Author's Note

A story idea I got randomly in my head. I did want to make a story about Terramar like my story about Smolder but I was like Nah, and make something different.

Eidt, changed to up a bit so it would explain more about Terramar's rape and changed that part where Terramar told Candy about cutting himself to just him making up a lie about it.

new home

The gentle rocking and shaking of the train allowed Terramar to finally relax after so long. It had only been about two hours after he left home and his thoughts of self-harm and killing himself were finally silent. He has been having those thoughts for a long while now ever since he was mugged and also raped by some random street thug.

Before the thug, he was feeling weird because for some reason others confused him for being a girl, and even some guys made fun of him for that. But after a while, he took the taunts and insults as comments and even started to crossdress in secret. But one day when he visit his dad for a month and they went on a trip to a city full of casino city with he and had to go by train, and his father accidentally took his bag before jumping in the train shower and found Terramar skirts he brought with him in secret.

Skybreak of course was confused and asked if Terramar accidentally took his sisters. But Terramar broke down and had to explain to his father how he felt more like a girl than a boy and thankfully his father understood and supported him and even embarrassed him when he joking asked Terramar what his dress size was and if he wanted one of the showgirl's outfits.

And one fateful night he was going to a sorta night auction at a theater to hopefully buy this dress from a musical that he really wanted, and that night he felt really confident ad went out in some girly clothing. But around 8:21, a time he would remember probatory for the rest of his depressing life, he cut through an alleyway to get to the theater and he remember each little detail of the time fame.

He couldn't even pass a dumpster with a feral cat eating a half-eaten pizza, and some rats running away under some boxes, he heard a couple of women having sex, somehow quietly, some crows chipping above, and the splash of a puddle as he felt the cool steel of a gun and heard.

"Scream and you're dead..." the attacker whispered hunting Terramar with those simple words

The attacker didn't stop there and kicked Terramar in the back of his legs forcing him to his knees and at gunpoint demanding all his money and valuables. Terramar was terrified for his life and took everything from his pockets and begged for mercy and his life. He remembers her laugh as he begged and remembered the look her face he remembers the bloodshot eyes and large deep cuts across her left eye and even how she made fun of him after finding out he was a boy.

After giving everything he had he begged to be let go, but the attacker hit him with the butt of her gun knocking him to the ground. The thug used some nearby rope to trap Terramar terrifying him even more as she tied his shout shut as he cried from fear and confusion. As the thug got on top and began to rip off all his clothes, the thug leaned over to Terramar's ear and she whispered in his ears.

"This, is to make sure you don't tell anyone..." the words cause Terramar's spine to freeze like a bottle of soda in a blizzard

Terramar remember how rough it was and to add insult to industry the thug made fun of Terramar on how she knew this was his first time and told him how she wouldn't make it easy. Terramar remembers after it he felt horrible and more scared for his life. The thug simply threw Terramar's torn-up clothes on him and laughed as she made more fun of him and even commented on how fun it was as he whimpered for his life. He saw the thug happily skip away like a madwoman as he just cried.

If it wasn't for a couple passing by he would've been out there bound and broken all night long. But after a trip to the hospital to get patched up and giving a report to the police of the woman who attacked and raped him...then when the thoughts and nightmares started.

The first few nights he would wake up to vomit and cry his eyes out remembering the attack. He would stay up until three to four in the morning and wouldn't wake up until tewte or one in the afternoon or not wake up until after 24 hours of sleep, probably the only time he would find himself without dreams, thought, nightmare...just nothing plain old nothing helping him sleep.

His parents were worried and had to get him some help especially after he went over to his mom's home and his father was doing some laundry and found his bed sheets with some blood on them a razor blade he hid between his box string and mattresses.

After that, they had to have a talk with Terramar and he broke down once again telling them how the pain of the cuts help him to stop thinking about the pain and trauma of the rape. His parents knew they had to get him major help and even wanted him to go to an asylum to get some help but he flat out and refused scared that he would never get to leave and he would be forced to take pills that would change his mind too much.

So they brought him to a therapist and they suggested that Terramar should leave for a while to somewhere new and far so he could try to relax so he could hopefully get past the whole ordeal and hopefully his thoughts would go away. So Terramar took the therapist's words to heart and his parents were nervous to let him go but if it would help him, they would do anything to help. So he bought a ticket to anywhere and began his journey.

Terramar looked out the window of his cabin seeing the land under the bridge and saw how there were no bodies of water far as the eye could see. He sighed and reached for his duffle bag and took out his phone and turned it on after so long seeing a bunch of texts from family, friends, and a whole more from his sister Silverstream all having his support. He sighed and even wanted to cry but his train of thought was stopped by the sound of the train whistle signing that the train would stop soon and heard the intercoms buzz to life.

"Next, stop BloodHevan."

Terramar took the ticket out of his pocket seeing that the next stop was his, he put his ticket back and sighed in relief.

"Alright, Terramar...this is your new home...maybe a few months...even a few years...but this is your home..." Terramar whispered to himself

Terramar quickly packed his bag back up and then slowly got up and almost tripped when the train began to brake. when it finally stopped he took another deep breath and took out this ticket so he could leave the train finally.

Terramar stepped out to the wooden planks of the train station and the mountain air hit him like a warm hug. He looked around to see the nice mountain village and higher up were a bunch of vibrant colored mansions and was kinda surprised to see the great number of different creatures all living together in peace.

As he took in the beauty of the town he had to grab a map at a little keisha so he could find the employment office. He started to make his way over and passed by the shops and buildings he stopped at one of the clothing stores and stopped to admire the clothing on display.

On the other side of the mirror was a really weird hyper-detailed manakin of a hippogriff wearing a blue pinafore petticoat dress and Terramar felt something in his body and it was shouting for him to get it and see the wonders and joys of wearing it. But seeing the price He knew he better gets a job first.

Terramar was nervous waiting in the lobby and saw all the other creatures like him. He already got someone to help with his resume and he didn't say much and probatory one of the only things it says he's good at is his quick learning and he was excellent at cleaning.

But he finally gave a sigh of relief when he was called back. He was led to a room where a changeling was going through some paper.

"Oh hello sir, you must be the new hippogriff in town, please sit down and we can get this going." the changeling stated

Terramar was nervous but sat down across from the Changeling and gave them his resume. Terramar saw how nervous the bug was and saw how it was always rubbing its neck as they read his paper.

"Well sir, after checking your resume...I really can't say you'll get much...but we do have an opening for a cleaning job..." the changeling mumbled

"Really?" Terramar asked, "But what kind is it?"

"Well...did you notice the mansion about higher up the mountain?" The changeling asked

"Yeah, it's kinda hard to miss them." Terramar joked, "So what is this job anyways?"

"Well...umm where is it..." the changeling mumbled

The Changeling went through their paper and dropped a couple and whimpered a bit. They bent down to grab them and Terramar noticed under the changeling's shirt collar was a metal electric collar with some crystals on them. Terramar was confused but had to focus again as the changeling finally got the papers.

"It's...it's a maid job...you know dressing up in a maid outfit and doing anything the house mistress or master says..." The changeling explained, "But you'll be working for madam "Honey", she the town's only griffin fashion designer."

"Oh, sounds fun!" Terramar exclaimed

"Really? Well, there are some rules for the job." The changeling stated, "Madam Honey, only has one maid right now, and she says each maid has to wear a tracking collar and winged creatures have to wear wing binders, and oh yeah...each maid has to sign a contract basically saying that if you steal anything of hers or try to kill her-"

"Who would want to kill her?" Terramar interrupted

"You'll be surprised at how many people want to steal her designs." The changeling answered

The changeling then grabbed the paper.

"So, do you want the-OW!!!" The changeling blurted out grabbing their finger, "Stupid, bloody paper-cut! Dang, it feels so fuck-(SIZZK) AHHH!!!!"

The changing shook a little from an electric shock and slumped back in their chair and Terramar looked terrified.

"What the hell was that?!?" Terramar exclaimed in fear

The changeling sighed and lowered their shirt collar.

"A week ago I got into a fight with a bar owner...and was very drunk...and kinda broke their nose..." the changeling explained, "And I kinda have anger problems...soo I was sentenced to pay for the bar owner's medical bills, nose surgery, repairs to their bar...the arson charges as well..."

"Arson?" Terramar questioned even more shocked

"Yeah...I kinda lit a keg on fire...oh and also the couple guys I had to pay for their stitches after I stabbed them with a beer bottle..." The changeling then sighed, "And it was either five years completely bound in a straightjacket, leg binders, and hood gag in a prison asylum...or go to anger management for nine months...pay for everything...and wear a shock collar to control my anger and give up my freedom to use my shape-shifting...and it shocks me each time my anger raise...or I swear...or have violent and homicide thoughts"

Terramar was completely shocked, "Why are you telling me all of this?"

The Changeling sighed and tapped the metal collar.

"A long with the shit-(SKIZZ) AGHH!!!" The changeling blurted out in pain again, "It doesn't allow me to lie and I have to tell the truth all the time...which sucks...because people could know anything about me...but thankfully it won't allow me to give out any of my personal information!"

Terramar was still in shock but the Changeling grabbed the papers.

"Any-whoos here you go." the changeling said handing the paper, "Just head up to her mansion and hopefully she'll hire you."

Terramar reached for the paper's and the changeling noticed when Terramar's sleeve lifted up a little they saw some cut marks on his arm.

"Hey...not to but into your life...but are you cutting yourself?" the changeling asked

Terramar froze up and thought of a lie.

"Oh, no I just fell down and scuff up my arms!" Neo exclaimed

"Oh...ok..." the changing explained, "Hey, you ok because I can see you feel off."

Terramar was confused once again.

"How do you know?" Terramar questioned

The changing sighed, "Well, you seemed off when I called you sir."

Terramar sighed himself and runner his arm in sorta embarrassment.

"Well...I really don't like being called sir...mostly...umm to be honest..." Terramar stumbled over his words, "I discovered I was trans-"

"Nuff said!" the changing cut in

Terramar was confused but the Changeling grabbed a post-it note and wrote something down and stuck it onto the paper they just gave Terramar. Terramar read it seeing it said, "Creatures big and small transgender support group, 43 Halzut-nut road Monday and Wednesdays 8 to 10".

"A trans support group?" Terramar asked

"Yeah...I started going there a couple of weeks ago when I started kinda...well feeling...ummm..." The changeling mumbled, "I started to kinda feel like I felt like a mix of a boy and girl...and I started cutting myself...because it felt good...and the knife cut my-(SKIZZ)AHHH!!!"

Their collars shocked them again and they took a deep breath.

"Oh yeah, my collar...so umm anyways just come join us sometimes...uhh mister...or miss's...." the changeling trailed off

"Just call me Terramar...and we been talking for a bit but I don't know your name." Terramar stated

"Oh, yeah...it's Candy." Candy answered

"Well, nice to meet you, Candy." Terramar reposted

The two shook hands and Candy gave him the address for miss Honey's mansion.

"Well, hopefully, I'll see you soon." Terramar said

"But hopefully not too soon." Candy joke

Terramar laughed but then left so he could hopefully start his new job and he felt really girly to become a maid.