Huh? Why is it so dark? Can somepony turn on the lights? Ugh, why does my body hurt all over? Must’ve been one heck of a crash this time, huh? I guess I was being a little too reckless again. I guess it must be night time and everypony’s gone home. But wait, that doesn’t make sense, right? There would be nurses and doctors on night shift, right? I guess I’ll just wait until somepony comes by so I can tell them to tell me what the heck happened.
Wait… what was that? I can feel some sort of vibration. Is… is somepony there? Hello? Why can’t I speak? I can’t seem to make a sound. Hello? The vibrations got closer and closer. No, not just vibrations. They were hoofsteps. Why can’t I hear them? Did I hurt my hearing somehow? Oh sweet Celestia, your hoof is cold. The pony is touching my chest. I can feel it. I have to let them know that I’m awake! Hello! Hey! I know you’re there! I’m shaking my head! Can you see me? Hello?
Oh, she pulled her hoof away. What’s that? Is… is she leaving? No, please don’t leave. No! No!
I don’t know how long I had been sitting in silence before the pony returned, but I could feel more than a few hooves enter my room. One… Two… Seven? Seven ponies? No. One of them is too light to be a pony.
Suddenly a hoof traced a heart on my chest. Then… wait. Are they trying to talk with me? Are they writing to me on my chest? R. A. I. N. B. Rainbow Dash, that’s me! I nodded my head as much as I could and felt another heart traced on my chest. The next thing they asked me is if I could understand them, and I nodded yes. I felt multiple hooves on my body. Not just hooves. A claw as well. Could it be? Girls? Oh thank Celestia you’re here. Please! Please help me! I’m scared! I can’t talk. I can’t hear! I can’t even feel my hooves or wings! Take this bandage off my head so I can see you! Please!
“Oh, I can’t stand to see her like this.” Fluttershy sobbed, sitting down on the floor. The rest of the ponies and dragon looked over at their friend who lay in the cot. Barely recognizable. Once, a proud pony, now all of her limbs amputated.
“Now, I know you all really want to talk and spend time with her, but you have to understand that she has awoken for the first time in six months. I only let you in here because Princess Twilight directly ordered me to, but you can’t stay here. Right now she needs her rest so she can get better.” Nurse Redheart stated.
“Get better? Get BETTER?” Twilight shrieked. “She’s… She’s… It’s a miracle that she can even understand us.”
“Well, unfortunately, Princess, it’s up to her parents whether they want to keep her, or let her go peacefully. They’ve already expressed that they don’t want her to suffer any longer.”
“No! You can’t do that! She’s our friend. She’s gotta make it somehow!”
I don’t know what’s happening. I can feel a lot of stomping and my bed is shaking a bit. Are they arguing? Guys, please. Just get this bandage off of my head. Please… I want to see you guys. I tried to make my point by swinging my head as much as I could. The stomping and arguing seemed to stop. Suddenly, I felt another heart on my chest. They’re gonna explain what’s going on! Yes!
I- I’m blind? Deaf? My jaw was destroyed? M-my wings are gone? My hooves? I’m just a torso? No! No! This is a nightmare. Please... somepony save me. This can’t be happening. Please somepony help me!
I tried keeping track of the days at first, but it was hard. I eventually memorized the routines of the day shift and the night shift, so I could at least count the days that way. I’ve been awake for about ten weeks now give or take. Every once in a while, one of the girls comes in to visit me. It’s always nice to have them here, but over time they’ve been coming less and less frequently. Eventually, the only two that would visit me anymore were Twilight and Pinkie Pie. I can still smell, so I could tell that every time Pinkie visited, she brought me something sweet to eat. Too bad I’d never be able to taste her cooking again. I don’t have a tongue anymore after all.
Months turned into a year. One of the nurses traced ‘happy birthday’ today. Nopony else came to visit today.
“I’m sorry Princess, but we just can’t keep her in the hospital any longer. She’s taking up the space that we desperately need for other patients! I understand, but you either need to get her a full time nurse, or let her go.”
“No! I can’t. I won’t let her go until I figure out a way to make things right again. I’ll take her to the castle. She can stay there with me.”
“Princess, please! I beg you to reconsider. It’s not right! I wouldn’t want to live like that. Nopony should have to do this as long as she has.”
“My decision is final, miss Redheart.”
I’ve lost track of the years. I wish I could just fall asleep, but I can’t tell if I’m awake or dreaming anymore. If I had my voice, I could scream or at least be some kind of company for myself, but no… nopony is going to help me. If I only had my hooves I could kill myself. If I had my legs, I could run away. If I had wings I could fly far from here.
Somepony, Anypony? Can you hear me?
Help Me
Help Me
Help Me
Kill Me
Kill Me
Kill Me
Author's Note
Hope you enjoyed!
This was heavily inspired by the book/movie "Johnny Got His Gun," possibly the most horrifying thing I have ever read/seen in my life. If you enjoyed this, I urge you to check it out.
