“You didn’t expect to see me in your dreams, dear Brother in Law?

Shining Armor looked at his surroundings. Before him was Princess Luna, and scattered around the two of them were dozens of bodies. Most of the wriggling mass were Shining himself, some of them slender and shorter, some of them burlier and stronger, while the rest of the mass was Cadance. In some places there were three Cadances piling over one Shining, all of them fawning over him, and in others there were three Shinings positioned around a single Cadance, each of them diligently pumping their cocks into one of her orifices.

Shining Armor turned his head to the side to see a skinny, more effeminate version of himself laying back while a taller, much more curvaceous Cadance bucked her hips up and down over his cock. He then turned the other way to see a stronger version of himself laying with his ass in the air, being pegged mercilessly by Cadance, his precum spilling out on the plain floor as his tongue lolled out of his mouth.

Shining assessed the orgy of him and his wife, the mass of meat and cum that surrounded him and his Sister in Law, and spoke, “It would make more sense that this was a dream, now that I think about it.”

Luna gave a stern look for a moment, leaving the two of them nothing but the rampant sounds of sex around them to fill the silence. Shining tried to peer across the bodies rolling and writhing on the floor, but everything beyond them seemed murky, vaguely outside of his perception.

He spoke again, “so this is pretty awkward.” Behind him a Cadance had an intense orgasm.

“Oh I assure you, Shining Armor, being the protector of dreams I see much worse.” Luna spoke with a very formal, royal authority, even as her cheeks blushed upon hearing the beefiest, bulkiest Shining of the orgy moan in delight as Cadance rutted him with a strapon.

“So what brings you by, then? Just wanted to see my dream orgy?” Shining shrunk a bit as he heard one of the Shinings in the background ask another if he was going to cum soon.

“If I wanted to see your sex dreams I would wait until your mother visits,” Luna spoke with a smirk slowly creeping its way across her face.

“Ponies need to stop joking about that. It’s gross,” Shining barked, harumphing his hoof down.

“If anypony can make jokes about that it’s me, having seen the dreams of all of equestria.” Luna stepped forward a bit, puffing her chest with indignity.

“So what are you here for?” Shining almost had to shout over the noise of an unlikely string of simultaneous orgasms behind him.

“I am just here to talk,” Luna responded, waving her hoof contemplatively. “I wanted to see if you were okay.”

“I’d hate to take your time after a-” Shining drew his hoof away as an errant jet of cum landed near him.

“Shining. I know you have much inner conflict as of late. I’d like to just take a moment to check in, catch up, to wish you a happy birthday, of course, with regards from Celestia too.” She dragged her sentence along, consciously trying to avoid looking at one Cadance to the side who was managing to take a frankly gratuitous number of Shining’s at once .

Shining paused for a moment. As his head sank in thought the mass around them began to shift. The noise quieted and slowly, seeming to sink into the imperceivable veil that coated the dream, the Shinings and Cadances all began to disappear. Finally it was the two of them alone. The veil seemed darker.

“I’m not mad, Shining Armor.” Luna carried a softness in her voice that reassured him. “I know better than most how hard it can be to control our own desires.”

That hit a bit too close to home. Shining sat down, keeping his stinging eyes closed for a moment. Luna walked over, her hooves making echoey clops in the void, and Shining felt her rub his back comfortingly. She spoke again, “you must face it.”

Shining opened his eyes and began to turn back to look at her, but the sight he faced stopped him. It was a mini recreation of the night he studied Sunburst’s naked body. Only the bed; Sunburst and Shining; and the window, draping moonlight over the both of them, were there. Shining watched himself as he stared at the head of Sunburst's penis. Seeing it from a different angle, he was shocked at how lustful he looked. Sunburst had shrunken himself into a bashful mess while Shining seemed to almost hang his tongue out of his mouth, practically drooling over the cock in front of him.

Shining almost thought it was a picture, not a moving scene, with how long he watched himself hold there. He almost let out a gasp when he saw himself finally stoop his head down, his eyes dragging behind to absorb every inch that was laid out before him. Sunburst, Shining only now noticed, lifted his legs just a bit, bending his back in an attempt to give Shining a little better of a view.

Shining and Luna watched in silence as the scene slowly unfolded. Shining could feel the back of his throat burning. Luna finally spoke, “we are both well aware of what you wanted to do.”

Shining took a moment, trying to keep his eyes from stinging anymore, to try and speak, but he was cut off by the events before them taking a drastic turn. The dream Shining, finally giving in to the hunger in his eyes, parted his dry lips, pausing to pucker and rewet them, and gently pressed his snout into Sunburst’s crotch, giving his sheath and the base of his cock a full-mouthed kiss as the smaller pony twinged in surprise, letting out a slight yelp.

The void of the dream only amplified the sounds as Shining watched in horror. His eyes were wide as he witnessed himself succumb to his own fears as of late. The dream Shining paused a moment, tilting his head to the side and taking a long sampling from around the base of Sunburst’s cock. Sunburst fidgeted helplessly, precum oozing its way slowly down from his head. Shining fastened his lips around the base and swabbed his tongue around once more, this time carrying the motion to draw slowly up the length of Sunburst’s penis, resting his upper lips around Sunburst’s flare as he playfully mawed at the head.

“Be honest with me, Shining Armor. Be honest to yourself too. Confront your arousal. Embrace it.” Luna spoke with such authority and volume that it was as though her voice simply existed around him. It was a command.

“I don’t. I DON’T want this!” The air around them seemed to grow hot as the dream versions of Shining and Sunburst disappeared. Luna simply stood quietly at Shining’s side, looking down on him calmly as he spoke, the anger wavering in his voice already. A tear rolled down his cheek as he wracked himself with a light sob. “I don’t want to want this.” He bowed his head in defeat.

“Cadance knows how love and desire work, Brother in Law. She knows that you would never betray her. She knows, just as I do, that hiding this part of yourself, hiding your own worries and desires, it will only hurt you. It will only hurt those around you.”

“So what more is there? I’ve already told my wife I want to have sex with another pony. I still feel awful.” Shining looked to Luna the way a foal looks to its mother, desperation in his eyes.

“Sex is easy, Shining Armor. If it were only sex you felt guilt over, then why would you be unsatisfied with Cadance’s use of the transformation spell?” As Luna spoke images swirled around them. They gradually formed into whole scenes of Cadance transforming into Sunburst, and of her and Shining having sex.

“I...this all started because I got horny for Sunburst…” Shining felt like he was swimming in his own thoughts.

“You are only getting older, Shining Armor. Old enough to find out that some things are not truly once in a lifetime. Face what you feel, only then can you resolve it.” Luna began to shimmer, it became harder and harder for Shining to see her standing before him.

“You want me to say I…”

“Not to me, Shining Armor. To her. To him. To yourself.”

“I love him.”

Cadance only barely heard the words escape Shining’s lips, carried on the heat of his breath by the night air as the two of them slept, nestled together under the stars. She furrowed her brow, though not opening her eyes, and swallowed. It wasn’t news to her. She was an empath. What’s more, she knew that Shining would never cheat on her on purpose. She really did trust him, and she felt sorry for him, knowing his conflict. To stop loving someone hurt, but she trusted Shining to do it. Those thoughts were rational, however. In her heart at the moment was only a hollow pain, a very emotional one. The pang of hearing your lover want for something you can’t give them.

Author's Note

Loooooong hiatus, and I'm sorry for that. Things got busy, you know how it goes. This story is not dead though, and should see a few more updates before an actually planned hiatus that may come at the end of August. Back to writing emotionally complicated gay romance plots for the time being however, so strap in.