He Loves Me Not?

by MusicInTheTreetops

Rating: everyone
Tags: Romance, Tirek, Fluttershy, Queen Chrysalis, Cozy Glow, Discord, Slice of Life, Drama, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 2421

My interpretation of fluttercord’s relationship during s9!

Fluttershy wants to share her feelings with Discord, but he’s been distant lately, and she can’t figure out why he doesn’t wish to speak with her about this. Could he.. not share the same feelings? Or is there something darker going on?

(Takes place throughout s9, and after the series finale!)

Published 2021-09-29 22:30:00 UTC
Last updated 2021-10-02 03:54:24 UTC

Chapter 1-Feelings.

Fluttershy sat at her window, gazing out into the vast lands of Equestria before her.

Things had changed over the years. She’d made new friends, saved the world countless times, and she was proud of her own personal growth. Yes, she had come a long way from the timid pony she once was-and she was proud of herself. She was proud of herself for standing strong, happy for her animal sanctuary, and thankful for all the wonderful friendships she’d made along the way. I mean, Twilight was going to be Princess of all equestria soon-of course she was thankful!

But something was still missing. Something that she’d been feeling for awhile. Except it wasn’t really something, it was more somepony... The Pegasus bit her lip, looking down at the floor as her thoughts consumed her.

Discord. Over the years, their friendship had grown so strong-she didn’t know what she had ever done without him! But as the time went on, she felt them grow from something that.. went beyond just “best friends.”

Was it love? She couldn’t be sure-she had never been in love before, but she knew that it was something real. She knew it was something that she needed to share with him, but she also knew that she was afraid. Afraid.. of what might happen, and of what he might say-

She stopped herself mid thought when she felt her breathing speed up. Deep breaths she thought to herself. Surely Discord wouldn’t be mad even if he didn’t refute the same feelings, but she didn’t want to take the chance. That, or she was too afraid of hearing him say that he didn’t feel the same towards her.

“Now you’re just being silly.” She said to herself as she hopped off the chair. Maybe it would be better for her if she got it off her chest. Right! That’s what she would do. And so she went straight to her kitchen, and started making plans for their next tea party, where she would tell him everything.
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In a cave, deep in the rural areas of Equestria, Discord shed his disguise as Grogar when no one was around. “Enough of that!” He snapped his fingers, before walking through a seemingly rock wall. Inside were his chambers-at least, the ones he used in his “villain lair.” It had been a lot of work keeping up the charade, but Chrysalis, Cozy Glow, and Tirek seemed to buying it-which was all that mattered to him.

Yes, ever since Twilight Sparkle had so stubbornly refused to believe she could rule Equestria, he had set his plan into motion. And how perfect was it?! He always did have a knack for manipulation, and now he was using it to help somepony! Fluttershy would be so proud, he thought.

Ah yes, Fluttershy. Discord glanced around the room. The furniture it did have, was levitating, and in a corner, a cloud of chocolate rain poured freely in its own spot of chaos. But on the wall, there was one perfect, undisrupted piece of furniture: a small picture frame with a picture of him and Fluttershy inside.

He smiled softly to himself as he looked upon her happy smile, and those beautiful eyes. When this was all over, he planned on telling her exactly how he felt. He would tell her everything: his entire plan, his goals, and how much he learned about friendship from it all. And how all of this was because of the lessons she taught him.

“Oh Celestia..” he muttered to himself, still lost in the picture of the two of them. How long had it been since he knew that he loved her?

Yes-he did love her, didn’t he? Truthfully, he wasn’t sure if he even knew what was love even was-that was, until he met Fluttershy. Now, he was 1000%, without a doubt, absolutely-positively certain that he loved her. He’d known he cared for her since before he saved her from Queen Chrysalis’s hive. He’d known that he wanted to be with her from the day he made the awful mistake of siding with Tirek. The day he almost lost her.

But he learned he loved her just a week prior. The day that King Sombra had tried again, to take over Equestria. While.. yes, this was technically Discord’s own doing, he completely expected the ponies to handle it. They always had a remarkable way of solving things, which even he had to admit was pretty amazing.

It had all changed when Sombra sent that blast, flying towards Fluttershy. Where his first instinct had been to protect her-to shield her from all harms way. It was that moment. That defining moment, that told him that what he’d feeling was love.

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Fluttershy felt her nerves rising again, as she double checked her checklist. She felt as though she was becoming Twilight with the rate she was going. But she needed to make sure the kind of tea she made was right. And of course, for such an occasion, a new tea set was in order, as well as new sandwich recipes and-

She stopped herself, and smiled. It would be fine. This was Discord! He didn’t need anything perfect or fancy, for Celestia’s sake. Fluttershy glanced to the calendar that hung on her wall. There were only three more days until the Tuesday that was marked with a big X.

“Three days.” She whispered to herself. “Three days until I tell him everything.”

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In the hidden cave, Discord made a timeline of his plans. His checklist floated upside down in front of him, and anything that was written seemed barely readable, but still be studied it meticulously.

Once this was all complete, he could tell her. Once Fluttershy and her friends had settled into their roles with helping rule Equestria, and Twilight had the throne: he would tell her. Not a second before, not a second after. It would be absolutely perfect.

“Let’s see.. if I planned everything right-and I always do..” he snapped his fingers, and another planner levitated in front of him. “Mhmm.” He glanced over it.

“Three months.” The draconequus half smiled to himself.
“Three months and I can tell her everything.”

Author's Note

Hey everycreature! So.. first fanfic here! No guarantee as to how long it’s going to be-this is just mainly based on how I imagine Fluttershy and Discord’s relationship would’ve been in s9 and right after! Criticism is of course welcome, but be easy on me! Haha I haven’t written and published fan fiction like this in about.. 4 years! Other than that, I hope you enjoy :) I’ll try and update when I can between college! Xoxo :twilightsmile:

Chapter 2- Mixed Messages

Everything was ready.

The tea was prepared, the cucumber sandwiches sat neatly on the table, and Fluttershy was patiently waiting for Discord to arrive. Today was the day that she confessed everything.

It would have been an understatement to say that she was nervous, but she kept telling herself that this was going to be fine. It had to be. If she didn’t tell him now… she wasn’t sure she ever would.

The knock came on the door, and her heart flipped in her chest. “Here goes everything,” she thought.

“Discord! Please come in.” Fluttershy beamed as she lead him inside, and the draconequus in front of her sauntered in.

“Thank you, Fluttershy dearest.” Discord grinned as he made his way to the couch, and draped himself across it as he examined the tea party spread in front of him.

“My..” he continued, “this is quite the layout you’ve got here today. You’ve outdone yourself—even more so than usual!” He then began to tease, “what, is it a special occasion? Besides my being here, of course.”

He may of been teasing, but the Pegasus felt her face flush as she took her seat across from him, and tried to hide her shaking as she poured the tea. “O-Oh I mean not really.” She stammered slightly.

She knew it wasn’t true. This was the day she’d been waiting for. Everything had lead to this. If all went well… who knows what would happen? Butterflies filled her stomach.

“Except,” she continued, “there is one thing I wanted to talk to you about.” Discord looked up at her as she spoke: she sounded serious, and her tone of voice made even him pay attention for a moment.

“Oh? Well do go on.” He rested his chin on his paw hand and grinned. “You have all my attention.”

Fluttershy gulped.

“I just think you should know that I... I…”

“Yes?..” He raised an eyebrow, now quite intrigued by the whole thing.

“I really… I mean really like y-“

“Yes!” He exclaimed, jumping up abruptly.

“What?” She smiled, her heart pounding. He liked her back?

“Yes you’re exactly right.” He continued, “Celestia does need my help with Twilight’s upcoming coronation.” He shook his head, and Fluttershy’s face fell. “I just can’t believe I almost forgot about her letter.” He snapped his fingers and an official looking letter appeared, disappearing just as quickly as he snapped his fingers again.

“But… but...” She struggled to find her words. Oh how fast this had all crashed down around her.

“Never fear my dear,” he grinned, patting her on the head. “We’ll make up the missed tea another time! Ta ta!” And, with another snap of his fingers, he was gone, and Fluttershy now sat alone to wonder what had just happened.

Did he.. just leave her? Sure, she knew that Discord had quite a habit of appearing or disappearing at some of the most inconvenient times—but this seemed as though he was trying to avoid her all together. But he wouldn’t do that.. right?

Not unless… he didn’t feel the same way. The Pegasus tried to swallow away the dread that had formed in her throat. This couldn’t be happening. Something was wrong here-

A knock on the door.

“Discord?” She perked up.

“Nope! It’s Pinkie!” Came her friends loud voice from beyond the door.

Fluttershy deflated again. “Oh… come in.” She sighed.

“Hiya!” The pink pony bounced through the doors, and began to circle the Pegasus. “How are you? I bet you’re probably sad, and that’s not good. I don’t like when friends are sad!” She rattled off.

“N-No I’m not sad, I was just thinking…” Fluttershy tried to explain.

“Pfttt! You’re sad, and that’s ok! I mean it’s not okay, but we can fix it! It’s about Discord isn’t it?”

“How did you-“

“I knocked and you got all excited and said “Discord?” in your super sweet hopeful voice!” Fluttershy blushed as Pinkie continued to explain. “But then when you realized it was me you sounded super sad, which means that you and Discord probably had a fight, and he left like he always does-“

Fluttershy cringed, Pinkie noticed, and she tried to make it sound better than it was.

“-and you really wanna talk to him and make up because you’re the bestest of besties and besties shouldn’t fight!” The pony finished, out of breath.

“Well... you’re right about a lot of that.” Thought they Pegasus couldn’t help but wince at the term ‘besties’.

“Of course I am! My Pinkie Sense told me.” She was now helping herself to the leftovers from the abruptly ended tea party.

Fluttershy tried to push her thoughts of Discord to the back of her head for the moment, as she walked over to Pinkie.
“… Aside from that though, what brings you by?” She tried to change the subject.

Pinkie inhaled a mini tea cake. “Oh yeah! Twilight wants us all to go over one of the lists for her coronation! You know how she is with her lists.” She giggled.

Figuring she could use a distraction, she nodded in return. “Oh sure, come on we can go together.” The Pegasus went to secure her saddle bags, before walking to the door with Pinkie bouncing beside her.

“Oh and um, Pinkie,” she shifted awkwardly. “Do you mind… not telling anyone about... my being sad over Discord? I-I wouldn’t want them to worry.” She mainly wasn’t ready for them to find out about her feelings this way.

“Don’t worry!” Pinkie said, making a dramatic motion of zipping her lips. “My lips are sealed!”

Discord was not at Canterlot Castle, but instead found himself back in his cave, pacing. Oh Celestia, how foolish had he been? She was about to confess. He was sure of it. Someone as wonderful as she was, was about to confess her love for him.

And he couldn’t let it happen.

Not now. Not like this. Not until he could prove to the world, to himself, that he deserved her. He had so much to make up for. So many, many mistakes that apologizing would never solve. And he was so close to helping Twilight, so close to proving that he had learnt about friendship. So close to proving that he could deserve to be with Fluttershy.

It was only a couple more months. He just had to stay quiet a couple more months. The other ponies were already planning Twilight’s coronation. It would all be over soon. And at some point in between there, he realized he’d have to make it up to her for abandoning their tea party so suddenly. “Just one more thing I have to apologize for,” he thought, glumly.

The chimaera glanced back to the picture of them that still hung on the wall.

“Soon.” He mumbled, to no one in particular. “Soon I’ll make this all up to you, Flutters.”

And he was sure that he would.

Author's Note

Heya everycreature!

Sorry if there are delays/no set schedule for this. Again I’m just working on it, mostly during weekends, between college-but I’m scored to see where it goes!

Just a note-this will not be a copy of s9 or anything. I won’t be depicting the battle between the trio of villains vs Equestria in this book: I’ll be showing the before and after! Pretty much the goal for me was to show what FiM didn’t. So while we’ll probably see Fluttershy’s POV of Discord’s confession-the whole battle won’t be included, but the aftermath sure will be!

Thank you so much for all the love so far, I hope you’re enjoying it! And as always, (constructive) criticism is always welcome, as I’m quite new to writing on Fimfiction!

Thank you lovelies :trollestia: