"Come on...Come on!" Silverstream snapped to herself, "No, dairy, no hidden cut out of things you want, no piece of paper with stuff you like, magazines with things circled!"
Silverstream took great care to avoid leaving a mess as she moved around Ocellus' room. The three-month mark for when she and Ocellus initially started dating and even attended the school of friendship was coming up in approximately two weeks. Silverstream did a good job of keeping the space tidy and preventing it from appearing to have been plundered, which was simple considering how well-kept Ocellus maintained things.
Silverstream gave up and plopped down on Ocellus' bed.
"Come on... where would a beautiful buggy shut-in keep her most intense secrets?" Silverstream questioned desperately for answers, then an idea came to mind, "Wait a minute!"
Silverstream got up and looked under the bed for an answer. But all she saw were the usual things like her extra shoes, her packages of diapers she had to wear, some tubs of summer clothes, and even some boxes of her DVDs of animes she liked.
"Damn it..." Silverstream mumbled as she got on her knees and lend on the bed, "Well maybe I could get the anime figure she wanted...let's see..."
Silverstream took out her phone and was about to look it up but had no clue what the anime was. So she pulled out the tub of anime see it was mostly felt with some magical girl anime about a griffin boy getting the powers of some magical mystic deity. So she quickly looked it up for the figure.
"Ok. ok ahh here it is...and it's 3,000 BITS!!!" Silverstream blurted out almost having a heart attack
Silverstream put her phone back and took a deep breath before having an actual panic attack and giving away her position in case any of her friends heard her.
"Ok, Silverstream...where would a lovely intervened bug girl hide really, really juicy stuff that no one should know about?" Silverstream questioned to herself
She leaned on the page and heard what others normally wouldn't hear to the untrained ear the precursor sound of pages shuffling ever so quietly, she knew those sounds from the boredom she had each time Ocellus forced her to study with her. Silverstream then grabbed right under it and lifted it up to see all the BDSM magazines Ocellus hid from the world. But Silverstream let out an annoyed sigh at the sight of them because Silverstream knew that Ocellus would probably have nothing in there Silverstream could use for ideas but held the bed up with her head and started to go through them for any kind of answer.
But going through them Silverstream knew a couple of things about the changeling. One is she seems to have a taste for asylum-type bondage, two each magazine had a bunch of hippogriffs in bondage mostly female, and the ones with males in the picture were all blocked off by tape, and three Ocellus seemed to have some with changelings mostly with collars that didn't allow shape-shifting, and lastly, Ocellus seemed to book-mark pages about Female couple talking about bondage therapy and some about diaper bondage.
"O...ok...(Purr) my little buggy has some...umm unite taste..." Silverstream mumbled as she tugged nervously at her flannel collar, "But...(sigh) she could at least circle stuff in the catalogs or something like that..hmmm maybe she'll like a trip to one of these bondage spas..."
Silverstream put the magazines back and put the bed back down and made sure she re-made it. She then exhaled, annoyed at herself as she lay down on the nice cold floor.
"Come on, Silv..." Silverstream whispered to herself starting to get annoyed at herself, "It's your first and hopefully only three-month anniversary...and the last ones were pretty bad because I kept getting sick...and had no money to buy a gift for her..."
Silverstream sighed more annoyed.
"Come on, were...oh were can...I..." Silverstream trialed off
Silverstream looked forward to seeing Ocellus's doors to her closet and a connection finally come to mind.
"Ohh....yeah...her closest..." Silverstream mumbled
Silverstream got up and went over to the closest doors and quickly opened them to see well how big it was and how neat it was. She turned the light on and stepped inside and looked around and had to look through the closest Ocellus hung clothes and found two boxes hidden by a sheet.
"Huh...I wonder whats-(SLAM!!!) AHH!!!" Silverstream yelped
Silverstream turned around to see the doors shut and she gave a breath of relief.
"Oh yeah...the closest have those...those spring closing thingy-(Click)" Silverstream froze
Silverstream went over to the door and tried to turn the handle but it was locked. She wanted to slam her body against it but didn't want to break another door and she saw there was a keyhole but knew she didn't have a key to it or something to lockpick it or didn't know how to lock-pick at all.
"Oh come on out of everything that could have happened! What's next!" Silverstream blurted out and right on cue the light went out
Silverstream felt herself get angry at herself and facepalmed.
"Damn it Silv!" Silverstream snapped at herself, "Now you stuck and the minute Ocellus finds you in here...she'll probably break up with you...or kill you...probably not kill you she won't even hurt a fly..."
Silverstream turned to turn the lock and tried to pull on it but still, nothing happened. She started to get scared and it felt like the room was getting smaller and she hyperventilated. She curled up into a ball on the floor and started to think of a bunch of things.
"It's ok Silv...your not going to die in here..." Silverstream reassured herself, "And maybe Ocellus won't break up with you...maybe she'll keep you in here...as her slave...and cut out my tongue so I don't-Wow my mind goes to strange places."
Silverstream then laid down and placed her head against the two boxes covered by a sheet and heard something jingle. She was confused but got up and kneeled next to them and removed the sheet and was shocked to see they were full of golden and silver bits. She ran her hands through the piles of bits and was then full of confusion and awe.
"When did she...did she...is she rich?" Silverstream mumbled, "Maybe she won't mind if-no, no, no, no! Let me just cover this backup."
Silverstream covered the boxes again and sat back down and lend back and took her phone out seeing it run out of battery.
"Oh, come on!" Silverstream snapped, "Oh, what else could go-(Click)"
She wanted to scream but then she heard a click and she quickly covered her mouth. Carefully she crawled over to the side of the closet where a part of the wall was next to the door and carefully peeked out.
She heard something unlock and saw the dorm doorknob turn and then saw Ocellus quickly come in and slam the door behind her and quickly locked it up. Silverstream had to keep quiet as Ocellus threw her backpack on the ground and saw how anxious and worried the changing looked.
"Your fine Ocellus...your home...you're alone...you're finally safe." Ocellus reassured herself
The changing smiled and then got on her knees at her bed and quickly opened her bag and lift her bed to show her collections of magazines and was about to take something out of her bag but noticed something off.
"Uhh...that's weird..." Ocellus trailed off and began to reorganize her collection, "Why are some of my "Asylum-bind" with my "Wrapped in love" ones..."
Silverstream silently facepalms knowing how Ocellus would notice things like that out of order. But she saw Ocellus put some more magazines in her collection and then put her bed back and got up and went over to her desk. Silverstream watched how Ocellus took out some kind of box and some wrapping paper.
Silverstream looked closely at the box but couldn't see what it even said. But she saw Ocellus was about to sit down but she then sniffed the air and let out a disgusting sigh. She then lifted her skirt and felt the front of her tights and padded diaper and let out an annoyed sigh.
"Dang it...I knew I heard someone peeing earlier...Oh, I was hoping it was that baby at the bookstore..." Ocellus grumbled
Ocellus let out a worrying exhale and then Silverstream saw the glow of Ocellus's shape-shifting but was confused when she saw the changeling was the same. But she saw her go over to the bed and pull out her tub of diaper supplies and took out a changing mat and placed it on her bed and then some wipes, powder, and a fresh diaper.
Silverstream blushed but closed her eyes.
"No, no, no, no Silv don't do that!" Silverstream thought but a good one came to mind, "But...maybe I can say I came in here to see her change and that I was in her closest..."
Silverstream was nervous but another idea came to mind.
"No, no just tell her the truth..." Silverstream thought
Silverstream opened her eyes and blushed even more seeing Ocellus sitting on the mat without her skirt and tights. Silverstream wanted to look away but couldn't as she saw the lovely bug take off her wet diaper exposing her strange Manish private parts freaking Silverstream out.
"WHAT THE-!!!" Silverstream shouted out in confusion but quietly covered her mouth
"WHAT THE WHOS THERE!!!" Ocellus yelped
Silverstream knew she fucked up and whimpered in fear and sadness and a bit of confusion not knowing what to think. But she peeked out seeing Ocellus quickly change and throw out her wet padded underwear and went to the closest door and Silverstream closed her eyes with her hands but heard the click of the lock open.
Silverstream opened her eyes and saw the light turn on confusing her again but noticed that the switch was a timer switch but had to focus on the fact that Ocellus was standing there staring at her laying down girlfriend.
"S...S...Silverstream!" Ocellus stuttered
"Uhhh...heyyy...." Silverstream nervously waved trying to keep calm
Ocellus froze up but quickly stepped out and slammed the door scaring Silverstream a bit more. Silverstream shot up and tried to open the door but it was locked again and through the small cuts in the siding, she saw Ocellus crying as she paced back and forth.
"Ocellus, please let me out!" Silverstream begged
Ocellus stopped with her back at the door.
"Ocellus!" Silverstream cried out, "Please, you know how much I hate small dark areas..."
"What...what did...did you see..." Ocellus mumbled
"Ummm...what did you-" Silverstream was cut off
"WHAT DID YOU SEE!!!" Ocellus shouted turning around to let Silverstream hear her
Ocellus took a few deep breaths and cried and she knew she didn't want to be mad, she was never this ad and never that loud even at cheerleading. But her emotions got the better of her and she heard Silverstream crying a bit too knowing how much she hated when people fought and yelled. And now her own girlfriend was mad at her and Ocellus got worried for Silverstream.
Ocellus took a deep breath and went over to the closest and unlocked it to see that Silverstream was just getting done wiping her tears away on her sleeves. Ocellus walked over to her bed and moved her diaper supply away and sat on it and hugged her knees and Silverstream was nervous and walked over to her but Ocellus held up a hand.
"Silv...it's...it's probably best for you...to leave right now..." Ocellus mumbled, "Just lock it...on your way out.."
Ocellus just kept her head down and started to cry silently from a mix of fear, embarrassment, anger, and even disgust with herself. She heard the door open and then the lock click and then it closed. But she then heard the wheels on her desk chair roll over and she let out a sigh.
"(Sigh) Your not leaving until I let out my feelings?" Ocellus mumbled into her knees
"Have you met me?" a teasing voice said trying to lighten the mood
Ocellus was able to crack a smile and look up to see Silverstream sitting cross-leg on her roller chair and was ready to listen to the changeling with the never leaving smile that always showed on the hippogriffs Face. Ocellus put her legs down but grabbed one of her pillows to hug and took a deep breath.
"Oh, well...first thing first, what were you doing in my room?" Ocellus asked
"Well...our three-month anniversary is coming up...and I still needed to find you a gift..." Silverstream trailed off
"Our anniversary is going up?" Ocellus asked
Silverstream looked shocked.
"Yeah! It's next Saturday!" Silverstream exclimaed
"Oh...sorry...I was preoccupied..." Ocellus explained
"Oh...well I still needed an idea...so I kinda went through your room for any idea..." Silverstream explained and even told each part of where she searched, "And after checking your secret hidden not so secret or hidden bondage magazines and after not finding anything in that...I then went into your closet...and then got locked in..."
Ocellus listened to every word and got embarrassed at the talk about her magazines.
"Yeah...sounds about right...and also sounds like you..." Ocellus answered
"Yeah, yeah...(Inhale) Soo not to make a bad joke..." Silverstream trailed off, "But can we talk about...the elephant truck in the room...heh...heh...ohh not the best time..."
Silverstream blushed in embarrassment at her bad joke but Ocellus laughed. Even in the worst of times Silverstream always seems to find a way to get the changeling laughing and Ocellus always seems to get happier after it.
"No, no it's pretty funny...but umm...ughh..." Ocellus began to grumble
"Just take your time." Silverstream reassured
"Well ummm...when I was born...I was born...well...a boy...with extra x-chromones..." Ocellus explained
Silverstream looked shocked and Ocellus let out a very relaxed sigh and even lend followed a bit in her relaxed state.
"You...you don't know how long I wanted to tell someone that..." Ocellus mumbled
"Wait...I have kinda seen you...with your...underparts showing...like when you last your swimwear and swim-nappie in the lake..." Silverstream cut in
"Yeah, helps when you're a change-ling...and Silv...I'm...I'm-" Silverstream held up her claws cutting off Ocellus
"It's fine...you don't have to be sorry." Silverstream said, "So continue."
"Well....when I was growing up...I began getting a girly body...colors...and even voice..." Ocellus anxious explained, "And when I was six...I started crossdressing...I think and my family was only amused by the idea..."
"Why were they "Amused"?" Silverstream asked
"I don't know...I think they don't think I'm...I'm serious about the way I feel..." Ocellus mumbled
"WHAT!!!" Silverstream snapped, "Who do those people think they are?!?"
"My parents..." Ocellus whispered
"Oh...yeah rrrright...." Silverstream grumbled, she rubbed the back of her neck and seemed nervous, "Soo, where you ever going to tell me?"
Ocellus lowered her head and let out a small sigh.
"Well...maybe after next week..." Ocellus answered
"Whatcha mean?" Silverstream asked
Ocellus let go of her pillow and laid back on her bed and Silverstream hopped the chair over and almost fell a couple of times but go up right next to Ocellus's bed. Ocellus took a deep breath and sat up to look at her girlfriend.
"Well...since you were locked in my closet...I bet you saw my boxes of money?" Ocellus asked
"Yeah...it was a lot of money!" Silverstream exclaimed
"Yeah...when I was five I found out about sex changes...and after learning how much it would cost...I deiced to save up every single bit of...well bits I ever got...and next Saturday...I'll finally...finally get the surgery..." Ocellus shyly explained
Silverstream was silent and after a couple of seconds of quiet Ocellus started to tear up worrying Silverstream.
"Hey, hey hey no need to cry!" Silverstream reassured
"I'm...(Sniff) I'm fine..." Ocellus cried, "Just...just soo...good to tell someone..."
Silverstream used her arms to move from the chair to the bed and then hugged the crying bug, she heard Ocellus whimper in surprise but purred in relief.
"That....feels better...more than a self-hug..." Ocellus whispered
"What are you talking about?" Silverstream asked
Ocellus started to blush and even hum in embarrassment.
"Let...let me show you..." Ocellus trailed off
Silverstream let go of Ocellus so she could go over to her closet. Ocellus opened it back up and quickly went through her hanging clothes and took out a blue flannel, Silverstream realized it was the same one she gave Ocellus when she forgot to wear a sweater during a cold fall day.
"Heyyy...isn't that the same flannel I gave you?" Silverstream questioned
"It is...soo...it's why I did this to it." Ocellus said
Ocellus brought it over and Silverstream noticed it was inside out but saw Ocellus take the hanger off and flip it out the right way, the pink hippogriff was surprised once again seeing that her girlfriend made it look like a straightjacket.
"When we first meet...and hugged...it was probatory the first time I felt a hug that was genuine and the only loving one I ever felt..." Ocellus shyly explained
"It was...wow...so why the straightjacket?" Silverstream asked, "Was my hug so loving it made you crazy for me?"
"(Giggle) No...no...(Sigh)...when I was seven I had a mental breakdown from some bullies beating me up and making fun of me." Ocellus explained, "...and couldn't really do anything...and when someone touched me or tired to talk to me...I would scream, cry out in fear, and even scratch anyone who would get close...soo my parents sent me to a mental hospital...and there I was put in a straightjacket..."
Ocellus took a quick breath and played with one of the belts on the straightjacket.
"I felt safe in it...and secure...and finally relaxed..." Ocellus stated, "And when I got older...I started reading all those magazines...and kinda wanted to buy a proper one...but didn't want to spend any money until after my surgery...soo I read this article about DIY bondage...and made this."
Ocellus put her DIY-straightjacket down and sat back down next to Silverstream.
"Soo...Ocellus...how do you feel?" Silverstream asked
"Well...better...much better...but I....I still feel horrible for lying to you for so long!" Ocellus exclaimed
Silverstream sat there and put her leg in a cross-leg and held her head in her hands like she was deep In thought. Silverstream then took her phone out but forgot she ran out of battery.
"Dang it, if only my phone was charged..." Silverstream mumbled
"Did you accidentally turn it all the way off in your pocket again?" Ocellus asked
Silverstream blushed and held down the power button seeing her phone come back to life.
"Oh, hehe oh yeah it does that..." Silverstream trailed off
Silverstream held down the power button seeing it come back to life. The second it loaded up she quickly opened up her picture gallery with a warm smile on her face.
"Ocellus, let me show you something that will make you feel a lot better." Silverstream stated
Silverstream found what she was looking for and turned her phone to show Ocellus. Ocellus was confused at first and even more seeing a picture of a young orange and red hippogriff boy with his teeth firmly chomped down on a back of a wooden chair with his body hanging and his eyes cross-eyed out like a lizard.
"Who's that?" Ocellus asked, "This some meme you found...or is this one of your family members?"
"Nope...actually this little guy...was me." Silverstream explained
Ocellus's face looked shocked and confused.
"What?" Ocellus asked blankly
"Well...I was born a boy...and my parents named me Blaze." Silverstream explained but Ocellus saw how her expression turned from her happy-go-lucky look into one of sadness, "But...when it got close to my little brother's hatching day...I wanted to get him a gift...so me and my dad and took a train ride to the big city so I could find the perfect one...we went to a big old plushie store and I got away from my dad to look...and found the perfect one...but got lost and I was too shy to ask for help..."
"Wait, is this story true?" Ocellus cut in
"Huh, yeah why?" Silverstream asked
"Because I never knew you for one to be shy." Ocellus teased trying to lighten the mood
"Hehehe...yeah I was shy...and scared to do a lot of things..." Silverstream explained, "And after I got lost...a couple of hippogriff teens offer to help me out...and I was a fool to trust them...because they also offer me some candy to calm me...and...and next thing I knew...I blacked out and woke up in a small leather trunk..."
Ocellus saw how anxious and scared Silverstream looked and so she grabbed her hand and it seemed to calm her down.
"Wh...what happened after that?" Ocellus asked
"Well...I was there for days...and...and...I remember being tossed around and was put in a train..." Silverstream explained, "Being stuck there...gave me my Claustrophobia...and those boys locked me in their basement...but looking out their window I saw I was home in mount-aires...somehow..."
Silverstream began to tear up and Ocellus didn't know what to say to calm her.
"And...and they...they used me for their...their sick games..." Silverstream cried, "And after weeks of that...that torture I was finally happy when I passed out from the pain...I finally woke up in a hospital bed with my dad there beside me..."
Ocellus felt Silverstream tease up her hand squeezing the changelings hand tightly.
"After a few days being there...I could go home...be with my family and even...even be with my new baby brother..." Silverstream cried, "But those weeks left me scared...and I just felt disgusted in my body...and each time I saw my reflection I would try to punch it...break almost every mirror and window...ad blamed it on me tripping...but when I tried to headbutt a fork...that when my parents got worried..."
Silverstream let go of Ocellus's hand and started to hug her knees.
"I told them...how I didn't like myself anymore...and didn't even want to be alive..." Silverstream cried, she took a deep breath and got relaxed, "But...they asked me if I wanted to change myself...and I said yes...so we went to do this magic spell with the help of some unicorns...and after that, I went from being Blaze the shy broken boy...to me...Silverstream a happy, kind, loving girl..."
Ocellus still didn't know what to say but she hugged Silverstream.
"I'm...I'm so sorry that happened to you..." Ocellus mumbled
"Hey, hey it's fine...but how are you feeling?" Silverstream asked
"Better...you?" Ocellus questioned
"Good..." Silverstream responded hugging Ocellus back
Silverstream then heard her phone go off and took it out seeing it was just a notification from a game but saw the time was almost seven.
"Wow, it's almost dinner time!" Silverstream exclaimed, "Wanna get something to eat?"
"Yeah, sounds nice right now..." Ocellus said
They stopped hugging and Silverstream got up and stretched and Ocellus had a sudden thought come to mind.
"Hey...Silverstream?" Ocellus asked
"Huh, yeah hon?" Silverstream asked
"Well...umm thanks for helping me out...but after all this...do...do...do you still love me?" Ocellus anxiously asked with hidden hurt in her voice
"Celly, Celly, Celly...if I didn't why would I stay and help you get out your feeling and even tell you about my...dark past..." Silverstream stated
Ocellus smiled at the answer and got up too and grabbed her DIY-straightjacket and folded it up and placed it on her bed.
"Just going to save that for later." Ocellus mumbled
"Aww, why don't I give you a hug all night?" Silverstream teased
"(Giggle) Because a certain pink dork needs to study for her girlfriend's gift...uh oh..." Ocellus whispered in fear
"What!" Silverstream snapped, "Me, a Dork? Well, then I hope you like these dorks hugs!"
"SILV NO!!!" Ocellus shouted
Silverstream just grabbed Ocellus hugging her tightly to the point it even tickled the bug not allowing her the time to focus on shape-shifting.
"Silv please you're going to make me pee!" Ocellus pleaded
"Nope, not until you say who the dork is!" Silverstream teased
Silverstream hugged her tighter and Ocellus started to laugh out loud.
"OK, OK I'M THE DORK I'M THE DORK!!!!" Ocellus shouted
Silverstream giggled and put Ocellus down letting her breathe.
"Alright, alright I'm going to change...hey Celly whos that box for?" Silverstream asked pointing to the desk
"Oh, OH that's a gift for my mom....for her birthday." Ocellus lied
"Oh, cool...well just meet me at the front of the school and we'll go to whatever place you want my treat!" Silverstream exclaimed
Silverstream hummed and left the room and Ocellus sighed in relief. she when over to the desk and grabbed the box opening it up to see the small ruby and diamond necklace. She remembered how she and Silverstream first came across it in a sorta scavenger hunt for a school project and Silverstream just loved it and even drooled on it getting her banned from the store.
Ocellus looked at the box even seeing the drool stains still there and then thought of something. She quickly wrapped it up and took out some paper to write a card and simply wrote, "Thank you, for always making me feel like the true me!".
"Yeah...she's going to love this..." Ocellus whispered getting
A couple of tears fall out from her eyes still feeling the love Silverstream gives her, real genuine love and the warmth of someone that actually listens to her and actually and truly loves her.
