Evening Star works a job at the library. She spends her day re-reading the same books and being ignored by her annoying roommate. She dreams of being important and having friends. When Ponyville is menaced by an escalating series of attacks from the Everfree Forest, she's finally able to prove herself by being helpful to the Bearers of the Elements and Princess Starlight Glimmer.

But when her research forces her to confront her shadowy past, she realizes that some questions are better left unanswered and there are worse things than loneliness and boredom.

This is a revision of a story on Hiatus, called Mimetos written by flipwix. It will divert in several aspects but is inspired by the concept behind that story. WARNING: Does not contain actual suicide but contains in-depth discussion of suicidal ideation, along with anxiety, OCD and self-loathing.