"Please dont leave"

Chapters

Chapter 1 "Beginnings"(Updated)
Chapter 2 "Alone" (Updated)
Chapter 3 "Hope"(Updated)
Chapter 4 "what were you thinking?"
Chapter 5 "Perspectives"
Update(not a new chapter...yet)

Chapter 1 "Beginnings"(Updated)

Author's Note

I know I said I wouldn't go back and change anything, but I finally seen what you guys where talking about with the crazy 1st or 3rd person switching so I'm gonna update each chapter. I'm also looking for some things I can add and change so I can make the chapters longer :pinkiehappy:

Chapter 1 "Beginnings"(Updated)

"Hey, Watch it"

I didn't even look back at the person I'd just ran into, I didn't need to look at them to feel they're glare boring into me. I just wanted to get to my next class, and as quickly as possible!!!

I turned a few corners and as I neared the door to my classroom, I felt my legs catch on something as someone pushed me from the side and my head hit cold metal. My vision went black for a second as I tried to figure out what had just happened. As my vision started to come back I could tell what had happened by the people snickering and the few claps for whomever just pushed me, and a male voice saying "post some more shit and see what happens next demonbitch!!!"

I didn't look up at him from my spot on the floor hoping he would leave me alone if I didn't resist. Thankfully he left along with whoever had tripped me and walked on down the hallway their message having been delivered and satisfied that I was roughed up enough. I could already feel the blood running down my forehead where it had come into contact with the hall lockers, as I brought my hand up to my face I winced as I felt the already swelling knot on my forehead. There was red on my hand when I brought it away from my face. I wish I'd stayed home, I'd already lost count that day for how many times I wished I'd stayed home.

Home........

When I had came to this world I thought I was prepared for what would be on the other side of that magic mirror. I'd studied so many sleepless nights trying to unlock the secrets of the mirror and the whole other world on the other side. But when I had finally went through the portal to escape banishment, it wasn't the smooth sleek hooves I'd known all my life that I stepped out on, it was some kind of misshapen meat nubs in black and pink boots. I'd tried to balance on the two strange new hind legs but quickly stumbled to the ground on my knees and what appeared to be claws and was completely freaked out by this hairless ape suit I was in. I eventually found out these creatures where called humans and the meat nubs and claws were called feet and hands.

After my internal freakout at not being a pony anymore and losing my horn and magic, I had to take a few moments to figuring out how to use my new body. When I was finally confident enough in my ability to walk I started to search my surroundings. I discovered that this side of the portal wasn't in a mirror but on the surface of one side of a cement base of a statue with the statue being a odd looking horse, it sure didn't look like any horse or pony from equestria though. There was a tall building that the statue stood in front of, which I soon realized was a school for these hairless creatures, I almost went inside before I saw a very tall thin woman with aurora hair that looked like princess Celestia in human form. She looked like she was looking for something or someone, I didn't stick around to find out. If there was anypony that could come to this world and retain there magic it'd be Celestia, and I didn't doubt that she could probably teleport to this side of the portal so as to not have to use the mirror, and catch me unaware so she could take me back to equestria and imprison me.

I ran as fast as my new body would let me with my severely impaired balance, I ran as far as I could until my lungs burned for air and my feet ached from running in these boots, but I kept on running and when my body finally had enough I finally stopped and hunched over gasping for the air my lungs desperately begged for. As I took in my surroundings I found I had ran all the way to some rundown neighborhood that was next to some kind of abandoned industrial district surrounded by a chain link fence that was covered In graffitied sheets of metal to create a privacy barrier. As I stood there catching my breath I got the feeling someone was looking at me, I looked behind me and saw a shady group of large men who where dressed like thugs, it seemed that they hadn't noticed me yet or just didn't care that I was there. They seemed to be engrossed in their conversation but as some of them took notice and started glancing at me I quickly turned around and ran toward the many abandoned warehouses. I was lucky enough to find a loose piece of fence that pushed in far enough to let my slim form squeeze through but still small enough that anything bigger would not be able to pass.

The compound was huge with giant empty warehouses that were once used to manufacture metal wagons with rubber wheels, there was a few of these wagons scattered about the compound yard left in pieces and rotting away. I had passed alot of these things while running and seen them moving by themselves. I had been amazed by the humans of this world, that they where intelligent enough to make wagons that could pull themselves without magic. I eventually found out they were called cars and ran on an internal combustion engine, I was still impressed though.

It was starting to get dark so I searched through the warehouses one by one to find somewhere I could use as a makeshift shelter and ended up finding an employee lounge in the main office building with a metal door that could be locked from the inside. The room was far enough inside the building that the outside temp wouldn't effect the room too much, and it was small enough to hold in my body heat, and had a bathroom connected to it with a toilet that still actually flushed and a sink that still turned on, I guess the people who owned this building forgot to turn the water off when they abandoned this place.

Over the next few years in this world I collected piece by piece everything I needed to make that little room a home, it wasn't princess Celestia's castle but it was mine.

The sound of the school's warning bell ringing snapped me out of my memories. I groaned as I started the labourous chore of getting back up, I'd done it enough times now though that I'm starting to get pretty good at it.

Nobody tried to help me as I struggled there on all fours, finally managing to come to my feet while leaning heavily on the lockers for support. I could feel someone staring at me, but it was different from the usual glares that I felt. As I looked up I saw my friends.... well former friends.

None of them where smiling, they all held looks that said "you brought this on yourself." The only one who actually looked concerned was Pinkie Pie, but before I could be sure Applejack and Rainbow started moving them along to class and Pinkie was gone.

Assuming it was just a trick of the mind I moved on quickly to my next class before the late bell rang, snatching some napkins from the teachers desk as I was headed to my own. Mr. Cranky Doodle had seen me when I walked in and watched with uncaring eyes, he waited till I was seated and the bell rung to say anything, he cleared his throat loudly getting everyone's attention. "So miss shimmer, what poor soul did you expose to get that nasty bump to your head, if I were you I'd refrain from making anymore posts on mystable."

I sat there stunned, that he'd actually call me out in front of the class like that, I guess even the teachers believed I was guilty. I didnt even want to know now if the principles believed me or not, before I could say anything though he continued.

"But since I'm only a teacher I'm not allowed to have a professional opinion about this mystable nonsense" he stood up from his chair as he looked me right in the eye and gave me a predatory grin as he spoke his next words "But it IS my professional opinion as a teacher that fighting in the hallway is two weeks detention, and that's exactly where I'll see you this afternoon after school understood."

As if possessed I could feel my head nodding and a "yes sir" escaping my lips before my mind caught up, I knew it wouldn't do any good to try to argue, or else I incurr more wrath from the short balding man, and to be fair I expected he would find some way to punish me. He's had it out for me ever since the first time I blackmailed him with fake photos of him cheating on his wife, I'd convinced him that even with fake photos I could turn his wife against him.

As he started today's lesson my mind began to wander off, it had only been three days since my final confrontation with the girls at sugarcube corner. Three days since i talked to them, three days since I heard from twilight, despite my almost nonstop friendship s.o.s's until my journal was finally stolen. It had happened while I was being worked over by Gilda and some of her lackeys, I'd been able to break Gildas nose before they used me as a human punching bag. Still though, someone had vandalized my locker and stole my stuff, including the journal, which I had been storing there for (supposedly) safe keeping.

It didn't matter anyway, twilight had plenty of time to respond to me when I still had the book, and if twilight cared at all she would just "OPEN THE PORTAL" like I had been begging her in my messages since the last failed attempt with my former friends. That night had already felt off in many ways, I already knew something was up before I'd even opened the doors.

It felt as though something that should've happened that night at sugarcube corner didn't, and instead of getting my friends back I got Rainbow's fist to the face. With the black eye and the undoubtedly brusing knot on my forehead I probably looked almost like a racoon by now, and I still hadn't looked yet to see what the girls soccer team did to me this morning on my way to school, but if the dull ache in my ribs and stomach from my impromptu substitution as a soccer ball was anything to go by, I was sure I wasn't to far from a hospital visit. Thanks to that discord guy I met on a chaos channel online, I had gotten all the fake documents I would need to live in this world so I wasn't too worried if I had to. All I had to do was dig up some dirt on principle Celestia and vise principle Luna........ wow, sometimes I forget that I really was a demon! I'm just glad those photos didn't ruin there careers.

Tomorrow was Christmas eve, it was weird for school to run right up to the holidays like this, I'm still convinced that principle Celetia was getting some sick satisfaction at seeing me abused by my fellow students, and extended the school days up to the eve of Christmas. Another one of the reasons I'd stopped fighting back!!! Even when caught in the act Celestia let them off with just a warning, and I'd be the one to get in trouble, the cards where stacked against me, and my fist was getting worse and worse from all the noses I'd had to break, so I stopped fighting back.

I shifted in my seat and winced a little as I felt my leather jacket and jeans rub my cuts....... those are kinda a long story, I guess the simple answer would be it's a habit I picked up after my fallout with Princess Celestia and coming to the human world.

Unconsciously my right hand went into my jacket pocket and gripped the smooth pure silver handle in there, it was a straight razor, a gift to the protégé of the princess from some foreign dignitary who assumed I would be a stallion. He was quite surprised to find out I was a mare but I accepted the gift anyway. I had it on me when i was banished and ran through the portal, and started using it to cut myself not long after coming here to make sure that this was still real, and to cope with losing everything and starting my life over again WITH NOTHING. I'd always assumed princess Celestia would leave me with something when I enevitably left, but I was more worse off now than when the princess had found me in the smoking remains of my foalhood orphanage, at least then I still had my magic and my real pony form.

Remembering my fall and hard rise to queen bee made me think about adding a few more marks if my already marred flesh had enough room left. Over the last few days I've been thinking of using it for something more, something a little more sinister, and with the way everyone treats me, and the way no one cares for me, and if I can't go back to equestria......, it's been taking up more and more space in my mind.

I wonder what they'd do if I cut my wrists and sat here at my desk and bled out infront of them, would someone try to save me? If no one noticed me bleeding out, and they found me dead at my desk at the end of class, would anyone cry or would they start cheering "the demon is finally dead!!! The demon is finally dea-" the sound of the bell going off jogs me from my thoughts, i looked up at it on the wall surprised I'd been able to space off the whole class period, then I remembered that I'd have to Brave the hallways again and I groaned as I got up to head to my next class.

Chapter 2 "Alone" (Updated)

I made it to my next class and took my seat, thankful that I had been able to do it without an incident, not counting the name calling or getting jabbed with pencils by students who "accidentally" bumped into me. I let them do it though, without saying a word, hoping that they would just leave me alone eventually. But I knew it was just a matter of time before there was another post and someone would lose there temper again and I'd have to go a couple more rounds as the "human punching bag". As the thought struck me I realized, I'm getting pretty sick of letting these people hurt me, I was seriously reconsidering my choice to not fight back, at least back when a student started something with me and I broke their nose they would think twice before messing with me again, even Gilda hadn't messed with me since I had broke hers.

As I sat down I sighed in relief knowing the day was almost over and then I could go back to being alone at home, though I wasn't looking forward to spending another Christmas by myself. This year was supposed to be different, I was supposed to have friends, supposed to spend Christmas enjoying homemade meals and warmth and good company. All I had to look forward to now was the all too real chance of freezing to death on my ratty stained mattress in the corner of my room in the abandoned warehouse that I had called home for the entire time that I had spent in the human world.

I was lucky I'd kept my home life a secret from everyone, not that it was hard, no one ever tried to pry into my life, not even my so called friends that where supposed to care if I was homeless or not. Not even ONE of them had ever asked me where I lived, out of the five of them Pinkie Pie was the only one to even ask for my phone number. It was one of my first truly happy moments with Pinkie, actually now that I think about it, Pinkie was the only one of the five that I've ever had a truly happy moment with. I remember every detail of it too, It was 4 days after the fall formal, my first day back since I had went home and locked myself in my room and hid, I was terrified of the thought of going back to school but I had continously thought about twilights words. Over and over again they crossed my mind as if on repeat, and I decided I didn't want to be alone forever, so the next morning I packed my school bag and returned to school.

As soon as I walked through the front doors I regretted coming back, all the glares and stares. I could feel the hate and rage rolling off most of the students I passed, a couple even stopped me in the hall just to threaten me about what would happen if I tried to rule the school again. The rest were afraid of me, having seen the demon inside me, the one I turned into, and feared that I'd somehow figure out a way to turn into the demon again. I made it to my locker and was switching out some of the books in it with the ones in my bag, when I closed my locker door there was Pinkie standing on the other side with the biggest smile on her face that I'd ever seen and yelled "Hi Sunset Shimmer!!!" I had almost fallen over in fright of Pinkies uncanny ability to pop out of anywhere, but the pink girl had grabbed my hands at the last second before I fell and steadied me.

"Whoa, sorry I didn't mean to scare ya, I was just soooo excited to be friends I just couldn't help it!"
She looked sad for a second and I knew she meant what she said, then she was back to that big smile of hers. It took me a second to overcome my shock but when I did I ended up looking Pinkie Pie right in the eyes and being blown away by just how beautiful those pools of blue were, and they were sparkling with all the excitement and life that the pink girl contained.
I blushed and looked away just to notice that we were still holding hands, Pinkie seen me as I glanced down and realized it too and blushed what I thought was a really cute hot pink before we both let go of each other's hands.

I was able to stumble out some actual words as I came back to my senses "You r-really want to be friends with me?"

Still blushing and failing miserably to hide it she said "Of course sill willy, I've wanted to be your friend for years!!!". "I just wasn't sure if you needed or even wanted any friends, Mrs Cake says I'm too forceful with getting everyone to become friends with me, and I was scared I'd screw something up and you wouldn't want to be my friend".

Being alone all my life, I jumped for the chance to have someone in my life again. "Yes......" I clamped my mouth shut as I realized I had been only a couple octaves low from shouting that, I looked around to see if anybody noticed but it seemed nobody was paying us any mind. Relieved I cleared my throught in embarrassment before I composed myself and spoke again. "I-...... yeah, that would be okay with me, maybe we could catch a movie together sometime!"

Pinkie had almost recovered from her blush when I said that and she immediately turned hot pink again from her poofy hair down to her shoulders and did what I considered a spot on impersonation of fluttershy before we made eye contact again. She brought her hands in front of her and started nervously playing with her fingers. Eventually she spoke. "I'd like that alot, could I get your ph-phone number?"

I don't know what it was but at that moment when she agreed to hang out with me, It felt like I had fireworks going off in my head and I reached out to her school binder that she was holding and snatched the pen out of the top. I quickly grabbed her free hand and scribbled my phone number on the back of her hand with a small sun next to it

She watched me as I wrote my number and as I finished the little sun, when I looked back up, Pinkie was smiling so big she was almost lit up like a Christmas tree. Before anything else could be said though the first bell rang telling everyone to head to class, I looked into those big blue eyes one more time before we said our goodbyes. Before I could move Pinkie surprised me with a quick hug before she disappeared down the hall with a "Bye sunny". I stood there for a moment stunned with my cheeks burning wondering why I felt all tingly and why I wished that hug could've lasted a bit longer, but before I could think too much on it I quickly came back to my senses and shrugged it off and headed to my next class, chalking it up to Pinkie just being Pinkie.

Even after the battle of the bands none of the other girls treated me even close to how Pinkie treated me! Still, even with how nice Pinkie was to me, none of the other girls tried to get close. Pinkie was the only one of them that ever got close enough to suspect I was homeless, but she never figured it out.

Now though I saw it as a small blessing in disguise, because if nobody knew where I lived then I was safe, at least at home.

And by now I was already praying for the day to be over so I could go back to my fortress of solitude and sleep, to feel the few moments of bliss under my blankets that sleep would bring, to be alone and to leave everything behind for those few moments of peace. Of course my daily ritual since my friends abandoned me would get in the way, but not for too long, just long enough to find a place on my body that I hadn't marred yet and leave today's tallys, another untold number on my skin of the abuse and heartache I'd endured.

"Great I'm back to thinking about this!" I said as I sat there watching the teacher drone on about something I'd already learned back in my early CSGU days.

"What was that miss shimmer?"

It took me a second to realize I'd spoken out loud, and the teacher had an expectant look on her face, waiting for me to answer, that expectant look quickly morphed into anger as she became increasingly more impatient with waiting for me to answer her.

"Well miss shimmer where waiting?" She said as she put her hands on her hips, more students turning to look at me.

I don't know what it was but for some reason I just couldn't respond, a huge lump formed in my throat that felt like it was the size of a bowling ball and seemed like it just would not pass, and the teacher looked like she had waited long enough as her posture straightened, and there was a twinkle in her eye, at me giving her a reason to punish me.

"Well miss Shimmer! Since you refuse to speak, you can go to vice principle Lunas office and she'll explain to you the rules of the classroom and how not to dirupt the class, now move Missy" she waited several seconds for me to move and when I didn't she stretched her arm out, pointed her finger towards the door and raised her voice as she boomed "OUT". I grabbed my bag and was out the door before she could try to add anymore days to the weeks of detention I was already dealing with.

Out in the hallway I started for the vice principals office, it striking me just how open the hallways where when they weren't filled with psychopaths trying to hurt me. Then another thought struck me as I was walking,"nobody knows where I'm at right now, it would be so easy to sneak off somewhere, maybe hide in the girls bathroom, or one of the unused classrooms or behind the stage, they would eventually find me but by then it would be too late. I'd had this thought more times than once, but those hadn't felt real, those times had felt more like (nah, maybe but not yet). This time however, It felt like a very serious moment one that could make or break everything, as if even one more thing would send me over the edge, and send me falling to pieces.

"SUNSET SHIMMER!!!"

Me and my minds big mouth!!! I turned to see Applejack storming towards me with the mother of all pissed off faces looking right at me.

"DO YOU KNOW WHAT YA JUST DID?!!!".

She all but sprinted the last few yards between us and grabbed me up by the collar of my leather jacket and slammed me against the lockers. "Do you know what you just did to me and Dash with that post Sunset?!!!". She had tears streaming from her eyes which was incredible in its own right, one of the first things I learned about the hardened apple farmer was that she didn't cry. One of the other most important things to know about this hardened apple farmer is that she's got the strength of a professional body builder

"I don't know what your-hrk" that was all I'd managed to get out before she grabbed me by the throat with her left hand and actually lifted me off the ground and slammed me again against the wall lockers, this time holding me securely against them with an iron grip.

"Ah don't want to hear it snake" she sneered in my face spraying spittle, what ever was posted it must of been really bad for the normally honest and fare farm girl to become so unhinged. "Mah family is so old fashioned mah granny is still trying ta mary me off." I felt her grip tighten on my throat. "Do you know what's gonna happen when they find out ah'm a lesbian?" "Ah'll be ostracized by my own clan, and mah granny and mac and bloom will be black sheeped if they don't disown me"

She stared into my eyes for a moment before she spoke again, by this time I was probably starting to turn blue.

"The Wonderbolt military academy is just as old fashioned as mah family, they automatically reject any applicant in Ah homosexual relationship!"
"With one post you've ruined mah life, and the dreams of the one Ah love!!!" If it was possible her grip got even tighter, if I could see her hand I knew without a doubt she was probably white knuckleing my throat.

"I ought to snap yer neck right here and now!!!".................

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"But Ah wont"

I felt her grip finally release from my throat and my jacket, and I fell to my hands and knees gasping for breath and I clasped my aching throat with one hand as some of the color came back to my face.

"Of all the good people that ah've known in my life, all those good people that lost their lives........ mah parents..........grand apple..........!"

"The fact that your still here and they aren't is insulting to everything Ah know and stand for, and that's the honest truth!"

Sometime during her speech I had looked back up at her and she looked me in the eyes as she said the last part, boring into me with those pools of green. I could clearly see there was no doubt in those eyes about the words she'd said and the feelings they conveyed.

Applejack took a step back but didn't break eye contact as she spoke her final piece. "Ah hope you get wats coming to ya, and if I never see you again, it'll be too soon, goodbye Sunset Shimmer!!!"

As she said the last word she broke eye contact, turned and walked down the hallway never looking back, but I didn't see it, I was already running in the other direction trying to find someplace I could hide and be alone where no one could find me.

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I ran until I was safely hidden behind some of the backdrop props backstage in the gymnasium. As I sat down with my back against one of the backdrops I felt something wet on my face, I brought my hand up to wipe my eyes and I realized I was crying. Why did this have to happen, why did anonamiss have to push me so far, and bring me to this point? Why didn't I just give up and leave this place? If only twilight would open the portal, I'd rather be imprisoned in equestria than live here!

"Well the decision is finally made" I thought as I began rolling up my sleeves, when that was done I reached into my coat pocket and retrieved my straight razor. Opening it up a memory flashed into my mind of the the pony that'd given it to me.

("A mare protégé, surely you jest your majesty!!!?"
"I assure you this is no joke ambassador, and you would do well to remember courtesy and respect in my house"
"Yes your majesty my apologies, I had simply realized I'd assumed wrong in the gender for which my present was intended." He looked at me with contempt as he approached me with a neatly wrapped box, he came forward and stood still a moment glaring at me before he glance at princess Celestia then back to me. He pulled the cover off the box to revile a straight razor stored neatly in a velvet box. After uncovering the razor the ambassador spoke saying "forged by our finest smith's and sharpened by the masters of our homeland, the handle is made of pure quick silver and is engraved with the cutie mark of the pony it is gifted to, the blade is made of a special blend of only the finest rare metals forged together with alchemy and honed into this blade!!!"
The ambassador took a couple of moments to speak "such a magnificent blade!!! I only hope that you do not kill yourself when you mishandle it, such a blade is meant for a stallions use, for we are the ones with the power to wield them!"
I looked at the ambassador with eyes full of anger, then the silver handled blade he offered and said
"It will take alot more than this blade to kill me, and if i wasn't ordered by the princess to be respectful I'd show you just how powerless you are, and any other stallion that would dare challenge me, remember that!")

Now all these years later, I stared at the blade as if entranced, holding the blade firm in my right hand, I brought the edge of the blade to my left hand and forced the blade into the flesh of my palm. The pain was white hot, burning like a fire under my skin so intense my mind started to swim from the pain. Then I steadily pulled the blade up, across my wrist and halfway up my forearm, the pain was so intense I almost blacked out, but I didn't and was left in a state of mental numbness. I could still feel all the pain but I didn't care, at this point it almost felt good, since it was so different from the pain I felt in my mind. The blood was pouring from my arm in Scarlett rivulets that cascaded down to the small pool that was forming on the ground. I watched the blood continue to gush from my arm for a few seconds before I pulled the blade from my skin. The cut was long and deep, and spilled my life blood out like a broken water pipe. With sluggish, heavy movements I placed the freshly blood stained blade in my shaking, jerking left hand, trying to ignore the searing pain long enough to complete my task. With the rapidly fading motorskills that I had left in my mutilated arm, I turned my sights on my right arm.

Chapter 3 "Hope"(Updated)

I was done!!!

If nobody wanted me anymore than I'm not going to stick around and take the abuse for a crime that I didn't even commit!

I moved my severely shaking left hand, and gripping the handle of my straight razor in my ruined palm, I sunk the edge of the blade into my right palm. Blood started to pool immediately from the depth and the force I had used to sink the razor into my flesh. I was about to drag the blade up my forearm, like I had done my left, before the last thing in the world that could have possibly happen, happened.

"SUNSET NO!!!"

From out behind one of the other backdrops came Pinkie Pie, though she would be the only person physically possible to do it, the only other person who came to mind was houdini, as the backdrop was leaned against a solid concrete wall.

I could tell she was crying as the tears where evident on her face, behind that beautiful pink curtain of straight hair, which was not normal for the normally energetic party goer. Most of the time I learned that if Pinkie had straight hair, walk the other way as quickly as possible, I still couldn't fully believe the story dash told me about our pink friend and her imaginary birthday guests.

She was holding what looked like a first aid kit as she rushed to my side and grabbed my hand holding the razor and gently helped me ease the blade from my skin, once it was free, she very quickly snatched the razor from my grasp. It seemed like my straight razor immediately disappeared into thin air as soon as it left my hand, and I just chalked it up to Pinkie doing her Pinkie thing again. As soon as the razor was gone she immediately opened the first aid kit she'd brought and started pulling out tons of gauze and medical tape as she quietly mumbled under her breath, I couldn't hear what she was saying so I couldn't tell if it was good or bad, but only one thing really came to mind.

"H-how did you-?"

"Pinkie sense!" she interrupted as she took some gauze and started bandaging my left arm, the considerably worse and quite life threatining of my wounds where there, but even my right palm was cut deep enough it would need stitches, and I could tell by the look on her face that she was horrified with what she was looking at.

"My Pinkie sense told me someone I really really care for was really really hurt." She fumbled for a second as she had to reajust her grip on the gauze she was holding, it having almost slipped from her grasp. The poor girl looked like she was shaking more than me, but I was starting to shake pretty bad myself so I couldn't be sure.

"I called an ambulance then grabbed one of my 34 stashed first aid kits that I keep hidden for emergencies, and then I came running until I ran through the door and found you"

I thought on that for a only a second before I said the obvious.

"Pinkie....... you didn't come through a door!!?"

She didn't say anything to that as she continued to work, but under that pink sheet of hair I could see a small smile grace her lips as she finished wrapping my arm, and despite the situation I blushed. I was thankful for the massive amount of blood loss that she didn't see it or didn't notice it, but the thought of her catching my blush only made me blush harder.

She was about halfway through wrapping my hand by the time she spoke again.

"Please don't go!!!"

Hearing those words sent a shock through my system and everything kinda came into focus for a second. She looked at me then, looked me straight in the eyes, those beautiful blue pools now full of emotions and a storm of conflicting thoughts.

"I'm sorry Sunset!!! For not believing in you, for taking your smile....." the tears where freely falling from her eyes now but she still held my gaze.
"....I didnt really want to believe you where Anonamiss, but I was afraid the girls would leave me too if I didn't take there side..... I'm sorry I didn't defend you, I'm sorry I called you a secret stealer, that was mean and I won't do it again, I Pinkie promise!!!"

My mind reeled with thoughts as she apologized to me, knowing that she meant every word but it was still hard for me to grasp the thought that someone still wanted me here, not knowing for sure was too much to handle so I had to be sure.

"D-does this m-mean that you still want me here? You really believe me that I'm not anonamiss?"

She looked at me for a moment as she decided how best to word her answer to me, then her face flushed for a second as she looked like she had a thought, then quick as a cobra she leaned forward and gave me a quick peck on the cheek, as she leaned away she gave me a small smile as she said "Pinkie promise."

I could feel my face burning up, which was weird because I'd always heard people felt coldness from severe blood loss. I could see Pinkie Pie was still blushing a little as well and her hair had floofed up just the tiniest bit.

And the world picked that exact moment for two Paramedics to come bursting through the double doors I had come through earlier, and the ones Pinkie had neglected to use when she decided she'd make her door through three feet of solid concrete and cement.

They rushed quickly into the room looking around for the distress call they'd received, they spotted Pinkie as she flagged them over. It had only taken them just over a minute or two for the paramedics to approve Pinkies bandaging, and put me flat onto a body board so they could put me on the gurney, and quick as a flash they where out the door, Pinkie following close behind. As they wheeled me out a memory started to play through my mind, a memory of a happier time.

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"So what movie do you wanna watch Sunny?"

It was the weekend of the week I returned to school, and after the last few days I'd endured I was soo looking forward to this day. Though the other girls were reluctant to accept me into their group, with a little pushing from Pinkie Pie the girls had finally started letting me hang out with them at lunch and after school. Even with all the underhanded comments always followed by "no offense" it was kinda worth it just to hang out with Pinkie. I had been trying to figure out a way to bring up the topic of asking her to go see that movie when she had caught me just outside the lunchroom just after the bell rang signaling the end of our lunch period. Pinkie had been strangley absent the whole lunch break, derailing my plan to ask her to the movies, so it was quite the surprise to have her jump out of a wall locker, complete with confetti and the sound of her party cannon going off. She had the biggest goofy smile on her face as she asked me if I'd like to go and see that movie this weekend.

"It'll be soooo much fun!!! Mrs. Cake even gave me my paycheck early so I can buy our tickets AND popcorn, so whaddya say Sunny you wanna go!!!?"
It only took me a couple of seconds to process the rapid fire way that Pinkie talks, but when I did I couldn't keep the smile from spreading across my face.
"I'd love too Pinkie, when are you and the girls gonna be there?"
Pinkie got a bashful look on her face and the hint of a blush that she was trying to hide as she said
"Actually I didn't invite the girls so it'll just be me and you!" "I hope that's alright!"
Now it was my turn to try to hide a blush as I tried to find my voice.
"N-no I don't mind...... so when and where do you want to meetup?
It didn't take us long to hash out the details and a couple of days later found us standing outside the theater in the canterlot mall.

"Sunny!!!?"
It took me a moment to realize I'd spaced out, but I was quick to answer.
"Sorry Pinks I just zoned out for a second there!"
She looked at me for a second with worry before she went back to smiling.
"It's okay silly willy, I was just asking what you want to watch?"
I looked at the selection and besides a couple of new horror movies I didn't really find anything that caught my eye, I shrugged.
"I can't decide besides, you bought the tickets whatever you wanna watch is fine with me."

Her smile never faltered as she grabbed my hand and shouted "scary movie it is!!!" And started dragging me toward one of the theater rooms. I couldn't stop my giggles at my pink friends shenanigans and let her guide us to some front row seats. We sat and ate popcorn and jumped and screamed together at all the jump scares and held onto each other as we watched some guy in a leather face mask chase and cut people apart with a chainsaw. At the end we had trouble prying ourselves apart at the thought of that guy still being out there somewhere waiting for his next victims.

It was a long dark scary walk back to Pinkies house, that's why neither of us minded holding hands all the way there. When we reached the front steps we finally had to let go of each other's hands but I was still shaken up from that movie and wasn't looking forward to walking alone back to my abandoned warehouse with its ominous creaks and moans and groans through the night, I didn't think I'd be able to sleep at all but Pinkie was my saving grace as she turned around and looked at me.
"Sunny w-would you wanna stay the night? It's just me and my sister Maud here and I don't want to sleep alone tonight!"
I felt the relief wash over me and it quickly turned into a blush
"Really I can stay the night? I don't want you to get in trouble!"
Pinkie gave a small smile.
"Sure you can stay the night! I won't get in trouble, Maud won't mind, she'd probably thank you for staying so she won't have to be up all night listening to my snoring"
Pinkie giggled at that last part and I couldn't help but giggle too. I followed her inside and spent the rest of the night talking and having fun till we both passed out from exhaustion.

I had never had so much fun in my life!

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The bell had just rang for the classes to switch so the hallways was teeming with students moving to there next class. It was these students who where brought out of the norm by three loud voices shouting for people to move and make way. As the paramedics moved through the halls all the students present could see a pale and injured Sunset covered in blood from her chest down, and arms wrapped in bloody gauze, barely keeping consciousness.

"Holy shit its Sunset Shimmer!!!"

Someone had spoken it aloud and caught the attention of more students who where trying to be respectful of the paramedics and their job to save lives by keeping there distance. But once they found who was on the gurney they made no such attempts to get out of the way, but ended up forcefully shoved to the side by an angry Pinkie Pie who had moved to the front to clear the path.

"It's really Sunset" was the collective thoughts of the students they passed in the halls. But the crowd of students had already turned cruel in there realization of who the paramedics where trying to save. Quickly the comments turned to mean remarks as more and more students poured out of the nearby classrooms to gawk at the site of the queen bitch finally broken.

As the paramedics finally hauled Sunset through the front doors and out of the school for good there was a cheer that went up into the air as students started laughing and celebrating, even Mr. Cranky and a few other teachers cracking smiles as they tried to usher there students back into they're classrooms. Vice principle Luna stormed down the hallway aswell, surrounded by a miasma of anger and the impending doom of any student that disobeyed her when she handed out detention slips to everyone she saw cheering! Disappointed and deeply disturbed by the sight of anyone who would celebrate a suicide attempt.

She thought and hoped that she'd never see the day that something like this would happen, now that it had it was all she could do not to cry and scream at these heartless bastards that filled the hallways of her school. She had warned her sister that something like this might happen, but Celestia didn't want to hear it and stopped her from intervening. Now though, Celestia be damned!!! Luna was going to make sure that the person responsible for this payed for it with everything they had and she would make sure that this would follow him or her the rest of their life!!!

Luna was only halfway down the hall, memorising every students to punish in this twisted celebration when a familiar sounding ping resonated through the hallways as every students phone went off signaling yet another post from anonamiss. Immediately a silence filled the space that had held such joy moments ago, as students looked at some petty anonamiss post about Lyra and Bon Bon, it began to dawn on them that Sunset couldn't have posted this from the back of an ambulance!

"Ah shit" came a familiar country twang.

Chapter 4 "what were you thinking?"

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Chapter 5 "Perspectives"

"Ah shit!!!"

Rainbow dash had heard the outburst, she looked for the source as she recognized the owner of the voice, as she looked she noticed everyone was too busy looking at there phones to notice the young red head slip away. Rainbow hesitated only a second before she switched to stealth mode and quietly moved to follow the little sister of her now, not so secret lover.

Rainbow was wondering what the girl was up to, especially since she had witnessed sunset and the paramedics, and hadn't jumped for her phone as soon as she heard the ping like everyone else. And because the bell just started ringing to signal the start of class. Rainbow still hadn't looked herself to see what was posted in favor of investigating the strange outburst of the youngest Apple sibling, and knowing Applejacks punishment for skipping class, it had to be important for Applebloom to risk the wrath of her older sister.

Rainbow followed her a few more hallways till they reached the back of the school, to one of the shop classes. There she saw Applebloom stop outside the classroom and make some hand signals to someone inside. Rainbow waited around the corner out of sight as she seen Sweetiebell soon make her appearance out of the classroom. They both quickly made there way back up the hallway towards me, and with no options, I quickly pulled open a wall locker and ducked inside and pulled the door almost closed so I wouldn't be locked in and so it wouldn't make a noise.

Both girls soon passed and didn't turn the corner but kept heading straight down the hall towards the gym, completely not noticing me at all. Having been on every sports team in the school, I knew it would be empty right now and was stumped as to the reason of the obviously secret meeting between the two and wondered where her pseudo sister was and if she had anything to do with this secrecy as well.

I jumped out of the locker when they where far enough away to not bee seen and followed them down the hall. Both girls made it to the gym and went inside, as I reached the doors and looked in I could see the two crusaders dissappear into the girls locker room. I sprinted across the floor hoping they wouldn't hear me coming, and was able to catch the corner of the locker room door before it closed.

As I tried not to make a noise I thanked my years of training and endurance that I didn't need to catch my breath from running full court at top stealth speed, and was able to almost not breath at all as I put all my focus on listening and finding out what these two where up to.

As she focused her hearing she heard the unmistakable sound of someone getting slapped and almost pulled open the door and give herself away, but before she could she heard Applebloom apologizing and footsteps, and Rainbow stopped when she heard Sweetie ask why she'd been slapped, wondering myself I listened in.

As they're conversation progressed, I was progressively losing parts of my sanity! Anonamiss wasn't Sunset? It had been Applebloom and Sweetie the WHOLE TIME!!!? When they got to the part about blackmailing scootaloo, I could feel myself shaking with rage, these two thought they where so smart huh? They think there going to get away with this? Not a chance!!!

Rainbow could tell the conversation was just about over, so she pulled out her phone and cracked open the door just enough to take a picture of the two in there secret meeting, once that was done she made her way out of the gym before she was caught. If those two knew she was on to them, they would have plenty of time to come up with plaubibal-plaugible-plaus......... Good excuses to get themselves out of trouble before she could prove there guilt.

Rainbow made her way through the school, back to the front of the building where the faculty rooms and principal offices where. As she walked it really started to hit home just how wrong she was, everything she'd done to Sunset up until now, she definitely didn't deserve that punch to the face! Sunset really wasn't anonamiss!!!. And as she thought more on it, the more she felt like shit. Some element of loyalty she was, she needed to tell Applejack what she'd found, but first the information was going to the only person Rainbow knew would always do the right thing!

She approached one of the door's (she could hear voices on the other side but couldn't tell what they where saying!) and firmly knocked three times. She heard the voices falter and go quiet before she heard the voice of the woman she wanted to speak with call from inside "you may enter!"

As Rainbow opened the door and stepped inside, she gave the office a once over and noticed the other occupants of the room. Microchips from the tech club, (she was pretty sure thats what his name was?) Then there was Cheerilee, don't let her name fool you, that lady can bee a real slave driver when she wants to be.

And there sitting behind her desk was the woman she'd came to see.
Rainbow closed the door and stepped forward, she looked principle Luna in the eyes as she brought her phone out of her pocket and held it up.

"Vise principle Luna, there's something you need to know!!!"

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Rarity was walking down the hallway next to Fluttershy, as the two neared there class they where stopped when two students in front of them busted out in a fight as they almost bowled the two girls over in there attempt to beat each other. As other students and clearly friends of the two brawlers pulled them apart before any serious damage could be done, Rarity dusted herself off where those two brutes had almost touched her.

Rarity quickly checked over Fluttershy to make sure she was fine as well before making her frustration clear. "What in heavens name was that all about?" She asked aloud as she looked around the hall at the other students who where still there.

One student stepped forward and spoke as the others moved on. Lighning Dust didn't look happy as she spoke, "they where fighting because Hoops thought Score was anonamiss and accused him of posting his secrets!"

Rarity and Fluttershy both looked at the athletic girl as if she'd grown a third eye, finally Rarity found her voice again and asked, "what are you talking about darling, Sunsets anonamiss, everyone knows this?"

Lightning had a really surprised look when Rarity said that and voiced her disbelief.

"You mean you haven't heard yet? Sunset was wheeled out of the school by paramedics covered in blood, and anonamiss posted when the paramedics where loading her into the ambulance! Sunsets not anonamiss"

Fluttershy and Rarity stood there frozen for a moment, before Lightning, having become bored with the conversation made her exit while the two girls where clearly overwhelmed into a state of silence. As the realization sunk in for the two, tears started to fall from there eyes as an unknown force started to pull at them somehow making them feel suddenly heavier. As they stood there still motionless in the hallway it was Fluttershy who said aloud what they both where thinking.

"What have we done?"

They were still silently standing there when the announcement speakers in the hall crackled to life with static and the voice of Vice principle Luna spoke, "Attention, all students and staff are to make there way too the gymnasium for an emergency school assembly, everyone is advised to make there way to the gym immediately, teachers bring your attendance sheets and do rollcall as soon as your class is seated in the gym, I will collect attendance sheets personally"

Having some idea now, as to what the assembly was about Fluttershy and Rarity slowly made there way down the hall to meet with there class.

Author's Note

What will be the fate of our fiery haired heroine? What's gonna happen at the assembly? Will Pinkie finally eat enough cupcakes? Find out radio listeners on the next exciting episode of Wild Matt Double Hat

Update(not a new chapter...yet)

Author's Note

Long time no see fellow bronies!!! :pinkiehappy:

Update(not a new chapter...yet)

I'm actually pretty surprised by alot of people, I wrote and posted this story on my phone as an alternative to the loaded handgun I had on my lap as I sat alone on my bed. I've been so alone and depressed my whole life with only one or two people who I thought maybe cared, sunset shimmer is one of the characters of the show that is very dear to me and helped me get through some bad times, and she helped me again when I wrote this story.
So I want to say ive never flamed anyone on fimfiction. I don't care how bad anyone's story is, be RESPECTFUL!!! Dont leave a comment just to tell someone how much you think thier story is garbage. I just wanted to write something heart wrenching, and if Hollywood can make a movie franchise about vampires that sparkle in the sun, then I can write a tragedy with accessive abuse and cruelty of one of my most beloved cartoon characters.

I know this story takes some stuff way too far at points but it's just how I think people would react to finally getting vengeance for YEARS of non stop pain suffering and bullying. I've had alot of flaming from people for the overkill of sunset abuse but I know first hand that just because YOU think you might not act a certain way doesn't mean the people around you or someone you know wouldn't, and there alot of people who jump on the band wagon with them even when they know that what they are doing is wrong.

Also this is NOT a redemption story, if someone treated you bad enough to the point of a suicide attempt, would you really want to go back?

Concerning the 1st or 3rd person fiasco!!! my mind kinda drifts between first and third person and I guess I accidentally wrote this that way so I'm sorry for confusing alot of people if I was a better writer I'd fix all the mistakes but I wrote this at a very dangerous moment in my life and it was enough to make me happy at the time so I won't go back and fix what alot of you have flamed me for, I'll just promise to do my best to keep things straight in the FUTURE CHAPTERS.

That's right this story is not dead!!! And it's only because of all the people who actually liked it and wrote good things to me and actually supported me and this story, I really appreciate the positive feedback and ideas you've given me it makes my days just a little brighter knowing there are people who can't wait to hear something from me, can't say I've ever felt it before but I like it, so those of you who are still interested in the story please continue to give feedback and ideas.
For my fellow bronies I shall continue the story. I'm still not sure when I'll have the next chapter out, but just know it's on its way. And if you read this update please leave a Pinkie pie in the comments so I can see who's still here thank you!!!