Speda knew she had to make a choices regarding where she'd be living, considering she, a filly so young has already killed more ponies than an average royal guard would have killed in his entire life. She knew this. Celestia must also know this, cuz her royal guard certainly did what with them treating her like a monster. A murderer. While she was young and naive in some things, she wasn't so dense as to not think there wouldn't be any consequences.

But she wouldn't change anything. She hated to admit it, but she believed maybe they happened for a reason. What she didn't expect was for Princess Celestia to give her a chance to live out a normal life. With somepony else who might take care of her, like a normal family. And she agreed she wanted to try. And try, they did.

~

It was two years, and ninety seven families later they realized no pony wanted an anomaly in their family. Certainly not a dangerous killer. No matter how small or innocent she appeared to be, everypony, including Speda herself, knew what she was capable of as a young filly. They were all terrified to think what would happen when she was fully grown, and if she was in complete control of her powers.

Many ponies voiced their opinions to the Princess quite loudly, and Celestia, as kind as she may be, was starting to crumble after every insult thrown Speda's way, but not in anger at Speda, she was getting angry at the selfishness of the Nobles of Canterlot. Nopony cared about what she went through. Nopony. But Speda accepted this without a second thought. She accepted she was different than others, so much so that she forgot that kindness can be found in the unlikeliest of places, and she was proven that when she saw a pegasus filly the same age as her had fallen to Equuis. She was a lightly beige colored pegasus with a pink mane, and the widest eyes she's ever seen, that just reflected her kindness. She also got to see the rainboom of legends, wash over the lands, starting from Cloudsdale.

After the pegasus had landed on the ground of Equuis, Speda, who was watching from afar, saw the pegasus filly cry. As she was about to fly in and try to comfort her, she was stopped, as she saw all the woodland animals surround the filly, who in turn looked at all of them in slight fear at first, but then started to grow curious. After the rainboom had officially washed over, the beige pegasus was beaming in happiness, being hugged by a certain baby bunny and a few other animals, not noticing a three butterfly mark on her flanks appear.

Speda felt she shouldn't intervene in on the happy moment, so she smiled sadly, and flew off in the opposite direction, coming back to Canterlot, specifically the gardens. And she sat in front of a certain statue, that she's always been interested in ever since she saw it. She felt no fear towards it, either, even after hearing all the stories about it. Or him, as she liked to think, thinking he was more kind than some ponies in this age, even if she had not gotten to hear him speak, or do the things he was meant to do. It was in his nature, but she felt he didn't have to be evil. She felt he deserved a second chance, almost everypony did.

.... Except maybe for herself. She still doesn't know if she can forgive herself for what she did, and if things get worse in her dreams, to the point that her mother might not be able to push the nightmares out, she doesn't know what she'd do. She laid back against the statue and cried softly so no pony would hear her.

It took no longer than a few moments to realize she wasn't exactly alone anymore, since she could practically sense Discord's conscious state appear before her again, and after wiping her tears off, she patted the statue. She knew there was good in that spirit somewhere, but she knew she wouldn't be able to bring that out from the chaotic spirit herself. That was a job for a pony who would connect more deeply with him, and so she smiled sadly.

"I won't be returning to this garden for a long while, Discord. Yes, I know what you are. I know who you are. And I hope you find that somepony who'll get you, and understand you, rather than judge you for the bad things you've done in the past. Thank you for being 'here' while I was. Aside from mother, you are pretty much the only creature that could care to listen to me, even if they were forced to be here cased in stone, you could have let yourself sleep while I was here, but you didn't. So, I'm thankful.", She said, and hugged the base of the statue with tears still in her eyes. She felt a slight, tiny tug at the magic around her, and found a small miscolored flower purchased in her mane, letting her know he answered her with the best of his ability. It was the kindest, most personal thing anypony has done for her, and she was grateful for it.

With a small thank you, Speda left the gardens, and Canterlot in general, not bothering Celestia, now that she was old enough to fly by herself. She headed towards a town in the middle of nowhere, a small, but kind looking countryside, right outside the Everfree forest, called Ponyville.

~

It's been another year, as Speda stretched on her small cot in the town's orphanage, and she decided that today would be the day she'd go for Celestia's gifted school for Unicorns, knowing it would be slightly weird for a pegasus to show up, but was confident in her magical abilities, especially her levitation magic, and could feel she could lift a house, if she strained herself for a few years.

. . . So maybe she wasn't as strong as she hoped to be, but that's why she applied, and got accepted almost immediately by her surogate aunt. She was pretty grateful towards her already, she just added a favor in mind for Celestia later on.

As Speda got her things ready, stepping outside to go, she bumped into a cyan colored mare, just like her, but with a rainbow colored mane, and bright magenta eyes, she stumbled to the ground, with a slight blush on her face.

Speda didn't quite know what the constant embarrassed voice inside herself wanted to say, because the mare turned to her with a slight glare, but it softened after she got a good look at her.

"What, never seen a flier as fast as me before, or are you interested in what you're see'in?" The mare asked in a strange squeaky voice, that made Speda chuckle a bit, blushing quite obviously, but the rainbow maned mare caught that, and smirked. "I know I'm hot and everything, but you might need to close that mouth of yours before a breezy gets caught in it." Wow that mare could flirt. In a weird way, but she felt that was just her. This was a first for Speda, but she wasn't that clueless, seeing all this, but she decided to ignore that bit.

"Oh hello, I'm sorry I bumped into you. I was on my way to Canterlot. I need to get into Celestia's gifted school for Unicorns.", Speda said, not really minding the looks of the ponies around them, sinc she was used to them, but after a year, she was a normal sight to see for the populace. She almost didn't exactly explain why she would be.

The rainbow-maned mare raised an eyebrow at Speda, seeing her wings, eyes slightly going wide at the sight of her scars. While Speda was wearing clothes that would seem not needed for other ponies, she had on a hoody, and some sweat pants that covered her other scars, so they'd only see the ones on her wings.

"While I would question a pegasus going to a school meant for Unicorns, you seem... Quite magical yourself. Would you like to train with me after you're finished, egghead? I've got time later today.", She asked Speda, who seemed to blank, at being asked to do something with anypony. She smiled a little. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad.

"I would love to, but what would we be training for? I'll be back this evening , so that should be plenty of time, right?", She asked, as the other pegasus smiled.

"Training to be a Wonderbolts of course! The fastest fliers in all of Equestria! I will definitely make it in, or my name isn't Rainbow Dash!", The mare pronounced, flying and twirling very quickly into the air, not noticing a certain pink flash on the ground straight towards her, and Speda.

Author's Note

There are certain elements that will come into play. I hope everypony likes the chapter, and comment what they think.

By the way, if anypony questions why Speda is still the way she is, nopony gets over a trauma like that, and doesn't remember it for years, if not their entire lives regretting what they did, even if it was out of their control, or they did what let them survive, they'll still regret doing it. Even if they know, nothing would have helped them. In this case, Speda will always have a self hate in herself. It won't be easy to overcome that part of her.

Anywho, I hope y'all enjoyed, sorry for the long wait