Luna's Letters

by Vynce

Rating: teen
Tags: Romance, Tragedy, Slice of Life, Twilight Sparkle, Sad, Princess Luna, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 2823

Luna writes a series of letters to Twilight Sparkle.

Luna writes letters to Twilight Sparkle; as a show of appreciation...and possibly something deeper. There is one problem though; how much time will pass before Luna can gather up the courage to actually start sending the letters...

(Sylentmist87 has done a reading you can watch on youtube here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nhp34kQPfY0&feature=relmfu)

Published 2012-09-02 04:04:04 UTC
Last updated 2012-09-02 04:04:04 UTC

Dear Twilight

Dear Twilight Sparkle,

We don’t believe a simple letter will actually be able to convey our fullest thanks to you. You have saved our life, and we will be grateful for the remainder of our years. Were it not for your recent display of bravery and love, we would still be trapped in our own body by the Nightmare that has been cause for so much of our pain. That is not a subject appropriate for simple letters, however, perhaps we can discuss it at another time. We’re unsure why we have chosen to write, rather than give you this message in person, it is perhaps because we are still uncertain of pony social norms since our return. Regardless, we wish to thank you for everything you have done for us.

Signed,
Princess Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight Sparkle,

It has been some time since we have written that letter of thanks to you, and it may sound strange but we do not believe it was sufficient. Our appreciation for your deeds transcends any that we have ever felt before. Letters will never be enough to properly show our immense gratitude, but we can only hope that writing another might help. You have saved us from our Nightmares, and ended our banishment. It’s because of you that we are given another chance to show our love to the ponies of Equestria, and it’s because of you that we have hope for making amends with our sister. As such, here is our second letter of appreciation, we hope you find it well.

Signed,
Princess Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight Sparkle,

This would be our third written letter to you, and we haven’t even delivered the first two, yet. We hope this is not perceived as obsession, we are certain that you can understand. This will be our final ‘thank you’ and we hope that we can get around to sending you all of our letters in time. Thank you again, for the last time.

Signed,
Princess Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight Sparkle,

You have helped ~~us~~ me once again, and now ~~we~~ I feel the need to write another letter. How is it that you’ve managed to help ~~us~~ me so much since my return, and ~~we~~ I have yet to even find the courage to send a simple letter to you? You are strong, Twilight Sparkle, and you have helped me with more than ~~we~~ I could ever dream of repaying. You have not only saved us from Nightmare Moon, but again you have shown the beauty of your heart by helping me gain social acceptance. ~~We~~ I must also add that I’m coming to enjoy this new manner of speaking you have taught us, ~~we~~ I am growing rather fond of it, despite the numerous faults that have already littered this letter. I only wish there were some way that ~~I~~ we... no, I had that right the first time... I only wish there were some way that I could show you the vastness of my gratitude. Maybe if I could actually bring myself to send you these letters they might prove enough, but that’s enough rambling for one message. Thank you again, Twilight Sparkle.

Signed,
Princess Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight Sparkle,

I have practiced this new method of speech a great amount. I am writing this letter in a mostly vain show of my own pride, but again I have only you to thank. I have come to be accepted by my subjects and my own sister more than I have in thousands of years, and it is because of you. I was honestly hoping this letter would be more casual than the obsessive letters of appreciation that I seem to have been writing lately, but there is just so much to thank you for that a few letters does not do it justice. Rambling again, I apologize. I hope that someday you will see this letter, it all depends on when I’ve gained the courage to actually send it to you. Thank you again.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I have been studying the behavior habits of many of my faithful subjects, and I have come to suspect something. This is hardly a proper topic for a letter, but they have proven to calm me in the past. I suppose if I ever get around to sending these letters to you, this one could simply be omitted, this is a message I plan to give you in person.

I believe I may have developed feelings for you, feelings a bit more powerful than simple appreciation and friendship. Watching other ponies who share this feeling with each other show similar behavior, and it just makes too much sense to be coincidence. The fact that I have not sent you any of these many letters I have written I believe to be the result of anxiety, and fear of disappointing you or doing you any emotional harm. If you were not to reciprocate these feelings then we would both be devastated, and I wouldn’t wish that on either of us. I suppose I should end this letter now, it does not need to be very official or professional, considering I will never be sending this one to you, anyway.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

It has been a long time since I have last written. I don’t know why that would be important, though. It’s not as though I am required or even expected to be writing these to you. Nopony actually even knows of them. Not even you...

Sorry, I had to take a break from writing to do... something. I don’t know why I wrote that, I’m making no sense anymore. This letter is unable to know whether I have taken a break or not, it seems my mind is elsewhere today.

Anyway, this letter was intended to be a written apology before I went off on a ridiculous rambling spree. I wanted to say sorry for not attending your brother’s wedding today. I don’t know if my presence would have changed anything for better or worse, or even if the lack thereof has even been noticed. I am rarely certain of anything anymore, but that is not something you need to concern yourself with. I just wanted to say sorry again, I wish I could have been there on such a big day for you and your brother.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

It has been bugging me that my last letter did not contain any of my appreciation. I realize by now you’d probably think I had written enough, but again you’ve saved me and I feel the need to write. You have saved our entire kingdom from the invasion of the Changelings, it may have been Cadence and Shining Armor’s mutual love for each other that had actually driven them away, but if not for you then nopony would have ever even known there was any danger in the first place. You’re an amazing mare, Twilight, and you will have my gratitude forever.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I apologize that our meeting was so uncomfortable yesterday. When I finally choose to deliver these letters I hope that you will understand, it was all my fault. I felt so awkward knowing that I was keeping secrets from you, and it was this awkwardness that spoiled the entire event. I hope that I can be forgiven, yesterday was just so strange. I wanted nothing more than to confess everything to you on the spot, but it would seem so sudden and rushed I was afraid it would just push you away. I’m afraid that giving you these letters is the only way, so I’m going to do just that.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I’m so pathetic. So very, very pathetic, Twilight. I had the letters with me when I visited you today, and I still couldn’t do it. You were so happy, what if my letters had destroyed that? I would rather keep this pain to myself than share it with someone like you. I would never hurt you, Twilight. Even though I know you would forgive me, because that’s the type of pony that you are. You’re forgiving, and beautiful, and strong, and faithful, and so many things that I cannot even write for fear of causing a scandal. I’m so ashamed of myself, and disappointed in my own greed. I wanted you to comfort me, and you can’t, because you don’t even know that I am having such conflicts. I wanted you to be there for me, and I was actually upset when you weren't. I am a pathetic pony.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I’m beginning to think that I will never give you these. I had held up hope for so long that someday you would read them, and that maybe you would understand. I’ve lost that hope, though. I realize only now that these letters were never really written for you. They were written because I am selfish, and I want to write all of my emotions on paper because it makes me feel better. I still have yet to give you all of the thanks you deserve. I only console myself with knowing I wrote them. I guess that makes me happy in a way, knowing that you don’t feel for me how I feel for you. I don’t deserve you, Twilight, and you’re worth more than what I will ever be able to give you.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

You’re getting married?! How could you not have told me this? Who is this stallion that seems to have come from nowhere and taken you from me? I was never even aware that you were dating somepony, and now you’ve promised the rest of your life to one. I will never be able to send you my letters now, it would only bring pain to anyone involved. Maybe I’ll burn them, you obviously don’t want to hear from me anymore.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I don’t even know any words that can express my shame for that last letter. I would never dream of burning these letters, and it was foolish of me to make any assumptions about anything. I was just jealous and sad and scared. I had just learned that I lost you forever, and it hurt so much. I wish you the happiest of times together, and I will never try to come between you.

If nothing else, at least my jealousy has proven something, though. It’s confirmed suspicions I’ve had for a while, now. I love you, Twilight. I’ve never loved anypony before, and I was so hoping that I was wrong, but I wasn’t. I’m in love, and you will never love me back. It’s not your fault, though. I never told you.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I’ve come to realize that perhaps this stallion is a blessing in disguise. We could never have been together, even if you had reciprocated my feelings. It would only bring heartache, and so I appreciate him.

If it weren’t for him, and we had somehow through a beautiful twist of fate come to be together, I can’t imagine the pain I would feel. I could not grow old with you, Twilight. I’ve discovered the reason Celestia had never taken a pony as a husband, and I understand it all now. I would be forced to hold you and watch as your life faded from your eyes, and I don’t think I could bear to witness that. The feeling of your warm body slowly turning cold in my arms.

I could not live an eternity after something like that, Twilight. The pain would be too much, and it would cripple me.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I’m so sorry. I know he meant the world to you, and I hate him for what he’s done. How could he be so foolish and blind as to ruin what he had with you. He’d won the heart of a perfect mare, and he deliberately stomped on it. I’m not afraid to admit that I am crying as I write this. I had refrained from telling you of my pain in fear that it would hurt you, but I’m afraid that holding back may have hurt you more. If I had given you my letters, would it have turned out any different? If you had known, even if you did not share my feelings, it might have saved you from this pain. You felt for him as I feel for you, and it’s breaking me to see you like this.

If I had given you these letters, you may never have met him, and then you would never have felt this way. No, sorry. That’s terrible of me to think like that. I would never wish to never have met you, I can’t imagine a world without you. Even if you don’t feel the way I wish you did, my world would still be a worse place without you. I apologize for that.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I did it again. I had my letters as I held you and comforted you. I didn’t care who thought what of the affection I suddenly showed for you, but it seems that you may not have gotten the hint. It’s for the best, I know, but it still hurts. I did not give you my letters again, because they might have made the situation worse. But I still feel ashamed of myself for it.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I told my sister everything today. She knows about everything I've been feeling for you, and she’s read my letters. Why is it that I have the confidence to show her everything, and you nothing? She told me that I should give you the letters, and I think I will. All of them. This will likely be the last letter I write, as you will have seen them after this and there will be no more need to write them any more, regardless of what you feel when you’ve finished reading them.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

You did not show up at your home all day yesterday. I will admit it made me a little worried, but that’s just me overreacting of course. I’m just so anxious and excited that this whole charade will soon be over. I’m giving you my letters at last. I actually danced in my room with giddy joy this morning, because as I write this the carriage is being prepared to depart for Ponyville. I will find you today, and I will give you all of my letters no matter where you are. I’m so happy right now, Twilight. I hope that they do not disappoint you.

Signed,
Luna

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I guess this is my last letter. and I wish it could have been written on better terms. I’ve been in my chambers for the past few days, and I won’t allow anyone entry. It’s pretty curious what love can do to a mare. Don’t feel bad, though, there was nothing you could have done. None of it was ever your fault, and I would never dream of accusing you. I still love you, Twilight. I’m afraid that I will never stop, even thousands of years from now when the rest of the world has no idea what you ever meant to me.

Love,
Luna

~~~

Luna set her stack of letters on the ground and rest her head beside them in the grass. It was a beautiful day, a horrible confliction with Luna’s own feelings. Her tears stained her cheek, and her mind drifted for a moment. After a moment of silent solace she sat back up, and levitated a quill and note from beneath her wing.

~~~

Dear Twilight,

I know that last letter was supposed to be the final one. I promise this is it, and then I will let you go forever. I just can’t help but wonder, if I had overcome my fears sooner and gave you the letters years ago when I first wanted to. If I hadn’t been so scared of hurting you, or being rejected. If I just did what a stronger mare would have done, and given you the honesty you deserved...

Would it have ended any different?

~~~

Luna set her letter atop the pile of others, and tied them together with a string. She wiped her tears from her face with a hoof, and set the letters down gently on the ground against the stone.

Here lies Twilight Sparkle

Died Age 27

Her body is lost, but her friendships will never be forgotten.

~~~

“I finally gave you the letters, Twilight,” Luna spoke quietly, her voice breaking as her cheeks were freshly stained with new tears. “I just wish I wasn’t too late.”