Sentinel of the Everfree

I know for a fact thanks to my muzzle feeling hotter than an open flame that I am blushing. Curse this stupid drake. I mean, yeah I love that he feels that I deserve kindness but… Is that really all it is? Sure it has always been a long shot that he felt anything for me but… Is it wrong to wish for him to desire me?

“Everyone deserves kindness… That's it?” Spike sputters but reluctantly nods his head. Given the way he is currently reacting I must not be keeping my emotions very well hidden. Damn it Gaia don’t make things worse…

“Well… I mean that is… That oversimplifies it a bit but -” Shaking my head I slide off of Spike and bury myself into my nest in defeat. The faint feeling of something hot and wet hitting my belly followed by Spike's gasp is the only thing stopping me from submerging entirely beneath the cushions to disappear into my own shame. This is what you get for fantasizing Gaia. You hurt yourself. It’s not his fault for not feeling anything towards you…

“Sorry if whatever I just did hurt you… But I’d very much like to be left alone now Spike.” Spike curses something under his breath and only a few moments later I feel him crawling over the cushions towards me. Why is he still here? He doesn’t see me as a potential mate or even a friend, just someone who deserves kindness… For some reason that hurts more than if he just outright didn’t feel anything for me. I’d rather him hate me than see me as someone who he should pity.

“No wait I didn’t mean it like that Gaia. I just um… Well look it's complicated but I -” Snarling, I rip my head free of the cushions and snap at the air just in front of his muzzle. Freezing instantly his eyes widen and even his wings flare out behind him.

“I said GO! I don’t want your pity! I don’t want your honeyed words to poison my ears anymore! No matter what those two sex crazed idiots and Shining like to say, I know you don’t want me, who in their right mind would… I don’t know why you even come anymore. Do you feel some sort of shame? An obligation to me because of your mothers actions?” Breathing heavily I wipe at the tears staining my face. Once my vision clears I can see Spike shaking. From the twitches of his body I know he is ready to bolt at a moment's notice.

“I um… I know only a little bit of Draconic, remember? I’m still learning but I understood at least some of what you said other than -” Growling I lash out with my tail in frustration and anger. A small wave of cushions and pillows flying away in my wake.

“In that case I will say the rest in my own tongue. I know I am overreacting in some sense, but I don’t care anymore. Over the past year I’ve fallen for you. Like a stupid lovestruck hatchling I’ve fantasized of having you as my own but… I only want to say this so that it will not fester in my heart like an untreated wound. Maybe it's actually worse for me to say it like this, a cowardice act since I know you can’t understand me? Whatever… I love you Spike Sól Vǫrðr… I just wish you felt the same for me.” Turning my back to Spike I again bury myself back into my nest until I cannot be seen, though now with a lot more shame and self disgust.

“Love… Mom would always say that to me when I was little before bed. She sang some sort of song in Draconic and though I know it wasn’t part of the song would say that at the end anyways… Wait. Love is draconic for love! You love me!?” I squeak in fear. Out of all the words, why does he know that one!?

When I don’t say anything Spike inches closer to me and actually pushes his head below the cushions with me and forces me to look at him. His stupid shining emeralds catching me better than any trap I’ve ever laid myself. No matter how much I want to turn away I can’t and only shiver and shake more. God’s above do not cry again. Do not make things worse and cry like some stupid hormonal hatchling! Fuck! Who am I kidding? I am a stupid hormonal hatchling!

“Gaia do you… Do you really love me?” I hiss softly.

“Yes.” Through some miracle I manage to squeeze my eyes shut and look away.

“You do?!” Squirming uncomfortably I nod.

“Yes…” I never get the chance to say more as all the air in my lungs is forced out when Spike buries himself under the cushions with me and squeezes me into a hug.

“YES!” What?

“What?” My voice quakes as Spike roughly shoves his snout into the nape of my neck and purrs. He fucking purrs just from holding me and being close and… No, do not purr. This is a trick. He can’t seriously -

“I LOVE YOU TOO! I've wanted to say that to you for months but… I was scared you didn't feel the same.” Keeping my eyes open is beginning to become a struggle as now I have to fight back tears of a different nature. Spike, oblivious to the fact I have to keep fighting the urge to cry, deftly maneuvers and wraps himself around me in possibly the most wonderful hug of my entire life. A year ago any attempt would be laughable but with him being only a little smaller than me now… By the ancestors he is holding me… He said he loved me and is actually holding me…

“But… Why?” Why!? You dumb bitch did you just ask why!? Just shut up and take the win!

“Why? I… Seriously? Well besides you being extremely attractive um… Well actually I hope I can say that and you won’t get mad. I mean both mom and Twilight have always said you shouldn’t talk to a female about their looks or their weight. I’ve always thought that you could completely crush my skull if I put my head between your thighs but that's technically nothing to do with your weight and… I’m shutting up now.” My heart is hammering harder than I’ve ever felt before. That's a compliment right? God’s I hope that's a compliment because I really like the idea of him between my thighs now.

“Keep talking.” Spike somehow goes pale and yet still keeps the deepest blush I’ve ever seen on a living creature at the same time.

“What?” Slowly and carefully I move my arms up and hug Spike back while I worm my tail around his lower back and pull him snuggly against me. Just as when I slid off of his chest not too long ago I feel the same hot and wet thing I did then. Only now it is squished between us and long enough to reach from his groin all the way across my stomach.

“Keep. Talking.” To emphasize my point I lick his snout in a mock kiss before pressing my snout firmly against his now wet one. At the same time I let myself purr. The deep guttural reverberations in my chest and throat are impossible to miss as anything other than my approval. Then again Spike hasn’t been exposed to Draconic customs all that long…

“P-promise you won’t get mad?” I lick Spike's snout a second time and lock my eyes with his.

“No.” Spike Squeaks softly making me giggle. In turn I purr louder and lick his snout a third time.

“Well umm… I ah, umm…” Nipping at his chin as gently as I can, Spike stops. Letting out a small sigh in defeat I nuzzle my way under his chin and curiously glance down between us to finally see what has been poking me. Oh wow…

“You win, I promise I won’t get mad. Just please… Keep talking. How and why would you want something as broken as me?” Tearing my eyes away from his very erect member before I do something stupid I manage to catch a little bit of color return to his muzzle.

“We’re all broken a little bit. Tartarus Gaia, I didn’t even know Celestia was actually my mom until a year ago when she changed form in the middle of an argument to prove a point. Not to mention the fact my egg was hatched by Twilight and the subsequent first ten years of my life was like that of a child split between divorced parents. To this day Twilight still thinks it was perfectly normal for her, a four year old filly at the time, to be my ‘mother’ during the day and then ship me back to the castle every night to Celestia for bed. Looking back at it I was in some sort of fucked up visitation enfocred by the courts.” Snorting a small puff of frost I move my head back up and rest it against the side of his.

“You're dodging the question.” Spike snorts his own puff of smoke and leans his head against my own in an identical fashion.

“And you have a startlingly good grasp on Common after only speaking it a year.” Leaning forward ever so slightly I run my tongue gently over the fins on his cheek making him shudder.

“Thanks to your mother I've been forced to learn fast. Besides… Luna did some fucked up mind magic shit to unlock memories, it kind of worked but now I'm super messed up in the head. After that I guess putting some common language in with it was a good idea they had… I've no intention of talking to her again anytime soon. Though I guess you already know that story.” Pulling back slightly I manage to get Spike to look at me long enough to press my snout against his again.

“Aunt Luna put knowledge of the Common language into your head? No wonder you swear so much.” If Spike didn’t start laughing at his own strange idea of a joke I wouldn’t have felt the need to snort a puff of frost directly into his face. Though considering my snout is literally touching him it wasn’t a good idea. Instantly he yelps and pulls away to start rubbing at the near frozen scales not covered in frost and snow.

“Shit! I’m sorry! Please don’t go!” Instead of yelling at me… He keeps laughing. Spike laughs and hugs me tighter before gently pressing his snout back against my own.

“Can I kiss you?” I can not stop the tip of my tail from Flicking. The rapid movement was actually loud enough to hear thanks to the abundance of cushions being smacked.

“Y-yes.” With little effort Spike pushes me onto my back and gently nips at my lips. Carefully I open my jaws and slowly tilt my head to the side while he tilts his the other way and then leans in to lock his jaw with mine. The feeling of his tongue actually brushing against my own is so… Strang. A taste I do not know how to describe other than ‘his’ somehow just starts to invade my senses. His scent outright enveloping my entire being and igniting a blazing fire in my chest and almost making me moan in pleasure.

At some point Spike tries to pull away but I follow him greedily and growl into his throat as he does so. Returning a growl in kind he pushes me back roughly into my nest and pins me below him. Now wrestling my tongue with him I let myself moan. A new fire now burns between my legs and begging to be quenched. It's just a kiss, calm down Gaia. DO NOT ruin this! Keep it together girl!

Without warning however Spike squeaks and starts to roughly pull away from me. Not wanting to accidentally hurt him I let go of our kiss with an admittedly pitiful whine while he struggles to untangle himself from me and instead flails around like a fish stuck on land. When he finally does get free though he looks back to me with pure terror and starts to sutter apology after apology to me all while piling as many cushions over his groin as he can.

“What? What's wrong? Did I hurt you? I'm sorry I -” Spike shakes his head frantically.

“NO! No! You're fine Gaia you didn't, well I mean you did but it wasn't really your fault and… look it's just best if I stay away until I can calm myself down.” Rolling over I move to stand up to go to him but stop when I accidentally brush against something hot sticking to my stomach. Whipping at the spot with a paw I bring it up to look at.

“What is -”

“Please don’t hurt me. I’m so sorry.” Opening and closing my mouth uselessly I try to speak but I can’t.

“I ah… Is this?” Without looking at me Spike just nods his head before hiding behind his wings. Well… At least I don’t have to feel bad about the fact I left a wet spot now.