My Diary, Page: 01

by Eventide100

First published May 11th, 2022 23:10

Apple Bloom has a journal. Every day she writes an entry. She writes about two ponies she barely remembers. They're long gone, but she wishes for nothing else but an opportunity to speak with them. To bad for her though, that will never happen.

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Dear, Mom and Dad

Dear, Mom and Dad
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My Diary, Page: 01

Dear, Mom and Dad

Dear, Mom and Dad

Hi... again.

It's me again, your daughter: Apple Bloom.

Today my day went amazing! You should know Mama. You should know Papa. I got my cutie mark! Me and my best friends. Scootalo and Sweetie Belle. We all helped a former bully of ours named Diamond Tie Tiara. Remember when I told ya about her. She used to be real mean. She and her friend Silver Spoon always picked on us crusaders. They'd call us blank flanks just 'cause we ain't got our cutie marks. Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara would usually bully us together but it's mostly Diamond Tiara.

Today though, me and my friends learned somethin' bout Diamond. We figured that Diamond bein' all rude to the crusaders wasn't her fault at all. Her own mother: Spoiled Rich was forcin' her daughter to act that way. Diamond Tiara though, wanted ta'be free with her own destiny. So me'n the crusaders decided to help her. And we helped her see that she doesn't have to be what her mom forces. No. She can be way kinder and amazin' than her mother.

And then in the end, when it all worked out, me and ma friends earned our cutie marks! Oh, you two would never believe it! How happy we were. To finally have what we wanted all along.

I so wish you two could have been there though. Applejack even said so, "if mom and we're here, they'd be so proud!" And I wanted to see you so I could show you.

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It... It's just not fair. How come Applejack and Big Mac get to see ya for a while and not me? I was just a baby at the time. So it's not like I'd remm remember so much.

If I ever did wanna see you, Applejack would tell me that I'd see you in ma dreams. Is a dream enough though? As soon as I wake up, it would be all gone. It would be as though I had never seen anythin' at all.

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I... I miss you... mom... dad.

Why did you two go? Why can't you come and see ma cutie mark for real? Applejack says that you CAN still see ma cutie mark. I don't believe it though. 'Cause I haven't seen ya.

You know, ma whole life, I only ever wanted ta make you both proud of me. I know you're watchin' me. I hope I made ya happy. 'm sorry if you don't like it.

I have stood up for myself. I learned ta be strong. I learned to never give up. I learned that helpin' others is more important than worryin' bout myself. I've gotten ma cutie mark. I did so many things. I made so many friends. I gave the pony that once bullied me a brighter future. I helped filles like me understand who they are. And now, I am the happiest me there has ever been. Except for one thing.

You didn't see.

You didn't see me do all that. I didn't hear ya say that you're proud of me. For other fillies and colts, I hear their parents tell them things like that all the time. Why don't I hear that from you? I always see other foals with their parents. Especially on Family Appreciation Day. I see all mums and dads comin' to see their kids. Even if I have Applejack or ma granny, they're still not my mum and dad.

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It's sad when I think 'bout it. You two are gone... and you will never come back. And it hurts me.

But even then... I still carry on with every other day. I still act as though life is pretty normal even with you gone. And I still work hard to make you proud of me. I don't think too hard on the bit where you can't see me.

I try to dream every night, and I hope to see you. Although, it hurts when you don't come. it makes me sad when I think that you might not want to see me. Yet, I have a place for the two of you in my heart because you are my parents. No matter what, my parents are still my parents.

I work hard to accomplish my big dreams. Applejack always tells me to never give up. She says that even if I'm sad or I lost something that I could never see again. She says that there is no time to feel bad. She tells me that I should just keep moving.

Would you tell me the same thing? Should I continue to be the best version of me even if I'm sad?

Ugh, it's just so frustratin' when I think 'bout all this. I keep thinkin' about makin' you guys happy but also think that ya might not want to see me.

But...

I guess I shouldn't make assumptions. You two are... In a another world now. You should know better about me than me. I know you are watchin' me. And as parents I know you are happy with me. I'm sorry for thinkin' little about you. So much.

I guess, I can still be happy... even with you gone. I can still make you happy. And when I think about it. I think you two are in a right place. You know... there are a lot of scary and evil bein's in this world. If you both are in another world... then... you wouldn't have to worry about gettin' in trouble or gettin' hurt. And then... I won't think about gettin' worried either. So will Applejack. She's already protective enough over me.

So then... I suppose it's not THAT bad that your gone. Maybe I'm sad but at least your safe. Your somewhere where I don't have to be afraid of you bein' hurt.

I just hope you two are happy with me. My big sis tells me to always keep high hopes, so I know you two are proud of me. And I will continue to make you as happy and proud as I can.

I love you.

Bye.