Monster Inside Me

by Starlight Fan

Rating: teen
Tags: Profanity, Violence, Slice of Life, Alternate Universe, Twilight Sparkle, Princess Luna, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Spike, Starlight Glimmer, Romance, Trixie
Length: 1536

Starlight thinks she is a monster, Twilight doesn’t believe her.

Starlight feels she is a monster but Twilight proves her wrong and shows her that Starlight is not a monster.

Published 2021-03-05 01:50:00 UTC
Last updated 2021-03-06 01:17:58 UTC

Not a Monster

Starlight tossed and turned in her sleep she was having another bad dream, she has those a lot recently, she was in a dark room with multiple voices speaking.

You blamed cutie marks and stripped a whole village of theirs

Relax if something goes wrong Starlight will just go back in time and fix it

and when Twilight and the others stopped you, you went back in time and almost destroyed Equestria

It’s like a super villain tracker

Says the pony who tried to make everypony the same by switching everypony’s cutie marks with equal signs

Right just like when cutie marks took your friend away your magic was strong enough to enslave an entire village

Yeah ever since Starlight messed with it to go back in time and tried to change history

How is the fact that Twilight decided to put an incompetent power hungry unicorn in charge of her school MY PROBLEM!

Starlight began tearing up each sentence burned into her brain and it was hard to hear these words.

“Stop.” Starlight begged while crying.

“Why do I keep having these dreams?” Starlight asked herself.

“Ha how pathetic, you think this is a dream, that’s how they think of you Starlight.” Starlight’s clone spoke, it was manifested in her old form with her old mane style.

“Why are you here? Why do you torment me you are only my past.” Starlight asked annoyed at the evil counterpart.

“Aw poor Starlight, I should probably explain, I am Moonlight a manifestation of your guilt and you should not be surprised, your friends will only ever know you for your past and nothing but your past.” the being known as Moonlight told her.

“No they can’t.” Starlight cried out in hope.

“Really this tells me otherwise, you’re friends don’t care about you they don’t love you they only fear you and nothing else.“ Moonlight smirked menacingly.

Starlight began crying when a voice spoke.

“STOP!” Luna spoke in her Royal Canterlot voice.

Starlight began crying more as Luna came up and sighed.

“Starlight these nightmares have been going on for a long time, I know you’ve given it time but they show no signs of stopping.” Luna proclaimed.

Starlight bowed her head in shame, these nightmares have been going on for a while even before Cozy Glow’s defeat even when Luna would try and stop it, they still kept coming.

“I know Luna and I’m so sorry, I don’t know what to do, I have been having these nightmares ever since Discord called me a power hungry unicorn, it’s bad enough I still deal with those hecklers but my own friends still remind me of my past like it’s a joke.” Starlight explained.

“I see, why did Discord’s words bother you to this point?” Luna asked with a questioning tone.

“I don’t know why, they just hurt a lot I don’t blame him or any of my friends for thinking of me that way though.” Starlight said in tears.

“Well I see, I suggest you tell Princess Twilight about these dreams you’ve been having.” Luna suggested.

“I think that might be for the best.” Starlight said in shame.

Luna then left Starlight’s dream in sorrow, as Starlight woke up in her bed it was still night time but she saw no desire to sleep.

In the morning Starlight and Twilight were having a conversation about the dreams Starlight’s been having.

“And that’s why I came to talk to you.” Starlight clarified.

“Starlight I’m so sorry about that why haven’t you told me you’ve been feeling this way?” Twilight asked with remorse.

“I thought if I just waited they’d go away, but I guess they didn’t.” Starlight explained.

“Well I’ve had it I’m sleeping with you tonight I don’t care if you disagree.” Twilight decrees.

Both then looked at each other blushing before Twilight quickly added “Not like that, but you know to help you fall asleep better.”

Starlight nodded “Yeah don’t worry I know what you meant.”

“Okay good, glad we got that established. Now I’ll go check with Luna in what your nightmares might mean.” Twilight reassures before leaving Starlight by herself.

“Gulp, I hope this ends well.” Starlight said.

Confrontation with A Romance Rival

Twilight knocked on Trixie's wagon and Trixie then opened the door and got outside.

"What do you want? Can you not see that the Great and Powerful Trixie is trying to get ready for her new show of amazement." Trixie commanded annoyed while boasting.

"I need to talk to you." Twilight said angrily.

"Unless it's about Starlight I see no reason to care." Trixie said walking back inside.

"It is about Starlight, and you should probably hear about it." Twilight said annoyed with the stage magician.

"You now have my interest." Trixie came back outside with a smirk.

"Starlight is having a bunch of nightmares and I feel her best friend should be there for her when I stage an intervention." Twilight explained.

"Uh you mean soon to be marefriend as I the Great and Powerful Trixie will soon have her as my special somepony." Trixie boasted happily.

Twilight felt a wave of jealously splash over her and she flew up to Trixie and began speaking. "Listen Trixie, I do not want you flirting with her in her vulnerable state okay she's fragile right now."

"You're just saying that because you want her for yourself." Trixie accused with anger.

"So what if I do, I can at least be okay with you and her being together if it does end up happening, the point is Starlight needs our help and I am willing to put aside our differences to be there for her." Twilight argues.

Trixie thought for a moment before sighing "Fine Trixie will not flirt with Starlight even if Starlight so rightfully deserves to be loved by moi."

"Good enough, thanks Trixie also don't joke about Starlight's past she doesn't need that." Twilight said gratefully as she checked Trixie's name off the list.

"Oh believe me Twilight I learned my lesson of doing that." Trixie waved off.

Next up on the list is a little dragon, she hopes he won't feel too guilty.

What The Dreams Mean

Twilight and Luna began talking to each other in the Canterlot castle.

“So I know this is a bit much to tell you but Starlight has been having recurring nightmares and I need you to help me with them.” Twilight said.

“I am aware Twilight who do you think wards them off?” Luna says with sarcasm.

“Wait you knew and didn’t tell me.” Twilight said angrily.

“My apologies Princess Twilight but she requested I stay silent and not tell you for she worries you will waste time with her so called ‘foolishness’.” Luna admits mournfully.

“Starlight is anything but foolish to me in fact I-“ Twilight is about to confess before Luna cuts her off.

“I am aware of thou’s crush on Starlight Glimmer I have seen your wet dreams Twilight Sparkle.” Luna says smirking a bit.

“Oh.” Twilight says blushing “But still what do the dreams mean?” Twilight asked in a scared tone.

“Perhaps it would be best if I showed you myself.” Luna said casting a spell.

Luna and Twilight were in one of Starlight’s old dreams.

“Where are we?” Twilight asked.

“We are in Starlight’s Glimmer’s most recent dream. It will allow me to show you her thoughts.” Luna clarified.

You blamed cutie marks and stripped a whole village of theirs

Relax if something goes wrong Starlight will just go back in time and fix it

and when Twilight and the others stopped you, you went back in time and almost destroyed Equestria

It’s like a super villain tracker

Says the pony who tried to make everypony the same by switching everypony’s cutie marks with equal signs

Right just like when cutie marks took your friend away your magic was strong enough to enslave an entire village

Yeah ever since Starlight messed with it to go back in time and tried to change history

How is the fact that Twilight decided to put an incompetent power hungry unicorn in charge of her school MY PROBLEM!

“These were all things her friends said.” Luna clarifies.

“I don’t understand, I know Starlight feels upset at the hecklers who won’t forgive her but I didn’t know it was this bad.” Twilight said shocked.

“Ah but it’s not just Starlight who it bothers, Discord and Trixie have their fair share of hecklers as you call them as well, it annoys them but what is really hurting Starlight is that she thinks her friends only think about her past and that they fear her.” Luna explains.

Luna then showed Twilight the manifestation of Starlight’s nightmares Moonlight.

“That is Moonlight the being that is tormenting Starlight, it is a manifestation of the darkness inside her, it is a Tantabus that has found it’s way inside her and while it is not as harmful as mine it is still damaging Starlight’s psyche.” Luna explains with remorse.

Twilight and Luna went back to the real world she now knew what she had to do but she would need a bit of help.