around. I recently got fired from my dead-end retail job for coming into work with a hangover and telling my manager to shut the fuck up when she accused me of being hungover. Wasn't the smartest of moves, but I didn't care in the moment. I sure as hell care now though, because that's on my resume permanently now.

I'd drop back down onto my back, and, not before huffing, sit up and throw my legs over the right side of the bed, doing my best to avoid shattered bits of clock. I'd stand up and stretch, popping my joints with a happy sigh. I'd step around the remnants of what used to be an alarm clock and stagger my way to the bedroom door. Pushing it open, I'd find myself blinded from the light of the hallway. I'd rub my eyes and push forward, ignoring my the discomfort the light gave to my eyes. Shuffling down the hallway, I'd make my way to the bathroom. But upon trying to open it, I find that it's locked.

"Ocupado!" A high, but defiantly male voice called out. Growling slightly, I instead make my way towards the opening in the hallway, to the room that's used as our kitchen, dining room, and living room. Upon entering, two heads turned to greet my entrance.

"Good morning!" An overly chipper voice called out. It was a female voice, a little bit on the higher side. The voice belonged to Gabriella, a friend I've had for the better part of my life. Her hair was long, and had a couple of dyed purple streaks mixed in with her blonde hair.

"Mm... Morin'." A gruff voice emanating from the man sitting on the other side of the breakfast table said casually, after having downed the mouthful coffee. This voice belonged to Jared, Gabriella's boyfriend. He's a chill dude, the type of guy you sit down and have a beer with.

"Morning." I sighed, because it was defiantly not a good morning so far.

"What was that noise coming from your room? Did you break something?" Gabriella asked, a slight tinge of concern in her voice.

"Alarm clock." I croaked out, shuffling over to the coffee machine and grabbing a mug from a nearby cupboard, I'd pour some of the dark fluid into the mug. She's chuckle softly and shake her head.

"About time. How many times have tried to the smash it before?" Jared asked in an amused voice.

"I dunno, four times maybe?" I deadpan, taking the closest seat at the table.

"Quite surprised it lasted that long."

"Heh, fifth time's the charm, huh?" Gabriella said in her usual chipped voice. I nodded, and she went back to sipping her coffee, which was a light chocolate colour, turned that way because of all the cream she adds. I drink my coffee black, but that's mainly because I'm used to drinking good coffee, not the shit that's massed produced. After pondering on when I should get some real coffee for a few seconds, I heard a door open from the hallway. I heard it close behind him, and after a few seconds in walked Patrick.

"Morning, fuckers!" Patrick called out in his higher pitched voice, while holding up both middle fingers and aiming them the the group, while walking over to his spot at the table. Gabriella would roll her eyes, and Jared would nod in Patrick's direction.

"I hope you didn't just take a shit in there."

"Nah, all your Blake," was the only response he gave me. I nodded at once at him, and took a big gulp of my coffee before standing up. Walking over the kitchen sink I'd dump the rest of it down the drain, before depositing it into the same side the the drain.

"Anyone need the bathroom?" I asked while turning my head to the group, walking in the direction of the hallway. Everyone shook their heads and I exited the common room into the hallway, making my way to the one bathroom. Opening the door, I stepped inside before closing it behind me. Ripping off the pale green, baggy v-neck I had been wearing for the past two days, I stupidly took a sniff at it.. Gagging a little, I tossed it onto the floor. Stepping in front of the bathroom mirror, situated on the wall behind the sink, I inspected my current. My shaggy, medium length dark brown hair had a bad case of bedhead, strands sticking out ever where, but I really didn't care. I had a fair amount of stubble, having not shaved in a month seeing as there was no need to. My dark blue eyes had slight bags underneath them, which was natural for me. I was pretty much tired no matter the circumstances. After inspecting my face, I turned my attention to my body.

I wasn't the fittest person that you'd ever met, but not the scrawniest either . I don't seem strong or able to hold my ground in a fight, but I'm naturally stout, considering my previous job consisted of a lot of heavy lifting. Nothing else could have been said about me. I didn't really have any body hair, but I had a small scar on the top of my right forearm from falling on a patch of ice.

"Ugh, enough self-loathing." I mutter under my breathe. Ripping my eyes away from the mirror, I turned my attention to the shower. The tub was pretty shallow, and the shower head was just a little too low. Stripping out of my worn, but still slightly fluffy blue and green plaid pajama pants and tossing them into the hamper, I took a step into the shower and turned on the water to hot, but was blasted with cold water.


"Should I have told him I used all the hot water?" Patrick asked the couple as Blake closed the door to the bathroom.

"Why tell him when he can just find out?" Jared said with a slight chuckle.

"Shit!" A shout rattle out from the bathroom. The three roommates burst out laughing at the perfect timing.


"Twiiiighliiiiight! A raspy, but feminine voice cried out.

"What is it now, Dash?" The purple alicorn sighed, obviously sounding annoyed.

"I'm boooooored!" The same raspy voice cried. A pale blue pegasus with rainbow mane and tail swooped down in front of the purple pony.

"We've been here for hours and we haven't done anything! There's not even any Daring Doo books!" She whined. Before Twilight could reply, she was cut off by a white unicorn with a purple, frilly mane.

"Rainbow's got a point, dear. He have been here for a long time, and haven't found a thing!" She said while casting a foreleg into the air, letting her glasses tip down her muzzle.

"Surely we could come back tomorrow, no?" She asked as a small grin spread across her muzzle. Twilight's only response was a small sigh, but soon, a smile came to her face as well.

"I guess we could come back tomorrow..."

"Hey.. Um, I think I-"

"It's just a large trek to go from Ponyville, then back to the castle back and forth. Especially since we nee to go through the the Everfree."

"Ahem, girls I fou-"

"Oh, don't worry about a thing darling! We'll be fine! If your worried, we could get Apple Jack to escort us."

"Girls I-" Twilight sighed, and placed the book she was skimming through back on the shelf.

"Alright, guess we should get pac-"

"GIRLS!" Every head in the room whipped around to look at the yellow pegasus mare. She seemed to shrink in size upon their gazes.

"I think I found the book." Twilight's ears perked up, and she hopped out of her seat and trotted over to the pegasus.

"Why didn't you say something before, Fluttershy?" Twilight asked. Fluttershy only squinted her eyes slightly, and Twilight got the message.

"Can I see it?" Twilight asked the timid mare. Fluttershy mover her head to left, revealing the tome on her back. The purple alicorn surrounded the book in the rosy aura of her magic, and levitated it over to herself. The book itself was a foliage green with a gold trim bearing the title, "Court Jester's Pranks and Spells Vol. III" Rainbow Dash swooped back down behind Twilight and observed the book, but after a second she snorted.

"Why would Princess Luna need a book on pranks when she knows someone as awesome as me?" She said with a huff, crossing her forelegs across her chest as she bobbed up and down in the air.

"Because they're spell based pranks, and I'm pretty sure pegasi can't do magic." Twilight said with a small smirk. Rainbow muttered something to herself before fluttering back into the air, nearing the ceiling. Twilight's magic increased around the books cover, and it flew open.


Stepping out of the shower, I reached with my left hand towards the tower rack situated next to the shower and grabbed a teal towel, immediately wrapping it around my head trying to dry off my soaking hair. After a couple of minutes of relentless scrubbing, I was finally satisfied and moved the towel to the the rest of my body. It took me another minute to finally dry myself off to a point where my fresh set of clothes won't be drenched.

Wrapping the towel around my waist, I stepped out of the bathroom to hear a wolf call from behind me.

"Dayuuum girl! You lookin' fiiiine!" Patrick would call out, him having just exited his room.

"If you grab my ass I'm going to rip your arm off and shove it down your throat." I said to Patrick in a grunt.

"What a witty come-back."

"Wasn't supposed to be witty, I was just stating facts." I said casually, walking deeper into the hallway towards my room. I opened the door and stepped inside, flicking the light switch on as soon as I stepped foot in the room.

My room was a mess. I mean, even before the obliterated alarm clock it was still pretty cluttered. There were empty cans everywhere, dirty clothes, and other types of trash. At that point I had been searching for a new job for about a month, and kinda stopped caring.

Taking another step inside, I closed the door behind me and stamped over to my closet. Pulling on both of the doors, it open with a small creak, but no resistance. There weren't many clothes inside, as most of my clothes were dirty. Didn't matter though, mainly because I wasn't doing anything today and had no one to impress. Unwrapping the towel that was around my waist, I threw into a hamper that was leaking dirty clothes.

Turning my head back around to the closet, I began to ponder at which clothes to wear today.


"Man these pranks are laaaaame..." Rainbow Dash said in a whine.

"I mean, turning wine into the grape juice? What kinda prank is that?"

"This book is old, Rainbow. Pranks were tamer back in the day. I bet there's some good ones in here," Twilight would pause to look up at Rainbow Dash, who was floating lazily on her back in the air. Her forelegs were behind her head and her hind legs were crossed.

"Why do you care anyways? This is a book for magical spells."

"Because if Luna's going to prank somepony, she better do it right!" Rainbow would say while rolling her eyes and casting a fore leg into the air.

"Pranks aren't supposed to be tame!" Twilight would just smile and shake her head, returning her attention the book. Flipping one of the pages, one spell would catch her eye.

"Here we go," Twilight said while adjusting her position in her seat, "There's a spell her that supposedly turns the destined pony into a foal." Rainbow Dash's eye would shoot open, and in a blur of rainbow, she was immediately be standing at a attention in front of Twilight.

"Does it work?!" Rainbow Dash yelled. This caused Twilight to wince a little, but she regained her composure quickly.

"Well, probably. I can copy the spell and learn how to do if you'd like." Twilight's eyes would shoot open.

"Why did I say that?"

"Why not just use it now, and see if it works!?" Rainbow blurted out, jittering like a filly on the morning of Hearths Warming.

"Wait, you want me to test in on you?" Twilight asked Rainbow, tilting her head in the process. Rainbow's only response was a quick burst of nodding.

"I don't even know the spell, Dash! It could end up with some dangerous results!" Twilight said, clear concern in her voice.

"Danger's my middle name, baby!" Rainbow said, bracing herself for the spell she thought was incoming. Twilight sighed and read over the spell a few times to get a basic grasp on it.

"Fine. But if you die, it's not my fault." Twilight said flatly. Rainbow Dash just shrugged, and resumed her bracing position. Twilight sighed, and hopped out of her seat, and stepped in front of rainbow dash.

"Hold still." Twilight said to Rainbow, more of a demand than a request. Rainbow's demeanor didn't change, and just squinted her eyes as a response.

Twilight began to concentrate, feeling a tingling sensation from withing her core. The feeling spread up to her chest, up her neck and into her head. She concentrated harder, and soon the tingling spread to her horn. A bright flash of white light spread through out the room, temporarily blinding the four mares in there.


After picking out the clothes I was going to wear for the day (and probably tomorrow, too), I quickly adorned them, looking in the mirror to make sure there were no hole in them. I didn't care what I wore, but I had the decency to not wear ratty apparel. I had on a pair a pale blue jeans and Metallica t-shirt, even though I don't listen to Metallica. I shrugged and turned back to my bed, making my way over. I plopped my ass on the edge of the bed and reached up onto my head board, grabbing my cell phone.

It was a Samsung Galaxy S8. Not top of the line, but still pretty good. The only factor that mattered to me is that it worked. I unplugged it from it's charger and open the phone to the lock screen. It was 9:46 A.M, so I had woken at about nine. My lock screen was a picture of me and my friend, Dave, drunkenly wrestling. It was in a backyard near a bon fire, I had him in a bulldog choke and he was forced to tap.

Smiling at the memory, I turned my phone on to sleep mode and tossed it onto my be bed. I stood up and began to make my way around to the other side of the bed to clean up the larger bits of alarm clock when and ear-piercing ringing filled my brain.

Instinctual, my hand flew up to my ears to try and protect them from the noise, but to no avail. I dropped to my knees and began to scream, my brain felt like it was going explode at any moment. I fell back onto my right side and began to spasm, but I felt something else too. It was the vibration of my door being smashed in, and Jared ran into the room followed by Gabriella and Patrick. They were all screaming, but I couldn't hear them. The last thing I saw was all of them backing up away from me, a look of horror on their faces.

After that, I saw nothing but white.


Upon opening her eyes, she was greeted with a pair of large reddish-magenta eyes staring down at me. She recoiled out surprise, but sighed a second later.

"It didn't work, Twilight!" Rainbow pouted as she sat back on her haunches. Twilight closed her eyes, and began to rub the back of her head with a hoof.

"I thought you said it would work!"

"Yeah, after studyinghow the spell actually works!" Twilight shot back, glaring at Rainbow.

"I probably just used some random spell! We're lucky we didn't just explode!" A headache began to swell in the back of Twilight's brain, a result of having used too much magic at once.

"Are you okay, darling?" Rarity asked in a kind tone. Fluttershy was behind her, still a little wobble from the flash.

"Yeah, just used to much magic..." She trailed off, looking to the side.

"I wonder what kind of spell warranted that much magic?"


The sensation of fall struck me for a second or two, before I landed on the ground with a loud thud. I groaned loudly, my tailbone having taken the brunt of the fall.

"Ugh... What happened?" I asked, but got no reply.

"Jared? Gabby, Patrick? You there?" I planted my left hand on the ground to push myself up, but I froze. My hand didn't touch the cool surface of woof in my apartment. I struck patch grass and dirt. As I slowly open my eyes, I felt my heart and stomach switch places. I was laying in clearing of short grass, and the outer perimeters of the clears couldn't be seen, as there we tall and trees everywhere. My heart began to beat rapidly as the situation dawned on me.

"Fuck."


Author's Note

This is my first time writing an actual story, and having it put up onto the internet to be read. MLP lore isn't my strong suit, so please correct me if I get something wrong. I took a lot of inspiration from MadMaxtheBlack with his story Your Human and You. I've been recently getting back into the MLP fandom after a few years of hiatus, and he's currently one of my favorite fanfic authors, and has inspired me to write my own HiE story! :raritywink:

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