Author's Note
A sweet little reverse ASMR fic for you guys, like the others I do plan to do an audio adaptation of it.
Fluttershy is hands down my favourite character so I'd say this is easily my favourite I've made so far, just such a relaxing setting and it came out really relatable.
Please Enjoy!
Tables Turned
1:21
1:22
1:23
As you sit and watch the numbers change on your digital clock, your frustration at your awake and yet paradoxically exhausted brain increase as sleep strays further and further away from you. Damn insomnia. It was something you've had all your life but recently it was becoming a major issue. Initially you think that it won't be a problem as you close your eyes, to take joy from the simple pleasure of having your mind completely shut off from the world, ready to be full of beans and raring to tackle the morning ahead. That's when the minutes start to tick by, about 10 or 15 to be exact before you realise that you aren't asleep, in fact you aren't even tired and you realise that all this time you've been forcing your eyes closed. Some nights you would toss and turn, searching for that sweet spot for your brain to go "enough! Sleep now", but you can never find it until you wake up the next morning realising, you only got about 2 hours sleep in said position. But the worst nights are when you just lie there, still, as if in purgatory, eyes wide open as your clock continues to pass the minutes by as you stare at it, deafening you with its monotonous rhythmic ticking that should be enough to put you to sleep, if you weren't so wide awake.
Not helping matters is the storm outside. The rain could be relaxing if you were in an especially tired mindset, but on sleepless nights like these, it's nothing but a nuisance. You look out towards the window, completely obscured by the dark though you could see the outlines of little droplets trickling down the windowsill, ending in a small puddle at the bottom. This eventually becomes completely obscured by the vapour misting the window, and you are left once more with nothing to direct your open wide eyes towards.
The brain buzz continues to keep your eyes open. Part of you thinks about turning the lights on and reading a book to help relax you. Options included a bevy of ones Twilight gave you, before realising that you have already read all of those during previous occasions of restlessness. However there was that one book Fluttershy gave you on animals you haven't read yet, maybe that would be an option. Fluttershy. Just the thought of that name already developed a fog of happy, relaxing thoughts in your brain. There was just something about her, as much of a cliché it sounds, but not even all the wonderful traits that you could name just off the top of your head, it was just her. Her aura, her presence, just her being in the same room as her is enough to increase your heart beat and make you feel a warm sensation inside. As these delightful thoughts caress your brain, you feel your extremities lower themselves against the covers, no conscious instructions necessary... a blink... another blink.
There is still hope, its only 1:30 in the morning. You can get a half-decent 7 and a half hours sleep before you have to get up for work. Such desperation to not spend your working day a sleep-deprived zombie will surely be enough to get you to sleep. You rustle in your covers, pulling your crumpled sheets back over your end of the mattress. You fluff your pillow, making a neatly woven place for your head and the pillow to do the rest as it consumes you with its blissful fluff.
...
Yes! That was a blink, now is the moment as you lay your head down, getting one last glimpse of the world. But just when you are about to close your eyes... you hear the turning of the nob and the very slow squeak of your door moving inwards towards your room. You feel like swearing every demeaning profanity at this newcomer that has just ruined your finale chance at a good sleep. You are about to give them a piece of their mind. Until a singular yellow hoof is placed in front of the door and you can hear a slight tremble as Fluttershy moves her head around the door, the bottom of her teal eyes barely visible as she peers round to reach your gaze as the red mist swelling inside of you fades into an aura of confusion and concern. You smile warmly towards her as she opens her adorable little mouth to speak.
"Oh sorry" she says quietly, as if to salvage some of the quiet in the room so that you can return to sleep, only to realise just how fully awake you are
"I hope I didn't wake you. I know how difficult and rare it is for you to get a good sleep, I sincerely hope I didn't interrupt one of those."
You can't help smiling at her. Though her timid nature hindered her confidence, it made her a very considerate and sensitive pony. For all her flaws, there were traits that gravitate you towards her. Your smile fades however when she starts to speak once more with a slight tremble.
"I... I just came in because..." She seems to struggle to get the words out "I... I trust you and... I thought the only way I could feel better was if I came to you. Something about you, you just being there, I thought it would be enough to make me feel better"
Your smile grows broader as her face lights up slightly as she continues
"You probably want to know why I'm here" she continues sheepishly, turning her face away slightly "You see... I... had a nightmare"
Your face quickly falls to deep concern, as your heart twists in your chest as you stare at your dear friend. No wonder she seems so upset. Every part of your human instinct tells you to reach your arms out towards her and hold her close. You even feel droplets forming in your eyes, before suddenly realising that she was the one who was upset. Its not about you anymore. You don't care about falling asleep, instead, its about being there for your friend. And not just any friend, but one that's connection with you is firm and true. A friend whose kind personality and natural beauty only make you care for her as equally as you know she cares for you. Here she is, silent and scared, but also the radiant Fluttershy that was so very much worth protecting.
"I tried going back to sleep but I was just too scared" she then blushes ever so slightly "Could I, possibly, you know, stay with you, at least for a little bit then I promise I'll go back to sleep"
You nod, she could stay for the entire night as far as you were concerned, anything to make her feel better
You motion for her to come towards Fluttershy climbs in with you, her pink and yellow appearance adding a splash of colour to your boring white covers. You hold an arm up as she "scooches" closer towards you, and then lower it tentatively before softly making contact with her soft yet delicate touch. You feel her silky pink mane slide down against your sides as she leans her against it and shyly wraps a hoof around your ribs, before a stifled, nervous sigh leaves her breath.
"Th... thank you, I really really needed this" she says quietly, glancing her eyes to the door, almost as if she is checking to see the nightmares aren't following her.
The sadness and worry you feel inside towards your friend is simply palpable. Whatever the dream was, it scared her good. You can confidently say you have never seen Fluttershy, such a timid and fragile soul as it is, in such a state. You feel helpless, as all you can do is hold her in your arms. Your mind tells yourself to ask if talking about the dream will help but decide against it in fear of bringing up harmful memories of the clearly unpleasant dream. She came to you so you could chase the nightmares away, not bring them up again. However, talking about them and getting a sense of perspective for them would help you be able to comfort her more, telling her that there's no such thing as the monstrous imaginary figment her dream came up with. Plus, it would give her a sense of perspective, a realisation that dreams are in no way real to the point where she would consider herself silly for even thinking that dreams are real.
She could never be silly, not to you, except for the fact that she trusts you of all people.
"You..."
You stir at her speaking once more
"You are probably the only one I can talk to about this, I trust you"
You wonder for a split second if she had just read your thoughts. You conclude that it was just coincidental however you wouldn't be so surprised if she did read your mind. Over the time you have known her, you have gained an almost telepathic connection with her. She knows how much you need to hear that she trusts you just as much as you know that what she needs is someone to listen to her, but also give her a push so she will have the strength to be more confident, especially when it came to talking about emotions. Its moments like these that you realise the true extent of you and hers very strong bond despite the fact you have known each other for a brief amount of time.
You hear Fluttershy inhale deeply as if she was about to speak out her biggest and darkest secret.
"Well... I should probably tell you about the dream. It went like this... I was playing with Angel, you remember my little bunny? At first I thought it was a good dream, everything was so bright and vibrant and sunny and we were playing in the springtime flowers." she smiled dully before her face fell to a sure frown once more "But then dark clouds gathered above us, and Angel started running. I couldnt stop her before she reached the Everfree Forest"
"I called out for Angel but I couldnt find him anywhere... thats when I turned and saw two very big bunnies behind me, only two at first but then there were multiple and they began surrounding me..."
She starts to shudder as her voice begins to break
"They started calling me a murderer as the thunder got louder and louder... and that's when the dream ended. I woke up in a hot sweat... and... and"
She begins crying, quietly but with uncontainable despair. Burying her face into your chest as you quickly held her in one hand and went to stroke her mane in the other, looking for any way to comfort her. You have to check that she can breathe properly as you squeeze her close to you, never wanting to let go of the sobbing mare. You cannot stand seeing her like this. You will not stand to see her like this. You will be the knight in shining armour she deserves, chasing away the nightmares so she can sleep and return to her happy, caring self. This mare. It hurts to think about how much you love her... yes love her. You care too much about her to not feel this way. She moves her head to over your shoulder and wraps a tight hoof around your neck, your tears flowing freely almost as much as Fluttershy's as you start to hear her breathing heavy stifled breaths, drawn with anxiety and fear. This goes on for a good minute or two...
Then her breathing slows. So consumed by the adrenaline of care, you don't fully feel the overwhelming warmth of Fluttershy's fur pressed against you during the embrace. Part of you feels it is necessary to let go and have some space to breathe. You do not want to let go, not until you are sure she is alright. Until you feel Fluttershy's mane brush over your shoulder and against your ear as her head recedes and centres itself to meet your gaze, her eyelashes glistening with the moisture of her tears. But through all of this you can see, faintly but very clearly, a sweet smile spread across her lips. The more she stares into you threatens for more tears to emit.
"I'm..." No don't you dare say what you are about to say "I'm sorry"
You once again press her towards you, your chest cushioning the sheer force of your arms thrusting her head closer towards you. What could she be sorry for?
"I just woke you up in the middle of the night, just so I could come to you for pity like the scared filly that I feel like I still am sometimes" Fluttershy says once more, breathing steadying.
You cannot believe what you are hearing. You have seen the progress she has made from being that scared filly she once was, to a capable and caring friend. Admittedly though, this isn't the first time something like this has happened, in fact the both of you have had countless nights of consoling, trying to get over horrible nightmare after nightmare.
But you don't care. There is nothing and not just nightmares but in this world, you think that is worth causing Fluttershy harm. No matter how silly the thing she is worrying about might be, you will help her through it. Yes she has grown more and more capable as time has gone on to the point where she needs your help less and less, doesn't mean you wont give it to her when the poor mare does need help. Of course you don't want to coddle her, but you don't need to, because she always gets through it, and out from the debris of whatever obstacle she faces, she always comes out the wonderful Fluttershy she always is and always will be.
As the both of you lay there, you subconsciously find yourself forgetting your own problems about falling asleep, thoughts instead focused on the now, shuddering less and less, pink and yellow mare in your arms. You don't realise it, but you feel exhausted. Though you would do it any day of the week, feeling sorry for another is draining. All the adrenaline of pity, your own tears developing at the sight of another's', its enough to knock a person out. Eventually realising this, you begin to relax as Fluttershy releases herself from you, sniffing quietly.
"You really do care don't you?" she asks softly, before giggling at the sight of your facial expression "You're doing that cute thinking face you do. What are you thinking about?"
But she doesn't get an answer from you as you just lay there, eyes wide open, for really you aren't thinking. Instead you are feeling the aura of warmth within the room, having just had a heart to heart with Fluttershy.
"I... I love you" a quiet voice is heard beside you, immediately you blush hot pink, a rush of warmth comes to her cheeks as well "Its true. And just you and me alone here reminded me of why. Your heart is pure, and I truly believe you care for me. And d'you want to know the amazing thing? You don't even do anything. From just you being there I can tell just how much I mean to you and how badly you want to chase away those horrible nightmares. You are my hero."
You turn away with a modest look on your face. Honestly, to you, caring for another is simply too important to overlook. Its a common courtesy, to show one how much they mean to you before your time together runs out. To care for another, is something everyone should strive to do each and every day of their existence. What you just did for Fluttershy, feels like common sense. Furthermore, you didn't even need to think about said emotions, they just came naturally. Maybe they wouldn't come so easily if you were comforting anyone else, Fluttershy had that effect of evoking empathy from others, but you still needed to feel them. A part of your brain still needed to clock that Fluttershy was upset and she needed someone, anyone to be there for her. You did what you had to do, and in some way, it helped you with your problems as well.
"Hey" The cute soft voice once again chirps up, tugging you gently by the shoulder "I'm feeling a lot better now but..." she yawns and giggles afterwards "I'm a bit too tired to get back to my own bed. So I was wondering if maybe to fix my predicament... I could... well..." she shuffles closer to you and wraps her hoof on your midsection "...stay with you tonight, plus I really don't want to be alone, and you are pretty comfy to snuggle"
Your only response is a sweet smile. She lifts herself upwards as you shuffle around in the covers trying to make yourself comfortable, lowering your body so it is lying flatly on the bed with the pillow propped downwards tilted ever so slightly by the rest on your end of the bed. Fluttershy meanwhile lies on her side next to you, propping a hoof up on her head as she stares at you lovingly.
"You comforted me, I think its time I return the favour" she then frowns in a pondering expression "I know positive affirmations, if its for you then it should be easy. Now just relax"
You exhale a sigh and purposefully close your eyes to relax to Fluttershy's soothing voice as you hear the light get turned off as Fluttershy leans ever so closely to your ear.
"Words cannot describe how wonderful I think you are, but I figure you would like me to try. Honestly, if you ever think that you are not a nice person or someone worthy of a pony like me, then remember what you just did for me tonight. Your kindness knows no bounds and your always optimistic persona is enough to keep even the most depressed pony in a mindset that life is worth living. Because without you around, I cannot imagine what life would be like. You are also brave, funny and so so caring, I don't know anybody else like you, you are one of a kind and you embrace your individuality as someone who just loves being himself. And do not think that this goes unrecognised. I've had many conversations about you with the girls and others, every single one of them agrees that their lives have become so much better since you entered them. I can happily say I am one of those ponies with an insight to that amazing brain of yours. I feel like I have such a special connection with you, and I would never give that up for anything in the world. We can read each other like books, I feel like I know exactly what you are thinking and vice versa. I don't think I'll share that kind of bond with anyone else except for you. You are special, to me and to others. And even if you have to be told it a million times over because lets be honest, you do doubt yourself a lot, I am still more than willing to tell it. Because when you love someone as much as I love you, you will do anything to see them smile."
You faintly hear her wipe away tears before leaning towards you and brushing her lips against your cheek as you are sent into a blissful shiver, as your consciousness starts to fade
"I love you, and I will always love you, no matter what happens. I will never forget what you did for me tonight. Goodnight, my love"
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Author's Note
A wholesome extra chapter recounting the morning after you comfort Fluttershy, something I thought I'd do in celebration of the Audio Reading of this fic reaching 9K views!!
Extra - Morning Glow
8:25
8:26
Okay, that clock really needs fixing! You think to yourself as your eyes begin to blink away the blissful fuzziness that consumed your brain for what felt like forever. You know it couldn't have been too long, as the part of your brain that is awake and thinking analyses the rest of your brain, calculating which braincells were just heaps of lifeless mush in contrast to those fully charged and energised with a pre-caffeine buzz. You are not a particularly energetic person, however you always show determination to get through each challenging day of work whether its a day you are living or simply existing. As you lie there, eyes gradually opening wider, you conclude that you do not have sufficient energy to get you through the day un-reluctantly.
You decide quickly to get up before your brain succumbs to the warmth of the bed. As you do so, you realise something different about it. It is the same bed, but after you lift the covers off of you, you realise that the warmth still hasn't left you as the coldness of the outside world melts away as you stretch yourself out. You place your feet against the soft yet cold carpet and still the warmth inside refuses to let go. Its a crippling feeling yet you feel alive. You place your hand back against the bed and you swear you can feel your hand burn.
A groan is heard and a hoof suddenly slides into your vision as you move yourself back with a start. Something is in the bed. You go back to look and see a lovely shade of yellow, its softness unmatched as you lean down to feel it. A smile creeps onto your lips as your hand moves towards the covers. With a slow and tentative motion, you pull the covers further down the bed to reveal a sleeping Fluttershy, silently snoring, her bed head sending signals to your eyes to brim with tears and your heartbeat to increase. As you relax into the wholesome sight before you, a longing to climb back into bed washes over you.
Alas, the day ahead calls.
One dilemma remains however... what to do with Fluttershy? You know that she has her animal duty that she is busy with all day. After her unpleasant experience the previous night, she must be exhausted on top of the previous days of caring and not just for the animals. So much dedication almost certainly leads to exhaustion physically and mentally, and with the knowledge her sub-conscious entertains illusions of her failing, you cannot imagine the stress she puts herself under. She has such a commitment towards caring for others, so how long has it been since shes taken some time for herself?
As far as you are concerned, she waits no more. You will do all her animal duties for her and do it without complaint.
Until you hear the shuffling of bedsheets and sleepy groans of a sleeping beauty awaking from her deep slumber. You'd never known Fluttershy to sleep so deeply, especially considering your tendency to wiggle.
This segways into another conclusion that you reach. Fluttershy, just spent the night with you. Not in the sense she was just in the same building... but the same bed as well. An awkward yet relaxed feeling washes over you as memories of her soft hoof wrapped around you come to mind. It was... strange, there was certainly no denying that, but it was amazing at the same time. To hell with her being a horse, if you enjoyed it, you enjoyed it, you cant help it. Of course you couldn't do this with a horse from your world, but things are different here. If anything, the stereotypes are vice versa. What would ponies think of Fluttershy? What would her reputation be like? What would... you smartly decide you dont want to think about what Discord would think, for a large part of you preferred to remain in the world of the sane.
Your brain returns to focus as the sleeping beauty lifts her head, strands of her bed head dangle in front of her eyes as she sits herself up, to which she gently blows away. A high pitched squeak of a yawn is heard as you try to not let your eyes grow too wide at the adorable sight. You shift slightly uncomfortably, as her tired eyes start to focus on you.
She lifts her hoof to her mouth, before gently raising down to beside her.
"G-good morning" she says shyly. She removes the covers from over her waste with a dainty haste and supports herself as her hind legs tread the soft floor.
"My, you have a very soft carpet" she says trying to make conversation. You wonder briefly if she is trying to avoid conversing about the previous night. She then gasps as she stares downwards, blushing as she wraps her hoof around herself to hide her non-existent shame. She plods down onto all four hooves and trots daintily towards you, still shy as ever.
"I think you should know" she says with a slightly forced smile, trying to hide her obvious worry "I slept very well last night. In fact..."
Her eyes flutter as her cheeks pinken. She seemingly lets her guard down as she lets a long, satisfied sigh escape her
"I havent slept that well in... well... forever!" she speaks out slightly louder than she thought she should've. Her hind legs retreat further from you.
"I'm sorry."
Why?
"Boundaries. But I just didn't see a reason other than telling you how I feel." Confidence is added to her tone as she looks down further considering her words "You may not agree with what I'm saying, but that doesn't mean I wont say it."
You cock a brow in confusion.
"Look, its not like I was concussed or anything" she says, as you spot the faint sight of her chest vibrating with her heart beat "I remember everything about last night."
You feel sick! Did you say too much last night? Was it overwhelming for her to take in... wait a minute she literally said she slept well so you cant have done anything bad. Sweet Celestia, love does things to one's anxiety!
"I remember you sitting there listening to me and comforting me when I was..." she cuts off, thoughts of the dream still slightly plagued on her mind. But then she looks at your face, and the smile that had slyly crept onto your lips "I remember how sweet you were, how safe I felt around you and yet so vulnerable at the same time"
A giggle then escapes as your smile seemingly turns into what you felt was an idiotic gaze. Its not your fault shes so darn cute!
"You may not realise it hun" The unexpected pet name sends a jolt of happy adrenaline through your veins, similar to how a dog would wag it's tail when being told they are well behaved. "But I felt feelings last night that I've never felt with any other pony or being".
Initially, only one thought rises to the centre of your brain. No. You dont believe her. You cant believe that she feels like this towards you. Whilst your heart is saying one thing, one very powerful thing that you cant quite put into words, your brain is refusing to let you find out what it means.
Fluttershy sighs knowingly "You cant hide youre overthinking face from me." she pulls your head closer to her eye level as her teal pearls searches your face. They are looking for an entrance to your soul, when they have already found it.
"I get it. It is scary." she continues "If you asked me 10 years ago what I felt, I'd retreat into a shell and be too scared to process what I thought. But I'm not that pony anymore, and a big part of that is because of you."
You go to open your mouth to ask how, but she senses this and rushes to stand up on her hind legs and put a hoof in front of her face. Your mouth squirming to try and talk makes her giggle.
"Your gonna get saliva on my hoof" she laughs with a sternness "Look you don't even know what I'm gonna say"
But you could sure as Tartarus guess.
"Why can't you just accept the fact that I'm more at ease with who I am because of you? Ever since I met you, I've looked in the mirror every morning and saw somepony, beautiful and who didn't have to be afraid about every little thing. I may have had experiences that taught me how to best improve myself, but I could never believe it was helping."
You recall her telling you of her past experiences with her friends. All those life lessons she underwent, all the amazing, selfless things that shes done, and yet she has never noticed how much it has changed her for the better until now. How she has never truly been seeing just how incredible she is. All of a sudden you come along, now, shes confident enough to confess to someone who as far as you are concerned, barely made a difference.
"Stop! I know Mr Brain in there is thinking "How can that be true?" but let me tell you something mister"
Okay... it is official. Fluttershy is psychic!
"Nothing needs to be explained, you just do make me feel better about myself. I said this last night remember?"
Huh, maybe last night wasn't the sleep deprivation talking
"You are you. Of course not everybody is going to accept that and that does make you feel like you are worth. But I dont only accept you, I love every part of you even your flaws. I meant everything I said last night. It wasn't that last night changed my mind of you, it just reminded me of everything there is to love about you. How safe I feel around you, how I can only picture myself loving you, LOVING YOU! Okay? I love you!"
That... was a lot to process. Her eyes slightly welled with tears as all the emotion came seeping out. The passing of a soul to you, which you metaphorically wrap your fingers around. Its power yet fragility swarmed your brain with "what if" and "I can't". There was no doubt that you loved her too but there was still this nagging unsureness in your brain. This desire for her, barred entry because of something... small. Something, very very small that isn't worth worrying about. However, one thing worth worrying about is getting to work on time... oh dear!
You glance at the clock, you are already late. But you couldn't just leave her here with no answer. However, if she knew you well enough like she claims, she would give you the space to process everything. That was the first test of her love for you supposedly.
"I'll let you go to work so you can process it." she says calmly wiping away her tears "And listen, just know that if you dont feel the same way, we can still make a really really strong friendship out of it. Because nothing will ever break us down, it just means we cant do this"
You anticipate whats coming. You go to retreat. But the shackles of your own feelings for her draws you into her face getting closer and closer as her lips purse, connecting with yours softly. She pulls away quicker than you'd've liked her too, but the smirk she displays soon after suggests that was her intention.
"That should speed up your processing, either in a negative or a positive way. Now you go out there and be you."
She really doesn't want to put any pressure on you into making any kind of decision. If thats not a sign of her love for you, then what is?
But then there is the elephant in the room. An interspecies relationship isn't unheard of in this world but, in yours, its frowned upon. Its just absurd, way too absurd. But is that what you think or what the world thinks?
A trait you've always chastised yourself on having was caring too much about what others thought of you, so concerned on that first impression or what people say behind your back. The world can be so judgemental to the point where it clouds happiness. Of course if this happened in your world it would be genuinely illegal, but you aren't in that world, you are in a world with greater values on love and friendship. You are better off with her, no matter what she is. She makes you feel worth it, lifts you up with positive affirmations, and manages to make you happy in ways that are unfathomable.
These thoughts distract you all day as you go about it. As you wait for the moment where you go home and see what you have decided in your mind unanimously, is a one in a million creature.
