My little Tavi

It's strange. Just a few days ago, I was living all by my self. But now, I can barely remember how I was able to deal with the loneliness. Things that seemed perfectly normal like making my own coffee, cooking my own meal, and staring blankly at the TV screen while waiting for the day to come to an end seem strange to me now.

Since when did I become used to this kind of life? I lied down on my bed and shut my eyes. It never occurred to me that living by yourself in a house full of nothing is not the best way of life, but I never questioned it. In this world, I have learnt to accept and ignore.

I thought to myself as I fell asleep.

The following day was uneventful, or so I thought. It was a Saturday, so I didn't have to go to work. I got up around 10 am, and dressed myself to go grocery shopping. The amount of food left in my fridge is no where near enough to last the both of us another week.

"You going... somewhere?" Octavia asked as she saw me putting on my jacket.

"Yeah just shopping for groceries. We are almost out of food."

"I see..."

"Don't worry, it won't take long. The market is right down the street. I will probably be back in an hour."

"Can I come along and help?"

I gave it some thought, but I felt like right now, the best idea is to let her stay home. I can't risk her walking around and be found by whoever was after her.

"Sorry, but I don't think that would be wise... I mean, I'd love to, but if someone sees you..."

Octavia sighed. "Yes... I understand."

She looked somewhat disappointed. I can understand why she felt this way. My house isn't the exactly the biggest, and I'm sure she didn't want to spend all her time being inside doing nothing. But there is nothing I could do. I would love to let her go outside... no, I would love to see her going outside and show her our world, but it's simply too dangerous. However, I still wanted to cheer her up, so I said: "Is there anything you want? Like, vegetables, or snacks? Candy perhaps? I can maybe get you some at the market."

"That would be too much to ask for. You are already giving me food, medication and a place to stay... It would be extremely inappropriate of me to ask for anything else... so..."

I was slightly surprised by this. I remembered last night when we hugged and kind of snuggled and I became a bit confused. Maybe hugging and snuggling is normal in the pony world, like shaking hands in mine. Maybe we weren't as close to each other as I thought. This made me a bit depressed.

I wanted to say something but no words came out. She was right, having her as a roommate did bring some weight onto my shoulders. I have to take some cash out of my already-underpaid check to keep the both of us, alive. But not everything can be measured physically. Octavia had brought joy into my life, a shimmering light of hope and dreams that I had given up long ago. She was more than just someone whom I am staying with. She was my friend. It may be too soon to call it love, but I definitely want to spend time with her, and I honestly wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life living with her.

"Octavia, no." I walked over and sat down on my knees, putting myself on the same level as her, "You have no idea how much happiness you have brought into my life. I didn't even know my life had a purpose. Everyday the same boring routine... but with you, it's different. You are very special to me."

I can't help but blush as these words come out of my lips. Damn it, It almost felt like I was confessing my feelings for her. However, I can't just stop here. I drew a deep breath and continued. I have to let her know how important she was, to me at the very least.

"You are someone who I can trust, who I know I can talk you. You are my first friend. So please don't think that you are a burden. I would hate to go back to the days when I am alone."

Octavia turned her head, her ears dropping down to the side of her head. She blushed and nodded her head.

"Okay..."

"There there. Well, I'm going to the market. I will try to make it quick. Be careful when I'm not here. I have the keys so if anyone knocks on the door, pretend that no one is home, okay?"

Octavia nodded in silence.

I stood up and walked towards the door. I put on my shoes and walked towards the door.

"Well, see ya."

I walked out and pull the door close. But just before the door was closed, I thought I saw Octavia looking up with a shy smile on her face.

Or maybe it was just an illusion.

I thought to myself as I made my way towards the market.

But her smile is so awfully cute.