Lost Words and Unfinished Thoughts

I stared aimlessly at the wall behind the television set, a feeling of vacancy overcoming emotions that I was trying so hard to ignore. The room I sat in had begun to chill to a mild discomfort due to a badly sealing sliding glass window. The cold air from outside rushed in, meeting a worthy adversary in the form of the hot air wafting from the fireplace. It would be hot soon, but I didn't notice as I continued to sit there, feeling sorry for myself.

I had found someone to talk to after such a long time, but because of her complicated living situation, she was barred from seeing me again after we had expressed feelings for one another that neither had felt before. Part of me wanted to give up, while another pondered the why of it, but all I could do was disassociate, disconnecting myself from my ever fracturing mind and floating off into the nothingness that comes from ignoring your thoughts and emotions. I was adrift in a sea of nothing and a catalyst for further suffering, but I found myself unable to care as the fire crackled, the wind howled, my mind split, and I became nothing...