Dark as Chitin

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I never thought I'd be grateful for the day one of my children didn't make love. Making love yourself is one thing, but being trapped in another's body while they make love would have been another. Luckily, it seems the two foals are rather innocent in that regard, instead choosing to... cuddle. I can't help but wonder what genuine physical affection would feel like for myself. I've only ever used my body as leverage or taken advantage of other's lust. I could hardly count any of those experiences as genuine.

Anyway, there have been quite of few developments since my last critical analysis of the happenings in Equestria and Chimera's life. Nothing eventful has happened in Equestria recently aside from this magical presence nearby. Interestingly, Chimera's power has jumped several orders of magnitude; he's been training harder ever since that filly friend of his was targeted by possession. The primary emotion during these hours of climbing was frustration oddly enough.

Aside from that, there's only one more thing that's been on my mind. Chimera's dreams have grown more vivid; they're too realistic to set aside anymore. These 'dreams' are not dreams. They're... memories. I remember learning of dark magic from a witch, an umbrum I believe. For a short while, she requested refuge in the hive in exchange for her services. She was always meddling around with that book of hers. One time, I asked about what she was doing; the answer was not what I was expecting. She started by explaining the concept of a soul, which was simple to understand, but hard to believe. I mean, come on, how could every sapient creature have something within them that surpasses the physical and the magical? Now, I'm starting to think that wasn't such a load of horse crap after all.

Since the very beginning, there have been areas of Chimera's mind closed off from the hivemind for seemingly no reason. Now, I was given a clear view of creatures known as humans. They seemed so alien in dimensions and detail, that it felt strange looking at them. Then there was that bottle, the one with the prismatic capsules... they almost looked magical in origin....

Setting that aside, I've been doing some thinking about what I'd like to do once I've been freed. I think I would like to live alongside Chimera. I would like to spend some proper time with my child once this is all over. I suppose that filly could join us as well, I could use a few grand foals. Hives are just too much work to look after.