Author's Note

Just a warning, this chapter contains implied/directly referenced self harm so if you don't like that stuff then yeah...

Don't read or just gloss over it I guess!

Chapter 3, A New Life. (Part 3, Blake)

C'mon Blake, you've done this before. It's not that hard… Just get it done and over with…

Blake traced the edge of his wings with the scissors blades… Pegasi, to put it bluntly, were rather frail and weak physically, their wings even more so. It probably didn't help that Blake was already both of those things, even before the event.

The scissor blades drew closer and closer, and…Snip- He couldn't do it. The simple thought of his precious feathers getting cut off like that scared him.

But why? He's done this before… This was the only way he could- No, they wouldn't want this. He didn't want this either.

Heh… He shouldn't even be alive right now, but still he had a burning desire inside of him, a burning desire to live, no matter what.

He was conflicted. He wanted to live, but at the same time he wanted to die more than nothing.

Now wasn't he just pathetic…? Craven liar he is. He needed some time to think about this. Maybe a quick walk would help.

Blake put the scissors down and carefully tiptoed(hoofed?) out of the rv that served as their temporary home, didn't want to wake Adrian up after all. Y'know, the more Blake thought about it the more embarrassing it was to be living with Adrian of all people.

It was only temporary but maybe he'd ask Bliss or Alex if he could move later. For now he just had to get out of here.

Where was he going? He didn't know. Just somewhere, anywhere… This was the perfect time, it's late and nobody was up. That's what Blake thought at least.

He walked for a bit until he came across a spot that was relatively out in the open with a tree for some nice shade. Perfect… Now he could-

But before he could relax for even a bit Blake jumped up at what he saw with a certain "youknowwho" doing the same. Alyssa… The same damn mare, again. Did the world have something against him or something?

"What are you doing here?" God, he almost gave her a heart attack.

Meanwhile Blake's thoughts were less than pleasant, as always. "I should be asking you the same thing." Really, he should. He thought everyone was asleep at this time, why the heck was she up?

"O-Oh Yeah… Well, sometimes I just like to come here to get some time to myself." Pretty much the same reason Blake had, they both wanted to just get some peace and quiet for once. Hm. Maybe they had more in common than he thought. Nah… He doubted it.

Alyssa watched as Blake reluctantly sat down right next to her. She wasn't gonna ask him about what the heck that was back at dinner. If there was something going on with him that she didn't know about, then it wasn't her business, that's all.

Besides she didn't want to scare him off, she needed someone to talk to. Especially with how distant Em- Bliss was acting lately.

"So…." Well, this was awkward. She didn't know what to talk about and Blake definitely wasn't the one to strike up a conversation. That's it! How about… "Stars are beautiful aren't they?"

Blake just looked at Alyssa blankly. What kind of "conversation topic" was that supposed to be? "You like stars? That's surprising…" He thought she only liked music and that guitar of hers, or whatever she did in her free time.

Alyssa didn't take that well… What the heck was that supposed to mean? He didn't really think that she- "I like more than rock music, okay!?" She was trying to hide her obvious flusteredness.

Blake was rather unamused by the whole thing.

Well, uh-! She'd show him! Uh- Um- Like, "Look." Alyssa pointed a hoof up the starry night sky, trying to direct Blake's attention to a constellation. But honestly, she did kinda like stars. What's not to like about them? They're pretty, radiant, beautiful… "Centaurus, the constellation of Chiron, a legendary archer and great hero!"

No reaction. Oh, come on! Did he not have a single funny bone in his body or something? Seriously… "Could you try to lighten up a bit?"

"Uh-huh." Well sorry for finding that of all things funny. Still, she was kinda right. It wouldn't hurt to smile from time to time.

Ugh… Look at him, letting Alyssa soften him up like this…

Alyssa went silent for a moment. "Y'know, you kinda remind me of my brother." Same age, he sort of acted like him. "You kinda look like him too, if he was y'know a pony."

Huh? Now exactly did she see him as? "I'm not a stand in for your brother." Blake certainly hoped that it wasn't what he thought it was.

Alyssa definitely didn't mean for him to take it like that. "What, no! I didn't mean it like that…"

It would kinda be nice though, her new big brother, Blake. It's got a nice ring to it. Akira… "You just remind me of him, that's all."

Blake just responded with a quick "Sure…"

Actually, she took that back. Blake was nothing like him, Akira would definitely never be this cold to her.

It was funny, because Blake felt a similar way too. "Actually, you kinda remind me of someone too."

Alyssa looked at Blake, confused on what he meant by that. "Really?"

"Yeah, an old friend of mine." Blake said with a nod. Someone from a distant past.

"I see…" Alyssa didn't say anything more than that. She didn't want to press Blake since just like her brother, that person was most likely long gone by now. And again, she didn't want Blake to run off.

Blake turned his attention to the night sky laid before him. Huh, she was kinda right. Stars are pretty.

Magic, other worlds… Only a couple months ago this would've all seemed ridiculous, it's funny really.

Would things get better or worse from here? Only time will tell… Isn't that right, Nadine, Matthew?

After about a couple hours or so, the two said their goodbyes or "Bye!" if you're Alyssa, and headed back.

The night passed, and the morning came.

Today was the day. There… That should be the last of the luggage.

The only ones going were the people Blake "assigned." Bliss, Alex, Joseph, Jonathan, Moriah, and Madeline. Honestly, It probably would've been better if they had a more number of people, like say six instead of twelve.

Oh whatever, what can you do…?

The rest of them were staying behind, just in case something happened while they were gone. Either way, its not like they were going anywhere far, this was just a quick trip downtown, that's all.

"Come back safe!" Both Alyssa and Sky cried.

Bliss and Alex looked at them with a smile as they both waved goodbye. "We will!'

And with that they were off.