I am Jude

{Rainbow Dash}

I had a feeling about what that burn on Jude's arm meant. It could possibly mean that the demon inside of Jude is starting to attack him. So I summoned Oliver, Ivy, Milo and Eli for a family meeting.

"I hate to be the bearer of bad news," I said, "but Jude's been injured."

"What!" Oliver, Ivy and Eli gasped.

"But how?" Oliver asked.

I shook my head. "I don't know, but from what I could see before Jude rolled over blocking it from my view, it's a 3rd degree burn that starts from his shoulder and goes down to his elbow. Jude insisted on not letting me see it. When I suggested he let me cast a sleeping spell on him to help him deal with the pain, he shouted 'no sleeping!' I have no idea where my children get this no sleeping idea from. Any ideas Oliver?"

"Hey don't look at me!" Oliver responded. "Besides, I'm not his real dad, the Machine is."

Ivy chuckled, "Actually, I think he does get it from you, Rainbow Dash."

I raised an eyebrow. "Huh?"

"Jude can be stubborn when he doesn't want to do something and when he does want to do something," Ivy said.

"I guess that makes sense," I said.

"What color was the burn mark Rainbow?" Eli said.

"I didn't get a chance to examine it more before he rolled and blocked it from my view," I said.

Eli put a hand underneath his chin. He looked like he was pondering how to get Jude to stay calm so we could look at the burn on his arm. "I see, well, we have to find some way to get him to let us see it."

"I have an idea," Ivy said, "it just might work because he's scared and not angry."

Eli inquired, "What happens when he gets angry?"

"Well, he's not violent, he doesn't even want me to touch him. His eyes turn red and it looks like he's a demon himself. That's usually when I take Leo to the other room attached to ours," Ivy explained. "When I come back the next day, our room looks like it's been ransacked by robbers and he sits there in tears. That's when I use my magic to help calm him down. Unless he doesn't want it he'll break out of it and just stay where he's at and cry himself to sleep sometimes."

"Oh," Eli said.

"So I'm going to assume if we get him to calm down, then maybe we can get a look at the burn on his arm?" I said.

"Hmmm, there is another idea that might work," Ivy suggested. She looked over at Eli and smiled.

Eli raised an eyebrow. "What?"

"I was thinking, since you hold Jude every night to make sure he doesn't sleep teleport," said Ivy, "that seems to help keep him calm along with his power surges."

"I um…" Eli's face turned red at that remark.

Milo chuckled, "Oh that's right, you did tell me about that Eli. Too bad you haven't gotten to sleep with you yet. I know how you are, you'll figure out a way to get him to say yes."

Eli composed himself, "Either way, we have to get him to let us see it. If we can't see it, we can't help him."

I nodded and I seriously hoped we could find a way to help him soon.

* * *

{Eli}

As we walked down the hallway, I couldn't help but think about how badly I wanted to help Jude.

"There's something else you should know about Jude," Ivy said.

I tilted my head. "What?"

"Jude doesn't like for people to see him injured, that's probably another reason why he won't let you look at the burn he has on his arm," Ivy said.

I groaned, "Great, and he can hear us coming too."

When we got closer to Jude's room, sure enough, Jude shouted, "I heard that Eli! He's not real and NO!"

"No what Jude?" I asked. I rolled my eyes because when we got to his room, I saw guards posted at his bedroom door. "Are the guards really necessary Rainbow?"

"What?" Rainbow Dash said defensively, "I didn't want anyone getting into his room that wasn't supposed to be there."

I did a facepalm, "You do realize he can teleport right? So I don't think the guards are needed, considering he could leave the room at a moment's notice and you wouldn't be able to stop him."

Rainbow Dash disagreed. "I doubt he's going to teleport anywhere when he's injured."

"Okay, I see your point," I said.

Rainbow Dash dismissed the guards and once they were gone, I hesitated to go into the room. "Okay guys, this is a very delicate situation, Ivy. I think you should go in first."

"NO!" I heard Jude shout.

Ivy entered the room leaving the door slightly. "Jude, dear, shhh."

I waited for Jude to scream again, but it didn't happen.

"It's okay, you guys can come in now," Ivy said.

I entered the room to see that Jude had backed himself into a corner. He was sitting there, motionless. "So that's your magic huh?"

Ivy smiled and nodded. "From what I'm sensing he's not scared or angry, he's just in a state of denial. And of course, in pain from his injury. I'm not sure how long my magic will hold."

"Oh I have an idea." Rainbow Dash said quickly. She said it so quickly that it startled me.

"Okay, what is it?" I said.

"I can cast the sleeping spell now that he's under Ivy's magic," Rainbow Dash said.

"But I thought it only works on Color Rain," I said.

Rainbow Dash shook her head. "It works on anypony, I just reserve it for when I need to get Color Rain to take a nap."

"Huh, interesting." I said.

Then we heard Color Rain's squeals of delight as she was playing her daily game on teleportation hide and go seek.

Uncle Eli- Color Rain thought.

"No Color Rain," I said, "I can't play today."

Why not? Color Rain thought.

"Because I'm helping Jude out, because he's injured." I answered.

"I can't play either," Oliver said.

"Listen Color Rain," Rainbow Dash explained, "me, your father, Eli and Ivy can't play today, we're helping Jude out with his injury, okay?"

Wow, it must be if everyone's helping. Can I help? Color Rain thought.

"No Color Rain, you're too young to fully understand what's going on," Oliver said.

Okay then, I'll just play with Flurry Heart and Gilda for now. Color Rain thought.

Right on cue we heard Flurry Heart shout, "Color Rain! Seriously, get back here!"

We laughed when we heard Gilda shout, "And Rainbow Dash just had to become the Alicorn!"

Rainbow Dash cleared her throat, "Okay, the sooner we look at that burn on Jude's arm the better."

Rainbow Dash's horn lit up and Jude was sound asleep within minutes. Once Jude was asleep, we got a look at the burn on Jude's arm. I gasped when I saw it. I knew exactly what it meant Logan was starting to attack Jude. I'm not going to let Logan take Jude away from me.

* * *

{Jude}

I woke to myself shouting the word 'no'. I looked around to see I was in my bedroom. I knew the sleeping spell had been cast on me, shortly after I let Ivy put me under her magic. That meant they looked at the burn on my arm. I still don't believe that there's a demon god named Logan inside of me. That burn could've come from my out of control magic for all I know.

When I heard the door open, I looked over to see Ivy carrying a tray with three cups on it. The cups were full of the same drink, I have no idea what drink it was.

"How are you feeling?" Ivy asked.

"I'm fine," I said, "and no there's no demon god inside of me called Logan. My burn is caused by my out of control magic."

Ivy raised an eyebrow. "Sure Jude, whatever you say. I can sense by my magic you're in a state of denial. It doesn't matter, this medicine Zecora made for you."

I gagged when I looked at cups, "Yuck! I hate medicine!"

Ivy chuckled, "I know, Zecora altered it a little for the taste. So hopefully, it won't taste so bad."

I sighed and when I went to go grab one of the cups I paused because I remembered my training with Oliver. "What time is it?"

"It's 1:30 PM." Ivy answered.

I panicked, "God damn it! I'm late for-"

"Oh no you don't," said Ivy, blocking me from getting up from the bed and running out the door, "Rainbow Dash gave me strict instructions to make sure you don't get out of bed for the week. Zecora helped her figure out a way to help keep you from sleep teleporting. It seems to work for Oliver, so hopefully, it will help you. Still don't know what we can do about your flashbacks. Oliver's canceled your training for the week as well. Eli's coming over later tonight to make sure you stay put while I get some sleep."

I felt relief that was being taken care of. I didn't like the idea that I would be stuck in my room all week. At least with Ivy and Eli providing me company, it wouldn't be so bad.

* * *

The next night, I woke up shrieking because of the pain from the burn on my left arm. I looked over to see Ivy frowning, "Are you okay Jude?"

I grabbed my left arm and grunted because of the pain. "I'm fine, don't worry about me okay?"

Ivy rolled her eyes, "You know, you're not a very good liar. Would you at least let me-"

I didn't even let her finish her sentence when I grabbed my arm and shrieked, "NO!"

"Okay, calm down," said Ivy, "I'm not going to touch it. Just take a couple of slow deep breaths."

I calmed myself down and then Eli entered the room. When he saw me he gave me a look of concern. "What's wrong Jude?"

The pain from the burn on my arm was starting to get intense, even so I lied through the tears, "Nothing's wrong I'm fine, really I am."

Eli came over and sat down on the bed. "Jude can I-"

I panicked and shrieked, "NO!"

I don't know why I have such a problem with people helping me out. I suspect it has a lot to do with how I was treated back at AI. Every time the Mothers of the Mainframe looked at my injuries from the Feeding Rituals while they showed sympathy for me, they also used this as a way to show contempt for me. It always made me feel small like I was a child.

The funny thing is, when I got together with Ivy, she seemed to know me better than I know myself. She helped deal with those feelings I had, even though the feelings still linger. Because of this, she seems to be overprotective of me just like Oliver is with Rainbow Dash. I know she just wants what's best for me, but it's still difficult.

Eli sighed, "Oh Jude, I just want to help. If you would just let me-"

"NO!" I panicked. At that moment I didn't understand why Eli wouldn't get the hint and back off. I just want people to leave me alone. I rolled over on my side blocking him from seeing the burn. "NO I DON'T WANT HELP! I DON'T WANT PITY! I'M NOT A CHILD!"

Eli sighed, "Is that what this about Jude? You know we just want to help you, right?"

I grit my teeth. "I DON'T CARE!"

Eli and Ivy exchanged a look.

"Ivy, can I talk to you for a moment?" Eli asked.

The pain from the burn got so intense, that I finally passed out and went to sleep.

* * *

{Eli}

My heart broke for Jude when he passed out. "There's got to be something we can do to help him."

"Listen Eli," said Ivy, "I should probably give you more history on what happened to Jude back at AI."

"What is it?" I asked.

Ivy sighed, "Back at AI, the Mothers of the Mainframe, looked down on Jude. Even though they showed sympathy to Jude because of his injuries from the Feeding Rituals, they also took that opportunity to show their contempt for him. Their official title for him was, The Boy Lord Jude. First Mother was the one that started the nickname in the first place. She really hated the fact that Rainbow Dash gave birth to him and not her.

"I blame the Mothers for the way Jude is now. Because of them, Jude doesn't want anyone to help him. Although I'm glad the Machine is gone, to Jude it's like it was never shut down. While you and I have moved on, Jude seems to be stuck back in the past."

Upon hearing that, my heart broke even more for Jude. When I finally composed myself, I wiped away the tears, "No wonder why he doesn't want anyone to help him. Is there any way we can show him that we don't think of him that way?"

Ivy frowned, "I don't know." It looked like she was thinking about the issue as hard as I was at the moment. "I think the only way we can help is to keep his pain down without him knowing it. We can also keep his mind off the whole Logan ordeal, that might help him out. Only problem is, helping him out with his pain is one thing, keeping his mind off the whole Logan ordeal is another."

I sighed, "Good point, he can hear our thoughts. That's going to be hard to do."

"At least he can't teleport with the medicine Zecora's giving him. We don't give it to him during the day because he wants to be awake. I can understand that, just because you're injured doesn't mean sleeping all the time is going to work. Speaking of staying awake, you look like you're not getting enough sleep Eli," Ivy said.

When it comes down to helping Jude out, I could care less if I get any sleep or not. "I can't help it. I'm just worried about Jude at the moment."

Ivy smiled. "I know you want to help Jude, but you need to help yourself first. You can't help Jude if you're not sleeping that much. If it makes you feel any better, you can lay down beside him and hold him that way. I can cast the sleeping spell on you so you can sleep. Don't worry, I'll take care of him tonight while you sleep, okay?"

Ivy's suggestion seemed like a good idea. So I took my shoes off and got into bed beside Jude. Ivy cast the sleeping spell on me and I was asleep within minutes.

* * *

{Jude}

I woke up to hearing Milo's thoughts. That's just like Eli. He always wants to help those closest to him. It's about time he got some sleep.

I looked over to see Eli sleeping soundly next to me with his arm over my waist as if trying to protect me in his sleep. "I guess I missed breakfast didn't I?"

"Oh no, you didn't," said Milo, he pointed to a tray of foodon my bedside table, "Eli got up just in time to lower the moon. He ate breakfast and then came back here to go back to sleep. I must say, you two look adorable sleeping next to each other like this."

I raised an eyebrow. "Don't you want him to sleep in your guy's room?"

Milo shook his head. "Nah, it's okay. Eli and I have an open relationship, if we didn't we wouldn't be wanting you in our bed so badly."

"Oh, okay," I said, "but I'm not sleeping with him or you anytime soon."

Milo laughed, "Yeah we know that, it's too bad I haven't gotten a chance to make out with you yet."

I blushed and looked away.

Milo chuckled, "Don't worry, I'm going to do anything you don't want to. I do agree with Eli, it has to be your choice."

I looked at Milo to see he was giving me the googly eyes. Without warning, he reached over and kissed me. I quickly pushed him away. "That's good enough for me Jude. You rest and get better. See you around."

After Milo left, I heard Eli laughing. "I was wondering when he was going to try something like that."

"That's no funny Eli." I said.

Eli had a mischievous smile on his face. Then I heard his thoughts. I want to do this spell on him. It works for Milo when I'm not in the mood, and that's after he's had sex someone else on top of that. His sex drive so high it's hard for me to handle.

"Seriously Eli!" I said, "I did not need to know how high Milo's sex drive is."

Eli chuckled, "Yeah, I haven't tortured you in a while, because of being so worried about you."

Eli pulled me into his arms and held me tightly. He put a hand on my hip and I found that I was unable to move. Shortly after that, I felt myself getting a hard-on. I thought, I think Eli's lost his mind from not sleeping enough.

"Shhh," Eli whispered into my ear, "just a couple of seconds okay?"

I waited for what seemed like forever. When Eli finally released the spell, I screamed in pleasure. Wait, what just happened?

Eli laughed, "In case you're wondering what I did, it's a spell I developed that I like to call the 'Orgasm Spell', Ivy told me sex helps keep you calm. Since you don't want to have sex with me yet, I figured this is the next best thing."

"You mean to tell me that I orgasmed with that spell?" I said.

"Yup, that's exactly what happened and you look very calm now," Eli replied.

"O...Kay," I said stunned by what just happened, "I'm going to go change and eat breakfast."

Eli stretched and yawned, "Sure, I'm going back to sleep."

I got changed and ate breakfast. When I laid back down, it was as if Eli sensed I laid down because he rolled over and held me in his arms while he slept. Eventually, I went back to sleep too.

* * *

{Rainbow Dash}

Oliver and I were standing at the edge of Ghastly Gorge where we decided our battle would be.

For some reason, Oliver seemed either scared or nervous. I wasn't sure which one. "Are you sure about this Rainbow?"

"What's the matter Oliver?" I taunted. "Are you chicken?"

"No, I'm not a chicken-" Oliver said.

"If you say it because you're concerned, please Oliver, " I said, "I'm the ruler of Equestria now. I don't think Princess Celestia and Princess Luna would let a baby take the throne. Or, are you afraid that if you lose it'll damage your big ego!"

"Excuse me?" Oliver growled.

I smiled as I continued taunting Oliver, "You heard me! Big ego! Besides we're not at the Sixth anymore, so you can fight me with your weapon. Or are you scared you can't keep up with an Alicorn?"

I looked behind me when I heard Gilda chuckling, "Now this is going to be interesting! I wonder if someone is finally going to outdo Princess Rainbow Dash? If anyone can do it, it should be her husband."

"Honestly Gilda, we're friends, you don't have to call me princess. It's just Rainbow Dash okay?" I said.

Gilda nodded. "Sure Rainbow. Anyway, husband vs wife, duking it out to boost their egos! Who will win?"

"Hey! I don't have an ego!" Oliver and I protested at the same time.

Gilda laughed, "Yeah right!"

I smiled. "Too bad Eli isn't here, so I can fight him on my day off. That way I can chomp down on his attack and declare myself Rainbow Dash! Oh well, instead I'll just have to chomp down on one of your attacks hubby!"

Oliver rolled his eyes. I heard Color Rain's thoughts asking me to play with her today.

No Color Rain, I thought, I can't play today. I'm busy.

That makes two of us. Oliver thought.

"Nope," said Gilda, "I'm not playing today either."

Okay fine, some other time then, Color Rain thought, I'll just play with Rarity and big sissy Ivy today. Uncle Eli is helping big brother Jude out. And Uncle Milo hardly ever wants to play. He's always busy, oh well.

Once again, every time I hear who Color Rain is playing with on her daily game of teleportation hide and go seek, I laughed because whoever is shouting it's always the same thing but a little bit different depending on who's shouting.

Oliver, Gilda and I laughed when we heard Rarity shouting, "Color Rain honestly, darling, get back here!"

"Can't you do something that normal babies do? Like I don't know, take a nap?" Ivy pleaded.

As Rarity and Ivy's shouts faded into the distance I thought, Well, at least Leo's growing up like a normal baby. If he wasn't he'd be a teenager by now and approaching adulthood by the end of the year.

I agree with you on that Rainbow! Oliver thought.

"So, are you guys going to fight or what?" Gilda asked.

"Sure!" Oliver said, with a determined fighting stance. "Let's do this!"

At the end of the fight I was surprised that Oliver and I were evenly matched, it came out as a tie. As we sat on the ground trying to catch our breaths Oliver said, "There's no way we're ending this on a tie! I want a rematch!"

"Fine by me!" I said.

We did another battle and this time I was shocked and happy that Oliver beat me. I was happy someone finally beat me at something. I tackled Oliver and kissed him. "It's about time someone beat me at something!"

Gilda's jaw dropped. "Wow, somepony happy that somepony beat them at something! You don't see that everyday!"

As Oliver and I got a good laugh at Gilda's reaction, I got a mischievous idea.

Hey Oliver, I thought, since Gilda's still here, why don't we have a little fun with her?

Oliver smiled and thought, Okay, what do you have in mind?

I say why don't we make her as uncomfortable as possible, I thought, let's get lost in each other's eyes and take it from there.

Oliver snorted and thought, Okay, this is going to be fun.

Oliver and I stared at each other as hard as we possibly could. That was all it took to make Gilda uncomfortable. "Okay, yeah I'm out of here. You two really should find a room."

Oliver and I couldn't stop laughing as Gilda flew off as fast as she possibly could. Making Gilda as uncomfortable as possible is always priceless because of the look on her face.