Chapters I looked at the blood that slowly sipped down on the knife mounted on my hoof; watched with fascination as it filled the engraving written on the base of the knife. The warm blood dripped onto my right hoof, the same hoof which my knife was mounted upon. It was a delicate blade, made for killing and nothing else. I watched as the blood dropped onto the carpet, life red against royal blue. My victim struggled against my hooves, tried to scream; a scream that was muted by the hoof I held over his muzzle. I pressed the blade deeper into his body; the delicate metal work tearing muscle and flesh alike. The body that pressed against me, the body of my victim, was the body of an older stallion, my target for this night. I felt how Luna had started to take the older stallion with her, the life Celestia had given him slowly drained away from his veins. I slowly pulled the knife out of his body, turning him around. My hoof was still in his mouth, keeping him from screaming. I looked into his eyes; my body trembled with satisfaction of what I saw. Pain and panic flashed in the old stallions green eyes as the flame that was his life slowly had started to flicker, extinguished by my cold knife. I leaned towards the stallion; whispered into his ear.
The pure horror that emerged from the stallions’ eyes filled me with life as I withdrew the knife and placed it against the stallions’ chest. I slowly lay some weight behind the knife, pierced the thin hide on the stallions chest. Slowly did the knife slide in the stallion, reaching the heart. The body became slack in my hooves. I slowly dropped the lifeless stallion to the floor, bending my neck and placing my hoof over the stallions heart. A fast prayer left my lips.
I slowly rose from the floor. It hadn’t been the first time this past weeks that I had prayed that prayer; nor would it be the last time. I took a first look around the bedroom where the deed had been done. It was a big room, with a bed too big for a single pony. The tears of the fallen rattled against the two windows overlooking Trotholm. Luna’s celestial eye watched me, spread its silver light through the tears and into the room. A mirror caught my attention, its reflecting surface casting its twisted vision of the room. And in the middle of it was my own twisted reflection, standing over the owner of this house. I looked at myself, my own bright blue eyes looking back at me, my thunder-sky colored coat reflecting the silvery shine that Luna graced me with. No blood soaked my coat, not a single drop of the life-giving liquid. My eyes followed the outline, the outlines of a pegasus in his young years. Or, it would have been the outlines of a pegasus if it was not for one thing. My wings were long since gone, ripped off years ago. My eyes went directly to my cutie mark, a cogwheel. I wasn’t natural, murdering was not my true talent. It was said that you couldn’t change your talent after you had gotten your cutie mark. I am a living proof that you can.
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I have always loved the tears of the fallen; it is as if the tears wash away the shame from my soul. Or, rather, what was left of it. I do not believe that I have an immortal soul anymore, not after the changes I have gone through, not after I have gone against my nature, the nature of all living, the harmony of all. I have not only forsaken myself by ignoring my talent, no, I have forsaken so much more. To take another ponies life, to disturb the harmony in that way. I have forsaken the goddesses by disturbing their harmony. But in one way I work for the goddesses, I’m a faithful follower; I do what I believe is the best for the goddesses, the true ruler of Equestria. To clean up this city, my home city, the city called the ‘City of the Fallen Alicorns’, is what I have tasked myself with. I’m going to rot out every corruption in this city; I will clean it from the filth that Discord once placed here. Luna and Celestia is my witnesses.
My hooves found their own way over the rough cobblestones that were the main street of the gray Trotholm. Only a few other ponies where out in the falling tears, most of them were probably hurrying home, trying to escape it. They ignored me in the same way as I ignored them, some glanced my way but that was it. My great grandfather had told me that Trotholm once had been a beautiful city, resident of the alicorns and the greatest city in Equestria. That had been before Discords’ raise to power. My great grandfather had been a guard in the castle at that time, the time when Discord single-handedly erased the alicorn from the mind of ponykind. My great grandfather told me about the alicorns and about his time as a guard.
The alicorns, he told me, had been created as the goddesses representations. They had been perfect in every manner. The physical strength and endurance of an earth pony, the wings and agility of a pegasus, and the horn and mind of an unicorn. They had been created to rule, but they had always been kind at heart. Earth Pony, unicorn and Pegasus alike, all had they had their place, a place they were more than happy with. It was the alicorns who had made sure that the prayers had reached the goddesses; it was the alicorns who took upon them to appease the goddesses. But how powerful the alicorns might have been had they all been slaughtered under Luna’s celestial eye less than eighty years ago, slaughtered by an even more powerful being.
Nopony knew where Discord had come from, nor who had created him. My great grandfather had been on guard duty at the time when Discord attacked, he had seen what had happened. Discord had attacked when Luna had raised her eye over the sky, during one of the two daily prayers in the great castle that the alicorns inhabited. My great grandfather had air duty during the Luna hours, circling over Trotholm. He had returned to report directly as Luna’s celestial eye had reached its highest peak. He had been greeted by an utter disaster. Luna’s celestial eye had shone red for what had happened.
Luna’s blood red grace had shone down into the castles prayer halls. My great grandfather and his squad had entered the prayer room, the room of the goddesses as it was called. They were meet by the view of slaughtered alicorns. Blood and gore had been spreading out in the room, dead alicorns lay everywhere. And in the middle of the room, at the altar of the twin eyes, had he been standing, looking into the distance, laughing for himself. Discord, the alicorn bane and former ruler of Equestria, stood there, Luna’s blood red grace embraced him.
In his hand did he hold the head of the alicorn king, talking to eyes cloaked with Luna's shadow. My great grandfather hadn’t understood the words the vile creature had spoken, nor did he want to. What had happened thereafter had been enough for him to want to turn around, gallop away. Discord had grappled the head in both his hands, holding it in front of his eyes, screaming in its face.
“The alicorns reign have come to an end, I am the ruler of Equestria now. My chaos will spread across the land, corrupt every living thing. The chaos will be the new order; your goddesses are banished from this land. With no prayers left, where will they get their power from? Utter chaos will rule from this day forward.” Discord had then crushed the alicorns dead head with his lion paw and eagle talon, the red liquid that gives a pony life splashing against the floor. He had turned around, laughed and looked at my great grandfather and his squad. With a few last words had he touched each one of them and then disappeared in a bright flash.
My great grandfather travelled to Luna’s side when I was only a filly. He had been sick a long time, and it was during one of those days, when I was alone with him, that he told me the story of Discord. He told me other things, ancient rituals and prayers, for the twin goddesses I had never heard about. When I talked with my parents had they looked down on me questioning, they hadn’t heard about the goddesses either. But as I grew did I understand the true meaning of the story he had told me.
Discord had removed a part of my great grandfather’s memory, and I suspected it was removed from every other pony as well; wiped out from the memory of the entire ponykind. A memory had been removed to ensure that the goddesses would never get their power back. The goddesses had been forgotten by the entire ponykind.
And my great grandfather had, on his death bed, remembered. And he had told the first pony he had been able to; to make sure that it wasn’t forgotten. When I came to this conclusion, at the same day I had gotten my cutie mark, did I freeze in place. It all came to me, washed over me; the goddesses didn’t have any power in Equestria if they weren’t prayed to. The night and day was irregularly, Discord chaos controlled both sunset and sunrise, not the goddesses. I felt to my knees right there, on the square, a square that I later got the knowing of was the squad in front of the alicorn’s castle, and prayed.
I can’t recall what I prayed, nor if I shouted or whispered. What I know is that I was laying there, praying, until the guards had thrown me in a cell. And in the cell I kept praying. A day later, or around fifty sunsets as it was during the chaos time, was I finished praying. I was still on my knees in that cell when I felt two hooves touching me. One was as warm as Celestia’s grace in the summer and the other was as cold as Luna’s grace in the winter. I jerked back, quickly getting to my hooves, and the touch vanished.
I remember looking in the room, seeing nothing but pitch darkness. None of the celestial eyes illuminated this place, none of them spreading their grace around me. So I waited, and thought.
My thoughts wandered around aimlessly. The goddesses could come back to power, the order my great grandfather had talked about could return. And all it needed was prayers, prayers from all of ponykind. But I couldn’t just go out and talk to ponies around me; Discord would get the knowing of that somepony remembered quicker than I could spread the words of the goddesses. No, that was not the way to do it; but what was.
I can not remember how long I sat in that pitch darkness, Celestia’s and Luna’s hours floated together down there. I remember that I prayed more than once, I remembered that I had food and water pushed into my cell more than once, a torch illuminated the room from a chink between the door and the stone that was the cells floor, I remembered that I feared.
I feared that Discord had gotten words about it; I feared that the goddesses would once more be forgotten. I remember that I sat there, embraced myself with my wings, and prayed. I prayed over and over again to the goddesses, prayed over them to protect me. I felt helpless in that cell and I found confidence in the goddesses, found confidence in their embrace. Because even if I didn’t have their grace shining down on me did I know that they watched me.
And then, one day when I waked up, was the door open. No guards were positioned outside. I slowly walked outside, only to be stopped just before the stairs by an earth pony. It was a guard and he raised his hoof, pointing towards one door on the same floor without a word. I understood the sign and didn’t want to cause any trouble so I walked towards the door.
I feared that door, feared what might lay in wait behind it. Its dark wood whispered to me, paralyzed me, draw my eyes towards it. My eyes followed every line in that door, as if the answer for an escape lay there within. The lines etched to my mind, I would probably be able to draw those lines today if I had to.
What I don’t remember is what happened in there.
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I looked up; the cold, fresh Luna hour air whirled around me as I stood on a square only illuminated by Luna's grace. The square was covered with puddles of water, the tears of the fallen that had been pouring down had moved on without me noticing. As if my hooves had gotten direction from my memory did I find myself on the square in front of the alicorn castle, or as it had been known under during the time of chaos, the forbidden castle. The same square I had first came to the conclusion of the goddesses, the same square that I had prayed my first prayer at.
The statue was still standing there, the statue of Discord on his throne, the statue that symbolized the corruption that had taken over Trotholm. The castle was still ruled by that corruption, servants of Discord still ruling from that castle. Trotholm had broken free from the rest of Equestria; none knew what had happened with Discord; that was something the inhabitant of Trotholm did not know about, the fact that Trotholm was ruled from the castle was a well-guarded secret. I am the only free citizen who knew about it, and I believe that very few inside the castle knew about it. The goddesses had defeated Discord; that I knew for sure. They had left Trotholm for me to clean up, otherwise they would already have been seizing control of this city; nothing would have been able to stop them, not now.
I might not have been truthful when I said that none knew. Discord servant knew for sure. Not only was it easy to tell on the guards, guards trotting the streets in unease; not for the ones they should guard. No, they was trotting in unease because of how their captain acted, and their captains acted because of how his or her, what sex he or she was had never occurred me to find out, superior acted. And so it went, straight to the top. That we were cut off from the rest of Equestria was easy for me to see, I knew what to look for. The “announcements” from “Discord” had been coming to often and had been too vague the last days. But the inhabitants of Trotholm didn’t know; they lived on as if nothing had happened. A few seemed to have realized that Celestia’s grace shone down upon them for a longer time before Luna’s grace took its time. They didn’t seem to realize that the Celestial hour and Luna’s hours had found harmony. And even fewer realized what it meant.
I felt how the smell of the clean tears reached my nostrils, smiled at the welcomed thought of how even the fallen wanted to clean the filth that Discord had covered Trotholm in.
I looked at the two guards standing in front of the castle gates, two pegasi standing still although the tears of the fallen slowly rolled down their armor. They must be chilled to the bone by the wind that howled the square at this late Luna hour. I found myself thinking about how easy it would be to kill the guards and infiltrate the castle, cleanse the corruption that ruled Trotholm from within those walls. I found myself closer to the castle; I had started to walk towards it, blade unsheathed. The guard was eyeing me; I could easily see how they stiffened as they prepared themselves for whatever I would do with the drawn blade. I chuckled slightly. They would not have a chance against me if it came to crossing blades; that I were sure of. But it was not my time to strike yet, I had no information.
I chuckled for myself; this was not the time to start trouble. More information would have to be collected before I attacked the castle itself, I had to know whom it was who had the power inside the castle, who was tainted by the corruption from Discord and who was not.
I sheathed my blade as I turned around, leaving the square behind me, slowly started to trot against the darker part of Trotholm.
The Dark Stable was not the brightest gem in Trotholm. In fact, a jeweler would probably throw it away without taking a second look at it. But for now it was my home. A dirty tavern in the darker parts of Trotholm, The Dark Stable stood out in the crowd of others, as dirty if not dirtier, taverns. After all, this was the place you came to if you searched for somepony who could do your dirty job for you. I had chosen to stay here for safety reasons, this was a place that was avoided by the guards, not even on a direct order did they come here with less than half the force.
My hooves took me towards my temporary home when I saw something out of the corner of my eyes. Celestia’s grace had started to break the horizon.
I was late!
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My hooves swiftly carried me towards the walls guard tower. How could I miss it? Every day for years, and today I was close to missing it? The guard tower came into view, it was only a single corner left and I would reach it. A metallic sound made me stop in my spring. The sound, a sound of horseshoes, came from the other side of the corner, from the guard tower. I quickly looked around, my eyes catching a water puddle. I walked over towards it, checked my reflection for any blood in the coat or anything else that would tell them what I had done this evening. I started to calm down, making my breath regular again. It went slower than it should, I threw worried looks toward the sky. It would soon be to late!
As soon as my breath was regular again did I round the corner. I wasn’t suprised to see the guards standing close to the guard tower, the sound they made was the only sound in this early Celestia hour. Two of the guards was unicorns, both in light collors. The other two, one pegasus and one earth pony, was both in darker colors. They all had the light, brown, armor of the city guards.
The guards swifted slightly at the sight of me. The two unicorns lifted their crossbows with their magic; aiming the deadly bolts directly at my heart. I ignored them, continued to walk towards the guard tower.
“Halt, who goes there?” one of the unicorns called towards me.
I ignored him, continued to walk. I knew that if it came to fighting would I have to throw myself to one side quickly to make sure the bolts didn’t hit me. They were not magically enchanted, no glow surrounded the bolts. The unicorns had to go first, then the pegasus and lastly the earth pony.
“On orders from the great leader do we stand here so to not let anypony pass. If you take another step will we shoot to kill.” the unicorn warned, his magic embracing yet another crossbow that he brought forth beside the other.
I stopped in my tracks, looking towards the sky. Celestia’s grace had spread it first light even further, it would soon be to late. I looked at the unicorn guard who had spoken up.
“And why do you stand here to not let anypony pass?” I asked him, my mind looking for a way out of here. The time was almost up!
“I do not questions the orders I have been given citizen, nor should you. Now leave this area befor....” the unicorn said, only to be interrupted by a guard captain who looked out from the guard door. The guard captain was an earth pony with a light beige coat and he wore the silver armor that was common for a captain in the city guard.
“Guard Corelight, at ease. You are to let this pony pass, he is here on my invitation.” the guard captain said, looking at me.
“But captain, our orders was to not le....”
“I know that Corelight, but my words goes here. If the great captain want to punish me for letting an old friend, who have been here every morning for years, come into the guard tower for his daily meditation then he will take it with me. Did I make myself clear?”
“But sir, our..”
“DID I make myself clear Corelight?” the captains voice didn’t raise but the threat in it was easy to hear.
“Sir yes sir.” the unicorn, Corelight, said. He took his crossbows away and stepped aside, shot a hateful glare towards me.
The captain, an old earth pony I befriended a long time ago, known under the name of Lightheart; looked at me as I made my way towards the guard tower. I meet his hazelnut-brown eyes, and he smiled lightly.
I only nodded and walked past him, made my way upwards the stairs. I might be in a hurry, but I did not hurry my steps. This was an important part of this ceremony, not as important as the meditation but still important. Lightheart walked after me, his steel horseshoes clinking against the stone stairs of the old guard tower. The guard towers had stood here for as long as Trotholm itself, guarded the city together with the city wall, guarding it against it that might search it harm.
“You are lucky that I was the one on guard in this tower this morning, I’m being transferred tomorrow. Going serve at the castle instead.”
I nodded again. I knew that he was going to be moved, that information had been easy to come over. But that he was moved to the castle... That struck me as a hammer blow between the eyes.
I didn’t show it outwards though. I only walked, my mind quickly sorted that information away to be looked over later. Now there were only one thing on my mind. The meditation.
I stood there at the flat top of the guard tower. Lightheart had stepped away, he knew that I wanted the space during my meditation. I felt the early Celestia hour wind blow through my mane and coat, catch every hair on my body. But most importantly, I was not late.
I lay down in the middle of the open space, felt the cold from the stones seep into my body, challenging my body heat for control. I felt the water from the rain sip into my coat. But most importantly, I felt THEM.
Slowly did I clear my mind of thoughts, letting go of them all until only one thought remained. I slowly lifted my eyes to the sky, my eyes on the point where the Celestial Twin’s gaze would met. And as the gaze of the Celestial Twin’s met did I start my pray. The gazes twisted before my eyes, embracing each other before they slowly let go and drifted apart again.
“Celestial goddesses, ruler over life and over death. Let my spirit fly on the wings of freedom. Let my mind drift in the wind that you control. Let peace and harmony fall over Equestria. Protect the weak and the old. Protect the sick and the young. Protect the ones that walk under your wings. Protect the ones who have yet to find the way. In your hooves do I lay my fate. In your hooves do I lay my future. In your hooves do I lay my life. Protect me as I hunt down the ones who bring harm. Protect me as I protect the ones around me. As a phoenix will you raise again. As a phoenix will you ignite the wrong in this world. As the Celestial goddesses will you bring forth peace and harmony. In your service, in life and in death. In your service, for the greater of ponykind.”
It might not be the best of prayers, but that was not the important part. The important part was that I my entire soul took part in this prayer, my entire being believed in every word. It was built with words directly from my heart.
I felt how my body was heated by the gaze of Celestia, I felt how my mind was cleared by the gaze of Luna. But most importantly, I felt how they looked at me, how they supported me in this hard time.
I slowly watched as Celestia’s celestial eye rose over the horizon. It was a sight that had met my eyes every day for the last years, in the same way that Luna’s celestial eye met me at the night meditation. Still I was stunned by the sheer beauty of that eye that met my gaze every morning.
I rose from my position on the stone floor. A few of the fallen’s tears dripped out of my coat and landed on the stone. I walked over to the side of the guard tower, watching out over Trotholm.
The city slowly rose with the sun, bathed in Celestia’s grace, bathed in her glory. The white stones of the castle sparkled in the embrace of her glorifying grace.The bakeries were already running hot, the first customers would soon arive. Trotholm was a lively city, ponies was on their way to work or out for other things of importance. Guards trotted the streets, for an untrained eye everything seemed perfectly natural. But I saw what nopony else saw.
The guards walked nervously, their steps were to quick, their heads looked to much on the ponies all around them. The guard was nervous and afraid, of what they did not know. But I know what they really were nervous about, what they feared to see in the shadows.
Me.
They feared to see me, they feared my presence in the shadows around them. They knew I was somewhere in the city, they thought that they would be dead if they found me. Fear is a tool that is easy to work with, especially if you do not have to do anything at all. And I did not need to.
Words had spread around the city guards. It was dangerous to go alone, if the mysterious shadow finds you, you are dead meat. I had never let anypony who had see me kill live to tell the tale, I left no mark behind that could lead towards me.
I was a shadow in this city.
A shadow that slowly, unknowing of the inhabitants of Trotholm, cleansed this city from filth.
A shadow who works for the goddesses.
I smiled for myself as I turned around from the view, looking back at Lightheart. I nodded towards him.
“You are finished for today my friend? I should warn you, tonight is my last time as captain for this tower, so it will also be the last time you can be sure to get up here for your meditation. It pains me that it have to be like that, but I will leave a note to the new captain, if we are lucky then it is one of the nicer guard captains, one of the others who have joined the guard to protect and not to tyrannize.” he said, looking at me with sad eyes.
I nodded once.
“But you are welcome tonight, at dawn as normal. I will wait for you my friend.”
I nodded once more, started to trot towards the staircase down the tower.
*^*
The guards were still standing outside, the unicorn, Corelight, glared at me. As I started to walk away could I hear a scream of dread in the distance. It seems like the wife had found the body of tonight’s work. I smiled as I kept walking, walked towards The Black Stable.
Ponies passed me, on their way to work or other places. Small fillies and colts played in Celestia’s grace, rolled in the still wet grass or chased each other. Guards trotted the city streets, more at ease under the watching eye of the day goddess, at ease because of the lack of shadows.
They might not know that the goddesses watched them, but I know that she did. I knew that the goddesses watched over Trotholm, protecting the city’s inhabitants from harm.
A baker’s apprentice, a colt to young for the cutie mark that adorned his flank, yelled out his masters goods; tried to get customers to the bakery. I thought about going over to buy some bread, but I realized that I did not have any bits on me; I had left my saddlebags in my room.
The bells chimed from the guards quarters on the other side of the city; one chime for the guards to return, the second for the day guards to walk out. But today, something was different.
A third chime was heard today. A warning to all the guards; a severe crime have happened, the guilty is yet to be caught.
I couldn’t help myself but to smile at the guards who startled look at each other before they swiftly left for the guard quarters, trying to look at all directions at once. The citizens of Trotholm kept on with their work, a few looked at the guards who left so swiftly, but most did not care about the guards at all. The darker part of Trotholm did not care what happened in the other parts of the city. And to be honest did nearly nopony here know what the guard chimes meant.
It did not take long to get back to The Black Stable. I gently put my hoof against door to the tavern, gently nudging it open. A sound made me turn my head away, looking down the street, in the direction of the castle.
The only thing I saw were a group of ponies trotting away from their homes, trotting out for a day of work. Nothing out of the ordinary. I turned back to the door, took the step into the common room of The Black Stable.
The first thing that hit me was the smell. The pleasant smell of roasted carrots hit my nostrils, merged with the smell of the few roses that was placed around the room. I relaxed, let the scent wash over me. The fireplace gaped empty, who needed a fire at this time of the year? Four tables stood in the room, a stage could be seen at the other side of the room. Besides the stage was the stairs up and besides them the bar.
I was finally back to the place I called home. I opened my muzzle to call out for Carrotrose, the owner of The Black Stable, when I was suddenly hit in the side by a pale yellow ball.
I stumbled over, surprised at the sudden weight at my side. The yellow ball opened its eyelids, looked up at me with jade green eyes.
I looked at my daughter, a smile growing on my muzzle.
The little filly jumped of me and helped me up again, all the time talking.
I smiled fondly at my little filly, felt the the tiredness from the night rush back to me, as if she used all my energy.
Had he had a child? A child that never would see her father smile again? No, this was not the time to think about tonight’s activities, this was a path I had chosen; I will clean Trotholm no matter what the cost. I looked down at Honey again. Nearly no matter what the cost.
But still, had he had a child? A child I now had doomed to live its entire life without a father, a child that would never understand what had happened?
“Daddy whats wrong?” Honey asked, looked at me with those giant jade green eyes.
“Nothing is wrong sweetie, I’m just tired. I will not be able to walk out with you today. But tell you what, I will give you a few bits and you can go out and play with the rest of the fillies and colts.” I said, resisting the urge to yawn.
“But I wanted to spend the day with you.” she said, tears filling her jade green eye. “We nearly never do anything.”
I nuzzled her.
Not even my daughter knew about the goddesses. It was a secret I had not told anypony about yet, a secret that was mine alone for the time being. A secret that I would soon let out. But I could not put my daughter in danger by telling her about it now.
The tears in Honey’s eyes had disappeared.
“I promise. Now go upstairs and get a few bits and go out and play, wake me up later.”
She disappeared up the stairs, a yellow ball bouncing with joy. My yellow ball, my daughter.
Nightmares.
We all have them sometimes in our life.
It is normal for the smallest of Celestia’s children.
But even the old have them.
And when the old have them.
Are they often so much worse.
And do you know what the worst part is?
You do not know that it is a dream before it is all over.
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I woke up in a narrow room. No windows decorated the wall, no windows to let in the grace of either of the celestial eyes. The room was illuminated by four torches, each making the shadows move across the room. The air was cold and still, every hair in my coat stood. What had happened? I was in the same cell as I was in years before, when I was arrested after I had fallen down on my knees in prayer in front of the castle. I bolted up from the bed I had awoken in.
Where was Honey?
Was she hurt? Was she around here? Had they come for me before she came back?
My nostrils picked up the smell of sweat, of old mold, of dirty water. A rat rushed past my hooves, holding something that looked like bo... no I do NOT want to think about what that looked like. My eyes wandered around the narrow room, looking for a way out. I could not find any, other than the wooden door at the end of the room. I slowly walked over to the door, putting my hoof against it. I pushed as hard as I could, it did not budge an inch. And the worst part was the fact that there was no keyhole in the door.
I walked back and forth in the narrow room, thinking back to the day I had last been here. Had the door had a keyhole then? I could not remember. The only thing I remembered was that it had one day been open.
I turned around as I thought about the open door, and found myself standing in front of the now opened door.
What is happening to this place?
What is happening to me?
I slowly walked forward to the now open door. This had to be a trap. I gently placed my hoof on the stone floor.
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I found myself in a circular room. In the middle of the room stood two thrones on a plinth. Stairs lead up to the twin thrones. The room was richly ornate, red and golden symbols was embraced with silver and black ones at the walls. Sun and moon circled each other in the roof. Beautiful paintings of various landscapes covered part of the walls. Celestia’s eye graced me with its light here, it had yet to reach its peak. And on the thrones sat THEY.
THEY seemed to ignore me.
“It is to early, he is not ready yet!” the white mare said.
“How did he get here? What happened? Is Discord’s magic still this strong?” the black mare called out.
To early for what? What am I not ready for? It felt as someone had emptied a bucket of ice water over my head, I over came the shock.
I was standing in front of the goddesses.
I knelt on the spot, at the middle of the silver and golden carpet.
*^*
I felt my knees hit a cold, dusty stone floor. I opened my eyes again.
Only to find out that I was back outside the cellar. The door was closed behind me. The hallway was the same as the one so many years ago, only... dustier. Torches illuminated the narrow hallway, filling it with a golden light and shadows. I rose up again, looking more around me. I feared was I would see but I let my eyes wander towards the staircase, but I did so anyway.
I feared to see the same guard again, to relive that memory.
But my eyes found nothing. Nopony stood at the staircase, it was as if the building was abandoned. The dust on the floor was so thick that nopony could have been down here in years.
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“Why do you resist? What is the fun in your life right now? What do you do with your life?”
I looked around in confusion. Or, I would have looked around if I had a body.
I was only met with laughter.
“Who’s there?” I called out again.
“You do not need to know my name, as little as I need to know yours. Now, answer my questions before I have to drag them out from you!” the voice said with a touch of impatience.
“What do I resist from? The fun in my life is to see my daughter smile every day, to bring joy to her.” I said, not knowing if these answers would be the ones he.... it wanted. “And with my life do I strive to clean Trotholm from the filth.”
“What filth? Trotholm is the only clean city there is out there. Have you SEEN the ‘goddesses’ rule?” the voice asked, making the word goddesses seem like a curse. “And you resist me.”
“Trotholm has the filth of corruption over it, I will cleanse the city I love. And if I resist you then it is good, seemingly how you think about the goddesses.”
The voice laughed again.
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I found myself in front of a door. I remembered that door. I knew every line in it by heart, they had etched into my mind. Some of the golden letters had fallen away, only three was left. D, E and N.
I nudged the door with my hoof to open it. It fell inwards.
I looked at the door in surprise. What had happened? Then I looked into the room.
“You can’t escape me. You can’t resist me. Enjoy your freedom while you have it.” A voice called out, from where I did not know.
I spun around.
I don’t know how long I stood there before I turned around again.
The door was standing again, blocking the way.
The letters had formed a word.
END.
I spun around, walked away from the door.
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I felt. The darkness was around me. Cold air rushed around me. Stars twinkled in the distance, slowly fading away one after another.
In the end was I surrounded by complete darkness.
“Do you see it now?” the voice was back.
“See what? I can not see anything in this pitch darkness.” I answered.
“It is because you have not opened your eyes yet.”
Suddenly, two red eyes stared at me, pierced my mind with the ruby shards that was their glare.
“Don’t you see what is going on around you? Are you blind? Is not the people of Trotholm happy? Do you want to take that away from them? It is not they who are evil.” the voice mocked me.
“They live without knowing the truth, they live in an illusion, of course they are happy when the illusionist tells them to be.” I answered. “I will shatter the illusion, give them true happiness. Remove the evil and corruption that soak this city with its filth.”
A laugh pierced my ears.
The eyes faded away.
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I opened my eyes, found myself still in the dusty hallway. I ran up the stairs and hurried outside. I was met by Celestial’s grace that shone upon me, her eye had nearly reached its peak. A couple of ponies stared at me as if I had returned from the dead. I looked at myself in a window closeby. I was covered in dust, my coat stood out in different angles. I looked wildly around, stared back until the other ponies looked away. A couple of guards walked towards me.
I turned around and started to run, the guards shouting after me, order me to stop.
I did not care.
It did not take long before I entered the darker parts of Trotholm, the guards stopped in track, refusing to follow me any longer. I was not of importance it seemed.
I slowly made my way towards The Black Stable. Celestia’s eye closed in the distance to its peak. I had to be back in my room before Honey came back, I could not make her worry about me, or believing that I snuck away.
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The worst with a nightmare is the times when it is not a dream.
The times the nightmare is what really is happening around us.
I arrived at my room in time, Honey had not been there yet. I looked out of the window from my room, and I saw Honey trotting in the street towards The Black Stable. I quickly laid down in the bed, pretending to sleep. She would be very disappointed if she did not get the opportunity to wake me, and I had disappointed her enough today.
As I laid there, waiting and looking into the wall, did I rethink the events that had taken place during this morning. My mind was not clear, I could not solve the puzzle. Instead, I just laid there, wondering how it would go, how I should proceed with this. How I should proceed with the cleansing of Trotholm. I felt surprisingly awake, as if I had been asleep during that nightmare. My mind was not clear, but my body was awake.
My thoughts was interrupted by the sound of the door slowly opening. I laid still, slowed my beating heart, slowed my breathing. I heard the sound of small hooves hitting the floor, only seconds before I was hit by them myself.
“Wake up daddy, the sun has reached its peak.” Honey said as she jumped on me. “Get up lazy daddy!”
I rolled over. Caught my daughter between my hooves.
Honey jumped down from me, and the bed, onto the floor.
She sat down, a grump expression on her face.
I laughed as I got up from the bed.
Honey shone up, her smile shinning as Celestia’s celestial eye.
Of course she would say the gardens, the only place where there would be more guards than towns people. I smiled towards her.
She looked at me, smiling.
I sighed.
I felt her hoof hitting the back of my head lightly.
I smiled as I started to walk, picking up the saddlebags on the way.
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The gardens of Trotholm was positioned nearly in the middle of the city. It were beautiful gardens with flower arrangements, rippling water and big trees that threw it shadows over it all. For a lot of ponies was it relaxing to slowly trot around in these gardens.
For me was it a living hell.
Guards trotted the gardens, looking at everypony they passed with hard looks. In here they where in control, at least eight other guards were always in shouting range.
For Honey, however, was this the best time in her life. She trotted in full speed from flower arrangement to flower arrangement. Blue flowers, yellow flowers, pink flowers... she smelled every flower at least once. It was a hard time for me to walk in those gardens but I tried to not show anything outwards, I walked there with a smile on my muzzle and eyes on Honey.
She looked so happy and full of life where she stood with her muzzle in a flower arrangement, smelling a flower as pale yellow as her self.
I genuinely smiled. This might not have been as bad idea as I had thought from the start.
Honey trotted away again, trotting towards one of the water passages. She looked down in the crystal clear water that rippled as it flowed through the garden. I smiled at her as I trotted towards her. A couple of guards passed me, I greeted them happily. They greeted me in return before they kept going down the way in the gardens.
‘This day might end up as a really good day’ I thought to myself as I continued trotting towards Honey.
The water was clear and threw its twisted reflection of me and Honey, as well as the trees behind us and the sky above us. Celestia’s eye shone down upon us, warmed us with its grace. It was a beautiful time this late Celestial hour. And most importantly, I spent it with my daughter, with my little filly.
I turned my head slightly, looked at her as she slowly reached down a hoof towards the water. She quickly withdrew the hoof from the cold water.
“Is it, sweetie?” I asked as I lowered my hoof into the water. It was really cold.
“Yes it really is,” she said as she turned towards her.
I acted swiftly, drew up the hoof and with it a cascade of water, all of it hitting Honey. She looked at me, here eyes wide in shock. It only took a second before she regained her composure. Her hoof was quickly down in the water.
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An hour later had we made our way out of the gardens, the water from our little water fight had dried under the grace from Celestia’s eye. Honey jumped around my legs, she was happy.
And if she is happy then I’m happy.
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We sat at the biggest of the seven piers in the port of Trotholm. I was happy that I had spent the day with Honey, who now lay asleep on my back, worn out after today’s fun. I smiled gently as I trotted back through Trotholm, making my way back towards The Black Stable; Honey’s body warmth warming my back.
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I entered The Black Stable. Some patrons had found their way here this evening, a few of them greeting me as I walked in. I nodded towards them, still smiling.
Carrotrose, a grey earth pony with pale amber eyes, greeted me from behind the bar counter.
I smiled at Carrotrose.
She smiled at me as she trotted around the counter, gently placing Honey on her own back.
I turned around, trotting out of the common room.
I emerged from The Black Stable, the chilling wind of the late Celestia hour rushing through my coat and mane. I smiled, wondering how tonight’s events would play out. I knew that no matter what happened to me, Honey would be in good hooves.
I slowly started to walk towards the guard tower, my mind was sharper than it had been in a long time, my body more relaxed than it had been for weeks. It was as if I had slept the entire day instead of spending it with my daughter.
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I smiled lightly as I got closer to the guard towers. The guards had been changed, this time was it four pegasi that stood guard. They seemed to have gotten the knowledge that I would arrive since they moved out of the way directly as I walked towards them.
Lightheart smiled at me as I entered the guard tower.
I nodded towards him, he had after all let me pass for the last years every night, no matter what the blockade was or on who’s order the blockade had come from. I owed him as much for letting me pass every day.
Celestia’s grace shone down on me as I made my way toward the top of the tower. Today had been one of the best days in a long time.
I looked up at the sky from my position on the top floor of the flat tower. Celestia’s grace embraced her younger sister’s grace as they swirled around each other in a dance of balance, of harmony. Luna’s eye rose from her dormancy, rose to take the space that the elder sister’s eye gave her. I started my nightly meditation, whispering into the air around me.
“Luna and Celestia, eternal goddesses of the Equestria realm. Watch over me this Luna hour as I go onto my crusade in your name, a crusade to clean the filth that soaks this city. Under Luna’s grace will I accomplish the deed, under her watching eye will the servant of Discord fall. Luna, greet the restless soul of the servant that will fall tonight with love in heart, his mind was poisoned, not his soul. He will become one of your loved servants once his soul is free from the poisoned body and mind that is the shell he walks around in now. Celestia, forgive me as I take the life of one of your children, forgive me as I stop the beating of his heart. Understand that what I do is for the good of the celestial goddesses. Watch over your children with love in your heart, knowing that when the time comes will they all serve your sister. For a Equestria free from corruption.”
I finished the meditation prayer and looked up at the eternal sky above me.
The sky glowed bright red as Celestia’s eye felt through the horizon, her last shimmering waves of grace spreading in the sky closest to the horizon.
And Luna’s eye washed over me with its pale, white grace. Luna’s mane started to twinkle up there, surrounding her eye, danced in the eternity above.
And all I could do was to watch, watch as her mane danced with her eye, watched as the world got coated in Luna’s purifying grace.
And with Luna’s grace came the transformation.
I could feel it in my entire being, my mind got sharper, my body tougher. My muscles played under my coat, ready for anything. My hooves felt as if they could run ten miles and then tenfold more before stopping. I felt my body burn with a fire of pure ice, could feel it in every part of my being, every hair of my coat and mane.
And just like that was the feeling gone. I still knelt on the stone floor of the tower, fighting to control my breathing.
Fighting to withstand the urge to kill.
My entire body trembled under the internal battle, a battle only watched over by Luna’s eye and Lightheart.
I never know for how long I fight that urge, only that in the end, do I succeed in pressing down the urge, hiding it at the back of my mind where it rages.
It rages at me.
But most importantly.
I slowly got up on my hooves again, standing and letting the Luna hour wind ruffle my mane and coat. The chilling wind brought with it the scents from the gardens of Trotholm. I turned around, looked at Lighheart who had stood still during my meditation and now looked at me, sadness and pain in his eyes.
“Come with me my friend, I need to talk to you about some things of a.... serious and horrible nature.” He said as he turned around, started to walk downwards.
This alarmed me, the little raging thing that I thought I had fought back tried to take over again; clawing against my mind, trying to make me kill everything around me.
I violently pushed the thing away, pushed it into the darkest corner of my mind. I would not kill the innocent, the only killing I did was against the ones corrupted by Discord.
I nodded towards Lightheart, following him down the tower and into his office.
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We sat in Lighthearts office, Luna’s eye watching us through one of the windows. Lightheart was uneasy. He had offered me tea; which I politely, with a shake on my head, refused. Now he sat there and drank from his own cup, looking at me over the tea cup. I don’t think he knew that I saw it. More than once did he start to talk, only to hesitate and stop. I gave him the time he needed, tonight’s mission might not be easy, but I owed the captain this much.
He finally started to talk.
He took a trembling breath.
He chuckled, a sad chuckle.
He lowered his cup of tea, looking directly at me now.
I couldn’t be quiet anymore. I had to know.
Lightheart looked at me, taken aback. This was after all the first time I talked to him for the years I had known him. He quickly found his composure, talked again.
It was as a hammer had struck my head. They knew? The thing started to claw against my mind again, digging deeper and deeper. I had to fought to push it down again, but it had planted a seed in my mind. A seed of rage.
Lightheart, however, was calm.
His sad eyes looked at me.
It was my time to be taken aback. How much did he know about me?
He smiled at me, a sad smile.
He stepped up from his place, trotting over to his desk.
My mind raced. What was I to do? I could not risk the life of Honey, nor the life of the rest at The Black Stable. If the guard was to go in and arrest me in the darker part of Trotholm then they would come in with great numbers. Suddenly, it was all clear to me.
I would have to be the one to strike first.
I had made my decision.
I would be the one who struck first.
But first did I have to make sure that the one I loved was safe.
I had to hide Honey, hide her from the ones that wanted to hurt her.
Wanted to hurt her to harm me.
Lightheart coughed to gain my attention. He stood in front of me, with a letter in his mouth.He dropped it on the table in front of me.
“What is this?” I asked as I gently opened the letter.
“That is your key out of here my friend. I created it as fast as I heard about the death sentence on me. If you are lucky and leave as soon as possible then you might be able to leave without anyone asking any questions or stopping you.”
I read the letter. Or, command as it turned out to be.
‘The gates shall be opened for the wearer of this letter, he is on a mission from the captains of the guards. No questions shall be asked and in fact, this letter and the one wearing it shall be forgotten, they have never passed, have never existed. Captain Lightheart.’
The command was signet with Lighthearts signet ring, four stars on a plain background.
I looked up at the captain.
He smirked at me, a glimpse of joy in his sad eyes.
He looked away. He seemed, embarrassed, to ask.
I looked at him.
Then I started to talk, describing the events that had brought me to this point, described the event that had would lead Lightheart to the noose. I owed him that much.
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Two weeks earlier.
Luna’s grace embraced the elder sister’s last shining waves of grace, Luna’s eye shone its pale grace at me where I lay on the top of the tower, meditating as so many times before.
I closed my eyelids for the prayer.
And the world around me changed
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I sat at a throne, looking down at the two beings that stood in front of me. The sun shone in through one of the big windows from its peak on the sky. My entire being burned with hatred and anger, feelings directed at the twin beings in front of me.
The two goddesses, thinking they could fight me at MY domain! Thinking they could defeat ME. I snarled and lifted the glass to my lips with my eagle talon. The sweet liquid found it way down my throat, cooled down my head.
The youngest of the two, a mare as black as the night it was said that she controlled, was shouting at me.
I laughed, a cold hard laugh directed at the younger sister. My eyes, however, had searched their way to the elder sister. I would lie if I said that I did not appreciate the eye candy.
I was furious. The twin sisters, stepping down on Equestria because MY nature, something I could not control, blended with what they called their order! I threw my glass into the wall. It splinted, thousands and thousands of shards falling towards the floor. Half of them was transformed into liquid by the chaos that always was close to me. MY curse!
The elder sister was the one to speak this time.
I smiled, it was really a cute sight. It would be woefully to destroy her beautiful white coat with the red color of blood. But it could not be helped. I would NOT let them take all of this away from me, this was my RIGHT!
“That said, who are the ones to pray for you now? How many is it that pray to give you the power to overthrow me? How many needed to pray to create THOSE!” I screamed the last, the claw on my lion paw pointing at the chest of the white mare. Three gems sat in a necklace that hung around the mare’s neck. I did not have to look to know that a matching set hung around the neck on the black mare.
“WHO helped you re-locate the Elements of Harmony? They was supposed to be lost forever!”
The black mare talked to me again.
I drew my eyes from the elder mare, locking them onto the younger sister. She had really awoken my curiosity now. I snapped the fingers on my eagle talon and vanished in a bright flash.
I could not help but laugh to the horror on the younger mare when she reared back after finding herself eye to eye with me.
“We did not find the Elements, Discord.” The white mare spoke up, a grim smile on her face. “The Elements found us, searched up us to stop you! The Elements strive towards natural order. They strive AGAINST you.”
I struck the younger sister in the stomach as I turned around, my veins burning with fury. I could hear the sound of the black coated alicorn smashing into the wall on the other side of the room. The sound of bones breaking made its way to my ears.
I looked down at the white coated mare in front of me. She really was candy for the eye. I laughed coldly as she took a step back.
I snapped my fingers again, disappearing in a bright light. The moon took the sun’s place at the peak of the sky. I reappeared next to the younger sister who tried to get up on her hooves. I lifted her up with my tail and held her in front of my eyes. I smiled at her as I lent forward, whispered in her ear.
I smiled, knowing by the look in her eyes that it was something that she would not throw away in a long time, it would grew inside her. I had planted a seed inside of her. In time it would grew up to be a big flower.
“I WILL NOT LET YOU GET AWAY WITH THIS DISCORD!” the elder mare shouted behind me.
In my surprise did I drop the alicorn that I had held in my tail. I swiftly turned around and saw the beautiful white alicorn look at me, hatred in her eyes and her horn glowing with magic. A thick beam emerged from her necklace and embraced me. It burned but I knew it was not the full power, her sister would have to join her too. I laughed, a grim laugh.
“WHAT have you done to her Discord?” anger filled the white mare’s voice.
“I told her the truth Celestia, that is WHAT I have done.” I laughed and brought up my paw to snap my fingers, when a sound from behind me made me stop.
I looked straight into a pair of turquoise eyes, pupils as narrows as dragon pupils.
Luna laughed.
Her horn glowed and a beam rushed out from the necklace, hitting me in my open paw.
I felt how my body turned to stone.
I did not have long before I would be completely turned into the stone that had already begun spreading.
And with my last powers did I start my revenge, a revenge that would take years before it would be fulfilled. I sent chaos straight into the Elements wielded by the black mare.
I laughed and looked at the white mare.
“I will see you again, Celestia!”
With that everything turned black.
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I had told nearly everything to Lightheart, I had kept the information about the corruption for myself. I ended it with what he knew.
Authors note:
My impersonating of Discord, Luna and Celestia is no where perfect. I have tried to use them in a way that works with the story. And I have some really bad reasons behind it all!
Luna and Celestia is of course furious, the memory of how Discord slaughtered the alicorns still fresh in their mind. Then the fact that he made ponies forgot about them and in that way making them powerless. But most of all he, or his very nature at least, took control over the sun and the moon.
And yes I say in this chapter that Discord is a god. That is because I believe that you need the chaos that Discord create to get the harmony.
And the things that Discord said to Luna? Yepp, thats the thing that I wrote in Chimes.
The truth might hurt.
But even worse are the statements that seemed to be the truth.
The statements that are the lies that poison our minds.
The lies that hurt the ones we love.
The lies from the ones we thought were our friends.
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Lightheart looked at me, disbelief in his eyes.
“Celestial goddesses.” I said, filling in the sentence.
“Right, the celestial goddesses, defeated Discord with the help of the ‘Elements of Harmony’. In his own castle.”
“Look around you Lightheart, the truth is in front of your eyes! The celestial eyes, the sun and moon, are moving as they should, moving in peace, in harmony! The balance of nature has been restored to Equestria, the goddesses have stepped down to secure the peace, harmony and balance forever!”
“And they turned Discord to... stone?” Lightheart asked. It was clear that he did not believe me.
“I’m not entirely sure, the only thing I remember is that I became stiff, I could not move a single limb. I felt all the anger and hate rush through me, and then. Nothingness. I was completely empty.”
I looked out into the Luna hour, her eye had barely rose over the horizon. It felt as if I had been sitting here for hours. It had probably not passed more than one. I looked back at Lightheart.
Suprise flashed over Lightheart’s muzzle, but it was gone in a second. I was not even sure that I had seen it in the first place.
He turned around, facing the desk in the office.
I turned toward the door, taking the letter that lay on the table, while I thought about what I had to do.
I directly noticed that something was not right. As soon as I had exited the tower did the door to the tower slam shut. The sight of three groups from the guard greeted me outside.
Four unicorns stood in front of me, each one of their horn glowing. Their black armor did not reflect the light at all, instead it seemed as if they were swallowed by the night. Two of the unicorns, one of them I recognized as Corelight, held crossbows with their magic; aiming at me. These bolts was not enchanted.
Four pegasis floated in the air, their steel armor reflecting Luna’s grace from above and sides and the light from the unicorn from below. Each of the pegasi held a crossbow in their hooves. The bolt shimmered weakly, they were enchanted with armor piercing. All of the bolts was aimed straight at me.
And lastly stood two earth ponies in front of me, each pair holding a net. The earth ponies wore light armor.
Each of the guards smiled victorious at me as I looked at them.
I felt my muscles harden, the adrenaline pump through my body, the rage building up inside me; tearing down every mental wall I had put between myself and it.
I heard Lightheart’s voice from above me.
I looked at the unicorn in question, the rage inside me welling over its limits. My entire body burnt, my very being burnt. He had betrayed me. I trusted him! I felt how my blades unsheathed themselves, each one being prepared to draw blood.
The four pegasis took better aim, each of the bolts aimed at my heart. I prepared myself to throw myself forward at the sound of snapping wires.
A heart beat passed, a second, ten seconds, half a minute. The air was dense with silence.
Corelight smiled.
Both groups of earth ponies threw the net they have held. I reacted swiftly, blurring around and cutting through the thick ropes that was the nets with my blades; each rope snapped as if they were made of strings.
Corelight was angry, that was clear.
I snorted.
Corelight was taken aback. But he had soon found his composure back and smiled at me.
The light that illuminated two of the unicorns horn spread outwards from them, slowly wow their way towards me. I stood completely still. I knew exactly what the light was, and the only way to run from it would be to run towards one of the guards.
An act they would take as violence and shoot me down.
I could not do anything as my hooves were rooted in place by the red and yellow light. The good thing was that they would not be able to move me from this position unless they got another net, this magic did not allow them to move me. Just stop my movement.
I heard the door open behind me. The sound of steel against stone announced that Lightheart had exited the tower.
My rage built up in intense, the burning spread until I could not see anything else than the orange flames of the rage inside me.
“Good work Corelight, the traitor and murderer is arrested.”
He walked and stood in front of me. He looked furious.
I only stood there, looking at him with hate and rage in my eyes. My thoughts went to Honey. What would happen to her?
“I was, but I got the option that I could have you arrested instead. All I needed was to make you confess in front of me, get all information I could from you. And that was easy.” he said, looking at me with a sad smile. “I thought you were smarter than that.”
I snarled at him.
I was hit by his hoof, blood started to drip out of my mouth.
A net was thrown over me, and I felt something hit me on the head.
In the darkness of the cell.
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Darkness.
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The walls, dark and moldy.
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Honey?
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“They will kill everypony you love or you have loved.”
“Only yourself.”
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Falling.
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“Whats the matter? Scared for the gallows? Scared for death?”
“I am you.”
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“Luna and Celestia, watch over me in my time of need. Watch over me, protect me, against whats hiding in the shadows. Protect me from the things in my mind.”
“They are not listening you know. You are alone.”
“Who are you?”
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Light.
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Darkness.
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“This is all your fault you know.”
“The corruption does not lay here.”
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“Who am I?”
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“What is happening around me?”
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My veins, burning.
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Honey.
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“Am I asleep?”
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“Are you there?”
“Or have you abandoned me as well?”
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I stared up at the ceiling. How long had I been laying here, fighting against my mind? The smell of mold and soil entered my nostril, blended with the smell of my own sweat. I had trashed around in the narrow bed, my coat and mane now stood in every direction.
I did not care.
Luna’s grace did not reach down here. Neither did Celestia’s. I was trapped. Alone. None of the goddesses watched over me.
I was alone with my own mind.
A mind that fixated on one thing.
Honey.
What had happened to her? Was she okay?
I raised my front hooves, the rusty chain that held them together following up. I stared at those chains, the chains that efficient shackled me in place. They were connected with the iron collar around my neck. The iron was cold against my bare neck. No matter how much heat my body pushed in it would it become warmer.
I slammed my hooves in the wall. Hard. I felt the pain rush through my body.
I did not care.
My daughter. My beautiful Honey. I could not stop thinking about everything that could have happened.
My mind projected a picture of her laying dead in a valley.
Over and over did I slam my hooves into the walls. I felt how the warm, red, life-giving liquid emerged from the wound I had inflicted on myself. I felt it drip down on my chest, coagulate in my coat.
I did not care, the rage inside me overthrew the pain. I felt no pain, only rage.
If it was what was needed to keep my daughter safe, then I would continue with it until I dropped dead down.
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I had lost consciousness. Or had I never awoken?
I looked at my hooves. No wounds was seen.
What is happening with me?
Am I going insane?
I looked at my chest, and saw one of the most beautiful things I had seen in the ceiling.
Red life giving liquid had coagulated in my coat.
So it had happened.
But why did I not have any wounds?
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I dont know how long time had passed when a guard opened the door. In the brigh,t light that emerged from the other side of the door and nearly blinded me after so long time in this darkness, did I see the silhouette of an unicorn.
The unicorn’s horn glowed with a purple light as he walked towards me, a tray floating beside me.
“So, you are finally awake and have stopped to hurt yourself. Good.”
I recognized that voice.
I tried to speak, my throat sore from the lack of water.
“Take it easy, it was hard enough for our medical team to mend the wounds on your hooves. I do not think they will be happy to fix your throat as well.” I could hear on the sound that the unicorn smiled. “Now open up so I can feed you, you have not eaten in three days.”
Three days? My mind raced. How much had happened in those three days? Was Honey safe? Was Carrotrose, who had protected me for years, okay?
“Or are they both dead?” the voice from my dreams whispered to me.
My stomach really felt empty, I opened my muzzle to take whatever food that was offered to me.
I felt how the unicorn first poured water; fresh, cold, clear water down my throat.
I do not know what it was the unicorn feed me, whatever it was was it not good tasting. It had the same consistency as mud, and the taste was not far from the same.
But it filled my stomach.
I felt the energy from the food getting into my system.
And with the energy came the body functions up to max again.
I could feel how it itched where the wound on my hooves should have been. The coolness from the iron felt even colder against my neck. I could feel how my back itched, probably from lices in the mattress.
I looked up at the unicorn, Corelight.
He smiled back, a grim smile.
I felt how the air rushed out of me and pain explode in my chest as Corelight brought his hoof down in my stomach.
I coughed and tried to regain my breath, tears in my eyes from the pain.
“I will see you hanged soon, pegasus.” Corelight said, his face dangerously close to me. “And I will enjoy every second of it.” he snarled at me as he turned to leave.
“What have I done you, Corelight? What have I done that make you want me dead?” I asked him as he leaved.
He stopped in mid step, looking back at me, his eyes with full with fury.
I looked at him as he walked out from the cell, closing the door after himself, trapping me inside the cell with the darkness again.
The victim that Luna hour not even a week ago had had a son.
A son that now hated me.
And rightfully so.
“Who am I?”
You might abandon what you are.
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Four times had the sisters changed place on their celestial bodies since I got here.
Three times had, as I guessed at least, Celestia’s celestial eye soared the sky.
Four times had, as I guessed at least, Luna’s eye soared the sky.
Or was it I that talked to myself?
I do not know how many times I thought about Honey does days. I still did not know if she was alive or dead.
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The door opened. I blinked as the sudden bright light woke me from the dream; from the nightmare. Corelight entered the cell. He frowned at the stench inside but did not say a word. No tray floated in front of him today, only a key.
Was it time already? Was it time for me to head towards the gallows? Was it time for me to meet my judgment?
Was it time for me to reunite with the celestial twins?
I braced myself for the pain that would soon come, the pain from when Corelight would punch me hard with his hoof. I already had two bleeding wounds from his hooves, I already had bruises from them, at least one of my ribs had been broken.
Half a minute passed, a minute, two. I opened my eyes again. Corelight looked at me, a key floating in his magic.
The key floated into the chains that kept me in the bed. With a loud click did they unlock and with a louder thump did they fall to the floor beneath the bed. I carefully moved my legs, tried to get the blood pumped to them that would be needed to go.
I was so focused on my legs that I did not see the hoof that made its way towards my muzzle.
I felt blood in my mouth, my head rang. I tried to look up, only to get another hoof in my face. I rolled down on the floor, my head aching of the beating. Through the blur in the corner of my eye could I see how Lightcore looked down at me, laughing.
I could not hear the sound of his laughter. The only thing I could hear was that annoying ringing.
He hurled me up with his magic, forced me to stand. As he released the grip did I fall down again, my legs could not support my weight.
Corelight planted his hoof in my face again. I could feel the blood stream from new wound it had caused. The blood tasted metallic on my tongue. But at least the ringing was gone. Only to be replaced with the angry voice of Corelight.
I slowly rose to my feet. Corelight went out from the cell and I followed him, the chains around my hooves made it hard to walk.
But for every step I regained a small amount of energy. It was as if the rage that had been inside me had been released by the beating I had only just received from Corelight.
But I did not feel any rage in my body.
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I had been lead to an office. Corelight had announced that I was here and shoveled me inside with a grim smile before he walked away again, closing the door behind himself.
I stood eye to eye with Lightheart.
“Sit down.” he ordered.
I stubbornly refused, stayed up and looked at him.
He sighed. He looked sad. And confused.
“Why would I trust you? YOU betrayed me! I believed every word you said!” I said, my voice low and cold. I surprised myself with being so calm. Something was not right with me.
“BUT I have ordered you here to help you.” Lightheart continued as if I had not spoken.
“Help me? How could you help me? I’m on my way to the gallows as you might know. The gallows you told me that YOU would hang from!” my voice was still low but anger had crept its way inside it.
“AND I MIGHT VERY WELL DO WHEN THIS IS OVER!” Lightheart nearly shouted.
If he had aimed for my attention had he succeeded.
“Now listen to me, what I say is of utter importance.” he said, fixating me with his eyes. “I will help you escape from here.”
I looked at him. Had he gone insane? Why would he help me out after he had been putting me in this situation from the start?
“What you said the night you was arrested. I did not believe you back then. I do now. You opened my eyes my friend. Discord is gone.” he sighed again. “I should have seen it earlier, the way everypony is. They are afraid. Afraid that they have to control everything. Afraid that the ones above them in power may see them as a threat and ‘remove’ them. Afraid that the ones below them in power gets to hungry and do the same.”
His eyes filled with tears.
I looked at him.
“My friend, I will put myself at risk here! By letting you go will I not only put myself at risk but also the ones I love. My wife and my son. Both will be in the fire zone if somethings goes wrong.” he said as he looked at me. “I risk everything I own, everything I hold dearly. Just like you did, just like you do.”
Family.... Honey... A sudden thought hit me.
Lightheart looked away.
“ANSWER ME!”
He looked back at me again.
They might be alive.
Lightheart smiled at me as he walked towards his desk, receiving a key and my two blades. He unlocked the chains and the collar.
He smiled at me as he handed over my blades. I equipped them as I looked at him.
His smile grew even wider.
But a friend that has betrayed you once.
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I stared at Lightheart in disbelief.
Lightheart smiled at me and nodded.
I understood him. I would never do anything to put Honey in harms way.
That voice, here? But it was just my imagination when I was in the cell! When I was in that dark place!
Lightheart looked at me.
I forced the voice out of my mind as I looked at Lightheart.
But where would I find Honey when all this was over? Was she even alive? Did she want to see me again?
“Just a slight headache, that is all.” I took a step forward and winced when the pain from all my bruises and wounds went straight into my body. “And small pain from the wounds Corelight gave me during my time here.”
“Corelight?” Lightheart looked suprised. “What have he done? And why?”
“He gave me a beating every time he came with food. I do not blame him, not after what I had done.”
“What did you do to him, my friend? Corelight never hurt anypony without a reason.”
I looked back at the events around my arrest. Why had he not used force against me there? I had been the most wanted criminal back then, he would easily had gotten away with shooting me in the head, killing me at place.
So why had he not? I had killed his father! I sighed.
“I killed his father. The night I arrived for my last meditation had I only just returned from killing one of all corrupted leaders in this city.”
Lightheart looked at me.
I looked at Lightheart. Had Corelight done that? Corelight, who’s father I had killed, had begged to heal my wounds? Why?
I pushed the voice away.
Lightheart looked away.
I smiled at him.
“You are to be hanged in newly built gallows outside the castle. You will be under heavy guard by four of the strongest earth ponies we have on the way. Both to prevent you from running and to prevent the crowd to get to you.” He stopped to take a breath. “At the gallows will they stay behind and I will walk with you myself up to the gallows where the headmaster himself is to put the noose around your neck. Its during those ten steps that you will have to make your escape. How you do is up to you, but I recommend that you take the time to strike me down as you run for it, if not for me so for my family.” He looked at me, his eyes nearly enough begging me.
“I will make sure to strike you down Lightheart. I have to make sure that you do not get to harm for helping me.”
“Its settled then, are you ready my friend? We will only get one chance.”
“Is it to much to ask for a last prayer?”
“Go ahead.”
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“Celestia and Luna, help me during today’s trials.
Protect me as I clean this city from corruption.”
“They can not hear you, you know that right?”
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I felt how new energy rushed trough my veins.
The harmony inside my body shattered.
I felt every wound on my body close.
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“I am ready Lightheart.” I said, my voice caring the confident I felt in my entire being. “Let us do this, let us see if I will live to se the sun rise tomorrow.” I smiled at him.
“How is it to pray? You always seems to get new energy from it, and your wounds are gone as well. What is happening to you when you pray?” he asked as he walked towards me.
He started to check so that the chains was on their right place as I answered him.
Lightheart chuckled.
He opened the door and stepped outside.
An unicorn in a light colour tackled Lightheart as soon as he stepped outside, making the surprised general to fall over.
“RUN!” Corelight scream to me.
Friends.
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I looked in confusion at the scene in front of me. Corelight had jumped onto the fallen Lightheart, pinning him down. The rest of the narrow, short hallway was empty. Luckily.
“Get of me, Corelight.” Lightheart hissed at the light unicorn above him. “What are you doing.”
Corelight ignored his captain, looking straight at me.
I could only look at them. I had to force down a laugh.
“Corelight, what do you think will happen here when I have run for it? You will not be able to pin Lightheart down for ever you know.” I said with a snort. “And I do not think you would kill him either, you did not kill me during the arresting of me, and I was the one who killed your father!”
“My FATHER was corrupted! You made this city a big favour by killing him!” Corelight nearly shouted at me. “And he is not the only one who are corrupted here! This city is full of filth!”
Lightheart looked from me to Corelight.
At this point was Corelight completely lost.
“Get off him Corelight. He is helping me escape.” I said, smiling at Corelight.
“But he turned you in! He ordered your arrest! He did not lie to us and said that you was not a traitor!” Corelight looked wildly between me and Lightheart. “What is going on?”
“Corelight, the general captain already knew about me. He knew everything and tried to trap Lightheart. Lightheart however did not know anything. For him was I a friend who came there every day to meditate, to pray. But he asked me the night of my arrest, asked me about what happened a night for two weeks ago. And I told him.” I paused, looking at Corelight. He meet my eyes. ”I guess he panicked, he knew what was going to happen to him if he did not order me arrested. He could not do that, he have a family. And I do not think he believed me back then. I do not blame him, I would take the same decision as he did.”
I thought of my daughter, thought about Honey. If anything had happened to her however.
I forced away the voice again. Honey is alive, she had to be!
Corelight released Lightheart and slowly stood up, looking between me and Lightheart.
I chuckled.
“Do it...” the voice in my head called.
I turned to look at Corelight.
I took a deep breath, calmed down after my outburst. Corelight seemed to have been getting smaller and smaller, he had tried to duck away from the words.
I stood there for a good minute before I looked away from him, looking at Lightheart.
“I was beating you because it felt as if you had betrayed me.” Corelight stood up at looked at me. “You killed my father, one of many corrupted higher ups in this city, and then you just gave up. You allowed us to arrest you! Of course I hated you! I healed your hooves to give you a chance when this day would come!” he said.
I did not look at him.
“He just jumped me, I believe we can trust him.” Lightheart said, getting up hon his own hooves again, turning towards Corelight. “Why have you not spoken up about this corruption earlier? This city need to get rid of it! How many more do you know that are corrupted? Anything you say can help my friend clear this city!”
Corelight looked straight at me. It felt as if he wanted to ask me something.
“He will stab you in the back as soon as he get the chance. The pain goes deep to loose a parent, nor matter how much you loathed them.” the voice whispered to me. I tried to ignore it.
“Ask it” I said to Corelight. “I do not know what you want to ask, but just do it.”
Corelight looked suprised.
“He will stab you at first opportunity.” I forced the voice away.
Should I put him in danger? He was not old, but he had tried to save me. And if he knew even half about what he had said... Well, that would surely come in handy somewhere.
“You are in. But we have to leave now. Meet me at the castle gardens as the Luna eye reaches its peak.” I said to him, starting to get a little stressed.
“The what?” Corelight asked confused.
“Oh, sorry. Meet me at the castle gardens as the moon reaches its peak. If I’m not there before it has set then I have been killed or captured again.”
Lightheart looked at me in confusion this time.
I smiled.
To walk towards certain death.
But do you trust him?
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Lightheart laughed, a rich laughter.
I smiled at him.
“I do not care about that!” Lightheart snapped. “I will not risk my own and my family’s life, and Corelight’s as well, just for you to go back in there and be caught!”
I looked at him.
Lightheart opened his mouth, but was interrupted by Corelight.
With those words did he turn away.
The voice was gone. This was really starting to making me worried. I turned to Lightheart.
I smiled at his back as he started to walk.
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As soon as we had arrived up the stairs from the cells was the four guards there, surrounding us. Each of them had a brown coat and heavy iron armor. Lightheart exchanged words with one of them, to low for me to hear properly. I just stood there, waiting for us to move. I tried to look beaten, defeated.
“He have already betrayed us. He is talking with the guards about Corelight. They will kill him as well.”
I sighed.
“Get out of my head, you are not real, you are only my imagination.”
“Am I? Or are you?”
“What do you mean?”
The voice did not answer.
We started to move, the four guards standing close around me and Lightheart walking just in front of me. I smiled lightly where I walked with my head down. They had not even checked the chains to make sure they where fastened properly.
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It seemed as if the entire population of Trotholm was here to watch the wanted criminal walk to the gallows. I could see fillies and colts hide behind their parents. Some of the older colts had a contest in who was the bravest by running as close as the guards, and thus me, as possible. Parents whispered to each other and some of the ponies even threw vegetables or spat in my direction. I played defeated.
“When we have escaped will we kill them all! They will pay for this!”
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We had stopped on a slope just before the castle. I could see in front of me how the market spread out. Gallows had been built there and stood there alone. The market was crowded, ponies stood everywhere.
“All here for the show.”
The voice laughed.
The voice did not answer.
I looked at the sky, Celestia’s celestial eye was soon to set.
“Celestia, protect me with the final grace of your hour.
The four guards and Lightheart looked at me.
“If I say no will I be released then?” I asked, false hope in my voice.
“No.”
“Then I guess am as ready as I can be.”
In union did we leave the slope. The ponies on the market looked around, watched with big eyes as I, the wanted criminal, the murderer, walked the last way to the gallows. Some pointed towards me, a lot of foals stood on their parents neck and had now hidden behind their manes.
I was glad that I had not seen Honey here.
“She is already dead.”
The voice laughed.
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We had entered the market square, the four ponies stayed behind, letting me and Lightheart walk by ourselves. The crowd just stared at me, some whispered to another, but the entire square was silent. I looked at some of the ponies there, working ponies that did not understand what was before their eyes. They only saw the picture the government had painted of me. And the one I had helped to paint with the blood of corruption. All of them wore hard faces, some even spat at me here.
“I still think we should give them a good show, give them something to laugh at.”
But it is a well known fact.
Fear yourself.
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“We are NOT here to give them a show! I mean... I am NOT here to give them a show. GET OUT OF MY HEAD!”
I looked around and realized that the voice inside of me was correct. Ponies stood every where on the cobblestones of the marketplace. Citizens of Trotholm... I could not hurt any of them in my escape. That would make me the criminal they feared.
No, I had to escape without hurting anypony at all.
“We could use our wings? We are a pegasus after all...”
I looked at Lightheart. He looked straight forward, straight at the gallows.
Ponies around me spat at me, I heard shouts from the crowd.
“It seems like we will give them some kind of show anyway.” the voice said with a giggle. “I still think we balancing a ball would be a great show towards this... gallows.”
I did not even care to silence the voice anymore. The town loathed me.
I looked at the gallows, saw the rope noose that I was supposed to hang from sway in the light wind that rushed past me. I could only see one way out of here where I would not risk hurting anypony. Or actually two.
The castle, and the gallows.
But I would not let myself get hanged! For the good sake of Trotholm would I not allow it!
The voice was gone with a laugh, leaving me staring into the distance.
The reality came back like the blow from a hammer. We were nearly at the gallows. And the only escape route was towards the castle!
But the way there was clear, no guards patrolled there. It were actually nearly no guards at the market.
Something was wrong, but what?
I looked at Lightheart. He would sacrifice everything if something went wrong here.
And there I saw it.
In the crowd behind Lightheart was something sticking out. Small isles of iron. The helmets of guards.
Ten of them... twenty of them... a hundred of them!
How could I have missed it at first? It was so clear now. They had placed guards to catch me if I tried to run for it towards the crowds, the only sane escape route.
I smiled for myself. But they would not be able to interfere. I had already decided not to run towards the crowd. I was going to run towards the castle, and it were no guards there that I could see.
The headmaster was the one that should hang me. Where was he? Of course would that foal not want to get close to me before the noose was already around my neck and a bag was over my head. He would probably give a short speech and then draw in the lever that would make a trapdoor open beneath me, causing me to plung to my death.
I found myself smiling lightly once again and forced the smile away. I was still too look defeated or they might figure out that something was not right. We where not even ten steps from the gallows, and the castle was less than fifty steps in the other direction.
The crowd had gone silent, every eye on me. I could feel their eyes looking at me, eyes filled of hatred and anger, but also full of relief.
The wanted criminal would be hang and Trotholm was to be free from the filth that was him.
Or so they thought.
I quickly unsheathed my blades and violently shook the chains and collars of. They landed with a loud rattling on the cobblestone.
I spun around and buried one of the blades deep in Lightheart. It was not a blow that was fatal, heck it did not even tore a muscle! It was a pretended blow. Lightheart cried out in pain.
I saw the red, life giving liquid follow my blade as I drew it out from Lighthearts body. The droplets landed on the cobblestone, soaked them with the blood of the innocent. I spun around, towards the gallows and the castle, my legs working as fast as they could.
The energy soared through my body, my veins pumped burning lava into my legs, making them work faster than ever before.
The guards had started to push themselves out of the crowds, most of them running towards me. I saw some of them running towards the point where Lightheart lay bleeding. He would at least be okay.
My hooves hammered against the cobblestone as I ran under the gallows, making my way towards the castle. Celestia’s last grace lighted my path.
“How many ponies have we wounded or killed by this? How many was wounded or killed by the guards when they pushed their way through the crowd? Pushed out to get to us.” the voice said with a grim laugh.
To leave a friend behind.
That is to leave behind a friend you can trust.
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“Catch him! Do not let him escape!” Lightheart commanded behind me.
I smiled, I had not wounded him badly atleast.
I ignored the voice. Nopony got killed! And it was the guards who had killed anypony if there had been any causalities.
My hooves drummed against the cobblestone, bringing me closer to the castle with every step. Celestia’s eye had embraced the horizon, set for sleep.
The rage came suddenly.
What is happening to me?
I had arrived at the castle. The guards had started to catch up.
I turned, started to run along the wall of the castle. A bolt shattered against the stone behind me, sending sharp splinters into my hind leg.
I ignored the pain as I ran. So close to the city, so close to a place where I could make them loose me.
“Then what?”
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The guards were close behind as I entered the city beyond the walls. It had worked.
It had actually worked!
I laughed, the thrill of the hunt making the adrenaline and the rage in my veins pump faster.
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It had not taken me long to shake of the last guards, they had not been prepared to hunt me in the city. I slowed down to a steady trot, tried to calm my body down. I looked around to see where I was, I had not paid any mind to where I had turned to loose my followers.
I found myself in front of The Black Stable.
Or, at least, the smoking ruins of The Black Stable. It felt as if a bucket of cold water had been emptied over me. The Black Stable... Burned to the ground.
What had happened to Honey? My daughter! My filly!
The voice disappeared again. Had I actually talked it down?
But it had made me start to think. Where had Carrotrose gone when they had come here to get my daughter? Where had she gone when they burned down The Black Stable?
And would she ever want to see me again?
I looked up at the Luna hour sky. Was my daughter looking up at the same sky, wondering where I was? I snickered for myself. I surely hope she is not, she should be asleep hours ago! The sky greeted me with the twinkling lights of Luna’s mane around her ever watching eye. The sky was cloudless, Luna’s grace embraced me, danced around me.
A cold Luna hour wind brought the scent of the flood to me. I walked over to the water as it made its way alongside the street. It was this water mass that kept the dark side of Trotholm from the rest of the city.
The clear water reflected Luna’s grace, mirroring her eye and mane. It was a beautiful sight.
Then it got to me. I knew exactly where I would be able to find Carrotrose.
What would I do with Corelight? I looked at the sky again. It was still some time before I was to meet him in the castle gardens. I could not put Carrotrose or Honey in danger.
Honey... I know that she is where Carrotrose is!
So I could not tell him where I would stay. It was not as much that I did not trust him as it was that I would not risk the life of the ones around me.
I started to slowly trot towards the castle again. It had been nearly an hour since I had made my escape, the inhabitants of Trotholm was probably going back home right now.
I had to make sure that nopony saw me. It would be a really bad idea to be seen already, the guards would keep an eye on everything that happened in the city. But one question remained.
How was I to leave the city when I had talked to Corelight?
The city entrances would be heavy guarded, they would not let me pass just like that. In worst case would the guards standing at the gates recognize me.
“We should have made our way to the gates directly instead of going back to the nest.”
“I owe him that much.”
Luna’s eye watched me, her grace embraced me, as I slowly trotted towards the castle again, making sure that nopony saw me.
Like a shadow of the city itself.
The shadows of the moon.
Is that a friend to trust?
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I slowly made my way through the castle gardens. Luna’s eye watched over me, her gaze embraced me, hid me.
I was a shadow as I slowly made my way though flower arrangements and small paths of gravel between them. I did not make a lot of sounds, and the small ones I made were drowned in the sound of the rippling water of the gardens.
I walked past the place where I had had the water clash with Honey only days earlier. Happier days.
I could hear her laugh.
I could hear her begging me to stop.
I could hear her laugh again.
“Those days will we never get back. Those days are long since passed.”
Had the voice seemed... sad? After all it had said about Honey being dead. Was he really sounding sad now?
I was only meet with a grim, sad laugh.
I looked up at the sky, meet the glance of Luna’s eye, watched her mane twinkle around it. I could feel how the rage inside me built up as I watched the eye, but I struggled with it; suppressed it. I could not let it take over, not in a time like this.
It really was a beautiful Luna hour, her eye had still some distance left before it had made it to its peak. But I had no time to lose. I had not seen any guards so far, but that did not mean they did not exist. I slowly made my way towards the big, old oak tree in the middle of the castle gardens. I had never agreed with a meeting place with Corelight, but that was the central point, the core, of the gardens. If it where anyway we would meet was it there.
“Can we trust him? Are we certain that he have not planned an ambush there?”
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I lay completely still in the bushes close to the oak tree. Luna’s grace illuminated the old tree, illuminated every leaf, making it stand out in the night. It was really a beautiful view. It had not been hard to get here, the only guards I had seen had been easily avoided; they had not spotted me at all.
It made me wondering, where was every guard pony? Not that it usually was a lot of guards in the castle gardens at night, but more than two should it certainly be. Where all the available guard out in the city searching for me?
“Or are they all here, waiting for us?”
And if he had, then I would have to fight my way out of here.
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I heard the hoof steps on the gravel before I saw the hooded pony walk in under the oak, Luna’s grace illuminating it. I sighed at the bad disguise that Corelight had putted on. The hood did not cover the horn, you could clearly see his tail and parts of his coat. It was lucky, both for him and me, that he was not to follow me away from here. No, his work would be here.
The unicorn looked anxiously from side to side, tried to spot something in the shadows.
I smiled lightly, he would not be able to find me that easily. Luna’s eye had nearly reached its peak.
“Luna and Celestia, watch over me this night. Make my decision easy and let Corelight see the reason behind what I tell him.”
I backed out of the bush,carefully making sure that not a single branch moved on the bush and that not a single sound was heard.
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I looked at Corelight. He had not spotted me yet, and I had not even made a attempt to hide. I felt like facehoofing, if this was the kind of pony the guard was built up with then it was not strange that the murders I had done the last weeks was this easy.
I coughed lightly.
Corelight spun around, his horn already glowing, his eyes wide in surprise. He had a good reaction time at least.
“It’s me, do not be afraid.” I said, smiling gently.
“You scared me!” Corelight said as he released the grasp of his magic, his horn stopped the glowing.
“That was not what I aimed for, I was only making sure that you noticed that I was here.” I said, the smile still on my muzzle.
“Well, you made me notice you at least.” Corelight said with a nervous chuckle.
“Are you ready for this?” I asked him, making my way to the point directly. We did not have time to stand around doing nothing.
“I’m ready to follow you where ever you lead me.” Corelight answered. “I’m sick of this place.”
“Well, that is to bad since you will stay here for a while longer.” I said, my smile disappearing.
“What? I thought I would follow you, help you cleanse the corruption from this hellhole!” Corelight said, disappointment and a hint of anger in his voice.
I sighed, this would probably take a while.
“Wait, you are leaving the city? You are abandoning the city when it needs you the most?” he said, the anger in his voice raising.
He was really easy to get angry, had to remember that.
I sighed again, looked at Corelight who seemed both angry, embarrassed and scared at the same time.
It seemd that I had gotten Corelight’s attention.
“Under the what? And what shall I do for that week? What shall you do?” Corelight asked, confusion over me using the goddess name instead of the name he knew.
“Under the sun, in the middle of the day. I shall meet my daughter and her caretaker. I believe they are to be found in that settlement, and even if not will I wait there for you.” I answered, my thoughts going to Honey and Carrotrose.
“And what shall I do then? What is your task for me?”
“During this week will you make me a list of every corrupted pony that you know of. I know that will not be all of the corrupted ponies, but it will be a start. You are not to try to contact me, no matter what, before I see you in person there in one week. Do you understand?”
“Yes sir, I understand perfectly.” Corelight said, assurance written in his face.
“Good” I said, turning to leave. I looked back at Corelight. “And Corelight, do not get caught. Do not do anything suspicious at all. You are to help me, not to put yourself in danger.”
With those words did I leave Corelight behind me, slowly made my way out of the castle gardens.
“Are we sure about this? How are we to leave the city?”
Friends help when they can.
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Luna illuminated me and the street I trotted down on my way from the castle gardens. A few clouds had started to travel the skies, but nothing that clouded Luna’s grace as it shone down on me from Luna’s eye.
A few guards was out at this late Luna hour, trotting the streets of Trotholm. Each one of them looked nervous, looked as if they wanted to be anywhere else but in the streets at this hour. I did not blame them; they knew a murderer was lose. A murderer they thought of as a shadow. A murderer that was said to kill guards on a whim.
I could not help but to smile at that, I would not harm any of them if they did not threaten me. I turned to walk another way to avoid the guard.And even then would I try to run first.
I felt how the rage filled me, boiled my veins. I struggled against it as I stopped in the middle of the turn.
The rage disappeared.
The voice only laughed.
I looked up, I did not even realize that I had lowered my head during my inner struggle. I saw the cobblestone in front of me being illuminated by Luna’s grace. The houses on both sides of me had no light coming out from the windows, their gardens small islands of green in the grey street.
And standing on the cobblestone, not more than twenty step in front of me was two guards.
I ignored the voice. Had they seen me? Did they know who I was?
The smaller one, an earth pony judging on the lack of wing and horn, was leaning closer to the bigger one, also an earth pony. As they talked did I look for a way out. I was in the middle of a block, I would easily be able to run back and turn another way. But that would make the guards in front of me raise an alarm. What should I do?
The two guards had started to trot closer. Would they do that if they thought I was the murderer? Would they just walk towards me? Or did they try to make me feel secure?
I ignored the voice, looked at the guards who made their way closer to me. I realized that they did not know who I was. They was way to relaxed for that.
They stopped five steps from me, more to give me some space than they fearing me. If they knew who I was would they not stop that close, since I would be able to lounge forward and kill them both in mere seconds.
The smaller one spoke up, revealing the low, humble voice of a mare.
The bigger earth pony rolled his eyes, before he spoke, a deep voice emerging from his thick throat. I started to suspect that not even my blades would be able to intersect that neck.
My mind worked fast. They did not know who I was, still they had heard the orders about not allow people outside. I was very close to a smile.
The bigger guard nodded, the smaller seemed nearly... sad.
“Kill them....”
I ignored the voice.
The mare looked at me, she seemed nearly sad.
I tried to keep my face calm.
The big earth pony was the one to answer.
“Kill them.....”
“Then I shall not keep you here any longer, it is better for you to help the rest of the citizens than me, I can take care of myself.” I smiled at the guards. “It feels good to know that we have such guards as you, who trot the streets to keep us citizens safe even in the face of this kind of danger.”
She smiled at me as they passed me, a pleasant smile. I looked after her. It had been something in those ice cold eyes, in that black coat.
But what?
“Kill her, kill them both.”
I shook the feeling away from me, together with the voice. It was time for me to leave this city. But how?
One moment was I slowly trotting, the next did I lay on the cold cobblestone with Luna’s grace shining down on me.
What had happened? I looked back, and saw the cobblestone that I had stumbled over. I brought a hoof to my head, carefully rubbed the spot where my head had hit the cobblestone. It was then I saw it.
Attached between the metal of one of my blades and my hoof was a piece of paper placed. I gently removed it from where it had been attached and started to read it.
I instantly recognized it.
It was the letter that Captain Lightheart had given me back at the tower.
But as it was now, was this my ticket to freedom.
To find the way needed.
Luna’s half closed eye spread it’s grace over the cobblestones I slowly trotted over. Her ever watching eye had started to close, the grace was not as bright as it had been the last couple of days.
But for me was it perfect, if her grace had been shining with the true power of her eye then I would bath in the light of the goddess. But with the slightly less light that emitted from Luna’s eye could I hide easily, it would be hard for them to find me if I did not want to be found.
And still I hesitated. I could not just trot to the east gate, as soon as the words had gotten out that I left through the east gate would they start to search there. And they would quickly find out that I had made my way to the small settlement there.
And they would soon find the connection between Carrotrose and that settlement.
“Who said that Carrotrose took our little filly with her as she left? Can we be sure that she did not leave her to her own destiny?” the voice asked.
“Carrotrose would never do that, she would never leave a foal.”
The only reply I got was a laugh.
I had to leave through another gate. The southern one was closest, it would have to do. I had to hurry before the words had spread, if it had been as the two guards had said then the ones guarding the gates would most likely be loyal ponies who would take an order from a higher captain without asking.
“That or ordinary guards who hide in the safe shelter of the gate-towers.”
“Or that...” I admitted.
I really hoped that was not the way, I really hoped that there would be loyal guards there. Then I would not need to explain me, I would not need to talk at all. Just show the letter to them.
“And what if they charge at us directly when they see us?”
“Then I will have to make my way out of here with force...”
“We will attack ponies only because they stand in our way? We will kill ponies because they do not let us out?” the voice chuckled. “We will kill them because it pleases us?”
“I will NOT get pleasure from it! I will do what I have to get out of here. I will do what I have to do to cleanse this place!” I shouted back at the voice.
The voice faded away, still chuckling.
I quickly glanced to the sides, I had stopped in the middle of the road. Luckily for me was there nopony out in the night, no one else walked the streets. I started to trot, my hooves clinking against the cobblestone as I made my way towards the north gate, Luna’s grace illuminating my way.
*^*
It did not take long before I arrived at the gates. A single torch illuminated the big wooden gates, a unicorn standing alone in front of the small door that lead to the guard tower. The stallion had a crossbow floating in front of him, a weak yellow aura of magic surrounding it.
I stopped in my tracks. I had taken a habit of walking in the shadows, but I could not risk scaring this guard. It was hard to know how the guard would react, in worst case would he shoot at me. So instead of going the last steps into the light and pop up less than ten hoofsteps from him did I slowly back away before I walked into the middle of the street. Luna’s grace shone down on me, embraced me with her light once again. The guard looked at me as I trotted closer to him, and when I was ten step from him did he raise the Crossbow and talked to me.
“State your business, thief.” he said in a calm and steady voice. “I saw you the first time.”
I smiled at him. Had I really been that bad?
The guard smirked at me.
“Let us kill him.... He is thinking way to highly about himself.” the voice sweetly whispered in my ear.
“Stop there, you do not need to walk up to me with that note.” the unicorn said and gently floated the note from me with his magic. He kept his eyes on me and shouted into the room.
Wait... Lightheart here? Was this my lucky day or was it on the way to get worse?
Lightheart walked out from the guard tower and looked at me.
I stood there confused for a second, before I answered.
Lightheart sighed and turned to the unicorn.
The Unicorn stiffened, the note was quickly floated back to me and he turned towards the gate.
Lightheart trotted to me, and whispered in my ear.
Before I had any chance to respond had he turned around and trotted away.
The gates, however, were open. Slowly did I trot through it, left Trotholm behind me.
*^*
The way to the small settlement where Carrotrose lived was not hard to find, and I did not encounter any problems getting there. And as Celestia's eye rose over the horizon did I stand in front of the gates to the mansion that Carrotrose's father owned. I really hoped that I would find her, and Honey, here.
The pray could wait, finding my daughter was more important right now.
A friends embrace.
The carrot mansion, home for the once great carrot family. Today was the only inhabitants Carrotrose’s old father, Carrotsword, and ,hopefully, had Carrotrose searched herself here from Trotholm. And with her, my daughter.
“Honey is not here, we have lost her.” the voice said sadly.
What is happening with that voice? It was all taunting earlier, is it trying to put me off balance?
No guards were guarding the mansion, the iron gate stood slightly open in Celestia's morning grace. The big garden was dilapidated, the flowers had grown wildly, the grass had not been fixed for a long time. Ivy had started to climb the once beautiful statues. The only part of the garden that was taken care of was a small part around the great oak tree standing in the center of the garden. I looked at the mansion. What was so important that they took care of it while the rest of the garden was left alone?
A well worn path in the grass took me to the base of the great oak tree, Celestia's eye watching my back. I should have understood what a lonely pony valued to take care of.
At the base of the great oak tree was a grave, a simple stone in the shape of a heart marking its position. My shadow fell over the stone, so I took a couple of steps to the side. The grave mark was placed as to catch the first graze from Celestia every morning. An inscription had been made in the middle of the heart.
‘Here lays Carrotshield. Beloved wife of Carrotsword, mother of Carrot rose. May you watch down upon us from the heavens and protect us as you always have done.
You are missed, my wife.’
I saw small outlines around the text, and took a step back. A shield had been carved into the stone, two carrots crossing it at the top.
I looked away, I could feel a tear in my eye. After all these years had Carrotsword still taken care of this place, even if the rest of the garden had dilapidated. I had never been at this mansion before, but I had been with Carrotrose when she recieved the letter.
It was a morning, not even two days after I had been released. I had found my house and my belongings sold, so I had taken resort at the tavern close to my former house. Carrotrose had taken care of me, she had cared about me. Then, suddenly, was it my turn to take care of her.
The letter had said that ‘Lady Carrotshield had died in service of the empire.’ Nothing more, nothing less. No explanations. She had cried, and I had tried to comfort her as much as I could. I told her that she should go to the funeral, but she had refused. I asked why but she had refused to answer that. In the end had I only been there by her side, a cliff she could cry against.
No, that was enough of that. That was in the past, I had things I had to take care of infront of me. I had to found Honey, I had to.
I staggered at the first step forward I took, nearly falling to the ground.
I had to sleep.
*^*
I knocked on the doors to the big mansion. To my surprise did an old servant open the door.
I looked at the gray coated unicorn in front of me.
“Does she know that you are here?”
I could not help but smile, Carrotrose was here.
“Very well then, I shall tell her that you are here.” he turned to leave.
“Wait.” I called after him.
He stopped in his track, looked back at me.
“My daughter? Is she here?”
“Your daughter sir? The yellow filly? Honey?” he said, giving me a smile. “Yes, she is here, arrived together with the lady Carrotrose.”
I released the breath I had held unknowing.
He turned and left, closing the door behind him. I stood there alone on the stairs, hopping that Carrotrose wanted to see me again, hopping that she could help me.
*^*
And then, suddenly, did the door open again. I found myself in the embrace of Carrotrose.
“You are alive! I can not believe that you are alive. This is such a relief. Honey have cried for days, she will be so happy now that you are back.” Carrotrose said before I could do anything.
“I’m here and alive. How is Honey? What happened to you?” I asked.
“Honey is asleep, that poor thing have not slept at all since we had to leave the city. She has only cried, she thought she had lost you. After you had left did a note slip through the door at the tavern. It said that you had been captured and that I had to leave the city at once, that I was in danger. When you did not return... I closed the tavern, took Honey with me and left. And here I am. I did not want to risk Honey, and I had to visit my father anyway.”
I swayed on the spot when Carrotrose released me.
“Oh my, you must be tired. Come in, come in, we have an extra room that you can take and sleep in. I will tell Honey as fast as that little sweetheart wakes up, she will be so happy! Follow me, you will have to tell me everything when you wake up again!” Carrotrose said and turned around, trotting into the mansion.
*^*
Carrotrose showed me to a room, big windows giving me a view of the mansion’s garden and the settlement beyond the gates. But most importantly was a big bed placed at the other side of the room. I made my way towards it, and could hear Carrotrose whisper goodnight to me.
And then, the dream took its hold on me.
Mirror Mirror. On the wall.
I stood in a dark room, , candles lighting up the scene. Statues of ponies in armor and without, ponies in high society cloths and ponies in peasant cloths. Earth ponies, unicorns and pegasi alike. All looking at me. All judging me, watching my every step with unseeing eyes. And on the far end of the room, where the statues ended, a mirror. I started to trot towards it, my being dragged there.
I’m on my way. To loose control.
In front of the mirror, looking into it, seeing my twisted reflection. I had wings again. No a horn, I had a horn. I was a earth pony, muscular and strong. No, a griffon, talons as big as myself and claws as sharp as steel. No, a unicorn, lying on the grass with a book in front of me. And then suddenly, nothing. Red eyes looked at me, the voice laughing in my head.
You blind me. With your beauty.
I stared into those ruby jewels. Blood. Blood everywhere. Then, light. Pale, white light shone in my eyes.
Blackness, calming blackness. And blood red jewels that stares at me.
The reflections. Makes me high.
A mirror in front of me. A thousand others around me. Reflecting me over and over again. My head. Dizzy. What is happening? And all the time, that laugh in the head.
Will my spirit. For ever die?
Then suddenly, a single mirror in front of me. The laugh was gone. An orb floated in the mirror, a white glow radiating from its center. It pulsated in synchronisation with my heartbeat, every beat as steady as a mountain, as light as a feather. The red eyes looked at me from the other side of the orb, a paw and a talon coming forth and hiding the pulsating orb. It felt as if they surrounded my heart as well.
And when they released the orb had it changed. It was still white, but a streak of red pulsated together with the white. It felt sickening. What was happening?
If I break. The reflected eye.
I stood in a room, the wooden door closing behind me. Fear struck my heart. Where was I?
The office was small, a single wooden desk stood in the room. At one end stood a mare, her coat resembling Carrotrose’s coat. And at the other end stood Lightheart, smiling grimly at me.
Lightheart? What was he doing here? I felt my heart race, my blood pump harder and harder, drowning the sounds around me. The laugh, however, had returned.
Then my gaze felt on the stallion standing behind the desk, a grey coated stallion with an eye patch over his right eye. But his left eye, an eye of pure silver, looked my eyes, reflected my entire being, pierced through my soul. My heart stopped beating as he opened his mouth, talking with a deep, calm voice.
This magic that. You show me.
“Look, fire. Look” the voice said.
And everything around me was indeed in flames. The bed, the cell door. Everything. But I dismissed it.
“Cut it out, it worked the first time, not more.” I said.
The fires extinguished again, the room... cell, once again in its ordinary condition.
And it frightened me to hear it from inside of me.
Make me look. Forever young.
Pain, pain emerging from my wings.
And at that moment did I wish that I could die. The pain, I could not stand it. I trashed on the floor. Two white coated unicorns came in, shooting words I could not hear to one another.
And then I laid restrained on my stomach on an operation table. My wings was fixed in place, outstretched at their limit.
My wings lay beside me, blood still dripping from them. At least the pain was gone. But so was my wings. Right then I did not care. The pain was gone.
Immortalized on the outside. But rotten deep inside.
I heard the sound of hooves trotting past my cell, the voice of Lightheart reached my ears.
The voice faded away.
I felt my hoof strike me in the stomach. It was a hard hit, the air was knocked out of me. I gasped after air.
“Would your imagination do THIS!” the voice asked.
My head hit the stone floor, hard. I could feel a teeth falling out.
I could not do anything against whatever it was inside of me, and I could already feel the teeth grow back. All I could do was to endure it.
Mirror, mirror. Look at me.
I looked at the reflection of myself. All these years, all this pain. What had happened? Was this the memories of a time I had suppressed?
Or was it just a twisted dream, here to hurt me? What was inside of me? How had it started.
The reflection in front of me changed. I saw the goddesses stand there. I could feel my hate burn inside of me, my anger taking over my being.
I smashed the mirror with my hoof, shattered the reflection. Every shard reflected my eyes that moment, eyes twisted with hatred and anger.
Who is that man. That is staring back at me.
The mirror was whole again. But something was... different. I saw myself standing there, strings attached to my body. Strings that went upwards to a talon and a paw.
Was this the being that controlled me? And why did I recognize the talon and paw? The word was there, but it could not come up, I could not say it.
Precious, precious. Save my soul.
“Luna and Celestia, help me in my time of need. Save me from this. Kill me, let me be free. Release me from the pain, from the voice. Help me.”
My skin looks hot. Though my heart is cold.
“They are not there, they never were. It was all a lie. They never helped you, and they never will. You are alone, with only me as company.”
I could feel my heart freeze at those word.
“Then why are you here? Why do they do this for you? Why don’t they end it?”
I want to live my life in silence
Precious silence, the words was gone. It was only me again, alone in the cell. But who was I? The only thing I had left was the prayers. So I prayed.
I want to live my life in peace
I have to get out of here! I can not stay here! This is not the right place! How did I end up here? I have to get out.
Green grass as long as the eye could see, each of them unique. Celestia’s eye embraced me with its warmth. Had they heard my prayers? Was I finally free?
Mirror, mirror... Set me free
And as suddenly as it all had started did it end. I stood in the room again, the mirror in front of me. Five words stood in that mirror.
‘The truth will be told.’
The dream shattered, two red eyes the last thing I remembered before I woke up.
Celesita's eye watch over me.
I opened my eyes, disoriented. Where am I? The sleep still haunted me, the dreams gnawing on my mind. What was that voice? What had Lightheart with all this to do? Who the buck was Warden? And most importantly.
What truth would be told?
Celestia’s eye shone through one of the windows, it looked as if it was the middle of the day. I was still sleepy. I had trashed around in my sleep, resulting in me waking up entangled in the sheets.
Then it all came back to me. I was in the Carot Mansion. And Honey was here as well! I quickly rose from the bed, taking a step forward.
And landing muzzle first on the floor. I winced in pain as I ran my hoof over my muzzle, slowly dragging myself up again. I slowly untangled myself from the sheets before I slowly stood up again. I withheld a yawn as I exited my room.
*^*
The mansion was huge.
“This is not a discussion, young lady! He is to leave this mansion this very instant.” the calm voice of a stallion stated. I guessed it was Carrotsword’s voice.
“Dad, I usually listen to what you say, but this time I have to put my hoof down. The poor thing can not be feeling well, and they have no home to return to. I will not throw out a filly on the street. And you should feel ashamed if you wanted to do that to Honey.”
I trotted to the door from which the argumentation was being held. I placed myself in the doorway. None of the two ponies seemed to notice me.
I coughed lightly to present my presence. Carrotsword just turned around and glared at me. He was an elderly earth pony, he had an orange coat and a silvery mane, even though I believed that the mane’s color was from age and not the ordinary color. He scowled at me, opened his mouth.
“Are you up already? You have barely gotten two hours worth of sleep!” Carrotrose spoke up, her voice as calm as her father’s had been only seconds ago.
“I had a bad dream and decided that I had had enough sleep to see my daughter.” I smiled at Carrotrose before I turned towards Carrotsword. “I thank the honor and nobility of you, Lord Carrotsword, for taking me in with such a short notice.”
I had no idea what I had just said, nor how I had known the words, but they seemed to have a great effect. Carrotsword looked completely taken aback, but scowled at me the same, before he spoke to me. It sounded like every word was drawn out of him.
I really did not hope that, the only home I had had the latest years was a burnt down inn that his daughter had owned. And once again did I speak without knowing why.
He looked surely at me.
Carrotrose looked blankly at me.
“Honestly, I have no idea... It just... Felt right to say it.” I admitted. “And it seems like it worked.
“Well, it did work. However sourly he is did it sound as if you could stay.” she smiled. “And that I’m happy about. Now, back to bed with you. You are not ready to get up yet, you look exhausted.”
I slowly shoke my head.
She smiled lightly at me.
She looked away, a tear in her eyes.
I trotted to Carrotrose, gently lifted her head to look at her.
Carrotrose smiled at me.
*^*
It did not take long before I stood in the small room that my daughter had been given. Thick curtains stopped Celestia’s grace from illuminating the room, shadows playing in the corners.
“Daddy?” a quiet voice whispered from the darkness. My daughters voice.
“I’m here, Honey.” I whispered back, trotting into the room. Carrotrose walked after me quietly.
The bed that Honey lay on was big enough for four ponies. Honey lay in the middle of the bed, whimpering with tear stains around the pillow. She was still asleep.
I turned to Carrotrose.
Carrotrose smiled at me.
“Thanks Rose. I would love that. It feels like I can sleep forever.”
She nodded once before she turned around.
I nodded before I turned to the bed, trying as carefully as possible to lay down besides my daughter.
“Daddy?”
“I’m here Honey, don’t wake up, keep sleeping. I will be here when you wake up.”
I hugged her tightly against me, and I felt how she relaxed in my hooves. The sleep came slowly to me, my eyes felt heavy.
But I welcomed the sleep. I was with Honey again, with my daughter. Everything was going to be fine.
A warm sleep.
Celestia’s celestial eye shone brightly through a multicolored window, its grace twisted in the multiple colors of the window as it embraced me, awoken me. I slowly blinked in the sudden light.
Where am I? Where is Honey? I had gone to sleep just next to her. Where was my daughter?
I looked around the room, tried to figure out where I was. And what is saw scared me. The floor never stopped, it stretched out in the distance until I could not see it anymore. No walls were to be seen, the sky with Celestia’s eye was the ceiling.
And then there was the window. A single window was in front of me, no walls held it up. It just... stood there, twisting Celestia’s grace as it shone through it. The window had a scenery in it, the scenery of the two goddesses sitting on one throne each, one of the thrones ornamented with a sun, the other with a crescent moon. A soft whisper drifted towards me, the voice as warm as the grace of Celestia’s eye in the sky.
“Are you ready?”
“Ready for what?” I asked.
“For understanding?” a second voice replied, this one as beautiful as the Luna’s mane during her late hours.
“Understand what?” I asked.
“Understand what is happening around you.” the first voice answered softly.
“Where am I?” I asked.
“You are in a dream.” the second replied.
“A dream?” I asked.
“A dream that we are in control over.” the first replied.
“Why am I here?”
“To find understanding.” the second replied.
Before I could ask any more did the first voice cut in.
I looked dumbfound on the window. Should I... go through the window? But, who was I to ask a dream.
I trotted towards it; it felt as if the goddesses on the thrones followed me with their eyes.
I nudged the window with my muzzle, and to my surprise did it go through. The window seemed as solid as a regular window, no ripples spread on it from my muzzle. I braced myself, it was just a dream, and took a step through the window.
*^*
I found myself in the middle of a room, laying on a golden and blue carpet. Celestia’s celestial eye watched me from the left, Luna’s from the right. Their grace embraced me, warmed me. I looked around.
And my eyes directly landed on the thrones in front of me.
I quickly dropped to my knees, knelt for the goddesses.
“Stand up.” they said in unison.
I rose to my hooves again, looked at them. They seemed... tired.
“You have been summoned to get guidance, guidance and answers.” Celestia said, her voice warm.
“Answers on what?” I asked, my voice weak in comparison for the goddess’s voice.
“Answers on whatever you want to ask.” Luna answered, her voice serene.
“Who are you?” I asked before I could stop myself.
Luna smiled at me, but it was Celestia who answered.
“What is my place in all of this? Why have I been taken here?”
“You were the one who woke up us from the slumber that Discord placed us in, you was the one who gave us our power back.” Luna answered, smiling at me.
“But how could I, alone, give you the power you needed?”
“You did not give us the power we needed to defeat Discord, you gave us the power to manifest us here, on Equestria. From there could we interfere with more and more of the ponies of Equestria, and more and more followed us. Our power grew, but you are still the pillar of our power. You believed, not because you had seen us do, but because love of your grandfather. You believed his stories, you did not need proof. You believed.” Celestia said.
“But what about Trotholm? Why have you not done anything about that place?”
They looked sadly at each other, Celestia opened her mouth to speak, but Luna was the one who answered.
“That is why,” Celestia continued, sorrow in her voice. “We give the situation of Trotholm to you. We have observed you, you are the only one who can set things straight there.”
“Yea, that will be easy...” I sighed. “Are you sure that I’m the one you seek? If you have observed me, then you also know about my... troubles.”
And just like that were they beside me.
The world disappeared in a bright light.
*^*
I heard my own voice, but it was not I who spoke.
An chaos reincarnated will be turned to stone. Transformed by the power of balance. By the power of harmony. The celestial twins must stay on the soil of Equestria. They must guide earth pony, pegasi and unicorn alike. The fallen must not be reborn, the true alicorns have to rule.
But heed my warning, goddess of the yellow eye. The chaos have touched your twin. The corruption is spreading. The balance will be contested. When your twin eye’s refuse to set. And the black night stand triumphant. Search the answer within balance. This has to be done, else Equestria will fall. The being you attack is not your sister. It is but a corrupted shell.
The power of balance has to be cleansed. Goddess of the yellow eye. Cleanse them when the time is right. Under the watching eye of your twin.
And when the time is right will two foals be born. Two foals destined to release your twin. One I use to say these words. The other you will find on her name. Her name will be the name of the brightest part of your sister’s celestial masterpiece.
But beware. The power of balance can not stay in the ownership of an eternal being. Nor can it be with the ones destined to release your sister. The life of six will change. They will also fight chaos reincarnated.
When he is released from the stone prison by the crusaders.
*^*
I looked up at the goddesses who stood over me, concerned looks mirrored their faces.
“You passed out.” Luna said, her serene voice broken with... fear?
“I passed out within a dream?” I asked.
She looked away.
“What happened?”
“You gave us a lot to think about, that what was happened.” Luna said, still looking away.
“So I said all that? What does it mean?”
“The meaning of your words are hidden, and will take time to understand. However, it was not you that said it, it was another being that said it through your body.” Celestia answered.
“What being?”
“That, we do not know.” Luna answered. She still did not look at me.
“What will happen now?”
“Now?” Celestia smiled warmly at me. “Now, you wake up to your daughter and our gift.”
“What gift?”
They only smiled at me as the dream faded away.
The wings of the spirit.
My head ached. My legs ached. My mane itched. My wings ached.
My wings?
I opened my eyes wide at the realization. My wings ached. The wings that had been taken away from me. I looked back at my back.
And sure enough. There, in the embrace of Luna’s grace, were my wings. The feathers were soft, softer than I remembered. But, when I thought about it, I had not had any wings for years.
It was then I remembered where I was. I rose from my position in the bed, looked down at the still sleeping Honey. She had stopped crying now, the tear stains had dried. I smiled gently at her sleeping body, before I gently stepped from the bed.
I had my wings again! I had to try them, I had to feel the cool air rush around me. I had to relive what was taken away from me so many years ago.
I walked quietly through the sleeping mansion, it did not take a long time before I found a balcony I could use as a start point. I looked down, it was not high enough that I would get more than a broken bone if I fell, but that did not help to sooth the anxiety that spread through my body. I had not been in the air for a long time. What if I could not do it?
But then again, I could need them in a dire situation, so it was best to learn the fact now, was I able to fly or not. It did not help to soothe my anxiety either, but at least I had decided what to do now. I slowly trotted to the end of the balcony, stretched my wings and flapped them experimentally before I, without a look down, threw myself out into the air.
And I flew again. For the first time for years was air rushing around me. It felt as if Luna’s grace shone brighter than ever before, as if she was happy. I knew I was.
I might not be the best flier, but at least I was one again.
*^*
I sore through the sky, higher than the clouds. I had soon forgotten my own words to not fly high, but my wings were stronger than they had ever been before, my body was rested; I had the energy needed. And it just felt so good to fly again. I looked down below me, Luna’s grace painted the landscape in its faint light, the entire part of Trotholm glowing in the light blue light.
And dawn was soon coming again. I had not prayed for... a long time. What had it been? Six days? Two weeks? It did not matter. I had to pray this dawn, to show my appreciation to the goddesses.
“They did this to bribe us. They fooled us!”
I froze in the middle of a wing flap. I had not heard that voice for the entire night, not since the nightmare at least.
I quickly started flapping again so I would not lose more attitude.
“What do you mean?”
“The wings. They gave them back to us on a wimp. They felt pity for us. They wanted us to be thankful to them.”
I did not listen. Whatever the goddesses wanted would I more than happily do, they gave me my wings back, they had watched over my daughter.
If the price for that was to do something I had already decided to do, then so would it be.
“We are fools... This will kill us.”
I ignored the voice, Celestia’s first grace had touched the horizon. It was time to pray.
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Twin sister of the celestial eyes. I have been unfaithful in my belife. I have neglect my prayers. Firstly I want to thank you, goddesses, for helping my daughter and Carrotrose. They live, and that is the greatest gift I could ever get. Not only that, but you gave me my wings back, giving me power over the skies again, giving me an edge against my enemys.
Celestia, watch over your sister. Luna, help your sister in need. Equestria fate lies in your hooves, but I trust you. In the same way that you trust me with Trotholm. I will not fail you, not after what you have done for me.
My faith lies in you, now and forever.
I finished my prayer and just sat there, at the top part of the Carrot Mansion’s roof. Celestia’s grace warmed me, her eye illuminating the world. And then I smiled. It was time to awaken my daughter, it was time to start spend time with her. I also had to find a way to repay Carrotsword for letting me stay here.
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“Daddy?”
Honey stirred in her sleep before she finally opened her eyelids, revealing the jade green eyes underneath. I smiled at her.
“Daddy!” she shouted out and leaped into my open hooves. I could feel tears running down my face, but I could not care. I was happy.
I drew her into an embrace, hugged her tightly against me, putted my wings around us both.
“Is it really you daddy?” she cried onto my shoulder. “I was so scared that I would never see you again. I’m not dreaming am I?”
“No, Honey, you are awake. It is really me. I’m home.” I could not say that I would not be here for very long, I could not take that away from her.
She looked up at me, smiling at me, tears still in her eyes. She did not say anything, just looked at me.
And then, she hugged me again.
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I have no idea how long we embraced each other in that hug. She had started crying again and I just sat there, whispering to her that everything was okay, tried to sooth her. After a while did I let her go again.
She hesitated a second before she moved away from me. It was first then she noticed the wings.
“Daddy, you have wings!” she shouted out. “Does that mean that you have died and came back to me as an angel?”
I just shook my head. How should I answer something like that?
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It had not taken long to explain to Honey, she was a child after all. She also found it funny, for some strange reason. It had been two strange dream’s during the sleep. And strange things had happened. It was, however, time for me to talk to Carrotrose about all of this. I believe it was time for her to know the truth.
I would also have to find a good way to repay Carrotsword. I did not have a lot of money, not that I knew of at least. But I had a fair idea about what I could do for him before I left in some days. The mansion might have a huge garden, but it would not take to long time to fix it.
Or at least know what I was going to fight, and most likely die, for. I sighed. This would take some time. But after that would I spend some time with my daughter. It might be the last time I would ever spend with her.
So much to do, so little time to do it in.
The past.
Or should I just die?
As stated, this mansion was huge on the inside. And it was easy to get lost. It seems that I had a lousy sense of direction when inside a building. I was lost again.
I had left Honey’s room early, my goal had been to find Carrotrose. I had not found her, instead had I been trotting around the mansion, without any idea where I was. But I had continued walking.
And I had found myself in a library. It was a grand library, books covered the big bookcases, it was more books than I had ever seen at one place before. And in the middle of the room, at a desk surrounded by books, stood Carrotsword. He had his back against me, but I could see how he tensed when I looked at him. He knew that I was there.
I started to wonder what I should say to him, how should I start? I had to thank him for allowing me to stay, ask him if it was anything I could do in return. I had to repay him, it would not feel right otherwise. I stood there, thinking, when he started to speak.
“What are you doing here, fiend? Have you not done enough against me already? Have you not hurt my family enough?” he said in a deep, calm voice.
I looked blank in front of me. What had he said? What had he called me?
“You heard me, what is you doing here?” he said as he turned around, anger and rage showed clearly in his face but his voice was as calm as ever before. “Have you not done enough against me, hurt my family enough?”
“I do not know what you are talking about.” I tried to back away from that gaze. “What have I done you?”
He stopped in the middle of a step, suprise in his eyes.
“Deserve to know what?” I asked.
“I do not know the details, but I guess I should start from the beginning.” he sighed.
“Why would you tell me anything?” I asked.
“I tell you because I do not think you deserve this. Especially not if you can not remember anything about it yourself. This was forced on you. Forced on you by the government. Forced on you by my late wife.”
He sat down on his haunches, looked down on the floor.
He released a grim laugh.
I looked at Carrotsword.
“They injected the blood of Discord into the subjects. I have no idea where they got it from, so do not even ask.” he sighed. “My wife. She got addicted to the idea. She did not want to lose more guards, the death of our son still pained her. Every day was she in here, crying and noted down all the subjects, who they where, who they had been and what they crime had been. She also noted down their condition and their changes, as well as the day and cause of death. Some of the subjects got stronger and stronger, some got faster. Others had the ability to regrow practically any limb in less than an hour. Together where they as my wife wanted one to be. They all had one thing in common, however. They all grew insane.”
His voice heated.
“You did not show anything at all. No extra strenght, you were not quicker. They had to amputate your wings when they started to rot and you did not grew them back.” he looked at me, a faint smile on his lips. “At least not until now. It seems that you have gotten your wings back.”
I could only nod.
“And the voice? Have it started to talk to you? My wife always mentioned that the subjects heard a voice, or a laugh. Even you. But, unlike the rest of the subjects, did you not listen to the voice. You fought it. And then, one day, did I get the information from Warden that my wife had been killed and that subject P-20 had escaped. I had not heard anything about this subject until you showed up on my doorstep yesterday at dawn. I could feel the filth of Discord inside of you, I knew directly who you where.”
“Why have you not killed me yet then? Why did you tell me all this? I killed your wife!”
I could not believe it, what had happened during that time? What had I done? What had been done to me? And had it happened after that, only that I did not remember it?
“That is quite simple. I want to know your part of the story, I want to know what it was that made you come here. I know that my wife did not do what was right, I know why she did it and it pains me that I could not help her, that I never was here for her. And most importantly.”
He sighed. He looked really tired, as if he had not slept for weeks.
“I trust my daughter, and you have never done anything against her. She trusts you, and for that will I trust you.”
To tell the past.
I looked at Carrotsword. Did he trust me, the one who was said to kill his wife, just because that his daughter had talked with him? No, it had to be more than that.
While he sat down did I have to ask the voice, Discord.
He did not answer, the only I heard was the laugh. I sighed and turned towards Carrotsword.
I told Carrotsword about the goddesses, about my realization. It was the first time I ever had told somepony about all this, and I could not help but have tears running down my cheeks at some of the parts. I told him about my time in jail, or at leas the part I remembered. I told him about my wife, about how she died when Honey was born. Every single part of my life did I told him about, up to the nightmare I had had the previous night and the dream with the goddesses. I even told him about the feeling of flying for the first time in such a long time.
The whole story did not take as long to tell as I had thought, the sun had not even reached its peak when I had finished. I looked down at Carrotsword, who had listened and only inflicted a question or two during my sorry.
“I understand more clearly what you have gone through, P-20. I believe it’s time for me to truly welcome you to my home. You are free to stay for as long as you wish. What you did to my wife... I will not forget, but I will forgive you. What she, and the rest, did to you. I do not understand how she could live with that.” he said, sorrow thick in his voice.
“I do not know how much you would trust me, sir, but if I could undo all of this then I would, starting with the death of your son.”
“He talks to you now, does he not?” Carrotsword asked me.
“Yea, but I have no trouble to ignore him. Sometimes it’s hard, but I manage.” I smiled at him. “It was worse during my stay in the jail, I have memories of myself knocking the air out of me.”
He looked uncomfortable at me.
“Now? First I’m going to pay back for you letting me stay here. Then I plan to cleanse Trotholm from the corruption that is Discord. And try to get rid of him myself.” I smiled.
“You do not have to pay me for anything, you have already done that by giving me your story. As for your next step. Cleansing Trotholm will be hard, but I wish to help you as much as I can. Trotholm needs it. You are free to look at my wife’s record from the jail, you might find something of interest there.”
He turned around and trotted to a big book that lay at the desk. I followed him. I had to admit, I was kinda curios about this book, and the note about me.
“Take your time, I will go and tell my daughter where you are. I will also make sure that you get some food. I guess you have not eaten yet.”
I smiled at him.
“She deserves to know.”
“I know, but it’s just...”
“I understand. I will talk with you later, about Trotholm.”
He turned and left, and I was alone with the book.
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Subject-Name: Pegasus 20 Real Name: Unknown Crime: Unknown Starting Condition: Pegasus 20 seems to be in a good condition. He refuses to speak to any of the jail guards. His feathers are all straight and they seems to have been taken good care of. What he does here have I no idea about, but it does not matter. He have some sort of crime that he needs punishment for and Warden sent him to me and Lightheart. And justice will prevail.
Entry 1: We injected the blood of Discord in subject Pegasus 20 today. The blood usually takes a week to get any effect at all. We will wait and see.
Entry 2: The two subjects, Unicorn 5 and Earth pony 14, who shared room with subject Pegasus 20 have died from outer physical damage. We have no idea what caused it, but we can not exclude that Pegasus 20 is the reason behind it all.
Entry 3: Nothing strange have happened today around subject Pegasus 20.
I flipped past a couple of entries, before I found one who was about something else than “Nothing strange have happened today.”
Entry 12: All of the subjects that have been close to subject Pegasus 20 have met their end. At this moment in time do we only have five subjects left. Unicorn 18 and 16, Earth pony 1 and 12. We also have Pegasus 20. Unicorn 18 have showed violent behaviour, Earth pony 12 does nothing else than sits in a corner and whispers to himself. We have multiple times found Earth pony 1 running in circles in his room. Unicorn 16 is restrained in his bed after the damage she inflicted on herself when he drove his horn against the wall. He should not even be called a unicorn anymore. Pegasus 20, on the other hand, only stays in one spot, looking straight forward. He does not make any sound at all, he barely eats when we brings him food. I’m starting to fear him more than the others, it’s almost as if he is in control on the being within him.
Entry 13: Today subject Pegasus 20 felt into a pile, thrashing on his floor screaming in pain. We took him quickly to surgery and removed his wings, they nearly burned through the bed he laid on before we turned him around and began the operation. He stopped thrashing when they where gone, but the wings did not grow back as they have done on some other subjects. Speaking of which did Unicorn 16 have her horn back this morning, showing the skill of regrowth. Notable to say the least.
Entry 14: I want to strangle Lightheart. He wondered today if it had been worth to save the life of Pegasus 20 since he only sits in his corner again. Of course it was, he is the first one who have not shown any real signs that anything have happened to him. Only time will tell whats happen to him.
Entry 15: Unicorn 18 was found dead today in his own cell. He had been beheaded, but the head is jet to be found. Earth Pony 12 has started to shout to himself, I heard him shout ‘Get out of my head!’ this morning. Unicorn 16 have been gnawing on her hooves all the day, something is clearly wrong with him.
Entry 16: Subject Earth Pony 1 run into the wall tonight. He did literally make a whole through it, Earth pony one 12 was found shouting about the dead body that hanged halfway through his wall. Unicorn 16 had actually gnawed her right leg of tonight. We found out since it was an extra leg in his room but he still sat and gnawed on his hooves. Pegasus 20 is still just sitting in his room, staring in front of himself. It’s starts to creep me out.
Entry 17: Both Earth Pony 12 and Unicorn 16 was found dead this morning. The earth pony had his throat ripped away, while Unicorn 16 had literally been choked by her own hooves, both where forced down in his lungs. Pegasus 20 started to hit himself today. He did not seem to fight himself, only punching himself.
Entry 18: I came to work today, and everypony was dead. Every one of the stationed guards was dead. Pegasus 20 sat there, looking straight forward. I’m really starting to fear that this was not such a good idea. I will go and end this project, I will go and talk to Warden about it, it was a failure from the start.
Entry 19: Warden approved of closing Project Discord down. I will personally go and take care of the last subject, Pegasus 20. If I do not return, then I want these books to be brought to my husband. I love you Carrotsword, live long and take care of our daughter.
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What had I done?
I might not know.
I had killed Carrotshield. Who else had I killed? How many times had Discord taken controll over my body and murdered somepony?
I had to get out of here. I needed air. I turned to leave, but my right wing showed down the book from the desk. I gently picked it up and laid it on the desk again. I turned again to leave, but I caught something in the corner of my eye. A letter laid where the book had landed.
And it was addressed to Subject Pegasus 20. Addressed to me. THIS was strange. I took it up, gently opened it and started to read.
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If you are reading this, Subject Pegasus 20, then that means that you killed me. Oh, I’m not surprised really, you have killed every other one in here and Warden ordered me to kill me. That fucker knew I would meet my death by your hooves. Would you mind kill him if you get the opportunity? Anyway, I’m dead when you read this, and rightfully so. What I did. I was blind. And there is things you have to know.
Firstly, your unborn daughter. Honey... How old is she when you read this letter? Five? Six? She is not born when I write this, nor will she be for a while. How I know? Buck do I know. The subjects are not the only ones who hear voices. I have had these... twins... whispering inside my head for a while now. They had nothing to do with Project Discord. At least I hope they did not, I do not want to figure out that they have meddling with my mind. But they speak with me... about you, Pegasus 20. You had a name once, and a crime. I erased them both, it would be to dangerous to let you know, to let the being inside of you know. The name will come in good time thou, I’m sure that Warden knows it.
What I did... Sixty subjects, I killed fifty nine of them. Their blood is on my hooves, not yours. I did not even gave them a chance. WE did not give them a chance. Lightheart. I do not know his motives, but he is a good buck. Please, do not hurt him. He might have some answers to this, but when you read this will he have a colt himself. A colt just a year older than Honey. Oh, he is happy, every day does he smile.
That is, until he see the Subjects. He hates this, he want you all dead and Project Discord abandoned. And he gotten his will through. I will now go in to open your cage, Pegasus 20. It will be my death, I can already hear you from inside there, growling at something I can not see, smirking at me as I cross outside your cage.
But I have already accepted my fate, I will meet my death at your hooves tonight, a death that will set you free.
And, if I should listen to the twins, will my death lead to this town being a better place. I can only hope so. For your Honey, for Lighthearts colt Goldenheart, for my own Carrotrose. For all of the foals of Trotholm. They deserve a better future than this. They deserve a brighter world.
And I can not give that to them. But you can. Trust Corelight, he will not betray you, neither will my husband. He hates you, I can feel that. You have never met before a couple of days ago, and still he hates you with his whole heart. But his hate weights over by his love of Carrotrose. And she trusts you. I want you to show my husband this letter when you have read it, but do not let my daughter see it. I do not want her to meet her end knowing what horrors I did in my life.
Pegasus 20, I do not blame you for killing me, so do not blame yourself. Kill that fucker Warden if you get the chance. And make Trotholm better, for the foals of this filthy city.
Carrotsword, this part is for you. My beloved husband. Pegasus 20 have not done anything wrong, the fault lies with me. I will always love you, remember that. Let go of the hate you feel, let the love for your daughter overcome the hate. And do not let her know what I have done. Let her live without it.
Burn this letter after you have read it, my husband, and know that my love will always burn for you. Until we meet again.
Carrotshield.
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I re-read the letter five times before I laid it away.
She had known. And accepted it. She had opened my cell, knowing that I would kill her. Had she been armed? Had she begged for a quick death? Had I given her one?
“Do we want to know?” Discord asked me. “Can we handle the truth?”
“What did you do Discord?” I snarled at him.
“We?” He chuckled. “We did not do anything. We gave our power. Then we killed that filthy creature that had trapped us inside of us.”
“You killed her quickly I hope?” I could not stop the question.
“Do we want to know?” He sounded hopeful. “I can show us.”
I did not want to see it. But I had to, did I not? What had happened to me? How could I control it?
“We give in, let the power run freely, our power. Let it embrace you, let it guide you. Then and only then will you be able to control it.” Discord said. I could feel how he smirked at me, even if he was inside of my head.
And that scared me.
I took up the letter, decided that I should go and search up Carrotsword. I owed his late wife this, Carrotshield had asked me to give this to her husband. He wanted to know the truth, this was as close to the truth that it would come.
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I trotted through the hallway, Celestia’s eye glanced at me through a window, her grace illuminating my surrounding. It did not take long before I found myself outside Carrotsword’s bedroom. For once had I actually found my way somewhere and not getting lost. I knocked three times at the door, and was rewarded by the sound of hooves getting closer. Carrotsword opened the door, his eyes had tears in them. I realized that he must have been crying.
This was awkward.
“Yes?” he asked me.
“I’m sorry to interrupt, but this felt out of the journal.” I showed him the letter. ”I thought you wanted to see it, your wife asked me to give it to you.”
“What are you talking about?”
I did not answer. Something budged against my mind. I could hear Discord laugh inside of my head.
The last thing I felt was that my head hitting the floor, then it all went black.
The past.
Hatred. Hatred burned in my veins. I hated the cell I was placed in. I hated the ponies that watched me. Hated them for what they had done. Hated them for who they where. But most of all did I hate my host.
He ignored me, he rejected me. But only when he was awake. When he was asleep, that was the time for fun. He could not control what happened during that time. But I could. I smiled for myself, this would be hilarious.
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“Please...” the mare begged, her horn lighting up. “Stay away from me, don’t do this. You are not yourself. Take hold of yourself.”
I glared at her, smiling.
My hosts hoof strook her cheek.
“Please.” Tears ran down her cheeks now, the light of her horn had died out. “Let me be.”
She was a pretty unicorn. I could remember having her kind in my castle, before I got into this host. I hated this host. And he hated what was about to happen. I could feel it inside of him, but he could not stop it. He was never able to.
I looked at the body next to him, the body of a stallion. The stallion’s head had been smashed against the floor. Multiple times. I remember that I had laughed when I did that. I remember that my host had cried, unable to stop me.
I looked back at the mare in front of me.
I felt how my hoof transformed, changed into something I could use more easily. The unicorn looked at the hoof, tried to back away from it. I smiled at my talon, it had been a long time since I saw it.
I tightened my grip around the unicorn, laughed as she struggled to get air.
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“Get out of my head!” my host yelled at me.
I just laughed. He thought he could resist me, he thought he was strong enough. But he was not. I would break him.
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He prayed. He DARED to pray to those filthy goddesses! I had erased them from EXISTANCE! They should not be remembered, how could he know about them? And how much damage did he do by praying to them?
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I felt how he struggled to take command over his body away from me. I just laughed at his futile attempt. I had to try, had to see what happened. I could feel the pain he felt, although much more dully than he did. I could feel the fire in his wings. This is not good. What would happen if I killed him? Would I die as well? I have to think over this.
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They talked about my host, wondered why they had saved him. I could not help but chuckle over this. The simple minded ponies did not understand that I would not kill him? I could use this.
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I felt how my host grew sleepy. He had tried to stay awake for so long, but tonight would not be one of those nights. I smiled as he slowly drifted into the embrace of sleep.
Now, it was my time. I quickly took control over my host’s body. It was a clumsy body, so I changed it some. Instead of one of his hooves did he now have a talon. I smiled, that I could work with. I snapped my talon, the bright light embraced me.
And I reappeared in another room. An earth pony ran around in circles, he did not seem to notice me. I whistled loudly, but he did not care. Only running around and around. I grew tired of him.
I picked him up as he ran around me, holding him in my talon. He shrieked at me, tried to struggle free. I just smiled at him.
“WhatareyoudoingImustrunmustgetthisoutofmyheadletmedownIcanfeelitcomingcloser.” He spoke faster than I thought possible.
And he had an annoying voice. I move a little, his legs still moved as if he was running, I could as well use it for something fun. I could see the fear in his eyes as I moved closer to the wall, holding him in the air mere meters from the wall. He would not be able to stop, he would not be able to turn. This would be fun.
I dropped him, his legs still racing. And as soon as they hit the floor did he hit the wall, head first. He actually made a hole in the wall.
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That voice is getting on my nerves. It have shouted the entire day! My host seems to ignore it, but I can not for my life understand how he does that! But my host will be asleep soon, and then I can stop the sound, stop it for a long time! Forever!
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The stallion in front of me shouted at himself.
Oh, I would make sure that it stopped for him. I glanced at the unicorn in the corner, who sat and gnawed on his own hooves. He would not do anything, but I could have fun with him later. For now did I want to end that shouting.
It did not take long time to end it, his throat was very easy to rip up with my talon. He gurgled as he tried to shout, and the whizzing noise that emerged from his ripped throat when he tried to breath made me chuckle for myself before I turned to the unicorn. He had started to gnaw more violently at his hooves, eyeing me as she did so. I smiled at him.
He started to shook violently as I sat down next to him. I smiled reassuring at him, patted him gently with my hoof.
With the other did I force down his hooves in his throat. I smiled and patted him as he tried to get free, struggled for air. All the time gnawing on his own hooves.
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I would not be ignored any longer! I had been able to take control over his body when he was awake. I punched him over and over again, laughing all the time. I was in control now!
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Blood, blood everywhere. And bodies. They had been guards, and I needed to take out my anger on something. My host had been able to take back control over his body. It could not stop like this.
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How happy I was! My host was still asleep when that pretty earth pony entered his cell. I smiled and stood up, my hoof already transforming into a talong.
“Good morning Discord.”
I stopped dead in my tracks, looked at her.
She smiled.
I laughed out lout at this.
She smiled at me. And charged me.
I raised my talon and caught her in her neck, lifting her up.
She smiled at me. She DARED smile at me!
“It is to late for me, I did not think I would be getting out of her alive. But I gave him a new chance.”
“What are you talking about?” I said. The mare was all to calm.
She just laughed at me.
I did not need any encouragement for that. I ripped apart her throat, let my talon go down and sprawled her open. She smiled at me as the life faded from her eyes. Her laugh pierced my ears.
It was then I felt the pain.
From a nightmare.
I smiled at Carrotsword. He laid at the floor, three bloody lines over his muzzle where my talon had slashed him. The same talon that now was clawing at his chest. He tried to push me away, but I was stronger than him. My talon buried deeper and deeper into his body. I heard him coughing over me, whispering to me with his last breath.
I laughed at him.
“I forgive yo.....” He died when I ripped out his heart.
“I do not need your forgiveness old man. I’m going to pay back for what this town did towards me. What your WIFE did towards me.” I yelled at his dead face.
No meaning talking with a dead face.
“We sure have.” Discord answered, laughing with me.
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“What are you doing?” Carrotrose yelled at me, trying to run from me. “Leave me alone, you are not yourself. What is happening?”
She had a set of claw marks on her muzzle, mirroring the ones on her fathers dead body. The blood trail behind her was easy to follow.
“I’m alive, Carrotrose! That is what’s happening!” I laughed after her, a laugh that some would call maniac. I called it full of life. “I’m giving back to the world what they gave me, I will make them all pay.”
I saw her fall, thumping against the floor. She looked back, fear shining in her eyes.
I trotted over to her.
I stroked back her mane from her eyes, the pale amber orbs staring wildly at me. I sighed.
She released the breath she had been holding.
I laughed lightly.
“My mother have been dead for years, how will I be able to ask her? I want the answer, what happened to you?”
I ignored at her, smiled gently at her as my talon found its way down her neck, gently stroking her.
I lent forward and whispered in her ear.
I snapped her neck, smiled at her as the life left her amber eyes.
Discord laughed inside of me, and I joined in on him.
“One left...” he whispered sweetly to me.
“One left” I answered.
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“Daddy?”
Honey stirred in her sleep, Luna’s celestial eye illuminated her little body. I trotted towards it, hestiating for a second.
“The world is full of pain.” Discord whispered in my ear. “Don’t let your foal feel that pain.”
I brought my talon to her neck, made a small gash at her neck.
She opened her eyelids, looked straight at me with those jade green eyes.
But it was enough for me.
I started to cry, tears rolled down my cheek.
“Daddy, don’t cry.” She tried to get up, raised her small hoofs to hug me.
“Kill her, she do not deserve to live with this pain. Our filly does not deserve it!”
“I’m so sorry Honey.”
Honey started to cry, big tears filling her eyes.
“I’m so sorry.”
I slitted her throat open, repeating the line again.
Discord laughed inside of me, and I started to chuckle as the tears rolled down my cheeks.
I was a monster.
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I opened my eyes and felt a heavy weight at my chest.
“How long have I been out?”
“A day. Honey was so scared, she would not leave your side.”
I looked down at my chest.
“Yes.” Carrotrose smiled at me.
I lightly lifted her with my hooves. She struggled a little against me, but did not wake up.
I knew what I had to do.
“Carrotrose, do you have any letter-paper I can use? I have to write down some things.” I hated to do this.
She looked surprised at the request.
I sighed.
“Why?” Carrotrose said, tears in her eyes.
“I promised to not tell you. If you want to know then talk with your father. Can you take care of Honey?”
She looked at me.
I shook my head.
She sighed.
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Do not cry for me Honey. I'm with your mother now, in a place where everything is happier. I will wait for you here. Daddy
I ended the letter. It was not as long as I wanted it to be, but I could not write anymore. I gave it to Carrotrose.
“I will.” she said, tears in her eyes.
I slowly trotted to Honey, who still laid in the bed sleeping. I nuzzled her gently, careful to not wake her up.
“Daddy?” she stirred in her sleep, placed a hoof at my muzzle. “Daddy.” She sounded pleased.
“I’m so sorry Honey.”
I raised my head.
“I will.”
“I would do differently if I could. This is the only way.”
“I know. I will give your letter to her when she is old enough.”
I trotted over to her, embraced her in a tight hug.
I broke the hug quickly.
I trotted out from the room and searched for the way out. It did not take long time before I had left the Carrot Mansion behind me. I started to trot towards the settlement. Corelight was probably already waiting for me. I had to end this before it was to late.
To find the light in the darkness.
“What did you just say?” I looked at Corelight in disbelief. The emerald green unicorn smiled at me.
“You have followers. Lightheart talked around. We have more than half of the guards on our side, they are ready to help you cleanse Trotholm!”
Lightheart. Can I trust him? He had been one of the higher ups at Project Discord. But on the other hoof had he helped me to escape. I shuddered. It did not matter. Nothing mattered right now. Honey...
“And the list?”
“I have fulfilled it, I have one of them with me and the other is at my office, in the hooves of one of the guards that wants to follow you. I did, however, remove one name from the other list.”
“Lightheart.” I said, earning me a questioning look.
“Yes... But how did you know?”
“Does it matter?”
“No...”
“Let us leave. It’s time to take care of Trotholm.”
I turned my tail to the town, turned away from Carrot Mansion. Turned away from my daughter. I’m sorry Honey.
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We walked in silence, and it was first when we got close to the city that I remembered. How should I get in there? There where guards, they would recognize me.
“How are we going into the city?”
“Through the gate of course.”
“But there is still an arrest order on me right?”
“Eeyup, but all the guards at this gate are on your side. In fact, every guard that will go with us are waiting in there. We are ready to cleanse the city on your orders.”
“Wait, you have gathered ALL the guards here? And you do not think that would raise any alarm?”
“Actually...” Corelight looked away.
“You did not think about it?”
“I did! But they all wanted to be here to greet you welcome, they want to cleanse the city tonigt.”
“Oh well, the sooner the better. And the damage is already done.”
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I looked out over the small room. How all of the guards fitted in here had I no idea of. They had all welcomed me. But I had to speak to one person first. Before all of this started.
“Lightheart, the office, now.”
Lightheart looked confused at me, but he followed me into the small room.
“Welcome back, my friend. Are you ready for this?” He smiled at me.
“Project Discord.” He seemed to become horrified at those words. “What did you do there.”
“Do we have time for this?”
“I will make sure we have. I have to know. What did you do there?”
“I made sure that the guards behaved. Turned out I did not have to care since you killed them all.”
“Not me, Discord. The monster inside of me. The monster you planted. The list of corrupted ponies, why did you appear on it? What had you done before Project Discord?”
If he was surprised at the change of topic then he did not show it.
“But... why? You are not a bad pony, what made you do that? I have seen the real you.”
“Do you really want to know?”
“Lightheart, I see you as a friend. Even after the fact I was given. You saved me from getting hanged!” I said.
"Do you know how I got my name?" he snarled at me. "I was weak when I came to this world. My lungs was weak, my body was weak!" he shouted at me at this point. "My father took one look at me. ONE LOOK! before he had decided a name."
Lightheart trembled before me.
“He said that no pony with a heart that weak could be the son of Lionheart."
“Lightheart, I’m sorry to hear that. I had no idea. But why did you chose to go in his hoofsteps?” I asked, but I think I already knew the answer.
“I wanted to be better, wanted to prove that I was his son!”
I looked at Lightheart, gave him one look.
He just stared at me.
“Wh.. Why? Do you not trust me? Do you not want to see me?”
“Pull yourself together! I trust you more than any other of the ponies in there, but I will not let you go and die. You have a colt! Think about him. It’s bad enough that I do not think about my daughter. I will make everypony with a foal leave, I will not be the reason for any foal loosing a parent.”
“I will not leave you.”
“We are not discussing this Lightheart, that is an order! I might not have any power, but I’m not doing this to make a lot of foals grow up without a father or a mother!”
“But..”
“Go. NOW.”
He looked at me.
With those words did he leave.
“What are we up to? Are we going to kill Warden? Are we going to slaughter them all? I want to slaughter them all!”
“You are quiet. I will take care of you later.”
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“I want to thank you all for coming here.” I hated to talk to a big audience, but I had to. “When I first did this did I think I would have to do everything myself, it turns out I do not have to. We will do this quickly. First, I want everypony that have a foal raise a hoof.”
Fewer hooves than I had expected was raised in the air.
“Second, I want you who raised your hoof to leave this room. Now. You are not to assist in this. I will not be the reason that a foal loses a parent.”
Of the eighty five guards did twelve leave the room, murmuring to each other. I suspected that that was not all of the parents. But I could not do anything else.
“Thirdly, I want each one of you to get three partners. We have a hit list, and each group is going to hit one target. We are going to cleanse this city all at once, tomorrow when Luna’s eye have reached its peak. That is, when the moon stay as high as it can.”
I looked as the guards started to pair together, looking at the list and receiving the number for the one they should hit.
“The once who have not been assigned a number is going together with me. We are going to pay our dear leader a visit. All of you, Trotholm trusts you. Cleanse the ones on the list, use non-lethal force against any other target. We are not here to slaughter, we are here to help this city. Go home, sleep and act natural tomorrow. We do not want to raise any suspicion, more than there already is.”
The guards did not seem to be the group to ask any questions, they simply left and started to trot home. That was, expect for two. Corelight and the black mare that had stopped me when I left the city. Corelight trotted to me.
“What are you gonna do?”
“I’m going to pray.”
The celestial goddesses.
I knew that I was followed up to the top of the tower. But I did not care, I was here to pray, and that was what I would do. Ignoring the black unicorn behind me did I sit down in the center of the tower, looking out over Trotholm. Celestia’s eye had embraced the city with its golden light.
“Are we sure about this? Is this how it will end? Are we going to kill him, just to put a foal at his position?”
“I vowed to cleanse this city from the taint you planted here Discord. I will not break that vow.”
“But Trotholm have been fine all these years. The citizens live without fear, the foals grow up to be successful. Are we going to destroy that? Are we going to ruin this town?”
“You will not make me change my mind, Discord. Whatever your plan is leave it. This town may be perfect in your eyes. That would not surprise me, you created the taint that coat it.”
“Think about the foals. Are we really the one to force a broken city onto them? We know that it will take years to stabilize the town, are we the one to make them grow up with that?”
“No, nopony is. I will have to make that decision, I have my own foal that will grow up with it.”
“A foal that we at least left a letter, a letter that explained why. But the other foals? The rest of the city? They will not understand. Will they accept?”
“They will have to.” I snarled at Discord now.
“And what about us?”
“How do you mean?”
The only answer I received was a laughter.
I noticed that the mare who had followed me sat behind me, could feel her eyes in my back.
“Speak your mind.”
“Oh, I’m sorry... I thought..” She stuttered, caught of guard by my words.
“That I prayed? That I had not noticed?”
“Something like that...”
“I have not started yet, speak your mind.”
“I’m sorry.. I should leave, it was not my intention to disturb you.”
“You are not disturbing me. Stay if you want, company is always nice.”
She trotted up from behind and sat down next to me.
“I’m not interrupting then? You was going to pray?”
“I will wait with my pray to the twilight, when the celestial eyes are in position.”
“The celestial eyes?”
“The sun and the moon, the goddesses eyes.”
“Goddesses?”
“Celestia and Luna.”
“Who are they?”
“It will take time to explain.”
“I’m not on duty, will not be before tonight.”
“You do not need to sleep?”
“Do you?”
“I find strength in my prayers, not in my sleep.”
“Just let me know the story, if I can take a double pass then I can do tonight without sleep.”
“Are you sure?”
“Nope, but I still want to hear the story.”
“Luna and Celestia, goddesses of the sun and the moon, life and death. I do not know how the story started, nor how it will end. The only thing I know is that during my grandfathers time in the army did a being attack Trotholm. The beings name was Discord, the god of chaos. In a single attack did he wipe out the alicorns that lived here, alicorns that lead the city in the goddesses name, alicorns who prayed to the goddesses.”
“Like you do now?”
“Exactly. I, and some others, are the only ones who know about this. The goddesses power raises with the power of the prayers. Discord made everypony forget about the goddesses, and soon they where powerless. I believe that all of this happened suddenly, the goddesses did not have any time to react.”
“But how did you get to know about the goddesses?” she stared at me with curious eyes. I wondered if she believed me.
“My grandfather was stabbed during a robbery attempt, the damages were lethal. He told me all of this on the deathbed.”
“Oh, I’m sorry... I did not mean to bring up bad memories.”
“No problem. It was so long ago.”
We sat there in silence, watched the city move on its daily basis. If Warden knew something then it did not show on the daily pulse of the city. Everything was as it had been when I had left the city.
I smiled at the sound of snoring besides me, the mare had fallen asleep. I had not even asked about her name.
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“Luna and Celestia, goddesses of the moon and the sun, life-giver and life-taker. Help me in my time of need, help me during the final act of cleansing. Help me when the decisions gets hard, guide my hoof when the need is there. Protect your foals in the city, do not let harm seek out the ones who do not deserve it. Protect the small ones, let them sleep through the entire night. Luna, guide the spirits of the dead, give them your forgiveness. The body the soul leaves behind is corrupted, not the soul in itself. Celestia, forgive me for taking some of your foals from your side. Give them the last embrace, let them know that you love them. Celestia and Luna, lend me your strenght. Lend me the will power to finish this job. Lend me the power to refuse Discord entrance to my mind. I will stay in your service, now and until the end of time. In your name will I end this. In your name will I cleanse Trotholm from the filth of Discord.”
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Luna’s celestial eye smiled at me, embraced me. I could feel her soothing touch against my back, could feel her confident fill me. Her embrace washed away my doubt, washed away my fear and my tiredness. I could not help but smile.
My eyes wandered over Trotholm, a city now completely embraced by Luna’s grace. It was a beautiful city, but the heart of it was black as the night. The taint pulsated deep, would this night be enough to clear it all out? Would the corruption live here when it was all finished? Or would we succeed with removing it for good?
“The taint will follow the city, we will not be able to free it.” Discord whispered to me.
“How would it survive? We slaughter the ones responsible.”
“And do we not enjoy it? For every pony we slaughter will the taint spread. They do not know what happens, their loved ones have a family member or friend ripped away from them. Is that how we stop the taint? By replace it with our own?”
“We do not replace it with our own taint! We give the citizens of Trotholm the ability to chose their destiny, the destiny of the city.”
“Are we really that blind? Do we not see it?”
“See what?”
“That this town is doomed. When we have slaughtered the ponies will the city be ruled by you? Or will somepony else take that position? Whatever the situation will they want power.”
“I will not rule this city.”
“Who will then?”
“I do not know.”
Discord just laughed. I ignored him.
What would happen with Trotholm?
The thought stayed there only for a second before it was washed away by Luna’s embrace.
The end.
I looked at the sleeping unicorn mare besides me. What if she died? What if everypony in the guard died? How many families would I destroy with that? How many unnecessary deaths would occur this night. Would it be worth the cost?
Luna’s grace soothed my worries. Yes, it would be worth it if we succeeded. But what would I do? That would be a matter of later thoughts, first thing first.
I gently nudged the sleeping guard, it was time to wake her up, it was time for us to leave for the rest. It was soon time for the operation to begin.
“Huh, who?” she said, surppresing a yawn. She slowly opened her eyelids, her eyes quickly found me even in the faint moonlight. “Oh, its you. I felt asleep did I not?”
I could not help but chuckle at her. “Yes you did. Well, at least you are well rested for this. Are you ready?”
She nodded and rose to her feats. “Yea, I guess I am.”
I walked down the stairs in the tower, found my way down to a room stirring with life. The groups was making themselves ready, each group had been assigned a target. I could not help but notice that we where fewer than we should be. I quickly searched for Corelight and found him standing in the middle of the room, whispering to the last group. I trotted to him and adressed him as soon as I was besides him.
He looked at me.
I let out a breath of relief.
“No one in here will betray you, we have only told the ones we knew would stand up for our sake. This city will be cleansed tonight. Are you ready? We only awaits your order.”
I smiled at him.
I left the building, the sound of Corelight screaming to the guards that it was time to leave followed me outside. I could not help but smile, it was finally time.
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Luna’s grace was faint enough for us to hide in; our horseshoes was wadded so to not make any sound. Trotholm was lifeless, it was as if the city held its breath for what was about to happen. Each group felt away when it was their time, each one making their way alone towards the home of the pony they had been assigned to assassinate. And for each group that left us did my anxiety over the whole situation raise. Would they betray me? Would they betray this cause? How many of them had family on the list?
Corelight must have been able to read my worry.
“At least until somepony else have the throne.” Discord whispered to me.
“Fight it.” the unicorn mare whispered to me. “Do not give in.”
“We are not going to listen to her. She whisper words of seduction, she want our heart.”
The last group had left when we had entered the castle gardens. We were now five left, me, Corelight, the unicorn mare and two earth ponies. I saw Luna’s grace illuminating two pegasi who was heading our way. They both saluted Corelight as we got closer.
I talked before Corelight had time to respond.
It seemed as if the two pegasi relaxed at this.
“I will lead the way, Warden’s office is positioned near the top of the castle, he never leaves it.”
I motioned for him to go.
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This was not going as planned at all. I pulled my blade out from the body of the guard, making him fall over. The combat was over, all four of the guards that had surprised us lay at or hooves, together with one of the pegasi and one of the earth ponies that had followed me. We had been ambushed by these four; the pegasi had fallen before any of us had had the time to react, the earth pony shortly thereafter. I looked over the guards that had ambushed us. Three of them were still alive, the forth lay with his throat slit. I kneeled at the one I had just made fall over. He snarled at me, but I ignored him as I tore a part of his armor away, looking at the wound I had inflicted. I tore away a piece of the wadding.
He snarled at me.
“Do you have a filly?”
“No.”
“A colt?”
“No.”
“Somepony you love?”
He hesitated.
I looked at the others, they had helped the other guards as well. It did not take long time before we could keep going, leaving three wounded, but alive, guards behind us.
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We turned at the last corner before Warden’s office and was greeted by ten guards. I quickly draw my weapon, but they did no move to attack us. Instead did one of them, a unicorn stallion, raise his voice.
I was taken aback, not only had the guards waited here for us, they also knew my name.
The guard talked before I could say anything more.
“Go.” Corelight said behind me. “I will find other guards that can help us get to you.”
“He was the one that betrayed us! And now he will run away before we realize that it was he. But we can kill him, we can slaughter him.” Discord cackled inside of my head.
“Do you have anything to do with this?”
“No, I have not done anything against you and I do not believe that anypony else of the guards have. Warden must have known that you where on your way. I will find help.”
I did not know if I could trust any of these guards, but it would not matter. If I turned against them now would I most likely get killed or wounded. I nodded towards him.
I turned away and walked past the guards. One of them opened the door into Warden’s office, and I went inside.
I was greeted by a voice I knew all to well. Discord’s voise.
Discord laughed in my head, and was quickly followed by the voice in the room.
Remembering from a dream.
The door closed behind me, trapped me inside with Warden. The office was more spacious than I expected and well lit by Luna’s celestial eye that spread it grace through a big window that faced the slumbering city. Warden stood in front of the window, facing away from me. From the back of the gray earth pony was a single leathery wing emerging.
“I’m here to cleanse this city, to give this city freedom.” I said, taking a careful step backward as his silver eye glared at me.
“So you see yourself as a hero is that it? What did you hope to accomplish? Do you not see the damage you do to the city by just removing the ones that is doing their work? You remove a stallion or a mare from a position and another have to take that place, learn the work from the ground!” He marked the last word by stomping down a hoof in the ground, a hoof that changed to a lion paw before my eyes.
“I do not see myself as a hero, I see myself as a pony who sees the truth.”
“And what would that truth be?” he snarled at me.
“That Discord have fallen, his reign of chaos is over. The ponies have to control themselves, without any interference by the old, corrupted ways.”
“Discord have not fallen, you of anypony should know that. He is inside of you, I can feel him, as he is inside of me. Join me, Notharam, and we can make this city better. Things will have to change, the citizens will get more power. But this is not the way, they must be lead, they must be shown what they want.”
I could not help but smile at him.
“You know as much as I that that is not the way. This must end here. I’m here to make sure that you pay. Pay for the lives of the fifty-nine prisoners that died during Project Discord, pay for the death of Carrotshield.”
He looked surprised at me before he started to laugh.
“After Discord?”
“After Discord. A project started to make sure that Discords legacy would live on even after his death. He knew that they where on their way, that they had awoken. So he prepared. He talked to me, gave in my possession a vial of his blood, to be used if he was defeated. But I have to admit, I was afraid. I did not know what would happen if I injected it in me.”
“So you used it on prisoners, killing fifty-nine innocent ponies!”
Warden laughed again, tears running down his eyes. I took a couple of steps back in horror as I saw how the side of his back bulged outwards, the flesh and skin tearing apart. A pegasi wing emerged from the wound, hanging from his side.
In front of my eyes did one of his back legs transform, changing shape to that of a lizard.
“And I hate every moment of it! He whisper to me, tell me to give in. He laughs at me. But worst of all is the fact that I talk with his voice! My body is changing, adapts to him. And the same will happen to you! But my fate is already sealed, and so is this towns! Even if you kill me will this happen to you, your body will be the vessel for Discord and his powers! Do you not see it, Notharam?”
And I understood where he went with all this. The city was doomed. If we killed all of the corrupted ponies, removing the taint of Discord would it not matter. Discord would return and take his seat again, and new corruption would rise.
“Give in, Notharam. I’m the real power here.” Discord whispered in my ear. “Kill Warden and get your revenge, and then give in. You can not change anything.”
I did not want to believe him, it had to be something I could do. I looked at Warden, he trembled as an antler emerged on the right side of his skull, the antler of a deer. He looked pledging at me.
“Finally free.” Discord called out, stretching his body, tasting the air with his snake tongue. “That Warden was really boring, but he gave in at the end. And now, is it your turn Notharam.”
He laughed and raised a hoof to the air. If it was not for the grave situation would I laugh at the confusion that spread over the god’s face as he looked down at the hoof.
Discord laughed in my head. “It is really quite simple. I can not transform into the parts that somepony else have taken. And you, Notharam, have the talon. His magic is in that talon, without it can he not use it at all.”
The Discord in front of me stared at me.
“We are on our way.”
To end a story.
Discord was fast, it was a miracle that I was able to dodge the first move. That and the fact that he tried to grip me with the talon that was a hoof and not a talon. I flapped my wings two times to put some distance between me and the raging god, but I realized that this office was to small for me to do anything in. Discord, however was a lot more flexible than I was, he could easily bend his long snake-like body in ways that let him dodge easily and attack at the same time. I realized that this battle could only end in one way.
But I was not on the way of giving up! Discord, easily dodged the hoof I tried to struck him with and knocked me over with his own hoof. I spun around in the air before I landed on the floor, my breath nearly knocked out of me. He laughed as he trotted towards me.
I coughed up blood, I hoped that that was only from a cracked lip, but still I smiled at him.
“Regeneration. What more did you get from me?”
“Your insanity.” I cackled as I galloped towards the window, jumping in the last second and protecting my wings from the thousands shards that would follow.
The sound of breaking glass was overwhelmed by the sound of the city bell that chimed once. The cleansing of the Trotholm had begun.
I could hear Discord laugh from behind me.
He was fast! I flapped my wings, tried to get higher attitude, to be above the god. I could clearly see how he staggered to the left with each wing beat, his pegasi wing not fully functional yet. Luna’s grace shone down on us as we fought to gain the higher altitude. Even if he had a bad wing was he a better and stronger flier than me, and it did not take long before Discord was higher up in the air than I was.
He turned around in the air, facing me directly. The hatred burned in his eyes, the anger on his face clear.
My wings froze mid air, paralyzed. I could not move anything below my neck. I let out a scream as I plunged towards the ground.
Then suddenly did everything slow down, a note of my screaming hanging in the air. And around that note did a voice start to sing.
Welcome to where time stands still
The song drifted around me, repeating over and over. I hanged suspended in the air, Discord looking down at me, his face frozen in a laugh. The crystal voice kept the song around me, and I saw something strange. Behind Discord did Luna’s celestial eye slowly open, open up until it was full, her faint silver eye looking at me.
And then, everything rushed back. The song shattered in a thousand fragments and Discords laughter replaced it. The only thing was that I did not fall. An obsidian aura surrounded me, halting my fall, slowly taking me down to the ground.
“Discord, this ends now!” I heard two voices shout out. Discord was as stunned as me at the two alicorns that suddenly hoovered in the air around him, each horn glowing. I felt how I touched ground and the aura around me disappeared.
“Notharam.” a stallion whispered in my ear. “Can you hear me?”
My eyes where fixated at the two alicorns and Discord, thunder had begun to form in thin air, striking at the veil of the twisted god.
“This is important, I want you to listen closely.”
I turned my head to the side. Beside me stood an old unicorn, his coat grey and a long beard hanging from his chin. His horn glowed with a faint white light, illuminating the knife he held in his magic.
“Who are you?” I whispered, my throat sore from the screaming.
“My name is Star Swirl.” he said and looked up at the battle in the sky. “I do not have long time. I’m here to kill you.”
I just stared at him.
“Listen, I do not want this but it is for the sake of Equestria. The goddesses do not know that I’m here. They are weakened for every second they stay here, they have to block out the aura from this city from their minds and fight Discord at the same time. It’s taking their toll on them.”
I coughed, before turning towards the sky again. The lightning still struck down on Discord, he was flying lower now and black blood dripped down on me from the heavens, burning like acid.
“When they defeat the vessel of Discord up there will all his power go to the nearest vessel, or in this case the only. All his power will fly down to you, and I can promise you that you will not be able to resist it. He will come back, mightier than he is now, with a vessel that is exactly like his real body is. The goddesses would not be able to kill another draconequus as it is now. I’m sorry Notharam, I really am.”
“Do it.” I whispered, coughing directly thereafter.
“Are you sure?” he said, surprise clear in his facial expression.
I smiled at him.
“I promised,” I coughed again. “To cleanse this city. I knew that I would not be able to survive myself.” I coughed violently. “So end it, give Trotholm peace.”
He nodded once, and then his eyes went to the sky.
I looked at the battle above, I could see how the twin alicorns were fighting with the last of their powers, each of them starting to worn out. Then, in a giant explosion, did Discord vanish. I could see how something heeded towards me from where Discord had just been. It was the last thing I saw as the knife pierced my heart.
“Honey.” was the last thing I thought before the knife ended my life.
~Ten Years Later~
“Happy birthday!” the room shouted out. Honey was surprised by how much her friends had done to fix this party. Rainbow colored garlands hanged from the ceiling of the Carrot Mansion’s ball room, balloons floated freely in the air and a giant cake with eighteen candles stood int he middle of the room.
She could not help but smile ear to ear as she ran towards Carrotrose, hugging her tightly.
Carrotrose smiled down at her, returning the hug.
As if summoned did the golden coated young earth pony walk up behind them, a bright smile on his lips.
She hugged him tightly.
He blushed slightly.
Honey smiled brightly at him.
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The day had turned to night and the celebration was still going when Carrotrose took Honey to the side.
“What is it mom?” Honey happily asked.
Carrotrose lay a hoof around Honey’s neck, whispered to her.
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Dear Honey. My dear dear foal. Firstly, if I know Carrotrose correctly, Happy Birtday.
When you read this will I be long since gone, I do not even think you will remember me at the time you read this, but I hope so. You deserve to know the truth. The truth about your father, the truth about everything around you. Do not think I liked to leave you behind, never believe that. I'm torn in this decision, but I have to put Trotholm, and in the end maybe even Equetria, before the happines of my daughter. That were words I hopped I would never say, or write. But before I will tell you the truth is there some things I want you to do for me.
Firstly, give Carrotrose my thanks for her hospitality. She always took care of me, and I believe she have been like a mother to you. If Carrotsword is still alive, which I hope, give him my thanks as well.
Secondly, an old friend of mine, Lightheart, lives in Trotholm, or at least I hope he survives what I'm about to do. If he still is alive, go to him and talk with him, let him know that he was a pillar in my life when my life was a hell. The only pillar in my life besides you. He have a son, Goldenheart, please let him know that I'm sorry I never got to know him.
To say this part fast; I'm a monster. The thing I will do is going to end the monster inside of me; it is going to set Trotholm free. If I could come back to you I would, but as it is now... I'm sorry, you never deserved this. I was injected by a corruption, it corrupted my mind and my heart. It was this or turn into a monster, slaughtering the town of Trotholm and Luna or Celestia knows more. Carrotsword have a journal and a letter. I'm sure you will be allowed to read them if you ask.
Also, tell Carrotsword that I'm sorry.
Do not cry for me Honey. I'm with your mother now, in a place where everything is happier. I will wait for you here. Daddy
A tear dropped from Honey’s cheek as she read it. She re read it two times more before she lay it away and started to cry, the tears welling up as the memories returned. The memories of a happier time, of playing in a big castle garden under the watching eye of the sun.