Do We deserve to be dead?

by Hoping for death

Rating: mature
Tags: Gore, Slice of Life, Dark, Sad, Equestria Girls, Cutie Mark Crusaders, Suicide / Self Harm, Profanity, Sex, Sunset Shimmer
Length: 1996

It's After Anon-a-miss the CMC decide to leave their homes because they feel like they don't deserve family anymore.

Applebloom, Sweetie Belle and Scootaloo run away from home. They know they don't deserve family anymore so they will plan their deaths.

Sex tag due to nudity at some point.

My first attempt at an Anon a miss Story

Read at your own risk

Published 2021-03-20 15:40:00 UTC
Last updated 2021-08-21 20:12:34 UTC

Maybe.

Start of Winter Break 5:33 Sweet Apple Acres

It was a terrible day for Applebloom, Sweetie Belle and Scootaloo. They had just revealed themselves as Anon a miss and received detention for the rest of the school year. They knew they deserved it. But as they all sat together at Applebloom's (seeing as their clubhouse had been snowed in) they just couldn't help but hate themselves.

"Girls," Applebloom sighed.

"What?" Sweetie Belle and Scootaloo asked.

"We've done some pretty stupid things before." Applebloom said, "But this is bad for us."

"Why didn't we just stop when we reached our goal?" Scootaloo said.

"Because we're terrible people who got carried away in our work." Sweetie Belle cried.

"I just want to kill myself." Applebloom cried.

"Me too." Sweetie Belle whined

"Me three." Scootaloo choked out.

"M-m-maybe we should." Applebloom whimpered, "Everybody at school hates us now and we deserve to be dead."

Applebloom started to cry, then Sweetie Belle joined her, after a minute Scootaloo did so as well.

"What's going on in here?" Applejack asked walking into the room with Big Mac.

"We feel bad." Scootaloo cried.

"And you should." Applejack said.

"Yup!" Big Mac said.

"We want to kill ourselves." Applebloom whined.

"Girls," Applejack said, "I know what you did was wrong but I don't want you girls to kill yourselves over it. It's in the past now."

"Yup!" Big Mac Said.

"You," Sweetie Belle said.

"I what?" Applejack asked concerned. But Sweetie Belle couldn't finish her sentence, all she could do was cry.

"Just leave us alone!" Applebloom demanded.

Applejack and Big Mac Walked out of the room as the three cried until they were sure they had no more tears in them.

"We," Scootaloo sobbed, "We can't- live- like- this anymore."

"Well Girls," Sweetie said, "It's clear what we have to do."

The Three girls were walking out of the barn to the outside where it was freezing. One with a knife, one with a rope and one with... well, nothing. They walked a long way until they came up to their supposed death spot on a cliff outside of Canterlot. Preparing for their deaths, Applebloom pulled out the knife that she took from her kitchen as she debated if this was really what she wanted to do. She couldn't live with herself any longer. Her friends who all had different ways of taking their lives couldn't live with it either.

Sweetie Belle took her rope tied one end around her neck and tied the other end to the base of a tree about to jump off that cliff.

Scootaloo started to undress. She took off her jacket and her body temperature dropped rapidly. She removed her boots and socks and stood freezing in the snow, she then removed her sweatshirt, then her pants, then her other shirt, and lastly her bra and panties were removed making her now completely naked, this way she would literally freeze to death as soon as possible. When she was done she threw her clothes off the cliff and dropped herself into the snow. Burying herself in the snow so only her hands and arms were visible. She waited for the cold to kill her completely.

Applebloom was next, with the knife in her right hand, she removed her jacket and traced the knife over her blood veins she pressed it down on her arm. Then she cut herself completely across her wrist and opened the wound so it would draw even more blood and finally, Pulling up her shirt and shivering from the cold winds she put it on her chest in an attempt to bring it across her heart and end her life, she was about to break into mournful sobs, just as a hand grabbed the one holding the knife.

"That's enough of that, Sugarcube." A very distressed Applejack said. But her sister didn't bother to look up to see her standing there.

"Go away." Applebloom cried, "I can't live on this earth anymore. I just want to die!"

"Sweetie Belle please stop. Don't do it!" Rarity cried holding on to her sister.

"No, let me go! Please just let me go." Sweetie Belle sobbed fighting the embrace.

"Don't do it!" Rarity cried once more.

"Again with that?" Applejack asked.

"I don't know what else to say." Rarity cried.

Rainbow Dash and Sunset were there as well. They both looked horrified at what they were witnessing. Rainbow looked down and saw Scootaloo's arm. She unburied Scootaloo and took note that she was naked and cold.

"Scootaloo!" Rainbow Dash screamed slapping her hands on her cheeks.

"Scootaloo, Scootaloo can you hear me?" Sunset cried trying to pick her up, "Say something!"

Scootaloo mumbled, "Leave us alone and let us die."

"Sis, it's okay," Applejack said, "I'm not mad at you there's no need to cry."

"I'm crying because I'm in extreme pain right now you stupid bitch."

Applejack ignored that remark saying, "Come on let's get you three home."

The crusaders had just been taken to Sunset's place. Scootaloo was wrapped in a robe borrowed from Sunset's room and Applebloom was getting her cuts cleaned by Applejack, flinching at the stings.

"How could you do this to yourselves?" Rarity cried. "For the love of insanity, we were so worried."

"Why should you care?" Asked Sweetie Belle bitterly.

"Don't say that." Applejack cried. "You gave us quite the scare when you pulled that stunt."

"We deserve to be dead." Said Applebloom, "You should be happy that we would have been gone."

"Don't say that, Don't you dare say that." Rainbow Dash yelled.

"Look," Sunset said, "I know what you did to me was wrong and now everybody is mad at you. But there's no reason to kill yourselves.

"We were all wrong to do what we did to Sunset as well darlings." Rarity cried.

"We HATE what we did." Applejack cried, "But we couldn't make it right by killing ourselves."

"We started it!" Scootaloo said, "We caused the worst chaos in school history. I'll say it again, WE DESERVE TO BE DEAD!"

"Okay, that's enough!" Rarity shouted.

"Why did you come back for us?" Scootaloo asked.

"All we do is cause trouble!" Applebloom said

"And we never learn from our mistakes." Sweetie Belle sighed, "You should hate us."

"Sweetie Belle," Rarity said, "Look at me."

Sweetie Belle looked.

"Don't you ever say that again!" Rarity scolded, hugging Sweetie Belle as tears started to form.

"We do NOT hate you!" Sunset shouted, "We hate what you did, that's a huge difference! We could never hate you, EVER and by the way I've been exactly where you were I know you three can get through this it just takes time and self confidence!"

"We need help!" Sweetie Belle bawled.

Applejack, Rarity and Rainbow Dash pulled their respective sisters in for hugs. Sunset joined them.

The Crusaders didn't know what to do. It was hard for them to try to go on with their lives. As they held their sisters, they began to cry, after the damage they caused, they thought all they wanted was death. But when they had been forgiven by their sisters, it helped give them the strength, the confidence they needed to survive the life of misery and hatred they would later face. The love they had received had made things all..... Okay.

Author's Note

I'd like to thank all the people and their stories who inspired this story to come together. This includes

MontyCS- Runaway Crusaders
Final Sunlight- Almost too late
Golden Flare- Private time on the Beach

Sunset's confession

"There's something I probably should tell you girls." Sunset said to the Crusaders.

"I also tried to kill MYSELF after the damage I caused to everyone."

"No." Applebloom said

"Yes." Sunset said, "After the fall formal I just felt so.... lost. I felt like I was just this useless piece of garbage that should be thrown out and one day..."

Sunset paused before adding, "I found a knife and I almost bought it across my chest. Until I was stopped by Fluttershy, who held onto me as if her life depended on it. She begged me not to do it and if she hadn't stopped me, I don't know what I would have done, if not for the girl I now see as a friend. My point is, it's going to get better. You just have to trust me."

Sunset motioned all of the girls together to hug her. When they all did the crusaders started crying and holding Sunset. Sunset held the three back.

"We're sorry." All three of them said to Sunset at once.

"Girls," Sunset said, "It's okay."

An apology to the dicks and skanks of CHS

Author's Note

This chapter is supposed to take place before Maybe but I didn't think to add it until just now. Guess what I'm about to rip-off. Let's see how long this will last

An apology to the dicks and skanks of CHS

The CHS students were all gathered into the Auditorium. The masterminds behind Anon-a-miss were being forced to apologize for their actions. Applebloom was the first to take the mic.

"Hello, as you all know we are Anon-a-miss." Applebloom said.

"Boo, Anon-a-miss, Boo" shouted Diamond Tiara.

"We stand before you to sincerely apologize-" Sweetie Belle Started

"Boo, haters, boo, Anon-a-miss." shouted Diamond Tiara.

"Anyway, we want to say a few words-" Scootaloo started

"Boo, apologize somewhere else, Boo" shouted Diamond Tiara.

"Would you just shut the fuck up?" Applebloom yelled. Not noticing the Vice Principal's glare.

"Teachers and students, we stand before you to apologize for the inexcusable-" Scootaloo began.

"You exposed me and got me grounded." Rumble yelled.

"We know we're sorry." Sweetie Belle said.

"It's too late for sorry," Rumble Yelled, "Now you're grounded, horse!" He threw a glass at Swetie Belle and Sweetie had just barely dodged it.

"If you would just let us apologize for five minutes." Scootaloo said.

"We want you expelled." Yelled Micro Chips

"Go up there and do something about it then." Shouted Wish Bone.

"We came here to apologize for the inexcusable-" Scootaloo began.

"Why don't you say it to our faces?" Yelled Lyra.

"That's why we're here. No one likes you Lyra." Shouted Bon Bon.

"We are trying to apologize to you." Applebloom said gritting her teeth.

"Now you're threatening us, have you learned nothing?" Trixie yelled.

"Okay you need to stop." Sweetie Belle said.

"What are you gonna do if we don't?" Asked Snips.

"You know what? FUCK YOU." Applebloom shouted.

Everyone gasped.

"We're not bad people okay we just made a bad choice." Applebloom snapped, "There's a huge difference. Besides you loved us until we posted about you. You have no right to criticize us over something you assholes took part in, you fucking hypocrites. Sweetie Belle."

"You sent us dozens of secrets and we posted everything. Nobody on the internet even takes the time to ask themselves, "Is this really worth freaking out over?" Or "Are there bigger problems at school right now other than this user? Well we can assure you there are. So what do you want from us? You want to ruin our lives is that what you want? Well guess what? You did it. Everyone hates us, we can't leave our houses without getting harassed, we can't make any friends-"

"That was already an issue." Commented Silver Spoon.

"We can't turn on our phones without strangers telling us to kill ourselves or that they're gonna kill our family! Scootaloo."

"LEAVE US ALONE." Scootaloo screamed, "WE ARE THE SELF RIGHTEOUS LIBERAL SKANKS NOT YOU. WE'VE BEEN BULLIED BEFORE TOO! WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE? WHERE'S OUR FUCKING MEDALS, HMM? WE ARE SO FAR LEFT THAT WE ARE IN RUINS YOU SHITBAGS, INSTEAD OF KILLING OURSELVES, WE SHOULD KILL ALL OF YOU!"

"Bring it on then, skunkbags." Yelled Gilda.

Then, she got up on the stage and three way slapped the Canterlot MyStable Cretins.

"Ow." Whined Applebloom.