Murder I Wrote

Murder I Wrote

Chapter 9

How I'm Here, Pinkie

"Pinkie, I don't know if you'll understand what I'm about to tell you, but... just bear with me, okay?" This is stupid, I tell myself as I speak slowly to Pinkie, who's considerably cheered up in the past five minutes.

"It's okay. I won't judge you, 'Flashy." Pinkie gives me the cutest smile, and I can't help but smile in return. Breaking my heart with that smile, Pinks.

"Alright... so... let me start from who I really am..."

Let me start off with my real name; it's ‘Carl’. I find it a nice name, and the meaning behind it makes me happy: a man with limited ambition, but he always seems to land on his feet. Has a great sense of humour but an overbearing personality. Seems outwardly happy with life but is internally depressed at all times. Never grows up but can hold a mature conversation.
Loves life but hates people and their messed up ways. I thought it all a bit too much when I found that out, but honestly, it describes who I am well... or who I was.

Anyways, I use to be something called a 'human'. A bipedal, kind of like a monkey. I lived on a planet called 'Earth', inhabited by many exotic animals, humans, and other species of beings. The animals couldn't talk like they do here, and generally, everything was quiet. Nothing big happening for me, anyways.

I had a family; not kids or anything, but... a mom, a dad... two brothers... I stop, letting out a sniff as I remove a hoof from her side and rub my eyes. Sorry, getting choked up over something silly... anyways, I had an all around great family. Sure, we had problems, fighting and arguing occasionally, things like that, but all families do. But, in the end, we still loved each other. I also had a great pile of friends that were usually at my side when things got gloomy. Like you do, Pinkie.

But, after a boring day at school... I think it was boring... I went to sleep, to relax. During my sleep, I was killed... by my own friends. Somehow... just, somehow, I was brought here. It happened so fast, I couldn't tell what was going on. That's why I'm here... how I'm here... and, to be honest... I miss home. I miss my entire family, and I want to be with them more than anything.

Equestria is a great place, Pinkie. But, as much as I want to stay... I want to leave. I want to be in the place that was normal... now I'm out of my comfort zone. I... for heaven's sake, I take pills just to be happy! I want them back... I'm so stressed here. Especially yesterday. That ... I held it in too long. I just... I just want to let it out...

I'm crying now. Tears... I feel them streaming down the sides of my cheeks. Pinkie is just looking at me and smiling. Her forelimbs wrap around my, what I think is, large neck, pushing me into her. I feel a warm, fuzzy, feeling in my stomach and chest as she embraces me. It makes me smile, but I continue to cry. I want to be with my family... I miss them so much...

"'Fla--... C-Carl... you don't need to cry. Pinkie is here to make you smile!" I can't help but chuckle and sniff to keep my nose from running.

"Just call me Shadowflash, I don't mind..." is all I say, and I hear her softly hum something into my ear.

Come on everypony
Smile, smile, smile...
Fill my heart up with sunshine,
Sunshine...
All I really need's a smile, smile, smile...
From these happy friends of mine...!

I quietly laugh as she sings this into my ear. I decide to join in, even though I'm terrible at singing.

Come on everypony
Smile, smile, smile...
Fill my heart up with sunshine,
Sunshine...
All I really need's a smile, smile, smile...
From these happy friends of mine...!
Yes the perfect gift for me!
Is a smile as wide as a mile!
To make me happy as can be....

She pushes me away from her, and I'm now looking her in light cerulean eyes, smiling. Her hoof presses against my right cheek, and I feel my tears being wiped away. Pinkie does the same to my left cheek and then she places her hooves on my shoulders.

"'Flashy... uhm... I know this is too soon, but... I've... been thinking... do... uhm..." She seems flustered, but remains smiling; it makes the most adorable blush I've ever seen. Her cheeks are flushed a bright red and she wears a set of 'bedroom' eyes on her face.

"Would you mind if I... kissed you?" She gives me a little puppy-pout and I can't help but smile.

Unfortunately, that thought of horses kissing me makes its way my mind.

She's a horse... it's wrong...

C'mon, man, when are you going to get a piece of ass for once in your life?

Just fuck her.

Kiss her. You deserve it. She's sentient and has above-average intelligence.

Don't do it; it's a crime against nature. Haven't you ever watched the news?

Bro, that ass is waiting for you, take it.

Do the unthinkable. Dive into her... let her feel you.

Don't listen to them. They're wrong. They're all wrong. You know what is right. You have the intelligence for it.

I shake my head to Pinkie, smiling to her. "Not at all, Pinkie. I'd like that very much." Her face shines with joy, and she tentatively moves closer to me; I feel her lips press against mine.

They're soft, smooth, and I can tell she's a virgin in terms of kissing. I know a little bit about it, but, I just let it happen. Her lips feel like a baby's bottom, for lack of a better metaphor. I start to kiss in return, letting our lips collide and gently brush against each other. It takes a minute to get the right rhythm going, but, it feels natural as we continue along. I don't know how much time passed, but it builds a euphoric egg in my mind... I honestly can’t control myself.

"'Flashy... is that...?" is all I hear her ask, then she pulls away.

My eyes dart open, and I feel my cheeks heat up. I look down quickly, taking a glance, then look back up in panic. "Uhh... I... err... s-sorry... I get... uhm... wha-what's the word? Ex... ermm.." She stops me, placing her hoof on my lips, giggling.

"It's fine, Flashy. But, you should learn a bit of self control." She winks and I feel a hoof push against my nethers, then pull away. The feeling was great, even if it lasted for a second.

"Aww, jeez, not going to continue? Not the best way to end it." I joke and she just giggles.

"I asked for a kiss, not for that." I smile as she says this. It was true.

"Well... I think I'm ready to apologize to the others. I was a jerk to them. I hope they'll forgive me." I sigh and Pinkie just nods.

"They will, don't worry about it. You don't know them like I do!" Pinkie bounces up and opens the door.

"See you out here!" I nod as she trots out.

Got a lot of explaining to do. Fuck me sideways.