Life Anew

Stress does things to the mind.... Especially under hormonal assault from a child in the womb of your wife. She's going on six months pregnant and screaming at me because of little things which I'm honestly trying to ignore. Lucky me she's with Big Mac at the castle trying to give me some time to breathe while the girls are at school. It's just turning to Autumn and the days are getting cooler. More rain? Yeah. More colder nights? Yep. A shedding dog because the weather change is irritating them? Again... Yes.... I'm not sure how many furballs I've picked up because of Winona's shedding but Fluttershy's taking a look at her while I'm here at home working on the car. I stood at my car, engine compartment open and my phone nearby with music playing as I tweaked the inner workings of my Dominator. I was just rocking out, bandana tying my mane back keeping it out of my face, my jumpsuit all covered in stains and me knowing what to replace and fix. Tightened things here, loosened stuff here before I just snagged a rag from my pocket and started wiping off the oil from my hands. I huffed just sitting back before grabbing my phone and killing the music and walking off towards the house. Though as I got closer to the door I heard a quick siren just stopping me where I was. I just huffed.... annoyance running high with the stress. I just turned around and saw three guard trucks just driving down the road. I swear this was just like right after I got back from the war. Except this time I wasnt tired out of my mind and still in my pajamas. And.... worrying about how my sister is gonna be after that. Anywho I watched the trucks park around the side. Even watched as a few guards rushed out of the trucks forming a perimeter and then a few at the truck in the middle. They opened the door and out stepped Princess Celestia with a bright smile on her face. She was wearing jeans, sneakers and a semi long sleeve.... Honestly made it look good. I just walked on over and she met me half way. I saluted and she just saluted right back. "Good morning General! Apologies if I'm intruding on personal time but I want to chat with you for a bit if that's alright." She said.

I couldnt help but just give a bit of a loving sigh. "Any time Princess. Just... Uh... We going anywhere or would you like to come in?" I asked. She gave a smile.

"Of course Ryder. No use in standing out in the open." I gave a nod and just had her follow me. The two guards at the door followed but I motioned for them to stay outside while Celestia and I stepped inside. The house was honestly a mess.... Dishes hadnt been done, there were clothes here and there and just.... Applejack had been going crazy.... Looking at all the dishes, complaining most of them were dirty, clothes needed to be washed but what does she do instead of putting stuff in the hamper? She just tosses it over the fucking railing getting it everywhere. Now you see why I'm annoyed easily and outside working on the car.

"Sorry about the mess.... Just... Havent had time to clean up yet today...."

"Oh no worries. Would you like some help with it?" Before I could answer she poked her head out the door. "You two get in here, help the General with his house. Give him a break with these things." I just sighed as the guards came in. She looked to one. "You go clean up the kitchen, the other get laundry done." They saluted before going off and just doing what she ordered them to do. She looked to me and huffed. "There. You just get upstairs, clean yourself up and I'll be ready down here." I gave a nod and hurried upstairs. Gave my hands a quick wash, washed my face off (because somehow oil got on my cheeks) and even went back into the room, got into something more presentable and even brushed my mane. I came out of my room wearing jeans, sneakers and a long sleeve button up. I saw Celestia just sitting and watching the guard in the kitchen while the other one was just gathering clothes still. I came downstairs and gave a sigh.

"There...." I said. "All cleaned up and just...." I looked to the guards cleaning my house as if they were straitening up a murder scene minus the blood. Celestia looked to me.

"It's alright Ryder. You needed some help.... Child on the way, your house needs a rebuild before then, your car is having issues and even your fathers old truck is getting totally redone and you dont even know what you're gonna get. Not to mention your job, that griffon you brought back- a sweetie by the by.... You're in need of a break.... Even a bit of happiness in your life other than getting that done. We can talk about that later but... I want you to come here for a moment. Sit with me." She scooted over on the couch and just patted the seat next to her. I hesitantly walked over just feeling my nerves flare up a bit.... What was she gonna do? I had enough on my plate... is she gonna add more? Did I fuck up somehow? I stopped before the couch before just going for the fridge... Dipped inside and grabbed a few bottles of cider. One for me, one for Celestia... and another three for me.... Kidding. Set the other two aside for the guards helping me. I came back over and handed one of them to Celestia. She took it and popped it open. I popped mine open and just sipped it just holding the cold bottle. "Ryder. Breathe. You're too tense!" She rested her hand on my back.... Even took my drink and set it down. "It's alright... Just breathe.... Nothing bad going to be talked about here. Just need you to see something." I took a deep breath.... As shakey and fearful as it was it relaxed me.... slightly. She used her magic and made a glowing ball appear. "Hold out your hand..." I did so... hesitantly still. "Oh come on its not gonna bite. I'm here only with good intentions. More of something to return if I'm being completely honest." Once my hand was under the thing the bubble popped and out dropped a locket with a golden chain attached.

"What....? What is this?" I started turning it over in my hand. The engravings were intricate. Looked like a thunder cloud on one side with a lightning bolt shooting out and on the other a solar empire emblem... well... partial solar and then partial lunar.

"Allow me to explain.... While you were at war a while ago Scootaloo and Luna went for a dream walk after her birthday. She had a nightmare and wet the bed.... Luna brought her to see mother after seeing that dream and wanted to get her to smile and sleep soundly." I just stared at the locket trying to think back to that night....

"I... think I remember that night.... Luna showed me and Scoot a dream where we went and changed specific things.... I was friends with Berrie, Scoot and Applebloom ended up in Juvi... I ended up getting kicked out of the house, mom and dad got divorced and I just....." I stopped myself.

"....That's alright.... Luna told me what happened... but you're doing good... you're strong and I've seen that strength time and time again." She sipped her drink and grabbed mine. "Here. Open it and take a look inside." I held it emblem side up. Just hung the necklace part off the back of my hand before pressing the little button on top. It flipped open and what I saw? I saw a picture that I hadnt seen for years. It was a picture of me.... holding Scootaloo as a baby. I... Honestly couldnt help but tear up. "This locket was given to Scootaloo to show a good memory every time she opened it.... And from what I'm seeing it also works for you as well.... That you with Scootaloo?" I gave a nod.

"Yep... This.... This was just after Scoot was born.... Mom and dad brought her home.... Even though Dad wasnt really happy I was there he wanted me to be there to see my sister.... Ten pounds three ounces...." I sighed. "....Little did I know at the time she'd be the most important thing to me and mom and dad wouldnt be around anymore...." Celestia closed the locket and placed it down on the table replacing it with the cider.

"Well you're a good caretaker for her... Better than I even... I learned what she's like yes but you? You've always known I feel.... Warned me a bit about the punch but not the strength behind it.... One reason why I wanted to take her to get her exercise but after that incident.... I really hope she'll be okay and actually tell someone when she's not feeling well...." I took a big swig of my cider... went down smooth.

"Yeah... She does.... She told me how scared she was that day.... Wanted to wake up but couldnt and.... She told me how scared Dash was.... Lucky her I forgave her for her shenanigans at the convention."

"Understood there... Still remember when she came to the castle after she was released... pissed her pants and Scootaloo was just.... Oh I felt so sorry for her...." She sighed and finished off her drink before setting the empty bottle on the table. "...Lucky she's back to the way she is... maybe even better... nicer in fact."

"....That mare would do just about anything for me and my sister... Give up her bits, her bed, her food.... All for us...." I just chugged the rest of my drink before grabbing the bottle. "...Princess... If you wouldnt mind could we possibly just go to the castle or something? I.... I think I need to step out for a bit...."

"Sure thing General. Just get everything you need and meet me outside. Would you want to go to the castle or would you rather go to Cloudsdale? I can see if your mother would like to meet." I sighed opening a drawer and tossing the bottles into a trash can that was there.

"I'd love to see mom but I'd have to get Scootaloo from School first... Not to mention she's got school tomorrow and homework... And I'm REALLY sure that Applejack is expecting me to cook tonight... And something that's NOT hayburgers.... Basically wants me to try and cook her a fucking five star meal with everything just right or else it goes into the trash... dont know how many meals I've cooked just for it to go straight into the garbage only because one thing was too salty even though she tasted it before hand and it was perfect...."

"Ah... And what time does Scootaloo get out of school at?" She made her phone appear in her hand.

"What day is it?"

"Wednesday."

"Wednesdays Scoot should get out at 11:30 I think...."

"....We should probably get going. You're ten minutes late." I took a bit of a double take at her and then went for my phone. Sure enough ... 11:41.... I looked to the guard washing my dishes.

"You guys stay here until the job is done. After this go for a break and some lunch." The guard saluted real quick whil he went back to cleaning the rest of the dishes. I went to the Princess. "Just get to the transport, I'll be there in a moment." The Princess nodded before I just rushed up stairs. Grabbed my wallet, my phone- yes I left my phone upstairs and even grabbed shoes and what not. Rushed back downstairs and out the door only to join the Princess in her transport. She already told the others to wait for the ones inside and take a break as well. Even gave them some bits for lunch.

We hopped into the transport but all I could do is look at the locket that was shown to me. Celestia just had it in her hand, the chain almost wrapping her fingers. My mind could only think about the picture I saw... me holding Scootaloo..... That cute little foal she was.... parents there, happy for their little bundle of joy that could've never been. I feel like I've had it mentioned a few times... mom and dad tried to have a kid, never could until after I got there. Scoot was a little miracle that honestly I couldnt help but love through and through.... even after what we lost.... I must've spaced out for a bit until Celestia popped up the cooler. Foot was just on it and it nearly flipped me over. I fixed myself quickly just as she got a few juice pouches and a bag of chips ready. I looked out and just sat the school in the distance with cars still coming and going despite being about twenty minutes late. We pulled up just in front of the school. Saw parents every which way taking their kids to the car, students walking home but near the door I saw Scootaloo and Applebloom talking with Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara. I opened the door and hopped out. Scoot and Applebloom just smiled as I came up. "Jeez Ryder about time!" Scoot said. I huffed.

"Sorry Scoot got a bit distracted.... We gotta get going here anyways." Scoot nodded and just waved at her friends before moving to the truck. AB just kissed Diamond on the cheek and hugged her before rushing off. I looked to the two fillies in front of me. "You two better get home too. Maybe we can set something up a sleepover soon." They both nodded and just started running along. I went back to the transport and I already heard Scootaloo chuckling. Hopped in and saw Scootaloo in the Princesses lap just hugging her. Applebloom was just sitting off to the side already drinking her juice. I closed the door up behind me and sat down in the seat. "There we are. Happy to go home and with a special guest nonetheless."

Celestia gave a bit of a laugh. "Oh how I missed you Scootaloo!" She said. "Making friends I see!"

Scootaloo giggled climbing out of her seat into one next to the Princess. "Yep! Silver wanted to be our friend after we went back to school and she was having a few issues." She said. "And... Pretty obvious with Diamond Tiara but I'm glad we're friends now!"

"That's great! But before I forget I have something for you!" I just watched as Celestia held out her hand and showed her the locket. "Found it after you lost it after your birthday.... Not sure how but it ended up in my jewelry box thankfully..."

"WOW! My Locket! Thank you Princess!" She took the locket and hugged her once again.

"You're welcome Scootaloo... I hope you dont mind but I've already shown it to your brother. He's already seen something that... honestly really means a lot to him." Scootaloo looked to me as she put it on.

"What did you see Ryder?"

I sighed a bit just grabbing a drink for myself. Cold tea. "...I'll tell you after we get you to the castle so we can get your homework done. Kinda need to de-stress a bit here...." I said.

"....Was it mommy and daddy Ryder?"

"Scoot... We can talk about this later... please?" She gave a nod and as the cooler disappeared she came right over and sat next to me hugging me. I held her close.... Honestly kinda glad I can hold myself back from snapping at the girls.... They get enough of it from Applejack and I cant bring it upon myself to do that since they tried running away. I try to keep them in their place when I have to but just.... that seriously nearly gave me a heart attack.... I went to go wake those girls up and I swear Big Mac came rushing off in his underwear when he heard me yell that day. But seriously it felt good to hug her....

When we got to the castle I had a guard take them to go see Applejack and the Princess while I went off with Celestia.... We went to Twilight's throne room where we just sat in the thrones. I sat in Dash's throne... was one of the closer ones to Twilight's where Celestia sat. "Ryder I know it hurts.... Your life changing fast and not sure how to handle it.... You've been doing fine thus far." She said. "Yes its a little stressful trying to get things together for your new addition- speaking of which we should get you to go and start on that house soon.... Faster that gets done, faster you can come back to a somewhat normal life... We've already got a bit of a floor plan drawn up but we need you to pass off on it."

"....Do you think she's gonna be happy even after the kid comes? I mean... I've been spending a lot of time with her and just..... I dont want her to think I dont love her anymore... that I dont wanna spend time with her anymore.... I do... I still love her.... I want to spend time with her but my kid is gonna take all if not most of that time up...." Celestia sighed.

"...I can see this is gonna be hard for you with the transition.... Scootaloo will understand you wont have much time while you juggle time with the foal, your job and even then some if you want to spend time with Applejack after the fact... She's growing up yes and it might scare you she's gonna need to be on her own at one point... but you're doing a grand job taking care of her.... Your parents would be proud... Speaking of which I would like to extend a bit of an offer...." She stood up. "...Mother has asked me to tell you she's willing to allow your parents- both yours and your inlaws- to come down to oversee the birth of your foal and the building of your house... but only one set at a time... I want you to talk it over with Applejack and Big Mac, see who goes first. But as for the favor, Luna and I are planning something big that.... Honestly might be a tad dangerous.... It also may take you away from your family for at least a week or so but not to worry. You'll still see them, talk with them and everything just to make sure you're okay. All they'll know is that you're taking a short vacation I ordered. I'll explain all the details when the time comes. Understand?" I gave a hesitant nod.

"Y-Yes Ma'am... But..."

"Your foal will be fine! In that time I'll assign a trusted nanny to help Applejack and your family until you return. This is still a ways off." She got up and walked behind the throne. "For now why dont you go get a guard to retrieve your sister for a moment? Hopefully her homework isnt that hard to where she can complete it later." I gave a nod and got up walking over to the door.... Felt like the room was longer than anything.... like I was on the other side of the room but Dash's throne is like right there next to the door almost. I went out and found the first guard outside and just asked them to find my sister and bring her here. I went back to the throne room door and just leaned on it. Went and just started looking at my phone through texts. Applejack, Dash, Scootaloo and Rarity.... just everyone.... Last text I got from AJ was an 'I love you text' with a little tease picture. Dash? Just an invite to go on a run... maybe get some lunch some time to hang out. Rarity was letting me know about Scootaloo being at her place the other day and that she would need me sometime soon for a modeling session. Scoot? ...Last text I got from her was that she loves me... Very... very much... That was just this morning after she left for school.... I just sat there against the door going and looking through my folder of pictures of Scootaloo. Few after the murders, few from during and after the war, and then just some from spending time with Mama Spitfire.... I even saw a picture of her with Soarin both sleeping in the same bed, her just cuddled up to him.

I guess I spaced out at the pictures for a while before I felt someone kicking my shoe. Just looked up and saw Scoot trying to get my attention. "You good Ryder? Havent seen you this spaced out for a while..." She said. "Maybe you need a nap or something if you're tired."

I sighed getting up shoving my phone in my pocket. "...I'm not tired Scoot... Just got a lot on my mind..." I replied. "You good? Homework coming along alright?"

"All done right before you even got me up here. The Princess helped me with it while Applejack and Big Mac went out to get some food. Applejack is still a bit uh...."

"Pissy?" She nodded. "Yeah... She'll be that way until after the foal comes.... But uh.... Listen Scoot... Kinda wanted to talk to you about that...." She looked to me a bit worried.

"...Why? Is something wrong?" I shook my head.

"No not really... but.... I just dont want you to think I'm not gonna be spending time with you because I dont love you.... I do love you and I always will... Come hell or high water I'll be there for you... But for a while most of my time might be taken up with AJ and the foal.... We're even gonna have to rebuild the house here soon just to you and Applebloom can still have your own rooms and so we can have a little nursery for the foal. We're gonna try to keep things the same but it might be hard for a while.... Foal is gonna cry and it might wake everyone up but it will subside... But seriously.... If I cant spend time with you alone we can always spend time as a family.... Only telling you this now because when the time comes I dont want you to think I'm ignoring you." She gave a smile and sighed hugging me.

"It's alright Ry, I know." She said. "I had this talk with Big Mac and even he agrees this change isnt gonna be the best for everyone.... Even told me we're gonna have to help with the foal as well if you or AJ arent able to handle it because you're at work or something."

"Good.... Just... just wanting to make sure sis....." I hugged her and she hugged me right back. We hugged for a moment before I broke off trying not to shed a tear. "Alright... Now c'mon. Celestia wants you." She nodded and took my hand before we both went into the throne room again. There we saw Celestia just standing in front of a large door, white with golden inlays. We knew where this was heading.

Celestia looked to us and smiled. "There we are! There's my special filly! How've things been since we last spoke?" She asked.

Scoot sighed. "Been better... Grades are slipping slightly but I'm getting help from the teacher and Twilight when I can... And Applejack is kinda scaring both me and Applebloom when she's yelling but its from the foal so.... Should be done soon?" She said. Celestia sighed.

"Yep. Takes a bit for the hormones and stress to stop but you should be fine." She looked to me. "But for right now... I think it's time for a little trip.... Ryder seems to need it and why not take family along as well? A little moral support never hurts."

I gave a huff. "Yeah... Moral supports always good..." I said. I looked to my sister who was kind of a bit worried for me. "....Think some family time is just what we need before the foal comes.... Maybe have mom and dad give me a few tips as well..." I looked back at Celestia. "Uh... L-Lead the way Princess." The Princess nodded and just knocked on the door.

We waited for a moment before the door opened and revealed Heavens Light. She gave a smile as we bowed in respect to her. "Ah Celestia! Here for a family visit I suspect?" She asked as we rose.

Celestia giggled a bit hugging her mother. "Of course!" She replied. "I found the locket you gave Scootaloo and well... Her brother saw it and I just had to bring him along for a bit of cheering up." Heavens Light hummed as Scootaloo and I came closer to the door.

"And here I thought that locket would bring happy memories..." She bowed her head. "My apologies General... I only bestowed that upon your sister to give her a smile in your absence...."

I huffed letting Celestia pick Scootaloo up. "No worries about that. Just... Wasnt expecting to open up that locket and see something like that." I replied. "...Honestly.... Just a memory that I'm gonna be reliving soon...." Celestia's mother raised her head giving a slightly worried smile.... The kind Scootaloo would give me when she screwed something up but it was an easy fix that I honestly wasnt mad about.

"Well let your own experiences remind you there is greatness within. Your experience might not be at its best but its like riding a bike. You never forget but its always there in the recesses of your mind. Now come. Your parents await." I gave a nod and just followed Celestia's mother through the door. Celestia followed us. We almost immediately came upon a long line of doors which she just raised her hand to and swiped as if we were looking at a phone screen. Those doors wooshed by until they stopped at a door from the old family home. Heavens light looked to me. "Would you like to do the honors General?" I gave a nod and approached the door giving it a few good knocks before backing up.

Celestia set Scootaloo down and she came right to my side. We anxiously awaited for a moment before the door opened revealing our parents. We both rushed them and hugged them. I hugged dad while Scoot just jumped into moms arms. Both wearing white clothes (as usual.... nothing really descriptive about the suit or the dress). Dad just gave a huff bringing us all together. "Hey kids... Always good to see you two!" He said.

Mom set Scoot down and sighed looking at her. "I swear every time I see you you're getting to be more and more of a mare...." She said. She looked to me. "Has she been doing good? Even with the foal coming?"

I huffed. "Yeah. She's been a big help so far and here's hoping she'll be a big help once that foal comes." I said. I just looked back at Celestia and then to mom and dad. "....Can I.... Talk with you guys? Maybe get some advice?"

Dad huffed. "Advice or we trying to reassure you everything will be fine?" He asked rolling his eyes.

"Advice. Actual advice... Tips maybe for the foal? Anything I should know?" Mom and dad took my hands while Scoot walked along with us. We all sat on the couch... as a family... One big loving family. One I missed having.

"Well... You were quite a handful to be honest... Expect everything. Wet and smelly diapers, blowouts, runny noses and colds.... lots and lots of colds.... Once the baby gets it, you're gonna get it, your wife will get it and it'll spread like the plague from there."

Mom gave a sigh as Scoot cuddled up with her. "Not to mention the drool and the uh... Formula puke... oh you drank so much one time it looked like a failed and smelly tyedye on my shirt." She said. "...But other than that you were the happiest baby in the world... Sometimes I almost wish I could have that life back, taking care of a child again...." She leaned on dad, holding Scootaloo close.... Almost thought she was going to start crying.

"Also diaper rash.... Stock up on rash cream, teething toys and everything... Even earplugs if you need some quiet time." Mom sat back up and elbowed him in the arm. "Ow! Honey it was just a joke!" Mom turned her attention to Scootaloo just fixing her mane a bit. She just blushed but allowed it to happen.

"To him its a joke, to you its serious business.... Why else did you think I let you take care of Scootaloo for a few weeks straight when she cried during the night? A little thing called payback sweetie." Mom looked to me. "Reminds me. Give the wife a little time away from the foal every now and then so she doesnt feel like she does all the work. Breastfeeding and bathing are mommy's best, daddy does the changing, cleaning and helping mommy with the other stuff. And do NOT get me started on the teething.... Screams galore and I swear our neighbors thought we were abusing you when you were teething. Had the guard called on us and everything." Dad sighed.

"Oh yeah... I remember that... guards had to check you head to toe, make sure you werent being hit or anything. Nothing but a tooth coming in and a diaper rash." He leaned back. "....Even after the proof we werent doing anything the neighbor still complained... Dont know how fast after that I got on him about how annoying his fucking dog was... Barking all god damn night and then just turning it on us like we're the bad guys in taking care of a teething child?" He looked to me. "Anyone gives you and the wife a hard time about feeding that kid or about the teething, you set em right.... And I doubt anyone messing with a General would be in the right mind to not even think about doing anything like that."

I huffed pulling Scootaloo onto my lap. "Anyone messes with me and my own, they might learn a thing or two...." I said. I leaned back and just hugged my sister.... Thinking of the words we exchanged before coming in here.

Scoot just sighed and cuddled up to me. "....Mom? Dad? I think he's still worried...." She said. "...More about me than anything...."

Dad sighed just resting a hand on my shoulder. "Yeah... I can see it.... If I remember when we told you that Ryder was adopted and he ran out you thought he didnt love you anymore.... that he didnt want to love you anymore knowing you two werent blood related.... I guess its safe to say he's always been that worry wort.... When we said we were having you Scoot, your brother wasnt the happiest.... Thought just because we were having you meant we were just gonna get rid of him.... and hell as much as I wanted to at some points we still kept him around.... We kept him around and his mood changed once he held you..... Now look at ya... Inseparable no matter what."

Mom scooched closer and threw an arm around me. "Yeah... Even though there wasnt much time to spend with Ryder we still managed to make it work.... " She said. "I could still see the day we told him.... Had a school bag packed with things and almost looking like he was going to wait for the bus. That was before he passed out for a nap that he needed and then we made him his favorite meal.... Completely forgot about it but once it was getting closer he got more and more scared and worried.... Wasnt long before you came along and he changed his tune.... He might not want you to feel the same...."

Scoot sighed and just kissed me on the cheek before hugging me. "....I admit it crossed my mind but... He loves me too much to outright ignore me..." She said. "I'd rather have him happy with me around and spending some time if any rather than not spending time with me and pushing me away." She just cuddled up with me and... I honestly felt like my heart shattered.... Like duct tape was holding it together, it skipped a beat and the next one just broke it.... I couldnt help but start crying.

Everyone hugged me.... My sister, our parents..... Even the Princess and her mother came in to join in. Celestia gave a sigh as someone stroked my mane. "I had a feeling there would be tears today...." She said. "....Ryder I told you your sister would understand..... She's growing up, starting to understand things more.... And your parents? They raised you both right.... Sure at some points they werent there and you had to learn on your own but... They still helped you along the way..." Celestia stepped away and just looked to us. "But.... I guess now I've given the General a choice to make.... Would he rather you be there for the birth of his child? Or The Apples for their daughters sake."

I laid my head on my fathers shoulder... Scoot just wiped my tears away holding me tight. Dad huffed. "...Honestly.... I'd rather be there to see my grandson or grand daughter get born...." He said. "Still his choice in it but.... Just.... I just miss the sound of a foal crying.... the feeling of the 'I made this happen' thing.... Dont really miss the diapers or the sleepless nights.... Or even the anxiety of wanting to be a good father but.... I definitely think he's ready...."

Mom fixed my mane and gave a sigh. "Agreed.... He's done such a good job with Scootaloo...." She said. "He's got this. Might be different a bit but he'll get the hang of it sooner or later."

Celestia nudged my family off of me before bringing my sister into her arms. "I agree... this filly has grown so much with most of the help with that growing coming from her loving brother." She said. It's like they were taking my heart and just tugging at the heart strings so much they were playing some fucking heavy metal song. I just couldnt help but hug my parents and try- keyword try- VERY HARD not to cry. I had tears just filling up my eyes again. My lip quivered more than a naked jelly stallion in the cold helicoptering his dick. But nope. The dam broke.... I just lost it. I just grabbed hold of my parents and just started bawling... Not sure if all the love at once, the stress or what but I just cried and HARD.... Like I had just watched the SADDEST part to a movie and someone just snapped their fingers and I just lost it.

My parents just hugged me.... I just kept crying over dads shoulder. "There it is.... There's the waterworks...." He said. "....See how much we love you? And believe in you that you're gonna be a great father?"

Mom gave a sigh and just kissed my cheek. "...You've certainly showed us how well you took charge with your sister, caring for her in our absence..." She said. "...We're glad to have had you in our family Ryder.... And seeing as you're making your own? It makes us even more proud..."

Scoot hopped from the Princesses arms and flew around us just landing in front of us. "Mooooooom! He's crying enough already! Dont make him cry more!" She said. Mom sighed as she picked her daughter up.

"Yeah.... Just wanting to drive it home how good he is with you...."

Heavens Light sighed as I wiped my eyes. "Alright apologies here but... we need to cut this short...." She said. "It pains me to see a stallion with so much going on in his life weep... Tears of joy for his child coming, tears of pain being away from his loving family, even the fear I've seen from my perch seeing him stare down a waking nightmare with someone who he had dispatched when his troubles started...." She held out a hand. "General... I urge you to take my hand at this moment....." I sniffled a bit and broke away from dad... He just patted my shoulder a bit as I approached her. Yeah she was the goddess for good and harmony.... But I hesitated.... I have a demon attached to me that helped me take down Berrie when she escaped hell... Her husbands magic might be tainting me a bit from when he fixed my wing.... I could still have some residual evil energy when he exorcised that entity from me when I went and save my sister from those kidnappers.... I honestly still wished I could see the faces of each and every motherfucker I killed that night when they arrived in hell.... Should ask to see the guy whos heart I pulled from his chest and crushed in front of him. Maybe even ask what Hellfire thought of it. Wouldnt doubt he'd applaud and want me to perform again.... He probably would let me as well to work off steam... She still took my hand and it didnt burn her at all.... with the literal hell I've been through with my life I swear I was part demon.... technically kind of am? I guess? She held my hand tight and I felt something grow in my hand.... something hard, something that was about the size of my palm. She took her hand away and a chain cascaded down off the side of my hand and in my palm I found a pocket watch.... Silver with engravings of the sun and moon, with a being in between holding either in each hand. "Here.... A gift. This does something similar to what your sisters locket does. Brings a happy memory to you, not to mention have it be useful to you." She pressed the button on it and it flipped open.... On the left I saw a picture.... This picture? A picture of me and Scootaloo just asleep together in my old bed..... at the old house...... I was happy in that moment because I had my baby sister with me... safe and sound... This was after the murders and I remember it... we werent happy because we didnt have mom and dad but I was happy I had her.... That I saved her. On the other side? A working clock. I looked to Heaven's Light and gave a bit of a smile.

"Thank you ma'am...."

"You're quite welcome General.... But what I want for you to do is to press that button a few times... say... three times." I pressed the button rapidly. It sent out a ping before the picture changed into a video feed... in that feed I saw my parents on the couch right behind me. "This will give you a quick access to speak with your parents if you ever need some time with them and my daughters cannot be reached for what ever reason." She took it from me. "And just so it cant be stolen..... Reach for your chest... right breast if you will." I did as such and I saw it fade from her hand and manifest into mine. "Works perfectly if wearing a vest or a suit or something to cover the sudden appearance of a watch. But think of this as my gift to you.... same royalties as your sister and then some...." I sniffled a bit.... Not because I wanted to cry again but... I guess just to breathe a bit better?

"...I swear with each gift from you and your husband I feel like.... Well... royalty... like I was born into your family... a prince if you will." She smiled.

"If you were born into this family you wouldnt be getting your hands as dirty as they are for the royal family.... But I dont think a title like that would stop you.... You've shown that time and time again good sir...." I closed the pocket watch and it just dematerialized in my hand. ...It was strange having something solid in my hand just.... disappear like that.... Then again it kinda happens with my magic hammer.... and I got an evil idea i wish to try later with Hellfire.... If I can visit for a little blowoff session.... It also may have to do with those assholes that kidnapped my sister.... You can probably put two and two together. But anyways I sighed before turning back to our parents as they were just silently saying goodbye to Scoot... Just hugging her from both sides.... I just joined in and.... Maybe cried a bit more.... This farewell? It seemed.... a bit more heartfelt..... Like we were just truly at home, as a loving family once more... no issues... no hard feelings with anyone.... Just a big happy family with zero issue. Didnt feel like that before they were taken from us.... but now? It seems like it even though they werent with us for going on years now.

After what felt like what I hoped was forever I had to take Scootaloo and we had to say goodbye to our parents. Celestia and her mother followed me and Scoot out. Celestia sighed. "I feel it's never easy coming back and seeing either of you two here...." She said. "....Makes me feel horrible knowing such sweet ponies had what they love ripped away like that..."

I gave a sigh picking my sister up and putting her onto my back. She just hugged me tight. "....So I've heard time and time again Princess... Doesnt hurt any less from us seeing them....." I replied. "We really shouldnt deserve being brought up here like this... but with how you and your mother have treated us since we first saw this place? We would hate to do something that loses this opportunity for another time....."

"And I would hate having to deliver such a punishment.... You'd have to do something so utterly bad that I'd have to force my hand and do such a thing.... But the way you two are you could never.... and that filly injured me.... If that says something about your favor I dont know what does." I sighed just holding my sisters hand.

"Yep.... But she was brave that day.... More so than I and I passed out..."

Scootaloo whimpered a little. "I still feel bad about that day...." She said. "....I didnt know if there was someone there to hurt me or what but.... It still scared the tar out of me." I looked back at my sister as we walked.

"At least you knew you were going to be alright after the alert was called off..... After I was told what happened I just.... I passed out... hyperventilating, nearly vomiting.... Just.... The medics thought I was gonna have a heart attack right then and there while I was out.... The nightmare I had then....? I didnt get through that letter.... all I knew then was that there was an attack and that was it.... didnt know if you were alright, if Luna or Celestia was alright.... not even Shining, Twilight or Cadence.... Didnt know if it was just Canterlot or if it was going to be at another castle."

Celestia huffed. "Well we're lucky our guards are crackshots when it comes to disarming and disabling when it means protection." She said. "Now.... Why dont we get back to the castle? You still need to ask Applejack who should be here for what when the time comes."

Heaven's Light cleared her throat and got in front of us just as we came to the door. "Uh.... Perhaps this is just seeing all the heart felt warmth here and love but... I would like to say something...." She said. "I know last time you had time with your parents it was only one day and what not but.... This time I would like to extend it just a bit.... A few days to a week just because I've felt that because this is a big change in your lives what with a new addition to your family and needing to rehouse yourselves again. They can give you a hand in rebuilding and a hand in caring for your foal and teach you things first hand. Would help you quite a bit and with your wife a bit out of commission during the building of your home why not have the extra help?"

I gave a smile just as I felt Scootaloo's grip tighten on me.... "So... We're gonna have my mommy and daddy back for a little longer?" She asked. Heaven's Light gave a bit of a sigh.

"Yes Scootaloo. It isnt permanent but... It's better than what we did last time.... At least this time its on good terms that your parents will be around.... Though its up to your brother if he wants to bring other family in to help with things.... Last time it was all my daughters doing but its your brothers call.... And please... no matter what... If you're having dark thoughts... please go to your brother with them... We dont want you or anyone else in your family hide it like Applejack did...." I just hid my face.... Yeah... She should NOT have said that.....

Celestia even knew she shouldnt have either.... "Uh... Mother that uh... Now isnt the time for THAT talk..." She said. "But... Yes... None of those thoughts for the filly we care so much about."

Scootaloo looked at me a bit worried. "....Ryder... Did Applejack.... uh....." She said averting her gaze a bit. I knew what she meant.

I huffed grabbing her hand. "We'll talk about this later but when we do just know it wont be easy for me to even talk about." I said. I looked to Heaven's Light.... I wasnt mad but.... The look on her face definitely seemed it. "Miss Light I..... I suppose we should be on our way.... You understand right?"

Heaven's Light wanted to say something but... Didnt... Afraid of her own tongue. I understand that fully. She just stopped trying to speak and nodded. Celestia sighed. "Before we leave I would like to apologize on my mother's behalf." She said. "Truly she doesnt want anyone else to have those sorts of feelings after the last time we had your parents around.... As traumatic as it was for you it was for us.... You were scared shitless about it and when you had her brought here it honestly hurt mother knowing someone who's parent made the same mistake but was lucky enough to stay up here... She didnt want that then and she doesnt want to see it now. To you, your sisters, wife, brother in law.... Even your friends..."

"I know but.... There's some stuff I dont wanna even think about.... even the mention of it scares me...." I clutched Scootaloo tightly with my wings. Didnt even look away from the Princess. She sighed.

"I understand.... You hold your family so dear, even the thought of losing them is a thought you dont want floating in your head.... But just... Please do something with the apology so my mother doesnt feel worse than she already does about the mention of it...." I sighed a bit before looking to Heaven's Light.

"Apology accepted... just.... next time there's something that needs to be said that is of a sensitive nature and we're with Celestia or Luna... Tell one of them or me if I'm alone... Not when I'm with my sister or anyone else in my family please...."

Heaven had some tears in her eyes. "O-Of course General.... I just..... I was only trying to think of greater good with that...." She said. I set Scootaloo down and just opened my arms offering Celestia's mother a hug which she did not hesitate to take. Even Scootaloo joined in on it.

Celestia sighed. "There we are... Dont want any harsh feelings....." She said. "Now lets just get going to clear the air with a few things...." I gave a nod before breaking the hug with Heaven's Light. Just pulled Scoot up onto my back again.

We walked out of the door having it disappear behind us. The walk from there to a bedroom we could use was even worse.....Caught a glimpse of Applejack and Big Mac with Twilight just outside of the dining room. Didnt want her to see me going somewhere and ask what was up with what we were doing. Didnt even wanna try explaining to her that I'm trying to explain to my sister that like her brother, she too had made an attempt on her own life. But it scared me nonetheless that I was even telling my sister about Applejack.... She already knew about me and when I did she almost didnt wanna let go of me.... Might've been a dream but.... It still frightened me... thinking about my sister knowing I almost offed myself because of the loss of our parents and the blood on my hands when that happened. Celestia followed us to mine and Applejack's room where we just sat down on the bed. Already thought of where to put a crib in here if we ever needed to come here for whatever reason. I just sat there in silence for a moment.... Looked around at everything trying to find a word on how to start this conversation.... Even looked to Celestia who was also trying to find some word on how to do this. That's when Scootaloo spoke up a bit. "Uh... So... What was it that Heaven's Light was saying....?" She asked. I looked to her but didnt wanna say anything. That's when Celestia sighed.

"Well.... Back when we had the dinner for your brother and where you found out he was adopted Ryder ended up having a nightmare that went and scared him horribly.... and if I remember correctly he found his nightmare came to be true when he looked into his closet and found something that Applejack had made.... He had to bring her all the way to Canterlot just for help.... if he didnt... we probably wouldnt be here having this conversation...."

I hugged Scootaloo. "....I.... I was honestly so scared Scoot... more scared than when I was jumping out of that building in Manehattan.... worse than when I was coming home from the war...." I replied. "....I'd rather not have this talk with you but.... you're getting older.... I can see that and just...." I broke off and just stood up. "....There are times in our lives where things are going wrong, we have thoughts that make us want to do something we might regret after the fact... But.... its those thoughts that I dont want anyone to have.... Not you, not AJ.... Not even Big Mac... Nobody deserves to have those kinds of thoughts.... If I had brought you to Applejack's father... you'd know he took his own life because he lost his wife, Applejack's mother.... He regretted what he had done and he made it known to Applejack when I had to bring her to her parents to talk some sense into her.... She hid it from me until I found what I found.... Scared the living hell out of me....." Celestia hugged me just as tears started welling up in my eyes....

"You do not know how many calls a guard gets a day seeing ponies they know being carted off for help or too late for that help.... If you get those thoughts just go to your brother or Call Luna if you dont want him finding out.... But just know if you do go to Luna, dont be surprised if he does still get dragged into it.... You can see how bad this is affecting him... even after the fact...." Celestia picked me up and brought me back to the bed laying me down just behind Scootaloo whos wings I could just see all frizzed out and trembling. I just looked to Celestia and back to Scoot. She saw me look and nodded before kneeling down next to the bed. "....Is there something you'd like to tell us Scootaloo? You're awfully quiet about this...." I just lied there, my heart feeling like it was gonna beat right out of my chest waiting for her answer. Was she hiding something? Was she just..... scared? Either answer wasnt comforting. Celestia just huffed and lied her down with me. I could see that stare in her eyes... Didnt say anything to her. Just hugged her. Didnt take long for her to just start crying. "There we go.... Go on and just let it out, cuddle with your big brother Scootaloo... Everything will be alright as long as you go to your big brother with your problems...." I started shushing her as I held her close. I looked to Celestia.

"...I think we just scared her... So much to process and with the things she's seen and heard.... Still isnt easy...."

"I understand.... I'll have Luna come and check on her later. For now just calm her down, take a nap with her, do something and make sure she doesnt get sick..." I nodded and just held my sister close. "If you need me I'll be visiting with Twilight and Applejack." I nodded giving my sister a much needed kiss on the forehead.... As Celestia left us I just sat there with Scoot in my arms cuddling her. I sighed once we were alone. "...Scoot it's gonna be okay.... no matter if you had those thoughts or if we just scared you it's okay.... Just please please PLEASE... come to me if you're ever thinking like that.... I dont wanna see anyone I love hurt whether it be by their own hand or by someone elses.... You already know what happens when someone else hurts my baby sister..... You're a strong filly.... You were strong after mom and dad died, you were strong while I was away... You were even strong when I had to come save you... Just breathe Scoot.... I'll be right here for you... always and forever sis...."

We lied there for a while.... She ended up crying herself to sleep.... didnt take long for me to follow. Yeah I was scared and all but I was content where I was. Slept for maybe about an hour before I woke up. She was still asleep. I carefully got her out of my arms and onto the bed. Went and even changed her into some padding before I left the room and had someone guard the door and wait for her to wake up and even contact me if anything happens. Hit the toilet and just went to find Celestia. Or... Someone. Didnt bother asking where someone was. Just.... Wandered. Ended up just going into the kitchen and just grabbed a drink.... May have grabbed a beer that Twilight had.... Tasted like shit but I needed the alcohol. As I drank I just heard footsteps from the hall. A sigh came to my ears as I brought the bottle up again to my lips. "Con'Sarnit Mac.... Better've not gotten lost with the food...." I heard Applejack say. Honestly should care that I'm having a beer because she cant but I needed something to just.... not forget but make the pain go away.

I heard a sigh. "He should be back soon AJ. Lets just get you seated and get you something to drink." I heard Twilight say. "Just hoping Celestia is gonna be alright... seemed there was something on her mind but cant pry everything out of her...." I wanted to say something but... did I even want to let them know what was on her mind? I just stayed silent and drank. When they came in the bottle was half gone. Twilight just took one look at me and kept a good grip on Applejack who gasped.

"Ryder what the HELL are you doing drinkin?!"

"More importantly WHY are you drinking that?! That was MINE!"

I huffed. "Princess, I'll buy you a six pack for just this one." I said before looking at my wife obviously steamed with me even drinking while she couldnt. "And AJ.... Just let me have this one.... All I want because someone said something they shouldnt have and woke up some memories I wanted to stay buried away deep in the hellpit that is my mind." Twilight sat my wife down next to me. Had to move the bottle away because I know she would try to take it from me.

"And something tells me that whatever was said, Celestia knows about and just wont say anything because of a reaction to it.... And you're either drinking away the memories or trying to work up the courage to get those memories back behind closed doors."

"Bingo.... Still not good to pry because even she didnt want to remember and I wont be surprised if she has a drink after everyone is in bed... And asking me isnt gonna be good either because it had to do with something I had to go through.... And I rather would not put stress on anyones mind about me or who I'm even talking about here...."

Applejack huffed. "....I swear if I didnt know what you were talking about I'd've been twisting your gosh darn arm harder than you could resist." She said. I looked to Twilight who was just.... staring at AJ a bit shocked. And then to me.

"Twi.... Get AJ something to drink.... Juice or something please..." Twilight nodded and swallowed a lump in her throat before going for her fridge. I looked to Applejack. "...Guess that still plagues your mind as much as it does mine huh?"

"...You have no idea.... Ever since I got pregnant I've been having nightmares here and there.... Most about going to give birth either to have something happen to me or the foal.... Just scared the hell outta me.... Reminded me about that uh.... incident.... Made me regret ever thinkin' that...."

"And its one thing I didnt wanna remember nor have anyone else know but here we fucking are....."

"Who said what and why?"

"I say anything I dont want you to go and freak out at em but know we could be on a bit of a nightmare watch the next few days or so..... Agreed?"

"Agreed but know if I do go off, let me yell it out for a bit.... Baby givin' me all those hormone spikes and its just hell....."

"Well.... Celestia brought something of Scootaloo's back, took us to see our parents because the thing she brought made me think of them, took us there, got some advice from them and then was given a gift of my own, then the thing that shouldnt have been said was said, had to take Scoot back to our room, explain some things and then I was scared because I had questions that werent answered and now I'm here after a nap..."

"Definitely not wanting anyone you care about to scare ya like that again...." She grabbed my hand as I just sipped the beer in the other.

Twilight shuttered as she came back over setting a couple glasses of juice down. "....Do I really wanna know...?" She asked. I huffed.

"Twilight... best not to ask if you dont want an anxiety attack and nightmares.... Only saying this for your own sanity Princess and not as a threat.... Understand?" She nodded. "Good. Now just take a deep breath and sit down... Hopefully Mac thought about getting me some food too.... Otherwise I'm going out.... Speaking of siblings where's 'Bloom?"

Applejack grabbed her drink and sipped. "Nap. Got a bit fussy with her homework, Twi helped her but needed a nap... should probably wake the girls soon so they can eat." She said. I gave a nod and finished the beer, getting a mint or two for my breath from the Princess and then going to get our sisters myself. Woke Scootaloo up first and she woke up just fine.... Still was kinda scared and hugged the hell out of me like I was gone for a year and only just returned. Applebloom was just a few doors down in Dash's room. She was a bit harder to get up but I got her anyways. Later that night i was just sitting up in bed with Applejack behind me. We were both in some custom Pajamas from our time in the Crystal Empire. AJ's obviously altered a bit to fit her bloated belly. Celestia was kind enough to watch over Applebloom and Scootaloo for the night giving me, AJ and Big Mac a night to ourselves. Though my mind was still stuck on what Heaven's light said. Applejack sighed. "C'mon sugarcube lets just get some sleep.... You're worrying about nothin'.... I aint goin' nowhere, neither are you for that matter...."

"But how do I know Big Mac aint gonna do anything? Or our sisters even? When I had to talk to Scootaloo and she was just silent it scared me because I dont know what she was thinking! How long was it that Applebloom hid that shit about the changeling? Do I know how bad Scoot misses mom and dad? Yeah but do I know how bad its hurting her? No! I dont and neither do you!"

"Ry... If you're that worried about this, call Luna, have her look into it... She's good to check on her n' letcha know about the workin's..." I huffed grabbing my phone.

"Y-yeah.... Just.... Let me get on outside... Let you get to sleep. Maybe see about stealing someone elses bed just incase I have nightmares...." She sighed.

"Fine with that sugarcube... Just as long as you get some sleep.... Take Dash's or Flutters if'n you think you're gonna have an accident...." I gave a bit of a chuckle.

"If I do I might take Rarity's... She'd just loooooooooove that...."

"Wouldnt push it further with her.... She still aint happy about that one cleaner Twi hired to clean her room and next thing you know she's replacing her sheets and shit because they didnt smell or feel right..."

Yep.... that happened. Even though the instructions were followed to the T, someone still thought things were screwed up. Anyways I left the room and just went across the hall leaning on the wall before starting a call to Luna. Each ring I heard felt like it went on for a while. Maybe went on for a minute before it clicked. "Ah Ryder I'm glad you called! I was just about to call you because my sister told me to check on you and Scootlaoo while you slept." She said.

I gave a sigh. "Well at least you know why I'm calling without even saying...." I replied. "....I cant sleep because of a question I asked Scootaloo earlier after we visited your mother and our parents.... and it just.... It scares the living shit out of me princess.... I dont know if that girl is just scared or if there is something deeper that none of us know.... Do I even wanna know the answer...? Will hearing the answer calm me down? Or will it scare me more?"

"It's understood.... We wont know the answer until we get that answer from your sister... Come now General.... Deep breath, go hop in bed and try to sleep.... please? I'll be there in a moment to help."

"....I..... I can try.... I'm just so scared about this...."

"Fear shouldnt take your sleep and keep it away.... Find somewhere cozy, settle in real nice and think of something or someone there that makes you happy. Just breathe, go to the restroom, splash water on your face and try to get some sleep, do whatever you have to. I'll be expecting you to be asleep in a room otherwise I'm going to send a guard after you to tranquilize you and force you to sleep. Am I understood?"

"Yes Princess...."

"Good... Now move it General." She hung up and left my to do what I needed. Yeah... ended up going to the bathroom, pissed, splashed water on my face and went to Fluttershy's bed, even grabbed a diaper she always keeps in her room. Even grabbed a stuffed toy she had and just cuddled up with it under her covers.... Didnt feel calm still but tried sleeping until I was just whisked away to a dream realm. In the dream was just.... blank... I mean other than something to stand on... A cracked brick path. I heard a sigh and looked behind me to see Princess Luna in her gown walking towards me. "About time... Nearly would've had to deal with a drugged off duty guard.... And I'm glad I didnt... not sure what to say to Applejack but i'm sure it would've helped you sleep." I huffed.

"Yeah... I'd rather fornicate with Chrysalis than take another tranquilizer dart.... Those things suck and I nearly died to them.... If ever I get hit with one of those again whether on purpose or accident I'm taking the one that shot it and breaking it..."

"Right.... Well come on now.... We have a special little filly to visit and check on...." I swallowed and nodded before taking her hand and walking with her. As we walked we started seeing stuff. Trees mostly. Thinking it was Everfree. Wasnt wrong when we found crumbling ruins. "Hm.... Our old castle? Why would Scootaloo be thinking of our old castle....?" I looked to Luna as we followed the path now being lined with vines and such.

"....Think she's remembering back to the time she got lost running away.... Daring found her when she was exploring it."

"Ooh... I remember that.... Certainly good to look the other way on a few things as a reward for retrieving that stuff for my sister and I. But as of now why is she thinking of this? Is she plotting to run away again?"

"She better not be.... I really dont want to have her even try again.... Almost had a heart attack the last time she did it and with all the stress now? No way in HELL am I gonna be able to have that happen again."

"Understandable...." She looked out towards the forest. "SCOOTALOO!" She called. "Scootaloo! Come on out now everything will be fine!" I listened. Nothing. Nothing but the sounds of the forest rustling here and there as we walked.

"Scootaloo come on! Please? Dont scare me already more than you are!"

"Come on Scootaloo cant you hear your brother? He's worried for you!" We listened more. Again nothing.

"There has to be some place she's hiding...." I flew up a bit and looked around. Saw nothing but trees, bushes and everything. No movement, no animals (thankfully) and no poison joke to endanger Luna. "We might have to keep following the path...." She flew up with me and started flying down the path.

"Keep up! That filly needs help and BADLY if she's hiding from us again...." I nodded and followed her as close as I could without catching backdraft and flying faster than her. We followed the path dodging vines, tree branches, even straight up trees growing in the middle of the path all up until we reached the door to the broken castle. We landed at the door and immediately started to try to open it. Even with my strength I couldnt open it.

"No use... its stuck!" I kicked the door. "SCOOTALOO! Please! Come out of there!" Luna raised a hand and focused her magic through her fingers before blasting the door open. As we entered we saw the doors try to shut. Luna pushed me forwards just as the doors slammed shut, closing me in. "Great... She's trying to shut everyone out...." I stood up and looked to the door. "Princess! Keep trying to get through to her! I'm gonna see if I cant find her in here!"

"Alright! Just... Be careful.... I dont know what she's thinking and what you might see... Stay strong in there General!" I turned back around and looked into the darkness.... I heard crying. I walked in and just looked around. Darkness, torches lighting here and there. Everything broken. I grabbed a torch and just started walking through the halls to where I heard the crying come from.

"Scootaloo.... Come on.... Please.... Just let big bro know what's going on.... You're scared... I get it... but its why you're scared I'm afraid of...." I held the torch out in front of me as i turned a corner. All i heard was more crying. "Yes I know, I had to tell you that both Applejack and I nearly did something we would've regretted but we're fine.... Honest!"

I heard a sniffle as I went on. "....And how would I know?!" My sister replied. "...How do I know you're both alright....?"

"We are....Neither of us are going anywhere. Besides we've got a foal on the way. Your niece or nephew. We're not gonna do anything that's gonna leave you, Big Mac and Applebloom alone... if anything you guys are grounding us so we dont do anything stupid.... How do you think I got through that war? Its because I didnt stop thinking about you or AJ.... If something happened to me while I was out there worse than what happened I never would've forgiven myself.... Not in this life or the next. If I can find a way to prove to you that I'm okay I'll do it! Just.... Please come out...." I just heard more sniffling. "If you wont come out just... please.... tell me why you wont.... Is it why you're scared?"

"...I... I'm just... scared... scared to be alone.... scared to be without a family who loves me.... I dont know how many times I almost lost you.... I cant lose you AND Applejack...."

"I know sis... It's scary being alone.... But you will never be alone... You have me, your sisters, your brother in law, friends, Dash.... You've got friends all the way up at Princess level. I know it was tough losing mom and dad.... it's gonna be tough when I go... same with Applejack... but that's not going to be for a long long time... We're going to be around for a damn good long time...."

"H-How do I know...?" I turned another corner going into a large library... Like this shit went on forever.

"...That's the thing... You dont until you do. Life... Its not forever... If mom and dad didnt go the way they did, one of them could've had a heart attack and went that way... Could go from a car crash or something else... You have my word that me and Applejack wont take our own lives. You can even have Luna verify if you can just show me where you are so I can take you to her." I waved the torch around trying to illuminate the room until I found a giant beacon. I held the torch to the beacon and lit the wood inside up. It blazed to life sending heat and light throughout the room. Definitely had edges but was still far off. I walked around the beacon and saw a throne, made of stone with a face on the top looking as if it were crying. On that throne Scootaloo... She was wearing a gown almost akin to Princess Celestia's except where the gold was orange. She was just hugging her legs. I threw down the torch and just slowly approached. "There's my little princess...." I climbed up on the throne with her and pulled her in close... she didnt take even a second to hug me. "There we go... Wanna let Princess Luna in...? She's worried about you...." She hesitantly nodded. I could only watched as the castle around us crumbled away, the walls falling back, ceiling falling down, crushing shelves and even the beacon, each chunk letting more sunlight in. Trees grew in some places and before we knew it the only thing left was the throne. "PRINCESS! I GOT HER!"

I held my sister close before seeing Princess Luna take off from beyond the rubble and flying around before seeing us. She came and landed just before us. "Scootaloo you really need to stop locking us out when we only want to help... Its not good to block everyone out who just wants to help..." She said bringing us up and hugging us.

"It's understandable why she is this way... She's scared... she does this when she's scared... did it after mom and dad died, even after I left.... You know how when she got lost at the mall with Celestia...?" She gave a bit of a nod. "...Well this is like that.... She doesnt know what she's gonna do without us.... and the thought gets her lost in her own mind... And when your mother said something about what AJ went through... it scared her.... I scared her even more earlier after having to explain what happened to her and myself at times...." Luna sighed just looking at my sister.

"....Scootaloo... I...." I gave a sigh handing her over to the Princess.

"....Princess... If you can... please... show that me and AJ are alright and will be alright... she's scared we arent..."

"...I... Alright.... I just.... Do you want me to do something to distract you while I do this...?"

"Do what you must... I just want by sister to know we're alright...." She gave a nod.

"Alright this may take a bit but... Let me just uh..." She quickly used her magic and made a door from the rubble around us. "Go on and leave me to my work. Should be someone you both should know." I nodded and got up from the throne just tussling the mane of my sister before heading for the door. After I crossed through I was in the dream of Daring. She had been up for a few days, and just passed out. Why she had been up was a mystery for... a moment..... That was before I went and threatened to rip that door off that bunker she was in. Told me she was rewatching the footage of what happened during my bachelor party and such, even going over the photos on the runes. She wants to find a time I can meet her so we could scout someplace to test something she wants to do... with me... and a guitar.... Oh you dont know how bad I wanted to say no but she insisted and would want help from Shining and my friends. Just in case I cant control myself. If anything I'm requisitioning a few of the Elites to help taking me down with tranqs rather than them. Dont wanna give any of em heart attacks or get them hurt because they hesitated... Or whiffed a shot. Told her I'd do it but it would have to wait until after the foal was born. She asked why I was there after that. Told her about Scootaloo freaking out, why she was freaking out and how much it scared me... She said she'd reach out soon for a little adventure with her and me just to go camping. Even invite Dash along if she's up for it and Celestia knows she will drop EVERYTHING. To do something with Daring especially. We basically spent what felt like forty five minutes to an hour just wandering her dreams and talking. Hell we got bored at one point and started making up stuff to do before Luna came to get me. As we separated from Daring I gave a sigh.

"So... How bad was it?" I asked.

"Bad. I had to show her everything and even take her to mother for her to apologize herself rather than through Celestia.... She told me.... Told me it didnt feel authentic. I almost thought I had to go in and erase that interaction with her..."

"...It's good you didnt... Did she tell you anything else....? Was she... planning something...?"

"Thankfully no... I asked her question after question.... running away, hurting someone.... doing something she might regret... all no." I gave a hefty sigh and hugged Luna.

"Thank you.... Feels like a hefty weight was lifted off my shoulders...."

"I know what you mean General... You hold her closer to your heart than anything... if anything happened to her you'd lose it and would anyone stop you? No... Nobody within their right mind would... they would very well try.... But nobody would be able to...."

"And if it came to that.... I'd hope you'd do the right thing with me...."

"We would. Dont worry about that. As for now... You should rest... I might go and speak with my sister, let her know the good news... Maybe have you wake up, go see if you couldnt cuddle up with Celestia and keep watch over your sister?"

"If you must... Just do what you need to and do something." She gave a nod and hugged me before we went back to my dreamscape and she woke me up. It was still late... Had to have a guard lead me to Celestia's room where I just looked over Applebloom and Scootaloo before just climbing into bed with Celestia... She didnt mind... Just held me close, even allowed me to use her chest as a pillow. Slept well, next morning I made pancakes for everyone with Spike's help and when I talked with Scootaloo she just hugged me, kissed me on my cheek and just told me she loved me. Did the same thing to AJ.... God its so sweet... Sweeter than Pinkie's 'candy lips' coated in caramel. Yep... I had to go there.. and she has done that before... Dont ask. But yeah... until next time... I... I need a bit of relaxation....