Out of place

by Shadow_lulamoon

Rating: teen
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Second Person, Slice of Life, Alternate Universe, Twilight Sparkle, Sad, Drama, Original Character
Length: 3106

What are you to do when you feel out of place?

You are the heiress to the throne of Equestria, Nova Rain. Your whole life you have felt alone and out of place. You don't have many friends and those that you do are more like acquaintances. You prefer to spend your time shut in your room or watching the stars. Spending your days ignorant of the outside world. Until one day your world is turned upside down by your parents.

Published 2021-03-28 08:30:01 UTC
Last updated 2022-07-12 13:11:31 UTC

Nova Rain!

It was another typical, uneventful day at Celestia's School of Magic. Wandering the halls, you hear the whispers and murmurs of those you pass. After twelve years of your fellow ponies treating, you with indifference for being the daughter of the one they call crazy. The ruler of Equestria, Twilight Sparkle. Everypony scoffs at you when you walk by. Your grades are average, and you don't have the magical aptitude like the rest. Maybe if you had any kind of motivation... Who knows maybe you are a magical prodigy like your mother...

Fuck that!

You were content with being average. As long as you weren't failing you were left to your own devices, the way you liked it. Every day was the same. Sleep through Theoretical Physics; bell rings. Time for Magic Studies; Sleep, wake up. Advanced Application of Magic; repeat. This is how your weeks progressed. The only wrench in your perfect world was the last class of every Friday, Astrology. For some reason you were drawn to the stars like a moth to light. Everything about the glittering motes in the sky had you giddy like a child in a candy store. When the bell rang you were always the first to arrive at the Tower of the Stars. Upon entering you were greeted by a familiar voice. That of you cousin Flurry Heart. Only a few years older than you Flurry had been hired on as the new Astrology teacher. Replacing the stuffy old nag who taught it last year.

"Good afternoon Miss Rain."

"Heya Flurry."

Your cousin scoffs.

"Nova how many times must I tell you to call me Miss or Professor Flurry Heart while we are in school?"

"Pft! I lost count after the first time you rambled on."

"Sigh! It's only proper etiquette Nova."

"Come on Flurry. Who has time for shit, like that when the stars a calling?"

Flurry cannot help but chuckle.

"If you spent as much energy with everything else in your life like you do with astrology then you could be so much more. Not to mention your life would be so much better."

Your head droops from her words.

"You make it sound so easy... It's not like you have ever felt like an outcast... or like you have never belonged ... In Equestria..."

Your voice cracks.

"Being one of a few naturally born alicorns. Nope I have no idea whatsoever."

"Don't play semantics with me Flurry Heart you know what I mean."

"Your mother loves you very much Nova! Who cares what others think."

"That's easy for you to say Flurry she's not your mother..."

"No, but she is my aunt and everypony in Equestria knows it... I get the same treatment as you do whenever the Canterlot Tragedy is brought up... My opinion of Aunt Twily hasn't changed. Ever!"

"But..."

Flurry interrupts with a wave of her left wing.

"Listen Nova neither you, I or any of those other blowhards were there... Celestia knows what your mother endured during that incident..."

"You know something don't you Flurry?"

"It's not my story to tell."

Before you could say more the second bell rang signaling the start of class. Students filed in sitting at their assigned desks. Flurry Heart turned away signaling the end of the conversation. The afternoon passed in the blink of an eye and before you could confront your cousin again, she had vanished.

Damn it Flurry Heart!

Stepping outside the front doors you noticed your shadows waiting for you. Normally your assigned royal guards were supposed to remain by your side, but you quickly threw that into the grinder like a slab of beef. Not wanting the burden, you duck back inside, sneaking out the upper balcony of the Tower of the Stars. Your flight home was peaceful. Your thoughts all your own. The blue sky faded to yellow then orange and finally to violet. Dusk arrived by the time you landed on your balcony. Your parents would be furious for ditching your guards again but that didn't deter you at all. Discarding your backpack on the stone masonry, you turn towards the waning sunlight, gazing longingly into the sky. A slight breeze flows by billowing your golden mane. The stars appeared dotting the darkening sky. Millions of tiny motes glittering in the heavens. For a brief moment in time all was perfect with the world.

********************

The morning sun rises on a new era. Golden rays pierce through the opening in the curtains, assaulting your sleeping face. You wince in pain at the sudden brightness. Your lips part slightly as a hiss escapes. raising your head just a bit off your pillow you notice a purple blur through slitted eyes.

"Good morning sleepy head!"

Your eyes focus on the sound of the voice, you know so well.

"M... Mom?"

"That's right sweety."

"What are you doing in my room at this hour?"

"This hour? Do you know what time it is, Nova Rain?"

"Time for you to get the fuck out of my room so that I can sleep."

Your mother remains unphased by your lack of morality. Her amethyst eyes sparkled as she smiled with glee.

"Nope! Try again."

You groan in frustration, burying your face in the pillow. Your muffled voice escapes from beneath.

"Go away!"

"Not going to happen."

Your mother's purple horn glows with a violet aura. The pillow you are using for cover is ripped from your grasp by her spell. Your head bounces off the wooden headboard with a thunk.

"OUCH! DAMN IT MOTHER!"

With your right hoof you begin to rub the painful, growing bump on your head.

"Sorry sweety. Are you alright?"

Your mother's expression softens to worry as she rushes over to you.

"Other than this throbbing headache, I'm just dandy."

Your voice drips with sarcasm.

"I'm so very sorry Honey. Sometimes I forget, even my little spells have some kick."

You glare skeptically at the purple alicorn.

"You're the most powerful creature in Equestria. There are no little spells with you... Otherwise Canterlot would be finished with the repairs wrought by your magical devastation!"

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"You are a reckless loose cannon and a danger to everypony around you."

Your mother scoffs.

"I most certainly am not!"

"My throbbing head and the Canterlot ruins say otherwise."

"When you say it like that, I sound like a crazed lunatic that just uses magic on a whim."

"If the shoe fits!"

"Where would you ever get a crazy idea like that?"

"Do you really want to go there mother?"

Twilight's expression hardens. Her amethyst eyes glare down at you.

"Please, enlighten me Nova Rain!"

You return the glare and coldness.

"I don't know mother. It may have something to do with everypony at that stuffy old magic academy, who always talk about the crazy princess who snapped and leveled Canterlot and the surrounding area."

"It doesn't matter what everypony else thinks of me. I only care about how you feel."

You turn your head away. Silence hangs in the air like a choking fog.

"Do you really think so lowly of me? ..."

"..."

"Nova?"

"... Y... You're not the one who has to deal with being an outcast... The daughter of... Twilight Sparkle..."

Your mother turns her head away, ashamed.

"That... That was an accident. I had no control over that."

"Like that even matters. Whether bouncing my head off the headboard or destroying a city, your magic causes pain for everyone!"

Your irritation seeps out like a festering wound.

"I can't believe you would throw that back in my face. We can' t control who we fall in love with... That same love you were created from."

Tears dotted Twilight's cheeks her jaw clenched.

"Maybe not mother, but you had control over the situation then as you do now and could have saved everyone the pain!"

Your mother remains silent, tears pattering on the marble floor from your hurtful words. Feeling guilty only agitates you more. You run your forelimbs through your mane in frustration. Twilight remains quiet. Finally, you explode, your emotions, a raw torrent.

"Grrr... It's too early for this shit. I'm tired and not in the mood for all of this drama. Tell me what you want or begone!"

Twilight flinches from your outburst. Your chest heaves from exhaustion as you glare at her.

"Nothing to say? ... Then leave!"

Defeated, your mother opens the door. She speaks, words barely a whisper.

"Happy eighteenth birthday ... Nova..."

With one final tearful glance towards you, Twilight exits, gently closing the door.

Wait! What did she say?

You glance over at your calendar where a bright red circle encircles the thirteenth of May. A day you don't remember marking. Not that you ever remember your birthday anyways. Only your parents make such a big deal about it. You attempt the rub away the soreness of your headache, pondering.

Servers her right for waking me up... It's not really her fault I stayed up all night, stargazing... DAMN IT! DAMN IT! DAMN IT!

Begrudgingly you sit up in bed, throwing you covers to the floor. Your blonde mane and tail cascade around you, a disheveled mess. Wings extended you stretch like a cat, relieving your stiff joints. Slowly you canter to the vanity you received for your birthday two years prior. You gaze at the reflection. Staring back from the smooth surface was a mocha colored alicorn with emerald, green eyes.

You can be such an ass Nova Rain!

You lick you right hoof, using it the smooth out your mane, failing miserably. You sigh in defeat. Accepting your fate, you make for door. The refracted light from the stain glass windows assaults your vision. Flinching from the new sensation you cover your face, blinking away the blurred colors.

Fucking Tartarus!

Author's Note

Wow after months of not writing here it is a new piece. This one took some time I had a couple ideas writhing around while working on Shadow's story but for some reason I kept getting pulled back to Farewell. So for all who enjoyed This Is Farewell her is the sequal. I did leave the ending open for more possibly. Im not sure. Please comment and let me know what you think. Continue or not, that is the question. Anyways its late and so I will proof read it with a fine toothed comb tomorrow.

Early Morning...

The old oak door stands firmly shut behind you. Sunlight pierces through the multi-colored window. Hundreds of rainbow facets dance across the violet carpeted hallway and right into your eyes. You wince in pain covering your eyes with your left forleg.

"Fucking Tartarus!"

You hiss.

The door guards flanked on either side of you glance your way. The one one your right snikers under his helmet. This only compiles your already bad morning, making it worse.

Grrr... screw this! I'm going back to bed.

Pivoting your hips you face the wooden barrier. Reaching helplessly you find the latch. Before you can think clearly your press and walk at the same time. Your face smacks into the hard surface with a loud thunk. The door remains firmly locked in place. The casuses the the second to snicker with laughter as her partner starts again.

"Fuck, damn, stupid, piece of shit!"

You shout.

This only makes the guards laugh harded.

"I am glad I am here to amuse you...

You spit venomously, glaring at the right side guard.

"Sorry your highness. I don't know what came over me."

Replied the guard, regaining composure.

His response set your already simmering temper.

"Fucking, useless, dust collector. Why are you even here?"

You explode.

"To serve, watch, and proctor you your majesty."

Said the female guard, unphased by your response.

"SERVE! SERVE! THAT IS THE BIGGEST PILE OF SHIT. IF YOU WERE HERE TO SERVER ME THEN GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE AND STOP SHADOWING ME ALL THE TIME!"

"Sorry your higness. No can do."

The expeced response causes your emerald eyes to twitch.
Of course! ... Useless piece of...

"Whatever! ... Which way did my mother run off to?"

"That way your majesty."

The female guard signals to your right with her spear tip.

Well I have already commited this far... I might as well finish.

Begrungingly you head in that direction. Your guards shift, taking up point ten paces behind you. You glare over your shoulder at the extra baggage. Pausing as a thought enters your brain. Your pace quickens as you trot down the hallway. The guards kept pace. Grinning manically, your moca colored horn glows a flourescent green. Seconds later the sound of crunching and grating metal rang through the palace. Facing the pegasus duo you give them a silent sneer before heading up the hallway alone.

*****

Your trek leads you through the palace until you hear the familiar voices of your parents. You reach up your right hoof to knock, pausing when the tearful voice of your mother grips your heart. The tightness in your chest becomes unbarably painful as you listen to her words.

"Where did I go wrong? ... Why does she hate me so much? ... Please ... Alex ... "

Your mother's study on the other side of the wooden barrier goes silent. Ten excrutiating seconds go by as your father choses his words.

"You have done nothing wrong Twi and I don't think she hates you."

"You didn't see the way she was this morning. The glare she gave me was pure hate..."

Sniffle,

Maybe so Twi ... but I can guess how an energetic, early morning wake up call from you can go."

"If it was just that then I wouldn't be here seeking your council."

"How so Twi?"

"We both know that Nova has been having trouble at the magic academy. I believe she blames me for it."

"What would lead you to this line of thinking Twi?"

Twilight choked on her voice and fresh tears flowed anew.

"Nova out right screamed her resentment and ... and ... said that she is the daughter of Twilight Sparkle..."

"What are you not telling me Twi?"

Silence!

"I destroyed Canterlot..."

"Twilight you can't blame yourself for that..."

"DON'T YOU THINK I THAT I KNOW ALL OF THIS?"

Your father remains quiet as Twilight composes herself.

"Uncontrolled or not it was still my magic that destroyed canterlot ... Distraught heart or not. I have a duty to my people and my world..."

"Twilight..."

Please don't... Alex..."

"Fine! I will let it go for now but we will talk about this later."

"Thank you my love."

"So back to Nova Rain."

"Yes."

As if reading his wife's thoughts your father sighs.

"You want me to talk to her."

"She likes you more. You two have always shared a special bond... Your are the more loved parent."

"That is so bull shit Twi and you know it. Talia loves you more than she does me."

"We aren't talking about Talia we are talking about our eldest. Besides that the worst comparison you could even make. I am nothing more than a food source to her."

"But that cute face she gave you earlier that was our wittle Tally Wally loving you."

"Sorry my love but that was the expression she gives when she poops."

A soft giggle escapes your throat at the mention of your baby sister. Talia Lymn unlike you was born a pegasus like your father. You miss the next part of your parent's conversation as your thoughts meander to how lucky your sister was for not being an outcast. until...

"For the love of Celestia; Alex! She swears just like you and her mannerisms are more like your world than mine."

Your ears snap to attention.

Did she just say what I thought she said?

You grab the golden handle wrenching the door open.

"Did you just say your world?"

"Nova sweety! How long have you been here?"

"Don't change the subject. What does she mean by your world Dad?"

Nova honey... please calm down...

"You don't get to tell me to calm down mother."

Your father expression darkens at your treatment of Twilight.

"NOVA STAND DOWN!"

"I WILL NOT STAND DOWN. YOU ARE NO BETTER THAN HER... TO THINK I CAME ALL THE WAY DOWN HERE TO APOLOGIZE JUST TO FIND OUT MY PARENTS HAVE BEEN LIEING TO ME MY ENTIRE LIFE!"

Twilight spoke up before your father could raise his voice again.

"We never lied to you sweety."

"Your doing it again. When were you going to tell me dad isn't from Equestria?"

"When you were old enough and we knew you could handle it."

"I am eighteen mom. How much older were you going to wait?"

Your father answered.

"That is for us to decide."

"Your wrong father!"

"No your wrong Nova! Your childesh out bursts only prove you're not mature nor responsible enough to know."

Your growl like a feral cat.

"That doesn't matter...."

Twilight knowing that their human blood was reaching criticle mass tried to interupt.

"Please calm down you two before we say or do something we will regret."

Warm tears burn your eyes as you cry in frustration.

"After your betrayal And finding out you could have prevented all my pain and taken me home... away from all of this... NO!"

Twilight's lower lip trembles as her head lowers in saddness.

"You are home sweety..."

You cut her off.

All of my life I have been shunned and bullied. I have always wanted to be anywhere but here. I have always felt like and outcast. This isn't my home... "I DON'T BELONG IN EQUESTRIA!"

Your mother errupts in tears.

"NOVA SHINE ENOUGH!"

Your father shouts.

Silently you lash out with your magic forgeting that your father is somehow imune to it. His blue eyes narrow in dissapointment as the magic washes over him like a gentle wave.

"Did you just attack me with magic like a spoiled brat?"

Oh know what have I done...

In your entire life there was only one other person that you could relate to and you broke the only rule he ever asked you to follow... Never use your magic to selfishly bring harm to others. Not only did you break that vow but you tried to harm you family. Alex didn't have to say a word. You wounded your father deep and his silence was all the explanation you needed. Alex embraced Twilight with his right wing and escorted her out of the study leaving you alone... to your thoughts...