I’m Not A Villain

(Chapter 1: The Past, Present and Future)

I woke up.

The only sound I could hear was my constant breathing. My eyes were blinded by a light, I placed my hand over my face and looked out to the distant valley. I was greeted by planes, fields, a small river and a few mountains in the distance. I was directly facing the sun, and the rooster in the distance told me that it was morning.

I shut my eyes again and lean myself back against the tree. I felt so tired and so… confused? Yeah I think so.

‘I still don’t know why those horse-people attacked me. I don’t understand why they couldn’t leave me alone… why…’

I opened my eyes for a split second. And I wish I didn’t. I noticed a horse-person in front of me. A sword stuck in their heart. My eyes shot open in shock.

The horse person fell down to their knees, and before my eyes they transformed. Once stood a white horse-person wearing golden armour, now stood a human in a dark leathery jacket, and blue jeans. Their face and hair were dishevelled and messy. Blood poured from their heart, which looked to have three holes in it instead of a sword. “You did this to me!” They said back-and-forth transforming from a pony to a human.

I shut my eyes again and grabbed my head. ‘It’s not real, it’s not real!’ I told myself, but I still felt their presence staring into me.

“What isn’t real?” I heard a voice in my head. I remembered the voice they told me to run. It sounded the exact same.

I slowly opened my eyes and realized that there was nothing in front of me. I let out a small sigh. I looked around, although I knew for some reason they were in my head.

“Well you certainly aren’t much of a talker.” I heard a chuckle in my head. “There’s no need to be scared. I’m just in your Head.”

That thought only scared me more. I wanted to say something but my mouth kept shut. ‘How do I know if I can trust her‘ “Because I know every thought that goes in your head.” I felt my back shiver and the sound of her voice replying to me.

“O-OK I’m talking!” I said with a stutter. I silently chastise myself for letting that slip but continued. “Who are you… am I just insane?” I finished mostly to myself. Unable to believe what was happening.

I heard the voice laugh harder this time. But this time the last felt more… genuine?

“Insane! No! No… What’s insane, is the fact that you were being attacked without reason. Do you know who attacked you?... Oh I'm getting ahead of myself, where are my manners, you asked me for my name and I haven’t given it to you. You may call me Nightmare Moon.” The Voice known as Nightmare Moon said to me.

“Nightmare Moon.” I said. “It’s... A nice name… especially for someone like you” I said quietly to myself. Forgetting that she was in my head.

“What was that?” I heard a stern reply.

I felt my heart sink a bit, fearing I had maybe angered the voice in my head. I decided to say something quick. “You know… you sound kind of terrifying like a Nightmare… but there is a hint of beauty in your voice like the Moon.”

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Welp… I think I’m fucking dead...

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This human… he is like nothing I’ve seen… he complexes me all to Tartarus… yet I find myself drawn to this being… I haven’t been drawn to it being since… No! that is the past and I decided to make a new future for myself… I just didn’t expect it to be with a human…

I’ve been stuck in this darkness for a while now. I’ve sent the others down further into the subconscious to learn more of this human. Hopefully we can figure out something. I’ve decided to stay here and watch over our human.

He is rather curious. Very curious. He even talks to himself, it seems that he doesn’t even know what’s going on and he is more loss than us four. This could be a side effect of the spell, but I have a feeling there’s more to the story than meets the eye.

When he woke up, I let myself chuckle seeing him trying to deflect the sun that was coming straight at his face. It wouldn’t take long until he was back to his curious self, observing the area around him.

‘I still don’t know why those horse-people attacked me. I don’t understand why they couldn’t leave me alone… why…’ I heard him say through his mind.

I took a deep breath to prepare myself. The first impression is one of the most important. And if I wanted vengeance against Celestia, I would have to Work with this human.

‘It’s not real, it’s not real!’ I suddenly heard his thoughts. I noticed he shut his eyes, blocking me from the outside world.

“What’s isn’t real?” I blundered out. ‘Really that’s how you start!’ I chastised myself.

Even so, it had the desired effect to calm him down. Although he is still a bit shaken. “There’s no need to be scared. I’m just in your Head.” I said chuckling to myself. I already messed up my introduction so why not have some fun.

he looked about anxiously before deciding to open his mouth. Unfortunately no words seem to have come out at the time instead.

‘How do I know if I can trust her?‘ he thought

‘Ha cute’

“because I know every thought that goes in your head.” I told him instantly. I could feel the shiver go down his back. He squirmed beneath me, even though he had no idea how truly fearful he should actually be. This pleases me and slightly saddened me… only for a minute!

finally he spoke “O-OK I’m talking!... Who are you… am I just insane?”

“Insane! No! No…” I laughed “What’s insane, is the fact that you were being attacked without reason. Do you know who attacked you?...

‘No stop! Vengeance later!’ I slightly criticize

“Oh I'm getting ahead of myself, where are my manners, you asked me for my name and I haven’t given it to you. You may call me Nightmare Moon.” I introduced myself finally.

“Nightmare Moon.” He said. “It’s... A nice name… especially for someone like you...” he tried to say quietly.

“What was that?” I demanded. If we are already going to have a problem, then I better deal with it NOW!

I saw how nervous he began to look and I slightly enjoyed it until… “You know… you sound kind of terrifying like a Nightmare… but there is a hint of beauty in your voice like the Moon.”

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Deceptive, I think I’ll keep this one.

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Deeper into the subconscious, that’s where you’ll find the answers to this human. It will be a place that the human enjoys. Sometimes the answers are hard to read, and you have to look closer. Once you’re done return to blah blah blah.

Sombra thought over the... “orders”... Nightmare Moon gave him. The reason why I here now, walking in the darkness... with two buffoons…

“3 bottles of pop on the wall, 3 bottles of pop, If one of those bottles should happen to fall, 2 bottles of pop on the wall.” Discord continued the song despite our aggression.

Chrysalis also seems to have fallen to Discord madness. Singing along with him in a few phrases just to continue the song, How Pathetic!

“...2… pops on the wall... 2 bottles of pop… If one… bottles should happen to fall… 1 bottle of pop on the wall….” She quietly sang. A muse to myself that she was slowly dying of torture.

Unfortunately for me, Discord only seemed more cheerful to finish the song.1 bottle of pop on the wall 1 bottle of pop If that bottle should happen to fall, No bottles of pop on the… *inhale* WALLLLLLLL-“ “I WILL BUCKING MURDER YOU!!!”

I turned around, only to notice Chrysalis had jumped the monster. Finally he’s torturing was met by his choking, as chrysalis wrapped her Claw like hands around his throat. It’s unfortunate we can’t kill each other, Otherwise I’ve already would’ve taken over this form, this... human… I chuckled at the thought of being brought so pathetically low…

I let out a small grunt before turning back around and continuing into this… subconscious…

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‘I’m going to kill him! I’m going to kill him!’ I maliciously thought in my head. If I believed it… I was eventually going to kill him… I choked Discord. around his long neck, and his head wiggled around like a snake.

It only pissed me off more when he was trying to laugh through his strangling.

Unfortunately, no matter how hard I tried, we just stood there…. looking like idiots.

Eventually I got tired and got off. “No more singing!” I demanded before storming off.

I have bigger things on my mind right now Then a bucking fool. I had one of the strongest hives in the badlands, and I took quite pride in having that acknowledgement. We survived everything the badlands threw at us.

But now I can only hear my children die. I can hear the sounds of pops in my ears as one of my children dies. With it comes a shiver of guilt. Well temperatures don’t normally affect the changelings. I can still feel cold and lonely.

I thought this was the best way to help my children, but this whole contractor seem to gone off the rails completely. Now we have to follow around this human.

‘This human does not know much, after we’re done with our missions, return to me for training.’ I could hear the smugness of Nightmare Moon even in my own mind. She thinks herself all high and mighty just because she has somewhat of a clue of what’s going on.

I wasn’t looking forward to dealing with this human. If it was up to me, I would be out saving my children right now. And this human is too slow.

Perhaps training would be for the best….

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I continue to laugh. Even after her claws released my throat, I laughed. I was just wondering how long it would take to make one of them snap, and now I know.

Six hours! A whole new record! I really have to give it to Chrissy!

Although Sombro has yet to break. And once I’m done figuring out how the subconscious works… I'm going to test Nightmare Moon. My laugh slowly turned evil for I had so many wonderful plans.

But I didn’t have a moment to lose. Sombro has gained a bit of a lead, but not for long.

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I continued walking. Deeper and deeper. Yet no matter how long we walked there was Nothing!

The armour that I wore started to strain on me. The metal I use for my armour is quite rare and very few have been able to duplicate the material. However for all of its properties and upsides. It’s extremely heavy, even for me. I smirked, imagining the human trying to wear my armour. How long would it have been for him to fall over and be immovable. A slight chuckle escaped my lips… unfortunately I wish I hadn’t…

“How are you doing!? Sombro!” Discord teleported right beside me and proceeded to shout in my face. “There’s not really anything funny in this darkness, so what made you laugh!” He said with a stupid grin.

I growled at him, bearing my fangs. “That’s none of your concern you overgrown freakshow. And stop giving me a nickname!”

Discord only proceeded to laugh at my dismay. My only response was to growl even further.

“Oh hush, Sombro! I came to give you the new good news!” He said well extending his arms. Instantly I can hear the sound of applause and cheering all around me but I knew he was just messing with my mind.

“Cut it out! Can’t you just keep bothering Chrysalis!” I shouted at him.

“But that’s exactly why I am here! She lost the game so I’m here to tell you the truth!” He said defensively which only irritates me more.

“What in Tartarus!? are you talking about?” I said with a glare.

He proceeded to give me a devilish smirk before speaking. “The place we need to go is just to your right… actually it’s been to your right about five hours and 45 minutes. I’ve just been slowly making you walk in circles!”

“I….”

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“YOU!” “Tootles!” Before I could do anything he teleported away.

“I’M SENDIND YOU TO TARTARUS!!! IN PIECES!!!” I shouted at the top of my lungs.

“SHUT UP!” I heard someone yell from behind me. Slowly I turned around and noticed it was Chrysalis. I was still seething as I was looking at her.

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“Well somepony’s cranky!” I teased Sombra. “I didn’t know the Almighty, Sombra, was a constant letdown.”

He was still seething at me and whatever discord said to him really pissed him off. So I decided to have some fun too.

“If I could kill you! I would! But weren’t you just a blubbering mess five minutes ago. I’m sure your hive would love to see you like that! Perhaps opening your mouth was the worst mistake you ever made!” He shouted back at me.

He blames me for what I did! I HAD NO CHOICE! Before I could let that son of a bitch go I jumped onto him with fury and GREEN HELL FIRE. I don’t care if I can’t kill him! I’m gonna make this hurt!

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I continue to laugh as I made my way inside of the subconscious. To my surprise, I seem to be in a house. And from what I could see it was far different than what I expected. Having a Quick look around I noticed a bed and realized it was a bedroom. There were several black boxes scattered onto a table and the floor. I seem to be more advanced than current technology that I’ve seen so far.

That was one of the very odd things in the room. I noticed a blue trash can that was left beside the wall just before the door. In one of the corners there seem to be a closet full of clothes and another cupboard full of more clothes. I wondered how rich this human must’ve been to have at least 30 pairs of different clothes. There was also an odd smell coming from the closet but I ignored it for now.

Thirdly I begin to notice how dusty it was in the room. There had to be a layer of dust over everything! On the floor, walls and roof and all the objects I mentioned before. There seem to be a bit of trash laying around but honestly I didn’t know its purpose.

But finally what caught my attention the most was a simple picture frame in the room. It had the very human that is our host. But there was another, small human beside it. I can only guess it was a small female. Impossibly they both seem to be Smiling! Compared to the male human, she had nice dark long hair, to his scruffy brown hair, and her blue eyes shined a purity I have not seen in a long time. As I looked at my host however I noticed that he seemed to be faking smiling. He was off looking away from the picture staring at something else with his deep blue eyes. I was taken aback remembering that his eyes were yellow.

Something about the picture caught my interest and slowly I reached out. As I grabbed it, a whole layer of dust came off. Slowly I looked at the picture and rubbed my Eagle like claw on the girl…

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I don’t seem to be dead… yet…

But Nightmare Moon hasn’t yet talked…

And the more that there is silence the more I feel uncomfortable.

“You are quite the liar, aren’t you?” I heard her say to me.

I felt my body freeze. “What do you mean! I spoke the truth!” I panicked yelled.

“I know for a fact, you did not look up upon my moon, and you wouldn’t even know what it looks like, would you?” I felt my heart rate increase wondering what was going to happen to me now.

“You have quite the problem with your memory don’t you?” I could hear Nightmare Moon say.

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I don’t know why… but I suddenly Felt a shiver going down my spine… ‘my memory.’ “What do you mean.” I blurted out.

“Come on!” I can hear her cheerfully say. “We both know that you don’t remember anything… you know, you’re handling it better than anypony else I expect it to. Why aren’t you scared?” I could hear her ask me.

I felt another... cold shiver…. I didn’t know what was wrong with me. But I suddenly felt colder…

“I don’t know… it doesn’t really bother me, I guest.” I lied.

“Mhm.” was her response. “Are you sure? I would hate for our host to be lying to us.” I heard her say menacingly. But I caught onto a keyword.

“Us?” I quietly said.

“Yes.” was her response. “In total, you have 4 God-like beings inside of your head. Some of us can only live, because you live. It wasn’t the original deal but it is now. That’s why it’s my… Sacred duty… To Protect You!” Her words only made me a bit more tense.

“A-And the others. They’re all in my head… just like you.” I said slowly.

“You don’t have to be scared.” I heard her say. “Your life is going to get so much better. All of our strength is yours. You just need to do some training in a few things for us. Then... you can have revenge!”

“NO! THANK YOU!”

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I was taken aback by his shouting. Did he just deny revenge. I hope we don’t have a goody two shoes. Otherwise plans of revenge are gonna be a little while.

“What’s wrong…” I said first wondering why he didn’t take the opportunity to get his revenge. “THEY were against you… they threw you out of The City and down the mountain. Do you honestly believe they were trying to spare you.”

“No…” was his slow response. I widened my grin realizing my chances of revenge were still at large. “...You’re wrong!” I heard him say in… defiance?

Before I could say anything he started ranting. “I don’t think they would ever have spared me. But honestly I didn’t get a chance to spare them. I threw one of them off a mountain, One of them was split in half. The other was SKEWERED by me… I don’t think revenge would help… It’ll make things worse... and more people will die…”

I didn’t need to be a creature of the mind... to understand his guilt. When I was Luna… ha… when WE were Luna. We have got the experience of war. This human reminds me a bit of Luna. 1 second they can take a life . next they feel nothing but guilt… we felt guilt…

I let out a sigh… was I really going to give up my plans for revenge…

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NO!

… but perhaps we should focus on other things, such as the training I plan on giving him. I felt so complex with this human.

“Very well,” I said aloud. “We won’t focus on revenge, but your training. However the others may not be so pleased.” I gave him a warning wishing a bit for him to reconsider.

“T-Then we can have a t-talk.” He stammered out bravely. Honestly it was kind of cute. “I’ll hear the revenge, and make my decision from there.” He said with a bit more sturdiness.

Strangely I found myself smiling a bit. Although he does seem to be quite a diplomat. Maybe he’s more intelligent than we thought and training him won’t be so hard. However that could also be wishing thinking from me.

“Another thing we should focus on. Is your memory.” I said to him. Another Shiver. “H-How about we focus on training?!” He quickly tried to derail the conversation. Unfortunately for him I wasn’t having any of it.

“OK! Seriously!” I shouted more than I liked. “Why do you keep moving away from your memory! Shouldn’t you be striving to remember it! You’re in a completely different world, perhaps even a reality! Yet you don’t give two shits about your memory!” For a second I wonder if he was hiding something from us. I almost chuckled at the thought for whatever he was hiding from us would be revealed in his subconscious.

I didn’t expect the scream. Before I could do anything, he was screaming as loud as he could. I tried talking to him... even apologizing… but nothing seemed to break his hold.

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I felt so cold. There was a loud noise irking me and it took me a minute to realize it was myself. I could feel myself starting to cry. That’s when a memory hit me

There was a little girl in front of me dead. For some reason I knew this girl. “Amelia.” my own mouth moved. Her black hair was mixed in a pool of blood. Her lifeless eyes staring back at me. I felt my own heart pierced by a knife that wasn’t there. Just staring into those eyes made me feel my world shatter.

Before I could do anything, a sweet embrace of darkness took me.

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I sat they’re in his mind wondering, what happened to the human to make him knock himself out cold. I haven’t felt this much fear from a human or any creature… for a very long time… I wonder… It’s been about six hours… did those buffoons mess with somethings in the subconscious.

He wasn’t gonna get up for a while, but he was still defenceless outside of the Everfree. I can’t leave him alone so I decided to use the next best thing.

“Sombra, Chrysalis And Discord.” I shouted into the mind. “Return from the subconscious there are things that we need to discuss. I expect a full report upon your return.” Using a bit of my magic I made sure the message got to all of them, wherever they were in the subconscious.

The first one to make it back was discord. Having instantly teleported back to the front. “Moonbutt. How can I be of help?” Out of all the nicknames…

“Discord… where are the others?” I asked, giving him a glare.

He proceeded to give me a confused look. “Others, what others! I’m just here to help!” He said with a stupid toothy grin. There was only so much I was willing to take today.

“I’m not here to play games, Discord! Where are the others!” I practically shouted at him causing him to look at me with a frightening look for once.

“I’m sorry, ma’am” he said, I could only assume in a mocking tone. It was so hard to tell what he was truly thinking. “We have lost each other in the subconscious. I’m afraid I will take hours just to try to get them out. Oh boo-hoo hoo” now I know he was faking. I was about to ask him a final time when suddenly both of them arrived out of the darkness… and immediately lost my composure. Unintentionally I laughed with Discord but the scene was just too funny.

Sombra was obviously burnt and scarred in a few areas that were quickly healing while chrysalis was cut in some pieces that were just floating together. One of her hands was unattached from her body but it still moves like it was there. Both of them were healing ever so slowly but the damage had already been done.

“Even after I specifically tell you you couldn’t kill each other. You still tried anyway.” My life continued with Discord as they both glared at us.

“That bitch is crazy!” Spat Sombra. “She attacked me like some kind of rabid animal! With Fire!”

“Next time watch what you say!” Chrysalis shot back. “Say something like that again and I’ll do something much worse than just burn your ‘jewels‘ “

Sombre proceeded to grab his… oh…

Me and Discord continue to laugh at their misery.

Eventually we all calm down and I got a look at everypony. “I take it the subconscious mission wasn’t that much of a success, although one of you did something. So did anypony make it into the subconscious.” I looked at all of them and instantly realized who was the only preacher able to reach the subconscious.

I let out a sigh seeing that he wasn’t coming forward. “Discord?” I said looking at him unamused.

He proceeded to look around the room completely avoiding eye contact with me. “I might’ve found something…” he said with a devilish Mark before revealing a photograph to us.