I can't live without you

It dark in your room as you watch the day go by you just watch as the rain pours down making it satisfying to you. You hear words echo in your head making you rub your head by the headache.

"Just stop" you muttered

"You have to"

"No"

"Let her-"

"NO!" You shout slamming your arms to the wall cracking it. You paint heavily looking around you and look at the wall and it makes you mad... No, even worse. You begin to punch the wall and not caring about the pain in your hand you just continue punching.

You then stop and look at your hand, it's covered in blood and you may have broken bone in your hand. You walk over to your journal and write the date with one hand and then walk out the door.
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"Where is he? Is he okay?" Twilight said walking into the hospital straight to Redheart

"H-he fine... He just broke his hand that's all" Redheart says picking up her clipboard and handing it to Twilight.

"He broke three of his fingers by punching a wall. It needs to heal slow" Redheart said walking to her desk. Twilight looks at the clipboard closely and she right he broke his hand but why?

"Where is he," she asked

"Room 294"

She thanks her and walks to the stair making her way to the room where he waits for something to happen.
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You sigh disappointedly at yourself for what did. Twilight walks in and sighed that you're alright

"Oh Anon thank Celestia that you're okay," she says walking next to you.

You smile "sorry Twilight I... I just thought of something," you said looking away

"Well then... I'll have to cancel the-"

"No no, you have to uh... Delay it... Yeah delay it until I get out of here" you said

Twilight smiles at that and she quickly grabs her book and writes it down "how does next week sound?"

"Fine," you said using your good hand and give a thumbs up.

An hour later Twilight left and you felt that feeling you felt the feeling before and like always alone. It like that one song that your father loves to sing

Alone again naturally

Remembering the song makes you sleepy, so you just go to bed early. Turning the covers you muttered the song slowly as you close your eyes going to sleep.
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"Why did you make me do it!" You shout at Wesley as the young fifteen years back up.

"I... I tried to save you" he muttered backing up

You felt tears drip down your face making you look away and sob. You then see Wesley put his hands on his shoulder making you look at him.

"But listen we need to get out of here"

"But you-"

"Goddammit, Anon! Remember those things are out there still we need to go" Wesley says picking up the rifle.

"Shit" you muttered getting up, looking back "goodbye" you muttered taking out your flip knife finally seeing the blue and green blade for the first time

"Come on Anon let's move" Wesley shouts and you follow. Seeing the fire around you and the dead bodies you continue to run but hearing the howling make you...

You wake up again seeing your room dark. The door opens by a nurse pony walking in with a tray full of food.

"Your dinner sir," the nurse said placing it in front of you. You thank her and tell her to turn the lights on so you can eat and twenty minutes later you go back to bed getting ready for next week.
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"I don't understand this Wesley we first escape the forest and now you want to rob the farm!" You shout at the young nineteen-year-old who holds the rifle and points at the farm but then turns to face you.

"Listen Anon they treat us like outlaws we are not welcomed here!" Wesley shouts

You get up and walk in front of him "so what you want to make it worse!" You shout back

Wesley then walks back picking up the rifle and looks back at the farm "look if we don't get food we are gonna die. I'm trying to prevent that you need to stop being sensitive about everything!" Wesley says reloading the gun and walking out the bush.

You look away "son of a bitch" you muttered taking out your knife and follow Wesley to the farm

"Okay, Wesley ill only do this once got it?"

"Yes fine whatever," Wesley said getting close to the farm but as then a yellow farmer with a young red stallion walkout

'We know your here beast!" The yellow farmer said adjusting his hat. This makes Wesley walk out and point the gun at them. You walk out behind Wesley

"What are you doing?!" You shout. Hearing the familiar clicking sound you make a move to try and stop Wesley and-

*gunshot*

You wake up again and nearly falling off your bed, but only crimes from the pain in your hand which was getting soar even your body too. You're completely tired and you can't hold it anymore, so you make a choice and get out of bed and walk over to the cabinet where your pants are at, and pull out a photo of your family.

'I need to be better than this' you thought looking away from the photo and at the clock. You look at your broken hand and then at the photo but then feeling your body getting tired again you put your stuff next to you and slowly go back to sleep.
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You hear the door open and Vinyl and Octavia walk-in with worried expression even Vinyl did not have her shades on

"Oh Anon," Octavia said walking next to you and look at your hand. You don't mind how she looks at your hand, all three of you have been friends since you were kids mostly Vinyl though.

You yawn moving your body around a bit and then smile warmly "hey..." You muttered still feeling a bit tired. Octavia sighs lightly knowing that you are alright but Vinyl gives the look knowing what you did and why.

"Tavi can you leave the room for a sec" Vinyl said giving a fake smile. Octavia looks at you then back at her and nods, leaving the room.

You look away from Vinyl knowing what is happening

"You were thinking about Wesley, weren't you?"

You nod your head clearing your throat and swallow the lump in your throat "yes I... I was" you mumbled

Vinyl sighs walking to the end of the room and sit on a chair for a pony "you remember when we all sing that one song during hearth warming?"

You chuckled remembering that moment "heh yeah Grandma got ran over by a reindeer we sang that stupid song all across the town" you said looking back at the DJ mare. She was smiling too bit then looking away when you looked back at her

"Heh well nice to see you better," Vinyl said looking at you smiling warmly, nodding you sit up

"Well then... I got to use the bathroom" you said slowly getting out of bed and walking to the bathroom. Throughout the time you, Octavia, and Vinyl talked about the past it made you feel happy to talk to your old friends again properly.

But when they left you felt empty again, alone and cold. If you guess both Vinyl and Octavia will be working witch only leaves Twilight with her questions and all that. Getting comfortable you adjust your blankets and sighed waiting to let your body sleep.
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Weeks past and your hand is getting better but at least you can leave the hospital now, but you are curious on why Twilight wanted to ask questions again well you will have to figure it out as you knock on the door with your good hand. And the doir opens up and there stood Twilight who has a nervous look

"Something wrong?" You asked getting her attention.

"No, it's fine... Come in"

She moved to the side and lets you in, crouching down you go through the door and walk in the-

"Hello, Anon... It's been a while" another human stands there with a brown leather jacket on and has a tiny smile on.

"W-Wesley?"