History Repeats

I am supposed to be asleep. Supposed to be. These idiots haven't seen what it looks like from outside their city. People starve on a daily basis. You have to hope to survive the night. Unless you get food from our families, you will starve. I feel dizzy. This train is moving so fast, so fast that I all the colors from the things outside are blurred and blended. It is late fall.

I turn over to look at the clock. I can't help myself. Well, I would look at the clock, if I could. My solidified mane gets in the way, so I sit up and turn my head. 6:31. I sigh. Short Time said we need to get up at 8:00, so I try to get some sleep. No success. Oh well. Sleeping is overrated anyway. I get out of bed and hover. Suddenly, I am zipping through the large train, my wings aching from the exertion. But it is a nice, burning pain.

"Moon? What are you doing?" I spread my wings and tilt up so I can stop before I crash. I look behind me. Blue Leaf is near the door of her room.

" What, do I have to be moping around all the time?" I say. I should not be this hostile. But I have not yet built up the friendship that I could have with her. She used to be cruel, laughing when someone's family member passed from starvation. But one day, she didn't. And we found out that she was an orphan.

"No, I just... Moonlight, why don't you want to be friends?" She has tears in her eyes. A small part of me feels bad for her. But she has gone too far. I remember her, in Lower Level classes, laughing at me when I realized that I was the only girl in my family, when I realized that I will never have a mother.

I look at her in surprise. does she really think that I'm just going to say 'Hey, I know you're a rude, immature filly who doesn't care about anyone else, but y'know, we are on the same boat now!' I can feel my anger rising, but I try to force it down and say "I'm not going to accept that apology"

She looks heartbroken, and I want to smack her. She's like one of those spoiled brats we see in the rich sectors of six. They think everything is going to go their way.

"Do you really think that I'll just forgive you? After what you did? This is not something you can just patch up with a sorry!" My nose is hot. My hooves are planted on the ground. I feel a million pounds. But what I just said will never be taken back. There is no way to make myself lighter.

"I-I don't expect you to forgive like that, but why not? I lost someone as well? I know how it feels!" She is crying now.

" No, you will never know how it feels, because you have never felt what I have felt. It's too late. You made your choice. And now I'm making mine" I push past her and go back to my room.