can lead to the fall

by flowgninthgil

Rating: everyone
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Rainbow Dash, Sad, Romance, Spike, Twilight Sparkle
Length: 3929

But you told me, if I love her, let her go.

who said keeping feeling inside would only hurt yourself? what about the others around? won't they feel sad or angry if you keep them from the truth?

read the prequel before, always useful to do it.
have a good read

I did not ask the author of scared of heights if I could write this story, I will do as he/she want if asked.

Published 2020-10-21 12:00:01 UTC
Last updated 2020-11-20 23:31:23 UTC

the last to fall

She was flying as fast as she could. Spike did said it was important nut still, why only her? he said the pegasus was needed but only her could come, he added too that it was urgent bzt without saying what it was. It really has worried her how bad it sounded, maybe was it linked with Twilight, she and her friends started to see her less and less after the weeding.

The rainvow trail could be seen above canterlot as the mare neared the castle. when she arrived, she was greeted by a little green and purple dragon. "heya Spike, what'sup?" the young dragon turned around, his head was near rainbow's now but what Rainbow noticed was the woried look on his face and the sadness in his eyes. It all quickly changed to hope and joy but you could see there was something wrong. "Rainbow i need you to follow me, quick!"

without leting the blue pegasus the time to reply he was already running inside the castle, she could only follow him through the castle. their run only stopped when they arrived near what looked like Twilight's room, the door have jer cutie mark on it.

"so, can you tell me what's happening Spike?" started rainbow, looking a bit confused. panting he looked up at her before simply saying "It's Twilight"

"What about her? You sent me a leter saying there was something urgent and that you needed me the earliest possible, what's happening?"

"She... It's hard to tell like that." he sighed and closed his eyes before continuing. "how about start from the begining? that sound good and very helpful if I want to explain everything."

"Okay but maybe somewhere else than in front of her room, it sound personal. Do you know anywhere private enough for us?"

"how aout the top of the castle? there isn't a lot of pegasi here and they don't fly hight enough to come near it." and with that they headed to the nearest balcony and took flight. it didn't took two minutes for them to arrive. the sun was starting to fall from it's apex and the wind was cold but slow.

"Can you tell me now? You got me all worried now. what is wrong with Twilight?"

Spike took a deep breath before letting it out. "You see, years ago Twilight fell in love with a mare, having no experiance in it she was really scared of it and didn't know how to approach it, one time, while she was out with some friends, she got drunk, her crush was there and she told her, but so low that she either didn't noticed or though it was because of all the alcohol.

With time passing, her crush did not weakned, it grew stronger as she spend time with her newfound love. sadly for her her esitations and fears got her to wait too much. somepony else asked her crush out and the mare accepted. with-"

"wait, Twilight's into mares?" Raibow was really surprized, she always though she was straight and that was why sshe wasn't ever seen on a date, the lack of stallions that could pick her interedt. it seems they were wrong all that time, she had a crush and none of her frinds had seen it. "What did Twilight about it?"

"What every good friend would do when two frineds start going out, she supported them. Rven if it was hard for her, it was for her friends so she took on her. time passed, I could see she was getting better but then she received the news that they were getting married. she got really happy, she was even asked bestmare by one of her two friend, she accepted obviously-

The problem started the day of the weeding, in an hour she got from 'very happy' to 'I'm smiling so you don't see therE's something wrong, at this moment I didn't know it was about her old crush, I though it was over for a long time now, but even if nothing changed just after the weeding, things weren't exaclty the same. think she started to regret doing nothing for all that time and as time was going by, she started to lock herself in a bubble. For a time i could acces it easely but i took two years for me to understand what has happened and it was already too late. Even for I it started to get harder to enter her bubble.

Now she spend her time in her room, being an alicorn help her to eat less without problem and she only teleport food from the royal kitchen in her room, it's been about a year and a half I didn't see her and about three years for the princesses." he made a pause before looking at rainbow. "When was last time any of you has seen her?"

this made Rainbow stop. all that time she was listening and taking the informations one by one, she wanted to know who was that mare who got their friends like that, who was so important that, even after years, she still loved her. then it came like a slap in the face. 'when was last time they'd seen her?' the though echoed inside her head. four? five? since the weeding, how many time did they talk to her? it was easy, none. not once did they talked to her after the weeding.

then a second slap came as the link was made. It was her. Twilight loved her all that time. then some points came back, the drunked Twilight confessing her love, she really did it. and Spike was right. she though it was a drunked 'I really like you, my best friend' but it wasn't. the way she acted before saying it came a slear as crystal. everything was there but she though it was the alcohol's fault.

She broke her heart without knowing it, she made her watch her lover's relationship grow and blossom while she was stuck there, on her own with feeling she couldn't stop. and now here she was, in her room, locked from everythings. all because shecouldn't see it when she should had.

Spike entierly forgotten, Rainbow dived into her memories, how happy those time with Twilight were and how her laugh when they were reading together brightned up her ost darker days. but here they were, one being married and the other one in her room for the third consecutive year without leaving it. Twilight loved her, she loved her back unknowingly, and yet she lived with another.

had Twilight been a little more daring or herself less dense, she would have been with Twilight, reading or flying. But here she was looking at the setting sun, the dawn slowly letting place to the Twilight.

two wet things fell on her front hooves. a third one. she was crying... Spike was silent, he had seen how rainbow's face changed between different emotions and let her think. she should have seen it, she and Twilight whould have been together. but now? now they grew appart, her feeling never came back because Twilight was less present. none of them had seen twilight grow distant, slowly but surely. in just one year she made them forgot about her so she won't be bothering them with her feelings.

[And I fly,
Futher away,
Than I've ever been before,
It's safe to say.

This sky is lonely and grey,
And every night I used to feel your gravity waves

And the world is cold, but it's beautiful
I wish you were here now, I miss your soul
But you lost your light when the darkness called
And you stand there waiting](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JyaH_DWY6TI)

she took a seep breath

I let you fall
I let you fall
I let you fall
I let you fall...

And you fly,
Abrove all that despair
My heart is broken, it's been years by now

And I won't try a final attemps
The world is moving but I'm stuck from then.

And will I be bold, will I try once more?
I could never hate you,
I could never let you go.
And if you fall in love,
will they hate me all?
I'm standing waiting,

for me to fall...
for me to fall...
for me to fall...
for me to fall...

The second voice came out from under them but neither of the dragon or the pegasus noticed who was singing, only the sadness coming with it.

It's your magnetic hold,
A gentle pull
I could feel you near me
When your melody cames,
I was far away.
you were too afraid

I let you fall
And then i fell
I let you fall
And then i fell
I let you fall
And then i fell
I let you fall...
And then i fell...

Author's Note

sorry for all dashshy lover but I'm a fervent twidash shipper and I couldn't let Twilight suffer without making Rainbow do something, good or bad.
spoiler alert: the next chapter will have twilight actually speaking
it's a two-shots story, more and I will never finish it, less and I won't be able to do everyting i want.
hope you liked it, see ya in the next chapter

let it die

Twilight had her eyes closed as the las notes of the song faded away. she knew she was crying but acted like she wasn't, listening to the silence that folowed the end of the song. their song, the one they sang together, the one about how Rainbow let her, unknowingly, suffer while she was living the best days of her life. the one about how she regrets not taking Twilight's words seriously, the one where they opened their hearts to each others.
The one they should have never sing together.

she was crying and now she knew why.Twilight fell on her balcony, her legs not being able to keep her standing. she didn't heard the wings beat nearing, neither had she heard the quiet sound of four hooves touching down few steps from her. she was crying her despair down, not caring who might see her or what they'll think.

a gentle hoof wraped around her like protective shell, a shell meant to protect her from this cruel world outside, the same that took her love and replaced it by the despair of supporting a friend no matter what. a comforting and appealing shell.

not even knowng it, Twilight buried herself in the chest linked to her so called shell, crying herself to sleep in the warms she carved for so long. abrove her, a sad looking rainbow mained pegasus watched her, not knowing what to do. finally, sleep took the lead and she slowly drifted away, her head on the lavender alicorn's one.

Twilight woke up slowly in her warm embrace. she knew she wasn't in her bed last night and she also knew it couldn't be spike. she didn't want to know, not even remember, everything that mattered were the wings around her back, the legs around her neck and the chest were she buried her head deeper to keep the sun from lighting her eyes.

what felt like day, and were probably only an hour, of warmth was breaked when one of the wings moved from her back, lettting the cold air lightlyy brush her coat. her body was sore but, until now, the warmth was a valuable counter argument. not that it was gone the urge of screatching was her first priority.

Twilight frstly extended her back legs before doing the same with her front and, after somehow doing the same for her wings while having another one on her back, buried her head back in the chest under her. sadly for her, the chest moved as did the wing and the whole body a short second after. "err... Twilight?" the lavender mare's ears turned to the voice coming from just in front of her. while the mouth mumbeled something ununderstandable.

"you see Twilight... I know I'm very comfy, Flutter' say so everyday, but you know why can't let you do that." Rainbow's calm but sad voice came as a reminder of why she felt so worned out from last night and why she was sleeping on Rainbow. not only did she got up in an instant but she also felt the feling from last night coming back. she then quickly flew back inside her room and closed the doors and blinds.

Rainbow couldn't move, too stunned by what just happend. she hopped that they would be able to talk it out and then they would be able to be friends again, nothing would have happened and they will forget those feelings. and then she understood. Twilight don't want to love her anymore but she can't stop it. she's scared of what would happen, not from rainbow but from her other friends. she can't be near from Rainbow, else she think she won't be able to control herself. now she knows Rainbow return her feeling but won't do anything about it, thinking it will worn out with time.

Rainbow got up an slowly knocked at the door. a muffled cry was her only responce. she knew she bucked up but couldn't do anything, so she waited, waited unil she heard Twilight moving. she heard a piece of peper, a little glass moving and then she heard it, this beautiful voice that will never be hers because of her denseness. the sad but calming voice.

[I cut myself into pieces
Searching for my imperfections
I had plans to make us wholes
But my stupidity was made me only weaker
I have nothing left but I'm not leaving
When all love is you

I've been looking for a way
To cut those feeling from my life
And if I could find a way,
Then I would have been back that night
I'd make me look,
I'd lie myself
I'd take this love from my eyes
And he told me, if you love her
Let it die.](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJtBYAKBByk)

Rainbow didn#t sanf that time. she let her hurt frend sing all her pain out.

Your eyes stared right throught me
Ignoring my failed attemps to
Get you know the love I have for you
But I can't stop my heart beating so fast
I'm so far gone but it's leaving
when all I love is you

I've been looking for a way
To cut those feeling from my life
And if I could find a way,
Then I would have been back that night
I'd make me look,
I'd lie myself
I'd take this love from my eyes
And he told me, if you love her
Let it die.

and it left me
more caring than
you'll ever know
when I put me
far from you

'cause I've been looking for a way
To cut those feeling from my life
And if I could find a way,
Then I would have been back that night
I'd make me look,
I'd lie myself
I'd take this love from my eyes
And he told me, if you love her
Let it die.
Let it die...
Let it die...

the door opened only for rainbow to be stoped by a hoof- "you'll have to promise me you'tr never coming back nor telling about this t anypony, understood?" she tried to think about something but there was something in those sad eyes that kept her, instead she just nodded and turned around to take flight.

before she could go, she was called one last time. she didn't have to turn around as her head was turned by an unknown will and before she could do anything, a pair of lips were on her own. the moment felt like heaven and ended too early for rainbow's taste.

when Twilight pulled back she smiled and said "it must have been hard for you, maybe harder, but I'm thankful you listened to me.""

she disapeared with a flash, her last words floating in the air "adieu"

Author's Note

yeah i know, I said two-shots but I will be doing an epilgue, well, it's already writed as I writed in this chapter first. to be honest, the conclusion wasn't meant to be an epilogue, it started as three lines then six then ten then it was way too much for a conclusion

hope you liked this chapter too and that you'll like the epilogue too

if you notice any error can you please DM them to me? thanks

Epilogue

When Rainbow came back at home later that day, she didn't even notced Fluttershy, instead she headed straight to their room and got into the bed. She didn't even cry, only puting herself in the bed, face deep in her pillow.

After some failed attemps, Fluttershy got out to get her friends, telling them that, after receiving a letter of Twilight, she got canterlot and, when she came back, got straight to the bed with an aweful look in her eyes. Hearing about it, they firstly headed back the Fluttershy and rainbow's and, understanding they wouldn't be able to do anything, got to the conclusion that something happened at canterlot.

The next thing they did was taking the train to the capital and then going straight to the castle. Once there, they got to find princess Celestia and asked her about Twilight. It really got them suspicious when her first reaction was surprise then sadness before her normal emotional mask came back. She them simply told the four ponies that she hadn't seen her former student in years. She also added that neither had her sister do so.

Thanking the Princess, they asked for their friend's room and left. The first thing they noticed when arriving at the room was Spike sitting in the middle of the room, his face full of sadness and his eyes wattering but no tears falling. That got them all to stop and rethink the fact that Twilight did something to Rainbow.

Knocking to get the little dragon's attention, they asked him if he knew where Twilight was, they never got any clear answer, only half contained sobs. This only conviced that something really bad happened to Twilight so they asked about the reason of Twilight own exile in her room. Struggleing to keep tears fom falling he explained.

He explained how, during all their years of friendship and adventure, Twilight got stronger and stronger feeling for Rainbow but never wanting to say so fearing for her feelings to be one way only. He explained how, after Fluttershy asked Rainbow out, she cried for being stupid about belving that Rainbow would never go out with a friend, sometimes wishing for the pegasus' relation to fail and then regretting it immediatly.

He explained that she slowly accepted the fact that she will probably never be able to have her feling returned and started trying to let it fade. He also explained how, when her love got to annouce her she was getting married, her feeling still hadn't faded and how it got her to spend more time in her room. He told them that, when she prepared to assist to the weading, she put everything she had in herself to appear happy for them, he then told them how, once they came back, she started to prepare for a moving to cantorlot. He finished with telling them how she got from passing lots of time in her room to ever leaving it for month and getting out or an hour at most.

Then came the expected question, the one about the meeting between Rainbow and Twilight. Their answer was that Spike couldn't hear what was said and only that he saw Rainbow flew from the window and shortly after, Twilight going out of her room with two full saddlebag filled with what looked like needing for long travels-

The wound got deepened when Rainbow learned that Twilight had left unknowingly from all for an undertermined time to an unkown place. All the while, Twilight got to the south and decided to live as a nomad marchant going from town to cities and cities to town.

Their four friends, Fluttershy mostly, took on themsleves to get Rainbow back to a better state but quickly understood the Rainbow wasn't going to feel better until she accepted whatever she felt like she did wrong, leaving their relationship in an hold.

The princesses later learned from spike the full story, even the fact that he prettended not knowing to his friends, he also told them the project Twilight told him she had planned. It took him time to forgive Twilight from leaving so quickly with near no word to anypony. During that time he slowly grew and made home of the castle, the public seeing him as a new habitant of the castle.

Time got faster with the years and when he felt like his time was up to, he left the castle to join his long missing sister in her slow travel in the desert. Neither of them coma back to Ponyville nor Canterlot and spending decades travelling. The only five exeptions were for their former friends.

Rainbow came first, never forgiving herself, she lost any life goal and slowly let her life fade away. No word was exchanged between them but when Twilight let tears fall and begged for forgiveness for making the one she loved die because of her greed and hopes. She begged forgivenes for everything they spoke about when she came to the castle, revealing to their frineds the truth. She couldn't face her former friends when she got up and left.

Then came Rarity, her shops were in most of the bggest cities of equestria and her work was famous and all-known. Sadly, Fluttershy came after her, she dedicated her life to her animals, then to rainbow and, after learning the truth, took refuge in the forest within the animals but it was obvious that she felt like she was the reason of Rainbow's and Twilight's missed relationship. It was her animals who got her body back when she died in her sleep.

Pinkie died a year or so after, she had put on herself to keep all of her best friends the support for all the problems they faced from theat day, straining her but she never lost her smile. Lastly, came Applejack, her well maintaned body and he healthy food kept her for another decade and a half. That day, the princesses came and built a monument where rested five of the elements of armony, a monument of friendship and trust, it was qlso the first and last time for decades that they were seeing the fourth alicon and her dragon that was now as tall as the old cadance on his back legs.

That was the last time Twilight had seen any of her friend and the last time the century that she had seen the princesses.

Author's Note

sorry if I took a bit too much time for this, I kinda forgot about it and it needed to be rewrtied before being published. anyway here it is, a sad end and all that because I only accept Rainbow with Twilight in the mane six, hope you anjoyed and if any of you had started it, I decided to go back on the writing of the Nameless pony that I kind of put aside for too long.