When She Sees Me

by Apple Bottoms

Rating: everyone
Tags: Romance, Maud Pie, Slice of Life, Trixie, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 3649

Trixie returns to Ponyville after a year away to apologize for her wrongdoing; Maud Pie is one of the ponies she makes amends to. But when Maud attends a magic show, her true feelings are revealed, and neither pony is ready for that. Or are they?

Trixie The Great And Powerful is now Trixie The Great And Apologetic. She's been away from Ponyville for a whole year, and she's had time to ruminate on her past actions. With Starlight Glimmer's help, she's making apologies for all of the unkind things she said, including an offhoofed comment to Maud Pie in the wake of her breakup. To apologize, she gives her tickets to her next magic show. But when the magic show is preceded by a psychic musician who lays all of Maud's innermost thoughts bare, especially her innermost thoughts about a certain apologetic magician, what will Maud do?

This is a songfic, a classic throwback to a genre that fell out of favor, with the song heavily tied into the narrative. Words have been changed to fit the setting, and set the scene for a lovely MauXie romance! SFW Maud Pie Trixie shipping, written for the StarTrixMaud shipping contest!

Contest: https://www.fimfiction.net/blog/957718/startrixmaud-shipping-contest-24-july-31-august-2021

Published 2021-09-17 00:00:01 UTC
Last updated 2021-09-17 00:00:01 UTC

I Stick With Real Things

“Did you hear? There’s two new wagons in the town square today!”

“Ooh, performers you think? Or maybe travelling salesponies!”

“I hope it’s someone good! Last month was just the worst…”

“Ugh! ‘Regi-Mold and the Singing Fungi’ - maybe he’ll relocate to somewhere really nice; like the griffon realms!”

The trio of earth ponies tittered over the rampion, taking little notice of Maud as she slowly worked her way around the market, standing opposite to them as she examined some potatoes. She took little notice of their chatter as focused as she was on her shopping list; potatoes, carrots, string beans, and… something. She dug in her satchel as she turned to leave, scrolling through her list. She had almost made it to the missing ingredient before another pony crashed into her, sending them both sprawling into the dirt.

“Oof! Watch it!” Barked the blue unicorn as she tumbled to the ground, then rapidly pulled herself to her feet, dusting off her spangled hat and cape. “I ought to turn you into a toad - Maud!”

Maud Pie lifted her brows, considering the unicorn. “Hello, The Great And Powerful Trixie.”

“Just - Just Trixie’s fine.” Trixie mumbled, clearly uncomfortable. She eyed Maud for a moment, patting her hat clean long after all of the dirt had been removed. “How, uh, how are you?”

“Fine.” Maud replied flatly.

A long silence stretched between them.

“Well, uh, I’m fine, too.” Trixie supplied, still patting her hat.

“Good. I think your hat is clean.” Maud offered, and Trixie jerked her hoof away.

“Uh, thank you.” Trixie mumbled again, clearly uncomfortable, and her eyes darted to the rampion stand as she replaced her hat on her head. “Listen, Trixie - Trixie’s been on the road for awhile, but Trix - I’ve been trying to, uh, do better. By - other ponies.”

“Okay.” Maud replied, as flat as ever.

“I haven’t been in Ponyville for a - a whole year, almost, but Starlight Glimmer says I need to, uh,” and here Trixie rolled her eyes a little, “‘work on my interpersonal skills’, which means like - fixing the mistakes I’ve made, righting my wrongs. And making amends for the ‘unfriendly’ things I’ve done. I’ve been working on a list, and - hoo, boy, it’s pretty long. But - you’re on there, so - just give me a moment.”

Maud stood by, as stoic and silent as ever, as Trixie dug into the pocket of her cloak, producing a little notebook which was clearly well-worn and heavily used. She paged through it for a few silent seconds before she tapped her hoof on a page.

“It looks like - I don’t know if you recall this, but last year, in the spring, when you and Mudbriar broke up, I … well, I said something to the effect of ‘I’m glad he’s gone,’ which -”

“‘That guy was a total stick in the mud, if you don’t mind Trixie saying so.’”

Trixie’s brows shot up as Maud recited her words back to her, and it transported Trixie back in time, to an off-the-cuff comment she’d made in a market very similar to this one. No; it was in Pinkie Pie’s bakery. She’d stopped in for some pastries, loading up before she left for her latest tour around Equestria, and she’d happened to overhear Maud Pie updating Pinkie Pie on her life.

“‘You don’t need a dud like him dragging you down; Trixie won’t pretend you aren’t a bit of a stick in the mud yourself, but compared to that loser, you’re a pageant pony. Mudbriar isn’t worthy to decorate the bottom of your hoof, because he is a turd on the road of life, and turds like him need to get squished flat. He is pedantic, annoying, condescending, obnoxious, unlikeable, and smells funny to boot, and Trixie would tell him that to his face if he stood here today.’” Maud finished the quote, then blinked at Trixie, slowly, before she spoke again. “Something like that, I think.”

“That - uh, yes. That was…” Trixie took a deep breath, trying to steady herself under Maud’s piercing gaze. “At the time, Trixie was trying to bond with you in a sisterly-solidarity sort of way, but now Trixie sees that perhaps you needed more … kindness. And fewer analogies to turds. And perhaps not comparing you to a stick in the mud while trying to offer solace on a recent breakup.”

Maud blinked, then gave a small nod.

“So, in that vein, Trixie would like to offer you her sincerest apologies, and - if it will help - two tickets to my show tonight?” Trixie offered, and perhaps for the first time that Maud had ever witnessed, Trixie looked nervous as she held out two tickets for Maud, held aloft in the soft pink glow of her magic. “Trixie is trying to do better, and she promises to not speak in that manner to you again?”

Maud considered her for a moment, then reached out, taking the tickets with her teeth, and tucked them into her satchel. “Thank you, Trixie. That was a very … thorough apology. I accept it.”

Trixie sagged a little. “Thank you. Well, Trixie should finish getting her supplies. I have to allow extra time now, in case I see more ponies I need to apologize to. So - see you at the show!”

“See you.” Maud replied, and with a little nod, she returned to her shopping, hunting down the last ingredients - radishes.

“Hello, good shopkeep! I am here to buy your finest lenti- oh no. Trixie remembers you.” Behind her, Maud could hear Trixie starting up the routine all over again. “I haven’t been in Ponyville for almost a year now, so I don’t know if you recall our last meeting…”

[***]

Maud made her way to the town square about an hour before sunset, when the show was scheduled to start. She could recognize Trixie’s familiar wagon from a distance, but she didn’t recognize the warm pink wagon that stood next to it, nor the pony who stood on the stage currently, playing a light, friendly tune on a piano. The sign in front of the stage said “THE GREAT AND POWERFUL TRIXIE! AND! THE MAGICAL AND MUSICAL PSYCHIC BURBLESSA!”

Burblessa didn’t sound like much of a stage name, Maud thought, but she joined the crowd all the same, listening to her warming up on the keys.

“Welcome, welcome! Everyone, come a little closer - I won’t bite!” Burblessa laughed, and her voice was light, tinkling, and even just listening to her speak put Maud a little bit more at ease. The pink unicorn rose from her seat at the piano, and tossed her rosy-red mane behind her shoulder. “My name is Burblessa, and I will be your opening act tonight! Soon, The Great And Powerful Trixie will amaze you with her feats of magic! But first, I will amaze you with my feats of mind-reading!”

A few ponies oohed in the audience appreciatively.

“And musical talent!” The unicorn sat down, and played an impressive arpeggio, her hooves flying over the keys skillfully. “You see,” she spoke as she began playing, “as a young filly I learned to play the piano, but I soon found that I had a talent for hearing the songs that others hear inside their own heads! Do you recognize this tune?”

The pink pony played for a few more moments, and a few ponies in the audience muttered to each other.

“This is a song I hear wandering around the crowd’s thoughts! Surely, someone can tell me what song this is?”

A pony near the front of the crowd lifted his head, and called. “Podocarpus’ Lament?”

“Great! Is that your tune?” The pink unicorn grinned at him, and flashed him a wink. “Just lost your coltfriend, have you? That’s a sad one! Ooh, let’s try something a little more cheerful! How about - you! Pick a song, any song! Just think about it!” She gestured to a young filly who sat on her father’s shoulders, and the piano fell silent for a moment before she lifted her hooves once more, and began playing a cheerful little ditty.

“That’s the song the ice cream wagon plays!” The filly laughed, and kicked her feet over her father’s shoulders as the crowd made impressed sounds.

“Good choice, that’s a happy song for certain!” Burblessa laughed in reply, and let the piano go a little quieter, thrumming out a few random, but lovely chords. “Hmm, let’s see if we can find some more songs, hmm? Just let your thoughts wander - sometimes, I find that the best and most surprising songs pop out when we aren’t even thinking about them. Ready? Here we go!”

And away she went, playing songs merrily on her piano, singing the tune when she knew it well enough. She had a lovely voice, high and twinkling, and the crowd soon swayed along with her. She brought them almost to tears with her rendition of “Weeping Willow Don’t Cry For Me”, and had them singing along with every chorus of “Easy-Peasy, Just Go Home!,” a popular drinking song from decades before. She’d sing choruses, or entire pieces; once she sang the song all over again, after the crowd cheered loud enough for it.

“Alright, let’s see, who’s got another song for me to sing?” Burblessa called warmly, her eyes scanning the crowd as her horn glowed. She turned when the door to Trixie’s wagon opened, revealing the magician within. “Am I running over time?” Burblessa asked coyly, but Trixie waved her off.

“No, Trixie just wanted to see the last few numbers!” Trixie grinned, and sat on the steps of her wagon. “Don’t let Trixie stop you.”

“Very well! Perhaps you will pick a number for us!” Burblessa laughed again, that warm, tinkling sound, and brushed her hooves over the piano in a light scale, waiting for a song to come to her. She didn’t have to wait long, and her brows lifted sharply as she registered the tune. “Ooh, this is a good one - very popular in the last year or two, I’m surprised we haven’t heard it yet tonight. Alright, everyone ready? Maybe this is your tune.” She lifted her hooves from the piano, waiting, then brought them down sharply in two chords, and paused. A moment later, another two chords. On the third repetition, she began to sing.

I stick with real things
Usually facts and figures
When information's in its place
I minimize the guessing game
Guess what? (What?)
I don't like guessing games
Or when I feel things
Before I know the feelings
How am I supposed to operate
If I'm just tossed around by fate?
Like on an unexpected date?

Maud’s blood ran cold. Her eyes remained locked on Burblessa as she continued playing and singing, emoting deeply, and did her best to think of another song, any other song. Old McDonald, Happy Birthday, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star; anything. But Burblessa kept singing.

With a stranger who might talk too fast
Or ask me questions about myself
Before I've decided that
She can ask me questions about myself
She might sit too close
Or call the waiter by his first name
Or eat Oreos
But eat the cookie before the cream

A few ponies in the audience were singing along now, recognizing the tune from a musical that had been wildly popular in Manehattan for several triumphant seasons now, whose tunes had slowly trickled out into the larger popular culture. But Maud stood stock still, her muscles locked in place, starting to tremble a bit from the effort. In the corner of her vision, she could see Trixie rising from where she sat on the steps of her wagon, looking to Burblessa. No, not to her - past her. Into the crowd.

But what scares me the most
What scares me the most
Is what if when she sees me, what if she doesn't like it?
What if she runs the other way and I can't hide from it? (Ah)
What happens then? (Ah)

Everyone else is singing; someone else could have thought of that song, Maud reassured herself as a bead of sweat rolled down her temple.

Trixie was stepping away from her wagon now.

But what if when she knows me, she's only disappointed?
What if I give myself away, to only get it given back? (Ah)
I couldn't live with that (how do you live with that?)
So, I'm just fine, inside my rock-shaped mind
This way I get the best view
So that when she sees me, I want her to

“Maud?” Trixie called.

Maud was already running.

I'm Simply Being Cautious

The song chased her, ringing in her ears even when she couldn’t hear Burblessa’s lovely voice singing it. Far more lovely than hers, certainly; but then, she only sang for her beloved rocks, deep in the safety of her cave.

Dawn, don't you think you're being a little, I mean maybe just a tad
I'm not defensive!
I'm simply being cautious
I can't risk reckless dating
Due to my miscalculating
While a certain mare stands in line
I've seen in novels
Most made for easy reading
You cannot be too careful
When it comes to sharing your life
I could end up a miserable wife
Sorry girls, but she could be criminal, some sort of psychopath
Who escaped from an institution
Somewhere where they don't have girls
She could have masterminded some way to find me
She could be colorblind
How untrustworthy is that?
She could be less than kind
Or even worse she could be very nice, have lovely eyes
And make me laugh, come out of hiding
What do I do with that?
Oh, god

Maud leapt over the river, through the brush; she was well out of Ponyville proper now, galloping headlong towards the rocky, wooded area near her cave. Brambles and branches pulled at her, as if trying to stop her; they only fueled her panicked flight, tearing at her mane and dress, but not even their sharp pain could cut through the panic that flooded her body. She was almost there, almost home, almost safe.

What if when she sees me
I like her and she knows it?
What if she opens up a door
And I can't close it? (What if a door is opened?)
What happens then? (What happens then?)
If when she holds me
My heart is set in motion
I'm not prepared for that
I'm scared of breaking open

She wasn’t sure what she thought might stop her when she clattered to a halt in the safety of her cave, stumbling in the darkness, chest heaving. Her own emotions, perhaps? That didn’t make any sense; but then, neither did galloping away in a panic from a musical performance. Emotions were like that, for Maud; disruptive, upsetting, confusing, an annoyance that offered no benefit to her life and only confusion. No benefit at all! Not even Mudbriar. In the end, he had only made things worse, made her all the more certain that she didn’t want to muddle with anything to do with emotions. But that day in the bakery -

“Maud?”

Maud reacted to the soft, hesitant voice as if it had been a cannonball, diving for cover behind her bed.

“Maud, are you okay?! I heard a crash!”

“Maud is not here.”

There was a moment of silence. “Then… who said that?”

“Maud’s talking rock.”

“Aha. I see. Talking rock.” Trixie replied sarcastically, and took a few cautious steps into the cave, lighting a ball of magic at the very tip of her horn, illuminating the space. “Maud, I know it’s you.”

Maud didn’t answer, but remained hidden. From her vantage point under the bed, she could see Trixie’s blue hooves as they cautiously explored her cave, looking for her. She would never find her! Or perhaps she would give up, and Maud could just - pretend this whole night never happened. Ugh, what an embarrassing mess this night had turned into! She had been so hopeful, too; just something nice, something she could enjoy, something that didn’t have to have any difficult emotions attached to it beyond -

“I'm scared of breaking open,” Trixie sang into the silence, her voice thin and tremulous, startling Maud out of her own internal reverie. She let the words hang in the air for a moment before she continued, finishing the same tune that had been playing in Maud’s head all night.

But still I can't help from hoping
To find someone to talk to
Who likes the way I am
Someone who when she sees me
Wants to again

Maud remained where she was for a long moment, letting the song’s final notes echo into silence in the stone walls of her cave, before she slowly pulled herself out from under her bed. Trixie whirled to look at her, but remained frozen in place, and the pair stared at each other for a long, silent moment, each studying the other.

“It was your song.” Trixie said, at last, and Maud felt herself tense sharply.

“Everypony knows that song,” Maud replied, and beneath her usual flat tone was an undertone of steel.

“No, not - not like that. I didn’t - I didn’t want it to come out like that.” Trixie admonished herself quietly, her ears twisting back in distress. “Not like - not a judgment. I - I hoped it was your song. ButI knew, when you changed ‘shell shaped’ to ‘rock shaped.’ I knew it was yours.” Trixie explained, and considered her for a long moment. Hopeful, if Maud could allow herself to believe it.

“I didn’t ... I didn’t know you felt like that.” Trixie tried again, her voice softer now.

“Everypony likes that song.” Maud muttered, her usual flat tone failing her in the moment.

“I feel like that.” Trixie offered in reply, even softer, and it brought Maud’s eyes back to her face. “Afraid to let anyone in. It’s … easier, to keep everyone in the audience.” It was Trixie’s turn for her eyes to fall away, unable to hold Maud’s gaze. “But it’s lonely. Trixie - I’ve been figuring that out, in the last year. While I - worked on things. Trixie things.”

Maud nodded, slowly, and lifted one hoof, waiting for what felt like forever before she slowly brought it down, slowly beginning to close the distance between them.

Trixie swallowed, her eyes near Maud’s hooves, but carefully didn’t comment on them. “I was selfish last year. When I heard about you and Mudbriar, I was … glad. I didn’t like him, but I especially didn’t like him with you. And I didn’t want to admit to myself that it was because…” Trixie’s ears twisted back again, and she looked away, her expression uncomfortable.

Maud considered Trixie’s expression for a long moment before she spoke into the silence that she had left open for her. “You confused me, that day. Pinkie said it was rude, but it made me feel … warm. Like you were on my side. Your expression was - wrong.”

Trixie winced, and tried to hide it by playing with the floppy brim of her hat.

“The way you looked at me was not rude, or annoyed. It made me feel … seen. Good. I don’t know what it made me feel, but I felt something.” Maud admitted, and although her usual flat tone had returned, Trixie could hear in it now so much more than she had ever heard before. “I’ve never felt that way before. When I heard you were gone …”

“It wasn’t on purpose.” Trixie spoke suddenly, and raised her eyes to Maud’s face too quickly, dropping them away again almost immediately. “I had already scheduled the tour. I hadn’t even meant to see you, before I left. If I hadn’t heard you talking to Pinkie - if I hadn’t been rude -”

“Would you have ever said anything to me?” Maud asked, her voice softer. “Ever?”

Trixie’s ears were flat, and she couldn’t meet Maud’s gaze. “Trixie is a coward.” Trixie admitted, softly.

Maud considered Trixie for a long moment - not the loud, boastful Trixie, the one she had met when she first came to Ponyville, the one Pinkie had told her stories about; but vulnerable, uncertain Trixie. Sad, even; one who would have watched what she wanted sail away, too afraid to even reach for it. I’m not prepared for that, I’m scared of breaking open/but still I can’t help from hoping…

“Do you think you could keep being rude to me?” Maud asked, her voice flat.

“Pardon?”

“Could you be rude to me - maybe tomorrow night? Around six? There’s a nice cafe over on the east side of town. They serve daisy sandwiches.”

Trixie stared at Maud for a moment before recognition dawned, and a slow, hopeful smile curled her lips. “I like daisy sandwiches.” Trixie admitted, her voice too soft to even echo.

“So do I.” Maud agreed, and slowly reached forward, so that her hoof could rest beside Trixie’s, just close enough to touch. “I think I might like them more if you were there.”

“Then I should be there.” Trixie agreed, her cheeks warming.

“I’m glad we agree.” Maud replied, as placid as ever, but she leaned her head a little closer, just enough so that their forelocks could touch. Even the indirect touch made the air feel electric, and Maud found herself unable to find anything to say.

“Someone who when she sees me,” Maud sang, very softly, for Trixie’s ears only, “wants to again.”

Maud thought that the smile that Trixie offered her in reply was more dazzling than any rock she had ever seen.