I can't live without you

by Flip_The_Table

Rating: mature
Tags: DJ P0N-3, Human, Sad, Princess Luna, Anon, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Second Person, Octavia, Romance, Sex, Suicide / Self Harm, Twilight Sparkle
Length: 5619

I... I came to a land called Equestria not a easy way. It costed someone special

My name is Anon I've been here in this world for about twenty years but... It did come with the cost of losing someone special. I... I don't know how to stay strong

I guess being alone or something else.

Published 2021-03-03 17:50:00 UTC
Last updated 2021-06-22 21:39:21 UTC

Chapter 1

"Come on Anon you can clearly do better than that," your sister says handing you the joy-con, it's been a long trip and you both were board out of your minds so you both have been playing pokemon tournament for three straight hours just letting it take the time until you get home.

The teacher stands up and was pass both of you to talk to the bus driver you didn't care one bit and just continue playing as Pikachu you're main and play like a pro gamer kicking your sister's ass and just soon you won and it makes your sister sigh.

"Ahh of course you go Pikachu" she muttered putting the joy-con back on the Nintendo switch.

"Maybe next time sis. Maybe when we get home" you say handing her the joy-con. She smiles at the request and nods her head.

"Or even better I play Uncharted 4," she said getting excited. She then slaps her head forgetting something.

"I forgot to give you this," she says handing you a flip knife

"Hey, you need to be careful with that. You can show that on the bus" you whispered.

"I know I wanted to give it to you there but I forgot," she says quickly handing it to you. You'll have to look at the blade when you get home but for now, you sit back and relax. But you hear the Teacher beginning to get louder making you feel out a bit.

"What do you mean that the road is gone!" The teacher shouts making the other kids look at each other. You look at your sister who does the same "get your phone and call mom" you said pulling put your phone "ill try dad" you mumbled.

You feel the phone vibrates hoping to get an- "you call is unable-"

"dammit," you said before looking back and see her do the same "what do we do?" She asked. Soon the kid begins to panic and scream by seeing something jump and scratch the walls.

"What is that!?" A kid screams looking put the window and looks back "we're in a forest!" The kid said.

You look around but then yelp by your side of the wall hearing scratching

"Is that a wolf made out of wood?" Another kid says.

But at this point, you don't care you sit next to your sister and hug her "it's okay sis. everything-"

"Anon come up here!" You hear Wesley shout. As you get up your sister pulls your arm

"No, wait don't go"

"I'll be back promise," you say getting up to your teacher and your best friend.

"I need you to help the kids since you two are the oldest," the teacher says putting down his clipboard.

"Yes sir," Wesley said tapping your arm. You stand next to each other and look at the kids

"Okay listen up were right now having some problem but we're going to be alright," you say

"But we're lost how are we going to get to our parents?" One kid said

"Yeah what about those wolves?" Another kid said getting up and soon the kids talk and begin to argue except for your sister who sits there and panics as the bus stops.

Your Teacher was then behind you "there are no wolves out here" your teacher says opening the door and walking outside.

"See everything is fine there- AAAAHH" the teacher screams as a huge wooden wolf jump on him and bites his neck. The kids scream in terror even you and Wesley both scream as well.

The bus driver closes the door and locked it "everyone get back!" He shouts and everyone does what he commands. The kids still scream as more wooden wolves surround the bus.

"We're gonna die!" A kid shouts running back and forth. You do nothing and run over to your sister and hug her and Wesley does the same.

"We need to get out of here," Your sister says

"Yeah, i-"

The bus then moves to the side making kids scream. The bus driver walked back to his chair and pulls out a gun.

"Oh my God, he has a gun!" Your sister says hugging you tighter.

*gunshot*

You then wake up looking around to see anything... Nothing was moving but only you. 'Nightmares again' you thought getting up out of bed. It's early like always you seem to just wake up early nearly every day but you don't mind since you got used to this for at least a couple of years. You get yourself ready by taking a shower and brushing your teeth and getting new clothes and going outside.

"Good morning," a mail mare says flying by. Just seeing that pony pass by making you remember where you are and it makes you feel normal now but put twenty years ago you were depressed about it.

Welcome to Equestria Anon you've been here for a long time which means you're the only human here in this world.

I can't live without you
By Shaxx Production

You walk to work as you have always done, you say hello to ponies here and there. But there is one pony that you are curious about seeing on your way to work. And there she is Vinyl Scratch was her name she jas been the one thing that helps you with work music.

"Hey Vinyl how have you been" you greet offering a hoof bump which she accepted

"Just fine. I finished charging you music box" she says handing you your music player.

"Thanks," you say putting your player on your side of your waste. But just before you can go Octavia Vinyl's best friend stop you there for a moment.

"I'm going to be practicing my cello for the orchestra. Want to come?" She asked looking up at you. You do play some instruments like violin or piano, you quickly look at your watch and cringe seeing the time. You look back at the gray pony and give an apology look

"Sorry, Tavi but I have to go to work. Remind me when I get home" you said walking past the two and wave at them. You continue on your path to your work and again you wave to everyone that you know that passed by. But when you see the house you stop where you are and clear your throat and take a step and...

...

Nothing huh something happens when you always pass-through Lyra's house maybe she finally gave up on-

"HUMAN!!" You hear the crazy blue pony shout making you start your running.
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"Hey, do you know where the screwdriver is?" You asked getting up looking around. A stallion walks up and hands you a screwdriver with his magic.

"Thank you" you muttered getting back down continuing on the cart. You rub your face tired of the day but hey you get a lot of bits for doing this so getting tired is fine. You put your music back on as you continue building the cart, this is Vinyl's music but you don't mind it at all it seems to always help you focus on your job.

But Hours later you are finally done with work and you thought about what to do next 'Octavia was trying to get in the orchestra she wants help, return the music box to Vinyl and... I'll just return the music box' your decision witch makes you change course to Vinyls home.

You walk down the road it always seems you're the only one walking and it's starting to rain too and that's just great you better hurry on whatever you're doing and get home.

You very luckily got your backpack with you since you left it at work the other day you brought it with you. The rain was getting worse by the seconds as you make your way home and the rain feels like bullets hitting you over and over. But as you make it back to the main part of town you were stopped by twilight using magic as an umbrella.

"Oh hello anon"

"Hey twilight" you mumbled

Twilight looks at you and smiles "good thing I bumped into you I wanted to talk to you" she said. You look back at your watch and back at her

"I don't know Twilight I need to head home," you said. She looks down and nods her head and looks back up at you

"Maybe tomorrow?" She asked with hope.

"Fine," you said looking around then back at her. She hops around happy that you're coming tomorrow

"Great! See you tomorrow" she says walking to her door.

You nod your head as she goes back inside "yeah" you muttered before you continue your path as the rain get worse by the second.

You feel something touch your back making you look back and see nothing you look back at your house and look down. You may live here and do know that you sad and alone you know that you can't live without your sister.

Author's Note

Something I thought about for some time. There will be more coming soon

Chapter 2

It dark in your room as you watch the day go by you just watch as the rain pours down making it satisfying to you. You hear words echo in your head making you rub your head by the headache.

"Just stop" you muttered

"You have to"

"No"

"Let her-"

"NO!" You shout slamming your arms to the wall cracking it. You paint heavily looking around you and look at the wall and it makes you mad... No, even worse. You begin to punch the wall and not caring about the pain in your hand you just continue punching.

You then stop and look at your hand, it's covered in blood and you may have broken bone in your hand. You walk over to your journal and write the date with one hand and then walk out the door.
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"Where is he? Is he okay?" Twilight said walking into the hospital straight to Redheart

"H-he fine... He just broke his hand that's all" Redheart says picking up her clipboard and handing it to Twilight.

"He broke three of his fingers by punching a wall. It needs to heal slow" Redheart said walking to her desk. Twilight looks at the clipboard closely and she right he broke his hand but why?

"Where is he," she asked

"Room 294"

She thanks her and walks to the stair making her way to the room where he waits for something to happen.
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You sigh disappointedly at yourself for what did. Twilight walks in and sighed that you're alright

"Oh Anon thank Celestia that you're okay," she says walking next to you.

You smile "sorry Twilight I... I just thought of something," you said looking away

"Well then... I'll have to cancel the-"

"No no, you have to uh... Delay it... Yeah delay it until I get out of here" you said

Twilight smiles at that and she quickly grabs her book and writes it down "how does next week sound?"

"Fine," you said using your good hand and give a thumbs up.

An hour later Twilight left and you felt that feeling you felt the feeling before and like always alone. It like that one song that your father loves to sing

Alone again naturally

Remembering the song makes you sleepy, so you just go to bed early. Turning the covers you muttered the song slowly as you close your eyes going to sleep.
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"Why did you make me do it!" You shout at Wesley as the young fifteen years back up.

"I... I tried to save you" he muttered backing up

You felt tears drip down your face making you look away and sob. You then see Wesley put his hands on his shoulder making you look at him.

"But listen we need to get out of here"

"But you-"

"Goddammit, Anon! Remember those things are out there still we need to go" Wesley says picking up the rifle.

"Shit" you muttered getting up, looking back "goodbye" you muttered taking out your flip knife finally seeing the blue and green blade for the first time

"Come on Anon let's move" Wesley shouts and you follow. Seeing the fire around you and the dead bodies you continue to run but hearing the howling make you...

You wake up again seeing your room dark. The door opens by a nurse pony walking in with a tray full of food.

"Your dinner sir," the nurse said placing it in front of you. You thank her and tell her to turn the lights on so you can eat and twenty minutes later you go back to bed getting ready for next week.
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"I don't understand this Wesley we first escape the forest and now you want to rob the farm!" You shout at the young nineteen-year-old who holds the rifle and points at the farm but then turns to face you.

"Listen Anon they treat us like outlaws we are not welcomed here!" Wesley shouts

You get up and walk in front of him "so what you want to make it worse!" You shout back

Wesley then walks back picking up the rifle and looks back at the farm "look if we don't get food we are gonna die. I'm trying to prevent that you need to stop being sensitive about everything!" Wesley says reloading the gun and walking out the bush.

You look away "son of a bitch" you muttered taking out your knife and follow Wesley to the farm

"Okay, Wesley ill only do this once got it?"

"Yes fine whatever," Wesley said getting close to the farm but as then a yellow farmer with a young red stallion walkout

'We know your here beast!" The yellow farmer said adjusting his hat. This makes Wesley walk out and point the gun at them. You walk out behind Wesley

"What are you doing?!" You shout. Hearing the familiar clicking sound you make a move to try and stop Wesley and-

*gunshot*

You wake up again and nearly falling off your bed, but only crimes from the pain in your hand which was getting soar even your body too. You're completely tired and you can't hold it anymore, so you make a choice and get out of bed and walk over to the cabinet where your pants are at, and pull out a photo of your family.

'I need to be better than this' you thought looking away from the photo and at the clock. You look at your broken hand and then at the photo but then feeling your body getting tired again you put your stuff next to you and slowly go back to sleep.
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You hear the door open and Vinyl and Octavia walk-in with worried expression even Vinyl did not have her shades on

"Oh Anon," Octavia said walking next to you and look at your hand. You don't mind how she looks at your hand, all three of you have been friends since you were kids mostly Vinyl though.

You yawn moving your body around a bit and then smile warmly "hey..." You muttered still feeling a bit tired. Octavia sighs lightly knowing that you are alright but Vinyl gives the look knowing what you did and why.

"Tavi can you leave the room for a sec" Vinyl said giving a fake smile. Octavia looks at you then back at her and nods, leaving the room.

You look away from Vinyl knowing what is happening

"You were thinking about Wesley, weren't you?"

You nod your head clearing your throat and swallow the lump in your throat "yes I... I was" you mumbled

Vinyl sighs walking to the end of the room and sit on a chair for a pony "you remember when we all sing that one song during hearth warming?"

You chuckled remembering that moment "heh yeah Grandma got ran over by a reindeer we sang that stupid song all across the town" you said looking back at the DJ mare. She was smiling too bit then looking away when you looked back at her

"Heh well nice to see you better," Vinyl said looking at you smiling warmly, nodding you sit up

"Well then... I got to use the bathroom" you said slowly getting out of bed and walking to the bathroom. Throughout the time you, Octavia, and Vinyl talked about the past it made you feel happy to talk to your old friends again properly.

But when they left you felt empty again, alone and cold. If you guess both Vinyl and Octavia will be working witch only leaves Twilight with her questions and all that. Getting comfortable you adjust your blankets and sighed waiting to let your body sleep.
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Weeks past and your hand is getting better but at least you can leave the hospital now, but you are curious on why Twilight wanted to ask questions again well you will have to figure it out as you knock on the door with your good hand. And the doir opens up and there stood Twilight who has a nervous look

"Something wrong?" You asked getting her attention.

"No, it's fine... Come in"

She moved to the side and lets you in, crouching down you go through the door and walk in the-

"Hello, Anon... It's been a while" another human stands there with a brown leather jacket on and has a tiny smile on.

"W-Wesley?"

Chapter 3

"Come on you want a piece of me!" You shout at the grey stallion who spits out blood and crack his neck and soon he runs at you. Dodging the hit you pick him up and slam him to the ground. Some criminals boo and others cheer and one tries to attack but thanks to Wesley he knees the other pony in the face.

You look at the knocked-out pony "go fuck yourself and your sister dickhead!" You said spitting on his face getting up and leave the chamber with Wesley to your dooms.

Tired by fight make you put a hand on your side where the gray stallion struck a hit in you.

"How long have we been here now?" Wesley asked sitting next to you. You yawn lay back against the wall and look at Wesley "well uh five years now why?" You asked. Wesley fixes his back and sighs "five long years for us being here and guess what? I found a way to get us out of here" Wesley said walking to his bed. You look more at him "how? did you like to find a guy to help convince the ponies were innocent?" You asked him who shakes his head

"I found another way and uhh you are not gonna like it but whatever..."

You look away from him and sit more comfortably on the bed as you trying to hold your anger "what do you want Wes?" You asked the man who rubs the back of his neck "I... Well heard about what happened to you and... I wanted to say I'm sorry" you stop and look at him feeling the fire get hotter "you're sorry? After nearly my whole life of me in hell, you're sorry!" You shout making him look down to the ground "I know what I did anon and I... Made some fucked up decision first her and then... And then prison and after all that shit" Wesley said adjusting the grip on his arm looking down at the floor still. He knows the mistakes he made and he wishes that he could go back and try and fix them and make better choices, but it's too late.

You look back at Wesley and see that he's in tears he's crying 'now after all this time he forgives me?' Your grip on the blankets lightens a bit as you stare at Wesley as he continues to cry and she begs to say that he is sorry but did he mean it? Did he mean to forgive him after what he did back at the prison well there was only one way to find out? You get up out of bed adjust a grip on your cast arm and walk towards Wesley, the French is a bit and as you walk up.

You offer your good hand handshake and you give him a serious look " Wesley... do you forgive me? After what happened those years ago... do you forgive me after all that?" You said making Wesley's he wipe the tears off his face and look at you straight in the eyes, he has sorrow and is filled with apologies for everything and a tad bit of hope just to see you again but not as enemies but as friends. He looks at your hand increasing the cast on your hurt hand knowing that you punch something really hard which in case that's the wall.

"Yes after everything I did I should deserve to go back to jail... but I got a family I have two children I need to take care of but, I knew I had to fix up my past fighting apologizing to you, I just wish I wasn't so stupid and stubborn I'm sorry anonymous for everything if I had that all any special magic that any of the Alicorns can give me I would go back to the past and make the right choices both you and her" Wesley said as he grabs your hand you both stare at each other as he slowly handshake with one another for once after all this time throughout all the years that you've been with Wesley surviving, stealing, and killing thinking it was necessary you finally smiled and it was light and with a bit of warmth. Throughout the hours it was quiet Wesley didn't have much time left in since what he did say that he did have a family he needed them and they need him. And after knowing throughout this time it was time for the peace you couldn't hold in this anger anymore you need to be free of this pain it needs to finally be laid to rest and so throughout the time you talk it was awkward at first since he's not talking to Wesley for nearly five years.

But after he left you felt that cold loneliness with you, the room was still dark even when Wesley was here it was dark. But the dark was no longer since that the promise that you gave to Twilight about the conversation in this meeting that she wanted to send some questions and answers it's going to be tough cuz you know but she will be personal on some questions, but your first feeling like you are not ready but after Wesley came here you feel for once determined.

Today was your final day on feeding in the hospital since after your injury on your hand it was a whole lot easier since the human was billed differently than ponies so magic can touch the bones more easily they could have done this a matter of days but do to you barely going to the hospital they needed the scan your whole skeleton just to see how your body would work and with that your hand is good as new you better make sure to be better be careful with these visions that you get to have your past especially when it comes to throwing talks ponies with saying that you just stay there and just zone out there at the moment you're going to have to talk to a doctor about it and also you're going to have to talk to your close friend Vinyl and Octavia but you'll have to put those suicide since you are now going to Twilight's meeting.

But as you go through the streets you know that some ponies have been waving to you you and realize the therapy for once has not crashed into a building as she waved to you it was surprising at first it felt like that whole talk with Leslie probably has changed everything you're probably going to have to talk to him again but I'll have to wait.

Author's Note

Hey guys I know that I've not been writing a lot if you were looking at my post. My dog Finn has recently passed away and he was someone close to me he was like a brother to me even though if it was a dog. The truth is that my dog is not like any other dogs or maybe he is a dog that loves popcorn is it all the time when he even hears anything about popcorn he would always just pop in. I just made a joke.

But play not to the side I love him and it upsets me that he is gone.

Rest in peace my dog Finn 2017 - 2021

Chapter 4

As you walk down the streets of Ponyville you see you lots of ponies are out giving out their delicious food in their markets or having fun. You noticed some of the ponies have waved to you you always back a bit awkwardly you're not used to this, it's been so long feeling a bit glad but that glad is not going to last long since you are gonna talking with Twilight.

Speaking of Twilight you noticed that fancy treehouse how to hack that's where the book Pony always lives you went to the library more than once Twilight did have some interesting books that did catch your eye but not for long. You take some you read part of it and return it's a simple will repeat that you do every time with her books. As you walk closer to the house you see the door open up and you see the baby dragon Spike standing there, Sparky's cool friend you would say he does have some of that childish mine to him and highly thinks a lot about Rarity butts that stuff that you don't care about right now.

"Oh hey, Anon it's good to see you" Spike greets running up to you he offers a fist bump which you slowly offer back he gives you a concerned look as he sees the worried on your face, you clear your throat and smiled down at the baby dragon.

"Hey, Spike I-" you're interrupting a spike Yelps seeing the cast on your arm.

"Oh my, Celestia Anon are you okay? What happened?!" Spike said jumping up and down with a fearful look, he runs back inside and shouts for Twilight, and the sooner the minute later she comes back with a feared look just as he had butts comes down seeing only you with the cast arm. She looks down and frowns at the little dragon she quickly tells them that you are healed and your arm is healing, Spike then later calms down it makes you chuckle a little and pets the tiny dragon's head.

"Hey I'm alright thanks for being curious but I'm perfectly all right," you said. You stop and look at Twilight you have that worried feeling in you again, and you don't know what to do after the talk with Walter you don't know how to feel you felt satisfied, you now have your old best friend back and he has forgiven what he has done back in the past maybe it is time to let the past go...

No, not yet you need to feel more satisfied oh, you need to have that feeling again Walter was everything to you he was like a brother, and after what he has done over the years killed you but after him returning and he for giving you felt satisfied but not enough you don't know how exactly you're going to get through this talk with Twilight you're going to have to try your best not to freak out or let the depression take over you.

" well then come inside Anon let's speak in this little chat I promise I won't take too much of your time," Twilight said open the door wider for you to enter in you go back down the lump in your throat and walk in.

Inside the house was perfectly normal not too hot and not too cold and it left the smell of vanilla in the air you could get used to this house it's that same feeling though you swear you have a vision of you just walking into the library grabbing a book and leaving and returning it not even completely written.

Twilight uses her magic to bring in a table with a couple of Cups of Tea with it it seems that she was expecting you not too early from the looks of it since she was starting to set up. But after she was done she offers you to sit down which you comply and see her sit down on her rent she uses her magic to summon some things out of a basket that was next to her which was filled with muffins neither blueberry nor chocolate just plain old muffins but you don't mind at all.

" okay Anon these questions may seem personal and I don't mean to be rude, but if you feel like some questions are too much for you you don't need to answer but if you do try and speak with the heart," Twilight said looking up to you, you can feel your heart pounding a bit faster and your head seems to begin to sweat more Twilight notices this and quickly writes down something on a notepad and looks back up to you and then begins to ask her first question.

" okay Anon if you don't mind me can you tell me what planet you're from, Celestia has told me that you're not from here nor that you're a mythical creature or any species that were in books. So where did you come from?" She said

This is a completely normal question to you it's not personal just yet but you can at least survive this question you hope that's her next question will not be that big of a stinger to you. You clear your throat can you speak

"I'm from a planet called Earth somewhere in the solar system if I'm correct it's been so long I can't even remember the exact system I'm from," you said trying to remember everything that you could from all those years ago. Twilight nods and writes down your answer on a notepad again she must be doing an assignment for the princess you don't mind Celestia as a normal being with you, just as long as you don't cross paths with her or be an interruption just like she said in the promise.

"Okay, so you Anonymous and Walter winter we're the only two humans that survived?" She asked, you could feel the sweat get thicker as it rolls down your head just thinking about the past it's nothing good for you but she is indeed right you and Walter are the only two survivors

"Yes you are correct," you said adjusting your arm to be more in a comfortable position in your seat.

" if you don't mind can you tell me how did you survive with Walter winter?"

There was one of the most personal questions that she asked right there you could feel the whole memory playing back on that moment when you're on that bus with your sister with your friends... you feel the sweat get even worse and you quickly wipe it off your face and clear your throat once more and speak very quietly

"well... it's hard to... it's hard to explain this" you said you look at yourself look at the arm that was now in the cast, you could feel the whole memory of that Day begin to go through your vision as you are slowly turning back to your young fifteen-year-old self.

" It started a long time ago very long time, I was still on planet Earth for off my time before I was coming home from a field trip I was with well my class we were on our way home the Walter was there but throughout the journey for some reason we are off-trail and I don't know how that happened but now accepting it we were teleported here the bus. I and Walter were in along with our class broke down and we were attacked by a pack of Timberwolves there were thousands of them, they picked us off one by one until..." you stop hearing those words Echo, you hear Walter saying those words that kept poisoning your mind. Hugh Grant falling off the chair falling onto your knees you were going to slam your bad arm to the ground but you knew that the cast's prevented you from doing that so instead you slammed your good arm I'm so ground you could feel the hot Trail of Tears fall off of your face and you shout very loudly, Twilight quickly puts down the notepad and runs over to you she puts Hooves on your shoulders making you look up at her, he has that fear look in her the same look that you also remember brought your time surviving with Walter you feel your body get hotter until you fall to the ground passed out.

Author's Note

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